the strange autobiography of frank b robinson a4

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Published by "Psychiana," Inc. Moscow, Idaho – 1941

This book is dedicated to my students everywhere

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Table of Contents

Introduction.............................................................................................................................................................3

Dr. Robinson's Favorite Hymn.......................................................................................................................3Dr. Robinson's Favorite Poem........................................................................................................................4Statement by Mrs. Robinson..........................................................................................................................5

Part One...................................................................................................................................................................

!"a#ter One.............................................................................................................................................................

Introductory Messa$e ....................................................................................................................................

!"a#ter %&o...........................................................................................................................................................11

!"a#ter %"ree........................................................................................................................................................1

!"a#ter Four ..........................................................................................................................................................()

!"a#ter Five..........................................................................................................................................................(*

!"a#ter Si+............................................................................................................................................................34

!"a#ter Seven........................................................................................................................................................3,

!"a#ter -i$"t.........................................................................................................................................................45

!"a#ter ine..........................................................................................................................................................4,

Part %&o.................................................................................................................................................................55

!"a#ter One...........................................................................................................................................................55

!"a#ter %&o..........................................................................................................................................................5,

!"a#ter %"ree........................................................................................................................................................3

!"a#ter Four ..........................................................................................................................................................*

!"a#ter Five..........................................................................................................................................................*(

Part %"ree..............................................................................................................................................................**

!"a#ter One...........................................................................................................................................................**

P/R% FO0R ..........................................................................................................................................................3

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Introduction%"e aut"or desires to e+#ress "is t"an1s and $ratitude to t"ose t"ousands o2 #eo#3e a33 over t"e &or3d &"o stood 3oya33y

by "im t"rou$" t"e times o2 stress "e &as made to #ass t"rou$". It is im#ossib3e to 3ist t"ese $ood #eo#3e "ere. %"ere are too

many. 4ut I do &ant to #ub3ic3y t"an1 a 2e& &"o5 in many &ays5 s"o&ed t"eir 3oya3ty and 2riends"i# to me in t"ose dar1 and

2ate2u3 "ours. First5 o2 course5 comes Senator 6m. -. 4ora". He "as $one to "is re&ard. I "a33o& "is memory. %"en t"ere is

Mi3burn 7en&ort"y5 !"ris /. Ha$an5 !"ar3es Sc"roeter and /nne Sc"roeter5 4i33 Marineau5 Dr !. 6. %enney5 8im Pa3mer.

%"ere are "osts o2 ot"ers too. %"e reason t"ey are not a33 mentioned by name is because t"is boo1 cou3d not contain a33 t"eir

names. 4ut t"eir 2riends"i# is 1no&n and a##reciated5 not on3y by me5 but by my 2ami3y. I 2ee3 I o&e t"ese $ood #eo#3e a

debt o2 "onour. %"at debt s"a33 be #aid by 2ear3ess3y 2i$"tin$ 2or t"e t"in$s I be3ieve to be o2 9od5 :ust as 3on$ as I 3ive. Ho&

3on$ t"at &i33 be I don't 1no&. I care very 3itt3e. 4ut no matter "o& 3on$ it may be5 t"ese $ood 2riends &i33 a3&ays 2ind me

$ivin$ t"e very best in me to t"e tas1 o2 brin$in$ to t"is eart"5 not traditions or su#erstitions about 9od5 but t"e 2acts o2 9odas I "ave discovered t"ose 2acts to e+ist. %"ose 2e& in Mosco& &"o sent &ires to t"e Revie& 4oard;t"ey &ere 2or$iven

3on$ a$o. /nd I 1no& t"em a33. I "ave a3so 2or$iven everyone &"o5 under t"e bane2u3 in23uence o2 one &"ose viciousness ran

a&ay &it" "is $ood :ud$ement5 attem#ted to "urt me and mine. May t"e S#irit o2 t"e In2inite 9od abide &it" t"em 2orever. I

s"a33 never try to "arm t"em. I s"a33 try to "e3# t"em.

FR/7 . ROISO.

r. !obinsons #avorite $ymnLEAD, KINDLY LIGHT

Lead Kindly Light — amid th' encircling gloom,Lead Thou me on.The night is dark — and I am far from home;Lead Thou me on.Keep Thou my feet I do not ask to see the distant scene,One step enough for me.

I was not ever thus, nor prayed that Thouhouldst lead me on;

I loved to choose and see my path, !ut now;Lead Thou me on.I loved the garish day; and spite of fears,"ride ruled my will; remem!er not past years.

o long Thy "ower hath !lest me, sure, It still #ill lead me on.O'er moor and fen, o'er crag and torrent till The night is gone. $nd with the morn those angel faces smile,#hich I have loved long since, and lost awhile.

— JOHN H. NEWMAN.

!ardina e&man &as born in <ondon Feb. (1 1)1. He &as a !"urc" o2 -n$and !er$yman youn$unima$inative and very su#erstitious. On a #i$rima$e to Rome "e became vioenty i. %"e saiin$ vesse on &"ic" "e&as travein$ &as becamed bet&een t"e Isand o2 Sardinia and Paermo. 6"en an o22icia o2 t"e c"urc" &as caed toadminister t"e =ast rites= 8o"n e&man ooin$ "im in t"e eye said =I s"a not die 2or I "ave not sinned a$ainst t"ei$"t=. He recovered. %"en "e &rote t"is beauti2u "ymn &"ic" is Dr Robinson's 2avourite. He #ays it continuousy on "is

#i#e>or$an and "e says =%"is "ymn brin$s me coser to 9od t"an any ot"er #iece o2 "uman &ritin$=.

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r. !obinsons #avorite Poem%&'$ I( $I) *+( T*(-%

? 6I<<I/M H-R-R% !/RR0%H

$ fire mist and a planet, $ crystal and a cell, $ %elly&fish and a saurian, $nd caves where cave&men dwell;Then a sense of law and !eauty, $ face upturned from the clod —

ome call it evolution, $nd others call it od.

$ ha(e on the far hori(on,The infinite, tender sky,The ripe rich tint of the cornfields $nd the wild geese sailing high; $nd all over upland and lowland The charm of the goldenrod —

ome of us call it autumn, $nd others call it od.

Like tides on a crescent sea!each#hen the moon is new and thin,Into our hearts high yearnings)ome welling and surging in;)ome from the mystic ocean#hose rim no foot hath trod —

ome of us call it longing—

$nd others call it od.

$ picket fro(en on duty, $ mother starved for her !rood,ocrates drinking the hemlock,

$nd *esus on the rood; $nd millions who, hum!le and nameless,The straight, hard pathway plod —

ome call it consecration, $nd others call it od.

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)tatement by Mrs. !obinsonI M/RRI-D FR/7 . ROISO O O@-M-R (3 rd 1,1,. %"e ceremony &as #er2ormed in t"e od <eavitt

"ome on !on$er /venue in 7amat" Fas Ore$on. My 2at"er &as t"e ate !ircuit 8ud$e /. <. <eavitt one o2 Ore$on'sod #ioneers. 9raduatin$ in a& 2rom t"e 0niversity o2 !ai2ornia my 2at"er &it" Sam Summers and a $rou# o2 2riends2rom Oaand be$an a tre to t"e ort"&est in searc" o2 2ame and 2ortune. Dad 2ound a certain amount o2 2ame — butitte 2ortune. He &as a #oitician.

%"e destination o2 t"ese #ioneers &as S#oane 6as"in$ton but my 2at"er and Sam Summers never $ot 2art"er t"an7amat" Fas or <invie as it &as t"en no&n. %"at &as in t"e year 1). He &as soon a##ointed !ounty !er o2 <invie and on 8uy (4t" 1, "e married Forence Reed a sc"oo teac"er at Merri or &"at &as t"en no&n as %ue

<ae. /t"ou$" Dad &as "andica##ed t"rou$" i2e as t"e resut o2 an attac o2 scaret 2ever &"en "e &as 2ive years o2 a$e&"ic" e#t "im in bed unti "e &as 2ourteen "e carved 2or "imse2 a itte nic"e in t"e "a o2 Ore$on's "istorica 2ame. He&as oved by a &"o ne& "im.

Dad #assed a&ay a 2e& years a$o cosey 2oo&in$ our mot"er &"o too &as very $reaty oved t"rou$"out t"e&"oe 7amat" asin. He #assed a&ay as "e "ad #redicted =&it" "is boots on.= Dad a&ays tod us t"at "e &oud =die int"e "arness &it" "is boots on.= /2ter mot"er #assed :ust a 2e& years a$o Dad be$an to decine. He ost a interest in i2eand t"ose o2 t"e immediate 2amiy ne& t"at so $reat &as "is devotion to our mot"er t"at "e &oud not ast very on$ a2ter s"e &as $one.

Dad must "ave "ad a #remonition o2 im#endin$ deat" 2or t"e day on &"ic" "e died "e dressed u# in "is =Sunday best= &ent to t"e barber s"o# 2or a "air>cut s"ave and o2 a t"in$s a 2ace massa$e. ever "ad &e no&n Dad do t"at be2ore. My sister too "im ater in t"e a2ternoon to "er "ome &"ic" &as on t"e &est side o2 7amat" <ae. /2ter dinner&"en it became Auite ate Maybee my sister ased Dad to retire 2or t"e ni$"t. %"is "e consistenty re2used to do

statin$ =?ou ids $o to bed;eave me &"ere I am in t"e c"air;I' read 2or a&"ie.= %"at is &"ere t"ey 2ound "im; dead;t"e ne+t mornin$ &it" "is boots on. 8ud$e <eavitt "ad done "is tas. He "ad $one and &as mourned by manyt"ousands t"rou$"out t"e re$ion. /ctive in Re#ubican #oitics and occu#yin$ every #oitica #osition to &"ic" it &as

#ossibe 2or "im to be eected 8ud$e <eavitt &i on$ ive in t"e "earts and memories o2 a &"o ne& "im. So &i mymot"er 2or it is a Auestion &"ic" &as t"e s&eeter o2 t"e t&o.

Four c"idren &ere born to t"at marria$e and I am t"e youn$est o2 t"e 2our. <ester is t"e odest and is no& #ro#rietor o2 <eavitts 9rocery in -u$ene Ore$on. /rt"ur comes ne+t. For more t"an t&enty years "e "as been em#oyed by t"e!ai2ornia>Ore$on Po&er !om#any. -very summer "e taes c"ar$e o2 beauti2u Rocy Point &"ere my "usband is no&&ritin$ "is autobio$ra#"y. Rocy Point is on t"e &est side o2 7amat" <ae about t"irty mies 2rom 7amat" Fas. Itabounds &it" beauti2u ae trout &"ic" my "usband oves to catc".

%"e t"ird c"id to be born to /2red <e&is <eavitt and Forence Reed &as my sister Maybee. S"e &it" "er "usband Mr Ho&ard arn"ise a #rominent reator o2 7amat" Fas no& occu#y t"e od "ome #ace in &"ic" Robbie

and I &ere married.6it"in a stone's t"ro& o2 t"e cabin in &"ic" =Robbie= BI ca my "usband t"atC is &ritin$ t"ere stands a ta yeo&

#ine. It "as stood t"ere 2or centuries. /t t"e 2oot o2 t"at #ine tree on 8uy () t" 1,)) in a itte tent in &"ic" Dad andMot"er &ere ivin$ I came. Per"a#s t"at is t"e reason my brot"ers and sister ca me =sAuirre.=

/s I &as t"e youn$est dau$"ter Dad "ated to see me $et married and #rotested t"e marria$e very ve"ementy. ott"at "e "ad anyt"in$ at a a$ainst Robbie;"e :ust "ated to see me $o I $uess.

It is not my intention to tae u# very muc" s#ace in t"is boo 2or a muc" more interestin$ #ersonaity &i s#ea toyou t"rou$" its #a$es. 7no&in$ my "usband #er"a#s better t"an or at east as &e as anyone &i ever no& "im I 2eet"at #er"a#s I can t"ro& a bit o2 i$"t on #"ases o2 "is c"aracter and nature &"ic" are not seen by t"ose outside o2 "is2amiy. %"is is t"e ony reason I consented to &rite a 2e& #ara$ra#"s. It may "e# you to $et t"e true #icture 2or t"ere aremany t"in$s a &i2e can say about "er "usband &"ic" "e cannot or &i not say about "imse2.

I met Fran Robinson one Sunday a2ternoon s"orty be2ore &e &ere married. He &as &orin$ at t"e Star Dru$ Storein 7amat" Fas. %"e o&ner &as t"en !ar Pat". He too "is meas &it" severa ot"er em#oyed youn$ 2os o2 7amat"Fas at t"e "ome o2 Mrs Rutenic. On t"is #articuar Sunday a2ternoon one o2 t"e $irs a 2riend o2 mine caed on t"e

#"one statin$ t"at s"e &as $oin$ to brin$ a very "andsome youn$ man do&n to meet me. I insisted t"at I &as notinterested in any man re$ardess o2 "o& $ood>ooin$ "e mi$"t be. I "ad ot"er t"ou$"ts. BHad I not met Fran RobinsonI s"oud "ave been in t"e 2orei$n mission 2ied. Fate &ied it di22erentyC. My $ir 2riend insisted t"at s"e &as $oin$ to

brin$ t"is youn$ man do&n re$ardess o2 &"et"er or not I &anted to meet "im. 6e met on t"e 2ront a&n. My "air &as"an$in$ do&n my bac and certainy i2 Fran Robinson 2e in ove &it" me &"ic" "e did it coud not "ave been

because o2 my a##earance;uness "e ies Indians 2or t"at is &"at I must "ave ooed ie.Ho&ever a ot sometimes "in$es on a sma t"in$ and t"at a2ternoon a2ter I "ad =s#ruced u#= a bit a &ent 2or a

&a. %"at evenin$ I in2ormed my 2os t"at I "ad met t"e man I &as $oin$ to marry. Fran Robinson too me to a s"o&t"e ne+t ni$"t and inside o2 one &ee "ad #ro#osed to me. ein$ :ust as muc" in ove &it" "im as "e &as &it" me &e

&ere soon married in t"e od "ome #ace by t"e Reverend -. P. <a&rence a Presbyterian minister o2 7amat" Fas./n interestin$ sidei$"t on t"e determination o2 my "usband may be seen in t"e 2act t"at at"ou$" "e ne& and "ad

been #ainy tod t"at my 2at"er &as not in sym#at"y &it" t"e marria$e t"e 2irst t"in$ "e did &as to $o and buy amarria$e icense &"ic" "e carried around in "is #ocet severa &ees be2ore &e &ere married.

%"e t&enty>t&o years &e "ave ived to$et"er "ave been interestin$ years. Some o2 t"em "ave been tryin$ years. ?etas I oo bac I don't no& t"at I &oud as 2or one o2 t"em to be recaed. %"ere "ave been times &"en t"e $oin$ "as

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been tou$". %"ere "ave been times &"en it seemed a t"e #o&er o2 t"ose o##osin$ my "usband mi$"t become a itte toostron$ 2or t"ere &ere many an+ious days durin$ t"e years 2rom 1,34 to 1,3*. 6e did not no& i2 a $ood "usband and2at"er &oud be rut"essy snatc"ed 2rom us eit"er to be #ut in some 2edera #enitentiary or de#orted to some and;&ene& not &"ere.

I "ave seen Doctor Robinson so "emmed in t"at esca#e seemed im#ossibe. %"ose &"o &oud "ave sto##ed "is &or at any cost &ent to $reat en$t"s to accom#is" t"eir evi ends. %"ere "ave been days &"en our "earts "ave bed 2or our "usband and 2at"er. /s &e oo bac u#on t"ose days no& &e no& bot" c"idren and I t"at t"e ony one &"o did no&orryin$ &as Robbie. I "ave seen "im &it" "is bac a$ainst t"e &a. I "ave seen "im a##arenty over&"emed byanta$onistic 2orces;and I "ave seen "im smie and te us not to &orry. =<et me do t"e &orryin$= &as a 2avouritee+#ression o2 "is t"rou$" t"e crimina trias and de#ortation #roceedin$s.

%"ese are not nice t"in$s to ta about. I try to 2or$et t"em. ?et it &as in t"ose days o2 tria t"at t"e true c"aracter o2 my "usband came to t"e sur2ace. I t"in I can say t"at Doctor Robinson is never "is true se2 uness "e is u# a$ainst odds&"ic" seem over&"emin$. 6"en t"ose odds come "e smies. I s"oud say t"at "e no&s &"at t"e outcome &i be 2romt"e be$innin$.

<et me $ive you one incident &"ic" stands out ceary in my mind. It &as durin$ "is tria on 2edera c"ar$es o2 #ass#ort 2asi2ication. aturay "e &as acAuitted on t"ose c"ar$es. He "as never committed a crimina act in "is i2e;noteven a misdemeanour. I2 "e "ad it &oud "ave been 2ound out a on$ time a$o.

%"is #articuar evenin$ t"e 2edera :ury &as out considerin$ t"e evidence. Doctor Robinson &i te you about t"attria ater on. Our t&o attorneys -d&ard 6. Robertson o2 S#oane 6as"in$ton and t"e "onourabe /. <. Mor$an no&!ircuit 8ud$e o2 t"is county &ere in our "ome in t"e ivin$ room. <itte &as eaten at dinner t"at evenin$ e+ce#t byRobbie. He ate a $ood mea. /ttorneys Robertson and Mor$an &ere #acin$ u# and do&n t"e ivin$ room. %"ey &ere :ustas muc" interested in t"is case as t"ey &oud "ave been "ad t"eir o&n sons been on tria. Doctor &as sittin$ at t"e #i#e>

or$an #ayin$. /ttorney -d. Robertson one o2 t"e very 2inest c"aracters &e "ave ever met &aed over to Doctor Robinson sayin$ =My 9od man;"o& can you sit t"ere #ayin$ a #i#e>or$an &it" t"at :ury outE= Robbie re#ied =-dyou and Mor$an #ace t"e 2oor a you &ant to;I'm $oin$ to bed.= Inside o2 2i2teen minutes "e &as see#in$ as

#eace2uy as a baby. He &as 2ast asee# &"en t"e verdict o2 =not $uity= &as brou$"t in and "e did not a&aen untimornin$.

%"e strain o2 t"ese t&o trias &as es#eciay "ard on /2red. He did not no& &"at to t"in. / s#ecia ne&s#a#er &asstarted "ere in Mosco& by some o2 Doctor's enemies and #oor /2red sat aone in "is room &onderin$ &"at it &as aabout. ut "e &as a bric. He stood side by side &it" "is Dad t"rou$" it a. He "ad t"e satis2action o2 seein$ "is 2at"er com#etey vindicated on every c"ar$e. He "ad t"e 2urt"er satis2action o2 seein$ every man &"o "ad anyt"in$ to do &it"t"ose c"ar$es $o do&n to de2eat. Ho&ever Doctor &i te you about t"at.

My "usband is t"e most ind man I ever met. He oves every member o2 "is 2amiy &it" a #assionate ove. It "as been said t"at =every id and every do$ in Mosco& no&s Doctor Robinson= and &"ie "e is not too 2ond o2 do$s "e

&oud $o to any en$t" to #rotect any anima or any "uman bein$ t"at &as su22erin$. %"at is one t"in$ "e cannot stand —su22erin$. I reca a 2e& instances &"ic" may be interestin$. <et me 2irst say t"at I "ave seen my "usband $o to t"e ban &"ere "e aready "ad borro&ed =u# to t"e nec= and borro& additiona money &it" &"ic" to "e# someone ese &"oneeded "is "e#. Doctor is t"e ar$est donator to c"arity in t"is county. Robinson Par stands "ere as a monument o2 "ist"ou$"t2uness to ot"ers. He &i iteray $ive "is o&n cot"es a&ay to one more needy t"an "e.

One evenin$ t"e tee#"one ran$ and Doctor Robinson &as in2ormed t"at a certain 2amiy &"om &e &i ca t"e=6"ite= 2amiy &as destitute. He &as a bit non#ussed at receivin$ t"is in2ormation no&in$ t"at t"e !ommunity !"est&as so &e su##ied &it" 2unds t"at no drive &as #ut on t"at year. !ain$ u# one o2 t"e o22icias o2 t"e !ommunity!"est "e tod "im o2 t"e #"one ca about t"e =6"ite= 2amiy. %"e #resident o2 t"e !ommunity !"est t"at year &as a<ut"eran minister and "e assured Doctor Robinson t"at "e "ad #ersonay visited t"e =6"ite= 2amiy ony t"at day and2ound it =am#y #rovided 2or.= %"e $enteman &"o #"oned Doctor Robinson &as Auite a substantia citien so Doctor caed "im bac and re#orted to "im t"e resut o2 t"e tee#"one conversation &it" t"e #resident o2 t"e !ommunity !"est.%"is ed to anot"er #"one ca on anot"er director o2 t"e !"est's activities. %"is $enteman aso in2ormed my "usband t"att"e =6"ite= 2amiy &as 2uy taen care o2 and needed not"in$.

Here may be noted an insi$"t into Doctor Robinson's c"aracter. I2 t"ere is any Auestion about anyt"in$ "e &i taet"e &ord o2 no one but &i $o and investi$ate 2or "imse2. %"is is e+acty &"at "e did t"at evenin$. Inside o2 2ive minutesa2ter t"e second #"one ca "e &as in t"e car and on "is &ay to t"e =6"ite= s"ac 2or t"at is &"at it reay &as. Onarrivin$ t"ere "e 2ound 2ive c"idren &it" absoutey not"in$ in t"e "ouse to eat. On t"e 2oor yin$ on an od rusty set o2 s#rin$s covered &it" $unny sacs &as t"e mot"er &"o &as about to $ive birt" to anot"er c"id. ot even a botte o2 mi &as in t"e "ouse. Doctor Robinson at once "ired a #"ysician to tae c"ar$e o2 t"is sad case and caed u# a $rocery storeand ordered t&eve doars &ort" o2 $roceries sent to t"at "ouse every &ee.

%"e ne+t day "e made arran$ements 2or a #osition 2or t"e "usband and "ad a oca store send do&n t"e best bed t"e best mattress s"eets banets etc. it "ad. In addition to t"at t"e c"idren &ere #ro#ery cot"ed. S"orty a2ter t"is

incident /2red came "ome 2rom sc"oo and bacin$ "is Dad into a corner said =Po# t"ose #oor =6"ite= boys "ave tostay a&ay 2rom sc"oo because t"ey "aven't enou$" money to buy sc"oo boos. ?ou $ive me some money and I' $odo&n and buy t"em.= %"e boys $ot t"e boos.

%"is incident &as never mentioned in our "ome a$ain. Ho&ever Doctor Robinson "ad $iven "is ast donation to t"e!ommunity !"est. He &i never $ive it anot"er cent ocay as on$ as it e+ists. He never 2or$ets.

On anot"er occasion a itte c"id &as ost in t"e t"ic underbrus" and timber &"ic" surrounds Mosco& on t"e nort".



/ searc" &as instituted and "undreds o2 #eo#e scoured t"e surroundin$ country. 9oin$ out to t"e scene Doctor Robinsonooed over t"e $round and t"en came bac to t"e "ouse and tod me about it. =%"e ony &ay t"ey &i ever 2ind t"at c"idis by aero#ane= "e said. !ain$ S#oane by on$>distance tee#"one "e en$a$ed ic Mamer a &e>no&n #iot to

brin$ "is aero#ane to Mosco& and stay "ere unti t"e c"id &as 2ound. %"ey 2ound t"e baby 2rom t"e aero#ane t"atevenin$.

I coud $ive you many more instances o2 t"e $enerosity o2 my "usband but t"is is ony t"e very smaest #art o2 "is bi$ nature. %o meet "im one may mae t"e mistae o2 t"inin$ t"at "is bu22 $ru22 manner indicates t"at ty#e o2 man. ot"in$ coud be 2art"er 2rom t"e trut". I reca t"at a &riter 2or Collier's Weekly came to t"e "ouse a 2e& years a$o tosecure materia 2or a story o2 Doctor Robinson and "is Movement. /2ter s#endin$ "a2 a day &it" Doctor t"is man e2tmain$ t"e statement =%"at man Robinson is t"e codest>booded individua I "ave ever met = It &as on t"e evenin$ o2

t"at same day t"at t"e =6"ite= 2amiy &as cared 2or.I su##ose t"at &"en a man t"rou$" "is &or becomes t"e centre o2 attraction in any ine t"ere are certain #enaties&"ic" $o &it" suc" #rominence. I no& &e "ave t"em. Saesmen &it" many ne& and cever sein$ sc"emes try in vainto $et an audience &it" my "usband. I2 "e $ave t"em audience "e &oud "ave no time 2or "is &or and "is &or meansmore to "im t"an anyt"in$ ese. Sometimes I t"in "e is more interested in "is &or t"an "e is in "is &i2e. %"en "e &icome "ome #ay t"e or$an and ater $et itte Forence do&n on "er bac in t"e midde o2 t"e ivin$>room 2oor and t"eret"ey &i =raste= unti one o2 t"em is tired out.

%"e a##eas 2or c"arity are many. one are ever re2used i2 Robbie "as t"e money or can $et it. ut it must beremembered t"at a Doctor Robinson $ets 2rom t"e Psyc"iana Movement is a saary and t"at is none too ar$e 2or "isneeds. Personay "e "as no needs. He "as one $reat aim in i2e and t"at is to brin$ men and &omen a cearer conce#tiono2 t"e Po&er "e beieves to e+ist. He is a dee#y rei$ious man;#er"a#s not in t"e acce#ted and ort"odo+ sense o2 t"e&ord but "e is very dee#y rei$ious nevert"eess.

!reeds do$mas rituas;t"ese mean not"in$ at a to Doctor Robinson. He beieves in t"e #resent e+istence o2 one9reat S#irit and "e beieves t"at t"e Po&er o2 t"at 9reat S#irit &"en 2uy no&n as "e beieves it can be 2uy no&n ismore t"an su22icient to recti2y t"e many is t"is &ord is su22erin$ 2rom. 9od is a #assion &it" my "usband. He never attends a c"urc" uness it is to s#ea in one and "e &oud rat"er never do t"at. His idea o2 9od is t"at o2 an ever>#resentS#iritua Po&er more t"an abe to brin$ #ermanent #eace "a##iness :oy and materia and s#iritua abundance to a.

o &ords o2 mine can describe Doctor Robinson. I2 it "as been my #rivie$e to no& "im a bit better t"an ot"ersno& "im I am $rate2u 2or t"at #rivie$e. He is a sou 2rom t"e beyond. He ives amon$ us;yet "e is not o2 us. Humanto t"e 'nt" de$ree "is ins#iration "is abiity "is dynamic $enius come 2rom a source t"at is a bit "i$"er t"an "uman —nott"at I &oud &is" to $ive t"e im#ression t"at my "usband is a =su#ernatura= bein$ 2ar 2rom t"at. I assure you "e is verynatura. He is "o&ever motivated by and 2rom a Source &"ic" must be in2inite in its nature.

He "as been caed =t"e $reatest rei$ious $enius o2 t"e t&entiet" century.= %o me "e's :ust sim#y =Robbie= a"uman ovin$ ins#ired rei$ious teac"er. I2 I &ere ased to desi$nate in one &ord t"e secret o2 "is #o&er and "is

$reatness I s"oud use t"e &ord—Sim#icity.Someone "as said t"at $enius is not"in$ more t"an "ard &or. %"at may be true. I2 it is my "usband is a $enius 2or

"e &ors incessanty. He $oes days and ni$"ts and t"e marve o2 it a is t"at "e is abe to stand u# under it. I reca a 2e&years a$o a on$>distance tee#"one ca came in 2rom Mrs Marriner S. -cces t"e &i2e o2 t"e #resident o2 t"e FederaReserve an. Doctor Robinson "ad :ust returned 2rom a 2our>"undred mie drive 2rom Portand Ore$on. He &as verytired. Ho&ever t"e itte dau$"ter o2 Mrs -cces &as i. =!oud Doctor Robinson comeE= He coud and "e did. 6it"outconsiderin$ "imse2 2or one moment "e e2t at once on a nine>"undred>and>si+ty mie drive 2rom Mosco& Ida"o toO$den 0ta". His avera$e miea$e every year by car is over 2i2ty t"ousand mies. In addition to t"is "e maes 2reAuenttri#s to t"e -ast and ot"er #arts o2 t"e country. It is &ort"y o2 note t"at &"ie "e &i eave Mosco& at one minute's noticei2 "e beieves "e can "e# someone "e "as never yet ao&ed anyone to $ive "im even 2ive cents to&ard #ayin$ "ise+#enses.

ot on$ a$o in e& ?or !ity a $rou# o2 men o22ered "im a certi2ied c"eAue 2or G(5)))).)) 2or contro o2 t"ePsyc"iana Movement. /2ter ooin$ at t"e c"eAue and t"e contract &"ic" accom#anied it Doctor smied and turnin$ tot"is $rou# o2 men said =?ou are t"e 2eo&s &"o s"oud be ivin$ in t"e stics;not I.= %"ese men "ad t"e 2aseim#ression t"at money can buy anyt"in$ and ony t"e ni$"t be2ore "ad tried to ="i$">#ressure= Robbie into acce#tin$ t"ec"eAue and si$nin$ t"e contract. =Here is &"ere you si$n —ri$"t "ere= said one o2 t"ese c"a#s in endeavourin$ to coset"e dea. Doctor Robinson #iced u# t"e #a#er and smiin$ in a dro &ay said =6e read t"e contract toni$"t and &esi$n it tomorro&;maybe.=

6"ie Doctor Robinson "as t"e re#utation o2 bein$ a very een businessman in reaity "e is not"in$ o2 t"e sort. ?oucan se "im any sort o2 =$od bric= you &ant to 2or "e is entirey too trustin$. He taes everyone at 2ace vaue and t"e

#erson &"o no&s "o& can $et a&ay 2rom my "usband everyt"in$ "e "as. %"e ony t"in$ t"at "as saved "im 2romtroube many times is t"e 2act t"at be2ore "e maes a move o2 im#ortance "e &i as me &"at I t"in o2 it. I2 I a$ree "enever &i do it so to #rotect "im a I "ave to do is to te "im to $o a"ead. %"en "e never &i.

6e ive very "a##iy "ere in Mosco& Ida"o—my "usband /2ie Forence and I. %"at is &"en my "usband is at"ome &e do. I do not no& o2 a 2amiy more com#etey in ove &it" eac" ot"er t"an t"is 2amiy is. 6"at t"e 2uture "ods2or us &e do not no&. %"ere is one t"in$ I do no&—no matter "o& 2ast t"e Psyc"iana Movement $ro&s and no matter "o& many aures are "ea#ed on my "usband's "ead t"e centre o2 attraction as on$ as &e are a "ere &i be "is "omeand "is 2amiy.

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Part One

Chapter OneIntroductory Messae

Mrs ROISO I H-R I%ROD0!%IO %O %HIS OO7 H/S very indy re2erred to me as a =sou 2rom t"e beyond.= I do not no& &"et"er t"at statement is true or not. 6"at I do no& is t"at as a resut o2 t"e "umbe i2e you areto read about t"is &ord &i see t"e da&n o2 a ne& era. It &i be an a$e &"ic" 2or t"e 2irst time in t"e no&n "istory o2 t"e &ord &i see man ivin$ in conscious reco$nition o2 t"e 9reat S#irit -9od. 9od &i not ony ive &it" men but t"econsciousness o2 t"e #resence o2 9od &i eiminate by Its o&n Po&er a t"e t"in$s &"ic" "ave made man suc" amiseraby un"a##y creature in t"e &ord o2 today.

In t"at day &"ic" &i be brou$"t in as a direct resut o2 t"e i2e and teac"in$s o2 t"is one man sorro& iness tearsdes#air 2ear yes even deat" itse2 &i be unno&n. %"ese coud "ave been #ossibe a on$ time a$o. %"ey &oud "ave

been #ossibe "ad man but no&n 9od but man "as not no&n 9od. One may trut"2uy ca t"is no&n &ord a =9od>ess= &ord 2or t"at is &"at it is. %"e no&ed$e o2 t"e 9reat S#irit>9od "as not yet been brou$"t to t"e &ord. %"atno&ed$e &i come s"orty and t"is "o#eess =9od>ess= &ord &i e+c"an$e t"e inconsistencies t"e &orries t"eim#otent rei$ious #"ioso#"ies t"e "o#eessness o2 i2e as &e no& it 2or t"e :oys t"e #eace t"e ove t"e immortaity&"ic" is 9od.

Des#ite t"e 2act t"at ma:or systems o2 =rei$ion= &it" t"eir &eter o2 caims about 9od e+ist t"e 2act remains t"att"is &ord sti does not no& 9od. %"ere are eeven ma:or systems o2 =rei$ion= o#eratin$ on t"is eart" today e+cusiveo2 Psyc"iana. / "ave di22erent =$ods= or di22erent conce#tions o2 t"e One 9od. %"eir t"eoo$ies "o&ever are taen 2or t"e $reater #art 2rom muc" oder systems o2 =rei$ion= &"ic" t"ey t"emseves ca =#a$an.= 6"ere t"at is not t"e caset"eir system o2 =rei$ion= &as manu2actured by t"em out o2 t"in air. It may "ave been "onesty manu2actured butmanu2actured it &as nevert"eess.

9od as t"is S#irit &i be reveaed to t"e nations o2 t"is eart" 'ere on$ bears no reation to any o2 t"e =$ods= t"esemany t"eoo$ica systems "ave o22ered. One oo at t"e universe around us s"oud convince t"e most sce#tica t"at t"enations are =9od>ess.= /s I &rite t"is 9ermany "as :ust taen under its =#rotectin$ &in$= t"e nei$"bourin$ countries o2

or&ay and Denmar. Ot"er sma nations &i be as "e#ess a$ainst t"e 9erman ty#e o2 a$$ression as a &a+ bi on a&ood#ecer.

%"is ty#e o2 a$$ression &"ic" beieves and #ainy says t"at =mi$"t maes ri$"t= &i i2 not sto##ed soon en$u2 t"e&"oe eart" under its =#rotectin$ &in$.= %"e name o2 t"e !reator &oud t"en be $iven itte room and t"e #ace o2 t"at!reative S#irit>9od—&oud be usur#ed by a man. <et none ar$ue t"at 9od is no&n on t"e eart" today. 6ere 9odno&n Hiter Stain Mussoini coud not e+ist. I2 9od &ere no&n 2or &"at 9od is t"ere &oud be on t"e eart" todayuniversa #eace. %"ere &oud be universa ove instead o2 universa "ate. %"ere &oud be no #overty no stries no crime

no immoraity—certainy no &ars—&it" t"eir $"asty in"uman instruments 2or t"e destruction o2 "uman i2e. %"ere coud be no iness nor coud t"ere be any deat" 2or t"e 9reat S#irit>9od—is a S#irit o2 -terna <i2e and <i2e &"ic" is 9odno&s not"in$ about deat".

So t"en I a22irm t"at 9od is not no&n on t"e eart" in s#ite o2 a our systems o2 =rei$ion.= %"e 9reat S#irit>9od —is not in t"e =rei$ions= o2 today nor yesterday. 6e must t"en oo 2or&ard to t"e true conce#tion o2 9od and t"e Po&er o2 9od in t"e 2uture. It &i be in t"e near 2uture. %"e #resent state o2 t"in$s cannot on$ e+ist.

From t"e very eariest years o2 my i2e unti today I "ave no&n Auite de2initey t"at some&"ere in me &as a directconnection &it" t"e 9reat S#irit 9od. I "ave a&ays no&n t"at I &as =set aside= 2or t"e e+#ress #ur#ose o2 brin$in$ tot"is eart" t"e trut"s o2 9od as t"ose trut"s e+ist and as t"ey &i be reveaed to manind soon. %"ey are bein$ reveaed tomen today. '-re on$ t"ere &i 2as" across t"e "orion suc" a reveation o2 t"e Divine Po&er o2 t"e 9reat S#irit 9odt"at t"is &ord &i be reborn. It "as been my ot to be t"e one c"osen by 9od to brin$ in t"is =9reat Day o2 9od.=

%"is is not t"e statement o2 a #aranoiac or a ratte brained rei$ious 2anatic —it is t"e statement o2 a man &"o ee#s

bot" 2eet 2irmy on t"e $round. It is t"e statement o2 a man &"o at"ou$" t"irteen years a$o &as unno&n today eadst"e ei$"t" ar$est rei$ion on t"e 2ace o2 t"e eart". %"is rei$ion "as demonstrated t"e actua Po&er o2 9od in "uman ivesdurin$ t"ose t"irteen years—and its record cannot be a##roac"ed by any ot"er rei$ious system in e+istence.

%"is "as been done entirey by mai. 6e "ave no c"urc"es no ministers and &e #reac" no sermons. 6e $ive to t"e&ord t"e #ain sim#e trut"s o2 9od as t"ose trut"s "ave been reveaed to us. %"ose trut"s #rove t"emseves. %"rou$" t"ePo&er o2 t"ose trut"s men and &omen are 2or t"e 2irst time in no&n "istory 2indin$ t"e Po&er &"ic" is 9od.

%"is boo &i be &ritten very sim#y. o attem#t at 2o&ery r"etoric &i be made. I am not ca#abe o2 #roducin$ a #ois"ed academic &or never "avin$ "ad more t"an a "i$" sc"oo education. It is true t"at severa educationainstitutions "ave decorated my name &it" =Doctorates= but t"is means not"in$. I do not no& any more no& t"an I did

be2ore I received t"em. %"ese are #audits o2 men. /s suc" I am not interested in t"em. %"e ony t"in$ I am interested inis t"e &or $iven me to do. %"at &or is o2 9od and 2rom t"e Ream o2 t"e 9reat S#irit>9od—I s"a receive &"atever re&ard t"ere may be—i2 any.

%"is is my i2e's story. I must &rite it in my o&n &ay. o one can "e# me. In 2act I s"a not as anyone to. I s"a$ive you t"e 2acts as I reca t"em and I s"a do t"is as "onesty as I can. I s"a do t"is as brie2y as I can. 0sin$ my o&nterms and met"od o2 &ritin$ I beieve you &i understand me. I do not &ant to &rite t"is autobio$ra#"y. I never "ave&anted to #us" myse2 into t"e imei$"t. Havin$ been #us"ed into t"e &ord's internationa rei$ious s#oti$"t "o&everand t"e demands 2or t"e story comin$ in to us in ever>increasin$ voume I "ave decided t"at t"is cou#ed &it" t"e ot"er



means I use may be one means o2 brin$in$ t"e true conce#tion o2 9od to t"is eart". o& t"at t"e boo "as been started I s"a &or day and ni$"t on it—2or t"ere is no time to ose. 6"at &i "ave

"a##ened be2ore t"is boo reac"es you I do not no&. %"e #o&ers and 2orces o2 darness are main$ t"emseves veryevident t"ese days t"ey &i never rue t"e eart". Ho&ever t"ere &i come a de2inite cas" bet&een t"ese 2orces o2 darness and t"e <i$"t &"ic" is 9od. eit"er 9ermany nor t"e /ies &i &in t"is &ar. 6ars are never =&on.= 6"at &i"a##en is t"is—t"e conce#tion o2 9od &"ic" I am brin$in$ to t"e &ord &i be universay $ras#ed. %"e Po&er o2 t"e9reat S#irit 9od &"ic" accom#anies t"ese reveations &i s#read over t"is eart" and t"at Po&er —t"e Po&er o2 t"eS#irit &"ic" is 9od—&i be so #o&er2u and breat"tain$ t"at t"ese armies—a o2 t"em—&i 2od u# t"eir tents and iet"e /rabs stea a&ay never to return.

<et me re#eat—t"e Day o2 9od is at "and not t"e day some o2 our =rei$ions= "ave #redicted. ut it is t"e Day o2

9od nevert"eess. <et me state "ere t"at &"at t"is eart" is about to discover about 9od coud "ave been discovered on$a$o. 6"y it &as not I do not no&. It may be because anot"er #icture o2 9od &as o22ered to t"e &ord. It may be becauset"ose &"o &ere o22erin$ t"is ot"er #icture used t"e s&ord to #ro#a$ate t"eir rei$ion. It may be because t"ey made menand &omen =a2raid= o2 9od. Per"a#s t"ey tod t"em t"at i2 t"ey did not acce#t t"eir conce#tion o2 9od t"ey s"oud=su22er in torment t"rou$" t"e a$es.= Or #er"a#s t"ey tod t"e &ord t"at t"ey and t"ey aone &ere t"e =ony onesaut"orised to act and teac" 2or 9od=—and it may be t"at miions o2 #eo#e earnest in t"eir searc" 2or 9od beievedt"em.

6"atever t"e reason t"e trut"s o2 9od "ave not been made no&n be2ore is beside t"e #oint. %"ese trut"s are no&no&n. %"ey &i save t"is &ord. %"ey a&ays coud "ave saved it. So t"en you &i understand t"e earnestness o2 your &riter to brin$ t"ese trut"s o2 9od to t"e #eo#e as 2ast as "e #ossiby can. Sometimes I &onder &"y I o2 a men &asc"osen by 9od 2or t"is tas. Surey someone muc" more com#etent coud "ave been c"osen. Surey someone &it" amuc" better education t"an I mi$"t "ave been caed ut t"ey &ere not and t"ere is one t"in$ I s"a never do —t"at is

s"ir anyt"in$ 9od $ives me to do. I never "ave yet and I no& no& I never s"a.Re$ardess o2 #resent e+istin$ =systems o2 rei$ion= re$ardess o2 =crimina trias= re$ardess o2 =de#ortation

#roceedin$s= yes re$ardess o2 any obstace t"ro&n in my #at" t"is &or &i continue to #ros#er in t"at &"ic" it &assent to do. O##osition &i 2a by t"e &ayside. I "ave seen t"at "a##en. Persecution &i ony "e# me succeed 2or it &istee me to t"e tas o2 brin$in$ to t"e eart" t"e Day o2 9od. %"e reasonE—%"e Po&er o2 t"e S#irit &"ic" is 9od is in t"isMovement and it Founder. %"at S#irit—t"at 9od—never can 2ai.

I s"a &rite t"in$s in t"is boo &"ic" i2 I considered my 2eein$s I certainy s"oud not &rite. I s"a "ave to bare2acts &"ic" &i be "ard to revea. I s"a not s#are myse2. %"e &ord "as not s#ared me. I s"a not s#are myse2 t"en.Rut"ess re$ret2uy and #robaby &it" tears streamin$ do&n my 2ace s"a I te you everyt"in$ I can remember &"ic""as any bearin$ on t"e &or I am no& doin$ 2or 9od and "umanity.

One is not su##osed to &rite anyt"in$ in an autobio$ra#"y &"ic" does not bear directy on t"e i2e o2 t"e &riter.-very t"in$ I s"a #ut in t"is boo "as a very direct bearin$ on t"at i2e. ?ou &i see t"e amost unbeievabe manner in

&"ic" a =bind 2ait"= in 9od &as trans2ormed into a =ivin$ 2ait".= ?ou &i see t"e sta$$erin$ resuts &"ic" are 2oo&in$.%"ere is one t"in$ I am su#remey "a##y over. %"at one t"in$ is t"at I "ave never ost 2ait" in 9od. / itte ater you &i

#er"a#s marve t"at I did not ose not ony 2ait" in 9od but my mind as &e.%"e resut "o&ever more t"an re#ays me 2or &"at itte su22erin$ I "ave $one t"rou$". -ven i2 every day 2rom t"is

day on means additiona su22erin$ and it may I s"a sti #ursue t"e course set 2or me. Re$ardess o2 "o& stormy t"e seat"is vesse &i 2i$"t t"e &aves and t"e tem#est secure in t"e no&ed$e t"at t"e 9reat Piot is on board.

