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SelectionsfromtheExegesisPhilipK.Dick

Alloftheselectionsarepublishedhereforthefirsttime.

TheExegesisisafree roamingaffairasanightlyjournaldevotedtotheexpressionofonesinmost

(andever changing)thoughtsonthelargestandmostperplexingissuesoflifewouldnaturallybe.

Carefulselectionsserveitwell,forthereiswithinitmuchrepetition,muchfretfulworryingoverpast

crisismomentsinhislife,manyfutilestabsatinsight,andoccasionalboutsofpettinessandspleen.Atits

best,however,theflightsoftheExegesisthroughimpossiblypossibleworldsareremarkable.

FromtheExegesis(c.1975)

Thearchitectofourworld,tohelpus,camehereasourservant,disguised,totoilforus.We

haveseenhimmanytimesbutno[one]recognizedhim;maybeheisuglyinappearance,butwitha

goodheart.Perhapssometimeswhenhecomesherehehasforgottenhisownorigin,hisgodly

power;hetoilsforusunawareofhistruenatureandwhathecoulddotousifheremembered.For

onething,ifwerealizedthatthiscrippled,misshapenthingwasourcreator,wewouldbe

disappointed.Wouldrejectanddespisehim,butofcourtesytoushehideshisidentityfromuswhile

here.

Onecanseefromthisthatthatwhichwekickofftoonesideoftheroad,outoftheway,

whichfeelsthetoeofourbootthatmaywellbeourGod,albeitunprotesting,onlyshowingpainin

hiseyes,thatold,oldpainthatheknowssowell.Inotice,though,thatalthoughwekickhimoffto

onesideinpain,wedolethimtoilforus;weacceptthat.Weaccepthiswork,hisofferings,hishelp;

buthimwekickaway.Hecouldrevealhimself,buthewouldthenspoilourillusionofabeautifulgod.

Buthedoesntlookevil,likeSatan;justhomely.Unworthy.Also,althoughhehasvastcreativeand

buildingpower,andjudgment,heisnotclever.Heisnotabrightgod.Oftenheistoodumbtoknow

whenhesbeingteasedorinsulted;ittakesphysicalpain,ratherthanmerescorn,toregister.Ugly

likethis,despisedandteasedandtormentedandfinallyputtodeath,hereturnedshiningand

transfigured;ourSavior,JesusChrist(beforehimIkhnaton,Zoroaster,etc;Hefestus[orHephaestus]).

WhenHereturnedwesawHimashereallyisthatis,notbysurfaceappearance.Hisradiance,his

essence,likeLight.TheGodofLightwearsahumbleandplainshellhere(likeametamorphosisof

somehumbletoilingbeetle).

SFnovel:HefestusasVALIS(VastActiveLivingIntelligenceSystem].TheEarthlikeSt.Sofia

isanorganism,alivingone,beingbuilt,aTemplethatwhenitisreadytheLordwillsuddenlycome

toanddwellin.HeHimselfiscreator:architect.Workmen/artisans/artists:UsandHolySpirit. Ideal

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Christ,tobeachieved.Themodelonceglimpsedthentobestrivenforandreached,atwhich

timeArchitect(Creator),HolySpirit,andIdealbecomeOne,whichincludesuswithinitasbits.

Creator:timepast.HolySpirit:timeis.Christ:timecompleted.HolySpiritguidesustowardHim.

ForceisprovidedbytheCreatoratthestart.Force/activity/directiontogoal.

c.1976

ThevictoryofChrist(asLordoftheCosmos)overastral(planetary)determinismisbetter

expressed,forustoday,bysaying,Itisthecomingintobeingofathinkingcosmosreplacingamerely

deterministic,causal,unthinkingmechanismoffateorblindchance.Thusthecharacteristicsofthis

newbodyororganismwouldbethat,ifperceivedbyoneofus,itwouldseemtobealivingcreature

ofcosmicsize,wisdom,scope,andpower,infiltratingthenatural(i.e.deterministic)orderofnature.

This,whenIsawValisorZebra,ispreciselywhatIsaw.Thereforeitisevidentithattheprocessof

transubstantiationofthedeterministicastralmechanismintoalivingbodyorentityisfar

progressed.WhatIsaw,then,wasnoneotherthanthecosmicChrist.Beneaththeirunchanged

outwardappearances,naturalprocesses(i.e.causalprocesses)aretosomeextent,adecisiveextent,

purposeful,conscious,andbenign,andorganizedtofulfillacoherentplan.Thepalpablerevelationof

thisisthesupremerevelation.Forinstance,itinterveneddecisivelyinhumanhistoryin374on.All

thatremainsisforthesecondincarnationtooccur;i.e.theveilto;drop,GodsWisdomtoappear

openlyhere,thatallmaybeawareofitandacknowledgeit.PerhapswhatIsawwasapreview,and

eventuallyeveryonewillseeasIsaw,andwhatIsaw,in374.

Hewillnotmerelyruletheuniverse;hewillalsobetheuniverse.WhatIsaw,then,wasanapocalypse(disclosure)oftheinvisibleParousia,thePresencethatisnowhere.Atthispoint,an

apocalypseisstillneeded,becausetheParousiaisstillhidden.

TheroleinmylifeofthewholeCP,Sovietthingwasthatitwas,forme,theastralof

deterministicpower,whichChristbrokebyhisintervention.Coulditbesaidthatin374Christ

interferedwiththegenericcodingthathadprogrammedmetodieatthattime?Thatthis(genetic

coding)isamoderntermforatleastoneaspectof(astral)determinism?Mygenepool(DNA)

memoryfiredopenedup;Iknowthat.AndIamreasonablysureIwasprogrammed,atleast

internally,todie(ofcardiovascularproblems).Therealsomayhavebeenexternaldeterministic

deathdealingfactorsthatheabortedaswell.Thisisamodernmodelforwhattheancientscalled

sublunarorplanetaryorastralinfluences.Thiswouldexplainmyretrievaloflongterm(gene

pool)memory;thewholesystemeitheropeneduporwasopenedup.Mysensethatit(theXerox

letter)hadhappenedbeforeshowsthekarmalikequalityofsuchgeneticprogramming.Thetechnical

theologicaltermforthisisGodsgrace.ButtoappreciatethevalueofGodsgrace,thisentire

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comprehended.Itisavast,nearlyallencompassingsystemfromwhichfewareextricatedduringthis

lifetime.

ThepartofmyMarch18,1974experiencethatpreciselydelineatesitashavingbeenof

Christ,ascomparedtoGodortotheHolySpirit,was(1)thatittookplaceatthevernalequinox,and

(2)mostofall,thesoundoftheEasterorMagicbells,whicharespecificallyidentifiedwithChrist.

ItwasinducedbytheHolySpirit,anddidshowtheKingdomofGod,withthepresenceofGod.But

thehoneycombedcorpusthatIfoundmyselfwithinthatwasCorpusChristi,themysticalbodyof

whichChrististhehead,andweofthecongregationtheparts.ThisisalsoHagiaSophiaandalsothe

King(whoiscomingtorule).HenceIthoughttheotherday,IampartoftheKing.Vide Collosians

1:13orwhateverthatcitationis[1:1314],Christasmakerandlordof( Pantokrator)theuniverse.

HenceIfeltjoywhenIrealizedIdseentransubstantiationoftheobjects(ofthealley)aroundme;I

wasontherighttrack:

Christsinvisible(normally)body.HencethedreamoftheMandarinoldChineseking,wisebutlackingpower.ThiscontrastsChristversusGod;thedreamwastoclarifythisdistinction(vide

doctrineoftheTrinity).ThatwasnotanimageofGod,whowouldhavepower,butratheranimageof

thewise,powerlessking,whoisChrist.

Nonetheless,IthinkSpinozaiscorrectinhisconceptofGodasimmanent,thattheuniverse

isalive,thatGodpossessestheattributeofphysicalextension,thatmind,matter,andenergyare

threeattributesormodesofHisBeing...thereisnoproblemformebecauseIamaTrinitarian.Itis

onlymoreprecisetosaythatIfoundmyselfwithin,asapartof,themysticalbodyofChrist,rather

thanofGod.Also,weknowfromScripturethatthereissuchamysticalbody( Collosians,supra).No

radicaltheologywouldberequired,onlythisknowledge.Nowonderitseemssenselesstomewhen

someonesays,Christwasaman,likeourselves.Also,nowonderIamattractedtoPereTeilhardde

ChardinsconceptoftheplasmaticChrist(CorpusChristi).

Too,thismaybewhymyfinalphosphenesetgroundexperiencewastheGoldenRectangle

orpylonentrancedoorway.Iamtheway.ItwouldappearthattheICCiscorrect,thatthewritten

textoftheNewTestamentisincomplete.Youarebaptized.TheSpiritcomestoyou.Whatthen?Then

youexperienceyourselfaspartofthemysticalCorpusChristi,whichPaulspeaksofin Collosians.