One &ord o2 caution #ease. aturay t"is boo must be &ritten in t"e 2irst #erson. I am &ritin$ about myse2. So #ease understand t"at no matter &"at I reate to you no matter "o& "ard it may be to reate t"ese t"in$s no t"ou$"t o2 se2 s"a ever enter into t"is &or. I2 you ne& me #ersonay as 2e& do you &oud no& t"at :ust one t"in$ matters —toive and die 2or t"e cause o2 9od. %"e reveations &"ic" "ave come to me and t"e understandin$ is o2 9od. %"e visionas you &i see as you #ro$ress unAuestionaby is a Divine vision. %"e =ca= to service coud not "ave ori$inatedese&"ere t"an in t"e Ream o2 t"e 9reat S#irit>9od. %"at 2act I &ant you to "ave be2ore you as you read t"is boo notooin$ at Fran . Robinson but at &"at t"e messa$e o2 t"at man is meanin$ to t"is &ord. %"e messen$er is a #oor one.ut t"e messa$e is &"at matters—not t"e messen$er. In t"e in2inite &isdom o2 a 9reat 9od stran$e vesses are sometimesc"osen to carry vauabe &ine. %"in$s &"ic" are not are sometimes used to brin$ to nau$"t t"in$s &"ic" are. %"e stone&"ic" t"e buiders re:ect may "ave an im#ortant #ace in t"e 2inis"ed structure. %"e uneducated may sometimes in t"e&isdom o2 9od be used to con2ound t"e mi$"ty.

I &as ased ast evenin$ in Seatte &"et"er t"e $reat con2a$ration in -uro#e is =/rma$eddon.= ?es it is ony not t"e=/rma$eddon= some #eo#e are ooin$ 2or 9od /mi$"ty &i not descend 2rom t"e sies and commit a &"oesaesau$"ter o2 "is =enemies= 2or 9od does not o#erate in t"is manner. /ny"o& i2 t"at is t"e ob:ect t"ese =enemies= i2 e2taone &i sau$"ter t"emseves :ust as e22ectivey as 9od can do it even i2 9od &oud do it. =/rma$eddon= is2i$urativey #ictured as a =batte>roya= bet&een t"e 2orces o2 =Satan= and t"e 2orces o2 9od. %"ere never "as been a$enteman by t"e name o2 =Satan.= 6e must oo 2or anot"er de2inition o2 t"e =2orces= &"ic" are o##osed to 9od. 6e

must aso 2ind out &"at 9od is. 6"at is "a##enin$ in -uro#e is t"e natura resut o2 a 9od>ess &ord. ever "as 9od been no&n on t"is eart". Had 9od been "o& do you t"in t"ese &ar>mad &"oesae murderers coud e+istE

%"is $"asty t"in$ in -uro#e is not"in$ more nor ess t"an a "eadin$ u# o2 t"ose &"o beieve t"at mi$"t mae ri$"t.Obsessed &it" t"e insane idea t"at t"ey are a>#o&er2u t"ese men eavin$ 9od out o2 t"e #icture "ave attem#ted to ruet"e &ord by brute 2orce. %"is t"ey &i never do. ut no #o&er e+ists on t"e eart" today &"ic" can sto# t"em. It is t"ene& conce#tion o2 9od your &riter is brin$in$ to t"is eart" &"ic" can brin$ t"em to t"eir nees. <et me re#eat "ad t"e

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Po&er &"ic" is 9od been brou$"t to t"is eart" by anyone t"e eart" &oud be a #aradise today. ut t"e true conce#tion o2 9od and t"e Po&er o2 9od never "ave been no&n and "ence &e see t"e eart" as it is today. It is a #er2ecty naturacondition. It coud not "ave been ot"er&ise. 6it"out 9od on t"e eart" you see &"at "as "a##ened. 6it" 9od on t"eeart" t"e #icture &i com#etey c"an$e. May 9od $rant t"at I be man enou$" to continue to t"e end t"at &"ic" 9od "as$iven me to do.

%"ere are over 2our "undred rei$ious sects on t"e eart" today. ut ony one 9od. My :ob is to brin$ to a o2 t"em t"etrue conce#tion o2 9od &"ic" &"en it is brou$"t to t"e eart" &i banis" everyt"in$ evi brin$ eterna i2e and eterna"a##iness and t"us satis2y a t"ese sects and t"e "uman race.

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Chapter TwoMy Father

M? F/%H-R IS %H- R-@-R-D 8. H. ROISO /D /% %H- #resent &ritin$ is minister o2 t"e Mor#et"!on$re$ationa !"urc" in Mor#et" ort"umberand -n$and. I cannot $ive you "is e+act a$e but it must be cose toei$"ty years. He is I understand sti activey #reac"in$. e2ore :oinin$ t"e !on$re$ationaists "e &as a a#tist

#reac"er eavin$ t"at denomination some t"irty or 2orty years a$o because o2 t"e cosed communion. It seems t"at t"ea#tists &i not ao& t"ose o2 anot"er denomination to observe t"e sacrament o2 t"e =<ord's Su##er= &it" t"em. %"e!on$re$ationaists &i. %"is is not s"o&in$ a very $ody s#irit it seems to me but t"at's "o& it is.

Fat"er &as $raduated 2rom S#ur$eon's !oe$e in <ondon and "is 2irst &or &as at t"e !ostermon$ers Mission in a

o& #art o2 <ondon. I cannot $ive you muc" o2 t"e "istory o2 "is 2os. His marria$e certi2icate issued on 8une 11t"

1(s"o&s t"at "is 2at"er &as a #umber. %"e address is not $iven. His a$e t"en &as t&enty>t"ree &"ic" maes "im seventy>ei$"t no& instead o2 ei$"ty years o2 a$e. %"at's a ri#e a$e 2or a minister to be sti ministerin$.

My mot"er &as Hanna" Rosea !oo#e and "er 2at"er's name &as 8o"n !oo#e. His occu#ation &as =ste&ard.= /t t"etime s"e married my 2at"er s"e &as one year youn$er t"an "e or t&enty>t&o. I no& not"in$ o2 "er 2os e+ce#t t"at s"e

beon$ed to t"e 2amous 2amiy o2 Ind. !oo#e and !o. ar$e ritis" bre&ers. 6"at t"e actua reations"i# &as I do notno&. ot" "er mot"er and 2at"er &ere #resent at t"e marria$e &"ic" occurred in %rinity !"a#e in <ondon.

Mot"er &as about t"e s&eetest t"in$ it "as ever been my #easure to no&. S"e #assed a&ay &"ie I &as but a c"id —ei$"t years od. I s"a never 2or$et t"e 2ine sim#icity and beauty o2 "er c"aracter. S"e &as dee#y rei$ious. -verySunday mornin$ s"e &oud tae me to c"urc" and 2indin$ t"e sermon rat"er dry and #er"a#s no&in$ t"e #reac"er Iinvariaby &oud 2a asee# on a bac seasin coat s"e used to &ear. e2ore "er deat" #rominent s#eciaists &ere caed

but to no avai. ronc"ia #neumonia too "er. It cosed at t"irty>t"ree t"e s&eetest career I s"a ever no&. %"e deat"

occurred at o. * <iac Street in Hai2a+ ?ors"ire. S"e ies buried in Iin$s&ort" cemetery. I visited t"e $rave a 2e&years a$o. %"ere is a custom in t"e nort" o2 -n$and o2 #uin$ do&n t"e &indo& binds &"en a 2unera corte$e #asses by.%"e #o#uarity o2 t"e deceased can be :ud$ed by t"e number o2 binds #ued do&n. I remember t"at 2unera and binds&ere #ued do&n 2or mies aon$ t"e &ay.

%"e 2unera sermon &as #reac"ed by t"e Reverend Henry Davis a c"id"ood 2riend o2 my 2at"er. I s"a aude toHenry Davis a$ain. So itte did I reaise &"at &as "a##enin$ t"at &"en &e c"idren &ere #ut in t"e carria$e &e t"ou$"tit &as 2un to $et to ride be"ind a #air o2 "orses. It &as t"e 2irst suc" ride &e "ad ever "ad. %"at 2unera &i on$ ive inmy memory. I remember t"e "ymns t"ey san$ "A few more years shall roll,= and "The sands of time are sinking." /2ter t"e 2unera 2at"er &as #retty &e =broen u#.= Sneain$ u# to "is c"air in "is itte study I #ut my arms around "is nec and issed "im. =Don't cry Dad;s"e said s"e &oud see us in t"e mornin$.= <itte did I reaise &"at =mornin$= s"emeant. I "ave reaised it many times since.

Per"a#s in my nature t"ere is some o2 my mot"er's. I2 so re$ardess o2 "o& muc" $ood I am abe to do I s"a never

be abe to eAua t"e $ood s"e did. S"e &as oved by a—a beauti2u c"aracter i2 ever t"ere &as one. I &ant to mention"ere a deat">bed scene t"at "as a very distinct bearin$ on &"at "a##ened in my 2edera crimina tria "ere in Mosco&. %"eni$"t s"e died one a2ter anot"er &e c"idren &ere caed in to iss "er $oodbye. It came my turn. /2ter asin$ 2at"er andt"e #"ysician to eave t"e room s"e said =Franie t"ere is somet"in$ I must te you be2ore I $o 2or I'm $oin$.= I s"anever 2or$et sayin$ to "er =ut Mot"er you're not $oin$ 2or on$ are youE= =o not 2or on$ Franie —I' see you int"e mornin$.= %"en cas#in$ "er dyin$ arms around my nec s"e said =I &ant you to remember t"is %"ere may come atime &"en your birt">#ace &i be Auestioned. Remember you &ere not born in -n$and you &ere born in e& ?or.=<itte did I dream t"en 2orty>si+ years a$o t"e im#ort o2 t"ose &ords. <uciy I remembered t"em. I "ad a&ays beenno&n by my mot"er and "er 2os as =t"e itte ?anee= at"ou$" &"en 2at"er &oud "ear t"at "e &oud s"o&dis#easure and c"an$e t"e conversation. Ho&ever a my reatives on "er side ne& t"at I &as born in e& ?or. I s"a"ave more to say about t"is ater.

6"ie in -n$and a 2e& years a$o I visited <on$ !rendon &"ere my boy"ood years &ere s#ent;at east a 2e& o2 t"em. On arrivin$ in <ondon I sent a &ire to my 2at"er statin$ t"at I &as in -n$and and ased "im i2 "e &oud not ie tosee me. He re#ied by &ire t"at "e "ad no son by my name. I t"en &ired bac and ased "im 2or t"e addresses o2 my t&o

brot"ers &"o I ne& sti ived in -n$and. His re#y &as t"at "e ne& not"in$ o2 t"eir &"ereabouts. I discovered ater t"at "e ne& at t"e time &"ere t"ey &ere. For some reason "e did not &ant to see me or "ave me see my brot"ers.Stran$e 2at"er t"is Stran$e man o2 9od I "ad not seen nor "eard 2rom "im 2or many many years. My etters "ad beenreturned to me uno#ened. 8ust at t"e critica time in i2e &"en a boy needed t"e com2ort and advice o2 "is 2at"er t"atcom2ort and 2riends"i# &as denied me. Had mot"er ived it mi$"t "ave been di22erent— but s"e died.

6"ie in -n$and in 1,34 visitin$ od c"id"ood scenes I met a Mr Pietts &"o ne& me as a c"id. I 2ound t&o ot"er od 2eo&s &"o ne& me and &"o $ave me some very vauabe in2ormation re$ardin$ t"ose c"id"ood years o2 mine. Mr etts &as o&ner o2 t"e sma via$e baery and I reca t"e ni$"t t"e od baery "ad burned to t"e $round. I &atc"ed it

burn 2rom my bedroom &indo& in =%"e Manse= &"ic" is #ictured in t"is boo. Mr etts invited me in 2or a cu# o2 tea

and a #iece o2 cae. %"e true ritis" "os#itaity &as evident. /2ter t"e itte snac I tod etts t"at I &oud ie very muc"to see t"e "ouse in &"ic" I ived and more es#eciay t"e room in &"ic" my brot"er Sydney &as born. I remember bein$ao&ed to "od "im in my arms be2ore t"e $rate 2ire on t"e ni$"t o2 "is birt". Mr etts said "e ne& t"e #eo#e &e &"ono& ived in t"e od =Manse= and "e too me t"ere and introduced me to t"e $ood ady o2 t"e "ouse. S"e did notremember me but s"e did remember t"e Reverend 8. H. Robinson and &e c"atted 2or Auite a&"ie. =Here is a boo youmi$"t ie to see= s"e said $oin$ to a cu#board and brin$in$ out a itte voume. It contained a "istory o2 t"e <on$

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!rendon a#tist c"a#e &"ere 2at"er #reac"ed and in addition to "avin$ a #"oto o2 my 2at"er it "ad t"is to say=%"e c"urc" remained #astoress unti t"e Reverend 8. H. Robinson o2 Heney>in>/rden received a ca at t"e end o2

I* &"ic" "e acce#ted and "e entered u#on "is abours as stated minister in Marc" I. %"e ne& #astor "ad recentyreturned 2rom a on$ visit in /merica. B/t my tria on c"ar$es o2 #ass#ort 2raud in Mosco& a 2e& years a$o an a22idavit&as introduced si$ned by my 2at"er and s&orn to be2ore t"e /merican !onsu in e&caste>on>tyne t"at "e "ad never

been in t"e 0nited StatesC.%"e ne& #astor s#eediy became no&n as a #o&er2u #reac"er and ar$e and even cro&ded con$re$ations

2reAuenty $at"ered to$et"er t"e #eo#e comin$ in 2rom t"e nei$"bourin$ via$es to isten. In addition to "is ordinary #u#it &or Mr Robinson 2ound time to devote "is eoAuence to t"e c"am#ionin$ o2 t"e Peo#e's ri$"ts and "e attractedconsiderabe attention by "is bodness and 2earessness in t"is direction.=

%"is boo &as #ubis"ed by =The Bucks Advertiser = and is entited =The History of the ong Crendon Ba!tist Churchand unday chool .= I did not t"in to secure t"e boo but "ad I no&n &"at t"e 2uture "ed I certainy &oud "avesecured it. I did "o&ever tae do&n a com#ete memorandum o2 t"e re2erences to my 2at"er because even t"en t"ere&as considerabe demand 2or my i2e story. I2 I &as born in 1 it must "ave been in t"e 0.S. accordin$ to t"is boo.

%"ere &as a man in <on$ !rendon a via$e o2 one "undred and 2i2ty sous &"o ran a butc"er s"o# and made very2amous sausa$es. His name &as 9eor$e -ton. For years a2ter &e "ad e2t t"ere 2at"er &oud send to Mr -ton 2or "is2amous sausa$es. On my recent tri# t"ere I caed on Mr -ton and introduced myse2. 6e taed od times 2or youn$ as I&as t"en every incident o2 t"at youn$ i2e in t"at sma -n$is" via$e is indeiby stam#ed on my memory. =Did your 2at"er ever te you about t"e time "e tried to o#en a barre o2 beerE= -ton s"ot at me. I re#ied t"at I "ad no recoectiono2 2at"er "avin$ recounted suc" an e+#erience to me and reAuested Mr -ton to te me about it.

In brie2 a #arty &as bein$ "ed at t"e -ton "ome and Dad and a ar$e $rou# o2 ot"er =a#tists= &ere t"ere. %"is barre o2 beer &as in t"e cear. Dad 2eein$ #retty $ood aready ased to be ao&ed to o#en t"is e$ o2 beer. It &as t"e

second one to be o#ened t"at ni$"t. It's a &onder t"e a#tists don't ba#tise t"eir =converts= in beer i2 t"ey ove it so &e.I2 beer is $ood 2or t"e inside &"y is it not $ood 2or t"e outside tooE 6e 2at"er &ent do&n &it" Mr -ton to ta# t"e beer

barre. Seiin$ t"e bun$ in one "and and t"e maet in t"e ot"er "and "e $ave t"e bun$ a ta# — but not "ard enou$". %"e beer accordin$ to Mr -ton sAuirted a over t"e cear and neary dro&ned t"e Reverend 8. H. Robinson c"am#ion o2 t"eri$"ts o2 t"e common #eo#e and Pastor o2 t"e <on$ !rendon a#tist c"urc". I &as some&"at taen abac by t"erecountin$ o2 t"is "a##enin$. I &ondered &"at sort o2 #reac"ers t"ey "ad in t"ose days. I &ondered too i2 t"ey &ere notmore interested in drinin$ beer t"an t"ey &ere in savin$ sous. Ho&ever ots o2 &ater "as $one over t"e dam since t"atoccurrence unti 1,34 and I "ave earnt many t"in$s about t"ose &"o act as =/$ents o2 9od.= I never &as abe toreconcie t"e drinin$ o2 beer and &"isy &it" 9od /mi$"ty —not even at t"e -uc"arist or =<ord's Su##er=—uness o2 course /mi$"ty 9od dran beer and &"isy and &ine too. Here "o&ever &as one o2 9od's a$ents ta##in$ a beer barrein t"e cear o2 a butc"er s"o#. I've seen t"em do a ot &orse t"an t"at over a #eriod o2 2i2ty years.

0suay drinin$ and ot"er t"in$s muc" &orse $o to$et"er and evidenty t"ey did in t"e case o2 my 2at"er. %"ere

2oo&ed at t"is time an a22air &it" a #retty ady member o2 2at"er's c"urc". I ne& at t"e time youn$ as I &as t"at t"isand one ot"er a22air &ere $oin$ on. It must be remembered t"at at <on$ !rendon "e coud not "ave been married veryon$. It must aso be remembered t"at "e "ad t"e s&eetest &i2e 9od coud $ive to any man. ?et t"ese t&o a22airs

#ersisted. 6"ie t"ey &ere $oin$ on my mot"er &as sittin$ aone in =%"e Manse= cryin$ "er eyes out and tryin$ to ee#"er sorro& 2rom me. In t"e year 1,) t"e Reverend 8. H. Robinson &as =&it"dra&n= 2rom t"e a#tist denomination. He"ad a&ays tod me t"at "e =e2t= because o2 t"e =cosed communion.= I s"oud ca it a very o#en =communion.=

AUTHOR'S NOTE

I have given very serious thought to the recounting o these incidents. There !ay "e those a!ong !y

readers who !ight ee# inc#ined to criticise. $et this was the !an who% &nowing u## we## that viciousatte!pts were "eing !ade to send !e to so!e edera# penitentiary% swore under oath that he had never

"een in the 'nited (tates. He &nows u## we## where I was "orn% and so do I. I cannot conceive o any !an

who c#ai!s to "e a representative o )od stooping so #ow as to de#i"erate#y #ie when he &nows his ownson*s #i"erty !ay "e at sta&e.

However% it is not or this reason I a! inc#uding these unhappy incidents. They have a very distinct "earing on what o##owed #ater% and what o##owed #ater was a vita# part o !y #ie. I shou#d #i&e very !uch

to #eave this part o ather*s #ie out o the record+ "ut this is an auto"iography. It !ust "e tru#y written+ and

it !ust "e written so p#ain#y that you who read !ay get the true picture o the o"stac#es I had to overco!e

"eore I ca!e to the p#ace where I was ,ua#iied to #ead hundreds o thousands into the new conception o )od. I #ove that !an. I never have understood hi!. He has caused !e #ots o pain% and "y this

thought#essness% has !ade !y path i!!easura"#y harder than it shou#d have "een. (ti##% I #ove hi!. Wou#d

he a##ow it% I wou#d #y to his assistance% i it "eca!e necessary% at any !o!ent

I sti## "e#ieve that what I a! recounting here shou#d "e recounted. Mi##ions wi## read this story. I !ust

te## the! the truth even though it hurts !e to te## it...... -. . /.

6"at may ie in t"e bac$round o2 my 2at"er I "ave never been abe to 2ind out at"ou$" I "ave investi$ated Auitet"orou$"y. / etter in my #ossession 2rom t"e Reverend 8. Syvester Pouton to t"e Reverend 6aton t"e Re$istrar o2 t"eS#ur$eon's !oe$e states =Robinson a&ays taed about "is indebtedness to t"e !ostermon$ers Mission 2or rescuin$"im 2rom t"e $utter.= It is to be #resumed t"ere2ore t"at my 2at"er "ad troubes o2 "is o&n in "is eary years. I "ave arecent re#ort t"at at"ou$" "e is an od man no& at t"is #resent &ritin$ "e is carryin$ on anot"er a22air &it" a ady sin$er

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in t"e c"oir. o& 9od may be in t"is sort o2 t"in$—t"at is t"e =$od= "e #reac"es may be in it. Ho&ever I no& one 9od &"o

certainy is not in anyt"in$ on t"is order yet #racticay every minister in -n$and &i drin a t"e beer "e can $et. Is"a "ave more to say about t"ese ministers and t"eir beer>drinin$ ater on.

I reca one amusin$ incident &"ic" "a##ened in <on$ !rendon. Findin$ a ci$arette butt on t"e 2oot#at" one day onmy &ay "ome 2rom sc"oo I be$$ed a matc" and it t"e ci$arette #u22in$ a&ay ie a $ood 2eo&. 6"om did I seecomin$ to&ards me but my 2at"er. ot in t"e east abas"ed I $ave an additiona #u22 on t"e ci$arette as "e #assed bysayin$ to "im in a seriousness =Ho& do you do Mr Robinson.= I not ony 2ound out ="o& "e did= &"en I $ot "ome I2ound out =&"at= "e did. He &as merciessy crue to me. 6"y "e #iced on me I do not no&.

I reca one day in Hai2a+ &"ic" &as t"e to&n &e moved to a2ter eavin$ <on$ !rendon. 6"at I "ad done I do not

reca. It coud not "ave been very muc" t"ou$". /t any rate 2at"er ordered me u#stairs into t"e bedroom and made metae o22 every stitc" o2 cot"in$ I "ad on. %"en "e &ent to &or on me &it" "is raor stra#. I &as merciessy beaten. %"e bood 2o&ed and my mot"er &as screamin$ do&nstairs be$$in$ "im to desist. Finay "e became so e+"austed t"at "e&as 2orced to ie do&n on t"e bed. I &as co&erin$ in a corner o2 t"e room. Seein$ "im in suc" a state o2 e+"austion I&ent over to t"e bed and issin$ "im said =Did you "urt yourse2 DaddyE=

On anot"er occasion I entered "is study &it"out nocin$. He "ad a bac ebony round ruer on "is des about oneinc" in diameter. It &as very "eavy. Fyin$ into a ra$e "e t"re& t"e ruer at me and it cau$"t me over t"e e2t eye. I &asnoced unconscious and a #"ysician &as caed. I bear t"e scar to t"is day. /t t"e 2edera tria in Mosco& t"is scar &ase+"ibited to t"e :ury and it &as tod "o& t"e scar &as obtained.

I tried in vain to 2ind out &"y I merited t"e bruta treatment I received at "is "ands. Sometimes one &oud t"in t"e=sun rose and set on me.= /t ot"er times I &as a2raid 2or my i2e at "is "ands. One day &"ie #ayin$ in t"e 2ront o2 t"e"ouse I cimbed u# on t"e itte iron raiin$ you &i notice in t"e #icture o2 o. * <iac Street in Hai2a+. He caed me

in and I received t"en and t"ere one o2 t"e &orst trouncin$s I "ave ever su22ered. ot satis2ied &it" beatin$ me "et"re& me on t"e 2oor and :um#in$ on me &it" bot" 2eet said =9od curse t"e day you &ere born.=

%"e stran$e #art o2 a t"is is t"e 2act t"at no matter "o& rou$" "e $ot &it" me I sti oved t"at man. I sti do. 6e"ave not &ritten 2or years. I "ave tod you about t"e tee$rams I sent "im in 1,34 2rom <ondon. I "ave aso tod you aboutt"e yin$ a22idavit "e si$ned &"en "e ne& t"at my iberty &as at stae and &"en "e ne& t"e document "e s&ore to &asnot true. I cannot understand t"at. Ho&ever "e &as a =$reat #reac"er and c"am#ion o2 t"e #eo#e's ri$"ts= e+ce#tin$ "iso&n 2irst>born c"id. He "ad no ri$"ts.

/2ter mot"er died t"ere 2oo&ed a sie$e o2 "ouseee#ers and I coud te some interestin$ incidents "ere too. I &asnot Auite as dumb as Dad su##osed. /t any rate at"ou$" my i2e &it" "im &as "e it #robaby must "ave been "e 2or "im too or "e coud not "ave acted as "e did. %"e &onder is t"at I ever came t"rou$" at a but t"e #rotectin$ "and o2 t"e9reat S#irit>9od—&atc"ed over me and e#t me 2or t"e &or at "and. I do not 2ee t"e si$"test an$er. I &oud doanyt"in$ I coud to "e# my 2at"er. Ho&ever "e is not too 2ar 2rom t"e $rim rea#er no& and t"e &orst I &is" "im is t"at

in t"e in2inite &isdom o2 a 9reat 9od "is &eanesses may be 2or$otten.%"e sie$e o2 "ouseee#ers came to an end and 2at"er be$an main$ 2reAuent tri#s to Hudders2ied &"ic" &as :ust a

2e& mies 2rom Hai2a+. ot" cities are in ?ors"ire. In a roundabout &ay I "eard t"at "e &as about to be married a$ain.He &as and soon a2ter t"at &e &ere moved to t"at city. /rt"ur &as t"e youn$est ne+t came <eonard a beauti2u c"idand t"en Sydney and myse2. / 2our o2 us &ere moved to Hudders2ied at"ou$" none o2 us &as ao&ed to be #resent att"e &eddin$.

%"e bride t"is time &as Miss -en Hai$" t"e dau$"ter o2 &eat"y en Hai$" a te+tie 2actory o&ner o2 Hudders2ied. It &as "ere t"e rea troube be$an. Instead o2 $ettin$ better 2or me it $ot &orse. In some une+#ainedmanner t"is second &i2e too as vioent a disie to me as my 2at"er did. %"is disie became evident immediatey a2ter t"eir return 2rom t"eir "oneymoon. one o2 us c"idren 2ared too &e 2rom t"at #oint on but Fran bore t"e brunt o2 it.-veryone ese &"erever &e &ent seemed to ove me. Ony my o&n 2amiy "ated me. %"at "atred seared my youn$ sou.Here I &as misunderstood beaten cursed and tram#ed u#on— but &"yE ?ou &i see ater on in t"is story &"at t"ecause o2 it reay &as.

%"e c"a#e t"e #u#it o2 &"ic" &as occu#ied by my 2at"er &as t"e Oaes a#tist !"a#e. /t Hai2a+ it "ad been t"e<ee Mount a#tist !"a#e. / re#ort I "ave in2orms me t"at =8o"n Henry Robinson u#on s"o&in$ si$ns o2 re$ret 2or #astmistaes &as 'reinstated' into t"e a#tist ministry.= I am t"an2u 2or t"at at"ou$" I sa& no si$ns o2 =re$ret= 2or t"ecrue beatin$s I used to $et 2or t"ey sti continued ony t&o &ere a2ter me no&—not one. %"e ste#>mot"er &as a cruety#e and ="e= &as t"e order o2 t"e day in t"at ="ome o2 9od.= It &as not so very on$ a2ter 2at"er's second marria$eunti s"e &as tein$ "im t"at t"e ony t"in$ "e married "er 2or &as "er money.

<avis"in$ in &eat" drivin$ in a =carria$e and #air= &it" 2ootman and buter on t"e driver's seat I "ave seen t"issecond =mot"er= drive #ast me scores o2 times. Instead o2 #icin$ me u# and $ivin$ me a ride "ome 2rom sc"oo s"e&oud in a condescendin$ manner &ave "er "and out o2 t"e carria$e &indo& and et me &a t&o mies "ome 2romsc"oo. 6"enever I coud I &oud run be"ind t"e carria$e cimb on t"e iron bar &"ic" &ent across t"e bac and =snea=

a ride "ome in my o&n ste#>mot"er's carria$e./s I oo bac and t"in on t"ese "a##enin$s no& I 2ind myse2 more non#ussed t"an ever. ?et I &oud not "ave itany ot"er &ay. I see no& "o& t"ese crueties drove me coser and coser to t"e "eart o2 9od. %"ere I 2ound rest. %"ere I2ound #eace. %"ere s"a I ever stay unti I no& as 2uy as I am no&n. o& &e see as in a $ass dary— but t"enE—2aceto 2ace. %"e day &i come be2ore too on$ in &"ic" t"is &"oe &ord &i no& t"e $orious trut" o2 t"e #resente+istence o2 t"e 9reat S#irit>9od. /s I sit in my bedroom in my "ome in Mosco& Ida"o once more I #ed$e my &"oe

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i2e to t"e &or t"e S#irit o2 9od "as $iven me to do. I s"a be "a##y to 2or$et t"ese c"id"ood "a##enin$s —in 2act t"ey"ave been 2or$otten. Had it not been 2or t"e $enera insistence 2or t"is i2e story et me assure you it never &oud "ave

been &ritten. %"e Po&er o2 9od &i be made no&n to "undreds o2 t"ousands t"rou$" t"is unusua story and t"at is t"eony t"in$ in &"ic" I am interested.

/ 2e& mont"s &it" t"is ne& =mot"er= about made u# my mind to t"e 2act t"at i2e &as becomin$ too unbearabe. otony &as s"e &orse t"an our 2at"er but s"e started in on Sydney. He be$an to $et t"e beatin$s and so 2reAuent did t"ey

become at t"e "ands o2 t"ese t&o =#eo#e o2 9od= t"at Syd ran a&ay. %"ey 2ound "im severa days ater be$$in$ 2or 2oodon a country ane and t"ey brou$"t "im bac. in t"e meantime Mrs Robinson t"e second &as doin$ "er duty 2or =9od=

by eadin$ severa di22erent =c"urc"= societies and by tain$ an active #art in t"e Sunday Sc"oo.<eonard &"o &as a 2rai itte t"in$ a2raid to ca "is sou "is o&n esca#ed t"e beatin$s. Probaby t"ey 2i$ured t"at

"e coud not stand t"em and "ad t"ey $iven t"em to "im t"ey mi$"t "ave "ad to 2ace a serious c"ar$e in t"e criminacourts as I "ad to— but not 2or anyt"in$ on t"at order. One day a2ter &or 2or t"ey made me &or at t"e car#enter business I came "ome. /s I a##roac"ed t"e "ouse I "eard t"e most terri2yin$ screams I "ad ever "eard in my i2e.7no&in$ t"at anot"er =beatin$= &as bein$ $iven to one o2 my brot"ers I rus"ed into t"e "ouse t"ro&in$ my dinner #aiin t"e 2ront "a.

%"e screams came 2rom t"e itc"en. %"ere &as Mrs 8. H. Robinson 2orcin$ /rt"ur to stand u# a$ainst t"e itc"en&a. /s "e stood t"ere vainy tryin$ to de2end "imse2 t"is brute o2 a &oman o2 9od &as "ammerin$ "im in t"e 2ace andeyes &it" bot" 2ists. %"at &as enou$" 2or me. It &as a I coud stand —2or /rt"ur coud not "ave been more t"an ten yearsod.

%"ey say even a &orm &i turn. I turned t"at day. Seiin$ "er by t"e bac "air o2 "er "ead I t"re& "er to t"e 2oor and $ave "er some o2 "er o&n medicine. I $ave "er a $ood dose too. I s"a never 2or$et &"at I said to "er in bet&een

#oundin$s—=?ou dirty o&—do&n son—o2 a>somet"in$ I' teac" you to beat my youn$ brot"er.= S"e &i never 2or$et

t"at acin$ to "er dyin$ day. S"e &as a &oman but s"e deserved it. Or &as s"e a &omanEI ne& somet"in$ des#erate &oud "a##en &"en Dad came "ome so I #re#ared 2or it. Meetin$ "im at t"e door I

ased "im 2or an intervie&. He too me into "is study and t"ere I in2ormed "im t"at =t"at &oman= &i "ave to $o or I&i. / 2u e+#anation o2 &"at "a##ened &as demanded and I $ave it strai$"t 2rom t"e s"ouder. =?ou reaise t"at youcannot ive "ere anot"er dayE= my 2at"er ased me. I re#ied t"at I "ad ived &it" t"at =&enc"= too on$ as it &as andrat"er t"an see my brot"ers su22er and su22er myse2 I c"ose to $et out. %"ere &as a "asty =counci o2 &ar= t"at evenin$to &"ic" I &as not admitted. %"e ne+t mornin$ I &as in2ormed t"at I &as to tae =%"e Jueen's s"iin$.= %"at meant :oint"e navy. I &as taen do&n to t"e recruitin$ o22ice—t"at a2ternoon and actuay 2orced to si$n u# 2or t"e ritis" navy. %"eritis" navy is an "onourabe career but it &as a tou$" brea 2or a boy o2 my a$e. /t t"e tria in Mosco& a 2e& years a$oMr !asterin one o2 t"e 2edera district attorneys &"o so vi$orousy #rosecuted t"e case ob:ected to t"e &ords $iven byme in my testimony =2orced me to :oin t"e navy.= ?et t"ose &ords are true.

It did not tae me very on$ to no& t"at I &as in &it" t"e tou$"est bunc" o2 2eo&s it &as #ossibe to meet. I "ave

never been =tou$".= %"ere is a sense o2 re2inement to my nature &"ic" rebes at t"e 2aintest sus#icion o2 =tou$"ness= andt"is i2e in t"e navy &as &orse t"an t"e i2e at "ome. Ho&ever I &as duy =si$ned u#= and $ot t"e =Jueens s"iin$=&"ic" incidentay 2at"er too a&ay 2rom me. He &oud not even et me ee# t"at. I &as sent to t"e trainin$ s"i# H.M.S.!aedonia &"ic" ay under t"e Fort" brid$e near -dinbur$". %"is is t"e brid$e t"e 9ermans "ave tried so o2ten to bombrecenty. I no& t"e brid$e &e "avin$ &aed over it many times.

One day &"ie on duty I &as cau$"t smoin$ a ci$arette in t"e ="eads.= avy men &i no& &"at I mean. %"e boyson t"e trainin$ s"i# &ere not ao&ed to smoe but a did—even a2ter &e &ere cau$"t. %"en came t"e =tria= and t"esentence &as =t&eve stroes &it" t"e cane.= %"ese beatin$s &ere a&ays administered at noon :ust be2ore dinner. I &as=scared to deat"= 2or I "ad &itnessed t"ose =canin$s= many times. My &"oe nature revoted a$ainst t"em — but t"ere &asnot"in$ I coud do. o& "ere I &as in t"e same boat.

%o try to describe my 2eein$s and 2ear &oud be im#ossibe. I &as a2raid o2 t"at beatin$. My time came "o&everand t&o =:immy>e$s= &"ic" means =Master>at /rms= seied me. I &as stra##ed to t"e =bitts.= %"ey tied me "and and 2ootand t"ere screamin$ &it" 2ri$"t and #ain t&eve stroes &it" t"at 2ive>2oot "a2>inc" t"ic cane &ere aid on me. It &as"orribe. It #ut me in t"e "os#ita as it #ut many ot"ers t"ere too. %"e s"i#'s sur$eons a&ays &ere #resent at t"ose=canin$s= and about "a2 t"e time t"ey "ad to order t"e =:immy>e$s= to desist. %"e boys &oud 2aint &it" t"e #ain. Someo2 t"em &ent cray. Horribe is no name 2or it.

/2ter about si+ mont"s o2 t"is navy business I be$an to do a itte 2i$urin$ on my o&n account. I did not ie t"enavy. It &as 2orei$n to everyt"in$ in my nature. I be$an to attem#t t"e amost im#ossibe tas o2 $ettin$ out. Fat"er re2used to entertain t"e notion t"at "e buy me out. He &rote me t"reatenin$ me &it" t"is and t"at and tein$ me t"at i2 Iever did $et out to ee# a&ay 2rom "is "ome.

6"en a bunc" o2 youn$ 2eo&s $et to$et"er on a ritis" nava trainin$>s"i# and mae u# t"eir minds to do somet"in$ t"ey usuay do it and &e did. I "ad about si+ e+tra $ood 2riends on t"at s"i# and in t"e strictest con2idence I todt"em &"at I &anted to do—to $et out. %"ey #romised to "e# me. One o2 t"ese c"a#s by t"e name o2 Pry a 9as$o& aey>

cat invited me to t"e u##er dec one Sunday a2ternoon. =o& isten Robbie= "e said. =I' te you "o& to $et out o2 t"isman's navy. / you "ave to do is to 2a overboard. %"en $et r"eumatism. Mae your nees s&e u# and it &i a22ectyour "eart. %"en you' $et an M.!.O. &"ic" meant Morbus !or#us Or$anicus or somet"in$ ie t"at—or$anic "eartdisease.=

%"e !aedonia &as anc"ored in t"e Firt" o2 Fort" and t"is Sunday a2ternoon &as a beauti2u day. =6"en s"a I 2aoverboardE= I ased oy Pry. =Ri$"t no&—no time ie t"e #resent= "e re#ied. So overboard I &ent. %"e !aedonia &as

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one o2 t"e od eson 2a$s"i# ty#e and I "ad Auite a =dro#.= =8um#= &oud be a better &ord. /t any rate overboard I&ent. Juite a "uabaoo &as raised. /t t"e #ro#er moment oy Pry a##eared on t"e scene and I &as sent to t"e sic>bay.%"en Pry did &"at "e &as su##osed to do. He e#t me #osted on every move. He 2i+ed t"e tem#erature c"art. It ran$edabout 1)) de$rees. It &oud "ave been too bad "ad t"e doctor c"eced u# on t"at tem#erature but "e didn't.

0nder #ro#er treatment my nees started to s&e and I be$an to $et Auite s"ort o2 breat"—a under t"e direction o2 oy Pry 2rom 9as$o&. / &ise boy t"at Pry &as. In about t&o &ees t"e doctor ordered me as"ore to t"e nava "os#itaat Rosyt". %"at &orried me. 6"at s"oud I do &it"out oy PryE He a$reed to come over and see me every 2e& days and"e did. 6e ne& t"e times t"e doctors &oud come around and a&ays &"en "e #ut t"e stet"osco#e over my "eart it&oud be #a#itatin$. %"e &ay t"at &as done &as by :um#in$ out o2 bed and &orin$ my arms ra#idy u# and do&n.%"en :ust be2ore t"e #"ysicians entered I &oud scoot bac to bed a$ain. <o and be"od t"e "eart &oud be #oundin$

ie a tri# "ammer./2ter about t&o &ees o2 t"at t"e on$>coveted &ords M.!.O. &ent on my c"art at t"e 2oot o2 my bed. I2 t"osedoctors coud "ave seen my antics a2ter t"ey "ad e2t I'm a2raid I s"oud "ave been in t"e s"i#'s bri$ instead o2 in t"enava "os#ita. Finay t"e day came 2or t"e medica disc"ar$es to be si$ned. / s#ecia doctor o2 "i$" ran &as a&ayscaed to =survey= t"ose ready 2or medica disc"ar$e. %"ere &ere a ot o2 us in t"at bunc" and I t"in about t&enty>2ive

#ercent &ere =&orin$ a ticet= as it &as caed. 0n2ortunatey 2or me I &as #aced at t"e end o2 t"e ine. %"at t"re& amoney>&renc" into my =#a#itations= 2or t"e survey doctor "ed "is e+aminations in t"e midde o2 t"e day and it &as"ard 2or me to =&or my arms.= Ho&ever necessity &as t"e mot"er o2 invention. I &as too near a =ticet= to si# u# no&so t"e end &as accom#is"ed by "odin$ my breat" unduy on$.

It $ot by my =medica disc"ar$e= &as si$ned and I &as a 2ree boy. In a 2e& days I &as "anded t"e beoved =ticet="ome and &as $iven a 2e& s"iin$s. ot no&in$ &"ere to $o naturay I &ent bac "ome a$ain. I arrived on a Sundaymornin$ and nocin$ at t"e 2ront door &as ased by t"e servant &"o did not no& me to come in and sit do&n. Soon

my 2at"er came do&nstairs and seein$ me sittin$ t"ere said =6"at are you doin$ "ere—"o& did you $et out o2 t"e navyEDid you run a&ayE=

/2ter I s"o&ed "im my nava disabiity disc"ar$e "e said =6e you can stay "ere toni$"t but t"at's a. ?ou' "aveto $et out 2or &e don't &ant you around "ere.= %"en as it &as Sunday "e &ent do&n to "is c"urc" and tod t"e #eo#e aabout 9od. He &as a $reat #reac"er. He &as $reaty interested in t"e =common #eo#e.=

My return did not seem to "e# matters any 2or in addition to bein$ constanty treated as an intero#er a cou#e o2 acin$s &ere t"ro&n in. My brot"er Sydney came in 2or a =dandy= and durin$ t"e &ee I &as t"ere "e ran a&ay a$ain toesca#e 2rom "is #arents. I be$an to s"o& a bit o2 s#irit &"ic" "ad not mani2ested be2ore. On one occasion &"en my 2at"er undertoo to =teac" me "o& to be"ave= I ooed "im sAuarey in t"e eye coced my 2ists and said =I don't beieve I'day a "and on me i2 I &ere you.= Seein$ somet"in$ in my eye &"ic" &arned "im "e "ad better eave me aone "edesisted.

Sydney &as brou$"t bac and I "ad a =s"o&>do&n= t"e same evenin$ &it" my 2at"er. %"e resut &as t"at &e &ere to

be #ermanenty eiminated 2rom t"e #icture— bot" Syd and I. 6e &ere to $o to !anada. %"is a##eaed to us o2 course sot&o &ooden bo+es o2 cot"in$ &ere #aced and #assa$e &as booed 2or us in t"e steera$e o2 t"e /an iner #arisian. %"este#mot"er accom#anied 2at"er Sydney and me to <iver#oo &"ere &e embared 2or !anada. Handin$ me ten s"iin$sand a etter to a #reac"er in eevie Ontario !anada 2at"er &is"ed us bot" uc.

Seein$ t"e ten s"iin$s t"e second Mrs Robinson said =Henry "o& muc" money did you $ive "imE= On bein$in2ormed t"at t"e sum bet&een us &as t"e ar$e sum o2 G(.5) s"e said =O" t"at's 2ar too muc"= -videnty s"e "ad2or$otten t"e u+ury in &"ic" s"e "ad been raised. /t any rate t"e sum o2 G(.5) &asn't too muc" to start t&o boys o22 in astran$e and &it" not"in$ more t"an a etter to a #reac"er &"o by t"e &ay &as not a #ersona 2riend :ust anacAuaintance. I' te you more about t"is $enteman ater.

e2ore eavin$ t"is c"a#ter et me $ive you a #icture o2 t"e 2amous a#tist =2raternas= &"ic" &ere indu$ed in everymont". ?ou &i understand t"en "o& some t"in$s &"ic" "a##en ater can be accounted 2or. -very mont" t"e a#tist

#reac"ers in Hudders2ied met at eac" ot"er's "omes eac" tain$ t"e =2raterna= in rotation. /bout every si+ mont"s it&as Dad's turn to "od one. In t"ese =2raternas= t"ese a#tist #reac"ers &oud #rovide a "u$e 2eed —usuay roast bee2 and ?ors"ire #uddin$. Severa cases o2 beer &oud be ordered and t"e activities &oud be$in. /2ter t"e dinner t"ese$ood men o2 9od &oud retire to t"e study and t"e beer &oud be brou$"t in. %"e air &oud be bue &it" tobacco smoeand as t"e ni$"t &ore on sin$in$ and ot"er oud and disturbin$ noises coud be "eard a over t"e "ouse. 0suay t"e=2raterna= e#t $oin$ most o2 t"e ni$"t and t"ey &ere usuay "ed on Monday evenin$s. Had t"ey been "ed on Saturdayevenin$s I am o2 t"e o#inion t"at many a#tist c"urc"es &oud "ave been acin$ #reac"ers t"e ne+t day.

%"is &as one o2 t"e reasons &"ic" ater caused me to doubt t"e very e+istence o2 9od. In anot"er boo I stated t"at I&as =raised in t"e s"ado& o2 t"e c"urc" in a !"ristian "ome.= In t"is boo I am $ivin$ you an insi$"t into t"e =s"ado& o2 t"e c"urc"= and aso into t"e =!"ristian "ome= 2or t"at is e+acty &"at it &as.