ReunitedwithChrist,withHisgrowingresurrectedlightbody.Takenintoit(whichisnotthesame

astheKingdomofGodarrivingonEarth,theParousia).Thiswasthesecretofsecrets,andwas

forgottenaftertheRomanskilledthemanddestroyedtheoraltradition.Onecouldcommunewith

Christagain(orHagiaSophia,videSpinoza).Oneimportantdifferencethatsuggestsitselftome

betweenbeingpartofthebodyofGod(asinSpinoza)andpartofthemysticalCorpusChristiisthat

thefirstwouldbepuremysticalperception,andthateverythingtruly,ifperceivedright,belongstoit;

thisisanelevationofperceptiononly,howeverimportant.Butthelatteris,sotospeak,byinvitation


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only,belongingonlytothecongregation.Itismorethanperception,itisanenteringinwhichnot

all(Ipresume)sharein.Perhapsthatswhythatthelatterwouldseemmorevaluable;itwould

meannotjustthatIsawwiththeWisdomofGodbutthatIwastakenbyHisyoke,sotospeak,to

joinHis(Christs)mysticalbody,whichismore;thefirstjuststatesactuallywhatis,oneisnot

welcomed,everythingis.Onehasnotbeenjudgedorsoughtout.ButIsawthehotelregisterwheremynamewaswrittenandsoforth.Iwasjudged;Ifeltthat.

AndInowthinkbroughtintotheCorpusChristi.Also,toperceiveanimmanentGod,thatthe

materialuniverseisthesoma[Greek:body]ofGod,andthereisMindbehinditaswellthisdoesnt

supplyanybasisforbelievinginanafterlife,foranythingnextorbeyondinthatdirection;whereas

themysticCorpusChristidoes.Itisademonstrationoftherealityoftheresurrection,whichthe

formerisnt;theformerisgreat,though,inasmuchasitdemonstratestherealityofGodand

theologicalpurpose;itmustnotbeputdown.Thelattergivesmorepersonally.

ThiswouldbewhyIfeltIwasreceivingfromahidden(occult)brotherhood,representedby

armedknights...theknightsofthegrail,sotospeak.Andthecontentofmyexperience:Iwasshown

specificallytheChristianbrotherhoodtopplingRome, now.Thesiegeofusprisonersbeingliftedby

thebodyofarmoredknightsonhorsebackattheouterwalls.ThemysticalbodyofChristofwhich

wearepartsandheistheheadthiswouldbeasortofmidwayconceptofthesource,standing

betweenpuremysticalperceptionofimmanentGod(alaSpinoza)andastrictlyhumanwisdom

(gnostic,AMORC,RomanCatholic,etc.)brotherhood.Theheadisdivine( theos),themembersareof

thehumancongregation.Itspresenceisactuallyhere(now),inandonourworld,inoursociety,

makingchanges(therocktornnotbyhumanhandsandhurledatthestatue,asinDaniel).(AndIdid

hear,hypnogogically,IampartoftheKing.)Palmercrossedpalmtrees.PalmtreesareaChristian

symboloftheHolyLand;whatIsawin275,then,isavisionoftheHolyLand.Ididnotgo(journey)

toit;itcametome.Iwasalreadyseeingapalmtree(liketheAfrikaKorpspalmtreeemblem)inthe

FISHsign,monthsbefore.Thepalmersign,perhaps. Inhocsigno,etc.[Inhocsignovinces:Inthissign

weconquer.]Again,wehaveheresymbolsspecificallyofChristianity,ratherthanofGodperse(as

distinguishedfrom).Also,abuildingintheHolyLand,withRomanesquearches.Memoryofthe

SacredOther,fromitsformerlife?AbuildingwheretheWhiteBrotherhood(etc.)met?The

significanceofmyseeingthismightbe:Mysearchisover.Ihadreachedmydestination,theendof

myjourney.(And,verysoonafter,thevoiceofSt.Sophiadimmedawayentirelyfrommymind.The

onefullyear,fromvernalequinoxtovernalequinox,hadevidentlyended.)Itallmustberegardedas

asearchingforandafindingof(videthequestrepresentedinmyvariousnovels).

c.1976

IAmaLivingAnimal,TiedtoaDyingSoul.


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1. TheGreeksconsideredrealityveiled(bydokos[Greek:deception],e.g.Parmenides).2. TheHindusconsiderrealityveiled(byMaya,whichwegenerateourselves,butwhichalso

Kalispins)(cf.HeinrichZimmer[notedIndologist]).

3. Calvinconsideredusblinded,thatoncewecouldseewhatisreallythere,butwerepunished(thisdovetailsalittlewithEmpedoclesandwithCastaneda,withshamanismingeneral,andhencewiththemysteryreligions,e.g.,Dionysos).

4. AugustineconsideredtheCityofGodmingledwiththeCityofEarthsoastomakethemindistinguishabletousnow;butattheParousia,theywillbeseparated(tooursenses).

Zoroasterbelievedas4.Good(AhrimanandAhuraMazda,thelightanddarkblended;butatthe

FinalDay,thetwoportionswouldbevisiblyseparate).

Allaredealingwiththeproblemofphenomenologyofaccidentversusessence:

KantsDingansich[thinginitself].Thiscrumblingpageant.6.Ioncesawappearance,then

briefly(fivedays)assimilatedtheobjectsofperception(noetically)andthenreturnedtoordinary

perceptionofappearance,thereflectionofreality(Plato,Paul,etc.).Myexperienceprovesthatall

viewsthatweseeonlyareflectionfromthebottomofapolishedmetalpanarecorrect,FOR

WHATEVERREASON,thelatterbeingindoubtonly.Ididnotsee;thenIsaw;thenIdidnotseeagain

(exactlyasPaulsays).Whythefirst?Whythesecond?Whythereturnofthefirst?Teilhardsviewof

anevolutionarystepforward?Oranamnesis,restorationoflostfaculties(Calvin)?Orcoiled,cyclic

time?Moebiusstriptime?

Ischange(Dionysos,metamorphosis)real?Heraclitus/ChristTeilhardOr:Isunchange(Apollo,

thehealers)real?Parmenides,JahwehIsthesearchitselfthegoal(asissaid)?

MyGollanczspeech[Man,Android,andMachine(1976),includedinthisvolume]isinsanebut

true.AndIknewmorethen,noetically;whatIvereadsincebearsitout.Themadmanspeaksthe

moralofthepiece.Ifwedeceiveourselves,why?Ifsomeone/somethingelsedeceivesus,thenwhy

andalsowho?Wachtauf![Wakeup!]Brahmin(it,nothe).Itdreams,andnowwakes,oritwas

awake,andnowfallsasleep;Ithinkitiswaking.TheuniverseorganismoftheGreekphilosophers:It

wakesandsees.Cells,formingaGreatBrain.Beesinahive.Risingnowtoconsciousness.Ofwhat?

Itself?Therearenoanswers,onlymysteries(notquestionsbutmysteries:secrets.Sacredsecrets,

notdisclosedtous.Butnotbywhom?Well,whenIwoke,thosefivedays, changewasreal:aprocess.

Cosmogenesis(Teilhard).Toward.Omega.

OutlineinAbstractFormofaNewModelofRealityUpdatingHistoricModels,inParticular

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Itispropertosay:Weappeartobememorycoils(DNAcarrierscapableofexperience)ina

computerlikethinkingsystemthat,althoughwehavecorrectlyrecordedandstoredthousandsof

yearsofexperientialinformation(knowledge,gnosis),andeachofuspossessesasomewhatdifferent

depositfromalltheotherlifeforms,thereisamalfunctionafailureofmemoryretrieval.There

liesthetroubleinourparticularsubcircuit.Salvationthroughgnosismoreproperlyanamnesis(thelossofamnesia)althoughithasindividualsignificanceforeachofusaquantumleapin

perception,identity,cognition,understanding,worldandselfexperience,includingimmortalityit

hasfurtherandmoretrulyultimateimportanceforthesystem(structure) asawhole,inasmuchas

thesememories(data)areneededorvaluabletoit,andtoitsoverallfunctioning.Thereforeitisin

theprocessofselfrepair,whichincludes:rebuildingoursubcircuit(world)vialinear andorthogonal

timechanges(sequencesofevents),aswellascontinualsignalingtousbothenmasseand

individually(tousreceivedsubliminallybytherightbrainhemisphere,whichgestaltsthe

constituentsofthemessagesintomeaningfulentities),tostimulateblockedneural(memory)banks

withinustofireandhenceretrievewhatisthere.Theadventitiousinformationofgnosis,then,

consistsofdisinhibitingmessages(instructions),withthecore(main)contentactuallyintrinsicto

usthatis,alreadythere(firstobservedbyPlato,thatlearningisaformofremembering).

Theancientspossessedtechniques(sacramentsandrituals)usedlargelyintheGreco

Romanmysteryreligions,includingearlyChristianity,toinducefiringandretrieval,mainlywitha

senseofitsrestorative(repairing)valuetotheindividuals;theGnostics,however,andManicorrectly

sawtheontologicalvaluetowhattheycalledtheGodheadItself(i.e.thetotalentity).

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(Note:WhilesuchEnlightenedspiritualleadersasZoroaster,Mani,Buddha,andElijahcanbe

regardedasreceptorsoftheentitystotalwisdom,Christseemstohavebeenanactualterminalofthis

computerlikeentity,inwhichcasehedidnotspeakforitbutwasit.Was,inthiscase,standingfor

consistedofamicroformofit.)

Late1972letterfoundamongstc.1977ExegesispapersIalmostbecameasinceretoolofaconspiracy

consistingofmyself.TheregoestheJohnBirchSocietysincerelytryingtosavethiscountryfromthe

JohnBirchSocietyfromitself.

Prototype:PoohandPigletfollowingthewoozlefootprintsaroundandaroundthetree.

Therearemoreallthetime.

IblewupmyownhouseandforgotIdidit.[ThereferencehereistoanepisodeinNovember

1971whenDickshouseandfileswerebrokeninto,possiblywiththeuseofexplosives;hislistof


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suspectsforthisunsolvedcrimeincludedhimself.]ButwhydidIforgetIdidit?SoIdthinkIhadan

actualenemysoIwouldnthavetofacethefactthatImparanoid,i.e.crazy.Iblewupmyhouseto

convincemyselfIwassane.Anyonewhowouldgotothatmuchtroublemustreallybenuts.Soas

soonasthosewhothoughtIwasimaginingthatpeoplewereaftermesawthatmyhousehadbeen

blownup,theyrealizedthatIwasfarmoreparanoidthantheyhadsuspected.Theirparanoidsuspicionsaboutmearenowmuchgreater.Sensingtheirparanoidsuspicionsaboutme,Irealizeetc.

Whyiseverythingisshortsupply?Becauseeveryoneishoarding.Whyaretheyhoarding?

Becauseeverythingisinshortsupply.Weallwindupisolated,suspiciousofeachother,eachofus

tryingtofigureoutwhatisgoingon,whichmeans,whoisdoingit?Whoisourenemy?Thefactthat

wecantfigureoutwhatsgoingonoverloadsourbrains,overworksourminds;wewearoutfast,get

exhaustedandconfused.Andstillwecantlocatetheenemy.Becauseweareconfusedwebegintoact

inanineffectualway,soourbehaviorbecomeserratic.Otherswhonoticeourerraticbehavior

wonderwhatweareupto.Actuallyweareuptonothing,aremerelyintheprocessofburningout

overtheproblemoftryingtofigureoutwhatotherpeopleareupto,inasmuchastheirvarious

behaviorsarebecomingmoreandmoreperplexing.Eachofusassumeseveryoneelseknowswhat

HEisdoing.TheyallassumeweknowwhatWEaredoing.Wedont.Theyaskus,Whatareyou

doing?Wecantgiveacoherentaccountbecausewedontknow,butourfailuretogiveacoherent

accountconvincesthemthatwearelying,andtheonlyreasonwewouldlieisbecausewhatweare

really(doing)oughttobeconcealed.Thisconfirmstheirfearsandmistrust,andtheyintensifythe

interrogation.Thefalsepremiseis,Youmustknowwhatyouredoingandifyouwonttellme,then

youmustbelyinginordertoconcealsomethingIwouldntapproveof,whichisprobablydirectedat

metohurtme.Eachpersonwindsupmoreandmoreconfused,havingwastedhistimeandexhaustedhimselfinterrogatingotherpersonsasconfusedashimselfonthefalseassumptionthat

theyknowwhatsgoingon.Nothingisgoingonandnobodyknowswhatitis.Nobodyisconcealing

anythingexceptthefactthathedoesnotunderstandanythinganymoreandwisheshecouldgo

home.

c.1977

Actualitiesaresomehowpluckedfromagreaterseaofpossibilitiesthatalsoformpartof

thetruth.Thismeansthattheactualityisnottrueversuspossibilitiesthatarefalse;itjustmeans

thattheactualityismoretrue;thepossibilitiesarelesstruebutalsotrue.Thisinvolvestheprinciple

ofemergence,howathingcomesintobeing.Itisaquestionofdegree,noteitheror.Possiblythe

forcethatselectsonepossibilityandmakesittheactualityisthepressureonrealitythisgreater

seaofpossibilitiesofthehumanmind. Itselectsouttheactualitybyassessingitasmoreprobable.

Oritisasubtleinteraction,afeedbackbetweenthesentientmindandthisgreatersea:Pressureis


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exerteduntilonepossibilityamongmanybecomesgrowinglydistinct,whichcausesthepressureto

selectitouttobecomemorefirm.Theactualityismerelyaparticularpossibilitythatacquiresform

andshapeandcanbediscerned.Actualizationisagestaltingprocess,andgestaltingtakesplace

primarilyinthehumanmind.Themindexertsasubtleandcontinualpressureoncertaineventsand

thingstobe,andonothersnottobe;itshapesrealitydirectlybysomefieldsimilartogravitationalwaves,veryweakbutalwaysthere,andintheendeffective.Withoutthepresenceofhumanminds

andthepressuretheyexerttherewouldbenoactualizationofanything,andonlythegreaterseaof

possibilities,ofhalftruths,wouldexistasamultitudeofsemiforms,contradictingoneanotherbut

existingsidebyside.Withoutrealtimeorspace.

c.1978

Throughanamnesisyoucanmoveretrogradeintime,gobackandburnuporunweaveyour

karma,bebornanewtoahigherstatebutisthisallaninteriorpsychologicalprocess?Itmustbe;

Tessa[Dickswifewholivedwithhimduringthe2374experiences]didntseeRomec.A.D.70.ButI

sawValisoutsidememodulatingreality.Ah;butthatwasaprojection(cf.Jung).Projectionexplains

it,theMagdeburghemispheres.ItwasmyownmindthatIwasseeingexternaltome.Itraveleddown

intothephylogenic(collective)unconscious.Godhadnothingtodowithit.Right?

Thenwhataboutthemessengerwhocomesintimeandbilkstheretributionmachineby

withholdingfromitthebillofparticularsagainstyou?Isthemessengeranarchetypeofthe

unconscious?AndtheAIvoice[ArtificialIntelligencevoiceDicksnameforthehypnogogicvoicehe

heardfrequentlyin197475andintermittentlythereafteruntilhisdeath];thatismyanima?

c.1978

Ihaveit;Iadvancethefollowingboldtheory.Outofthedialecticalantitheticalinteraction

betweentheEmpireanditsenemy,Valisiscreated,Valisaskosmos.Thewarprovidesthestockpileof

partseverneweranddifferentthatValisfitsintoplacetoformitsown soma[body].Valisisthe

resultandpurposeofthiscontention;thecontentionsotospeakgenerateswreckagechaosand

thisisValissrawmaterial,whichitmusthave,haveaccessto,ifitistocompleteitself,ifitisto

continuetogrow.

ThisfitsinwithEmpedoclestheorythatcombatisthebasisofreality,thatantithetical

combatisnecessaryforrealitytoexist(i.e.fortheretobeeinai).ThusValiscomesintoexistencein

themidstofthisbattle,notasanaccident,abyproduct,butastheultimatepurpose;thebattleisthe

meansandValistheend.Soonekindofrealitydialecticalwargivesrisetoaperfectstructurein

equilibrium,aharmoniousfittingtogetherofthebeautiful.IsawValishere.Valisarisesfromthe


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ceaselessdialecticthatwasrevealedtome.Imightsaythatthedialecticisoneformofuniverseand

Valisanother;andinourontogenicworldweseeneither.SohistoryisthemeansandValisthegoal

atleastforValis;itmaypreyoffthiscombat!Thecombatmaynothavecomeintoexistenceforthis

purpose.Valisusesthecombativedialecticforitsownpurposes.Wow.

ThenValisisthegoalofhistory.Sacred(phylogenic)history:historyrevealed,asinJudaism.

WhatisValis,then?Why,itistheCosmicChrist,PointOmega.IhaveseenwhatTeilhardde

Chardinwroteabout,althoughIhadneverreadanyofhiswriting.IamsurethatthisiswhatValisis;

myreadingofPaulslettershadalreadyhalfconvincedme.Butthisclinchesit.Thegoalofhistory...

andtheagentactiveinthisprocessistheParaclete,workingbackwardfromtheendoftime,entering

intogoodmentomakethemsaintsandprophets.

c.1978

TheGnosticChristiansofthesecondcenturybelievedthatonlyaspecialrevelationof

knowledgeratherthanfaithcouldsaveaperson.Thecontentsofthisrevelationcouldnotbe

receivedempiricallyorderivedapriori.Theyconsideredthisspecialgnosissovaluablethatitmust

bekeptsecret.Herearethetenmajorprinciplesofthegnosticrevelation:

1. Thecreatorofthisworldisdemented.2. Theworldisnotasitappears,inordertohidetheevilinit,adelusiveveilobscuringitand

thederangeddeity.

3. Thereisanother,betterrealmofGod,andalloureffortsaretobedirectedtowarda. returningthereb. bringingithere.

4. Ouractuallivesstretchthousandsofyearsback,andwecanbemadetorememberourorigininthestars.

5. Eachofushasadivinecounterpartunfallenwhocanreachahanddowntoustoawakenus.Thisotherpersonalityistheauthenticwakingself;theonewehavenowisasleepandminor.