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Chapter ThreeLong Crendon, !"#$

6- 9O /!7 O6 %O <O9 !R-DO %H/% !H/RMI9 itte -n$is" via$e situated in t"e !"iternHis in ucin$"ams"ire. eauti2u meado&s surround it and t"e son$ o2 t"e syar meo&s t"e $o& o2 t"e morn.6id bacberry bus"es $ro& on eac" side o2 t"ose country anes &"ic" ie a meanderin$ stream &ind in and outt"rou$" t"at beauti2u scene. %"e od c"urc" stands aone. %"e $raveyard &it" its sient sentines o2 t"e dead surround it.Per"a#s t"is is a #ro#er settin$—&"o no&sE

%"ere is #"ysica beauty in t"at s#ot. -very autumn t"ese via$ers =$ean= a2ter t"e "arvest 2or t"ey are #oor. '%ist"e sim#e i2e t"ey ive. Money 2ame #o#uarity—t"ey care not"in$ 2or t"ese. / t"ey as is to be et aone to ive t"eir

o&n ives in t"eir o&n &ay. Hard by is !o# !ose a $arden o2 buttercu#s and daisies t"rou$" &"ic" my youn$ 2eet ovedto #adde in t"e years o2 eary c"id"ood. Muc" &ater "as $one over t"e dam since t"ose days o2 &onder and "a##iness.Muc" more &i $o over t"e same dam. I &onder as I &rite t"is story i2 it mi$"t not "ave been better i2 Fran .Robinson "ad ived and died never strayin$ 2art"er t"an t"e con2ines o2 t"at itte via$e o2 <on$ !rendon. %"e c"urc"est"in it &oud.

On Saturday a2ternoons I &oud tae a itte baset and &"iin$ a&ay a 2e& "ours &oud #ic t"e &id bacberries&"ic" $re& in suc" #ro2usion aon$ t"ose &ondrous anes. /n od mi t"ere — but its &"ees do not turn any more. %"e

:oints are decayed and creay. ?ears a$o it $round out its ast bus"e o2 &"eat. I visited t"is od mi a 2e& years a$o. Istood on t"e itte #at2orm and &atc"ed t"e &ater ide t"rou$" t"e sient &"ee and &"ie I &as &atc"in$ t"e be 2romt"e od c"urc" be2ry toed t"e "our o2 day. It a&aened me 2rom my reverie —a sacred reverie—and reminded me t"atsoon I must eave t"at s#ot o2 #eace and tae t"e sta$e to %"ame t"ence t"e train bac to t"e city o2 <ondon —2romt"ence into a busy &ord &"ere countess t"ousands &oud see 2rom me t"e soution to t"e t"in$s o2 i2e and 9od. !an I

$ive t"em t"at soutionE ?es 2or t"e in2inite Intei$ence ca#abe o2 creatin$ a scene o2 suc" marveous beauty must ivein t"at scene some&"ere.

=%"e Manse= &as on Fro$ <ane a itte un#aved street at one end o2 t"e via$e. /cross t"e narro& street &as t"e=!ommunity Ha= &"ere 2at"er &oud =c"am#ion t"e ri$"ts o2 t"e #eo#e= by tain$ an active #art in #oitics. Iremember once t"ey #ut "im in :ai 2or re2usin$ to #ay ta+es to su##ort !at"oic sc"oos and t"ey can #ut me t"ere anytime 2or t"e same reason. %"e Savation /rmy barracs &ere on t"e corner ad:oinin$ =%"e Manse= and every Saturdayand Sunday ni$"t &e &ere treated to t"e services o2 t"at or$anisation 2ree o2 c"ar$e.

/ &a si+ 2eet "i$" surrounded t"e od "ome. In my boy"ood t"e $eraniums $re& on t"e to# o2 t"is &a. SAuireae a &eat"y and #om#ous -n$is" SAuire ived ne+t door. One day I "ad t"e temerity to cimb u# t"e &a and oo over t"e to#. %"e 2at sAuire &as sittin$ on a c"air on t"e #orc". Rousin$ "imse2 in an$er "e said to me =?ou $et do&no22 t"at &a and don't ever et me catc" you cimbin$ u# it a$ain or I' te your 2at"er.'' I cimbed do&n and never didcimb u# t"e &a a$ain. %"at t"reat &as enou$".

Our yard &as Auite sma and it &as over$ro&n &it" $rass ta enou$" t"at &"en I sat do&n in it I &oud becom#etey "idden 2rom vie&. I "ad a 2avourite s#ot in t"e corner o2 t"at yard and it &as to t"is s#ot I used to $o. %"ere

by t"e "our I &oud #onder over t"is &ord and t"e Po&er be"ind t"is &ord. <et it be understood "ere t"at at t"at earya$e my t"ou$"ts &ere amost a&ays o2 9od. On one memorabe a2ternoon I &as yin$ do&n on my bac in t"is2avourite corner o2 t"e yard ooin$ u# into t"e sy. %"at a2ternoon t"ere came to me a very stron$ conviction t"at &"at Isa& above t"at beauti2u sy—&as not a t"ere is to t"is &ord. I s"a not say t"at t"is &as eit"er a s#iritua visitation or avision. 6"atever it &as it undoubtedy "ad its ori$in in t"e $reat Ream o2 t"e S#irit &"ic" is 9od. I can 2ait"2uydescribe t"e movement and I no& as I ne& many times since t"at 9od "ad s#oen to me. 9od "ad made #ain to mein a very mared s#iritua manner t"at &"at I sa& t"ere a around me —t"at beauteous scene—t"is &ord around me—t"ese t"in$s &ere not t"e rea &ord. It &as a ra#turous e+#erience. It &as ie a messa$e 2rom t"e beyond. It &as reaistic.%"ere &as not"in$ unusua about t"at visitation or &"atever you c"oose to ca it. It &as an e+#erience &"ic" made very

#ain to me t"at t"ere is muc" more to t"is i2e t"an a##ears on t"e sur2ace./t once I made u# my mind t"at I &oud no& t"e trut"s o2 9od i2 t"at &as t"e ast t"in$ I ever did. 9oin$ into t"e

"ouse and snu$$in$ cose to my mot"er &"o a&ays understood me I said =Mammy —t"ere's anot"er &ord beside t"isone. 9od ives in t"at &ord—and you. I can 2ind t"at &ord and I'm $oin$ to 2ind it.= Mot"er as be2ore stated &as as9ody a &oman as I "ave ever no&n. %oo bad s"e #assed a&ay at so tender an a$e. I needed t"at mot"er and t"e &ordneeds a t"e mot"ers ie "er it can $et. Puttin$ "er "and a22ectionatey on my s"ouder and issin$ me s"e said=Franie dear —9od is every&"ere—not in t"e sy. He's in you in me and in t"e butter2ies &"ic" 2it 2rom 2o&er to2o&er. ?ou ive in 9od.=

%"at &as a rat"er startin$ statement 2or me to "ear comin$ 2rom t"e i#s o2 t"at sainted sou. It &as uttery 2orei$n to&"at I ne& even at t"at tender a$e as rei$ion. It did not :ibe &it" t"e t"eoo$y tau$"t by my 2at"er and ot"er a#tist

#reac"ers. I did not Auite understand it but it started a ne& train o2 t"ou$"t in my youn$ mind.=Mammy can I 2ind 9odE= I ased "er. =Darin$ anyone &"o doesn't oo too 2ar a&ay can 2ind 9od= s"e re#ied.

%"en i2tin$ me on "er nee s"e said =Franie t"ere &i come a day &"en you &i discose to t"e &ord t"e trut"s o2 9od. I cannot say more to you no& but you must ee# very Auiet about &"at I am sayin$ to you no&. ever do anyt"in$&ron$. Don't do too muc" #rayin$ and someday at t"e #ro#er time 9od &i s#ea to t"e &ord t"rou$" you.= My youn$"eart &as in ra#tures at t"at statement.

=Mammy= I said =6"en &i t"ese t"in$s beE 6i it be "ere in <on$ !rendonE==o c"id it &i be a on$ &ay 2rom "ere. %"e ne& reveation o2 9od &"ic" you &i brin$ to t"e &ord &i be so

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stu#endous t"at it &i be no&n a over t"e &ord. ?ou &i brin$ it 2rom t"e and o2 your birt"—/merica= s"e re#ied.I ased mot"er "o& s"e ne& t"ose t"in$s. S"e tod me t"at 9od &as very #recious to "er. S"e tod me t"at i2 s"e

died t"at day s"e considered s"e "ad done "er duty to 9od and t"e &ord &"en I &as born. I "ave o2ten &ondered :ust"o& muc" t"at sainted mot"er ne& &"ic" s"e did not te me. It must "ave been #enty 2or "ere &as a case o2 a mot"er2i2ty years in advance #ro#"esyin$ &"at is "a##enin$ today.

%"ere ived in <on$ !rendon a beauti2u ady &"ose name &as !arrie S"rim#ton. Mot"er and !arrie S"rim#ton s#ent"ours to$et"er tain$ about t"e t"in$s o2 9od. I never "eard mot"er ever mention t"e name o2 8esus !"rist. It &as &it""er a 9od. One day &"en 2at"er &as on a ram#a$e I remember "is sayin$ to mot"er =?es $o over to !arrieS"rim#ton's and ta about a ot o2 dam2oo rei$ious ideas you "ave. It's a $ood #ace 2or you. 6"y don't you tae "imBaudin$ to meC &it" youE= Mot"er did and t"ere in t"at itte S"rim#ton cotta$e one o2 t"e most &onder2u a2ternoons I

"ave ever s#ent &i on$ be remembered by me.I "ave aready tod you t"at at t"is time 2at"er &as "avin$ an a22air &it" a &oman o2 &eat" in t"at via$e. I ne& itand so did everyone ese. I beieve it &as t"is a22air &"ic" ed to 2at"er's =&it"dra&a= 2rom t"e a#tist ministry. %"e=&it"dra&a= did not ast too on$ t"ou$" as "e &as soon bac in t"e ministry a$ain.

%"ese moments s#ent &it" mot"er &ere #recious. Seeds &ere so&n in t"ose tender years &"ic" are today bossomin$out and bearin$ 2u 2ruit a over t"e &ord. %"e /merican Renaissance in &"ic" men and &omen s"a actuay anditeray 2ind and no& t"e Po&er o2 t"e 9reat S#irit>9od is very cose at "and. Re$ardess o2 "o& bi$ t"is S#iritua/&aenin$ becomes t"e seeds o2 it &ere #anted in t"at itte t"atc"ed =Manse= and in !arrie S"rim#ton's cotta$e. I sa&t"e cotta$e &"en I &as over t"ere. I too a #icture o2 it but it is not o2 su22icient carity to mae a cut or I &oud s"o& itto you in t"is boo. %"e &e in t"e yard you &i see.

6"en I reca "o& mot"er be$an to 2ade s"orty a2ter t"ose s&eet #eriods and &"en I remember t"at in t&o years s"e&as aid a&ay to "er eterna #"ysica rest t"e remarabeness o2 t"e &"oe scene becomes Auite vivid. S"orty a2ter t"ose

days 2at"er announced t"at "e "ad received a =ca= to t"e nort" o2 -n$and. He &as $oin$ to Hai2a+. I &e remember t"e day &e moved. %"ere &ere no automobies in t"ose days. 6"en t"e time 2or movin$ came an od ady named 6es"&as en$a$ed to move our "ouse"od beon$in$s 2rom <on$ !rendon to %"ame a 2e& mies a&ay. %"e rairoad rant"rou$" %"ame and not t"rou$" t"is via$e o2 <on$ !rendon.

Mrs 6es" drove u# in 2ront o2 t"e "ouse &it" a doney "itc"ed to a t&o>&"eeed &a$on. 6ra##in$ t"e ines aroundt"e &"i# s"e &ent into t"e "ouse to see t"e 2urniture &"ic" "ad to be moved. I &as #ayin$ out in 2ront and t"is doney"ad Auite a 2ascination 2or me. 7indred sous #er"a#s. 6it"out $ivin$ it a second t"ou$"t I cimbed into t"e dray or &"atever you &oud ca t"at t&o>&"eeed contra#tion and un&ra##in$ t"e ines 2rom t"e &"i# I said =9idda# doney.=%"e doney did.

%"is &as t"e 2irst time I "ad "ad any e+#erience &it" eit"er doneys or t&o>&"eeed contra#tions and you canima$ine my dismay &"en t"e doney started and I 2ound out t"at I coudn't sto# t"e t"in$. Puttin$ t"e ines in my e2t"and I be$an to #omme t"at doney &it" t"e &"i# in order to mae it sto# $oin$. %"at o2 course made it run a t"e

2aster and to mae a on$ story s"ort t"e doney t"e t&o>&"eeed contra#tion and I came to a "at in t"e midde o2 aar$e #ond at t"e ot"er end o2 t"e via$e. %"e &ater &as u# to t"e anima's bey and "e absoutey re2used to move in anydirection. %"ey 2ound t"e &"oe trio about "a2 an "our ater and I &as sittin$ in t"e bottom o2 t"e &a$on cryin$ my eyesout. 6"en Mrs 6es" arrived s"e caed to t"e doney and t"e stubborn t"in$ turned around and &ent ri$"t to "er. O2 course a acin$ 2oo&ed &"en I $ot "ome and t"at too a t"e #easure out o2 t"at tri# to Hai2a+ in t"e nort" o2 -n$and. I remember mot"er &as ar$uin$ &it" 2at"er a t"e &ay to Hai2a+. %"ey "ad a re$uar =noc>do&n dra$>out.=/ t"is &as because o2 t"e acin$ &"ic" &as administered to me.

o& et me $ive you a cou#e o2 incidents &"ic" &i tend to $ive you a itte insi$"t into my nature at t"at time. OneSunday a2ternoon Dad too me &ain$. He too a s"ot$un &it" "im. 6e &aed to&ards %"ame. Suddeny some

#"easants 2e& over"ead and Dad too a s"ot at t"em. He missed and I &as $ad "e did. =Dad you &oudn't s"oot one o2 t"ose beauti2u birds—you &oudn't i t"in$s &oud youE= I ased. I &as tod not to be 2oois". %"e very t"ou$"t o2 iin$ anyt"in$ "orri2ied me and to see t"e Reverend 8. H. Robinson &it" a $un ooin$ 2or birds to i s"oced me. Itmade me doubt t"e sincerity o2 &"atever "e said in t"e itte c"a#e &"ic" I &as rei$iousy made to attend. I &oud 2ar rat"er "ave s#ent an "our &it" !arrie S"rim#ton and mot"er — but c"a#e it "ad to be.

%"e itte <on$ !rendon !"a#e &as "odin$ a 6"itsuntide 2estiva in !o# !ose. Hot !ross buns and co22ee &asserved. 6e ids &ere ao&ed to &ander over t"e !ose a2ter t"e eatin$ &as over. I &anted to be aone t"at day. -very&ain$ t"ou$"t &as o2 9od and not bein$ abe to be in t"e corner o2 our bacyard I sou$"t out anot"er oney s#ot in&"ic" I coud #onder over t"e t"in$s my mot"er "ad tod me. Suddeny I came across "a2 a doen boys in a $rou#. %"ey"ad cau$"t a 2ro$ and "avin$ tied a strin$ to one o2 its "ind e$s t"ey 2astened t"e strin$ to a branc" o2 a tree eavin$ t"e

#oor 2ro$ "an$in$ at t"e end o2 t&o 2eet o2 t"e strin$. One &oud 2oo& t"e ot"er and eac" "ad a stic in "is "and. /st"ey #assed t"is #oor 2ro$ eac" &oud "it it as "ard as "e coud. %"e si$"t sicened me. /##roac"in$ t"e cro&d o2 boysa oder t"an I &as I said =oys you' "ave to sto# t"at.= I ooed t"em ri$"t in t"e eye. ormay t"at bunc" o2 2eo&s&oud "ave consi$ned my inter2erin$ se2 into t"e &armer re$ions but t"ey did not. %"ey "un$ t"eir "eads and

disa##eared. I too t"e 2ro$ do&n #ut it in my #ocet and &"en I arrived "ome made a nest 2or it in =my corner.= %"ene+t mornin$ t"e 2ro$ &as $one. -videnty it &as not "urt too muc". %"ere "as a&ays been a meo&ness to my natureso I cannot stand t"e si$"t o2 #ain or cruety. I cannot see su22erin$. /s Mrs Robinson said in "er introductory remars I&oud iteray $ive t"e s"irt o22 my bac to anyone &"o needed it more t"an I did.

I "ave been im#osed on many times. I am sti im#osed on but I cannot stand to see or "ear o2 su22erin$. ?ou canima$ine "o& I 2ee &"en I read o2 t"e rut"ess sau$"ter o2 "uman i2e in -uro#e !"ina and ot"er #arts o2 t"e &ord

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today. 6"at is &ron$ &it" t"e &ordE Ho& can men and nations be so crueE 6it" a t"e beauty 9od "as #rovided &"ymust men 2i$"t eac" ot"erE S"a I te youE %"ey do not no& 9od. In s#ite o2 &"at "as been tod t"is &ord by rei$iousor$anisations t"e &ord and men 2os do not no& 9od. Soon t"ey &i.

%"e ni$"t &e moved 2rom <on$ !rendon into %"ame a circus &as in t"at to&n. %"at &as somet"in$. 6e "ad never seen a circus and Dad &oud not et us see t"at one. 6e stayed t"at ni$"t at t"e "ome o2 one Mr 8ones a stationer andour bedroom &as directy o##osite t"e circus. aturay as a ids t"at a$e &oud do I o#ened t"e &indo& and &astain$ in t"e si$"ts. %"e Merry>$o>round t"e s&in$s t"e coa>oi i$"ts —t"ese &ere a ne& to me. <eanin$ a bit too 2ar out o2 t"e &indo& I 2e out and anded on t"e a&nin$ beo& &"ic" 2ortunatey "ad not been &ound u# &"en 8onescosed "is s"o# t"at ni$"t. 6e I &as in a #redicament t"at time. I ne& t"at I &oud be &"aed &it"in an inc" o2 my i2ei2 2at"er 2ound it out and yet I did not no& &"at to do about it.

<ooin$ over t"e ed$e o2 t"e a&nin$ I decided t"at it &oud not be too bi$ a dro# to t"e 2oot#at" so I dro##ed. %"ent"e bi$ #robem came. I &as standin$ on t"e 2oot#at" in my ni$"ts"irt. %"e #robem &as—=Ho& can I $et bac into t"e bedroom &it"out Dad seein$ meE= 6e I did it. Sneain$ in t"e bac door I stoe u#stairs and to t"is day my 2at"er doesnot no& about my 2ain$ out o2 t"at &indo& in t"e itte s"o# in %"ame. He &i #robaby read t"is stran$eautobio$ra#"y. I2 "e does "e &i &onder &"at sort o2 memory I "ave to remember t"ese itte incidents a2ter 2i2ty years

but I remember most o2 t"em—and many ot"er t"in$s too—suc" as t"e ar$e estate I s"oud "ave "ad but did not $et.Ho&ever I no& &"ere it &ent.

It is not my desire to embarrass 2at"er but t"e Psyc"iana Movement is o2 &ord>&ide im#ortance no&. %"e true storyo2 its 2ounder must be tod. I cannot on$er re2use to &rite it. It &i "urt Dad —or &i itE In any event t"e 2eein$s o2 oneman are o2 itte im#ort &"en t"e 2uture o2 rei$ion in t"e &ord is at stae. I ove "im sti —I a&ays s"a. I do not care&"et"er or not t"at ove is reci#rocated. I no& it is not. %rue ove no matter to &"om it is directed &i re$ister in one&ay or anot"er. <et us "o#e t"at t"e ast 2e& years o2 t"at mis$uided 2at"er's i2e are 2ree o2 #ain. <et us "o#e t"at ere it is

too ate "e 2inds and no&s t"e uns#eaabe :oys &"ic" come 2rom bein$ =at one &it" =9od= "ere and no& and not a2ter deat" or beyond t"e tomb. 9od ives no&. / t"e Po&er o2 t"at 9reat S#irit may be no&n no&. I2 t"at is not #ossibe—t"ere is no 9od—&e are a creatures o2 c"ance. %"at no t"inin$ man or &oman &i admit.

%"ere &as never a ni$"t or a day &"en I did not ta &it" 9od. ot &it" 8esus !"rist but &it" 9od. I never $ot do&non my nees. I instinctivey ne& t"at some $reat &or 2or 9od &oud be done by me— but t"en—I &as ony a c"id. I "adto earn a ot o2 t"in$s be2ore I coud be Auai2ied to do anyt"in$ o2 im#ortance 2or eit"er 9od or man. I beieve I can beste+#ress my 2eein$s by sayin$ t"at t"rou$" t"ese years t"ere &as an insatiabe desire to—actuay no& &"o and &"at9od &as. 6"ere I made t"e mistae &as in not ee#in$ Auiet and ettin$ 9od revea Himse2 to me &"ic" 9odundoubtedy &oud "ave done—"ad I earnt t"e esson I no& no&. I t"ou$"t t"ere &as somet"in$ I "ad to do. 6"at Ino& no& is t"at everyt"in$ I did to try to brin$ t"e #resent consciousness o2 9od to me &as a &ron$. / 9od &antedme to do &as to ee# Auiet—to be sti. %"en at t"e #ro#er moment I &oud be $iven bot" t"e Po&er and t"e o##ortunityto carry out t"e #ur#oses o2 9od. %"e $reatest and most #ro2ound ei$"t &ords in my i2e are— Be still, and know that $ am

%od . /nd t"at does not mean 8esus !"rist. / true rei$ious e+#erience is somet"in$ ie a inder$arten. ?ou start &it"sim#e t"in$s. %"en as you master t"em you #ro$ress into t"in$s o2 more im#ort. %"e troube &it" anyone's $ettin$ anysort o2 rei$ious e+#erience today is t"at so many cray t"eories o2 9od "ave been advanced t"at I very muc" Auestion&"et"er t"ere are si+ #eo#e on t"e 2ace o2 t"e eart" &"o truy no& &"o and &"at 9od is. %"ere are miions o2 c"urc"members but t"at's somet"in$ ese as &e s"a see ater.

I "ave seen ots o2 =rei$ion= in my day. I "ave seen rei$ion in action. I sa& it neary beat its o&n sons to deat". I sa&it $uin$ beer by t"e $aon. I sa& it "avin$ iicit intercourse &it" members o2 its o&n c"urc". I sa& it ie under oat". Isa& it stea. I sa& it as it e+ists today. I do not &ant t"at sort o2 rei$ion 2or rei$ion or &"at masAuerades as rei$ion "asnot c"an$ed 2or t"e better since my boy"ood days. It "as $one so 2ar t"at t"e &"oe &ord no&s it 2or &"at it is —a$"asty s"am #er#etrated on t"e &ord by t"e c"urc" in t"e name o2 9od.

I do not care &"at rei$ion did to me and it marred me. I do not care "o& I "ave su22ered t"rou$" rei$ion —and I"ave su22ered. I am ony $ad to reaise and no& t"at at ast—t"e actua trut"s o2 t"e 9reat S#irit>9od are be$innin$ toda&n on t"is eart". 6"at a day 6"at a res#onsibiity 6"at a coveted #rivie$e is mine Many tryin$ times ie a"ead.Many "ard battes remain to be 2ou$"t. %"ese battes "o&ever &i be &on—2or I earnt &e t"e esson— Be still, and

know that $ am %od . %"e ca is cear. %"e ob:ective is 9od. %"e Po&er comes 2rom 9od. Ho& t"en can I 2aiE6e arrived at Hai2a+ t"e ne+t evenin$ and &ere entertained by a Mr -ra 7na#ton. He 2ed us #otted meat 2or

su##er and I &is" I coud $et some o2 t"at #otted meat today. /2ter su##er or =tea= as t"ey ca it in -n$and &e se#t inMr 7na#ton's "ome movin$ into o. * <iac Street t"e ne+t day. I &as sent to t"e <ee Mount oard Sc"oo bein$ t"eony one o2 t"e boys od enou$" to $o to sc"oo. /t t"e tria Mr !asterin tried to mae me out a iar &"en I stated t"at I2irst &ent to sc"oo in <on$ !rendon at t"e a$e o2 t"ree. He 2aied as a Mosco& ady o2 -n$is" $ir"ood corroboratedmy statement t"at c"idren did $o to sc"oo in -n$and at t"ree.

%"e ony t"in$ t"at "a##ened in Hai2a+ &as t"e sad deat" o2 my mot"er. S"e continued to #ine and &aste a&ay. S"ecoud not stand to see &"at s"e &as 2orced to see. S"e coud not bear to see t"e re#eated t"ras"in$s and ot"er bruta

su22erin$s I &as made to $o t"rou$". Her s&eet i2e be$an to ebb a&ay. ronc"ia #neumonia t"ey caed it. I no& t"etrue name. I "ave aready tod you o2 t"e remarabe 2unera. I no& no& t"at "er =deat"= &as ony #"ysica. BRead Blood

on the Tail of a #ig .Cet&een t"en and t"e time 2at"er married a$ain and moved us to Hudders2ied t"ere started an a22air &it" anot"er

member o2 Dad's c"urc". %"is time it &as a Miss Mart"a Hurey. I no& because one day on my &ay "ome 2rom sc"ooI dro##ed in on Miss Hurey &it"out nocin$. So I no& and bot" 2at"er and Miss Hurey no& t"at I no&. %"is did

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not do me any $ood—i2 anyt"in$ it made t"e #unis"ment more 2reAuent.O##osite our "ouse at o. * <iac Street &as t"e #arsona$e o2 t"e !"urc" o2 -n$and &"ic" stood one boc a&ay. /

Reverend Parinson &as t"e rector or &"atever it is an -#isco#a #astor is caed. In Mosco& t"ey ca t"e -#isco#aminister =2at"er= so "e must be a #riest. In t"e corner o2 t"e c"urc"yard I made anot"er itte #ace out o2 $rass and t"ere&as estabis"ed anot"er rendevous &it" 9od. %o t"is itte s#ot I &oud $o at every o##ortunity and t"ere &it" =anunno&n 9od= to $uide me I &oud #our out my on$in$s and desires. I &oud ta &it" 9od :ust as I ta &it" ot"ers —ony—&it" a $ood dea more earnestness.

O2ten t"e or$an re#airer &oud come to t"is !"urc" o2 -n$and and &"en "e did 2at"er &oud mae me stay out o2 sc"oo and bo& t"e or$an 2or t"e man &"ie "e re#aired it. I &as #aid t&o s"iin$s &"ic" 2at"er rei$iousy e#t.

ot one #enny did "e $ive me to s#end 2or candy. Ot"er boys "ad money— but not I. %"e times &"en I &as ao&ed to

$o and #ay in t"e street in 2ront o2 t"e "ouse &ere 2e& and 2ar bet&een. Many times in t"e midde o2 t"e ni$"t "ave Ia&aened and Auiety cre#t out o2 t"e "ouse to =ta &it" 9od= in t"e itte c"urc"yard across t"e street.I reca one Saturday &"en 2at"er "ad sent me =do&n>to&n= to "ave "is Sunday sermon sub:ects inserted in t"e daiy

ne&s#a#er. He "ad encosed t"e cost in coin and in some manner t"e coin "ad been ost out o2 t"e enveo#e. 6"en Iarrived at t"e ne&s#a#er o22ice and "anded in t"e notice t"e man in c"ar$e said =6"ere is t"e moneyE= I re#ied t"at it&as in t"e enveo#e &it" t"e notice. ''o it isn't—and you $et no 2ree announcements in t"is #a#er. ?ou'd better $o "omeand $et t"e money.= I &as too a2raid to $o "ome so I &andered t"rou$" a #ar t"at ni$"t and a t"e ne+t day. %"atevenin$ a #oice aarm &as sent out 2or me. 6"en t"e =bobbies=' 2ound me I &as standin$ a$ainst a tree stum# usin$ it2or a mae>beieve #u#it and I &as #reac"in$ to t"e trees and s"rubs.

%"e #oice o22icers tod me ater t"at t"at &as t"e ony rea sermon t"ey "ad ever istened to —=and it &as a boody$ood one= one o2 t"ese o22icers said. /rrivin$ "ome in custody o2 t"e o22icers I ne& anot"er &"ain$ &as in order. It&as duy at"ou$" not t"an2uy received. I noticed t"at as soon as 2at"er secured "imse2 anot"er =interest= in

Hudders2ied "e #aid ess attention to me. I ied t"at 2or "e "ad #aid ato$et"er too muc" attention to me so 2ar. One daya2ter a bruta attac I came do&n &it" doube #neumonia. My i2e &as des#aired o2 but it &as mot"er &"o ooed a2ter me and nursed me bac to "eat" a$ain.

Someone "ad $iven me a meta =ni$$er= &"ic" "ed its "and out and &"en a coin &as de#osited in t"e "and a ever &as #ressed in t"e bac o2 t"e =ni$$er= and "e s&ao&ed t"e coin. 6"ie convaescin$ I &ored t"at =ni$$er= overtime.I "ad t"e ban 2u 2or it reay &as a c"id's savin$s ban. /s soon as 2at"er 2ound out &"at I "ad been doin$ "e too t"e=ni$$er= a&ay 2rom me broe it o#en #ut t"e money in "is #ocet and I "ave never seen t"at =ni$$er= since.

I "ad some $ood times in Hai2a+ t"ou$" and made many 2riends. I s"a never 2or$et t"e &a$onettes &e used to"ire &"ic" 2ied &it" Sunday sc"oo #eo#e &oud drive out onto t"e moors. %"ere in t"e meo& $o& o2 evenin$ &e&oud sin$ t"e od son$s. One I remember #articuary

ummer suns are glowing, over land and sea,

+appy light is flowing, !ountiful and free;

verything re%oices, in the mellow ray,

$nd earth's thousand voices, sing a song of praise.

CHO/'(

Oh, $lmighty iver, !ountiful and free,

-ay we seek thy favour, ever !eing free.

%"at is &"at I &anted—to be 2ree to no& 9od. Durin$ t"ese #icnics onto t"e beauti2u moors o2 ?ors"ire I &oud be missed 2rom t"e cro&d. Someone &oud say =6"ere's Fran RobinsonE= / searc" &oud be started and t"ey &oud2ind me o22 in some corner o2 a 2ied communin$ &it" 9od. %"ere never &as t"e si$"test s"ado& o2 doubt but t"at &"atmot"er "ad tod me &oud come to #ass. Had I no&n "o& "ard t"e #at" &as to be I mi$"t "ave s"run 2rom it but I didnot no&—%"an 9od 2or t"at

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Chapter -ourIn Canada

O- S0? /F%-ROO I 80- %H- /<</ <I- S%-/M-R #arisian &as nosin$ its &ay so&y u# t"eSt. <a&rence river to&ards Montrea. %"e tri# 2rom <iver#oo "ad been success2uy made t"rou$" t"e Straits o2 eeIse and t"e &arm suns"ine and cam &ater o2 t"e St. <a&rence &ere &ecome reie2 to t"e stormy #assa$e across t"e/tantic. <ater in t"e a2ternoon as t"e steamer neared t"e #ort t"e decs &ere ined &it" ea$er men and &omen &atc"in$and &aitin$ to enter t"eir ne& "ome.

Most o2 t"e #eo#e on t"at s"i# &ere emi$rants. %"ey "ad come 2rom t"e =od country= seein$ 2ame seein$2ortune or seein$ :ust a "ome on some &estern ran$e. / motey cro&d t"ey &ere—youn$ and od— #enniess and &e>

to>do 2or in t"e 1,))'s t"ese #assen$er s"i#s carried every conceivabe sort o2 #assen$er. Sittin$ astride one o2 t"e ar$ecabes in t"e bo& o2 t"at steamer &ere t&o youn$ boys one your &riter t"en 2ourteen years o2 a$e. Sydney "is brot"er&as t&eve years od. Juite youn$ t"ey &ere too youn$ in 2act to be sent to a ne& and stran$e and but "ere t"ey &erea e+citement as t"e steamer doced.

%"e 2act t"at t"ey &ere 2at broe did not seem to &orry t"em. %"e ten s"iin$s so $enerousy donated to t"em byt"eir 2at"er "ad $one 2or candy and so2t drins on t"e &ay over. o—t"ey &ere not Auite broe—2or Sydney "ad saved aAuarter out o2 t"e &reced ten s"iin$ ca#ita &it" &"ic" t"ey started. %&enty>2ive cents —t"at &as a and t"e etter t"ey"ad in t"eir #ocet &as addressed to a a#tist #reac"er ei$"t "undred mies a&ay. %"ey "ad no ticet to eevieOntario— :ust t"is t&enty>2ive cents. 6"en t"e customs ins#ection &as out o2 t"e &ay t"ese t&o boys be$an to &onder &"at came ne+t. %"ey "ad no&"ere to $o. Somet"in$ ie t"e traditiona aarene =2o+es "ad t"eir "oes birds "ad t"eir nests= but t"ese t&o #reac"er's sons "ad no&"ere to ay t"eir "eads so t"ey did t"e ne+t best t"in$.

Montrea !anada is a ar$e city—2ar ar$er no& t"an it &as t"en but it ooed Auite ar$e to Sydney and me as &e

meandered around t"e streets in t"e midde o2 t"e ni$"t not no&in$ &"ere to $o &"at to do &"ere to see# and &it"ony t&enty>2ive cents bet&een us &it" &"ic" to eat. 6e certainy &ere =on our o&n= 2or sure. Outside otre Dame!at"edra t"ere &ere some seats occu#ied by ot"ers as broe as &e. -very so o2ten t"e #oice &oud come aon$ and ra#t"e 2eet o2 t"ose &"o "ad dared to stretc" out and try to snatc" a bit o2 see#. / ty#es &ere on t"ose benc"es —ums andnear>bums do&n>and>outers druns— bad cro&d and one to &"ic" &e "ad not been used. 6e "ad seen sma $rou#s o2 =men o2 9od= $et drun —in 2act &e sa& t"at ever so o2ten. Ho&ever t"ese men &ere res#ectabe—t"ey &ere &e dressed—t"ey "ad su22icient 2ood to eat and t"ey "ad a #ace to see#. %"is sort o2 cro&d "o&ever &e "ad never seen be2ore.

%"e "ours dra$$ed by. %"ere &e sat Sydney and no c"ance o2 eadin$ t"is &ord to 9od as &e sat t"ere. %"e coc int"e cat"edra struc 2our. 6e &ere bot" $ettin$ "un$ry so =borro&in$= t"e t&enty>2ive cents 2rom Sydney I tod "im to&ait t"ere and #romised "im I &oud return s"orty &it" a sac o2 cooies or somet"in$ ese to eat. I 2ound an a>ni$"trestaurant and bou$"t a sac o2 mi+ed cooies and dou$"nuts. %"ese I too bac to Sydney and &e sat t"ere eatin$ t"em.%"en &e &ere reay and truy broe but t"e =eats= &ere $ood.

%"at day &e &aed around Montrea not no&in$ &"at to do. %ain$ t"e etter to t"e Reverend 6aace 2rom my #ocet I read and reread it. It &as :ust a #ain 2orma note 2rom my 2at"er one a#tist #reac"er to t"e Reverend 6aaceanot"er a#tist #reac"er. %"e note stated t"at—

This letter will introduce to you my two sons, rank and ydney. I trust that you will !e a!le to help them find something to do in )anada./

%"e Reverend 6aIace ived ei$"t "undred mies a&ay and t"at etter "ed no "o#e t"at I coud see. It must beremembered "ere t"at &e "ad never be2ore been t"ro&n on our o&n. %"e &onder to me is t"at eit"er o2 us is aive today./ $reater &onder is t"at &e did not 2a in &it" t"e &ron$ #eo#e and $o do&n t"e scae to t"e o&est de#t"s. Finay anIris" #oiceman saved us 2or t"e very ne+t ni$"t &"ie bot" &ere see#in$ on t"is benc" outside o2 otre Dame!at"edra 2et a ta##in$ on t"e soe o2 one 2oot. /&aenin$ I sa& t"ere one o2 t"e bi$$est Iris"men I "ave ever met.=Sure and &"at is it t"e ies o2 ye t&o arr doin' sittin$ outside o2 t"is "ouse o2 t"e <orrd at t"is "our o' t"e morrnin'E=

said t"e o22icer.6e $ave "im t"e story o2 our arriva on t"e .. #arisian and s"o&ed "im t"e etter to t"e Reverend Henry 6aace o2

eevie Ontario. =6e t"at's a "e o2 a on$ &ay 2rom "ere and be$orra ye can &a i2 ye &ant to but maybe Oi can2oind ye anot"er &ay to $it t"ere—ye "ad bet"er 2oo& me... come on= said our 2riend —2or t"at is &"at "e #roved to

be. =ever "eard o2 a #rac"er turnin' t&o ids t"e ie o2 ye out oose in t"e &orrd be2ore= "e said =6"at sort o2 a #rac"er is t"e monE= 6e side>traced t"e Auestion and 2oo&ed Pat 2or t"at is #robaby &"at "is name &as to t"e ar$estrai&ay station in t"e city o2 Montrea. %"ere "e met a city detective and e+#ainin$ t"e situation to "im caed a rai&ayo22icia into a "udde.

%"e 2irst t"in$ &e ne& &as t"at &e &ere to "ave 2ree rai&ay trans#ortation to eevie. %"at sounded $ood. O2 course &e &ere "un$ry a$ain but t"at did not matter. Surey t"e Reverend 6aace &oud oo a2ter us &"en &e arrivedt"e ne+t day. 6e mana$ed to =be$= a bit o2 2ood on t"at ride 2rom Montrea to eevie and &e arrived t"ere t"e2oo&in$ day &"ic" "a##ened to be Sunday. It &as about a t&o>mie &a 2rom t"e de#ot to t"e "ouse o2 t"e Reverend

6aace and at about seven o'coc in t"e mornin$ &e arrived t"ere. 7nocin$ at t"e door or rat"er rin$in$ t"e be &e"eard an u#stairs &indo& o#en and a voice s"outed =6"o is it —&"at do you &antE= acin$ u# 2rom t"e #orc" andooin$ u# at t"e &indo& be"ed t"ere a bes#ectaced individua &it" a on$ #ointed =biy>$oat= beard.

=6e are Fran and Sydney Robinson t"e sons o2 t"e Reverend 8. H. Robinson o2 Hai2a+= I tod "im. =Fat"er saidt"at you &oud oo a2ter us and "e# us 2ind :obs &"en &e $ot "ere.= It did not tae t"is a#tist man o2 9od very on$ to

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s"o& "is indi$nation at bein$ disturbed at seven in t"e mornin$ nor did it tae "im very on$ to te us t"at "e &as a very busy man. Moreover "e never did any business on Sunday. =!ome bac tomorro&= "e s"outed as "e baned do&n t"e&indo&. =I &is" "e'd "ave cau$"t "is &"isers in t"e &indo&= said Syd and &"ie I did not re>ec"o t"at sentiment it&oud "ave been very easy to "ave done so.

6e "ere &e &ere a #reac"er's t&o sons re2used a #ace to stay and somet"in$ to eat by anot"er #reac"er. I "ave asi+teen>year>od>boy /2red and re$ardess o2 &"at "e mi$"t do re$ardess o2 &"at sort o2 :am t"at boy mi$"t $et into I&oud stand by "im t"rou$" t"ic and t"in. I cannot conceive o2 my ever sendin$ "im on a 2our>t"ousand mie :ourneyinto a stran$e and &it" G(.5) in "is #ocet. Ho& my 2at"er's mind reasoned I do not no& and I never &ant to no&.?et "e &as a re#resentative o2 9od. He &as in =t"e a#tist c"urc"= and as suc" &as su##osed to te ot"ers "o& t"eymi$"t 2ind 9od. 6"at s"am and "y#ocrisy is t"at %"is man 6aace &as not one iota better. %"ese men may "ave no&n

=$od= but t"ey certainy did not no& t"e 9od I no&.It maes no di22erence &"ic" system o2 rei$ion one may tae to anayse today t"ey are a aie. -ac" "as aconce#tion o2 9od &"ic" &as eit"er borro&ed or stoen 2rom an oder system o2 rei$ion or it &as manu2actured out o2 t"in air 2or t"e convenience o2 t"e #articuar system o2 rei$ion &"ic" #romoted it. %"ere is no system o2 t"eoo$y nor ist"ere one rei$ious or$anisation on t"e 2ace o2 t"e eart" &"ic" is $ivin$ to manind t"e true conce#tion o2 9od —not one.-ac" and every =$od= is eit"er a man>made or a c"urc">manu2actured =$od= &"o never e+isted in reaity or in trut". %"isa##ies to every system o2 t"eoo$y in e+istence. Herein ies t"e ma$nitude o2 t"e Psyc"iana Movement. It is t"rou$" t"isMovement and t"rou$" t"is Movement aone t"at 9od t"e %rue S#irit is bein$ reveaed to t"e &ord. %"e man &"o isno& reveain$ t"at S#irit to t"e &ord &as t"e boy &"o neary 2orty years a$o stood outside t"is a#tist #reac"er's "ome

broe "un$ry and &it" no #ace to see#.It seems to me t"at some&"ere in t"e bibe o2 t"e denomination o2 t"is man are &ords &"ic" read somet"in$ ie t"is

/Inasmuch as yea did it not unto one of the least of these my !rethren— ye did it not unto me./

I do not no& &"et"er or not t"ey "od =2raternas= in !anada. I2 t"ey do undoubtedy t"e Reverend 6aace coud be 2ound $uin$ beer and smoin$ ci$ars in t"e midst o2 t"em a. For t"ese t"in$s &ere done and are sti done by t"ese=men o2 9od.=

On Monday mornin$ t"e 2oo&in$ day Sydney and I rea##eared at t"e "ome o2 t"e Reverend 6aace. %"is time it&as not Auite so eary. %"e ni$"t be2ore &e "ad met a ivery>barn #ro#rietor caed Mie McMa"an in eevie andMie ao&ed us to see# in t"e "ay>o2t over t"e "orses. Stran$e "o& Iris"men &ere comin$ into our #icture. First it &asan Iris" #oiceman in Montrea—no& an Iris" ivery barn o&ner. /ny&ay &e se#t and t"e ne+t mornin$ Mie sa& to itt"at &e "ad a bite to eat. In eevie recenty I ooed Mie u#. Rat"er I inAuired about "im ony to 2ind t"at "e on$since "ad #assed to "is "a##y "untin$ $rounds or &"erever it is $ood Iris"men $o &"en t"ey die yes bot" t"e Montrea

#oiceman and Mie McMa"an &ere $ood Iris"men—no doubt about t"at. %"e t&o a#tist #reac"ers &oud not 2eed us —one sent us a&ay to a stran$e and &it" G(.5) and t"e ot"er on t"e <ord's Day &as too =busy= Bin bed in "is ni$"ts"irtC to

see us./not"er #assa$e o2 scri#ture 2rom t"e bibe o2 t"e a#tist comes to me "ere. It runs somet"in$ ie t"is

/Inasmuch as yea did it unto the least one of these, my !rethren, yea did it unto me.'

%"e t&o Iris"men t"ere2ore &ere better men t"an t"e t&o =re#resentatives o2 9od in t"e a#tist denomination.=On t"is second visit to t"e "ome o2 brot"er 6aace &e &ere s"o&n into a ar$e cod room and t"ere catec"ised 2or

2urt"er orders. 6"y &ere &e "ereE—&"at did &e intend to doE—did &e "ave any moneyE—&ere &e =savedE=—and a otmore 2oois" Auestions on t"e same order. Finay a2ter $ivin$ us a 2ree mea &"ic" "e reay did and I say t"is to t"eman's credit &e &ere sent to di22erent 2arms. I &ent to 9eor$e acon at !orbyvie a 2e& mies 2rom eevie &"eret"e 2amous Sea$ram's 6"isey #ant is ocated. I don't no& &"y I &as sent t"ere uness it &as to remind me o2 t"e=2raternas.=

%"e =saary= &it" Mr acon &as t"e ar$e sum o2 G(.5) a mont" and board. Some o2 t"e =board= &as more ie a board t"an anyt"in$ I "ave seen. In any event be$$ars s"oud not be c"oosers so to 9eor$e acon in !orbyvie I &ent.%"e 2unny #art o2 t"is story ies in t"e 2act t"at at"ou$" t"e Reverend 6aace &as =too busy= to ta to us t"at Sundaymornin$ and =too busy= to $ive us somet"in$ to eat or a #ace to see# "e did e+act "is =#ound o2 2es"= 2rom me. It costme t"ree mont"s' &a$es &"ic" &ent to "im 2or =securin$ t"e #osition.= eieve me &"en one "ad &ored one mont" 2or acon "e ne& "e "ad &ored.