Weareinfactasleep,andinthehandsofadangerousmagiciandisguisedasagoodgod,thederangedcreatordeity.Thebleakness,theevilandpaininthisworld,thefactthatitisa

deterministicprisoncontrolledbyadementedcreatorcausesuswillinglytosplitwiththe

realityprincipleearlyinlife,andsotospeakwillinglyfallasleepindelusion.

6. YoucanpassfromthedelusionalprisonworldintothepeacefulkingdomiftheTrueGoodGodplacesyouunderHisgraceandallowsyoutoseerealitythroughHiseyes.


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7. Christgave,ratherthanreceived,revelation;hetaughthisfollowershowtoenterthekingdomwhilestillalive,whereothermysteryreligionsonlybringaboutanamnesis:

knowledgeofitattheothertimeintheotherrealm,nothere.Hecausesittocomehere,

andisthelivingagencyoftheSoleGoodGod(i.e.theLogos).

8. Probablythereal,secretChristianchurchstillexists,longunderground,withthelivingCorpusChristiasitsheadorruler,themembersabsorbedintoit.Throughparticipationinit

theyprobablyhavevast,seeminglymagicalpowers.

9. Thedivisionintotwotimes(goodandevil)andtworealms(goodandevil)willabruptlyendwithvictoryforthegoodtimehere,asthepresentlyinvisiblekingdomseparatesand

becomesvisible.Wecannotknowthedate.

10. Duringthistimeperiodweareonthesiftingbridgebeingjudgedaccordingtowhichpowerwegiveallegianceto,thederangedcreatordemiurgeofthisworldortheOneGoodGodand

hiskingdom,whomweknowthroughChrist.

ToknowthesetenprinciplesofgnosticChristianityistocourtdisaster.

c.1978

ThebeliefthatwearepluriformsofGodvoluntarilydescendedtothisprisonworld,

voluntarilylosingourmemory,identity,andsupernaturalpowers(faculties),allofwhichcanbe

regainedthroughanamnesis(or,sometimes,themysticalconjunction),isoneofthemostradical

religiousviewsknownintheWest.Butitisknown.ItisregardedastheGreatBlasphemy:replicationoftheoriginalsinmentionedintheFirstBookofAdamandEveandinGenesis.Forthisprideand

aspiration(wearetoldbyorthodoxy)ouroriginalfallandexileandpunishment,ourbeingtaken

fromourhomethegardenlandandputintotheprison,wasinflictedonus.Theywishtobeequal

tolikeus,theElohimsay,andtossusdown.YetIhavereasontobelievethatthis,theGreat

SatanicBlasphemy,istrue.

First,weareherevoluntarily.Wedidnotsinandwewerenotpunished;weelectedto

descend.Why?Toinfusethedivineintotheloweststrataofcreationinordertohaltits

decomposingthesinkingofitslowerrealm.Thispointstoaprimordialcrisisincreationinthetotal

macrocosm(hexagram12).Theyinformtwo(dark,deterministic)partwassplittingawayfromthe

lightoryangorformone.

Inconventionalterms,heaven(upperrealm)andearth(lowerrealm)wereseparating,

carryingtheliveswithinthelowerawayfromtheirformone(upper)counterparts(thiscanbe

viewedastheGodheaditselffallingapart,intoitsyangandyintwohalves,withthelowerform

universeasGodexpressedphysicallyintimeandspace).Thesolutionwasforthedivine(yang,light,


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formone)tofollowthelowerrealmdown,permeatingitandthusreunitingthecosmosintoone

totality.Todothis,elements(inancientterms,sparks)oflightadvanced(descended)intothedark

kingdom,theimmutableprisonworld;upondoingsotheyshed(andknewtheywouldshed)their

brightnature,memory,identity,faculties,andpowers,andfellunderthedominionofthedelusion

thatthedarkkingdomisreal(whichwhenseveredfromtheupperrealmitisnot;i.e.theworldwepresentlyliveindoesntexist).Theretheyhavelivedasprisonersofthemastermagician,lordofthe

darkrealmwhoposesasthecreator(andwhomaynotknowofthelightgod,thetruecreator,his

otherhalf).Butthelightgodandhispluriforms,thedescending(invading)sparks,havecunningly

distributedcluesinthedarkrealmtorecalltothedruggedandintoxicatedsparksoflighttheirtrue

natureandmission(andtruesourceofhome).Uponencounteringthesecrypticcluestheforgetful

sparksoftheupperrealm,nowprisonersinandofthelowerrealm, remember,regaintheirpowers

andfaculties,andlinkbackupwiththeupperrealmandthelightgod;they arethelightgodin

pluriform,hiswayofinvadingthelowerrealmindisguise.Thelightgod(thedivine)hasnow

cruciallyoccupiedcriticalstationsinthesinkinglowerrealm,andbeginsthereannexingofitback

intothetotalitycomposedofbothrealms.Thesinkingceases;themastermagicianisstrippedofhis

autonomyandassimilatedtotheyangpartoftheGodheadasitspassivecounterpart,andoncemore

thereisonemacrocosmruledbytheyangoractive(creative)lightgodassistedbythenowreceptive

yin(dark)side.Thedivinehastriumphedatalllevels;theprisonisburst,andthevast,lightfilled

gardenkingdomrestoredasthehomeofallcreatures.Thesenowwholecreatures,composedequally

ofyinandyang,arewhatItermhomoplasmates:Theyinpartishome(asweknowourselvestobe

now,only),andthelightoryangpartistheplasmateorenergypart(vs.thephysical).Thusrenewed

andcompletemicrocosmsmirroringtherenewedandcompletemacrocosmareachieved.Realityis

impartedtotheotherwiseirreallowerrealm,andtheupperrealmnowextendsphysicallyintothe

realmofmatter.TheintegrityoftheGodheadisrestored;itstwohalvesfunctioninharmony;andthe

primordialsplit(orcrisis)isresolvedhealed.

ThisisaviewcompoundedofZoroastrianism,Brahmanism,Gnosticism,Taoism,themacro

microcosmosofHermesTrismegistusandothermysteryreligions,andnotverymuchoforthodox

Christianity.Christianitycanbeaddedifthepluriformmicrosparksoflightareconsideredplural

saviorsorChristscomprisingasinglemysticalcorpusthatisdistributedwidelyintimeandspacein

thedarkrealmbutpossessingonlyonepsychethatissomehowalsoGod,theyangorlightgod.

Ihavereadtheabovecosmologyover,andfindnofaultinit.Infact,Iamamazed.Itisina

senseacosmic,andcertainlyGnostic,buttheTaoistoverlayisnovelandpleasing;theTaoistoverlay

redeemsitfromtheflawsofconventionaldualistreligionsandtheproblemstherein.Insteadof

stressingmoralaspects(goodvs.bad),itstressesepistemological(realvs.irreal,whichIcan

understand).Thelowerrealmsinksnotbecauseitiscorruptorevilorsomehowhasrebelledbut

because,asshowninhexagram12,itisthenatureofyintosink,asitisthenatureofyangtorise.The


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preSocratics(andPlatoinTimaeus)wereawareofthis;v.themodelofthewinnowingfanandthe

conceptofthevortex.Yangmustassimilateyintokeepthetotalityintact;i.e.yangmustrenounceits

naturaltendencytoriseandmustdescend.Itcannotexpectyintorise,becauseyinisnotwise;itis

onlynoosthatcanunderstandthatitmustcompensateagainstitsownnaturaltendencies,anddo

whatisunnaturaltoit.Yinis,sotospeak,thick,unthinking,not noos[mind]butsoma[body];noosandsoma(orpsycheandsoma)arethetotaluniverseorganism.Descendingintotheyinrealmisa

sacrificeonyangspart,whichthroughitsbrightorwisenatureitrealizesitmustmake,butitpaysa

greatcostintermsofsuffering:lossofmemoryandidentity,abilities,andfaculties:Itbecomes

pseudoyin,literallydisguisedintheyinrealmasifitwereactuallyyin,eventothepointofforgetting

(untilreminded),thatitisnot.Thisistheagonywefacehereinthisirrealanddenseyinrealm,we

yangtraces:Thisisnotourhome.Wearevoluntaryexileshere,alienatedandalone,violatingour

ownnaturesforasalvificpurposeanecessarypurpose.Yinwouldnotunderstandthis,anduntil

anamnesissetsinforus,weinourdistressdonotunderstandthereasoneither.Eventuallyitwillbe

revealedtous;meanwhileweachewithlongingforourproperhome,dimlyrememberedbutdeeply

feltfor.Thuswesupposewearebeingpunished;itfeelslikepunishment,and[we]maketheerrorof

assumingwehavesinned.Onthecontrary;wehaverenouncedjoynow,toproduceagreaterjoy

later,forthegoodofallcreation;wearetheGodheaditselfsufferingtheneedtobewhatitisnot,to

ensuretheultimatestabilityofkrasis(asEmpedoclestermedit):theunityoflove.LestanyChristian

rejectthis,lethimnowreadtheFourthGospelinconnectionwiththis,andseeforhimselfthe

similarities.LestanyTaoistrejectthis,lethimnowseethathexagram12hasturnedtohexagram11,

Peace:

Theuppertrigram,indescending,hasforcedthelowertrigramtorise.Disordernolongerreigns;heavenandeartharenotpullingapart.Thereisharmony.Moral:Itistheethicalrequirement

placedontheyangtracesbytheirownbrightnaturetoabandontheirnaturaltendencytorise,to

escapewhatisheavyanddarkandsinking;theymustgoinpursuitofthefallingpartofthecosmos,

forthebenefitofthoseandthatwhichotherwisewouldbelost.Thisisthehighestlaw:toviolate

onesownnatureforanothersgood.Andthemostdifficultandpainfullawtofulfill.Becauseof

thisneedthereisdistressinthecosmos,distressfortheinnocentespecially.Mycosmologysimply

presentsitasafact.Toescapeitwewouldhavetoallowthecosmostodecompose.Couldwedothat?

Thetragedyisthatbytheverynatureofthesacrificewemakeweareoccludedfromknowingwhy.

Thisispartofoursacrifices:ouryangunderstanding.Wemusttakeonthedullnessofyintosavethe

cosmos;wesacrificetheknowledgeofwhywesacrifice,andassumeguiltspuriousguiltinits

place.Thisisaskingalot.

Butconsiderwhowereallyare.Oroncewereandwillbeagain.Whoelsecandoit?Thereis

nooneelse.Thereisonlyyin,whichdoesnotknow.Thepartoftheorganismthatknowsmusthelp

thepartthatdoesntknow,butthismeansabandoningitsownknowing.Itbecomeswhatithelps,a


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dreadfulirony,onethathurts.Butitisonlytemporary,justforalittlewhile.Andthenwegohome

foralleternity.

TheUltraHidden(Cryptic)Doctrine:TheSecretMeaningoftheGreatSystemofTheosophyof

theWorld,OpenlyRevealedfortheFirstTime(March2,1980)

Sotoexplain2374IdrawontheTibetanBookoftheDead,Orphism,Gnosticism,

Neoplatonism,Buddhism,esotericChristianity,andtheCabala;myexplanationsourcesarethe

highestwhichisgoodandwhichmakessense.Butputanotherway,startingattheotherend,I

havesynthesizedallthesehighsourcesandderivedasinglesensationallyrevolutionaryoccult

doctrineoutofthem(whichIwasabletothinkupduetotheadditionofmy2374experience);the

distillateexpressedtheoreticallyis,Wearedeadbutdontknowit,relivingourformerlivesbuton

tape(programmed),inasimulatedworldcontrolledbyValisthemasterentityorrealitygenerator

(likeBrahman),wherewereliveinavirtuallyclosedcycleagainandagainuntilwemanagetoadd

enoughnewgoodkarmatotriggeroffdivineintervention,whichwakesusupandcausesusto

simultaneouslybothrememberandforget,sothatwecanbeginourreascentbackuptoourreal

home.This,then,ispurgatorio,theafterlife,andweareunderconstantscrutinyandjudgment,but

dontknowit,inaperfectsimulationoftheworldweknewandrememberv.UbikandLems

paradigm[seeTheAndroidandtheHuman,includedherein].Wehaveforalongtimebeendying

brains/soulsslippinglowerandlowerthroughtherealms,butthepunishmentofrelivingthis

bottomrealmlifeisalsoanopportunitytoaddnewgoodkarmaandbreaktheviciouscycleof

otherwiseendlessrelivingofaportionofourformerlife.This,then,isthe sophiasummaofthesix

esotericsystemssevenifyoucountalchemyoftheentireworld.Eightifyoucounthermeticism.

Wearedead,dontknowit,andmechanicallyreliveourlifeinafakeworlduntilwegetitright.Maat

[anEgyptiangoddesswhoweighedthesoulsofthedeadinthebalancetodeterminetheirvirtue]has

judgedus;wearepunished,butwecanchangethebalance...butwedontknowweareheretodo

this,letaloneknowwhereweare.Wemustchangethegrooveforthebetterorjustkeepcoming

back,notremembering,notreascending.

Judaismenters,too,sincethechangeinthegroovE[sic]thatintroducestherightnewgood

karmarestoresustoEden,toourphylogenicoriginalunfallenstate.Itmaybeasmallactonourpart

thataddsthegoodkarma,asmalldecision,butthisremindsmeofthestorytoldofMosesandthe

lambthatwantedtodrinkatthestream(Moses,uponfindingthatthelambhadlaboriouslymadeits

waytothestream,said,HadIknownthatthouwertthirstyIwouldhavecarriedtheehencemyself,

towhichavoicefromHeavenreplied,ThenthouthyselfartfittobetheshepherdofIsrael).

Thereasonwhyasmallgoodactmaytiltthescalesisthatyouwillbereenactingthegood

deedsthatyouactedoutbefore,andsomemaybehuge,butthey intotowerenotenoughtotip


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Maatsscaletoprovideyouwithadjudicationofreleasetoreascend.Sothesmallactis new;itisan

addition,butyouarenotawarethatyouareontape,thatthissmall,goodactdidnotoccurbefore;

thistimeyouhavedecideddifferentlyinagivensituation:donetherightthingthistime.Andasmall

actmayrevealcharacterevenmorethanavastoneregardingwhichyouhavemadeaweightyand

longpondereddecision.Spontaneitymaybeacrucialfactorasanindexofcharacter.Inthissynthesizedoccultsystemthemaximumstatementisthefirst:Wearedead.Then:Wehavebeen

madetoreliveaportionofourformer,actuallifeasapunishmentthatisalsoanopportunity;hence

thisisnothell,becausethepossibilityexistsofperforminganewact(inwhatisvirtuallyaclosed

system)thatwillchangethebalanceofthescaleonwhichMaatweighsus.Alsothereisacomplex

pictureofanamnesisandreascent,butthisiswellknownfromPlatoandothersources.

Thereisanoddparadoxinthisearningnewgoodkarmasituationbyintroducinganovel

deed,howeversmall.Youmustnotknowtheschemeofthings,becauseifyouknewtheschemeof

things(i.e.thetheoreticalsystemputforthherewith)yourgooddeedwillbecontaminatedbythe

knowledgeofthelikelypayoffforyou;thatis,itisnolongerdisinterested.ThereforeValis must,ifthe

salvificmechanismofdeedandthenjudgmentistowork,keephimselftotallyandabsolutely

concealed,andthenatureofthesituationconcealed,i.e.rerunoftheactualworldandthefactthatwe

arebeingappraisedfortheintroductionofanovelgooddeedthatisanindexofspontaneous

character,whichistosay,realnatureofcharacter.

SoofcourseValisdoesnotdisclosehimselftous;andthequality(aspect)ofsimulationis

likewiseconcealed.Wearenottoknowwherewearenorwhy.Valismustbeabletoobserveus

throughaonewayscreen.Forexample,thereisnowayIcanaddtomygoodkarmastorenow

becauseIknowthesituation.Thebooksonmethenmustbeclosed;theyhavetobe.OnceValis

disclosesitselfthesituationisover;youareboundforheavenorhell,butthemidrealmofpurgatorio

isshuttoyouforever.

ThereforeitcanbereasonedthatValiswillshowasfewtimesaspossible,and,ifhedoes

revealhimselftoaperson,Valiswillbecloudthesituationsothatthepersoncannotmakethe

knowledgehehashencetherealsituationgenerallywellknown.(NOTE:Thissystemmakesuse

ofmytenvolumemetanovel.Thisisvaluabletome.)

Also,Iwasntgrantedrelease(salvation)becauseIhandledtheXeroxmissiveright;I

handleditrightbecauseIhadbeensaved,andbyanotherandunrelatedactafutureactentirely.

Further:IwassavedbyanactoffreewillonmypartthatoccurredafterIwasgranted

salvation;causeandeffectoccurredbackward(retrograde)intime.Youknow,inthissystem

(understanding)thereisthebasisofateachingofsalvationhavingtodowiththeentirelygratuitous

goodact,doneoutofunpremeditatedandhencespontaneousfreewill,incontrasttoprogrammed

worksofdeterministicduty;thereisanobviousZenqualitytoit.Noformulacanbelocatedforthe


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performanceoftheseacts;theywouldhavealmostacontraryquality,contrarytoyournormalway

ofbeingintheworld.Theywouldliterallysetyouapartofffromyourself,theselfthatfailedto

passMaatsscale.Theywouldemanatefromthenotyou(thenormalnotyou),fromanotherand

morerealyou,asiffromanotherpersonalitylockedupwithinyouandalludedtoonlybytheseacts.