Sydney "it it o22 a bit better. He &as sent to Deseronto about si+ty mies 2rom eevie. His =saary= &as G5.)) amont" and 9oud &as a rea 2eo&. %"is man acon $ot me u# be2ore dayi$"t and &e never ate su##er unti dar —anda 2or G(.5) a mont"—a2ter 6aace t"e =man o2 9od= in eevie "ad taen "is to. I don't beieve t"ere is suc" a

#ace as ="eaven= and t"ere2ore neit"er 6aace nor I can $o t"ere. ut i2 I s"oud be &ron$ and t"ere s"oud be suc" a #ace I can't "e# but beieve my c"ances are 2ar better t"an "is. I su##ose t"is man is on$ dead and $one and #er"a#s Is"oud not ta about "im. %"is story "o&ever &i be truy tod.

One t"in$ Mr acon insisted on &as t"at I attend c"urc" &"ic" incidentay I re2used to do. /2ter &orin$ si+ days

in t"e =2ieds o2 acon= I needed a rest. I needed a rest bady. !"urc" did not a##ea to me. I never &anted to see t"einside o2 anot"er c"urc" a2ter t"is e+#erience &it" t"e =a$ent o2 9od= in eevie. acon and I cas"ed on t"e c"urc"sub:ect and a2ter t"e 2irst batte c"urc" &as never mentioned a$ain. I'm :ust &onderin$ &"y it &as t"at 9eor$e acon&as so insistent t"at I $o to c"urc". I2 "e "ad rei$ion I never sa& it—uness o2 course it &as t"e same ind o2 rei$ionmy 2at"er and t"e Reverend 6aace "ad.

/2ter I "ad &ored on$ enou$" to #ay 6aace "is =2ee= I be$an to 2i$ure t"at I &as $ettin$ :ust e+acty no&"ere. I

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&as &orin$ "ard day and ni$"t and &"en t"e end o2 t"e mont" came around I o&ed acon 2or aundry and ne& s"irts.%"at :ust did not add u# so I be$an to cast around 2or somet"in$ &"ic" #aid more money t"an Mr acon did. Hearin$t"at G1.5) a day coud be made s"ovein$ coa out o2 cars at t"e 9rand %run Rairoad s"o#s I a##ied 2or a :ob. Here Iran into anot"er Iris"man Pat O'rien. Ho&ever I don't beieve it &as t"e actor by t"at name.

9ivin$ me t"e =once over= Pat said =Sure and it's dommed itte coa ye' be a2t"er s"ovein' Oim t"inin'. ut i2 ye&ant to t"ry it I' be t"e as"t &an to s"to# ye.= &ored "a2 a day and t"at "a2 a day neary ied me. Here I &as &it"9rees and Poacs s"ovein$ coa out o2 cars into a c"ute.

It &as "ard &or —too "ard 2or me so at noon I &aed o22 t"e :ob or rat"er I sta$$ered o22 t"e :ob. %"e seventy>2ivecents 2or t"e "a2 day's &or is sti t"ere. I never &ent bac 2or it.

It &as Auite evident "o&ever t"at it &as u# to me to $et anot"er :ob. I "ad no "ome to $o to and I didn't &ant to $o

to see 6aace a$ain. I2 I did I 2i$ured I &oud be &orin$ anot"er t"ree mont"s 2or not"in$. It &as t"en t"at I met arairoad 2ireman caed Herm Robinson. I met "im outside a boardin$ "ouse &"ere I "ad $one to see i2 I coud &as" a 2e&dis"es 2or a mea. I did. I ate. Herm tod me t"at "e ne& o2 a :ob s"ovein$ concrete. o& =s"ovein$ concrete= meantnot"in$ to me. I did not even no& &"at concrete &as. I ne& &"at a s"ove &as. 9eor$e acon tau$"t me t"at. utconcrete &e—&"ere &as t"e :obE

%"e ne+t mornin$ bri$"t and eary I discovered &"at concrete &as. %"e :ob I &as a2ter &as 2or a contractor &"o &asayin$ concrete 2oot#at"s in eevie. <ie a rea man I taced t"e :ob. 6e i2 s"ovein$ coa &as "eavy t"is :ob &as&orse 2or &et concrete &ei$"s more t"an coa. /ny&ay I stuc t"at :ob out as on$ as it asted &"ic" &as ony a 2e&&ees. It $ave me eats and &"en I e2t I "ad t"irty doars in my #ocet. In ot"er &ords I &as a ric" man. %"en aon$came a :ob in t"e midde o2 t"e &inter. %"is &as deiverin$ bread on a country route &it" an od &"ite "orse and a sei$".%"e man I &ored 2or &as Mr Foster. He &as anot"er rei$ionist and so &as "is son Fred.

%"is baery :ob #aid G5.)) a &ee &it" board and room. I ied t"at :ob but eevie can $et a&2uy cod in t"e

&inter time. Ho&ever I stuc it out unti Foster 2ound a boy &"o &oud &or 2or G3.5) a &ee and et me $o. /t t"attime Sydney came do&n &it" doube #neumonia. He "ad ost "is :ob at Deseronto &"en t"e season cosed and at"ou$""e &as t"en ony t"irteen years od "e $ot a very "eavy :ob cuttin$ ice out on t"e ay o2 Juinte. I did not no& t"is untiater but t"e toes &ere sticin$ out o2 "is s"oes and "e "ad no socs. He &as dread2uy i. %"e county #ut "im in t"e"os#ita &"ere "is i2e &as des#aired o2. eside myse2 &it" $rie2 2or I did not &ant to ose Syd I met anot"er $oodIris"man—an attorney caed Paddy McMa"an. I tod "im t"e story o2 Syd and "e advanced t"e money &it" &"ic" to&ire t"e Reverend 8. H. Robinson 2or "e#. I "ave a co#y o2 t"is &ire and "ave t"e ori$ina re#y 2rom 2at"er. Here is t"e&ire I sent

/yd dangerously ill dou!le typhoid pneumonia—I need help out of work' 0(igned1 -/AN2.

Here is t"e re#y &"ic" came bac

/ecure !est medical advise sorry cannot help financially./

It must be remembered "ere t"at t"e ste#>mot"er coud ride around in "er =carria$e and #air= and it must be 2urt"er remembered t"at at t"is time my 2at"er &as abe to ee# t&o servants. ?et t"e ony t"in$ "e did &as to te us to =secure

best medica advice.= 6e ne& t"at aready and Syd &as $ettin$ t"e very best medica advice #ossibe.It &as at t"is #oint t"at I received my 2irst 2aint inin$ t"at t"ere is rea Po&er in t"e S#irit &"ic" is 9od. / t"rou$"

t"ese mont"s I "ad continued my #rivate tas &it" 9od. I sti ne& t"at sometime in some manner I s"oud "ead amovement &"ic" &oud mae 9od rea to t"e &"oe &ord. aturay I &as beside myse2 over Syd. Miss 9reen t"eSu#ervisor caed me one evenin$ to t"e "os#ita. =Syd cannot ive= s"e said. %"en I be$an to t"in o2 a##yin$ t"ePo&er &"ic" is 9od to t"is terribe iness and at once I ne& Syd &oud ive &"et"er "e coud or not. / $reat camcame over me. <ooin$ at Miss 9reen I said =May I see "imE= S"e said I mi$"t. I s"a never 2or$et my re#y. Here it is—=O" &e—"e's unconscious Miss 9reen and &oudn't no& me any"o&. I' see "im in t"e mornin$ 2or "e &i becom#etey recovered by t"en.= S"e ooed at me &it" a curious sort o2 oo and t"en $ras#in$ my "and s"e said =Fran —I beieve you. ?our 2ace s"o&s a Po&er —I &is" I ne& &"at it &as.=

I &as at t"e "os#ita in t"e mornin$ to see Syd. %"e 2ever "ad $one. He &as conscious—and better. %"is &as a case&"ere t"e a##ication o2 t"e S#irit o2 9od even &it"out seein$ t"e su22erer brou$"t t"e desired resuts. o& so manyyears ater I receive more &ires and on$ distance cas 2rom over t"e &ord t"an any man en$a$ed in rei$ious &or.%"ey come by t"e "undred. %"ey a recover. %o $ive you a ty#ica e+am#e Day be2ore yesterday I "ad to eave "urriedy2or Seatte to see my advertisin$ a$ency. 8ust as I &as eavin$ a on$ distance ca came in 2rom Daven#ort Io&a. Here&as t"e substance o2 t"e ca—=I am Mrs an one o2 your Students. My sister is dyin$ o2 cancer —&i you come and"ea "erE= I re#ied t"at it &oud be im#ossibe 2or me to come and t"at it &as not necessary t"at I come. =I' &ire youG5))) i2 you &i come= s"e said. Here is my re#y =Madam i2 you &ired me G5)))) I coud not come. It &i not benecessary 2or t"e S#irit &"ic" is 9od is not bou$"t &it" money.= %oday I received a messa$e t"at "er sister dyin$ o2 cancer t&o days a$o is &e.

<et me inter#oate "ere on$ enou$" to say to you t"at i2 you &i earn t"e best ei$"t &ords in t"e -n$is" an$ua$e

you &i be abe to drive out a iness :ust as 2ast as I can drive it out. !ertainy t"e Po&er &"ic" does t"is is not a "umanPo&er. %"ere2ore it cannot "ave anyt"in$ to do &it" me. It o#erates aone under its o&n in2uence and t"e ony t"in$necessary to be abe to "ea as &e do "ere is to reco$nise &"o and &"at 9od is. %"en &"en t"at reco$nition is com#eteand 2u remember t"ese ei$"t &ords—"Be still, and know that $ am %od."

I2 you reay &ant to no& 2ind and use t"e invisibe Po&er &"ic" is 9od you as a 2irst ste# "ad better 2or$eteveryt"in$ any c"urc" or$anisation "as tau$"t you about 9od. ?ou cannot 2ind t"e Po&er o2 t"e #resence o2 9od t"rou$"

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anyt"in$ any c"urc" teac"es 2or t"e sim#e reason t"at &"at t"ey teac" is not o2 9od. Many c"urc" members and #riestsand #reac"ers &i rear u# at t"is statement. <et t"em rear. One oo at t"is murderous &ord today &i convince anyonet"at 9od is an unno&n 2actor in it. 9od &i not be unno&n very muc" on$er 2or aready t"ere are =9eams over t"e"orion= and t"ose =9eams= are eadin$ us on&ard to t"e -terna Day—not because o2 anyt"in$ your &riter can do butsim#y because "e no&s &"o and &"at 9od is and is smart enou$" to ao& 9od to brin$ in t"e Day o2 -ternaRi$"teousness t"rou$" "is "umbe e22orts.

I don't &ant to meet anyone Student or non>Student. %"ey &oud be disa##ointed in me. %"ey mi$"t oo 2or some2roc>coated &"ite>2aced #riesty>ooin$ individua and t"ey &oud be disa##ointed and I assure you. I #re2er in2initey to stay in t"e bac$round ettin$ 9od &or t"rou$" &"at I &rite and do. %"is I s"a do as on$ as I ive. /2ter t"at &e t"e Movement &i sti be in t"e "ands o2 t"e /mi$"ty &"ere it beon$s.

Syd &ent to &or at anot"er 2arm :ob a2ter "is com#ete recovery and "e did #retty &e. I ost trac o2 "im 2or manyyears but I understand "e is no& a street>car conductor in %oronto. He &as in t"e 6ord 6ar and &as decorated manytimes. He &as aso s"e>s"oced &"ic" &i account 2or some o2 t"e stran$e t"in$s I s"a reate to you a bit ater on —ine+#icabe t"in$s t"ey &ere.

%"e city o2 eevie "ad a $reat 2ire de#artment &it" 2our o2 t"e 2inest "orses I ever sa& in a 2ire "arness. obMc!oy "ad t"e contract o2 2urnis"in$ bot" "orses and &a$ons and I $ot a :ob &orin$ 2or ob Mc!oy. I drove t"e 2ire&a$on and &"en t"ere &ere no 2ires I drove a =carry a= "auin$ men to and 2rom t"eir &or at a cement 2actory a 2e&mies out o2 eevie. %"at &as a $ood :ob. I se#t in a itte room in t"e ivery barn at ni$"t and t"ere &as a 2ire aarmri$"t in t"e room. ob usuay drove t"e teams &"en a 2ire broe out in t"e daytime.

%"en od Dr %racy &anted a man to drive "is bu$$y and I too t"at :ob. It #aid ten doars a &ee and t"at &assomet"in$ in t"ose days. I met my 2irst $ir t"en. S"e &as t"e dau$"ter o2 a butc"er but "er 2at"er did not tae very indyto me. %"e #eo#e &ere &onder2u #eo#e but &"en t"ey sa& me $ettin$ too serious and 2ain$ too dee#y in ove t"ey

decided t"at I "ad better $o 2is"in$ some&"ere ese. It neary broe my "eart but I e#t a&ay and did my ove>main$ bymai. May is married no& and I understand s"e married a $ood man. I "ave never seen "er since. Oi#"ant &as "er astname.

%"ere is anot"er c"a# I must mention and t"at is /rt"ur Sis. 6"en t"e %racy :ob =#etered out= I secured anot"er 8ob #acin$ a##es 2or t"e R. 8. 9ra"am !o. Mr 9ra"am &as mayor o2 t"e city o2 eevie and a 2ine man "e &as./rt"ur's 2at"er #iced and #aced a##es 2or Mayor 9ra"am and t"at is "o& I ne& /rt"ur. I boarded and roomed &it"t"em. %"eir "ome &as :ust a cou#e o2 mies 2rom eevie out in t"e country.

6"ie I &as tryin$ to mae my case &it" May /rt"ur &as tryin$ to outdo me. 6e &ere bot" #retty $ood>ooin$c"a#s but I t"ou$"t I "ad t"e ed$e on /rt. May t"ou$"t t"e best &ay out o2 t"e #ro#osition &as to marry someone eseand s"e did :ust t"at. %"en I &as taen do&n &it" a terri2ic case o2 tonsiitis &"ie ivin$ &it" Mrs ee Sis and amostost out. ?ou see—I com#etey 2or$ot 9od. Hot mi a##ications &ere a##ied but t"e t"roat $ot &orse and &orse.Ho&ever in t"e moment I taed &it" 9od about t"at t"roat it disa##eared and t"e ne+t day I &as out #icin$ a##es

a$ain./2ter May's #arents "ad $iven me t"e $oodbye si$n I s#ent t"at &inter in a o$$in$ cam# o&ned by Mayor 9ra"am.

It &as on t"e !entra Ontario Rai&ay and t"e Post>O22ice &as Ho$ansvie. /not"er Iris"man —Denny Ho$an—raneveryt"in$ t"ere &as in Ho$ansvie. I remember one !"ristmas I &as sent &it" a sei$" oad o2 o$$ers to t"e station.%"ey &ere $oin$ to eevie to $et drun and to sAuander every cent t"ey "ad made so 2ar t"at year. Mr Mott &as t"ecam# 2oreman. I "ad never driven a team o2 "orses in my i2e.

/n order 2or banets a+e>"andes biscuits and a ot o2 $roceries "ad been $iven to me and my instructions &ere tooad u# &it" t"ese t"in$s. %"en a2ter t"e train "ad e2t I &as to come bac to t"e cam#. =8ust $ive t"e "orses t"eir "eadsand "od t"e ines taut. %"ey' come "ome t"emseves= said 2oreman Mott &"en I doubted my abiity to tae t"at team toHo$ansvie and bac sa2ey. 6e a &ent as it s"oud "ave $one unti t"e train #ued in. %"e sed &as oaded &it"

banets a+e>"andes $roceries and am#s but t"ose "orses did not ie t"at train. I "ad t"em tied to a "itc"in$ #ostoutside Ho$an's store. %"at "itc"in$ #ost "o&ever &as not stron$ enou$" to "od t"at team. ot" o2 t"ose "orses rearedu# on t"eir "ind 2eet $ave a 2e& snorts and a&ay t"ey &ent into t"e &oods eavin$ me t"ere ooin$ at t"em. I &oudn't"ave been on t"at sed 2or a t"e o$$in$ cam#s in Ontario. %"ere &ere a+es $roceries 2our am#s banets a over t"e&oods. 6"en Mr Mott came to rescue bot" t"e "orses and t"eir 2rei$"t "e too one oo at me and said =%"is is acomin$ out o2 your &a$es youn$ 2eo&.= Ho&ever "e never did tae it out o2 my &a$es. I "ad $iven "im 2air &arnin$t"at I &as no man to drive a youn$ team t"rou$" t"e &oods. %"ere &as no one ese t"ere &"o coud drive t"em so Iconsidered &"en I tod "im o2 my inabiity and e+#eriences &it" "orses I "ad done my duty.

I coud recount many #easant days s#ent in eevie but I t"in I &i re#roduce in t"is c"a#ter a ne&s item &"ic"a##eared in t"e Belleville lntelligencer s"orty a2ter Time ma$aine $ave me a #rominent &rite>u# in 1,3. Per"a#s I "ad

better te you about t"e :ob I "ad drivin$ a "ac. I drove t"e 2irst rubber>tired "ac to come into eevie—and &as I #roudE—%&o &"ite "orses Bod na$sC and a beauti2u rubber>tired "ac. I met t"e trains at t"e de#ot c"ar$in$ t&enty>2ivecents a ride to t"e "otes. Mr !oe 9ra"am o&ned t"e "ac service. Here is t"e $ntelligencer &rite>u#

FROM HURRICANE DECK OF A HACK TO %FIRST CITI&EN% 0r rank 1o!inson, 2ewspaper "u!lisher, 0ruggist and Leader of a -ail Order 1eligious tudy roup #ith

-em!ership in i3ty4seven )ountries, 1ecalls arly 0ays in 5elleville—The irst 1u!!er4Tired 6ictoria—Theirst ord —The -en #ho 0rove the +acks that -et $ll Trains and !oats—Olden 0ays and olden 0ays 1ecalled.

rom driving a hack in 5elleville to the status of first citi(en of a thriving city in western 7nited tates

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in our bedrooms and seein$ t"e =!"eeer= comin$ do&n t"e 2oot#at" &e it t"e 2use and timed it to e+#ode :ust as t"e=!"eeer= &ent by. %"en &e dro##ed it out t"e &indo&. It &asn't timed :ust ri$"t t"ou$" nor &as it dro##ed asaccuratey as it mi$"t "ave been. %"e resut &as t"at it "it t"e =!"eeer= on t"e bac o2 t"e nec and t"en e+#oded. Itneary be& t"e o22icer o22 t"e 2oot#at".

In a 2e& minutes t"ere &as a $reat commotion in t"e "a beo& and t"en t"e =!"eeer= in #erson breeed into t"ear$e bedroom ony to 2ind everyone 2ast asee#—not ony asee# but snorin$ "eaviy. Do&ns never did 2ind out &"ot"re& t"at 2ire>cracer. He "ad a $ood idea t"ou$" 2or t"e ne+t ni$"t I 2et a "and on my s"ouder and into t"e caabooseI &ent. %"e !"ie2 o2 Poice o2 eevie &as one Pat Hayes anot"er Iris"man but t"is time not so $ood. O2 course 2or me to be #ut in a ce in t"e city :ai &as somet"in$ ne& so I naturay &as aarmed and caed u# my 2riend PaddyMcMa"an. Paddy came do&n and on inAuirin$ &"at t"e c"ar$es &ere &as tod =main$ and distributin$ counter2eit

money.= %"at noced Paddy o22 "is 2eet as it did me. =6"ere is your evidenceE= ased Paddy and t"ey tod "im t"at t"eevidence &oud be #roduced in court t"e 2oo&in$ Monday. %"at meant t"at I stayed in :ai 2rom Saturday unti Monday.I coud not 2i$ure out &"at it &as a about. I certainy ne& not"in$ about counter2eit money never "avin$ seen any andcertainy never "avin$ made any. Paddy ne& t"at as &e as I did but t"e bai &as #aced at G5))) &"ic" meant t"at Istayed in.

On Monday mornin$ t"e =$reat counter2eiter= &as "aued into court. %"e c"ar$es sounded very im#ressive and very bad—=t"at t"e accused did &i2uy and no&in$y and 2eoniousy mae manu2acture and distribute counter2eit moneyin t"e Province o2 Ontario in t"e Dominion o2 !anada= etc. I sti did not "ave t"e 2aintest idea o2 &"at &as $oin$ on. /I ne& &as t"e case &as serious. Here I &as c"ar$ed &it" main$ and #assin$ counter2eit money. %"at is a serious c"ar$ein any an$ua$e. %"e stran$e #art o2 it a &as t"at I &as absoutey in t"e dar 2or unti t"e 2irst &itness &as #resented Idid not "ave t"e 2aintest sus#icion o2 &"at t"is c"ar$e consisted. I did not "ave very on$ to &ait t"ou$". =!a t"e 2irst&itness= t"e 8ud$e anot"er Iris"man caed Fynn s"outed. / ady &"om I ne& as Mrs %"omas and &"o ran a itte

tobacco store ne+t door to t"e boardin$ "ouse too t"e stand. I ne& "er &e — bou$"t a my ci$arettes 2rom "er —=Ranmy 2ace= t"rou$" t"e &ee and #aid "er every Saturday ni$"t &"en I &as #aid. Mrs %"omas &as ased to "od u# "er ri$"t "and—=so "e# you 9od= etc. %"e #rosecutin$ attorney "andin$ Mrs %"omas an /merican siver doar ased "er i2 s"e "ad ever seen t"at doar be2ore. S"e re#ied t"at s"e "ad and &"en ased &"ere s"e "ad seen it s"e tod t"e courtt"at I "ad $iven it to "er in #ayment o2 a bi t"e Saturday ni$"t be2ore. 6e I ne& t"at as &e as s"e did.

%"e ne+t &itness "o&ever &as a $overnment a$ent and "e testi2ied t"at t"e doar &as counter2eit. He 2urt"er testi2ied t"at "e "ad reason to beieve t"at t"e counter2eiters &ere o#eratin$ 2rom eevie. Paddy McMa"an at t"is #ointased me &"at I ne& about t"at doar and I tod "im t"at Mr %em#eton "ad $iven it to me ast Saturday ni$"t in my

#ay enveo#e. It did not tae on$ to brin$ Mr %em#eton into court and "e corroborated my statement and so t"e $reat=counter2eitin$ case= a$ainst Fran . Robinson be& u#. Muc" to>do &as made over t"is #etty 2o$$in$ itte case in t"erecent tria in Mosco& and certain men tried to estabis" t"e 2act t"at I "ad been arrested 2or counter2eitin$. I "ad to re#yin t"e a22irmative but t"e evidence aso s"o&ed t"at 8ud$e Fynn "onouraby dismissed t"e case and issued to me a

certi2icate to t"at e22ect. %"e ne+t day Pat Hayes t"e bad Iris"man tod me to $et out o2 eevie.It &as in t"e beauti2u itte city o2 eevie t"at my 2irst rea =rei$ious= e+#erience broe into i$"t. t brou$"t

disastrous disa##ointment to me. %"rou$" t"e ei$"teen years I "ad ived t"e consciousness o2 9od and o2 t"e &or I 2et I"ad been caed to do $re&. %"ere never &as t"e si$"test su$$estion t"at 9od &oud not s#ea t"rou$" me to t"e &ord

but as yet t"e 2u consciousness o2 9od "ad not come to me. Per"a#s I s"oud say t"at anot"er &ay—et me say t"at t"eReco$nition o2 t"e consciousness o2 9od "ad never come to me. %"e 9od>consciousness is a&ays &it" one but t"ereco$nition is o2ten absent. So many #seudo>$ods "ave arisen and been #resented to t"e &ord t"at reco$nition o2 t"econsciousness o2 t"e ony true 9od t"ere ever "as been is ost in t"e &eter o2 2ase and #a$an systems o2 rei$iono#eratin$ on t"is eart" today. o man ever s#ent more time seein$ 9od t"an I did and yet t"ere &as a&ays t"econsciousness in me t"at t"e 9reat S#irit>9od—"ad set me a#art 2or a s#eci2ic &or.

/s I "ave aready stated ese&"ere in t"is record I made t"e 2ata mistae o2 attem#tin$ to brin$ t"e reco$nition o2 t"e Po&er o2 9od to myse2 instead o2 ee#in$ Auiet in t"e no&ed$e I "ad o2 9od. Had I no&n enou$" to do t"at Is"oud "ave been s#ared a ot o2 su22erin$. Ho&ever t"e end "as been accom#is"ed and t"e Movement t"rou$" &"ic"t"e S#irit o2 9od &i be universay no&n is an actua 2act. /ready t"e resuts o2 t"irteen years' &or "ave beenamain$ and as t"e years and mont"s $o by and as more men and &omen are iberated by t"is invisibe S#irit &"ic" is9od it &i not be too on$ unti t"e 2uness o2 t"e S#irit &"ic" is 9od is no&n to a men and a nations. ut to come

bac...In eevie I "a##ened to $et acAuainted &it" t"e #astor o2 t"e First a#tist !"urc". His name &as t"e Reverend O.

!. -iott. He met me 2irst in %em#eton's dru$ store. /2ter "avin$ met "im a 2e& times I caed "im u# one day and ased2or an a##ointment &it" "im I tod "im I &anted to s#ea &it" "im about 9od. Reuctanty "e $ave t"e a##ointment. Onenterin$ "is study in t"e c"urc" I said to "im =Mr -iott I &ant to do somet"in$ 2or 9od. I 2ee t"at I "ave a &or o2 Auite some ma$nitude to do 2or 9od and I'd ie to ta &it" you about it.= -videnty Mr -iott &as more interested inmoney t"an "e &as in 9od and "uman sous 2or t"is is t"e re#y "e made to me =I s"a be very "a##y to "ave you :oin

my c"urc" i2 you are abe to do your #art in its su##ort— but &e must "ave t"at.=I sa& at once t"at t"e Reverend -iott and I &ere not s#eain$ t"e same an$ua$e. He &as tain$ money &"ie I &astain$ 9od. %"ey are di22erent t"in$s. 6"en I in2ormed "im t"at I &as $ettin$ ony G5.)) a &ee and ee#in$ myse2 outo2 t"at "e said to me =I t"in t"e Savation /rmy is t"e #ace 2or you—&"y don't you $o do&n and :oin itE= I t"aned"im 2or "is $ood =!"ristian= s#irit and &ent do&n to oo t"e /rmy situation over. %"at ni$"t it stood on t"e corner o2 t"emain streets and I istened to t"e testimonies o2 t"e =saved.= Here I t"ou$"t &as e+acty &"at I &anted. %"ese $ood

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#eo#e actuay ne& 9od and certainy t"at &as &"at I &anted. So I 2oo&ed t"em into t"e "a at t"e cose o2 t"eir street meetin$. /d:utant e&man &as in c"ar$e o2 t"at cor#s. I 2or$et t"e name o2 t"e <ieutenant &"o assisted "im. %"eson$s &ere not very ins#irin$ nor &as t"e band music. I "ave "eard better. 6"en t"e atar ca came o2 course I &ent u#.=9od bess you my brot"er —"aeu:a"= said t"e /d:utant. =9et do&n on your nees and et's "ave a &ord o2 #rayer.=Do&n I &ent to my nees and t"e /d:utant said =%"at's ri$"t — #ray brot"er — #ray yourse2 into t"e 7in$dom.= 6e Ididn't no& very muc" about #rayin$. I ne& considerabe about Auiety tain$ &it" 9od but t"is #ubic #rayin$

business &as somet"in$ ne& to me. Ho&ever to mae a $ood 2eo& out o2 myse2 I did some #rayin$. It sounded ie"oo& s"am to me but I did it nevert"eess. =/men= said t"e /d:utant =anot"er brot"er "as 2ound t"e <ord. 6on't you"ave a &ord o2 testimony brot"erE= I ased to be e+cused 2rom t"e testimony and #romised "im I &oud be out at t"e ne+tmeetin$.

On t"e 2oo&in$ 6ednesday ni$"t I s"o&ed u# at t"e "a. ein$ rat"er a "usy youn$ man t"ey tied t"e bi$ bassdrum around my nec and o and be"od "ere I &as in t"e /rmy $oin$ do&n t"e 2oot#at"s o2 eevie &it" a bi$ drumaround my nec "ammerin$ it as i2 I reay meant it. I ied #oundin$ t"at drum. It made a ot o2 noise and it $ave t"every t"in$ I &anted—action 2or 9od. It made itte di22erence o2 &"at action consisted it &as action. 6"en &e arrived ont"e street corner t"e /d:utant too o22 "is "at and #rayed. It &as about t"e avera$e run o2 /rmy #rayer. I too it a in andtrusted "e &oudn't as me to #ray. He did not. /2ter t"e coection &as taen &e invited t"e 2e& stra$$ers into t"e "a2or t"e re$uar 6ednesday ni$"t #rayer meetin$.

/ t"is &as so 2orei$n to &"at I ne& about 9od t"at I reay be$an to &onder &"at it &as a about. 9od to me &asan in2initey $reat invisibe S#irit. %"at S#irit to me &as t"e !reative Intei$ence and Po&er be"ind every t"in$ t"at ever &as created. It &as a very s&eet e+#erience I "ad on t"e a&n o2 t"e Manse at <on$ !rendon some years be2ore — but t"is—&e t"is &as a so stran$e to me. I :ust coud not see 9od in it at a. I &atc"ed t"e members o2 t"at cor#s verycare2uy. /2ter t"e meetin$ t"ey &oud :oin me and &e &oud &a u# t"e street smoin$ ci$arettes and &e &oud $o in

and $et a $ass o2 beer or a $ass o2 $in$er ae or somet"in$ to re2res" ourseves. 6"en I $ot "ome "o&ever I $ave t"ose #er2ormances considerabe t"ou$"t. 6as a t"is o2 9odE 6"at &as a t"is ta o2 ="e>2ire= =Savation= =t"e bood o2 t"e amb= etc.E 6"ere did t"at come 2romE 6"at did it meanE 6"at "ad I ever done to damn me into an eterna "eE y&"at aut"ority did t"e /rmy stand t"ere and te t"e &"oe &ord t"at uness it beieved &"at t"e /rmy tau$"t it &as in=dan$er o2 "e>2ire and t"e :ud$ement=E I2 t"ese $ood 2os &e &ere #reac"in$ to &ere in dan$er o2 "e>2ire so &as I —so&ere t"e rest o2 us 2or certainy :oinin$ t"e /rmy "ad brou$"t no noticeabe =savation= to us. / &e did &as to stand ont"e street corner and te a #ac o2 ies. 6e tod t"e men and &omen istenin$ to us t"at &e &ere =saved by t"e bood o2 8esus= and t"ere &as not a man or &oman in t"e &"oe /rmy cor#s t"at ne& t"e 2irst t"in$ about eit"er =t"e bood o2 8esus= or =savation.=

/ t"at and every ot"er Savation /rmy cor#s in e+istence &as doin$ &as to $o by t"e rues and re$uations o2 t"e/rmy. %"ere &as not a man in t"e cro&d &"o ne& t"e structure o2 t"e !"ristian bibe. ot a sin$e one o2 t"em ne&&"ere it "ad come 2rom and certainy t"ere &as no one in t"at cro&d &"o no& t"e reason t"ere are 2our $os#es in t"e

!"ristian bibe. %"e reason t"ere are 2our $os#es is because animas "ave 2our e$s. %"at is one reason and t"at's not t"e best reason 2or anyone to #in "is 2ait" in anyt"in$ any bibe teac"es i2 t"e story is in t"at boo because =animas "ave 2our e$s.=

Had I no&n t"en &"at I no& no& about t"e bibe t"ey &ere teac"in$ I s"oud "ave c"aen$ed t"em t"en andt"ere. /s it &as my connection &it" t"e /rmy in eevie &as not o2 too on$ duration. I &as $ettin$ a bit sic o2 t"es"am and "y#ocrisy o2 it a. I &anted 9od. I &anted to do somet"in$ to brin$ to men and &omen t"e actua trut"s o2 9od. %"e /rmy or &"at t"e /rmy tau$"t &as not doin$ t"at. 6"at =sin= "ad I committed u# to t"at time &"ic" meritedsuc" a 2ear2u t"in$ as an eterna "ome in a ae burnin$ &it" 2ire and brimstoneE %"e ony t"in$ I "ad done &as to try to2ind 9od. I "ad su22ered #enty at t"e "ands o2 t"ose &"o tau$"t t"is same #"ioso#"y under a di22erent denomination butas 2ar as my bein$ =born in sin and s"a#en in iniAuity= &e —t"at :ust sim#y &as not true. My mot"er &as t"e s&eetestt"in$ t"at 9od ever #ut breat" into. I &as born accordin$ to t"e a&s o2 9od t"e a&s o2 nature and t"e a&s o2 t"e and.In &"at &ay "ad I sinned enou$" to merit t"e =&rat" o2 9od=E

My decision to eave t"e /rmy came one Sunday a2ternoon. In t"at cor#s &as a very 2ine ooin$ $ir. I "ad seen "er ooin$ at me o2ten and &ondered &"y. S"e a&ays turned out in 2u /rmy uni2orm. On t"is #articuar Sunday a2ternoons"e came into t"e barracs rat"er ate and too a seat by me. 6e "ad a 2e& &ords o2 ordinary conversation and t"en s"esaid to me =I &ant you to come outside &it" me. I &ant to ta to you.= ot no&in$ &"at it &as s"e &anted I naturay2oo&ed "er out o2 t"e "a. S"e &as &orin$ as a servant or maid 2or a Doctor Doan in eevie and s"e "eadedstrai$"t 2or t"e Doan "ome "er arm in mine. On t"e &ay "ome I ased "er &"at it &as s"e &anted to ta to me about.S"e said =I' te you &"en &e $et "ome.= Mysti2ied I &ent &it" "er and soon &e reac"ed t"e Doan "ome. -nterin$s"e too o22 "er Savation /rmy bonnet and coat and tain$ me into t"e ivin$ room o2 t"at 2ine "ome s"e said =%"eDoans are a&ay—et's ie on t"e 2oor.= %"en it da&ned u#on my trustin$ se2 t"at t"e savation o2 t"is &ord &as t"e astt"in$ t"is youn$ /rmy !adet &as interested in. %"e ne+t day I e2t eevie 2or %oronto more dis$usted &it" rei$iont"an ever.

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Chapter -iveIn Toronto

I D0- S-/SO I /RRI@-D I %ORO%O /D /<%HO09H I did not no& it at t"e time stran$e and unusua"a##enin$s &ere to come my &ay. ot"in$ very unusua "ad "a##ened so 2ar in my i2e. It "ad been anyt"in$ but a "a##yi2e. 6"atever t"e inner &orin$s o2 2at"er's mind &ere and are I s"a never no& nor am I #articuary interested. Hemarried "is o&n &i2e raised "is o&n c"idren and unti t"ey became o2 e$a a$e I su##ose "e "ad a ri$"t to do &"atever "e &anted &it" t"em. I :ust "ave never been abe to in u# t"at sort o2 2at"er &it" t"e In2inite S#irit &"ic" is 9od. It may$o &it" 8esus !"rist but it does not $o &it" 9od. %"at 9od e+ists and t"ere is an ans&er to t"e sta$$erin$ "uman

#robems &"ic" 2ace us today I "ave no doubt. I never "ave "ad any doubt on t"at score and 2rom &"at I "ave seen o2

t"e &orin$s o2 t"e S#irit &"ic" is 9od over t"e #ast t"irteen years I am #retty &e convinced t"at &e are coser to t"eans&er t"an &e "ave ever been. I trust I ive on$ enou$" to see t"e &"oe &ord at #eace. It can be at #eace &"enever it&ants to.

%"e ony t"in$ t"at can brin$ #ermanent #eace is t"e e+#erience o2 9od. y t"at I mean t"is —&"en t"is &ord no&s&"o and &"at 9od reay is t"ese tendencies a conceived in i$norance o2 9od cannot e+ist. I2 Hiter actuay ne&9od and needed more territory as "e caims it &oud not tae t"irty minutes 2or "im to "ave &"at additiona territory "eneeds. %"e nation &"ic" "as more territory t"an it needs &oud $ive "im &"at "e &anted at once. I2 Hiter ne& 9od "e&oud not as 2or more t"an "e needs. %"is same #rinci#e &oud &or t"rou$"out a nations i2 9od &ere no&n. %"etroube is t"at 9od is not no&n.

I am reminded "ere o2 t"e :ourney o2 Pau t"e od #romoter aon$ t"e /t"enian road. He seein$ a si$n by t"e side o2 t"e road =%o t"e unno&n 9od= and undoubtedy bein$ interested in t"e #romotion o2 a ne& system o2 rei$ion caed ont"e #eo#e o2 /t"ens and said to t"em =?e men o2 /t"ens I #erceive t"at in a t"in$s you are too su#erstitious. For as I

#assed by I be"ed a si$n &it" t"ese &ords '%o t"e unno&n 9od.' Him t"ere2ore &"om ye i$noranty &ors"i# t"e samedecare I unto you.=

I 2ind myse2 in a simiar #osition. I too no&in$ some t"in$ o2 t"e su#erstition and idoatry o2 #resent day rei$ionsand no&in$ t"at t"e =$od= t"ese rei$ions &ors"i# does not e+ist am tryin$ and very earnesty to brin$ to t"ese $ood

#eo#e o2 t"is and ot"er ands t"e trut"s o2 9od as t"at 9reat S#irit actuay e+ists. I no& t"e trut". It came t"rou$" #eriods o2 $reat tribuation. It &as not easy to earn. It seared t"e sou—2or it is not an easy t"in$ to in2orm miions o2 #eo#e t"at t"e 9od t"ey are su##osed to be &ors"i##in$ even t"ou$" t"ey admit "im to be an =unno&n $od= does notactuay e+ist. %"e assurance o2 t"e success o2 t"e Psyc"iana Movement ies in t"e 2act t"at t"e &"oe &ord is Auestionin$&"at t"e c"urc"es o2 every denomination attem#t to teac" about 9od. %"at maes my tas consideraby easier.

%"e 2acts mi$"t as &e be 2aced. %"ey &i "ave to be 2aced sooner or ater any&ay. So &"y not 2ace t"em no&E O2 t&o t"in$s &e are sure. %"e 2irst is—9od and by t"at I mean t"e 9reat !reative S#irit &"ic" is res#onsibe 2or t"iscreation reay e+ists. %"e second t"in$ I am sure o2 t"is—t"at S#irit &"ic" is 9od can be 2ound no&n and t"rou$" its

o#erations com#ete #eace "a##iness "eat" and i2e eterna can be 2ound. It is obvious "o&ever t"at not"in$ o22eredto t"is &ord today by any system o2 t"eoo$y bears t"e si$"test indication t"at suc" a condition o2 #er2ect #eace etc.&i ever be mani2ested on t"is eart" t"rou$" t"e teac"in$s o2 any system o2 rei$ion as t"ose teac"in$s e+ist today.

%"ere "ave been =$ods= and =systems o2 rei$ion= on t"is eart" 2or ()))) years —and &e do not yet no& 9od. 6eare coser to 2indin$ 9od t"an &e "ave ever been and 9od can be 2ound. 9od &i be 2ound but "e &i never be 2oundt"rou$" any system o2 t"eoo$y &"ic" teac"es $od cruci2ied on a cross. I am 2uy convinced o2 t"at. I s"a not $ive myreasons 2or t"is statement "ere as I "ave aready $iven t"em in my boo %leams &ver the Horion and I do not &ant tore#eat. Su22ice it to say t"at in =%leams= every e+istin$ rei$ion on t"is eart" today is s"o&n 2or &"at it actuay is. I todyou &"at t"at is at t"e be$innin$ o2 t"is boo.

I o2ten &onder as I sit "ere in my study day a2ter day and &atc" men and &omen a over t"e &ord s&am#in$ me&it" etters asin$ 2or in2ormation about 9od. I o2ten &onder i2 t"e &ord ever &as as cose to no&in$ t"e trut" as it istoday. I don't beieve it ever &as. I do not beieve t"at t"e rei$ious &ord in any sta$e o2 its "istory unti no& ever "adt"e 2aintest conce#tion o2 t"e true 9od and certainy it "as "ad no conce#tion o2 t"e Po&er &"ic" t"e %rue S#irit brin$s&it" it. %"at t"ere "ave been many "onest attem#ts to 2ind and no& 9od is admitted but t"e 2ata mistae t"ese rei$ions"ave made ies in t"e 2act t"at uness 9od o#erates and mani2ests accordin$ to t"eir conce#tion o2 9od t"ey are notinterested.

Ri$"t at t"e core o2 every ma:or system o2 rei$ion on t"e eart" today e+ce#t one is t"e im#ossibe t"eory t"at because 9od is so bi$ and #o&er2u—i$norant man cannot 2ind and no& 9od. %"ere2ore it &as necessary to cot"e 9od&it" "uman as#ects #ut "im in a "uman body i "im on a cross raise "im 2rom t"e dead and send "im bac to='"eaven= 2rom &"ence no &ord "as come 2rom t"at day to t"is. It s"oud be unnecessary to say t"at a suc" conce#tionso2 9od are uttery 2ase. %racin$ t"em do&n you 2ind t"ey are a ori$inations o2 t"e rei$ious institutions &"ic" 2oster t"em. %"ey "ave no standin$ "istoricay. %"e "istorica &ord never "eard o2 t"ese =$ods.= I incude t"e !"ristian '=$od.''So t"en as &e a##roac" t"e time &"en t"e %rue S#irit o2 9od is to be no&n on t"e eart" s"a &e not tae "o#eE S"a

&e not oo u# 2or certainy =t"e day o2 our redem#tion dra&et" ni$".=I "ave stated once in t"is boo t"at I &oud rat"er t"is autobio$ra#"y "ad not been &ritten —and 2or t"is reason it

may detract some 2rom t"e Po&er o2 t"e 9reat S#irit &"ic" is 9od. %"ere may be miions &"o &i try to mae a =$od=out o2 t"e &riter. So to #revent t"at I'm $oin$ to te t"e trut" about t"e &riter and &"en I "ave tod it I don't beievet"ere &i be muc" dan$er o2 anyone's ooin$ to me as bein$ a =su#erman.= %enney and ot"ers say =He "as an ins#iredvisionE= %"at is true but t"e vision &"ic" ins#ires me and t"e Po&er &"ic" ies in t"at vision may aso ins#ire you.

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6"en t"at day comes t"is &ord &i no& 9od. I do not say t"at t"is &i "a##en a at once. /2ter I "ave demonstrated&"o and &"at 9od is and a2ter t"e rei$ious systems no& t"at I no& &"ereo2 I s#ea —my &or &i be done. I s"a bevery "a##y t"en to 2ade a&ay and et 2ar brainier men t"an I am carry on t"e &or o2 mani2estin$ t"e #o&er o2 9od to t"e&ord.

/ I &as sent to do is to #oint t"e &ay. I stand as a si$n>#ost aon$ t"e "i$"&ay o2 i2e. 6"en too many aon$ t"at"i$"&ay $et ost someone &i see my si$n and 2oo&in$ it &i reac" t"e "aven "e sees. %"en it &i not be on$ untit"e $ad ne&s $oes 2ort" t"at t"e &ay o2 9od "as reay been 2ound. %ry and bear in mind t"ese t"in$s as you read on. %ryand understand t"e motive &"ic" is be"ind t"is boo. I'm no aut"or —I cannot &rite and no one no&s t"at better t"an Ino& it. I don't beieve I "ave ever &ritten anyt"in$ yet &"ic" coud #ass as a =#ois"ed= &or. I don't &ant =#ois".= I&ant to brin$ to men and &omen t"e consciousness o2 t"e Po&er o2 t"e 9reat S#irit 9od and t"is I s"a do. <et t"e

academicians "ave t"e #ois". <et t"em see $ory o2 men. I s"a content myse2 &it" t"inin$ o2 9od. In t"e no&ed$et"at I did 2ait"2uy &"at I beieved t"e true t"in$ to do I s"a rest.I arrived in %oronto &it" about t"irty doars in my #ocet and I ocated a combination roomin$>"ouse and restaurant

on /deaide Street. It &as caed =%"e Red Star= and t"e #rice &as G3.5) a &ee 2or board and room. %"e room must "avecost muc" more t"an t"e board. Had I been namin$ t"at restaurant I beieve I s"oud "ave caed it =Has" !entre= or somet"in$ &"ic" "ad ="as"E' in it 2or certainy t"ey #ut ots o2 ="as"= in t"eir boarders. Sydney "ad secured a :ob on a2arm t"is time in a#anee :ust a 2e& mies 2rom t"e 9oud Ranc" in Deseronto.