Thusthesinglepersonalitybecomesreborn;twoselvesexist,oneofwhichistheold,theprogrammed,thenotsaved.Yes;youwouldhavetoactcontrarytoyourownnature;youwouldget

outsideyourself.SuddenlyIthink,ThissoundslikeThomas[anearlyChristianpersonagewho,

Dicksometimesspeculated,hadcrossbondedwithhimduringtheeventsof2374]!Why,itwould

be;Thomasdidpreciselywhathe/Ididnotdothefirsttimearoundthenthisverifiesmysystem,

forthissystempositstheneed,theabsoluteneed,ofaThomastobreak heimarmene[deluding

powerofthespuriousworld]andhencedamnation.Onlythisnotyouactoractscouldsaveyou,

actionswithoutahistory.QED!ForitwaswithThomasthatthenewandunprogrammedveeredoff

fromwhathappenedthefirsttime,andthereindeedwasafirsttime.Iamsaying,weinpurgatorioto

besavedmustdowhatwewouldnotdoifwearetobesaved,becausedoingwhatwewoulddo

damnedustothisplace.Yethowdoesapersonbecomebornagainanddowhathewouldnotdo?

Thisisamystery;obviously ITMUSTBEDONETOTALLYWITHOUTTHENORMALUSUAL

ANALOGICIDEATION(RATIOCINATION),ANDTHISISEXACTLYWHATHAPPENEDWITH

THOMAS:HEACTEDTOTALLYWITHOUTIDEATION,ANDDIDWHATIWOULDNOTHAVE

DONE,ANDISAID,THISISNOTME:HEREISANOTHERPERSONINME. Andthiscontinuedfor

sometime.

Thusthereisliterallyasecondbirth,andexnihilo.

ThusfromthesefactsIcancorrectlyascertainthatindeedThomassactionswerenot

programmed,notpartoftheoriginalworldandlife.Theywereanideationlessoverpowering,asif

locatedonlyinmymotorcenters.Thomaswasnotborninmybrainbutborninmybody,e.g.my

handsandtongue;hemovedandspoke,butinmybraintherewerenoideasorthoughtsor

intentions;hewasintentionless,andyethadabsolutepurpose.Purposewithoutintent!Planwithout

plan!Orrathergoalwithoutplan.TrulyitwasZen.Yes;indeeditwas.Somytheory(herewith)

demands/predictssalvationbyanotyouideationlessselfactingatthemomentofcrisiswhenthe

tapedworld(ortrackofheimarmene)branchesoffintothenewandfree,anduponretrospective

analysiswefindThomas,preciselythat.IcannowruleoutPigspurtforever.Itbranchesoffintothe

newandfreepreciselybecausethisnotyouideationlessactoccurs;thesearethetwosidesofthe

samething.Afterthat,heimarmeneneversetsinagain;itisbrokenforever,sinceyouarenotreliving

youractuallifebutlivingyouractualnewandfreelife;soonlyduringthesubsequentnewand

freeperiodcouldIperformafreewillact,suchasIdid,thatgainedmegoodadditionalkarmaand

hencesalvation(release).Sothishastobethesequence:Firstthenotselfnotyouideationless ex


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nihiloactthatabolishesthereplaydeterminism,thetape,andthen(andonlythen)areyoufreeto

performanewact.Thefirstshouldhaveatechnicalname,andalsothesecond.

Wewillcallthefirst:grooveoverride.OrGO.

Wewillcallthesecond:newfreemeritdeed.OrNFMD.IfyoudoGO,butsubsequentlyfail

todoNFMDbutinsteaddoevil,youwillgainnewbadkarma.AllthatGOgivesyouisthefreedomto

act;itdoesnotguaranteemoremerit(goodkarma);thatmustbedonelaterandseparately.Soyou

couldgettheGOwithouttheNFMD.YoucouldhaveanewfreedemeritdeedorNFDD,andasaresult

youwouldagainfailMaatandbesentbackyetanothertime,perhapsforever;youwouldhavelost

yourchanceforrelease.GOcanbedonewithoutNFMDbutnotviceversa.Yetthisisnotquiteso,

sincethedivineforces(Christ,theBuddha)areworkingtosaveyou.They(apparently)willnotgrant

youtheGOsituationunlessthroughtheiromnisciencetheyseeNFMDlyingaheadalongthelinear

timeaxis.ButIcantsayforsurethatifthereisGOitmeanstheyknowforsuretherewillbeNFMDin

thefuture;ifyoudoitbyfreewillwell,Icanprobablyneversettlethis,butbeingomniscienttheyprobablyknowhowtograntyouGOonlyifNFMDliesaheadofyoubasedonyourownfreechoice.

Putanotherway,theydonotgrantyouactualfreedomunlesstheyknowinadvancethatyouwillput

ittoawiseuse,sothenthereisreversecauseandeffect,effect(NFMD)operatingascause

retroactiveintimetoGO,tocauseGO.Wait.ImsayingGOiscausallytheeffectofNFMD.AndIm

sayingthatNFMDcanthappenwithoutGO.Soitsanupbyhisbootstrapsituation,aselfcausing

situationthentrulyitisexnihilo(nowondertherewasnoideation!).Thisisatimetravelparadox.

BothGOandNFMDaregeneratedwithinaclose[sic]systemoutofnothingandenterfromnowhere;

thatis,fromoutsidethesystem.GOisdependentforitsexistenceonNFMD,andNFMDonGO,so

whichiscauseandwhichiseffect?Answer:Eachisthecauseoftheotherandtheeffectoftheother.

Considertheoriginalgroovetrackingsituation.Howdoyougetoutofit?Answer:Youhavetobeout

ofittogetoutofit;looktotheTaoofphysics([Fritjhof]Capra)andthebootstraptheoryforthe

answer;IknewIwasdealingwithfieldtheoryandquantawhenIdealtwithValis.Putevenmore

simply,Howcanyoudosomethingyouwouldnotdo?,whichisrequiredforsalvationinmysystem

(disregardingthetemporalfactortheparadoxstillremains).Therewouldhavetobeapsychological

(mental)deathandrebirthassomeonedifferent;butwherediditcomefrom?HenceThomas,who

knewnotthedog,car,norcat[i.e.wasunfamiliarwithbasicaspectsofDickslife].Itispossiblethat

theonlyeventthatcouldmakethispossiblewouldbeabasement,sufferingandpainand

apprehensionandtensionsogreatthatitwouldbreakdownthehistoricalselfandliterally

assassinateit.Intheabsenceofwhen,thereupon,anexnihilonewselfwouldcomeonto[sic]

existence,likeanewlygrantedsecondsoul.Thisbringsmebacktomyshamanistanalysisofthe

crucifixion,thePassionofChriststory,asasecretmethodofovercomingtheworld(asJesusputit);

viz.:Theworldovercomesyou;youdie;anewselfisborn;itisipsofactoinaGOsituation,for,being

new,itwillnottracktheoldgroove;thetwintapessimplywontwork,sincetheoutertaperemains


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butnottheinner.Thewaytodestroysynchronizationistodestroytheself(youcantverywell

destroytheworld),andthebestwaytodestroytheselfistobilktheworldintodoingit.Butthisisa

trickybusinessbecauseyoumustnotphysicallydie;youmustbealivetoperformtheNFMD.The

earlyChristiansthemselvessoongotitwrongandbegantoleapunderRomanchariotwheels,upon

whichtheyphysicallydied,makingNFMDimpossible.Thattheyfailedisshownbythefactthattheydidnotrisefromthedeadinthreedays;theywereneverseenagain.Thefieldforrightactionisin

thisworld,notthenext.Imgoingtoputforthaverystrangeidea.IthinkthatifeitherGOorNFMDis

tobeconsideredcause,NFMDwhichcomessecondinlineartimeiscause,sowhatisneededisan

abilitytomaketimerunbackward,or,ifthisisputtingitbetter,tobeable,oneself,tomove

retrogradeintime(ifthislatteristhecorrectformulation,IorThomas,whichever,moved

retrogradeintimebackto374fromthefuture;whichaccountsformyexperiencingamindmoving

retrogradeintime,amindthatfusedwithorenteredminethatcamefromthefuture).Butthiswould

notbemeinthisworld/life,say,mein1977or78,whenIgavetoCovenantHouse[acharitable

institutionforhomelesschildren].ItwouldbethemewhooriginallyfuckeduptheXeroxmissiveand

livedtoregretit,becauseonlythemeonthattimetrack,thatgroove,wouldhaveeverfoundout

whatitwasandhencecouldtellmeinthistimetrackastheAI[ArtificialIntelligence]voicethatit

wasfromanintelligenceofficerintheArmy.Itwouldbethemeintheoriginalrealworld.Thisis

eerie.Presumablyhe(I)paidforfuckingup(fuckingupunlesstherewashelpwouldbenatural;after

all,itwasatrap).Isthis,then,aparanormaltalentinvolvingtimeonthe[orderof]PatConleyspsi

talentinUbikorthegirlsinClans?[DicksnovelClansoftheAlphaneMoon(1964).]Theabilityto

changethepast?Anyhow,timeisinvolved.Anyhow,Thomasisnotonthistrack,inthisworld,but

inthatworldonthattrackwheretheXeroxmissivewasnothandled,wheretherewasnooverrideby

Thomas;i.e.theoriginaltime.

ThendidThomasengineerhimselfoutofexistence?No;myearlierformulationinthis

articlesuggeststhatThomasisnowintheprocessofreascendingtothepleroma[heavenlyrealm

oftheGnostics].Hestillexists,becauseIstillheartheAI[ArtificialIntelligencehypnogogic]voice

(assumingitisThomas;well,itsverycomplicated,butprobablyitisThomas).ButinanycaseIm

sayingthat374cantbeunderstoodexceptbyincludingasfundamentalareversecauseandeffect

sequence,theeffectcomingfirst,thecauseprobablyyearsafterward.Imay(ifthisformulation

holds)somedaydecidethatitrepresentsaparanormaltalentonmypartandnotadventitious

intervention.Atalentalliedtomyprecogtalent:stupendouslyescalatedduetothelethalstressofthe

Xeroxmissivesituation[amysteriousletterreceivedinMarch1974,astowhichDickposed

numeroustheories];Imayhaveactuallyliterallycausedtimetorunbackward.Andeverythingelse

hingesonthisfact.Thiswouldexplainwhyin374Ihadinformationatmydisposalessential

informationthatcouldnotbeknownuntilmuchlater.Thisisthebarebonesofadeepphenomenal

shiftsomehowrelatedtoquanta,toquantumfieldmechanicsandfieldactivitythatislittle


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understoodtoday;thiswouldfitinwiththemodulatingorwarpingawayfromvalencethatIsaw,

soitwouldrenderwhatIcallValisasanexpressionofmyownwarpingofrealityintermsoftime,

space,andcausality.

MyGod;canInowsubsumeseveralphenomena(foreknowingabouttheXeroxmissive

coming,ThomasandThomashandlingit;havinginformationthatcouldnotbedevelopeduntil

later;gettingoutofsynchwithrealitysothatIreacted[to]thestimulibeforetheyoccurred;and

Valisitself)underonebasicsyndrome?Thisisscientificmethod!Thisisthewaythemodernrational

minddealswiththeoryformation!Andmysenseofbeingintouchwithamindmovingretrogradein

time.DidIwarptimesothatitranbackward?Andoutofthisonefactortheabove(andperhaps

other)severalphenomenawereobservedtotakeplace?

AsIsaidinmyUKspeech[Man,Android,andMachine,includedherein]:Maybewere

seeingtheuniversebackward.Also,Itend

Oh;andthedoublesuperimpositionofworlds.Twotracks,whichistosayalternate

worlds.Alternateworldsinvolvetime;everySFauthorknowsthat.Ohmygod.

Yes,andthekoine[commonlyspokenGreekoferaofChrist;Dickbelievedthatheheard

wordsinthislanguageduringhishypnogogicexperiences].Atimedisturbance,causedbyme.

Alternateworlds,informationfromthefuturesuckedbacktothepresent;informationfromthepast;

andanotherme.Plusthebreakdownofcausalsynch.Valisthemodulations;thatscausality.Setto

zero,asIputit;dueTOACHANGEINTHEPAST.Alltimedisturbances.Andquantumfieldlike.

AndmyfutureNFMDaffectingandeffectingtheGO.SononGO(whichistosaygroove

tracking)isjustawayoftalkingaboutnormaltimeandnormalcausality.

Isthereanythingthathappened,startingwiththematerialinFaithof[FaithofMy

Fathers(1967)]andTMITHC[TheManintheHighCastle(1962)]andPenultimate[ThePenultimate

Truth(1964)]goingtonowandtheAIvoicethatdoesnotactuallysomewayinvolvetime?Certainly

thematerialinthewriting(especiallyTears[FlowMyTears,thePolicemanSaid(1974)])seemsto

involvetime.ImayfindoutthatIhaveachroniclowgradeprecogpowerthatsimplywentoffthe

scaleintoabasicqualitativechangein2374duetotheXeroxmissive,disjoiningmefromnormal

causaltemporalrealityentirely,bothintermsofthepast(anamnesis)andthefuture(moving

retrogradeintimeandprecognition).SomethingontheorderofwhatIdescribedinWorldofTalent[AWorldofTalent(1954)].

Nowletstrythistheory.Theabilitytomaketimerunbackwardgetsyououtofyour

programmedgroove(groovetracking)andrendersyoufree.Thisabilityandonlythisabilityfrees

youfromanotherwiseairtight[sic]tyrannythatdoomsallmankind.Alllifeforms,infact.Thusthis

isastunningandprobablynewsurvivaltalent,anevolutionarynewabilitythatadvancesthe


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individualuptheladderofhomeostasistoastagewhereheisawholeotherhigherorganism

entirely.Itisequalintermsoftheevolutionoflifetothedevelopmentoftheopposablethumb,the

eye,thelung,thewing,thelargecerebralcortex,standingupright,etc.Upontheperfection(soto

speakfieldoperation)ofthisabilitythehumanhasbecomehigherthantheangelsandallthat

implies.Heisoperatinginasupratemporaldimension,andthishasvastimplicationsforknowledge;forovercomingcausalityifhecanaffectthepasthecanmodulatethepresent(whatIcalled

Valis),andifhecandrawinformationtohimfromthefuturehecanproblemsolvelikeacrazy

thing.Thisisnotjustphylogenicmemory,asIsupposed;itisntlimitedtodrawingonthedistant

past.Thecrucialinformationrelatedto374wasinformationdrawnfromthefuture.Hecansetup

alternateworlds,soineffectheistransworld,spansnotonlytimebutworldtracks.Now,thisraises

thequestionastowhetherthereexistsavastmetamind(asIconceiveValistobe)whois

encouragingthedevelopmentofthistimedisruptionfacultyinordertoevolvethehumanspecies

further;or,putanotherway,thehumanbeingwhohasthisfacultyandmakesuseofit(forexample,

undervaststress,asIwasunderin374)isanexpressionofthismetamind.Iamsureofit.Iwasnot

aloneinwhathappened;itwasasifangelsdivineandpartiallyvisiblepowerswerepresent.

Theremaybeaspeciesmindstretchingbackintothepast andintothefuturewhereevolvedhumans

(imagedasthethreeeyedpeople?)mayexistalreadyusingthisfaculty.Whenyoustartdisrupting

timeyoumaybeoperatingintherealmofasupratemporalcompositediscorporatemindIthinkI

was;thisiswhatIcallValis.ButitseemstomethattheintrinsicnatureofthesortoftalentIm

discussingwouldcausetocomeinexistenceametamindbyitself,inthatitwouldhopacross

expansesoftimethatlieoutsideitsownlifetime,whichwould defactomakeitametamind;Imean

itwouldbeunlockedfromthetimespanofitsphysicalbody.Foronething(hereisJungsintuition

function)hewouldexist(hismindwouldexist)inalternateworlds,andthisaloneimpliesalot;by

affectingthepasthewouldthenfindhimselfshiftingacrosslaterally(orthogonally)intime...which

wouldexplainmysubcorticallyrememberingthatithadjustbeencool,high,andmoistaclimate.So

themindwiththistalentwouldinitselfbecomeametamind,outsideofcausality,spanningalternate

worlds,abletomodifyhisownpresentrealitybychangedactionsinthepast,thussettingup

alternateworlds;hewouldbethecauseandwouldinturnbeaffectedbyhimselfascauseagainthe

bootstrapphenomenon.Suchamindcouldactascausetoitsowneffect,affectingitselfasiffrom

outsidelikeafeedbackcircuit,and,uponhavingsuccessfullyaffecteditself,theselfascausewould

eliminateitselfasifithadneverexisted,whichagainisthe exnihiloorbootstrapparadoxoftimetravel.Mindsorversionsofthemind,fociofthemind,wouldcomeintoexistence,influencethemind,

anduponsuccessrenderitselfneverhavingexistedinthefirstplace;butthemindwouldsensean

adventitiousothermindoperatingonitselfinitsbehalf.CoulditnotthenbecomeitsownAIvoice,its

owntutelaryspirit?Itwouldcontinuallymonitoritsownstatusasifinaheuristicprocess;yes,it

wouldbeprocess,nothypostasis.Youwouldhaveamindthatitselfwouldevolvethewayaspecies

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Itwouldbeitselfandnotitselfcontinually.Itcouldcorrectafaultysolutiontoaproblem

afterthefaultysolutionhadbeenapplied,asortofsmarttypewritererasecircuit,againaheuristic

processwhereitgetstoapplythebestsolutionithas;thesolutionprovesfaulty;themindrepeats

thesituationrunsitbyagainwithadifferentsolutionmadebetterbyknowledgederivedfrom

thefaultysolution(i.e.thesolutionfailedbutityieldedknowledgeastowhatshouldhavebeendone).Itappliesasolution.Thesolutionisdefective,butknowledgeisderived.Themindthengoes

backintimeandappliessolutionBbasedonsolutionAplustheknowledgederivedfromsolutionA

(despiteitsfailure).SolutionBworks,sothemindcontinuesoninlineartime.ForitsBsolution

(whichworks),theminddrawsonthevestigialAsolution(whichdidnotwork);sounderlyingtheB

solutionisthephantornrecordoftheAsolution.Sequentially,themindwassurprisedbythe

problemandemployedtheAsolutionbutnowithasgonebackandoverriddentheAsolutionwith

knowledgebasedonthisinitialfailure.SoonsomelevelthemindknowsoftheAsolutionandhence

perforceisbicameral.ThepartofthemindthatemployedtheAsolutionandthatpossessesthe

knowledgederivedfromtheAsolution(andknowledgethattheAsolutiondidnotwork)informsthe

consciouspartthatisemployingtheamendedsolution;sothemindhasitsownselfforaguide,

speakingoutofaghostlyrealmwherewhatisisalsowhatisnot.Themindissplitbutnotsplit,since

bothpartsareworkingforacommongoal.Rather,itischambered.SotheratiocinationfortheB

solutionsimplyisnttherebecauseinplaceofratiocinationthereiscertitudewithoutsequential

logicalreasoning.Noanalyticalstepsareemployed.ThemindwhenitcomestoemploytheB

solutiondoesnothavetothink.Thethinkingtookplaceinarealmortrackthathasbeenabolished;

whenthatrealmwaserasedthethinkingwaserasedwithit,leavingonlythemotorandspeech

centersactive.Themind,whenitemploystheBsolution,isitsownmachine,itsownslave

instrument,actingoutasolutionthatwasnottheprimaryone.