%o be in a ar$e city &as a ne& e+#erience 2or me. eevie I ima$ine "ad a #o#uation o2 about *5)) &"ie%oronto no& "as more t"an "a2 a miion. It is muc" ar$er t"an it &as t"en. /2ter tryin$ in vain to $et a :ob and &it" mymoney about $one I &as rat"er =do&n in t"e mout".= /t about t"at time t"e ric" !obat minin$ strie &as in #ro$ressand I "a##ened to "ear a 2eo& caed Dic Sut"erand &"o boarded &it" us mae t"e statement t"at "e &as eavin$ "is

:ob in t"e dru$ store and $oin$ into t"e !obat district in t"e mornin$. Main$ "is acAuaintance I ased "im i2 anyone

ese "ad taen "is :ob. He re#ied t"at so 2ar as "e ne& t"e :ob &as sti o#en. In 2act "e &ent out to t"e dru$ store inPardae and $ot t"e :ob 2or me.

I "ad some &onder2u times in t"at dru$ store &"ic" &as situated on t"e corner o2 6ri$"t and Sorauren /venues. Ieven remember t"e tee#"one number at"ou$" t"at is a on$ time a$o. It &as =Pardae 113.= %"e o&ner o2 t"e store&as 6iiam 6ri$"t a &onder2u 2eo&. His 2at"er &as an ins#ector o2 #oice and "is mot"er &as as 2ine a ady as I "avemet. i &as su#erintendent o2 a Met"odist Sunday Sc"oo in Pardae. He "ad no more rei$ion t"an a :ac>rabbit but"e &as su#erintendent o2 t"e Sunday Sc"oo nevert"eess. It &as a sma store and i &as a rea 2eo&. %"e store is noto#eratin$ as a dru$ store no&. I sa& i 6ri$"t &orin$ as a tee$ra#" o#erator in %oronto :ust a 2e& years a$o.

I boarded &it" a Mrs 9ordon a s"ort boc 2rom t"e store on 6ri$"t /venue. Mrs 9ordon "ad t&o sons and onedau$"ter -t"e. Micey t"e eder o2 t"e t&o sons &ent to t"e do$s t"rou$" iAuor &"ie t"e ot"er boy &"ose name &asPercy made a bi$ success &it" t"e ationa !as" Re$ister !o. -t"e &as a very ovey $ir. S"e 2e vioenty in ove &it"me and 2or a &"ie I t"ou$"t my days o2 sin$e biss &ere over. 6omen "o&ever did not interest me. /t"ou$" I "ad not

2ound t"e 2u ans&er to t"e 9od>#ro#osition I ne& t"at sooner or ater I s"oud and unti t"at time I did not care to become invoved &it" any $ir.

I remember one Sunday evenin$ &"en I &as yin$ on t"e daven#ort restin$ -t"e came and net do&n beside me=Fran I ove you more t"an anyone I "ave ever met. <et's $o a&ay to ia$ara Fas and $et married= s"e said. /ssurin$"er t"at i2 I "ad &anted to marry "er I did not "ave t"e 2unds s"e countered by tein$ me t"at s"e coud $et 2ive "undreddoars 2rom "er mot"er &"o s"e said &as a in 2avour o2 t"e marria$e. It ooed some&"at ie a #ut>u# :ob but -t"e&as a 2ine $ir. %o mae matters easier on t"em a and to save myse2 embarrassment I moved 2rom i 6ri$"t's dru$store and secured a #osition &it" a 8o"n 6"itin$ about one mie 2rom i 6ri$"t. I aso moved into a ne& boardin$"ouse. %"is one &as not reay a boardin$ "ouse at"ou$" t"ree #eo#e did board and room t"ere. I su##ose you &oudca t"em =#ayin$ $uests= as Mrs 6ec" &"o o&ned t"e "ouse "ad no icense to o#erate eit"er as a roomin$ "ouse or restaurant mana$er.

%"e 6ec"s' &ere 2ine #eo#e too—a bit too rei$ious to suit me but $ood &"oesome 2os nevert"eess. -22ie &ast"e youn$est dau$"ter and !arabee &as t"e eder o2 t"e t&o. It &as in t"e 6ec" "ome t"at I met @abor$ MartineKoner a taented #ianist and a #u#i o2 t"e 2amed 6. O. Forsyt". @a su22ered 2rom e#ie#tic seiures and #assed a&ay inone o2 t"em. 8ose2 Ho2mann caed at t"e "ouse to see @a ever so o2ten. S"e &as a taented $ir and it is too bad deat"too "er a&ay. Mr 6ec" &ored 2or a 8e&is" 2irm o2 :e&eers main$ rin$s. On t"e side "e made rin$s in "is o&n "omeat ni$"t. ot"in$ o2 im#ortance "a##ened &"ie I &as &orin$ 2or Mr 6"itin$. My evenin$s &ere s#ent around t"e!o&an /venue 2ire>"a #ayin$ c"ecers &it" =t"e boys.= %"e !a#tain o2 t"e 2ire>"a &as named rennan and !"areyDunn &as t"e <ieutenant. Dunn is no& !a#tain o2 t"e Dundas Street 2ire>"a. I remember es#eciay t&o Iris"men &"o&ere 2iremen at t"at time Ie !ou$" and %om !onoy. ot" coud drin a ot o2 iAuor and bot" ied to sit around t"estove on t"e cod &inter evenin$s and ar$ue &"ic" coud drin t"e most.

For reasons &"ic" I &i not mention "ere as 6"itin$ is sti aive I decided to eave "is vauabe em#oy. /not"er #osition o#ened u# t"is time at 14( 7in$ Street 6est and t"e #ro#rietor 8. 9. %em#eton &as a ne#"e& o2 t"e Robert

%em#eton &"om I &ored 2or in eevie. Mr %em#eton &as caed as a 0. S. 9overnment &itness a$ainst me in t"e1,3 Federa tria but "e turned out to be a star &itness 2or me. /s a matter o2 2act "e visited my "ome in Mosco& and&e en:oyed many "ours to$et"er tain$ about od times. %"e Federa a$ents tried to ta "im out o2 comin$ to my "omedurin$ t"e tria but a %em#eton did &as to ar$ue &it" t"em t"at "e ne& me 2ar better t"an t"ey did and "e tod t"emvery #ainy t"at t"ey &ere main$ a mistae in tryin$ to #ut me be"ind t"e bars. %"ey "ad ot"er ideas t"ou$".

/n interestin$ sidei$"t on t"at tria mi$"t be noted "ere. 6"ie I &as in eevie I "ad my barber &or done by

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Herb 6ri$"tmyer &"o at t"at time ran a barber>s"o# t"ere. Ima$ine my sur#rise &"en at t"e tria in Mosco& &"oms"oud I see t"ere as a re#resentative o2 t"e !anadian Secret Service but my 2riend Herb 6ri$"tmyer. I invited "im to t"e"ouse aso but "e re2used to come. 6"at "e &as doin$ in Mosco& durin$ t"at tria and &"at interest t"e !anadian9overnment "ad in t"e tria I "ave never been abe to 2ind out. In vie& o2 t"e 2act t"at t"e tria too on internationaim#ortance I s"a aude to it in detai ater in t"e boo. / ot o2 "uabaoo &as created by t"at tria. One &oud "avet"ou$"t t"at t"e $reatest crimina on t"e 2ace o2 t"e eart" Pubic -nemy umber One &as bein$ tried instead o2 a"armess c"a# &"ose ony crime consisted o2 "eadin$ a rei$ious Movement &"ic" "ad t"e audacity to te or$anisedrei$ion t"at its story o2 9od &as not true. Had t"e Psyc"iana Movement never come into e+istence t"ere &oud "ave

been no crimina tria and no de#ortation #roceedin$s. ut t"en t"e &ord mi$"t never "ave "eard o2 me eit"er. So asa&ays in t"e Ream o2 t"e 9reat S#irit>9od—a t"in$s &ored out 2or t"e best. I &oud not reca t"ose crue days i2 I

coud.Mr %em#eton's store &as on t"e corner o2 &"at t"en &ere t"e t&o main streets in %oronto 7in$ and ?or. o&"o&ever t"e centre o2 t"e city is mies a&ay. In t"ose days it &as t"e "ub o2 %oronto and %em#eton's P"armacy bein$on one o2 t"ose corners &as t"e ="ub= o2 t"e city o2 %oronto 2i$urativey s#eain$. Mr %em#eton's s#eciaity &as%.R.!.'s &"ic" means %em#eton's R"eumatic !a#sues. I don't t"in t"e ca#sues &ere any $ood and even to t"is dayMr %em#eton and I :os" t"rou$" t"e mais about t"ose ca#sues. In any event t"ey sod or rat"er &e sod t"em 2or onedoar a bo+. %em#eton &as and sti is a $ood Presbyterian. He ives in Streetsvie a 2e& mies 2rom %oronto and usedto commute 2rom "ome to store. 6"en in %oronto "e se#t on a itte cot in t"e bac o2 t"e dru$ store. e+t door &as t"et"en 2amed Roume$ous Restaurant. ot many remember t"at. On t"e o##osite corner &as t"e od Rossin "ouse and ont"e ot"er corners &ere t"e Im#eria t"e Pamer and t"e 7in$ -d&ard —2our "otes and %em#eton and I in t"e midde o2 t"em. -very etter Mr %em#eton &rites to me and I receive severa a year "e &inds u# by =rain$= me about &"at "ecas =t"at damnabe doctrine o2 yours.= He tes me t"at "e is =saved and sancti2ied= and a&ays "as been. Per"a#s "e is. I

am not in a #osition to dis#ute "im. I "ave my o&n ideas on t"at sub:ect and t"ey do not :ibe &it" 8. 9.'s ideas. Ho&ever&e "ave been #ersona 2riends too on$ to Auarre over "is =savation and sancti2ication.= I :ust &ant to te &"at "a##enedin t"at dru$ store &"ie I &ored t"ere. It must be remembered t"at I am &ritin$ about t"in$s &"ic" "a##ened t"irty>2iveyears a$o. !onditions "ave c"an$ed consideraby no&. 6"at &as #er2ecty e$a t"en is "i$"y ie$a no&.

%"ere &as no Harrison /ct t"en eit"er in !anada or in t"e 0nited States and =do#e= coud be bou$"t 2reey by anyone&"o cared to se it #rovided it &as sod under a State P"armacy icense. /$ne&s !atarr" !ure &as on t"e maret int"ose days and t"e ="o#>"eads= &oud buy it by t"e doen #aca$es. 6e used to buy it by t"e $ross. It &as oaded &it"cocaine. %oronto &as 2u o2 ="o#>"eads= and %em#eton's P"armacy did business &it" most o2 t"em. One o2 my :obs &asto #aca$e u# at ni$"t mor#"ine and cocaine in itte &"ie #a#ers to be sod 2or di22erent #rices. 6e even #ut out t&o>$rain #aca$es to se at ten cents. 6e "ad ot"ers 2or a Auarter 2i2ty cents and &"at "ave you. %"ese #aca$es o2 =mor#"=and =coc= &ere on t"e #rescri#tion counter in seidit>#o&der bo+es. 6e did not advertise t"e 2act t"at &e &ere sein$=do#e= but &e did se it to t"ose =in t"e no&.=

In t"ose days cocaine and mor#"ine cost about G(.)) an ounce. %"ere are 4) $rains in an ounce. 6e c"ar$ed 2ivecents a $rain. ?ou 2i$ure out t"e #ro2it.

%"ere &as an od Iris" coe$e #ro2essor caed De!ourcey He "ad been a very briiant man and &as a $raduate o2 some ar$e coe$e in e2ast Ireand. =Do#ey= &e caed "im and t"e name 2itted "im. I2 ever t"ere &as a "umandereict =Do#ey= &as it. He used to &as" bottes 2or us and in #ay "e &oud be $iven =do#e.= I re2used to $ive "im any.On t"e evenin$s on &"ic" I &oud be &ei$"in$ it out into itte #aca$es =Do#ey= &oud be t"ere &atc"in$ me. 8ust etme s#i a 2raction o2 a $rain on t"e 2oor and do&n &oud $o =Do#ey= on "is "ands and nees icin$ it o22 t"at dirty2oor. I don't no& &"ere =Do#ey= is no&— #robaby dead. I &as in %oronto not on$ a$o and %em#eton and I &ondered&"at "ad become o2 "im. It seems t"at ora+ intensi2ies t"e anaest"esia o2 cocaine. I did not no& t"at t"en 2or I &as nota $raduate #"armacist as I am no&. -very so o2ten I &oud see =Do#ey= $o into t"e um# ora+ dra&er and tae a #ieceas bi$ as a #i and stic it into "is mout". One day I ased "im &"at "e &as eatin$ ora+ 2or. =O" :ust to intensi2y t"eanaest"esia= re#ied =Do#ey.= =Do#ey's= #astime &as to dissect rats in t"e basement.

Mr %em#eton &as t"en and I understand is no& an eder in t"e Presbyterian c"urc". He tod me recenty t"at "e &as=saved and sancti2ied and a&ays "ad been.= I'm &onderin$ t"ou$" &"et"er =Do#ey= &"en &e a stand be2ore t"e =$reat&"ite t"rone= &on't #rove to be :ust as muc" =saved and sancti2ied= as my 2riend %em#eton. He ne& better. =Do#ey=&as in t"e cutc"es o2 t"e most terribe demon no&n on t"is eart" today. %"e 8a#s are 2eedin$ cocaine and mor#"ine tot"e !"inese by t"e barre tryin$ to brin$ t"eir do&n2a in t"at manner. %"is is :ust a #assin$ t"ou$"t "o&ever. Mr %em#eton cannot be sein$ =do#e= today and as it &as #er2ecty e$a t"en no e$a condemnation can be "is.

evert"eess—I &onder.%"ou$"ts o2 9od &ere sti u##ermost in my mind t"en yet "ere &as an eder o2 a Presbyterian c"urc" "e#in$

aready ost sous a itte 2urt"er into t"e "e t"ey aready &ere e+#eriencin$. !ocaine cost G(.5). %"e net #ro2it &asG(1.5) on eac" ounce.

I s"a "ere $ive you a co#y o2 t"e ast etter received 2rom Mr %em#eton ast !"ristmas to$et"er &it" my re#y.

=Ra>Ma"= is t"e ne& name o2 %em#eton's R"eumatic cure. Hence t"e re2erence to =Ra>Ma">%a= in my etter.Toronto, Canada, Dec. 12, 1939.Dear Frank: Another Christmas is about upon us and am minded to !rite "ou. !i## a#!a"s remember m" de#i$ht%u# &isit—at "our home

and "our most entertainin$ !i%e. 'ou ha&e e&er" reason to be proud o% her and "ou must ha&e $reat en(o"ment out o% "our

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chi#dren. ha&e si) $randchi#dren and the" keep me $oin$, can assure "ou.This !ar !i## not a%%ect "ou but !ith man" it is most disastrous and causin$ a #ot o% su%%erin$. 'ou peop#e think "ou can keep

out o% it—perhaps so. sa! our %riend Timoth" *a$$ert", the other da". *e is a$in$ %ast.+. T. in e##e&i##e is $ettin$ &er" %eeb#e. !rite him once a "ear and am doin$ it toda". !ish "ou and "our $ood !i%e and %ami#" a o"ous Christmas !ith a## the $ood thin$s that $o !ith it.'ours %aith%u##",. . T/0/T4.

December 5, 939.

0r . . Temp#eton,Toronto, ntario, Canada.0" Dear Friend:6hen #e%t the house this mornin$, said to 0rs +obinson, 7t8s about time 0r Temp#eton !as !ritin$. !onder i% he is i##.7 And

!hen $et to the o%%ice, here is the o#d, %ami#iar 7+a-mah-ta7 en&e#ope "in$ on m" desk.*o!e&er, in spite o% the &er" #o! re$ard and esteem ha&e %or the proprietor o% this 7+a-mah-ta7 business, am happ"

indeed that "ou remembered me at this Christmas time. can understand ho! "our si) $randchi#dren !orr" "ou considerab#" atChristmas time, because, bein$ a cotchman and a $ood resb"terian, ima$ine considerab#e menta# su%%erin$ !i## be "our #otunti# this pain%u# ordea# o% $i&in$ Christmas presents a!a" is ended %or another "ear. think the cheapest !a" out o% it is (ust tosend them a Christmas card and state on this card that it co&ers Christmas da" up to the "ear 9;< so that "ou can use one card%or ten Christmases.

oor o#d Tim *a$$ert". am surprised that he is sti## a#i&e, but understand he is a cotchman, too, and "ou kno! ho! thosebo"s han$ on to e&er"thin$, e&en #i%e itse#%. am &er" much surprised that +obert Temp#eton is sti## a#i&e, because he !as read" %or

the bone pi#e !hen !as !orkin$ %or him %ort" "ears a$o. ut this cotch trait !i## predominate, and e)pect "ou !i## #i&e to be at#east one hundred and %i%t".

A## (okin$ aside, thou$h, !as &er" happ" indeed to think that "ou had remembered me, because a%ter a##, the s!eetest thin$sin #i%e are the memories o% da"s $one b". The sad part o% it is that the" cannot be reca##ed.

6e recei&ed internationa# pub#icit" o&er the radio, in the press, and throu$h the ne!s photo ser&ices, on account o% the !ire recei&ed %rom the remier o% Fin#and askin$ the spiritua# assistance o% this 0o&ement, and o% course, !i## immediate#" %#" intoaction, and am causin$ to be inserted in the ne!spapers o% the =nited tates, appropriate cop".

% a## re#i$ions cou#d knock out e&er" creed and do$ma the" e&er heard o% and e&er" creed and do$ma the" contain, and cou#d!ork %rom the sin$#e h"pothesis o% the present e)istence o% the pirit o% od, there !ou#dn8t be an" !ar. ut !ith resb"terianismand a## the rest o% these rotten 7isms,7 there can be no peace.

*o!e&er, ames, #i%e is an e&o#ution, and man !i## continue to pro$ress unti# a## creeds and do$mas are banished, and man#i&es in per%ect peace !ith his nei$hbours, in per%ect consciousness o% the resence o% od.

!ish "ou a #on$, happ" #i%e, and "ou !i## a#!a"s stand out in m" memor" as one o% the nicest scoundre#s ha&e e&er met,and at the same time, one o% the %inest characters. Don8t make "our #etters too %ar apart, because #ike them.

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t !as about this time that made up m" mind to make one %ina# e%%ort to see i% cou#d not %ind out somethin$ about the o!er o% thereat pirit-od—throu$h the church. rea#ised that it probab#" !ou#d be a hope#ess task, %or m" dea#in$s !ith those !ho pro%essed re#i$ionhad been disastrous. First—m" %ather. econd—the +e&erend 6a##ace, Third—the +e&erend /##iott. Fourth—The a#&ation Arm" cadet. Fi%th—. . Temp#eton. There !ere man" others. mention on#" these %i&e. 'et instincti&e#" kne! that od must be a #i&in$ +ea#it", and m" mind!as made up to %ind od or die in the attempt. There is runnin$ throu$h m" mind no! a passa$e %rom one o% the man" bib#es o% the di%%erentre#i$ions, and it runs somethin$ #ike this: 7Thou$h he s#a" me, "et !i## trust him.7 t8s %oo#ish, o% course, to trust one !ho !ou#d s#a" "ou, but !as that much in earnest to %ind (ust !hat the Truth o% od !as, and is.

ne unda" ni$ht, !andered into a church. The roo% did not %a## in. t !as a #itt#e church out in 4orth Toronto and it !as a aptist

church. The pastor8s name !as ro!n. The sin$in$ %rom the outside attracted me. t !as $ood music, and #ike $ood music, so !ent in.There !as a #ar$e choir in Toronto those da"s ca##ed the A#e)ander Choir. t !as e&an$e#istic in its nature, and this choir !ou#d sp#it intodi%%erent $roups and &isit the di%%erent churches in Toronto e&er" unda" ni$ht. n this particu#ar unda" e&enin$, the sermon did not appea#to me. The sin$in$ did, and !hen the 7a#tar-ca##7 !as $i&en, there !as , once more be#ie&in$ !hat this aptist denomination to#d me. shou#dha&e kno!n better, perhaps, a%ter !hat had seen. ut !as in earnest—in dead#" earnest. !anted od more than an"thin$ e#se in the!or#d. %, b" $oin$ to the 7a#tar7 e&er" ni$ht in the !eek %or ten "ears, cou#d %ind od, !ou#d ha&e done (ust that.

This e)perience !as not ?uite as pictures?ue as the 7sa#&ation7 e)perience in the Arm" in e##e&i##e. There !as no 7ha##e#u(ah—thisbrother has %ound the ord.7 t !as much ?uieter than that. 0r ro!n, a &er" %ine chap he turned out to be, $rasped me b" the hand andasked me !here !as !orkin$. *e did not recommend the a#&ation Arm", nor did he ask me ho! much mone" cou#d $i&e to the support o% the church. This chap honest#" meant and be#ie&ed !hat he preached. think most rotestant ministers o% that da" did. 8m ?uite sure &er"%e! o% them do toda". +ecent ministeria# po##s sho!ed that more than si)t"-se&en per cent o% those ministers po##ed do not be#ie&e in thedi&init" o% esus Christ. The" are becomin$ inte##i$ent. ut !hat are the" doin$ in the ministr"@ 6h" do the" not be honest %or a chan$e and

stop preachin$ !hat the" admit the" do not be#ie&e@ made ?uite a %riend o% ro!n. made man" %riends as a resu#t o% that unda" e&enin$. 0an" thin$s happened be cause o% it. The

h"mn !hich brou$ht me to m" %eet is sti## one o% m" %a&ourite h"mns. p#a" it on m" pipe-or$an %re?uent#". *ere is the h"mn:

In loving kindness *esus came, my soul in mercy to reclaim; $nd from the depths of sin and shame, redeemed, he lifted meB

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Chorus3rom sinking sand he lifted me, with tender hand he lifted me;rom shades of night, to plains of light, Oh praise his name,+e lifted me.

%"e "ymn reay means not"in$ to me and it meant not"in$ t"en 2or I &as not in t"e si$"test de$ree interested in8esus !"rist. I &anted to no& 9od. %"e story o2 8esus !"rist as 2ar as I &as concerned may "ave been a ri$"t. ut it&as 9od—t"e $reat <ivin$ S#irit>9od I &anted to no&. I "ad "eard t"at 8esus "ad been #ut to deat" t&o t"ousand yearsa$o and "ad never been "eard 2rom since—so "o& coud t"at "e# meE I &anted t"e <ivin$ S#irit &"ic" is 9od and I didnot &ant to &ait unti I &as dead to 2ind t"at 9reat S#irit.

It &as not on$ a2ter t"is e+#erience unti a Miss 6est o2 Pardae came do&n to t"e %em#eton store to $ive me an

invitation to :oin t"e /e+ander !"oir. I "ave a voice ie a cro&. S"e did not no& t"at. S"e soon 2ound it out. /ny&ay I :oined t"is /e+ander !"oir. Its eader as I reca t"e name &as Mevin Fuer or somet"in$ ie t"at. / dentist caed9eor$e Pamer &"o "ad been &it" %orrey and /e+ander some years be2ore &as t"e eader &"en I :oined but a2ter a 2e&&ees "e &as re#aced by Mevin Fuer. On Saturday ni$"ts &e &oud meet in a do&n>to&n c"urc" #arour and #ractice2or t"e 2oo&in$ Sunday. -veryt"in$ I "ad I $ave to t"at c"oir. I meant business. I never &as sod on t"e #"ioso#"y ittau$"t but I did ie t"e sin$in$ and I ied t"e evan$eistic meetin$s es#eciay &"en &e &ent out o2 to&n. I ima$inet"ere &ere more t"an one t"ousand voices in t"at c"oir. 6e $ave concerts o2 a rei$ious nature in t"e Massey Ha t"ear$est auditorium in %oronto at t"at time.

Someone must "ave sensed t"e dee# s#irituaity in my nature 2or it &as not on$ unti I &as $iven s#iritua c"ar$e o2 t"at c"oir. y t"at I mean t"at I &as $iven c"ar$e o2 t"e devotiona end. I &oud "ave to ead t"e devotions do t"e

#rayin$ and in $enera act as =s#iritua advisor.= I did t"is to t"e best o2 my abiity. %"en be2ore I ne& it I &as bein$ased to #reac" "ere and t"ere and &"enever it &as advertised t"at Fran . Robinson &as to s#ea you coud be sure

t"e cro&ds &oud be turned a&ay. /bout t"e ony t"in$ t"ere &as in my #reac"in$ &as earnestness. I "ave been accusedin t"e #ast t&eve years o2 amost everyt"in$ but I "ave never yet met a man &"o Auestioned my earnestness i2 "e ne&me at a.

I "ad itte education. !ertain it is I "ad no trainin$ in #at2orm &or and eAuay certain &as it t"at t"ere &as itteno&ed$e o2 t"e bibe. %"e ony boo I ne& anyt"in$ about &as a 9os#e o2 8o"n. I &ore t"at boo to a seeton o2 its2ormer se2 tryin$ to 2ind 9od t"rou$" it but I never 2ound 9od t"at &ay. /ny&ay t"e cro&ds came and it &as not on$unti Robinson "ad t"e re#utation o2 bein$ =anot"er S#ur$eon.= !as 2rom outside to&ns came in and I 2ied t"ose cas.I en:oyed it. O2 course I &as not satis2ied at a. I ne& t"at I did not no& anyt"in$ about t"e 9reat S#irit 9od. Mysermons e#t as 2ar a&ay 2rom 8esus !"rist as I coud ee# t"em. ne& not"in$ about 8esus and &as not #articuaryinterested in "im. So I #reac"ed t"e Po&er o2 t"e S#irit o2 9od. %"at is a I #reac" no&. %"at is a I no& and t"at is t"ereason 2or t"e sta$$erin$ $ro&t" and success o2 t"e Psyc"iana Movement.

One day Mr %em#eton "anded me a etter &"en I came to &or. It bore t"e embem o2 Doctor -more Harris amiionaire 2arm instrument deaer and a member o2 t"e ceebrated 2irm o2 Massey>Harris "ere in t"e 0nited States.Hastiy o#enin$ t"e etter I 2ound it contained an invitation to ca and see Doctor Harris in "is "ome &"enever convenient. Mysti2ied I caed u# t"e doctor and ased "im &"at "e &anted to see me about. He e+#ained t"at "e &asinterested in me and t"ou$"t it mi$"t be a $ood idea i2 I &ere to meet "im. %"e ne+t &ee I did so. Doctor Harris ived ina beauti2u "ome surey suitabe 2or a miionaire and I 2et rat"er ie a 2is" out o2 &ater as I sat t"ere in "is "u$e

#arour my ca# "an$in$ over one nee. /2ter a 2e& moments Doctor Harris came in and in t"e very 2riendiest manner"e said to me =Fran I'm very $ad you came. I've been "earin$ about you and t"e <ord "as #ut it on my "eart to #ut yout"rou$" t"e a#tist ministry. I beieve you &i dra& t"is &ord coser to t"e cross.=

%"is &as somet"in$ ne&. ever "ad I even 2ainty sus#ected t"at t"is $reat man "ad ever "eard o2 me. I ne& "e &as #resident o2 McMaster a#tist 0niversity and I ne& "e &as a #o&er2u in2uence in t"e ibe %rainin$ Sc"oo but "o&"e "ad ever "eard o2 a itte c"a# ie me I did not no&. I ased Doctor Harris "o& t"at &as. =Fran= "e re#ied =Many

"ave come to me and tod me o2 your #o&er on t"e #at2orm and your dee# and s#iritua nature. I "ave attended t"e astt"ree sermons you #reac"ed. I consider you t"e most #o&er2u #at2orm man t"e a#tist denomination "as in it.= 6"en Ireminded Doctor Harris t"at I &as not a member o2 any denomination "e re#ied =O" yes you are. I "ave t"e aut"orityto ordain you as a a#tist minister —Stand u# a moment #ease.= I &as t"en and t"ere ordained as a a#tist minister byDoctor Harris. 6"at $ood it "as done me I do not no& nor do I no& &"y Doctor Harris &as so insistent about "avin$me in t"e a#tist denomination. Per"a#s "e "ad an insi$"t into t"e 2act t"at 'ere t"is i2e &as over a &or o2 stu#endousim#ort 2or 9od &oud be done. 6"atever t"e reason certainy t"e #ressure &as #ut on me by Doctor Harris.

/ t"is &as "a##enin$ a bit too 2ast 2or my so& mind to $ras#. 6"en I e2t %em#eton's I &as an unno&n dru$>cer and no& an "our ater I &as a 2u>2ed$ed a#tist minister. %"at &as somet"in$. ot t"at I 2et any di22erent 2or did not. I do not beieve I even 2et "onoured by t"is ordination. It meant :ust e+acty not"in$ to me. In 2act I 2et t"e cart&as be2ore t"e "orse. I ne& not"in$ about 9od. I "ad t"e very de2inite im#ression t"at I &as to be used by 9od to brin$to t"is &ord t"e $reatest s#iritua a&aenin$ it "as ever e+#erienced but I aso ne& t"at t"e mere main$ a #reac"er out

o2 me did not eAui# me s#irituay 2or t"e &or I ne& &oud be mine to do sooner or ater.I never :um# be2ore I no& &"ere I'm $oin$ to i$"t i2 I do :um#. I t"aned Doctor Harris 2or "is ordination and

inAuired a bit 2urt"er into "is 2uture desi$ns on me. He in2ormed me t"at =t"e <ord "as bessed me &it" materiaabundance and "as #ut it on my "eart to $ive some o2 t"at abundance to you.= 6"at "e &anted me to do &as to eave%em#eton's and $o to t"e ibe %rainin$ Sc"oo t"ere to eAui# myse2 2or t"e a#tist ministry. ormay t"at &oud "ave

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I D0- %IM- /D 6I%H MIL-D F--<I9S I -%-R-D %H- ibe %rainin$ Sc"oo. / c"eAue 2or G*5.)) amont" &as received 2rom Doctor Harris and in addition to t"is my 2ees &ere taen care o2. %"is sc"oo as I remember&as ocated on 9errard Street— #er"a#s it &as !oe$e Street. %"e ocation maes no di22erence. It is aninterdenominationa sc"oo o#erated under t"e a#tist denomination. I remember &e t"e consternation &"ic" rei$nedsu#reme &"en a !"ristian Science c"urc" &as buit ri$"t ne+t door. %"ey &ere damned time and time a$ain but t"ere &asnot"in$ t"e ibe Sc"oo coud do about it.

%"e casses t"ere consisted o2 severa "undred students 2rom a Protestant denominations. %"e Savation /rmy &as

re#resented t"ere and t"e Mennonites &it" t"eir 2unny itte bac bonnets. %"e =Hoy Roers= &ere t"ere &it" t&o o2 t"ese in t"e sc"oo &"en I attended it. %"e resident instructor &as a Presbyterian named Mcico. Doctor Mcico &as a&onder2u c"a#—Auiet reserved #ain and "e too "is rei$ion very seriousy. I don't care &"at a #erson beieves aboutrei$ion i2 t"at #erson actuay beieves it. 6"at maes me boi is to "ear some radio or re$uar #reac"er &"ose onymotive is t"e doar $et u# over t"e air and rant about somet"in$ "e "imse2 does not beieve.

I no& a radio #reac"er &"o $oes on many stations. %o "ear t"at man #reac" you &oud t"in butter &oud not metin "is mout". <et me te you a itte true story. / 2e& years a$o I &as $ivin$ a series o2 Sunday addresses in #erson over 7L in Hoy&ood. %"is c"a# "earin$ t"at I &as in t"e studio ased t"e tec"nician i2 "e &oud be so ind as tointroduce me to "im. His #ro$ram 2oo&ed mine. %"e tec"nician a$reed and cain$ me into t"e 2ront studio said=Doctor Robinson I'd ie to #resent t"e Reverend &"o "as ased to meet you.= I s"oo "ands &it" t"e man and notiin$ "is oos decided to #ay &it" "im a bit to 2ind out &"et"er t"e 2eo& reay &as in earnest or not. =?ou certainy"ave done a mi$"ty 2ine :ob &it" Psyc"iana t"e Reverend said. =?es= I re#ied. =Ho&'s your racet —$ettin$ ots o2

money out o2 itE= =ot too bad—not too bad at a. I'm main$ about G15)) a mont".= %"en "e ased me &"at I &asmain$ and I turned 2rom t"e man in dis$ust. I cannot toerate a "y#ocrite es#eciay in t"e ream o2 rei$ion. %"is Reamo2 9od is a very rea Ream. o one &"o does not no& &"ereo2 "e s#eas s"oud 2oo &it" it. %"ere is too muc" at stae2or t"at. ?et t"ere are tens o2 t"ousands o2 #reac"ers and #riests in t"is 2air /merica today &"o every Sunday &i $et u#in t"eir #u#its and teac" somet"in$ &"ic" t"ey cannot #rove and &"ic" t"ey do not beieve t"emseves. I "ave no use 2or t"at sort o2 t"in$. %"at is &"at my 2at"er &as doin$. It neary ruined me.

%"e ot"er instructors in t"e ibe Sc"oo &ere Doctor Ste&art a &onder2u od man —"air sno&y &"ite eye een :ovia dis#osition. %"en t"ere &as Doctor Imrie a ta t"in any ind o2 individua o2 t"e inteectua ty#e. Doctor Harris"imse2 aso tau$"t a sub:ect. 6"at it &as I 2or$et. -very mont" #rominent s#eaers &ere brou$"t in to s#ea to t"estudents and t"e atmos#"ere o2 t"at sc"oo &as $ood. I ied it. I remember &e "ad a bind boy t"ere by t"e name o2 !ar. He used to #unc" out "is e+ercises on a raie boo. I 2et sorry 2or #oor !ar and &"atever became o2 "im I donot no&.

On one o2 t"e s#ecia attraction occasions an od cooured ady Mrs /manda Smit" came to ta to us. I t"in t"atod cooured ady "ad more rea rei$ion t"an any s#eaer I "ave ever "eard. S"e tod a story t"at made me s#it my sides&it" au$"ter at"ou$" one coud not au$" in t"e ibe %rainin$ Sc"oo. 6"et"er t"e od cooured ady beieved t"estory or not I do not no& but "ere is &"at s"e tod to us as t"e trut". Maybe s"e &as :oin$ —&"o no&sE S"e said t"atone &inter severa years a$o t"in$s &ere in a very bad &ay 2inanciay &it" "er. %"e $oin$ &as a&2uy tou$". S"e ivedin a itte cabin some&"ere in t"e Sout" and on t"is #articuar evenin$ s"e &as very "un$ry. Mrs Smit" did not e+#ain"o& s"e came to be so "un$ry nor did s"e e+#ain &"y s"e did not mae "er condition no&n to t"e nei$"bours. Sureyt"ey &oud not "ave et "er starve to deat". 6e—"ere s"e &as—t"is od cooured ady—a aone in "er cabin and very"un$ry. I' et t"e story be tod in "er o&n &ords 2rom t"is #oint =So no&in$ t"at de <a&d &oud #rovide 2o' a #oor o'cooured &oman a" dro#s to ma" nees s"et ma" eyes and said to de <a&d 'O" <a&d —you a no&s a about dis o'cooured &oman in dis yere cabin. /"'s a c"id ob yose an a"'s #o&er2u "un$ry. Maybe a" can &ait ti ma&nin' 2or somet"in' to eat <a&d but a" no&s a"' "ave to "ave ots to eat in de ma&nin'.=

%"en a2ter #rayin$ t"at #rayer to =de <a&d= s"e said s"e $ot u# boted t"e door o2 "er one>room cabin and &ent tosee#. Remember s"e boted =de do'.= Ima$ine "er amaement &"en s"e a&aened in t"e =ma&nin=' to 2ind ri$"t in t"emidde o2 =de 2o=' a "a2 a doen e$$s and no "en. I s"a never 2or$et tryin$ to ee# 2rom au$"in$ ri$"t out oud &"enMrs /manda Smit" tod us t"at story. On t"e same #ro$ram &as t"e is"o# o2 7in$ston and it amost seemed ie $oin$2rom t"e ridicuous to t"e subime. %"is 7in$ston bis"o# &aed out on t"e #at2orm &it" "is $aitered e$s and in t"emost serious o2 manners said =ret"ren et us #ray but not 2or e$$s.= 8ust &"at t"e bis"o# &as tryin$ to $et at I never coud Auite 2i$ure out. Per"a#s you can.

I seemed to be Auite &e ied amon$ t"e students and it &asn't very on$ be2ore I "ad a "ost o2 2riends t"ere. I became no&n in t"at sc"oo as =anot"er S#ur$eon.= On one occasion &"ie s#eain$ &it" a $rou# o2 =missioners= 2romt"e ibe Sc"oo I &as introduced as =t"e man &"o &as and tas &it" 9od.= 6"ere t"ey $ot t"at im#ression I do notno& 2or I &as very care2u never to $ive out any suc" im#ression. I tried to be Auite norma and &"ie 2riendy &it" a

and Auite in earnest I e#t everyone t"ere at arm's en$t". I "ave a "abit o2 doin$ t"at. ot consciousy #er"a#s but I doit nevert"eess. I s"a not burden you &it" t"e routine o2 t"e sc"oo because you are not interested in t"at. I'd ie to teyou o2 one incident t"at "a##ened &"ic" mi$"t $ive you &"o may never see me an insi$"t into my c"aracter and $eneramae>u#.

/ ca "ad come into t"e ibe Sc"oo 2rom t"e !"ristian Missionary /iance c"urc" in O&ens Sound 2or =someone&"o coud drive t"e devi out o2 O&ens Sound= and t"e :ob 2e to me. On t"e Saturday be2ore t"e =devi>drivin$= &as to

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be$in I e2t by train 2or O&ens Sound some 2e& "undred mies 2rom %oronto. 6"at I &as runnin$ into I did not no&.My instructions &ere to stay t"ere unti t"e =S#irit o2 9od "ad com#ete contro o2 t"e city.= %"at &as some order and itcoud "ave been done "ad t"ere been anyone in t"at c"urc" &"o ne& t"e 2irst t"in$ about t"e S#irit o2 9od.0n2ortunatey t"ere &asn't suc" a man or &oman in t"e entire c"urc". I "ad been in2ormed t"at someone &oud meet meat t"e de#ot. On t"e train I mued over a statement Doctor Mcico "ad made to me :ust be2ore I e2t. =Fran —you're$oin$ to a "ard c"urc". I2 you can crac t"is one you're a $ood man.=

It must be remembered at t"is #oint t"at I "ad been in t"e ibe Sc"oo ony a 2e& mont"s and ot"ers "ad been t"ere2or years. I "ad not earnt muc" about t"eoo$y yet and &"y I &as "anded t"is O&ens Sound :ob i2 it &as suc" a =tou$"nut= &as a bit beyond me. O2 course my re#utation &as =a mi$"ty #o&er2u man= at"ou$" I #ersonay 2et about t"e&eaest #erson in t"e &"oe ibe Sc"oo. I2 ot"ers t"ou$"t me #o&er2u I &as not res#onsibe 2or t"at. I &as in any

event very muc" in earnest about everyt"in$ I did. I arrived at t"e Sound ate on Saturday a2ternoon. %ain$ an od battered suitcase &it" me I &aed u# t"e station #at2orm ooin$ 2or t"e one &"o &as to escort me to room. Finay Is#otted an od 2eo& &"o on a##roac"in$ me said =e you t"e #reac"erE= I re#ied t"at I &as. =Is your name Fran RobinsonE= "e ased. I assured "im t"at it &as. =6e $ive me your $ri# Mr Robinson and you :um# u# t"ar in t"e seato2 t"e bucboard. I' tuc your ba$$a$e in t"e bac.= %"is od c"a# made itte im#ression on me and I &ondered moreand more :ust &"at &as a"ead o2 me. Some"o& or ot"er I seemed to sense dan$er.

=I "ear you're a stem>&inder o2 a #reac"er= "e be$an and &"en I assured "im t"at I &as not"in$ o2 t"e sort "e said=%"at ain't &"at &e "eared u# "ere.= On t"e &ay 2rom t"e de#ot to t"e "ouse &"ere I &as to stay &e #assed a

bacsmit"'s s"o#. Pointin$ "is 2in$er to t"e bacsmit" &"o &as standin$ in t"e door o2 t"e s"o# my escort a $riy od2armer said =See t"at 2eer standin$ t"ere—t"at bacsmit"E=

=?es I see "im= I re#ied. =6"at's &ron$ &it" "imE==6a sir t"at $uy ain't $ot no more rei$ion t"an a #oecat. He sits in t"e second seat do&n t"e 2ront on t"e e2t>"and

side o2 t"e c"urc". ?ou better $it a2ter "im and $it "im saved. He s"ore needs it. He's a deacon in our c"urc" but t"atscoundre ain't $ot no more rei$ion t"an a #oecat—no sirree.=

o& I ne& t"ere &as dan$er a"ead. I ne& someone &as $oin$ to "ave some 2un. / itte 2urt"er do&n t"e countryroad my driver a$ain caed my attention to a itte 2arm "ouse—t"is time on t"e ot"er side o2 t"e road.

=6ait ti I te you about t"at od scoundre &"o ives in t"ar= "e be$an and t"en 2oo&ed a on$ discourse on "o&itte rei$ion t"at =t"ar 2eer= "ad. He too &as a deacon. I "ad my o&n #ersona o#inion about t"e rei$ion o2 t"e driver

but not &is"in$ to "urt "is 2eein$s I et "im drive on as on$ as I coud stand it. 6"en "e be$an to #oint out anot"er =od scoundre= &"o beon$ed to "is c"urc" I too t"e conversation a&ay 2rom "im by asin$ "im &"ere t"e re$uar minister o2 t"e c"urc" &as. He in2ormed me t"at "e &as ="odin$ evan$eistic services= in t"e ne+t to&n. 6"en I ased"im &"y t"e #astor did not "od evan$eistic services in "is o&n c"urc" "e re#ied =6e you see Mr Robinson t"e roo2 on t"e #arsona$e &ants a bit o2 2i+in' and &e ain't "ad money enou$" to 2i+ it —it ain't "ardy 2it to ive in so t"e #reac"er t"ou$"t "e mou$"t mae a itte e+tra money "odin' evan$eistic services over t"ere. %"en "e mou$"t brin$ bac enou$"

money to 2i+ t"e #arsona$e "isse2.==Ho& muc" do you #ay "imE= I ased.=6aa "e ain't &ort" muc". 6e been a>"o#in' "e'd $it anot"er c"urc" some #ace= t"e od 2eo& re#ied. I #ressed

"im 2or t"e amount t"e minister "ad been #romised and &as in2ormed t"at t"ere &as no stated saary— :ust &"atever t"e=bret"ren= 2et ie $ivin$ to "im. 6"en I ased "o& many c"idren t"eir #astor "ad I &as tod 2ive. I did some more=2is"in$= &it" t"at od c"a# and be2ore &e reac"ed t"e "ome in &"ic" I &as to stay I "ad a #retty $ood idea o2 t"e ty#eo2 con$re$ation I "ad to dea &it". %"is &as my 2irst try at =drivin$ t"e devi out= o2 any&"ere. ein$ a natura born2i$"ter I 2et in my bones t"at t"e 2ur &oud 2y be2ore I e2t O&ens Sound. It did.

%&o services &ere to be "ed t"e ne+t day one at eeven o'coc in t"e mornin$ and t"e ot"er at seven>t"irty in t"eevenin$. %"e !"ristian Missionary /iance denomination &as i2 I remember correcty "eaded by one Reverend /. .Sim#son &"o broe a&ay 2rom t"e a#tist denomination and ie Pau started a c"urc" o2 "is o&n. %"e c"urc" itse2 "edabout t&o "undred #eo#e and &"en I arrived t"ere 2or t"e mornin$ service t"e #eo#e &ere standin$ outside —not a seat&as vacant. %"is "ad not "a##ened t"ere 2or years i2 ever. 6e I didn't do muc" #reac"in$ t"at Sunday :ust 2ooed a&ayt"e time. I &as &aitin$ 2or t"e evenin$ meetin$. I a&ays do my best &or in t"e evenin$.

I #ayed around &it" t"at con$re$ation and more time &as s#ent in siin$ it u# t"an in doin$ anyt"in$ ese. Per"a#smy unusuay Auiet demeanour t"at mornin$ $ave t"e im#ression t"at I &as oaded &it" dynamite 2or at si+>t"irty in t"eevenin$ one "our be2ore t"e service &as sc"edued to be$in t"e #ace &as #aced. In t"e itte corner "ome &"ere Istayed I came in 2or some more advice. %"ese $ood 2os &ere very use2u to me in $ivin$ me t"e o&>do&n on t"econ$re$ation. %"ey tried "ard to #um# me about t"e evenin$ sermon but I &asn't tain$. I &as istenin$ and main$t"em ta.

/rrivin$ at t"e c"urc" I ased 2or t"e caretaer. 6"en "e came I said to "im =Have you $ot t"e ey to t"is buidin$E= He re#ied t"at "e "ad. =%"en $ive it to me= said. He rat"er "esitated and &antin$ t"at ey in t"e &orst &ayI too it out o2 "is "and and #ut it in my #ocet. %"en ocin$ t"e door 2rom t"e inside I &ent into t"e #u#it. %"ere &as a

very tense atmos#"ere in t"at c"urc" t"at ni$"t. ?ou coud "ave "eard a #in dro# at"ou$" I "ad not $iven any one t"e2aintest inin$ o2 &"at I mi$"t do or say. I did not no& myse2. BI "ave never yet &aed out be2ore an audienceno&in$ &"at I &as $oin$ to say or do. I invariaby ao& t"e S#irit o2 9od to ead me in every detai.C

Standin$ t"ere Auiety 2or a 2e& moments durin$ &"ic" t"e tenseness increased so t"at you coud cut it &it" a ni2eI #ued t"e ey 2rom my #ocet and "odin$ it in #ain si$"t I said =?ou 2os are oced in —and "ere you're $oin$ tostay unti I $et t"rou$" &it" you. Don't anyone attem#t to eave.= %"at &as dynamite. 0suay t"e service &oud "ave

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commenced &it" a "ymn. %"is service "ad no "ymns nor #rayers in it. I &on't burden you &it" t"at sermon. It &as not asermon. It &as t"e most &it"erin$ =ba&in$ out= any con$re$ation ever "ad. I recaed to t"em t"eir tee$ram about=drivin$ t"e devi out o2 O&ens Sound and #roceeded to in2orm t"em t"at instead o2 drivin$ His Satanic Ma:esty out o2 O&ens Sound I "ad #ued a 2ast one on "im—I "ad oced "im in a c"urc" and "ad t"e ey in my #ocet. %"en I et $o./t ten t"irty t"at same evenin$ t"e ey &as sti in my #ocet and I &as sti &orin$ over t"at cro&d o2 2ase rei$ionists2or t"at is &"at t"ey &ere. %"ere &asn't a sin$e one o2 t"em t"at ne& t"e 2irst t"in$ about 9od and t"ey ne& it be2ore I&as t"rou$". %"en at e+acty ten t"irty I too t"e ey 2rom my #ocet and announced t"at I &as tain$ t"e ni$"t train

bac to %oronto. I tod t"em t"at &"en t"ey reay &anted to no& somet"in$ o2 t"e Po&er o2 9od to $et t"eir o&n #reac"er's bac saary #aid and "ave "is "ome renovated. %"en 2rom t"e bac o2 t"e c"urc" I t"re& t"e ey u# on t"e #at2orm and Bt"is &as my strate$yC I &aed bac to t"e #at2orm a$ain. e2ore eeven o'coc I "ad raised seven

"undred doars in cas" and c"eAues. /2ter tain$ out one "undred doars 2or my o&n e+#enses I tod t"em I &oud mait"e baance to t"eir re$uar #reac"er. %"is &as done e+ce#t instead o2 maiin$ it and instead o2 eavin$ 2or %oronto t"atni$"t I drove to t"e ne+t city &"ere t"eir re$uar minister &as ="odin$ evan$eistic services.= %"e ne+t mornin$ I &entinto a "udde &it" "im. %"e ne+t &ee "e &as bac in "is od c"ar$e. 6"ere "e is no& I do not no& — #robaby dead2or "e &as 2i2ty>2our years od t"en. %"us cosed my 2irst attem#t to =drive t"e devi= out o2 any&"ere.

%H-R- IS O- %HI9 %H/% I<- S!HOO< DID FOR M- /D I am very $rate2u to it 2or t"at. Some"o& or ot"er I 2et t"at I "ad been on t"e &ron$ trac in my searc" 2or t"e actua trut"s o2 9od. I "ad "eard t"e t"eory t"at t"e9reat !reator o2 t"is universe came do&n 2rom ="eaven= in t"e 2orm o2 man ony to be met &it" cruci2i+ion on a cross.Some"o& or ot"er t"at story did not a##ea to me. It :ust didn't mae sense. It &as not o$ica and it never entered intomy searc" 2or t"e true S#irit &"ic" is 9od. I "ad "eard t"e story #reac"ed 2rom c"id"ood. I "ad ived &it" t"ose &"o saidt"ey &ere =saved.= I ne& to my sorro& :ust "o& t"at =savation= &ored. I made u# my mind t"at i2 t"ose &it" &"om I"ad come in contact &ere =saved= I &oud rat"er tae my c"ances on bein$ damned. Ho&ever I never too t"e story

seriousy. In attem#tin$ to 2ind t"e trut"s o2 9od in t"at story I "ad been on t"e &ron$ trac. %"e %oronto ibe %rainin$Sc"oo teac"ers #ut my 2eet on t"e ri$"t trac not by &"at t"ey tau$"t but by &"at t"ey did not teac".

<et me summarise some sta$$erin$ 2acts &"ic" &i #ut your 2eet on t"e ri$"t trac as t"ey did mine. I am &e a&areo2 t"e 2act t"at i2 &"at I am sayin$ "ere is true t"e ma:or #art o2 t"e !"ristian rei$ion is $one over t"e dam. %"e best #arto2 it "as not $one "o&ever —ony t"at #art o2 it &"ic" is not true. 6"en t"at untrue #art "as $one &"at is e2t &i be o2 9od—i2 t"ere is anyt"in$ e2t and I t"in t"ere is. 0# to t"is time my 2at"er "ad rei$iousy #reac"ed t"at =t"ere is noneot"er name $iven under "eaven &"ereby men mi$"t be saved.= I "ad "eard t"at story so many times t"at I ne& it by"eart yet t"e more I "eard t"at story t"e 2art"er I $ot a&ay 2rom 9od. %"at at east is "o& it a##eared to me.

I "ad a&ays been tau$"t t"at t"e bibe o2 t"is rei$ion o2 t"e a#tist denomination &as to Auote =t"e divineyins#ired 6ord o2 9od absoutey true 2rom cover to cover.= -very &ord in t"e boo &as $iven by direct ins#iration o2 9od and in t"is bibe aone I &as tod &as t"e ans&er to "o& to 2ind 9od. aturay unti no& I "ad beieved t"atstatement. I "ad not been abe to 2ind 9od "o&ever t"rou$" it nor "ad I as yet met anyone &"o $ave t"e si$"test

evidence t"at "e "ad eit"er. %"e more I "eard t"at 9od /mi$"ty t"e In2inite !reative Invisibe S#irit &"ic" must "avecreated t"is &onder2u sc"eme o2 t"in$s &as brutay murdered by a "and2u o2 Roman sodiers "e#ess on a cross t"eess 2ait" I "ad in t"e story. e2ore I e2t t"is ibe Sc"oo I "ad no 2ait" in t"at story at a 2or t"at sc"oo $ave me inside2acts &"ic" I on$ed to no& o t"ese many years. ?et it &as not so muc" &"at t"e sc"oo did te me as &"at it did notte me. I s"a not burden you by reatin$ t"e curricuum I s"a merey $ive you &"at I discovered t"ere. %"irty>2iveyears o2 intense study o2 a systems o2 rei$ion since t"at time "ave #roved to me t"at t"ere is a vast di22erence bet&eent"e t"in$s o2 t"e 9reat S#irit 9od and t"e teac"in$s o2 any t"eoo$ica seminary.

One day s"orty be2ore I e2t t"e sc"oo I caed 2or an a##ointment &it" Doctor Harris. He too me to e& ?or !ity &it" "im and &e stayed at t"e od 6ador2 /storia. /n interestin$ sidei$"t on t"e $reat c"aracter o2 t"at man &asevidenced one day &"en &e &ere eatin$ dinner. %"e &aiter "anded us t"e menu and ooin$ at it Harris said to me=Fran c"oose anyt"in$ you &is". I'm $oin$ to tae a nice dis" o2 2is". ?ou no& Fran —I'm a miionaire but I don't

beieve t"e <ord &i bame me too muc" i2 you and I "ave a dinner &"ic" costs G1.5) do youE= I assured "im t"at i2 I&ere a miionaire I s"oud #robaby be eatin$ dinners t"at cost G5.)).

/2ter dinner &e &ent u# to our room and I #inned t"e $ood doctor do&n &"ere I &anted "im. He admitted to me be2ore &e &ere t"rou$" t"at t"e entire story o2 9od cruci2ied on a cross &as absoutey &it"out #roo2 and so 2ar as e$aevidence is concerned mi$"t not be true at a. He admitted to me t"at t"e ibe %rainin$ Sc"oo and MacMaster 0niversity e+isted ony to teac" t"e trut"s o2 9od as t"e a#tist denomination beieved t"ose trut"s to e+ist. /t t"e sametime "e admitted t"at t"e entire !"ristian structure inso2ar as 8esus !"rist is concerned is ony a matter o2 con:ecturenot 2act. %"at &as &"at I &anted to "ear "im say 2or it &as t"e concusion I "ad come to on$ a$o. %"is ibe %rainin$Sc"oo #rovided me &it" t"e #roo2. Here is a summary o2 &"at I "ave discovered t"rou$" t"at bibe sc"oo and sincere$ardin$ t"e rei$ion o2 t"e a#tist denomination. %"e 2oo&in$ &ere #roved by me to be 2acts. /nyone can #rove t"emto be 2acts &it" itte researc"

First—4o book in the Christian bib#e can pro&e its authenticit". The" are a## anon"mous. The 0osiac a! is a cop" o% the %ar

o#der *amurabi code, !hich, in turn, $oes back t!ent" thousand "ears to the sirian re#i$ion. 6ho#e passa$es, chapters, appear !ord %or !ord as the" did in the sirian re#i$ion—this #on$ be%ore Christ !as e&er heard o%. 4ot one book in the entire Christianbib#e can produce e&idence o% its truth—not a sin$#e ori$ina# manuscript e)ists, or has e&er been kno!n to e)ist.

econd—The on#" re%erence an"!here to od A#mi$ht", the upreme +u#er o% the uni&erse, bein$ cruci%ied on a cross is inthe %our $ospe#s o% the Christian re#i$ion. *istor" ne&er heard o% this stupendous happenin$. These %our $ospe#s are positi&e#"anon"mous !ritin$s. 6ho !rote them is not kno!n. The tit#es the" bear !ere added b" the +oman Catho#ic priests in !hose hands

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I do not beieve t"ere "as ever been a s#iritua #ioneer &"o "as not su22ered #ersecution durin$ "is i2e. I do not beieve t"ere "as ever been a time &"en a true s#iritua #ro#"et and #ioneer &as needed as muc" as one is needed no&.Suc" a man &i "ave to rise. Suc" a one &i "ave to brin$ to t"is eart" t"e actua trut"s o2 9od. ot"in$ ess can sto#t"ese &ar>mad dictators. %"ese days are serious. <et none t"in t"at because &e in /merica are sa2e today &e s"aa&ays be sa2e. 6e may be in t"at &ar or in anot"er one be2ore t"is boo $oes to t"e #ubis"er. <et us su##ose t"at Hiter and "is 2orces &in. In &ar none can #redict but su##ose t"ey do. 6"at t"enE He &oud "ave t"e &ord in t"e "oo& o2 "is "and. %"e name o2 9od &oud be com#etey eiminated and t"e name o2 Hiter &oud tae its #ace. %"at day &inever come but t"ere &i be "e on eart" be2ore #eace is restored. <et me as you a Auestion my 2riend &"oever youmay be. 6"at rei$ious or$anisation is t"ere on t"e 2ace o2 t"e eart" today &"ic" no&s enou$" o2 t"e Po&er o2 t"e S#irito2 9od to $ive S#iritua batte to HiterE

?ou no& t"e ans&er as &e as I do. Suc" an or$anisation does not e+ist. %"e reason suc" an or$anisation does note+ist is because no or$anisation on t"e 2ace o2 t"e eart" is teac"in$ t"e trut"s o2 9od. / are teac"in$ t"e traditions o2 t"eir o&n c"urc"—not"in$ more. %"ese traditions may be #recious but i2 t"ey are not true re$ardess o2 "o& #recioust"ey may be t"ey are vaueess. %"ey can "ave no s#iritua trut" or Po&er in t"em and not"in$ s"ort o2 S#iritua %rut"sand t"e Po&er o2 t"e S#irit o2 9od &i brin$ #eace to t"is eart" no&. 6"at &e are &itnessin$ is t"e 9reat /rma$eddon somany "ave ooed 2or. 6e it's "ere and somet"in$ &i "ave to be done about it. It is Auite useess to oo =above t"esies= 2or t"e =$od= o2 any rei$ion to come bac and tae a "and in &ord a22airs. %"at cannot "a##en because t"e storieso2 t"ose =$ods= are not true. <et me te you &"at &i "a##en. %"en #er"a#s you &i understand t"e 2u si$ni2icance o2 t"is Movement "ere in Mosco& Ida"o.

%"e !"ristian !"urc" today no&s it is iced. It no&s as &e as anyone no&s t"at it is not com#etent to do onet"in$ to sto# suc" men as Hiter Stain and Mussoini. -ven t"e Itaian system o2 rei$ion &"ic" is s#readin$ so muc"

#ro#a$anda in t"is country t"e Roman !at"oic !"urc" no&s t"at it is as im#otent as a dead man to do one t"in$ to

eit"er sto# t"is &ar or to demonstrate t"e Po&er o2 9od on t"is eart" and not"in$ s"ort o2 t"e actua demonstration o2 t"ePo&er o2 9od &i brin$ #eace. %"e !"ristian c"urc" driven to des#eration as it is &i do one o2 t&o t"in$s —it &ieit"er die in its tracs in &"ic" case anot"er rei$ion BPsyc"ianaC &i ste# into t"e #icture or it &i discard absouteyt"e 2oois" and 2ase t"eory t"at 9od /mi$"ty t"e In2inite S#irit &"om no man "as ever seen nor ever can see &ascruci2ied on a cross under t"e aias o2 8esus !"rist. %"at insane t"eory o2 9od &i "ave to $o. %"e ony t"in$ t"at story is$ood 2or is to cater to t"e i$norant and su#erstitious and buid u# a c"urc" or$anisation. It can mean not"in$ to anyone&"o no&s t"at 9od must e+ist in a Po&er "ere and no&.

It is not my intention to dea &it" t"e #ossibiities o2 t"e c"urc" t"ro&in$ a&ay its #a$an #"ioso#"y o2 a =cruci2ied$od.= 6"et"er it does or not is its o&n business. I2 it does not it &i die i2 somet"in$ aready dead can die a$ain. %"ereis one 2aint s#ar o2 "o#e e2t. %"e !"ristian c"urc" is not Auite dead. %"e 2oois" story o2 9od /mi$"ty bein$ cruci2iedon a cross is iin$ it— but it is not Auite dead yet. I2 t"is c"urc" &i arise to a ne& i2e—i2 it &i t"ro& a&ay traditions&"ic" can very easiy be #roven to be t"e same od traditions t"e Pa$ans "ad —it can ive. I2 it does not do t"at t"e

Psyc"iana Movement &i $ro& and $ro& unti t"e &ord o2 #eace>ovin$ #eo#e seein$ t"e 2aacy o2 &"at t"e c"urc"teac"es—&i turn to t"e movement t"rou$" &"ic" t"e S#irit o2 9od is bein$ mani2ested on t"is eart".

9od is ri$"t. 9od is everyt"in$ t"at is 9ood. 9od is everyt"in$ t"at is :ust. 9od is t"e In2inite S#irit o2 <i2e. 9od ist"at Intei$ence—t"e sou o2 t"e universe t"rou$" &"ic" <i2e <ove Peace a o2 t"ese eterna—came to t"is eart". %"atS#irit cannot die nor can Hiter or Stain or Mussoini i it. %"e cryin$ s"ame o2 t"e &ord today is t"at t"ose rei$iousor$anisations &"o say t"ey no& and teac" 9od are instead o2 teac"in$ 9od brin$in$ to t"e eart" in a vain attem#t tosave it t"eories o2 9od &"ic" are as 2ase as "e itse2 is 2ase. %"in o2 it. <ess t"an 2our "undred years a$o t"e entirestory o2 8esus !"rist &as #ut into t"e !"ristian bibe because =animas "ave 2our e$s.= /nd t"e !"ristian c"urc" e+#ectsto brin$ t"is &ord to 9od by suc" a coc>and>bu story. 6"at t"in you o2 t"at storyE

I beieve t"e Protestant c"urc" is absoutey "onest in &"at it t"ins it beieves. I t"in it beieves t"e deusion under &"ic" it abours. It beieves a ie. I cannot say as muc" 2or t"e Roman !at"oic c"urc". I ove everyone !at"oic or Protestant but I "ate t"e or$anisation &"ic" &"ie tein$ t"e &ord t"at it re#resents 9od and is =t"e ony one aut"orisedto act and teac" 2or 9od= and sti is about as muc" use a$ainst &ord conditions today as a bum# on a o$. %"e Roman!at"oic c"urc" tes us t"at 8esus !"rist 2ounded t"at c"urc". I beieve t"at. !ertainy 9od never 2ounded it and t"ere isa $reat #ossibiity t"at 8esus !"rist never even ived. I2 "e did ive it &as as a man and not a $od. %"ere2ore t"is maest"e Roman !at"oic c"urc" a man>made and c"urc">made or$anisation. It never &as anyt"in$ ese. %"e Protestant c"urc"

bein$ a =branc"= o2 t"e !at"oic c"urc" is o2 t"e same materia. %"is materia cannot save t"e &ord. It is o2 Man —not o2 9od. /nd it &i tae t"e Po&er o2 9od to save t"is &ord— beieve it or not.

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Chapter (evenGo O!t +e$t

I <-F% %H- I<- %R/II9 S!HOO< -FOR- %H- %-RM 6/S over. I e2t it in dis$ust 2or &"at I "ad be$un to sus#ect &as true. 6"en I entered t"at sc"oo I e+#ected it to be abe to $ive me absoute #roo2 o2 t"e story &it"&"ic" it &as comin$ to t"e &ord %"ere &as no "esitance about tein$ t"e &ord t"at it &as "o#eessy ost uness it

beieved t"at story. ever did t"e a#tists eave t"e si$"test oo#"oe 2or esca#e—you eit"er beieve t"is or you' bedamned—9od said so. I did not beieve t"at and very 2rany said so.

I must te you "o& I came to eave so une+#ectedy. One mornin$ a ca came into t"e cassroom 2or me. I &as&anted in t"e 2ront o22ice. -nterin$ I sa& Doctors Harris Mcico Imrie and Ste&art &"o evidenty "ad been in

con2erence. -nterin$ t"e room I &as invited to "ave a seat and a2ter t"at Doctor Harris o#ened t"e conversation. =Fran&e &ant you to ee# very "umbe be2ore 9od &e &ant you to reaise your S#iritua Po&er &e beieve 9od "as a $reat&or 2or you to do and &e don't &ant you to s#oi it. ?ou "aven't been u#>to>snu22 atey and &e &ant to #ray &it" you.=?ou coud "ave noced me do&n. I o2ten t"in o2 t"at con2erence. It &as a 2act t"at t"ere &as a bi$ &or 2or me to do int"e name and interest o2 9od and t"at &or is :ust no& t"irty>2ive years ater comin$ into 2ruition. Ho&ever it is not t"e&or t"ose $ood men t"ou$"t I s"oud do.

%"eir ideas &ere to "ave a bi$ evan$eist &"o coud by t"e #o&er o2 "is #ersonaity brin$ men and &omen to t"e=atar= by t"e tens o2 t"ousands. %"at &as not my idea nor &as it 9od's idea 2or instead o2 brin$in$ men and &omen tot"e =atar= by t"e tens o2 t"ousands I am doin$ somet"in$ very muc" better. I am brin$in$ to t"em t"e trut"s o2 9od andno =atar= is necessary 2or t"at.

Instead o2 tein$ men and &omen t"at =t"ere is none ot"er name $iven under "eaven &"ereby &e may be saved= Iam tein$ t"em t"at t"e 9reat S#irit 9od is instanty avaiabe to t"em in a its Po&er and t"at &it"out beievin$ one

sin$e t"in$ any c"urc" ass t"em to beieve. %"e &ord is beievin$ me. %"e &ord so "un$ry 2or 9od so disa##ointed atnot bein$ abe to 2ind 9od in t"e c"urc" is turnin$ to us "ere in Mosco& and 2indin$ 9od t"rou$" t"e "umbe t"ou$"sim#e messa$e your "umbe and sim#e &riter is $ivin$.

I &i te you t"e amain$ story o2 t"e birt" and $ro&t" o2 t"is Movement ater on. <et me say "ere t"at t"irteenyears a$o t"is Movement &as unno&n. %oday numericay it is t"e ei$"t" ar$est rei$ion in /merica and t"is "as beendone by mai aone. 6e "ave no c"urc"es no ministers no #riests. 6e o#erate e+cusivey by mai and &e advertise t"erei$ion. Don't you t"in t"e "and o2 9od is be"ind usE Ho&ever I must not antici#ate but $et on &it" t"e i2e story. B/rea &riter coud "ave made a $ood boo out o2 t"isC.

<ooin$ t"at $rou# o2 $ood men strai$"t in t"e eyes I astounded t"em by sayin$ =9entemen I a##reciate your interest and your indness. I am "o&ever a2raid t"at I s"a "ave to disa##oint you I s"a never #reac" anot"er sermonunti I am convinced o2 t"e trut" o2 t"e story.= %"at t"re& consternation into t"e cam# &it" a ven$eance. %"ey &eresta$$ered.

=Do you mean to te us t"at you do not beieve t"e story o2 8esus !"ristE= Doctor Harris ased me. I re#ied t"at I"ad not been s"o&n eit"er #roo2 or evidence t"at t"e story o2 8esus !"rist &as true.

%"en I in2ormed t"ese $ood men t"at I came to t"at sc"oo to earn t"e trut" and instead o2 "avin$ t"e #roo2 o2 t"estory $iven to me I "ad been uttery convinced t"at t"e &"oe story &as ony =a beie2= o2 t"e a#tist denomination ando2 t"e &"oe !"ristian c"urc". %"is t"ey admitted and t"e ony encoura$in$ &ord I $ot &as to be tod t"at I must =taet"e &"oe story on 2ait".= Doctor Mcico said =Fran &e very 2reey admit t"at &e cannot #roduce evidence o2 t"etrut" o2 t"is story Bno& isten readerC but rei$ion does not consist o2 #roo2 —ony beie2.=

I s"ot bac at Doctor Mcico t"is statement =%"en Doctor Mcico &it"out t"e #roo2 is t"ere not a #ossibiityt"at your story may not be true at aE= %"is 2oored "im 2or "e did not &ant to admit t"at. /t t"is #oint od Doctor Ste&art entered t"e ar$ument.

=O2 course in t"e absence o2 #roo2 o2 t"e trut" o2 t"e story &e de#end u#on t"e eadin$s o2 t"e S#irit o2 9od andt"at S#irit tes us t"at t"e story is true.=

=6e t"at S#irit tes me somet"in$ entirey di22erent= I re#ied.It &as su$$ested t"en t"at an immediate =#rayer>meetin$= be "ed but I sto##ed t"at. I did not &ant to #ray nor did I

&ant t"em #rayin$ 2or me. I &anted to no& t"e actua trut"s o2 9od. I did not care one &"oo# &"at t"e a#tist c"urc" beieved or &"at any ot"er c"urc" beieved. I2 &"at t"ey beieved &as true t"ey s"oud be abe to #roduce t"e evidencees#eciay &"en t"e sous o2 miions &ere at stae. %"is evidence t"e ibe Sc"oo coud not #roduce. I on t"e ot"er "and coud and did #roduce evidence t"at t"e story is not true and never &as true. 6"ie studyin$ t"e re$uar curricuum I "ad aso been studyin$ ot"er rei$ions. In t"ose studies I 2ound severa amain$ t"in$s &"ic" I "ave aready$one into and into &"ic" I s"a $o into a$ain ater on.

I sa& t"en in t"at con2erence and very ceary too t"at t"e &"oe story o2 8esus !"rist as 9od is ony t"e beie2&it"out #roo2 o2 t"e !"ristian c"urc". 6"en I use t"e term =!"ristian c"urc"= I incude bot" !at"oic and Protestant andt"e 2our "undred sects &"ic" com#rise t"e !"ristian c"urc". On t"e ot"er side o2 t"e ed$er t"ere &ere ten ot"er ma:or

systems o2 rei$ion on t"e eart" some o2 t"em ar$er t"an t"e !"ristian rei$ion at"ou$" sie is irreevant. 6"at abouta o2 t"emE 6ere t"ey &ron$E 6ere t"ey $oin$ to "e because t"ey did not beieve &"at t"e !"ristian said beieved. I didnot "ear t"e name o2 8esus !"rist mentioned in t"ese ot"er systems o2 rei$ion but i2 8esus !"rist &as 9od /mi$"ty &"ydidn't IE

I $ave muc" t"ou$"t to t"ese ot"er rei$ions. %"ey consisted o2 "uman bein$s di22erent coour #er"a#s di22erentcountries #er"a#s but a creations o2 t"e one $reat 9od. I did not beieve t"at ony t"ose &"o beieved t"e !"ristian

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t"eoo$y &ere to be saved. I mi$"t "ave beieved it and &oud "ave been $ad to beieve it "ad t"e si$"test iota o2 #roo2 been submitted to me. Suc" #roo2 &as not avaiabe. 6"en I reay understood t"at t"e ony re2erence in t"e &ord to8esus !"rist &as in t"e 2our $os#es &"en I reaised t"at no one no&s &"o &rote t"em &"en I recaed t"at one o2 t"ereasons t"ey are in t"e !"ristian bibe at a &as because =animas "ave 2our e$s= &e some"o& or ot"er I demandedmore evidence t"an t"at. Ot"er rei$ions "ad t"eir bibes too. %"ey "ad a di22erent =cruci2ied $od.= Some o2 t"ese=cruci2ied $ods= &ere so simiar to t"e !"ristian's =cruci2ied $od= t"at o$ic and reason must admit t"at t"e story o2 t"eater =$od= &as eit"er stoen or co#ied 2rom t"e oder =$od.= I did not &ant t"e !"ristian =$od.= I &anted t"e 9od o2 t"eentire universe and by t"ro&in$ a&ay t"e teac"in$s o2 t"e ibe Institute I 2ound t"e ri$"t trac and at t"e #ro#er time2ound 9od.

/ ot o2 &ater &ent over t"e dam a2ter I &aed out o2 t"at con2erence 2or t"at is &"at I did. %"ose 2os "ave never

seen me 2rom t"at day to t"is. %"e ne+t day I e2t 2or t"e 6est :oined u# &it" t"e Roya ort"&est Mounted Poice.I "ave never been abe to understand t"e years &"ic" immediatey 2oo&ed my eavin$ t"e ibe Sc"oo. aturay&"en I discovered t"e trut" about t"e !"ristian rei$ion a&ay &ent a my "o#es and t"e bottom 2e out o2 everyt"in$. I&as disconsoate sad and discoura$ed. I "ad #roved beyond any s"ado& o2 doubt t"at t"e &"oe !"ristian structure &asmade out o2 t"in air. %"ere &as no c"ance t"at I &as &ron$. O2 course I coud "ave $one =do&n t"e stream= &it" t"e restand t"ere is no Auestion but t"at t"e 2uture &oud "ave been bri$"t inso2ar as my o&n 2uture &as concerned. 0ndoubtedyI "ad #o&er on t"e #at2orm and in t"e #u#it. 6it"out any Auestion t"ere &as a dynamic in my #ersonaity &"ic" &oud"ave carried me to $reat "ei$"ts but I coud not brin$ myse2 to #reac" somet"in$ I ne& &as not true. =Fait"= and=beie2= &ere not enou$". /ny&ay it &as im#ossibe 2or me to beieve &"en I "ad so muc" evidence a$ainst t"e trut" o2 t"e story.

%ae t"e Hindoo =savior= 8eseus !"ris"na 2or instance. It is more t"an coincidence t"at 2i2teen "undred years be2ore!"rist &as ever "eard o2 t"e &"oe and com#ete story o2 9od as !"ris"na &as no&n. %"e vir$in>born mot"er o2

!"ris"na &as Maia and t"e vir$in>born mot"er o2 !"rist &as Mary &"ic" means t"e same. %"en t"e rest o2 t"e storiestod in t"e rei$ion o2 t"e Hindoo—it :ust &as im#ossibe 2or t"e ater edition !"ristian o2 t"at story to be true t"e earier edition bein$ 2ase. ?et t"at &as &"at I &as ased to beieve. In t"e in2inite &isdom o2 9od I coud not ima$ine anyoneo2 any rei$ion or &it"out any rei$ion bein$ cast into "e>2ire. ?et t"at &as and sti is a 2undamenta teac"in$ o2 t"e!"ristian rei$ion.

I &ei$"ed t"e &"oe matter very care2uy and decided t"at rat"er t"an #reac" somet"in$ I coud not beieve and&"ic" coud not be #roven true I &oud $et as 2ar a&ay 2rom it a as I coud.

%"at ni$"t &anderin$ round t"e streets o2 %oronto aone and disconsoate I did somet"in$ I "ad never done be2ore inmy i2e. I &ent into a saoon and dran one $ass o2 beer a2ter anot"er. 6"y I do not no&. Per"a#s t"e s"oc o2 &"at I"ad discovered about t"e story o2 9od as tod me in t"at a#tist ibe Sc"oo. I never s"oud "ave taen t"e 2irst $ass o2

beer 2or as t"e days roed by more and more beer &as drun by me and t"e 2irst t"in$ I ne& I &as do&n and out. %"isI say "ad never "a##ened be2ore. On t"ree di22erent occasions I "ad bou$"t a =s"antv= &"ic" &as a $ass o2 "a2 beer

and "a2 $in$er>beer but unti t"at ni$"t I "ad never entered a saoon. Ho&ever it is more t"an t"irty years no& since anyind o2 iAuor "as touc"ed my i#s and about a I ever dran &as beer. %"e stu22 $ot a "od o2 me and I ied it. /ny&ay&"at di22erence did it maeE %"e 2uture "ed not"in$ 2or me and t"e one institution in &"ic" I "ad trusted 2or t"e trut"s o2 9od "ad $iven me a stone &"en I ased 2or an e$$. I ased it 2or a 2is" and "ad been $iven a scor#ion. 6"y care 2or I "adno one de#endent u#on me. 6"y not "ave a =$ood time.=

<et me re#eat "ere t"at I do not &ant to &rite about t"e ne+t 2e& years. It is tain$ a ot o2 coura$e. I coud ee# Auietabout it and no one &oud be t"e &iser but t"is boo must be &ritten trut"2uy. I must te a. %"ere are #eo#e &"o&"en t"ey read &"at I am about to &rite &i say =I tod you so I ne& t"ere &as somet"in$ &ron$ &it" t"at 2eo&.=0ndoubtedy t"e unday chool Times &"ic" =!"ristian= #a#er "as been so bitter in its attacs on me &i come out &it"anot"er artice and &"at it &i ca me t"e <ord ony no&s. It &i not u#set me too muc" "o&ever 2or t"is Movementis no& ar$e enou$" to stand on its o&n 2eet even &it" me out o2 t"e #icture.

Soon &"at itte money I "ad &as $one. I 2ound myse2 on t"e streets o2 %oronto &it"out a dime—no 2ood no "ome.I cared about not"in$ e+ce#t $ettin$ money to$et"er to buy some more beer. I sod my &atc" to a #a&nbroer and &"ent"e money 2rom t"at &as $one I sod my cot"es e+ce#tin$ t"ose I &ore. -very 2riend and acAuaintance in %oronto &as

be$$ed by me 2or money and &"en t"ey $ave it to me I made a beeine 2or t"e nearest saoon and did not eave t"ereunti t"e money &as $one. %"e do&n&ard trai—t"e #art o2 my i2e I re$ret—"ad be$un.

In reatin$ t"e events o2 t"e ne+t 2e& years #ease understand t"at t"e ony one I "urt &as myse2. I never no&in$y"urt a 2y. I never too &"at did not beon$ to me. I :ust sim#y seemed to ose contro o2 myse2 so $reat "ad been t"es"oc received in t"e ibe Sc"oo. In t"is drinin$ business I did it as I do everyt"in$ ese &it" a t"e #o&er I "ave.%"ere &ere no "a2&ay measures &it" me. I eit"er &ent a t"e &ay or none. %"is time I &ent a t"e &ay.

One ni$"t I sa& a si$n t"at said t"at recruits &ere bein$ enroed 2or t"e R..6.M.P. Here at ast &as t"e c"ance I"ad been ooin$ 2or —a c"ance to $o out 6est and $et a&ay 2rom everyt"in$. %"ere I coud drin myse2 to deat" as 2astas I coud 2or t"ere &as not"in$ e2t to ive 2or. Ins#ector Fit$erad &as in c"ar$e o2 t"e recruitin$. 6"en I tod "im I

&anted to :oin t"e Mounted Poice "e tod me to $o "ome and sober u# and come bac t"e ne+t mornin$. %"is I did andt"at ni$"t I &as a !onstabe in t"e Roya ort"&est Mounted Poice.%"e tri# out to Re$ina &as a $ood one. Severa scores o2 men &ere recruited in %oronto. / o2 t"em &ere not t"e best

citiens I assure you but not"in$ mattered to me no&. I &anted to $et a&ay 2rom it a. I &anted to 2or$et and 2or$et Idid :ust as on$ as coud dro&n my sorro&s in drin. / #oor &ay to be sure but I "ad to 2ind t"at out. / cou#e o2 daysater &e arrived in Re$ina and &ere sent to Post HeadAuarters. 6it"in a &ee &e &ere 2itted &it" uni2orms and our 2irst

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instructions in ridin$ be$an. I "ad some tryin$ times &it" t"at ridin$. ever "avin$ been on a "orse in my i2e I "ad ane& and very =sore= e+#erience. %"ey $ave me a "orse named =i$ i= &"ic" stood ei$"teen "ands and &"en I cameo22 o2 =i$ i= I ne& I "ad received a 2a. In t"ose days I &as about si+ 2eet ta and &ei$"ed one "undred and 2i2ty

#ounds. On one occasion Ser$eant Dann &"o &as ridin$ instructor tied into me. It &as autumn and our ridin$ &as donein t"e $ymnasium. Round and round &e &ent. First &e &aed t"en &e trotted and t"en &e ran. For some reason or ot"er I e+#erienced considerabe di22icuty in ee#in$ my arms cose to my side &"ie ridin$. %"ey "ad a "abit o2 2a##in$ round ie &in$s on a cro&. Sto##in$ t"e #arade Ser$eant Dann caed me to centre o2 t"e $ymnasium and saidto !or#ora Meain =6i you #ease o#en t"e &indo& t"is damned 2oo &ants to 2y out.=

%"at ni$"t &as #ayday. On t"e Post $rounds &as a restaurant &"ere t"ey sod beer. 9ettin$ oaded u# I s#ottedSer$eant Dann drinin$ a $ass o2 beer at t"e ot"er end o2 t"e bar. 6ain$ u# to "im I said =So you're t"e 2amous Dann

e"E ?ou t"ou$"t you &ere "avin$ a ot o2 2un &it" me today in t"e $ym didn't youE 6e you tae 't"at'.==%"at= &as a #oe in t"e :a& &"ic" Ser$eant Dann ne& "e "ad received. / bit ater :ust a 2e& seconds I discoveredSer$eant Dann coud =#oe= "arder t"an I coud and I &ent to see#. Dann never 2or$ot t"at. %"e ne+t day "e caed me toone side and said =Robinson et me $ive you a itte 2riendy ti#. <ay o22 t"at booe or out you' $o on your ear.= Ire#ied t"at I &as drun &"en t"e out2it "ired me and I'd $et drun every time I "ad a c"ance. %"e R..6.M. #oice "adot"er ideas and inside o2 si+ty days t"ey "anded me my reease &"ic" &as mared =!"ronic /co"oic.=

%"is &as t"e same Fran . Robinson t"at Doctor -more Harris "ad tod &oud =dra& t"is &ord coser to t"e crosst"an it "ad ever been be2ore.= It be$an to oo as i2 Doctor Harris "ad been mistaen. /s 2or me itte cared I in t"osedays. /2ter every =bender= I &oud su22er a #eriod o2 remorse but t"e very ne+t day or as soon as I coud $et a doarinto t"e saoon I &oud $o and never eave t"ere uness carried out or t"ro&n out. ein$ abe to #ay t"e #iano I &asusuay &ecome and made enou$" money to ee# me #retty &e 2ied u# &it" beer most o2 t"e time. I never dran &"isey e+ce#t on a 2e& occasions.

%ain$ &"at money I "ad comin$ 2rom t"e Poice I made a beeine 2or t"e 7in$s Hote in Re$ina Sasatc"e&anand stayed t"ere unti every #enny &as $one. / 2e& days ater I &as standin$ outside o2 a dru$ store in Re$ina &"en t"e

#ro#rietor came and stood in t"e door&ay. He #assed t"e time o2 day &it" me and I said =Don't no& &"ere a 2eer can$et a :ob do youE= He ased me &"at sort o2 &or I did and I tod "im I &as a dru$$ist. =6e I'm ooin$ 2or a manri$"t no& come in= "e said. In I &ent and &as "ired. 6"en "e remared about my a##earance I tod "im t"at I "ad beenon t"e Poice but didn't ie it so &as et out. He too me to a cot"in$ store O..'d a suit o2 cot"es a 2e& coars etc.and t"e ne+t day &ent to &or 2or Doctor 6"itmore in "is dru$ store in Re$ina.

6iie Hayes a 2ine c"a# and a sin$er &as &orin$ t"ere. I don't no& &"ere 6iie is no& as &"at I am reatin$"a##ened a on$ time a$o. 6iie Hayes made arran$ements at "is boardin$ "ouse 2or me and I 2et #retty $ood. It &asnice to "ave a cean suit on and a $ood :ob a$ain. I s&ore I never &oud tae anot"er drin as on$ as I ived. Rei$ionE —Icom#etey 2or$ot t"at. I &anted not"in$ to do &it" it. It &as a 2ae—a s"am—it &as not true I tod myse2 and t"at &astrue &"en a##ied to t"e denominations &"ic" #ro2ess rei$ion. Rat"er s"oud I say t"eoo$y—2or rei$ion and t"eoo$y

are di22erent t"in$s.-veryt"in$ &ent s&immin$y at t"e dru$ store and I made a "ost o2 2riends. %"en one day out o2 a cear sy I

&aed into t"e 7in$s Hote bar —and I &as o22 a$ain. %"at time I stayed drun severa &ees. 6"en it &as not #ossibeto be$ any more money I :um#ed on a 2rei$"t train and rode t"at train to t"e ne+t to&n &"ic" &as Moose 8a&. Ho& I $otanot"er dru$ :ob in Moose 8a& I do not no& but I did. -d !oin$ &as t"e name o2 t"e man I &ored 2or. He ied

booe as &e as I did and &e &oud $et to$et"er a2ter t"e day's business &as over and bot" $et drun in t"e bac o2 t"edru$ store. -d dran &"isey. I dran beer and &e e#t it u# 2or many mont"s. /s a resut o2 t"is t"e store "ad to cose.

I cau$"t a 2rei$"t train a&ay out to @ancouver . !. and arrived t"ere a2ter severa &ees o2 tram#in$ round andsee#in$ &"erever I coud 2ind a #ace. I 2inay $ot a :ob &it" t"e 8. /. %ee#oorten !om#any &"o &ere &"oesaedru$$ists. =/re you a manu2acturin$ c"emistE= t"ey ased &"en I a##ied 2or t"e :ob. =O" sure= I &as a manu2acturin$c"emist—I &as anyt"in$ to $et a :ob so I coud earn some more money &it" &"ic" to buy some more beer. %"at &as &"atI &as interested in 2or I coud dro&n a t"ou$"ts o2 9od in beer. I coud even dro&n my conscience in beer. -veryt"in$&as sod—not 2or a mess o2 #otta$e— but 2or a $ass o2 beer. Fortunatey it &as ony beer —not anyt"in$ stron$er.

%"e 2irst :ob I &as $iven &as to mae a batc" o2 ead #aster. I2 t"ere is a dru$$ist readin$ t"is boo and I ima$inemany dru$$ists &i read it "e &i no& :ust "o& "ard a :ob main$ ead #aster is. ?ou mi+ ead o+ide &it" $ycerineand I beieve oive oi and t"en boi it in a "u$e boier. ?ou "ave to be care2u to add t"e in$redients in :ust t"e #ro#er

#ro#ortion and at t"e #ro#er time or t"e mi+ture &i e+#ode. %"at is e+acty &"at "a##ened to t"e mi+ture I &as main$.It be& u# ie a bomb detonatin$. Fortunatey or un2ortunatey I "ad $one to my coat to $et a drin 2or I "ad come to&or t"at mornin$ &it" t"ree bottes o2 beer under my coat and I &as in t"e coaroom &"en t"e ead #aster &entsy&ard. %"e 8. /. %ee#oorten !om#any "as not seen me 2rom t"at day to t"is. I $ot out and I stayed out.

One Sunday evenin$ I &as in a saoon in @ancouver &"en t"e band o2 t"e Savation /rmy struc u# outside. %"atsort o2 a&aened memories in me and I &ent outside to isten to t"e music. On t"at #articuar ni$"t I "ad about a t"e

beer I coud drin. I never $ot 2oois" nor did I ever mae a nuisance out o2 myse2. 6"at I did $et 2rom drinin$ &as a

tem#orary res#ite 2rom t"e remorse I coud not $et a&ay 2rom. Suc" a briiant 2uture mi$"t "ave been mine —=/ 2amous #reac"er= t"ey said. %"en at t"e very moment &"en t"e =#roo2 o2 t"e #uddin$= &as to be 2ort"comin$ I &asdisa##ointed. %"e remorse and t"e s"oc o2 t"is discovery neary ruined me 2or t"ere &ere no imitations &it" me no&. Ididn't care &"at "a##ened to me. I "ad ooed to t"e c"urc" 2or 9od and "ad 2ound out 9od &as not t"ere.

/s I stood istenin$ to t"e music tears be$an to &e u# in my eyes and a youn$ Savation /rmy &orer by t"e nameo2 Debert o+ e2t t"e rin$ and comin$ u# to me said =6"at's t"e matter brot"erE Do you &ant to be savedE= I

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in2ormed "im t"at I coud #robaby te "im a 2e& t"in$s about savation. %"en im#usivey I said =I'm $oin$ to end t"e&"oe damned business—I'm $oin$ o&er and o&er and I don't $ive a damn &"at "a##ens to me. ?our rei$ion is as 2aseas "e and I can #rove it.= %"is youn$ o+ &as a 2ar smarter boy t"an "e ooed 2or "e did not ar$ue &it" me. 6"at "edid say neary noced me o22 my 2eet. =<et's $o in and $et anot"er drin= said o+.