Putanotherway,duringsolutionAthemindwascauseandsohadtothink,butwhenit

returnedtoreeditandemploysolutionBitwastheeffectofsolutionAandtheknowledgebelatedly

acquiredinconnectionwithsolutionA.Putathirdway,supposeanormalpersonwishestoknow

whatisintheBookofActs.Hemustlocateacopyandreadit.Butthismetamindsimplyknowsthe

contentsoftheBookofActs(ifheistoknowitatall).Howdoesitknowit?Becausehefoundthathe

hadwrittenit,andthusreadit.ThenhecheckedwithacopyoftheBookofActstocorroboratethatit

isindeedtheBookofActs.Butwhenandwhereandhowdiditoriginallyenterhismind?Thereisno

answertothat;itisexnihilo:withoutcause.Thereisonlyeffect,becausethecausalelementhasbeen

erased.Themetamindinitsfinishedstageisdependentuponthemetamindinitsinitialstaging,

whichitknowsnothingdirectlyabout,butonlyindirectly,thewaycharactersinaBeckettwork

deducetheexistenceofotherpeople.

IfhefindsActsormaterialbasedonpreSocraticthinkersinhisnovelshemustassumethat

hisownprimaryheuristicscanningdevicereadandabsorbedknowledgeofthesemattersinthe


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usualway,butthatthistrackhasbeenerased,althoughitleavesitsmarksontheextantmetamind.

Bywhatheknowsthatheshouldntknow(sotospeak)hecanmakecertaindeductionsaboutthe

originalscanning,theoriginalnormalintakeofinformation.Hedidnottakeinmoreinformation

thananyotherpersonbuthecanapplyitretroactivelyandthereishisadvantage.

ThenessentiallythistheoryabouttimedisruptionreplacesthetheoryIputforwardearlier

here,thatwearedeadanddontknowit;whatIseemtobesayingisthat heimarmeneor

determinismdependsoncausalityandthatinturndependsontime,andanabilitytodisrupttime

amountstoanabilitytogainpowerovercausalityitselftheresultofwhichistheabolitionofthe

twintapesynchsystemthatmakesofuslittlemorethanDNArobots.Wearenotdeadbutweareas

ifdead;weareenslaved,andinaprison.Theabilitytodisrupttimei.e.tomakeitrunbackward

bringsfreedomofasortthatnolivingcreatureonEarthhaseverhadbefore.AndIthinkthatthisis

thecrypticdoctrinethatisthebasisofmytitlehere:Thegreatesotericsystemsaresystemsinwhich

thishumanabilityiscultivatedandbroughttobear.CertainlythisistrueinGnosticism,in

BuddhismandifBuddhismthenprobablyinTheTibetanBookoftheDead.Thereisnowaya

humancanperceivethatheistwintapeprogrammeduntilhebeginstobreakthatprogramming,

becausethemechanismofdeterminismandocclusionissogoodthatuntilthepersondisruptsithe

canteventellthatitisthere.

Butthepowertodisrupttimedisclosesthedeterministicsystemassomehowunreal,a

fiction.Howcanithavepowerandbeafiction?Itspowerdependsontheignoranceitproduces,the

occlusionand(perceptualandintermsofmemory)beingonlyoneelement.Basically,thepersonis

enslavedbecausehecannotdetectthemachinethatenslaveshim;itdepriveshimofcrucial

information.Thereisaconstantflowofinformationtrafficaroundhimandhecantseeit,literally.

Yettheinformationprogramshim.Itseemstobethepurposeofthismachinetomaintainstructure

(cosmos)butattheexpenseofthewelfareandlivesoftheindividuallifeformsinvolved.My

subcorticalmemoriesofahigher,cooler,moisterclimateindicatethatreallymajorerasureand

reinscriptioncantakeplace;thetimedisruptingfacultycanbeverypowerful.Again,itwasnotdone

bymebutbymyself,wholivedthroughtotheendofmylife,died,andreturnedtoanearlierstageof

mylife,butnowundertapedconditions.Yetthetapedconditionsareacombinationofservitudeand

opportunity,thelatterifproperlyhandled,theformerifbotched.Whetheritwillbeendless

repetitionofprisonorwhetheritwillbe,instead,selfliberationdependsonwhatIcalltheNFMD:the

newfreemeritdeedthattiltsthescalesunderthealteredconditionsachievedbytheGOsituation.I

cannotreallyabandonthistheologicalconceptintheserviceofupholdinganexplanationthatrelies

onabeliefintheparanormalpowersoftheindividualinvolved.Thereisacosmicdimension,andone

ofdeity.Thepersonhasfailedhisfirsttimearoundandissentback.Heisasignorantthesecond

timeasthefirst...orishe?Doesnthisownbicameralvoicewhispertohimtoliberatehimselfbyan

actofkindness,ofkindnessunmeritedbytherecipient?ThereisaphantomofsolutionAthatdidnot


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work.Hasthepersonreallylearnednothing?Thenagainheisdestroyedbytheinstrumentsthat

destroyedhimoriginally.Thisisunlikely.Surelythereisahighprobabilitythathewillemployhis

timedisturbingpowertosavehimself.Thisishowevolutionisachieved:bymakinguseoflatent

powers,makingthemactual.TheBsolutionisafeedbacksystemthatmonitorsthefailureofAwith

theabsolutewisdomofhindsight;knowledgethatwascrucialbutcontingentisnow apriorianditisthere,butburiedinthepersonintheformofhisoriginalselfgrownoldandthendeadandthen

restoredwithoutmemory:likeParsifalorSiegfriedhedoesnotknowhisownidentityandmustbe

toldonlyitishehimself,notKundryortheForestBirdwhotellhim.Heishisownsibyl;heisin

facthisownanima,watchingoverhimaspsychopomp,hencenowchangedinsextofemale,in

accordancewithZoroastersobservationsaboutonesspiritofreligion.

Itwouldnotbecorrecttosaythatthesecondtimearound,thingsaredifferentfromthefirst

timearound;bothtimesarethesametime,throughanorthogonalinterventionofneeded

information.Anotheraxisofrealityhastobeimagined;firstandsecondoccursimultaneouslyin

lineartime.Whichistosay,solutionAabolishesitselfasitfailsandnotafteritfails;itisnot

attemptedandthenerasedbutbothattempted,erased,andasecondandsuperiorsolutionemployed

simultaneously.Thisisasmysterioustousasthethirddimensionistotheflatlandperson.

Whathashappenedisthatthecorrectionisnotseparatedfromthatwhichitcorrects,either

bytimeorspace,hencenotbycausality.Thepersonisrescuedbythemeritofanactthathewillnot

livetocommitanimpossiblesituationfromthenormalstandpoint.Perhapsitcanbeunderstoodif

solutionA,whichdoesnotwork,issupposedasoccurringinafalseworkorhypothetical,notactual,

universe:asortoftentativesketchoffthecanvas.Orwhatifitissupposedthatnolineartimeelapses

withintheperiodinwhichsolutionAtakesplace;solutionAoccursatapointratherthanaline.The

correctiondoesnotlag;itisasfastasthefaultysolutionthatitovertakes.Inotherwords,thefaulty

solutionisoverrunasitunfolds.Thisisimpossible,butitisthecase.Itislikeaspiderwhocanonly

tossawebstrandacrossadistancebetweenbushesifhehasalreadytossedastandacrossthat

distance.Thesolutionmustprecedetheproblem,andthereinliesthemystery.Howcanitbe?Butit

isso;thesolutiontotheXeroxmissiveof374showsupinnovelsandastoryIwroteasmuchasten

yearsearlier[mostlikelyFaithofOurFathers].Theproblemisformulated;therightsolutionis

formulated(especiallyinPenultimateTruth,andforallIknow,itshowsupelsewhereinmywriting

aswell,placesIhavenotasyetlooked).Themindthatisretrackingitslifehasplentyofleisuretime

inwhichtoformulatetheproblemanddevelopasuccessfulanswer.

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