<ooin$ at "im I said =6"at do you mean—et's $o in and $et anot"er drinE''=6e i2 booe is $ood 2or you &"y is it not $ood 2or me tooE ?ou're a #retty $ood>ooin$ boy you no&

somet"in$ come on in. I' buy you a drin.= I beieve t"at man s"o&ed remarabe :ud$ement 2or instead o2 $oin$ bac in t"e saoon and "avin$ some more beer I said to "im =?ou're nobody's 2oo yourse2. I2 you &ere &iin$ to $o in t"atsaoon &it" me and buy me a drin I' $o you one better —I' $o u# to your "a &it" you and #reac" you t"e best sermonyou've ever istened to.= o+ too me u# and I &ent &it" "im to t"e "a but I did not #reac" t"at ni$"t. /2ter t"e

meetin$ o+ too me "ome and I stayed t"ere &it" "im a &ee.%"e memories o2 a t"ese "a##enin$s on$ a$o as t"ey &ere are stam#ed on my mind and &i be as on$ as I ive.My vivid i2e must "ave a meanin$. 6"at t"is i2e &as meant 2or is :ust becomin$ no&n. 6"en t"e 2uness o2 t"e &or Iam doin$ is com#ete I #robaby s"a not be "ere. In any event t"ose &"o read t"is boo &i understand &"y I am&ritin$ it so #ainy. I &ant t"ere to be no undue credit $iven to me. I &ant you to no& t"at I am a "uman bein$ sub:ectto t"e same tem#tations you are and :ust as 2aibe. I2 it &ere not 2or t"e consciousness o2 t"e Po&er o2 t"e S#irit o2 9odin me no& in a #robabiity I s"oud be bac in t"ose saoons—i2 I &ere sti aive.

I a$reed &it" Debert o+ to $o to /rmy meetin$s &it" "im on condition t"at "e did not try to $et me =saved.= %"at&as re#usive to me no&in$ &"at I ne& about t"e !"ristian structure. o+ &as very cever. He tod me in con2idenceone day t"at "e =didn't beieve t"at savation stu22= any more t"an I did but "e did ie to be in t"e /rmy. =I "ave a 2utureto oo out 2or= "e said. %"en I understood.

Decidin$ to eave @ancouver . !. s"orty a2ter t"e incidents reated "ere I too a steamer to @ictoria a beauti2u

itte s#ot on @ancouver Isand. I &as a $ood boy 2or Auite a &"ie 2irst $ettin$ a :ob as a at"er and ater drivin$ a Ford2or t"e Pantorium !eaners &"ic" &as o&ned t"en by t&o youn$ 2eo&s 2rom am#a Ida"o Roy and Hersc"e ro&n.I "ad $ood times on t"at :ob. I stayed at t"e ?.M.!./. and o22iciated at t"e #iano every Sunday a2ternoon durin$ t"emeetin$ and t"e =unc"= &"ic" 2oo&ed 2or t"e ?.M.!./. &as not above "avin$ a 2eed every Sunday a2ternoon andc"ar$in$ 2or it.

%"e secretary o2 t"e @ictoria ?.M.!./. &as Fred 6it"am. I caed u#on "im at "is "ome in Portand Ore$on :ust a2e& mont"s a$o. 6e discussed od times and Fred reminded me t"at in "is basement "e "ad a at"in$ "ammer I "ad=soaed= &it" "im 2or G1.5) &"ie on one o2 my drinin$ s#es. He #romised to $ive me t"e "atc"et be2ore I e2t but "eeit"er 2or$ot or I 2or$ot to re#ay "im t"e G1.5) &it" interest. Mrs 6it"am is or$anist in a Portand Ore$on c"urc" at t"is&ritin$.

It &as in @ictoria &"ere I became Auite active in t"e c"urc" a$ain. I :oined t"e First a#tist c"urc". %"e #astor and&as a "umdin$er o2 a a#tist #reac"er i2 I ever sa& one &as t"e Reverend /. . 6arnicer. <ater "e e2t t"e ministry and

&ent into t"e rea estate business. %"at is &"ere "e beon$ed. He certainy never s"oud "ave been a a#tist #reac"er 2or "e did not beieve any more o2 t"e stories "e #reac"ed t"an I did and "e very 2rany tod me so. Reverend 6arnicer "ada &ooden e$ but "ad it so care2uy dis$uised t"at it &as not too noticeabe. I &ent Auite a on$ time in @ictoria &it"out a=bo&>u#.= I &as eected #resident o2 t"e .?.P.0. and vice>#resident o2 t"e rot"er"ood. I remember t"em carryin$ mearound t"e c"urc" on t"eir s"ouders &"en I &as re>eected to o22ice. Here a$ain my re#utation 2or s#eain$ abiity and

#o&er became noticeabe. %rue I "ad not yet 2ound 9od but &"at di22erence did t"at maeE %"e rest o2 t"e a#tists &ere"avin$ a $ood time in t"e c"urc" not beievin$ any more about it t"an I did so &"y s"oudn't IE

I caed on t"e Reverend 6arnicer one day t"e same Sunday on &"ic" "e #reac"ed a sermon entited = hould a

(oung tenogra!her Take %ifts of )ewellery from Her *m!loyer+= %"at actuay &as t"e to#ic o2 "is sermon t"at Sundaymornin$. 6"at t"at "ad to do &it" 2indin$ t"e Po&er o2 9od I no& not. eit"er did "e 2or &e made a dinner a##ointment a2ter t"e sermon. 6e ate in a itte restaurant and I be$an to di$ into "im asin$ Auestions as to "o& muc""e beieved o2 &"at "e &as #reac"in$. I tod "im o2 my e+#erience &it" t"e ibe %rainin$ Sc"oo and t"en and t"ere Idiscovered t"at t"e Reverend 6arnicer coud be #aced in t"e same cass &it" Robinson Sr. Mu+&ort"y 6aace-iott and #racticay every ot"er a#tist or any ot"er ind o2 #reac"er I "ad met u# &it" at t"at time. I "ave met $oodmen and earnest men in t"e ministry but I "ave met 2ar more o2 t"e ot"er ind.

I s#oe very #ainy to 6arnicer. 6"at s"oud I doE S"oud I continue my searc" 2or 9od or &as t"ere anyt"in$ tot"is 9od #ro#ositionE Ima$ine my sur#rise &"en "e re#ied directy to t"e above Auestion =ot a "e o2 a ot to itFran.= %"en "e &ent on to e+#ain t"at t"ese od bibe manuscri#ts &ere o2 Auestionabe aut"ority and Auite vaueess"istoricay. =%"ere is no "istoricity to t"e !"ristian rei$ion—t"ere isn't su##osed to be= "e said. =%"e c"urc" is a $oodt"in$—it ee#s #eo#e 2rom $oin$ to &orse #aces— but as 2ar as 2indin$ 9od $oes you "ad better 2or$et it 2or you and I&i never no& anyt"in$ about 9od t"is side o2 t"e tomb and #robaby not muc" more on t"e ot"er side. ?ou ee# on asyou're $oin$. ?ou're doin$ a ri$"t= 6arnicer tod me as I cosed t"e intervie&.

It &as in @ictoria t"at I became acAuainted &it" a 2eo& caed Scott a #asterer. He $ave me a :ob mi+in$ #aster

and carryin$ it u# a adder to "im as "e #astered "ouses. %"at &as a tou$" assi$nment yet I did not mind it too muc"and besides I needed t"e money. I ne& t"at 2u &e one o2 t"ese days I s"oud cut oose and $o on anot"er o2 t"ose no&"orribe drinin$ s#es. Scott &as a member o2 t"e @ictoria Savation /rmy. I "ad about G4.)) comin$ 2rom "im &"en Idecided to Auit. He "ad Auite a ar$e c"eAue and s"o&in$ t"e c"eAue to me "e said =<et's $o do&n to t"e ban and $ett"is cas"ed and t"en I' $ive you t"e money t"at is comin$ to you.= /t t"e ban "e tod me t"at I need not $o in &it" "imand I ie a =sim#= stayed outside. I &aited a on$ time 2or Mr Scott. I #robaby coud be sti &aitin$ 2or Scott si##ed

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strai$"tened a&ay at east tem#orariy and iy -s"enbau$" $ot me a :ob at t"e Fran au a>ni$"t #"armacy. /t t"attime au "ad moved 2rom t"e Portand Hote and &as occu#yin$ tem#orary Auarters on Morrison Street. <ater "e movedinto t"e Sein$ uidin$. I 2ied t"e 2irst #rescri#tion 2ied in t"at buidin$. Durin$ t"e ne+t year I studied "ard and too t"e Ore$on oard o2 P"armacy e+amination and I #assed &it" $ood $rades. 6orin$ &it" me t"en &ere 6inn 6ard &"ono& o&ns t"e Irvin$ton P"armacy 8oe 6oods &"o &as bo+in$ commissioner be2ore "is deat" a 2e& years a$o and avery 2unny $uy caed !"arie Redmond. I do not no& &"ere !"arie is or i2 "e is aive. 8o"n rocman &as t"e ni$"tcer and Harry Stryer &as a reie2 man. I understand bot" rocman and Stryer are dead.

One day Fran au Sr. came bouncin$ u# into t"e #rescri#tion room &it" a botte a etter and a very u#set oo on"is 2ace. Handin$ me t"e em#ty #rescri#tion botte "e said =<oo u# t"at number and see &"o 2ied t"at #rescri#tion.=-ac" #rescri#tion bore t"e initias o2 t"e man &"o 2ied it. In t"at #articuar case it "a##ened to be me. Ra$in$ au said

=Read t"at etter and t"en $o to t"e o22ice and $et your #ay>c"eAue and $et out.= I read t"e etter &"ic" &ent somet"in$ie t"is

0ear -r 2auBI have !een patronising your store for many years. $ few days ago I had the enclosed prescription filled.

#hen I got home, I poured out a spoonful and a !ig !low4fly came out into the spoon. #e have all the !low4 flies we need out here in the country without paying you C:.>D a !ottle for them. "lease return my C:.>D or refill this prescription leaving the flies out of it.

I "ad no &ay o2 no&in$ "o& t"e 2y $ot into t"e botte. !ertainy I did not deiberatey #ut it t"ere. %"e #rescri#tion&as a t"ic syru#y iAuid and t"e #resum#tion is t"at t"e 2y $ot into t"e syru# t"ence into t"e #rescri#tion botte unseen

by me but I ost my :ob :ust t"e same.Dra&in$ my #ay I &ent do&n to t"e very tou$"est saoon in t"e 0nited States at t"at time. It's $one no&. <iAuor is

sod in muc" nicer surroundin$s no& but it is sod :ust t"e same. States are in t"e damnabe iAuor business no& to t"eir s"ame. I &oud ie to see t"e day &"en t"e manu2acture o2 iAuor is barred by a&. 6"en t"e e& Day da&ns and &"ent"e 2uness o2 t"e Po&er o2 9od is no&n amon$ men t"ere &i be no iAuor 2or t"e desire to drin iAuor &i not bet"ere. %"e S#irit &"ic" is 9od &i be suc" a &onder2uy satis2yin$ Presence t"at everyt"in$ aside 2rom t"at S#irit &i$o. May 9od "asten t"at day. 6"at beer I dran "urt no one but myse2 and it did no #ermanent dama$e. I ima$ine t"isdrinin$ #eriod occu#ied about si+ years. 6"y it "ad to be I do not no&. ?ou may de#end u#on it t"ou$" it &as 2or a

#ur#ose. I &is" t"ese t"in$s did not "ave to be reated but I beieve t"ey s"oud be so re$ardess o2 t"e cost t"ey &i be.I coud sit "ere by t"e "our and te you o2 e+#eriences in Portand but I &on't. I must eave t"em out or t"isautobio$ra#"y &i $ro& too ar$e.

It &as immediatey a2ter osin$ my :ob at au's t"at I reay started drinin$. It &as a&ays #eriodica but t"e #eriods became coser and coser to$et"er. %"ere &oud be moments &"en I &oud reco$nise t"e 2oois"ness o2 it a but t"ere didnot seem to come a moment &"en t"e s"oc o2 no&in$ t"e 2acts o2 t"e !"ristian rei$ion as I "ad discovered t"ose 2acts

&as aeviated. %"e s"oc &ent dee#er t"an any one &i ever no&. It &as ie a ni2e &ound. I &as too "onest and soearnest in my e22orts to 2ind and no& 9od t"at to be disa##ointed as I &as &e it "urt and it "urt #enty.

I am "a##y to state "ere t"ou$" t"at years ater I came bac to Portand and it &as in t"is city t"e 2oundation o2 Psyc"iana &as aid.

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Chapter Eight In -ortand, Oregon

%H-R- 6-R- M/? /P%IS% !H0R!H-S I POR%</D OR-9O. %"e t&o &"ic" I &is" to mention brie2y are t"e 6"ite %em#e a#tist c"urc" on t"e &est side and t"e Hinson Memoria a#tist c"urc" on t"e east side. /tt"e time o2 &"ic" I &rite t"ere &as no Hinson Memoria c"urc" on t"e -ast side. %"e 6"ite %em#e &as t"ere &"ere it isno& and t"e #astor &as t"e Reverend 6ater en&e Hinson. Runnin$ true to a#tist traditions and in s#ite o2 t"eir =savation= and =sancti2ication= t"ese a#tists be$an to 2i$"t amon$st t"emseves. %"e "istory o2 t"e a#tist c"urc" ando2 every ot"er c"urc" 2or t"at matter is a "istory re#ete &it" 2i$"ts ar$uments s#its etc. and as a resut &e "ave t"e!"ristian !"urc"—B%"e !am#beitesC and severa ot"er smaer 2ry too numerous to mention.

It seems stran$e t"at &"erever &e "ave a system o2 rei$ion 2ounded on t"e story o2 =$od cruci2ied= t"ere &e "ave boods"ed &ars stri2es and t"e many ot"er t"in$s &"ic" s"oud not $o &it" true rei$ion. %"is #resent &ar is a rei$ious&ar. %"e recent &ar in S#ain &as a rei$ious &ar. Hiter caims t"at "e is an =a$ent o2 9od sent to brin$ #ermanent #eace=to t"is eart" and t"e aies caim t"ey are a$ents o2 9od sent to crus" Hiter. 6"ie eac" side 2i$"ts and brutay murdersot"er "uman bein$s in t"e name o2 9od t"e Roman !at"oic c"urc" says t"at neit"er side no&s 9od as it is t"e onyc"urc" and its "ead is t"e ony man aut"orised to =act and teac" 2or 9od.= %"e Protestants deny t"is and t"ey t"ea#tists incuded te t"e &ord t"at t"ey "ave t"e ony true rei$ion. ?ou cannot no& 9od uness you no& Him by &ayo2 t"e Protestant c"urc".

Ho& &e are u# a$ainst it—2or t"ere are ten ot"er ma:or systems o2 rei$ion o#eratin$ on t"is eart" and eac" te ust"e same t"in$—they and they alone "ave t"e true rei$ion. They and they alone, "ave t"e true conce#tion o2 9od. It is a

#retty sa2e bet in t"e 2ace o2 conditions ie t"ese to Auestion t"e caims o2 a. 6e cannot admit t"e e+istence o2 moret"an one 9od. or can &e decide &"ic" o2 t"e varyin$ caims to trut" and divinity is true. %"ere2ore &e "ave but one

t"in$ e2t and t"at is to deny t"at any o2 t"e =2i$"tin$ savationists= no& anyt"in$ about 9od. %"at is t"e stand I tae.%"at is t"e stand I s"a :usti2y be2ore t"is boo is cosed. <et me inter#oate "ere 2or a moment be2ore I 2or$et somet"in$&"ic" I read yesterday and &"ic" is very #ertinent to t"is autobio$ra#"y. %"e main and t"e eariest !"ristian =bibe= ist"e <atin @u$ate. It is 2rom t"is edition Bone o2 si+teenC t"at t"e #resent voume "as been derived. <et me say t"at t"e"istory o2 t"e !"ristian bibe is a "istory o2 c"an$e a2ter c"an$e. -very system o2 rei$ion t"at cared to c"an$e t"e booadded to it too a&ay 2rom it to its "eart's content. 8ust recenty t"e ?ae Divinity Sc"oo too t"e name )ehovah

com#etey out o2 it. I2 t"is sc"oo can tae a&ay it can aso add.%"e @u$ate edition comes 2rom t"e "ands o2 a !at"oic Po#e caed 8erome. Here is "is statement as to "o& t"e

=ins#iration= came to "im. He states t"at &"en "e $ot ready to do some =transatin$= "e &oud #u a be and t"e =Hoy9"ost= in t"e 2orm o2 a dove &oud 2y into t"e room 2asten its ca&s into "is "air. %"en &it" 2eet 2irmy anc"ored t"isHoy 9"ost &oud bend over and stic "is bi in Po#e 8erome's mout" and t"us &oud transmit to rot"er 8erome t"e=sacred inter#retation= o2 t"e Scri#tures. Personay I don't beieve t"at but you may i2 you c"oose to. In any event t"e

!"ristian bibe is 2ounded on t"at 2act. /t east t"e edition &e "ave today is. /nd don't 2or$et t"e =2our e$s.=/ ri$"t &e come bac to t"e t&o a#tist c"urc"es in Portand Ore$on. One Sunday I &as sittin$ #ayin$ t"e #iano

at t"e =?= &"en 8im Pamer came aon$ and ta##in$ me on t"e s"ouder said =Fran I'm tain$ you to t"e 6"ite%em#e toni$"t.= I t"aned 8im and t"at evenin$ &e &ent to t"e 6"ite %em#e &"ere "e "ed members"i#. I &ent severatimes a2ter t"at and &as very muc" im#ressed by Doctor Hinson. %a $aunt eoAuent earnest —surey I t"ou$"t "ere isa man &"o no&s 9od and "ere is a =di22erent= man. %"en and t"ere I made u# my mind to "ave a #ersona ta &it"Doctor Hinson. Durin$ t"at &ee I &ent u# to "is study and &as invited in. 6e "ad a on$ ta but it brou$"t me nomore satis2action—it brou$"t me no coser to 2indin$ 9od t"an t"e many ot"er tas &it" #reac"ers I "ad "ad. I e+#ainedin detai to Doctor Hinson t"at I &anted to 2ind t"e Po&er o2 t"e 9reat S#irit>9od.

=?ou mean you &ant to be a !"ristian= said t"e $ood doctor. I tod "im t"at I did not care &"et"er I &as a !"ristianMo"ammedan !on2ucianist ra"min udd"ist or &"at "ave you $ wanted to know the #ower of %od in my life. %"at&as a I &as asin$ and &as I asin$ too muc"E Doctor Hinson ooed at me rat"er sce#ticay and 2inay said =I t"in &"at is necessary "ere is t"at you 2oo& t"e <ord in a#tism.= I care2uy e+#ained t"at I "ad 2oo&ed t"e <ord in

ba#tism severa times aready but sti "ad not 2ound out anyt"in$ about 9od. %"e su$$estion &as made t"at I try a$ainand so bein$ &iin$ to do anyt"in$ to 2ind 9od in my i2e I =2oo&ed t"e <ord in ba#tism= once more.

%"e ba#tisma service &as conducted in t"e evenin$ and t"e c"urc" &as 2u. /2ter comin$ u# out o2 t"e &aterDoctor Hinson—earnest $ood od sou said to me =Fran you' never no& "o& you "ave re#aid me.= 6"at "e meant Ido not no& 2or certainy I 2et no di22erent a2ter comin$ out o2 t"e &ater. I &as &et and &e &ent into a itte bac roomto c"an$e cot"es but as 2ar as no&in$ 9od t"rou$" t"at e+#erience I never did. It brou$"t me :ust absoutey not"in$and I &as in t"e same seein$ 2rame o2 mind a2ter t"e ceremony as I &as be2ore I &ent into t"at #oo. e2ore I metor$anised rei$ion I ne& 9od. ut or$anised rei$ion amost drove 9od #ermanenty out o2 my i2e.

%"e $ood a#tists &"o read t"is Bi2 any o2 t"em ever doC &i te me "ere t"at I certainy did not =beieve.= o Icertainy did not =beieve= i2 by t"at you mean =beieve= t"e t"eory you "od t"at /mi$"ty 9od t"e In2inite uider and

!reator o2 t"is universe came do&n to eart" to die on a cross to save one "e "ad never "eard o2 2rom sin. I never did beieve t"at and I never s"a beieve t"at. Moreover neit"er do you. For to as one to beieve somet"in$ t"at one's reasoncannot $ras# is asin$ one to do t"e im#ossibe. 0ness your reason is most de#oraby &ar#ed you cannot beieve in t"edeat" o2 a =:ust 9od= 2or an =un:ust sinner.= %"e &"oe story does not beon$ in t"e ream o2 t"e %rue S#irit>9od. It

beon$s in t"e ream o2 rei$ious tradition and su#erstition. $t is not of %od. /2ter t"e ceremony t"e con$re$ation started sin$in$

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/*erusalem the golden, with milk and honey !lest;5eneath thy contemplation, sink heart and voice oprest./

and as t"ey san$ t"ere in t"e itte bac room c"an$in$ my &et cot"es 2or dry ones I &ondered. Here I &as &it"anot"er ba#tism member o2 t"e 6"ite %em#e a#tist c"urc" no& but did I no& 9odE Had t"e Po&er o2 t"e 9reatS#irit-9od— been mani2ested in my i2eE 6"at &as t"at "ymn t"ey &ere sin$in$ out t"ere—8erusaem t"e $odenE 6"at"ad t"at to do &it" my 2indin$ t"e Po&er &"ic" is 9odE <itte cared I about 8erusaem and I cared not &"et"er t"at city&as best &it" mi and "oney or &"et"er it &as cursed &it" t"istes and &id mustard. 6"at I &anted &as %od in my

life, and I ne& t"e very moment I came out o2 t"at #oo t"at anot"er attem#t to 2ind 9od &as a 2aiure.6"at I &anted and a I "ad ased Hinson 2or &as t"at t"e S#irit o2 9od about &"ic" "e did so muc" tain$ be

made no&n to me. o& #er"a#s I am di22erent 2rom a ot"ers. Per"a#s every ot"er c"urc" member e+ce#t me does not

"ave t"e same troube I "ad. Per"a#s t"e 2uness o2 t"e Po&er o2 t"e 9reat S#irit>9od —does actuay e+ist in ot"er ivesmaybe I'm t"e one &"o is &ron$. !an t"at be itE !oud t"at be itE %"at sus#icion &as $one a 2e& days ater &"en oncemore I &as in Doctor Hinson's study tain$ about 9od a$ain. I tod Doctor Hinson t"at &"at I "ad $one t"rou$" "adn'tmeant one t"in$ to me inso2ar as 2indin$ 9od &ent. %"en $ knew all that the whole Ba!tist denomination had to offer me

was !agan tradition and religios myth, for octor Hinson said to me, "-rank, we never shall really know whether what

we are elieving is true until we !ass on to the %reat Beyond." %"at &as t"e &orst t"in$ Doctor Hinson coud "ave said to me. y t"at admission "e tod me as #ain as &ords coud

te it t"at a t"e a#tist denomination and a t"e !"ristian c"urc"es 2or t"at matter reay "ave is an od traditional

theory of %od, the truth of falsity of which cannot e known until after death. %"at &as &"at I "ad sus#ected 2or a on$time. o& it came to me 2rom t"e one man I reay t"ou$"t ne& 9od. 6"at &as t"e useE I am #er2ecty &iin$ to $rantt"e a#tist or any ot"er c"urc" t"e ri$"t to beieve anyt"in$ it &ants to beieve. B%"ey s"oud #ay ta+es t"ou$".C It is notmy business &"at t"ey beieve. %"ey can even beieve a ie and no& or sus#ect it is a ie as 2ar as I am concerned. %"ey

can no& or sus#ect t"at t"eir rei$ion is ony a =beie2= o2 un#roven &ort" and t"ey can c"oose to beieve it so 2ar as Iam concerned. %"at is t"eir business—not mine. %"ey can be t"e bi$$est bunc" o2 "y#ocrites on t"e 2ace o2 t"e eart" i2 t"ey c"oose to. one o2 t"ose t"in$s is my business.

It is my business "o&ever &"en and i2 I discover t"at t"e story t"ey brin$ to t"e &ord is not true to te t"e &ord&"at I "ave discovered. That is my usiness. I s"a &or "ard at t"at business. ot t"at I care very muc" &"at "a##ens tot"e or$anisation &"ic" attem#ts to brin$ t"ese un#roven and untrue stories o2 9od to t"e #ubic —t"at is not it—2or i2 t"eyare untrue t"ey cannot ast and t"e condition o2 t"e !"ristian c"urc" today $ives itte si$n o2 astin$. /ccordin$ to itso&n "eads "$chaod" is &ritten over t"e door. %"ese di22erin$ rei$ious or$anisations "ave been cutterin$ u# t"e eart"&it" t"eir #a$an t"eories o2 9od and in t"e name o2 9od t"ey are $iven t"eir #ro#erties ta+>2ree. %"ey say t"ey &i not2i$"t to de2end /merica i2 it is attaced. %"e <ut"erans &ent on record as sayin$ t"at t"e ot"er day and ast ni$"t over t"eradio t"e Met"odist c"urc" &ent on record as sayin$ t"e same t"in$. This eing the case, these religionists should e

made y law to !rove the truth of the story y which they hold their !ro!erty ta/0free, and if they cannot !rove the truth of

their story, they should not e allowed to !reach it, for it might very easily e, if their story of %od is not true, that the

church instead of eing an "agent of %od" on the earth, is an agent of the very o!!osite !ower. %"at is o$ic &"ic" cannot be overt"ro&n. In any event &"et"er t"e story is true or not it "as been tod in detai by

ot"er systems o2 rei$ion 2ar ar$er t"an t"e !"ristian rei$ion and sti t"e &ord "as not yet "ad t"e Po&er o2 t"e $reatS#irit 9od brou$"t to it. / it "as "ad brou$"t to it is a con$omeration o2 rei$ions and it is my o#inion based on myo&n e+#erience t"at "ad it not been 2or a t"ese systems o2 rei$ion this world would have found %od a long time ago.

%"is &ord &i never 2ind—it can never 2ind t"e trut"s o2 9od t"rou$" anyt"in$ any system o2 rei$ion on t"e 2ace o2 t"eeart" teac"es :ust so on$ as t"at system o2 rei$ion is based u#on t"e t"eory o2 9od /mi$"ty bein$ cruci2ied on a cross.%"at story &as "oary &it" a$e and &as no&n to miions t"ousands o2 years be2ore t"e !"ristian rei$ion and its 8esus!"rist &ere ever "eard o2. %"e Hindoo =$od= &"o &as cruci2ied on a cross &as 8eseus !"ris"na &"ic" is not muc"di22erent 2rom 8esus !"rist.

?ou &i be$in to see at t"is #oint in t"is boo :ust &"at &e o2 Psyc"iana are drivin$ at. I no& and you no& toot"at t"is &ord is im#ossibe o2 savation t"rou$" any c"urc" or$anisation in it. ?ou aso no& or stron$y sus#ect t"at9od sti e+ists in s#ite o2 t"e e22orts o2 t"e c"urc" to e$isate 9od a&ay o22 into s#ace. ?ou no& t"at t"e !reator still

lives in the creation. %"is bein$ true—the Creator can e found. It too muc" su22erin$ it too a devious trai be2ore t"e%rut"s o2 9od as t"ey e+ist &ere made no&n to me — but it &as &ort" it 2or it brou$"t to t"is &ord t"e true conce#tiono2 9od and t"at conce#tion is #rovin$ its &ort" by its e22ects in "uman ives. $t is doing something no church has een

ale to do—it is making %od real to all men, in s!ite of, and without church theology. /s a matter o2 2act 9od is bein$2ound by men and &omen today not by beievin$ &"at t"e c"urc"es teac" but by denyin$ it.

Disa##ointment a$ain—star $aunt sou>searin$ disa##ointment &it" 9od 2art"er a&ay t"an "e ever &as. Surey I&as $ivin$ t"e !"ristian c"urc" every o##ortunity to #rove its caim t"at it ne& 9od and &as teac"in$ t"e trut"s o2 9od.Many and many a time t"e sus#icion be$an to 2orm in my mind t"at t"e &ord mi$"t be better o22 &it"out t"ese c"urc"esand ministers i2 a t"ey coud o22er seein$ sous a2ter 9od &as =a2ter you die.= I did not &ant 9od a2ter I &as dead. I

&anted to no& 9od no&. I ne& beyond a s"ado& o2 a doubt t"at 9od ived and I aso ne& t"at sooner or ater Is"oud come into t"e e+#erience &"ic" &oud mae 9od a ivin$ reaity to me. Had I not no&n 2rom c"id"ood t"at 9od"ad set me aside 2or His &orE 6as I not tryin$ to 2ind 9od as "onesty as I #ossiby coud try and t"rou$" t"e onyor$anisation &"ic" #ubicy #ro2esses to be =9od>ins#ired=E 6"at &as &ron$E 6as t"e 2aut &it" t"e #reac"ers and t"ec"urc"es or &as it &it" meE Did t"ese c"urc"es actuay no& 9od and &ere t"ey reay tein$ t"e trut" about 9od or

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&as t"e &"oe t"in$ :ust a 2orm o2 $odiness :ust a system o2 rei$ion "avin$ no Po&er &"atsoever in itE' 6ere t"ese$ood 2os &"o attended t"ese c"urc"es and t"ese $ood ministers &"o #reac"ed to t"em :ust doin$ it because it &as t"ecustom to do it or did t"ey no& beyond any s"ado& o2 doubt t"at 9od ived and &as no&n to t"emE 9raduay t"esus#icion became stron$er t"at 9od &as not to be 2ound in anyt"in$ t"ese c"urc"es tau$"t.

%"en t"ere must be anot"er conce#tion o2 9od &"ic" is absoutey unno&n to t"e c"urc". 6as t"at itE 6"at &as t"ePo&er &"ic" e#t eternay ur$in$ me on in my searc" 2or t"e actua trut"s o2 9odE For you coud not 2oo me. o Auasi>rei$ious e+#erience &oud satis2y me. o c"urc" do$mas or doctrines coud 2i t"e ac"in$ void in my i2e —2or I &antedto no& 9od and I "ad made u# my mind to 2ind out &"at t"e itera trut"s o2 9od are or die in t"e attem#t. I neary diedin t"e attem#t but I t"an 9od no& t"at I "ad t"e budo$ tenacity to continue t"e searc" unti I "ad 2ound t"e ans&er. Idid not care &"at any c"urc" in e+istence tod me about 9od uness t"ey coud #rove to me t"at &"at t"ey teac" is true.

%"is none o2 t"em to date "as been abe to do. I2 I see 2or 9od amon$ t"e !"ristians t"ey te me a story t"at 9od/mi$"ty t&o t"ousand years a$o came do&n 2rom "eaven born o2 a vir$in and &as cruci2ied on a cross 2or t"e sins o2 t"e &ord. 6"at sins I "ave never been abe to 2ind out.

I2 I see 2or 9od amon$ t"e Hindoos I am tod t"at t"irty>2ive "undred years a$o 9od /mi$"ty came do&n 2rom"eaven &as born o2 a vir$in and &as cruci2ied on a cross 2or t"e sins o2 t"e &ord. ot on$ a$o a minister tod me t"att"is &ord "ad never "eard o2 a =cruci2ied $od= outside o2 8esus !"rist t"e ony true 9od. I2 t"ere s"oud be ot"ers &"ot"in t"at et me "ere $ive you a ist o2 enou$" =$ods= &"o accordin$ to t"eir o&n traditions &ere 9od /mi$"ty. Mosto2 t"em &ere born o2 vir$ins and t"ey a came do&n 2rom "eaven to save t"is &ord 2rom sin. It is interestin$ to note t"atnone o2 t"ese cruci2ied =$ods= t"e !"ristian =$od= incuded "ave ever been abe to ac"ieve t"eir ob:ective. This world

has re1ected every crucified %od ever offered to it, and the reason the world has re1ected them all is ecause none of them

was the true god, and the world knew it. I s"a $ive you :ust a 2e&. %"ere are scores more and incidentay t"ere is nomore #roo2 o2 t"e e+istence o2 t"e =cruci2ied $od= o2 t"e !"ristian rei$ion t"an t"ere is o2 t"e rest o2 t"ese =$ods.= ot as

muc" in some instances. Here t"ey are t"ey reay do not beon$ in t"is autobio$ra#"y but t"ey are o2 suc" sta$$erin$im#ort to t"e sub:ect matter o2 t"is boo and t"ey "ave suc" a #ro2ound bearin$ on t"e trut" o2 &"at I ater discoveredt"at I s"a at t"e ris o2 turnin$ t"is autobio$ra#"y into a "istorica voume insert t"em "ere. I beieve t"e &ord s"oudno& t"ese 2acts. I beieve !"ristians s"oud no& t"em too. %"ey are taen 2rom t&o o2 my ot"er boos Crucified

%ods %alore and %leams &ver the Horion.

6It is c#ai!ed "y the discip#es o Jesus Christ% that he was o supernatura# and divine origin+ that he had

a hu!an "eing or a !other% and a )od or his ather+ that% a#though he was wo!an7conceived% he was

8eity7"egotten% and !ou#ded in the hu!an or!% "ut co!prehending in essence a u## !easure o theininite )odhead% thus !a&ing hi! ha# hu!an and ha# divine in his su"#unary origin. It is c#ai!ed that he

was u## and perect )od% and perect !an+ and whi#e he was )od% he was a#so the son o )od% and as such

was sent down "y his ather to save a a##en and gui#ty wor#d+ and that thus his !ission pertained to the

who#e hu!an race+ and his inspired seers are !ade to dec#are that u#ti!ate#y every nation% tongue%&indred% and peop#e under heaven wi## ac&now#edge a##egiance to his govern!ent% and concede his right toreign and ru#e the wor#d+ that *every &nee !ust "ow% and every tongue coness that Jesus is 9ord% to the

g#ory o )od the -ather*.

6ut we do not ind that this prophecy has ever "een or is #i&e#y to "e u#i##ed. We do not o"serve that

this c#ai! to the ininite deityship o Jesus Christ has "een or is #i&e#y to "e universa##y conceded. On thecontrary% it is ound that "y a portion—and a large portion o the peop#e o even those nations now ca##ed

Christian—this c#ai! has "een steadi#y and unswerving#y controverted through the who#e #ine o history

stretching through the near#y two thousand years which have e#apsed since his advent to earth.

6Even so!e o those who are represented to have "een persona##y ac,uainted with hi!—aye: so!e o

his own "rethren in the #esh% chi#dren in the sa!e househo#d% chi#dren o the sa!e !other —had thete!erity to ,uestion the tena"#eness o his c#ai! to a divine e!anation. And when we e5tend our

researches to other countries% we ind this c#ai!% so ar ro! "eing conceded% is denied and contested "ywho#e nations upon other grounds. It is !et and conronted "y riva# c#ai!s.

6'pon this ground hundreds o !i##ions o esta"#ished "e#ievers in divine reve#ation —hundreds o !i##ions o "e#ievers in the divine character and origin o re#igion —re4ect the pretensions set up or Jesus

Christ. They ad!it "oth a )od and a (aviour% "ut do not accept Jesus o Na;areth as "eing either. They

ad!it a Messiah% "ut not the Messiah+ these nations contend that the tit#e is !isp#aced which !a&es *the

!an Christ Jesus* the (aviour o the wor#d. They c#ai! to have "een honoured with the "irth o the true

(aviour a!ong the!% and deend this c#ai! upon the ground o priority o date. They aver that the advent o their Messiah was #ong "eore that o the Christians* and that this circu!stance ad4udicates or the! a

superiority o c#ai! as to having had the true Messiah "orn upon their soi#.

6It is argued that% as the story o the incarnation o the Christians* (aviour is o !ore recent date than

that o these orienta# and ancient re#igions 0as is conceded "y Christians the!se#ves1% the origin o theor!er is thus indicated and oreshadowed as "eing an outgrowth ro!% i not a p#agiaris! upon the #atter—a "orrowed copy% o which the pagan stories urnish the origina#. Here% then% we o"serve a riva#ship o

c#ai!s as to which o the re!ar&a"#e personages who have igured in the wor#d as (aviours% Messiahs% and

(ons o )od in dierent ages and dierent countries can "e considered the true (aviour and *sent o

)od*+or whether a## shou#d "e% or the c#ai!s o a##% re4ected.

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6-or researches into orienta# history revea# the re!ar&a"#e act that stores o incarnate )ods

answering to and rese!"#ing the !iracu#ous character o Jesus Christ have "een preva#ent in !ost% i not a##% the principa# re#igious heathen nations o anti,uity+ and the accounts o narrations o so!e o these

deiic incarnations "ear such a stri&ing rese!"#ance to that o the Christian (aviour —not on#y in their

genera# eatures% "ut in so!e cases in the !ost !inute detai#s% ro! the #egend o the i!!acu#ate

conception to that o the crucii5ion and su"se,uent ascension into heaven—that one !ight a#!ost "e!ista&en or the other.

6More than twenty c#ai!s o this &ind—c#ai!s o "eings invested with divine honour 0deiied1—have

co!e orward and presented the!se#ves at the "ar o the wor#d with their credentia#s to contest the

verdict o Christendo! in having proc#ai!ed Jesus Christ *the on#y son% and sent o )od*+ twenty Messiahs%

(aviours% and (ons o )od% according to history or tradition% have in past ti!es descended ro! heaven andta&en upon the!se#ves the or! o !en% c#othing the!se#ves with hu!an #esh% and urnishing

incontesta"#e evidence o a divine origin% "y various !irac#es% !arve##ous wor&s% and super#ative virtues+

and ina##y these twenty Jesus Christs% accepting their character or the na!e% #aid the oundation or the

sa#vation o the wor#d% and ascended "ac& to heaven.6<. Chrishna o Hindostan+ =. uddha (a&ya o India+ >. (a#ivahana o er!uda+ ?. @u#is% or @hu#e% a#so

Osiris and Orus% o Egypt+ . Odin o the (candinavians+ B. Crite o Cha#dea+ . @oroaster and Mithra o

Persia+ D. aa# and Taut% *the on#y egotten o )od%* o Phenicia+ . Indra o Thi"et+ <F. a#i o Aghanistan+

<<. Jao o Nepa#+ <=. Witto"a o the i#ingonese+ <>. Tha!!u; o (yria+ <?. Atys o Phrygia+ <. Ga!o#5is o

Thrace+ <B. @oar o the on;es+ <. Adad o Assyria+ <D. 8eva Tat% and (a!!onodada! o (ia!+ <. A#cideso The"es+ =F. Mi&ado o the (intoos+ =<. eddru o Japan+ ==. Hesus o Eros% and re!ri##ah% o the 8ruids+

=>. Thor% son o Odin% o the )au#s+ =?. Cad!us o )reece+ =. Hi# and -eta o the Mandaites+ =B. )entaut

and uet;a#coat# o Me5ico+ =. 'niversa# Monarch o the (i"y#s+ =D. Ischy o the Is#and o -or!osa+ =.

8ivine Teacher o P#ato+ >F. Ho#y One o Gaca+ ><. -ohi and Tien o China+ >=. Adonis% son o the virgin Io o

)reece+ >>. I5ion and uirinus o /o!e+ >?. Pro!etheus o Caucasus+ >. Moha!ud% or Maho!et% o Ara"ia.

6These have a## received divine honours+ near#y a## have "een worshipped as )ods or sons o )od+

were !ost#y incarnated as Christs% (aviours% Messiahs% or Mediators+ not a ew o the! were reputed#y

"orn o virgins+ so!e o the! i##ing a character a#!ost identica# with that ascri"ed "y the Christians* "i"#eto Jesus Christ+ !any o the!% #i&e hi!% are reported to have "een cruciied+ and a## o the!% ta&en together%

urnish a prototype and para##e# or near#y every i!portant incident and wonder7inciting !irac#e% doctrine%

and precept recorded in the New Testa!ent% o the Christians* (aviour. (ure#y% with so !any (aviours the

wor#d can not% or shou#d not% "e #ost.6

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Chapter NineI /oin The (avy

/O0% %HIR%? ?-/RS /9O %H-R- S%OOD O %H- !OR-R o2 Morrison and Sevent" Streets in Portandt"e od Mascot saoon. It &as o#erated by a c"a# caed !ayton Faas. %"e names o2 t"e t&o bartenders &ere HarryMc9au$"ey and P"i ote. Hy -verdin$ a no& &e>no&n Portand s#ortsman used to dro# in t"ere eary everymornin$ and "e and Harry Mc9au$"ey &oud eat brea2ast to$et"er in a itte room o22 t"e bar. %"is &as a ="i$">cass=saoon so 2ar as saoons can be ="i$">cass.= I remember Faas "ad a beauti2u -n$is" !oac" do$ &"ic" ater died. It&as #oisoned I beieve. /2ter eavin$ t"e study o2 Doctor Hinson I &ent to t"e =?= and borro&ed ten doars 2rom 8imPamer. I "ad been =on t"e &a$on= 2or over a year and 8im did not "esitate to et me "ave t"e ten doars &"ic" by t"e

&ay I don't t"in I "ave ever returned. I s"a as 8im t"e ne+t time I see "im. %ain$ t"e ten doars I made a beeine 2or t"e Mascot saoon and t"ro&in$ t"e ten doars on t"e bar said to t"e bartender Mc9au$"ey =7ee# t"at in t"e ti and :ust $ive me t&enty $asses o2 beer a day unti it "as a $one.= /t 2ive cents a $ass t"is ten doars s"oud "ave asted tendays i2 I dran ony t&enty $asses o2 beer daiy. <ooin$ at me &it" a smie Mc9au$"ey said =Robbie you "ad better ee# t"at ten in your #ocet I' "ave it be2ore ni$"t maybe be2ore noon.= He &as ri$"t "e "ad it a be2ore t"at ni$"t.

%"e ony e+#anation I can $ive to t"is act and to simiar acts o2 beer>drinin$ is t"at my menta state at t"at time&as so u#set over t"e disa##ointments I "ad e+#erienced t"rou$" my "onest attem#ts to 2ind 9od t"rou$" t"e c"urc" t"atI too t"is &ay o2 2indin$ a tem#orary sus#ension;a #oor &ay. ut you must remember t"at t"ere &as do&n dee# in met"e consciousness t"at I &as to be used by 9od to brin$ to t"is eart" a S#iritua a&aenin$ suc" as t"e &ord "ad never

be2ore seen. -ven in t"ose 2oois" years and t"ey &ere ony 2oois" t"at consciousness in me &as never dead. I tried toi it. I "ad been disa##ointed &it" everyone minister and ibe Sc"oo in my searc" 2or 9od. ?et I ne& t"at sooner or ater t"e <i$"t &oud brea. Ho& &"en or &"ere I did not no&. In t"ose days t"ere &ere :ust t&o t"in$s to do. I coud

"ave stayed in t"e c"urc" in &"ic" case I never &oud "ave been "eard o2 or I coud do e+acty as I did;continue mysearc" 2or t"e actua trut"s o2 9od come &"at may. I c"ose t"e atter course and I am $ad t"at I did. o youn$ man o2 my a$e s"oud drin as I did yet no youn$ man under simiar circumstances &oud "ave done anyt"in$ ese. %"is i2e o2 mine "as been unusua. It is unusua today and it must be unusua 2or t"e &or I am doin$ is unusua and it taes anunusua man to accom#is" t"e unusua. %"is &ord is 2u o2 =usua= men bot" in and out o2 t"e ministry but &"at t"is&ord needs today is a man &"o ins#ired by a ar$er vision o2 9od t"an t"e &ord "as "ad to date &i 2earessy brin$t"at vision to t"e &ord and t"en t"at bein$ done t"is &ord &i Auite naturay see t"e ar$er conce#tion o2 9od andt"rou$" t"at conce#tion it &i be everastin$y bessed.

9od can never be "i$"er t"an a "uman conce#tion o2 9od. I2 t"e sum tota o2 t"e !"ristian rei$ion is o2 its =$od="an$in$ on a cross beedin$ to deat" and sain by a "and2u o2 Roman sodiers t"at c"urc" can brin$ to t"is &ord a

#icture no "i$"er and no $reater t"an t"at. / =cruci2ied $od= means a decadent dyin$ c"urc" because t"ere is not"in$ insuc" a conce#tion o2 9od &"ic" "as t"e #o&er to raise one's t"ou$"t above suc" a conce#tion. %"is &ord es#eciay t"e

rei$ious &ord i2 t"ere is suc" a t"in$ is $oin$ t"rou$" an evoutionary #rocess. /s t"e #rocess $oes on t"e od =$ods=&"ic" "ave cuttered u# t"e $arden &i be #ued u#. %"ey are but &eeds. In t"eir #ace &i $ro& beauti2u 2o&ers 2or t"e %rue 9od or rat"er t"e true conce#tion o2 t"e ony 9od t"ere can be &i come to t"e &ord t"rou$" its #resentevoution. 6"en t"e #ain sim#e trut"s o2 9od are no&n t"ere &i not be one sin$e cruci2ied $od in t"at #icture out o2 about 2i2ty>t&o t"is &ord "as "eard o2 to date. Suc" stories ori$inated in t"e dar and #a$an #ast. %"ey do not beon$ tot"is civiisation and t"is civiisation &i #ro$ress in t"e e+act measure in &"ic" it com#re"ends t"e 2uness o2 9od. %"at2uness cannot eit"er be no&n or com#re"ended t"rou$" any =cruci2ied $od= re$ardess o2 &"at "e may be caed andre$ardess o2 t"e system o2 t"eoo$y &"ic" teac"es "im.

/2ter eavin$ t"e Mascot saoon t"at ni$"t I &ent "ome. I "ad been &orin$ 2or t"e #ast year at t"e -. P. !"artonstore. %"e mana$er &as a very =rei$ious= man caed ad&in. I 2or$et "is initias but "is &i2e &as #rominent in Portand

socia activities and "e "ad a son named <a#eer. %"e ne+t mornin$ I &ent u# to dra& my #ay and Auit t"e :ob. 9i#sySmit" "ad been "odin$ reviva meetin$s in a "u$e s#eciay buit auditorium s"orty be2ore and bein$ a =$ood boy=

be2ore t"is ast outbrea I "ad been sin$in$ in "is ar$e c"oir. ad&in by t"e &ay &as a ="oy>roer= member a itte bit too ="oy= 2or me but "e beon$ed to t"at denomination.

One ni$"t :ust as 9i#sy be$an to #reac" it started to rain as it can rain in Portand. %"e roo2 o2 t"e tabernace &as o2 s"eet meta and t"e rain made ots o2 noise as it came s#atterin$ do&n on t"e roo2. Smit" coud not be "eard so i2tin$"is "ands in t"e air in 2ront o2 "im "e said =O" <ord t"is is your meetin$ not mine #ease sto# t"is rain.= 6e at oncet"e rain sto##ed and Smit" continued &it" "is #reac"in$. %"e rain started a$ain t"e moment t"e meetin$ &as over./t"ou$" t"e 9i#sy &as #reac"in$ =8esus !"rist and Him !ruci2ied= t"at ni$"t in sto##in$ t"at rain Smit" never ne&"o& cose to t"e Po&er o2 t"e true 9od "e &as 2or it &as Smit"'s #rayer t"at sto##ed t"at rain. It &as not 8esus !"rist&"o sto##ed it but Smit" unconsciousy com#ied &it" t"e a& o2 9od and t"e rain sto##ed. He I su##ose attributed itto 8esus. He made a mistae. I sa& in a <os /n$ees ne&s#a#er recenty &"ere t"is same 9i#sy at"ou$" ei$"ty years o2 a$e married a youn$ $ir o2 t&enty>si+. %"at's #er2ecty e$a and #er2ecty a ri$"t. I "ave no comment to mae on it. Imerey mention it. /not"er branc" o2 t"e !"ristian c"urc" &on't et its =ministers= marry at a. ein$ "uman t"ou$" I

beieve I &oud rat"er t"ro& in my ot &it" Smit" t"an &it" t"e ot"er cro&d at east as 2ar as t"e marria$e business isconcerned.

I met ad&in in t"e ten>cent store t"e ne+t day and I ased "im i2 "e "ad "eard about 9i#sy Smit" sto##in$ t"e rain.

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He re#ied t"at "e "ad but added =It &as not 9i#sy Smit"'s #rayer t"at sto##ed t"e rain it &as mine.= Maybe so but t"et"ou$"t t"en occurred to me t"at it &as rat"er a ridicuous statement to mae. 6"at di22erence did it mae &"ose =#rayer=sto##ed t"e rainE Mi$"t "ave been neit"er one o2 t"em. %"e #oint "ere is t"at "ere &as a man a "oy man :eaous o2 anot"er "oy man because "e "ad been abe to sto# t"e rain. /t east "e $ot t"e credit 2or it and t"e Portand Ore$onianne+t day #astered t"e 2ront #a$e &it" t"e incident.

-very sermon Smit" #reac"ed t"rou$"out t"e &"oe meetin$ &as #ubis"ed by t"e Ore$onian. It &oud tae a #retty$ood #reac"er to do t"at &e any&"ere today. %"e !"ristian Science rei$ion #ubis"es its sermons in 2u #a$e artices

but it #ays 2or t"em. I no& because my #a#er sometimes runs t"em.%"at ni$"t do&n and out a$ain I stood on t"e corner o2 Si+t" and /der istenin$ to anot"er $rou# o2 rei$ionists.

%"ey "ad a &a$on and a team o2 "orses and on t"e &a$on &as a itte 2oot or$an. %"ey #ayed a&ay and san$ as I stood

t"ere and istened to t"e =testimonies= o2 t"ose &"o "ad been =saved= and dran in every &ord. 6"en t"e meetin$ &asover I 2oo&ed t"e cro&d do&n to urnside Street and into a "a &"ic" "ad a bi$ si$n over it t"at read =8esus;%"e<i$"t o2 t"e 6ord.= In I &ent and istened to &"at t"ey "ad to say. More sin$in$ and more testimonies 2oo&ed. %"ent"e usua =ca= 2or t"ose &"o &anted to =no& 8esus.= I &as not interested in no&in$ 8esus. I &anted to no& 9od andI ne& 2rom &"at I "ad aready earnt t"at t"ere coud be no #ossibe connection bet&een 8esus and 9od /mi$"ty so&"en t"e ca came I did not res#ond. %"en t"e #reac"er ased everyone &"o did not &ant to #ray to eave t"e room. I&as rat"er intri$ued and &anted to stay so I sat t"ere in t"e bac seat. Soon a youn$ ady came u# to me and said=rot"er don't you &ant to be a !"ristianE= I remember my re#y. It &as t"is =o I don't #articuary &ant to be a!"ristian but I do &ant to no& 9od.=

%"at &as t"e si$na 2or action. =Haeu:a" Haeu:a"= s"outed t"is $ood sister at t"e to# o2 "er voice. =Here's a brot"er &"o &ants to be a !"ristian.= I "ad :ust s#eci2icay stated t"at I &as not interested in bein$ a !"ristian. I "ad tod"er t"at I &anted to no& 9od but in ess t"an si+ty seconds I 2ound myse2 surrounded by a $rou# o2 about t&enty>2ive

=missioners= &"o #us"in$ t"e c"airs a&ay 2rom me "ad me t"ere sittin$ in t"e midde o2 t"em. %"ey a &ent do&n ont"eir nees and started to =#ray.= %"ey a #rayed at once and "o& t"ey =#rayed= %"ey yeed and screamed and 2inayone or t&o o2 t"em &"o "ad =t"e $i2t o2 ton$ues= &ent ravin$ o22 into anot"er an$ua$e &"ic" sounded ie S&edis" tome. Pandemonium ra$ed. Severa cooured =bret"ren= &ere in t"e cro&d and to te t"e trut".

I &as $ettin$ :ust a itte sore. / s"oud "ave been in a unatic asyum. One o2 t"ese cooured men seein$ me rise tomy 2eet #re#aratory to eavin$ #us"ed me bac to my seat a$ain and said =?ou>a ain't $oin' to eave t"is yere "ousetoni$"t unti you "as 2ound de <a&d.= %"at made me rat"er #eeved 2or I don't ie anyone #us"in$ me round any #aceand t"is cooured man &as Auite insistent t"at I s"oud not eave t"at mission unti as "e #ut it =?ou "as 2ound de <a&d.=I "ad in my "i# #ocet "a2 a botte o2 beer &"ic" I "ad rei$iousy saved unti I $ot outside &"en I &oud drin it.9ettin$ u# to my 2eet a second time and seein$ t"e =cooured brot"er= comin$ at me to #us" me bac a second time Iooed "im in t"e eye and #ued t"e beer botte 2rom my #ocet sayin$ =I2 you don't $et out o2 t"e &ay and et me eaveI' brea t"is botte over your "ead.= %"at &as e+acty &"at I did 2or "is "ead did not brea and t"e botte &ent 2yin$

into #ieces a over t"e #ace. Finay I $ot out minus "a2 a botte o2 beer.I do not #articuary ie to mention t"ese instances but "ere a$ain &as a $rou# o2 #eo#e &"o =ne& 9od.= %"ey

"od t"eir #ro#erty ta+>2ree yet t"ere &as itte o2 9od /mi$"ty in t"at "ouse t"at ni$"t. %"ere &as a bunc" o2 rei$ious2anatics and t"is &as t"e sort o2 t"in$ &"ic" &as #assin$ itse2 o22 as bein$ o2 9od. %"e &"oe sub:ect in t"at mission t"atni$"t &as 8esus !"rist and I must insist once more t"at t"ere is no reations"i# bet&een t"e 9reat S#irit>9od;and 8esus!"rist o2 t"e !"ristian c"urc".

/2ter a 2e& days o2 tram#in$ around Portand and eatin$ 2rom t"e 2ree>unc" counters in t"e saoons I "a##ened todro# in at anot"er mission not so 2ar 2rom t"e =Hoy>Roer= mission &"ere I "ad t"e e+citin$ e+#erience a 2e& ni$"ts

be2ore. %"is &as t"e Portand !ommons Mission. It &as run by t"e Reverend Macaren a itte Scotc"man and I beieve"e is sti t"ere. I never coud 2i$ure out &"at a Scotc"man &as doin$ in t"e =mission= business. %"ere must "ave beensome ot"er income 2rom some ot"er #ace. /ny"o& on t"is #articuar ni$"t t"e or$anist "ad not a##eared. I indyvounteered my services &"ic" &ere acce#ted. It did not tae t"e #reac"er very on$ to 2ind out t"at "is or$anist &as2eein$ very $ood 2or t"e "ymns roed 2rom t"at or$an as t"ey "ad never been #ayed be2ore. I ove an or$an and canmae an or$an ta &"en it comes to #ayin$ sacred music 2or t"at is t"e ony ind o2 music I #ay on my #i#e>or$anno&.

/t t"e cose o2 t"is service a Mr rimson came u# to me and said =rot"er you are a diamond in t"e rou$".= /2ter a2e& minutes' conversation I tod "im I "ad no #ace to see# t"at ni$"t and "e too me to "is "ome. /sin$ me i2 I didnot &ant to become a !"ristian I said =o I &ant to 2ind 9od i2 I can.= He said "e &as $oin$ to #ray 2or me and I amsure "e did. %"e ne+t &ee "e &as arrested 2or "e &as ivin$ &it" anot"er man's &i2e ie$ay. 7no&in$ a about t"at I&as more dis$usted t"an ever and t"e ne+t day I :oined t"e 0nited States avy at t"e recruitin$ o22ice in Portand. ein$a re$istered #"armacist I &as enisted &it" t"e ran o2 Hos#ita /##rentice First !ass.

%"e recruitin$ o22icer in Portand $ave me a ticet to Seatte and I &as instructed to re#ort to t"e 0.S.S. P"iade#"iaa trainin$>s"i# anc"ored in t"e avy ?ard at remerton. I re#orted 2or duty on t"e P"iade#"ia durin$ &"ic" time my

uni2orm &as issued and t"e detais incidenta to enistment concuded. /2ter t&o &ees on t"e =P"iy= as &e used to cat"e s"i# I &as trans2erred 2or duty to t"e ava Hos#ita aso at remerton. %"is is a ovey "os#ita situated on aso#in$ "i at t"e rear o2 t"e avy ?ard #ro#er. It is one o2 t"e most com#etey eAui##ed "os#itas I "ave ever seen. %"e2ood &as $ood t"e doctors &ere $ood and everyt"in$ one coud desire &as t"ere.

I made u# my mind t"at "ere in t"ese &onder2u surroundin$s I &oud cut oose once and 2orever 2rom t"e ties&"ic" bound me. I "ave never been abe to te &"ere t"at diaboica cravin$ 2or iAuor came 2rom. It may "ave its ori$in

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in some reative or #arent o2 my 2at"er but I do not no&. It may "ave come 2rom drainin$ t"e beer bottes in &"ic" #astime I "ad indu$ed a2ter t"e =2raternas= "ed in our "ome. I &oud $o do&n to t"e #antry &"ere t"e beer &as e#tand drain dry t"e bottes t"e =men o2 9od= "ad used in t"eir ceebration t"e ni$"t be2ore. %"at is more iey to be t"ereason 2or t"ese continued drinin$ s#es 2or to my recoection I never dran anyt"in$ stron$er t"an beer. 6"atever t"ecause may "ave been I &is" it "ad never been t"ere and yet &"o no&sE Per"a#s "ad I not been t"rou$" t"esee+#eriences bad as t"ey &ere I mi$"t not "ave been abe to do as muc" 2or t"e s#iritua u#i2t o2 "umanity as I "ave beenabe to do. 9od no&s &"at I "ave been abe to do is itte enou$" but it is somet"in$. Moreover t"e end is not yet insi$"t. It may be t"at t"is boo in itse2 &i be t"e cause o2 "undreds o2 t"ousands o2 my 2eo& /mericans 2indin$ 9od. I2 t"at be so &"at does t"e su22erin$ o2 one man amount toE I2 by ayin$ do&n my i2e I coud brin$ to t"is &ord t"e trut"so2 t"e ever>ivin$ 9od I &oud not "esitate one second. Ho&ever t"is &i not be necessary as t"is &ord &i very

s"orty no& at ast t"e trut"s o2 9od and no&in$ t"ose trut"s it &i be iberated 2rom t"ose t"in$s &"ic" today bindit do&n. I2 t"e e+#eriences I am reatin$ to you "ave any #art in t"is $reat redem#tion o2 t"e "uman race I am $ad t"ey"a##ened.

My stay in t"e avy &as s"ort "o&ever 2or my $ood intentions &ere destined to be u#set. I do not beieve I &as int"e avy muc" over t"ree mont"s i2 t"at on$. One day Doctor Rossiter t"e !"ie2 Sur$eon o2 t"e "os#ita sent me toSeatte to $et t&enty>2our $uinea #i$s 2or aboratory e+#erimenta #ur#oses. My instructions &ere to secure t"em 2rom t"ecity "eat" o22icer &"ose name i2 I remember correcty &as Doctor Hendrics. <eavin$ remerton &it" an order 2or t"ese $uinea #i$s I secured t"em as I &as tod. %"ey &ere #aced in t&o i$"t bo+es t&eve #i$s in eac". On my &aydo&n to catc" t"e steamer t"e H. . 7ennedy bac to remerton I met anot"er "os#ita a##rentice 2irst>cass by t"ename o2 6es. =Fat= 6es &e used to ca "im as "is avoirdu#ois &as consideraby over t&o "undred #ounds. /2ter

#assin$ t"e time o2 day &it" me and asin$ my mission in Seatte =Fat= 6es said =<et's $o in and "ave a beer Robbie.=Robbie s"oud not "ave $one in but Robbie did.

%"e saoon &e entered &as t"e /berta !a2e at t"e corner o2 First and !"erry Streets. It &as o&ned and o#erated by aMr S#ence %"om#son. One beer ed to t&o t&o beers ed to 2our 2our ed to ei$"t and so on. y t"at time I did not care&"et"er I ever sa& remerton a$ain or not as I &as "avin$ a =$ood time= #ayin$ #iano in t"e saoon. 6"ie I &asentertainin$ t"e cro&d at t"e #iano Fat 6es decided "e &oud "ave a oo at t"ose $uinea>#i$s &"ic" I "ad e2t at t"eend o2 t"e bar. 6es by t"e &ay "ad more =Od ic= in "im t"an anyone I "ad ever met myse2 incuded #ossiby./ny&ay 6es "ad cut t"e strin$ around t"e $uinea>#i$ bo+es and t"ese #i$s ran u# and do&n t"e bar be"ind t"e barand a over t"e 2oor o2 t"e /berta !a2e. Hearin$ t"e commotion I e2t t"e #iano and &ent over to t"e bar to see &"at t"etroube &as. Siin$ t"e situation u# at once and reaisin$ t"at I "ad to rescue t"ose #i$s I said =For Heaven's sae &e've$ot to catc" everyone o2 t"ose $uinea #i$s 2or t"ey are a inocuated &it" di#"t"eria.= I t"en described in detai :ust "o&t"e $uinea>#i$s &ere to be "anded and a2ter about one "our's commotion I 2inay $ot t"e $uinea>#i$s bac into t"eir

bo+es a$ain. I 2et Auite a "ero #icin$ u# t"ose =inocuated= #i$s 2or needess to say t"ey &ere not inocuated &it"anyt"in$.

%"en 6es and I e2t t"e saoon and $ot a room across t"e street at t"e Rainier>9rand Hote tain$ t"e boat bac toremerton in t"e mornin$. 6es "ad overni$"t eave. ein$ on a s#ecia mission it made no #articuar di22erence &"en I$ot bac. Ho&ever on arrivin$ at t"e "os#ita I &as summoned be2ore t"e O.!. and ased 2or a detaied e+#anation o2 t"e =inocuated $uinea>#i$s.= %"e ne&s o2 t"ose #i$s "ad traveed bac to remerton be2ore I $ot t"ere. / severe ecture2oo&ed and as usua I #romised to =never tae anot"er drin.=

It &as not very on$ "o&ever be2ore I &as 2ound in t"e #"armacy com#etey unconscious yin$ on t"e 2oor bet&een t&o ro&s o2 bottes. %"is &as 2oo&ed by anot"er esca#ade &"ic" invoved my $ettin$ drun in Seatte and not"avin$ t"e 2are bac to t"e "os#ita. 0nce Sam very ri$"ty &i not stand 2or t"at sort o2 t"in$ and one mornin$ I &as"anded my disc"ar$e across t"e 2ront o2 &"ic" &as &ritten =c"ronic aco"oic.= I &as no use to myse2 no use to 0nceSam and certainy no use to anyone ese. '%&as a 2ar cry 2rom t"ose days &"en I &oud snu$$e u# on mot"er's seasincoat and ta to "er about t"e ne& #icture o2 9od I &as to brin$ to t"e &ord a very 2ar cry. Ho&ever t"ere &as an over>ruin$ Po&er &"ic" #rotected me and &"ic" "as been #rotectin$ me ever since. I mae no e+cuse 2or any o2 t"ese"a##enin$s. It &as a my 2aut and no one is to be bamed. Had I #assed out o2 t"e #icture t"en no one &oud "avemissed me. Per"a#s it &oud "ave been better &"o no&sE I eave you to be t"e :ud$e o2 t"at a2ter you "ave 2inis"ed t"is

boo.%"e ne+t Sunday &it"out a cent in my #ocet I &as sittin$ on a benc" in Pioneer SAuare in Seatte. %"is SAuare is a

boc o2 =#ar= in t"e centre o2 Seatte and benc"es are #aced t"ere or &ere #aced t"ere t"en 2or t"e &eary to rest. /t"e ri22>ra22 a t"e "uman dereicts $at"ered t"ere in Pioneer SAuare. %"at is t"e reason I &as t"ere and I &as &"ere I

beon$ed. On t"is #articuar Sunday &e &ere &atc"in$ t"e antics o2 t"e Savation /rmy t"e @ounteers o2 /merica t"eHoy Roers and t"e Industria 6orers o2 t"e 6ord. -ac" occu#ied a #osition on eac" o2 t"e 2our corners o2 t"e SAuareand com#etition &as een. /s soon as t"e /rmy band &oud start u# t"e @ounteers &oud "ave to tem#orariy "od u#t"eir street>meetin$ as one coud not "ear &"at &as bein$ said &"ie t"e band &as #ayin$. 6"en t"e /rmy band "adsto##ed #ayin$ and t"ey &ere nicey started on t"eir =testimony= meetin$ t"e @ounteers o2 /merica band &oud be$in

and t"is sienced t"e /rmy meetin$. %"e Hoy Roers "ad a &ind or$an and re$ardess o2 &"at t"e /rmy and t"e@ounteers did t"ey e#t #e$$in$ a&ay. On t"e 2ourt" corner t"e 6orers "ad a son$ o2 t"eir o&n so no matter &"at son$t"e /rmy or t"e @ounteers started to #ay t"e =&obbies= "ad a son$ to 2it t"e tune in t"eir =son$ boo.= I2 t"e /rmystarted to #ay =In t"e S&eet ye>and>ye= t"e =&obbies= &oud start sin$in$ =?ou' 9et Pie in t"e Sy 6"en ?ouDie.= It &as bedam to be sure but t"e main contest &as bet&een t"e /rmy and t"e @ounteers. -ac" &as #reac"in$ t"e=$os#e o2 8esus !"rist= and invitin$ =sinners= to =come to 8esus and "ave your sins &as"ed a&ay.= 6"ie t"ey &ere

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doin$ t"is t"e #eo#e &ere au$"in$ at t"e com#etition =2or sous.= 6"at a #ious s"am t"e &"oe t"in$ &as.6"en t"e o22erin$ &as taen u# t"e ca#tain &"o made t"e a##ea stated t"at =no one is ever turned a&ay 2rom t"e

/rmy= so tain$ "im at "is &ord I &ent u# to t"e Rescue Home o2 t"e /rmy a bit ater and ased t"em 2or somet"in$ toeat and some #ace to see#. / man caed Petersen a S&ede &as in c"ar$e o2 t"at "ome. He in2ormed me t"at t"ere &asnot"in$ t"e /rmy coud do 2or me. 6"en I recaed to "im t"e &ords s#oen on Pioneer SAuare earier in t"e day "isre#y &as to #ut "is 2oot in my stomac" and #us" me to t"e bottom o2 t"e stairs. %"is same /rmy o22icer &oud stand ont"e street corners and te t"e #eo#e "o& "e "ad been =saved= many years a$o &"ic" I "ave o2ten seen and "eard "im do.%"is &as !"ristianity in action.

/2ter t"is e+#erience I retraced my &ay bac to Pioneer SAuare;at east I coud sit do&n t"ere.6"ie I &as sittin$ t"ere my eye cau$"t a si$n on t"e ot"er side o2 t"e street =Pioneer Dru$ Store.= 9oin$ into t"e

dru$ store I said to t"e man &"o came to &ait on me =I'm a re$istered #"armacist I'm broe do&n and out. Do youno& &"ere I can $et a :obE= Siin$ me u# t"e dru$$ist said to me =?ou oo ie a man &it" $ood "ome surroundin$sand &"y you're on t"e bum I don't no&. Ho&ever I "ave a dru$ store &"ic" is cosed out in aard —man Auit and I'm&orin$ "ere. I2 you &ant to $o out t"ere and o#en u# t"e store I' $ive you G1(5.)) a mont".N %"is man's name &as /.M. Hoidae. /sin$ "im 2or a nice 2or street>car 2are I too t"e ey "e $ave me :um#ed on a street>car and &ent out toaard. %"e dru$>store &as on t"e corner o2 4 t" and 14t" .6. It &as caed t"e Oym#ic P"armacy. %"e andord &as aS&ede named Kacerson.

%"at evenin$ I o#ened u# t"e dru$ store and 2or severa mont"s &ored very "ard and &as doin$ a nice business.%"en Hoidae o22ered to se me t"e store and I bou$"t it &it" not"in$ to #ay do&n. / &ent &e unti one day &"iedo&n>to&n doin$ some buyin$ I dro##ed into t"e /berta !a2e a$ain. It &as a 2oo move but t"en a 2oo made t"e move.I "ave not seen t"e Oym#ic P"armacy 2rom t"at day to t"is. I never did $o bac a$ain and I understand Hoidae "ad totae it over. 6e it &as not very on$ be2ore Fran . Robinson &as do&n and out a$ain and at t"is #oint I reay be$an

to $ive u# "o#e. 6as t"is t"in$ caed =booe= $oin$ to $et me #ermanentyE I beieved it &as and beievin$ t"at I madeno attem#t to #ut on t"e braes. 0# to t"is time I "ad 2ou$"t t"is iAuor "abit &it" a t"e #o&er I "ad but evidenty t"at

#o&er &as not enou$". Di$ressin$ a$ain it &as not so very on$ since I &aed into t"e 6as"in$ton Mutua %rust andSavin$s an in t"at same city o2 Seatte and borro&ed G3*))) 2rom Dietric" Sc"mit. Rat"er s"oud I say t"rou$" Mr Sc"mit t"e ban made t"e oan. 6"at Dietric" &i say &"en "e reads t"is autobio$ra#"y I do not no&. I #robaby&oud not "ave been abe to $et t"irty>seven cents i2 "e "ad no&n &"at "e &i no& &"en t"is boo is reeased.

6ain$ do&n to t"e 2rei$"t s"eds in Seatte t"at evenin$ I :um#ed on t"e 2irst 2rei$"t train I sa& movin$. I did notno& &"ere it &as $oin$ nor did I care. /s on$ as I &as on t"e move I &as satis2ied 2or &"at di22erence did it maeany&ayE I &as useess and :ust a common drun. o one sus#ected t"e "eartac"es under t"ose s"abby cot"es. o oneever ne& t"e "ours t"e days t"e &ees t"e years s#ent in one untirin$ searc" 2or 9od and t"en to be "andica##ed byt"is cravin$ 2or iAuor. It &oud "ave do&ned 2ar better men t"an I am and as I &rite t"is autobio$ra#"y in a itte cabinon a no at Rocy Point Ore$on t"e marve to me is t"at I'm "ere at a. ot t"at I "urt anyone but myse2 2or I "ave

never been convicted o2 even a misdemeanour not even a tra22ic vioation. Ho& I esca#ed is beyond me.It so "a##ened t"at t"is 2rei$"t train &as $oin$ to S#oane via -ensbur$ and it &as at t"is itte city &e &ere t"ro&n

o22 t"e train at t"ree o'coc in t"e mornin$. I s"a never 2or$et t"at ride. 6e &ere in a car oaded &it" umber &it" aboutt&o 2eet 2rom t"e to# o2 t"e umber to t"e to# o2 t"e car. /t east t&enty>2ive "oboes &ere see#in$ on to# o2 t"at umber. Icoud not see# but t"e 2eo& :ust a"ead o2 me coud. -very so o2ten "e &oud stretc" in "is see# and "is "obnaied

boots &oud #ress into my "ead. It &as a very uncom2ortabe ride but at -ensbur$ t"e monotony &as broen &"en t"e=s"ac= started to t"ro& rocs in at us at t"e same time orderin$ us to =#ie o22.= 6e #ied o22 and t"ere I &as at t"reeo'coc in t"e mornin$ in -ensbur$ 6as"in$ton.

I &aed around t"e itte city and coud 2ind no #ace to see# so I made my &ay bac to t"e 2rei$"t yards. %"ere&as a bi$ #ie o2 sa&dust cose by and as it &as cod I du$ a bi$ "oe in t"at sa&dust covered myse2 u# &it" it and&ent to see#. Ima$ine t"e s"a#e I &as in t"e ne+t mornin$ sa&dust do&n my nec in my #ocets every&"ere in 2act. Is"oo o22 &"at I coud and made my &ay do&n>to&n miserabe beyond &ords. I did not ie t"is sort o2 i2e but &"atcoud I doE I &as "e#ess in t"e $ri# o2 some monster and I've o2ten sus#ected t"at #er"a#s I &as made to $o t"rou$"t"ese e+#eriences :ust to try me but I eave t"at to you.

/bout nine o'coc in t"e mornin$ I &ent into t"e ?oun$ Men's !"ristian /ssociation and t"ere met t"e secretary!"ester Raymond. I understand !"et is no& t"e $enera mana$er o2 a ar$e ban or savin$s and oan association in%acoma but I "ave not seen "im since. Some day I' oo "im u# i2 I ever "ave time 2or !"ester &as a $ood 2riend. He$ave me meas a #ace to stay and $ot me a :ob at t"e dru$ business in -ensbur$. I "ad some o2 t"e "a##iest days o2 myi2e in t"at itte city. %"ere "ad been itte o2 :oy or "a##iness in my i2e u# to t"at #oint and not too muc" since. %"erenever &i be too muc" 2or I do not see "a##iness 2or myse2. / I &ant to do no& is to 2ait"2uy revea to t"e &ord t"e

#riceess trut"s o2 9od &"ic" &i mean t"e brin$in$ in o2 t"e Day o2 9od. In t"at Day I s"a be su#remey "a##y butnot unti. I "ave a very &onder2u 2amiy and I am "a##y &it" t"em but underneat" &"at su#er2icia "a##iness t"ere maya##ear to be t"ere is a $reat burden. %"at burden &i not be i2ted unti t"is &ord no&s t"e 2uness o2 t"e Po&er o2 t"e

9reat S#irit 9od.!omin$ bac to -ensbur$ t"e man &"o $ave me t"e :ob &as O. 6. a &"o o&ned t"e Mode P"armacy. Iima$ine "e is dead no& as I am &ritin$ about t"e years 1,15 and 1,1. Mr a &as a very #ecuiar c"a# and a very rabidanti>!at"oic. Sometimes &"en a stran$er &oud enter t"e store Mr a &oud say to "im =?ou're not a ;;; !at"oic are youE= One occasion I distincty remember a man re#ied t"at "e &as a !at"oic and ased &"at "e &as$oin$ to do about it. Mr a re#ied =?ou $et to "e out o2 t"is dru$ store I don't &ant any !at"oics in it.=

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I don't no& "o& on$ Mr a &as in business t"ere a2ter I e2t but I do no& it &as not very on$ 2or t"e ModeP"armacy "as been cosed t"ese many years. It &as aso in -ensbur$ t"at I made 2riends &it" -rnie Sc"orman &"o "ada Fyin$ Mere motorcyce and Sunday a2ter Sunday &e &oud ride t"rou$" t"e country tain$ #ictures. %"ey &ere&onder2u days &"ie t"ey asted and I caed u#on -rnie t"e ot"er evenin$ in Portand &"ere "e "as been &it" t"e S"eOi !om#any 2or t"e #ast ei$"teen years &it" a $ood #osition. I a&ays ne& "e &as in Portand but &as unabe to ocate"im unti recenty &"en &e visited unti Auite ate ooed over t"e od sna#s"ots &e too to$et"er. 6e s#ent a veryen:oyabe evenin$. I "ad severa "undreds o2 #ictures too but &"en I e2t -ensbur$ and &ent to S#oane 6as"in$ton I

#a&ned bot" o2 my suitcases one o2 t"em containin$ t"ese #ictures 2or si+ doars. %"ey &ere $iven to a dru$$ist by t"ename o2 Sava$e to "od as security 2or t"e si+ doars I borro&ed. I2 by any c"ance Mr Sava$e sees t"is boo and reads&"at I am no& &ritin$ i2 "e sti "as t"ose t&o suitcases et "im communicate &it" me in Mosco& 2or I' be $ad to

return "im "is si+ doars &it" interest to $et t"ose #"otos and cot"es bac a$ain :ust 2or t"e sae o2 t"e memories t"ey brin$.Rat"er a stran$e circumstance s"oud be noted "ere. 6"ie I &as &orin$ &it" a in -ensbur$ t&o ot"er

dru$$ists &ere t"ere in anot"er dru$ store. One &as 8im 0rAu"art no& o&ner o2 t"e Pioneer Dru$ Store in ?aima andt"e ot"er &as ob Mc7iney &"o "as been &orin$ &it" 8im 0rAu"art in ?aima 2or neary t&enty>2ive years. It &as t"ePioneer Dru$ Store &"ic" I e2t to $o to Mosco& Ida"o to &rite my messa$e to t"e &ord and bot" 8im and ob ne&me in t"ose days o2 &"ic" I am no& &ritin$. O2 course every time I #ass t"rou$" ?aima no& I dro# in and see 8im andob and Mortand t"e mana$er. %"ey're $ood 2eo&s and t"ey "ad somet"in$ in -ensbur$ I did not "ave &"ie I "adsomet"in$ t"ey #robaby did not &ant. Ho&ever i2 I "ad t"e o##ortunity no& to dra& bac t"ese days and tae a c"anceon doin$ t"e &or I am no& doin$ I do not beieve I &oud &it"dra& one t"in$ t"at "a##ened. O2 course it &oud benice i2 I coud bot it a out;but I'm not so sure t"e Psyc"iana Movement &oud be in e+istence "ad my #at" t"rou$" i2e

been any di22erent so I s"a not &aste too many tears over &asted years. In s"ort I no& &"at I "ave done in t"e #ast

t"irteen years "as more t"an made u# 2or a t"e mistaes I "ave committed./not"er 2riends"i# I made in -ensbur$ &as &it" Pro2essor 7ooen one o2 t"e 2acuty at t"e -ensbur$ orma

Sc"oo. One day 7ooen came in to see me to try to se me some !"ristian Science. =Robbie I've :ust discovered t"e$reatest rei$ion in t"e &ord= "e be$an. =6"y I can #ut my "and on a red "ot stove and not 2ee it= "e continued. I don'tremember &"at I said to Pro2essor 7ooen but I do no& t"at neit"er 7ooen nor anyone ese can se me t"at sort o2 rei$ion. I2 one #uts "is "and on a red "ot stove t"e "and &i be burned and &"en one burns "is "and as a resut o2

#acin$ it on a red "ot stove t"at one 2ees it !"ristian Science not&it"standin$. Ho&ever t"e stran$e #art o2 my meetin$&it" 7ooen "a##ened ast year. I &as stayin$ 2or a 2e& days in Portand at t"e Portand Hote &"en I s#otted 7ooenacross t"e obby. o& you must remember t"at it &as at east t"irty>2ive years since I "ad seen "im. 6ain$ u# to "im I"ed out my "and and said =Ho& do you do Mr 7ooen;remember meE= He admitted t"at "e did not remember me soI :o$$ed "is memory. %"e t"in$ t"at astounded 7ooen &as t"e 2act t"at I coud $ive "im in detai many t"in$s &"ic""a##ened in -ensbur$ &"ic" "e "ad 2or$otten. 6e "ad a nice c"at and "e tod me t"at "e ne& o2 t"is &or o2 mine and

t"ou$"t it very 2ine;not Auite as 2ine as !"ristian Science o2 course 2or Pro2essor 7ooen is #ractisin$ t"at rei$ion inein$"am 6as"in$ton and "as been since "e e2t -ensbur$.

%"ese $ood times came to an end a too soon. / travein$ evan$eist came to -ensbur$ and some oca #reac"er It"in "is name &as ?a$er;a a#tist came to ca on me and invite me to attend t"is =reviva= service. y t"at time I &as$ettin$ #retty &e 2ed>u# on =rei$ion= and on everyone &"o #ro2essed =rei$ion= and I &as sce#tica. I "ad seen a ot o2 rei$ious #ro2essors but I "ad not seen one !at"oic or Protestant &"o coud $ive me any evidence t"at "e ne& t"esi$"test t"in$ about 9od. I "ad istened to a t"eir caims and I "ad tried as 2e& "ave ever tried to 2ind t"e actua Po&er o2 9od yet I "ad been mised and deuded a aon$ t"e ine. %"is evan$eist "o&ever &as a "ot one. I re2used to $o to"is meetin$s but "e caed on me at t"e Mode P"armacy and &anted me to $o into t"e #rescri#tion room &it" "im and

#ray. / #rescri#tion room is 2or t"e 2iin$ o2 #rescri#tions and O. 6. a &as not #ayin$ me 2or "odin$ #rayer>meetin$sin "is #rescri#tion room so naturay I re2used eit"er to #ray or to be #rayed 2or es#eciay not by t"is 2anatic.

%"e ne+t Sunday a2ternoon "e &as #reac"in$ on t"e ste#s o2 t"e court>"ouse and -rnie Sc"orman and I "a##ened to be #assin$ by. He s#otted me and #ointin$ "is 2in$er at me said =%"ere $oes a youn$ man &"o ou$"t to be in t"e serviceo2 t"e <ord. Instead o2 t"at "e is desecratin$ t"e <ord's Day by tain$ #ictures instead o2 $oin$ to c"urc".= O2 courseeveryone in t"e cro&d turned and ooed at me and somet"in$ inside o2 me &"ic" I t"ou$"t asee# a&aened. %"at ni$"tI &as as drun as a ord and on my &ay to S#oane 6as"in$ton. Friends :ob not"in$ mattered &"en t"e ur$e to drin came over me. It &as irresistibe but today I can "ave t"e stu22 a around me and never even oo at it. I remember a 2e&years a$o I &as main$ a radio address and "ad ne$ected to coo o22 be2ore eavin$ t"e studio. I :um#ed into my o#en car and drove neary one "undred mies t"at ni$"t and t"e ne+t day I &as about dead. %"e attendin$ #"ysician said t"e onyt"in$ t"at coud save me &as &"isey and I too t&o tabes#oons every t"ree "ours. %"ere "as been in my "ome ever since t"at day "a2 a Auart botte o2 Scotc" &"isey. I t"re& it a&ay t"e ot"er day. %"is :ust $oes to s"o& "o& absouteyand com#etey t"is desire e2t me &"en I 2ound 9od or &"en I at on$ ast $ot o22 t"e =c"urc"= trai and onto t"e trai att"e end o2 &"ic" ies 9od.

I do not &ant to &eary my readers by reatin$ too many o2 t"ese e+#eriences. I "ave $iven you enou$" to s"o& t"atFran . Robinson in t"ose days &as :ust about as useess a #iece o2 "umanity as ever ived. I must reate :ust one moreincident and t"en I s"a tae you u# anot"er and even more remarabe trai t"an t"e one I "ave ed you u# so 2ar. Mytraves "ad taen me to San Francisco t"inin$ I &oud $et a :ob in some dru$ store and &or unti t"e iAuor ur$e cameto me a$ain. One mornin$ I &as a&aened by t"e bo&in$ o2 a bu$e. 6as I dreamin$ or did I reay "ear a bu$e

bo&in$E %"en I turned over and &ent to see# a$ain but t"is =beauty see#= did not ast on$ be2ore I 2ound myse2 yin$

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on t"e 2oor &it" a ser$eant 2rom t"e %"irty>First In2antry standin$ over me and asin$ me =6"oine do you t"in youare;9enera Pers"in$E=

<ooin$ around I said to t"is c"a# =6e &"ere am I and &"at is a t"isE= I &as in2ormed t"at I &as in t"e 0nitedStates /rmy and on t"is #articuar mornin$ I &as in a barrac room on /n$e Isand. %"ere &as no mistae about it at aI &as in t"e /rmy and I ater discovered I "ad enisted 2or service in t"e P"ii##ine Isands. I "ave never "ad t"e 2aintestrecoection o2 :oinin$ t"e /rmy and I ne& not"in$ about it unti t"e ne+t mornin$. It ater turned out t"at I "ad $ivenanot"er name tod t"em t"e &idest stories about &"o I &as and &"en s"o&n a co#y o2 t"e enistment record some yearsater I &as sta$$ered 2or I "ave to be #retty bad &"en I don't no& &"at's $oin$ on. I do not beieve men in t"atcondition s"oud be enisted and I do not beieve t"ey are today. ut t"ey certainy &ere t"en.

It &as Auite a s"oc to 2ind myse2 in t"e /rmy as I remembered t"e avy e+#erience and did not see "o& t"ey coud

tae me into t"e /rmy &"en t"e avy "ad et me $o as a =c"ronic aco"oic.= Ho&ever in due time I &as on t"e 0nitedStates /rmy %rans#ort S"eridan bound 2or Mania. On arrivin$ t"ere I &as trans2erred to t"e Hos#ita !or#s because I&as a re$istered #"armacist and 2rom Mania &as sent to atan$as. One day one o2 t"e medica o22icers &"o "ad taen avery vioent disie to me ordered me to t"e sur$ery to "ave a my teet" #ued out. I did not need any teet" #ued 2or none o2 t"em &ere decayed and none needed treatment. evert"eess I &as ordered to t"e sur$ery to "ave =a "is teet"

#ued out.= I re2used. I s"oud "ave re2used under any circumstances and re$ardess o2 &"at t"e cost mi$"t be. For t"atorder &as &ron$. It &as $iven t"rou$" animosity and it &as not a #ro#er order. 6"o &as a buc #rivate to dis#ute a!a#tain and &"at coud I do but re2useE

I re#orted to t"e sur$ery and t"ere a&aitin$ me &as t"e !a#tain in Auestion t"e "os#ita ste&ard and t&o assistants.=9et on t"at o#eratin$ tabe= ordered t"e !a#tain.=6"at 2or sirE= I ased.=%o $et a your teet" #ued outN t"e !a#tain re#ied. He t"en ased me i2 I re2used to $et on t"e tabe.

I re#ied =For t"at #ur#ose yes sir I re2use.=%"e Ste&ard and t"e assistants &ere t"en ordered by t"e !a#tain to 2orciby #ut me on t"e tabe. %"en &"en t"ey

attem#ted to do t"is t"ey discovered t"ey "ad taced a &idcat. 0ndoubtedy t"ey coud "ave subdued me in time butt"e !a#tain s"ortened t"e 2i$"t by s"outin$ =%ae "im to t"e $uard "ouse.=

In due time a $enera court>martia &as "ed and I &as 2ound =$uity= o2 t"e miitary o22ence Bnot criminaC o2 &i2udisobedience o2 orders.= O2 course &it" t"e !a#tain as a &itness a$ainst me it did not tae on$ 2or t"at verdict to comein. /t an army court>martia one is #rovided &it" an =advocate= but it is 2ar di22erent 2rom civi or crimina a& 2or t"e&ord o2 an o22icer overrues t"e &ord o2 a #rivate. %"e #rivate may be tein$ t"e trut" and t"e o22icer may be yin$ butt"e o22icer &i be beieved because o2 "is ran and t"e #oor #rivate is out o2 uc in suc" cases. Fortunatey suc" casesdo not "a##en every day.

%"ere are t&o si$ni2icant t"in$s &"ic" s"oud be noted "ere. One is t"at t"e ori$ina sentence recommended &asei$"teen mont"s in a disci#inary barracs and a =ic>out.= %"is &as recommended but it &as not a##roved in

6as"in$ton It &as cut to si+ mont"s and t"is &as about u# &"ie I &as in t"e $uard "ouse in atan$as. %"e secondsi$ni2icant t"in$ is t"at be2ore t"at sentence &as "a2 served I &as o22ered a 2u #ardon a c"ance to be restored to dutyand t"e record s&e#t cean. I re2used t"em a. 6"y t"at o22er &as made I do not no& 2or to my no&ed$e suc" ano22er "as never been made under simiar circumstances to anyone. Per"a#s I s"oud not "ave re2used it. I do not no&.ut I do no& t"at under simiar circumstances I &oud do t"e very same t"in$ a$ain. o one &i #u my teet" i2 t"ey donot need #uin$. My dentist &i te you "e "as a "ard time to #u t"em even &"en t"ey do need #uin$.

My reaction to t"is o22er to be restored to duty &it" t"e sate &i#ed cean &as t"is;I &as $uity o2 no &ron$. I &asde2endin$ my in"erent ri$"ts a$ainst a rotten attac on t"ose ri$"ts by one &"o "ad t"e aut"ority to e$ay mae t"eattac. %"ere2ore i2 I "ad been 2ound $uity o2 =&i2u disobedience o2 orders= I &as #er2ecty &iin$ to #ay t"e #enaty.I did not as 2or any Auarter 2rom anyone. I do not ever as 2or Auarter. / I as 2or is 2air #ay. I &i 2i$"t an in:ustice tot"e deat" but I &i never as 2avours 2rom anyone. In t"is case t"e !a#tain &as uttery &ron$. He s&ore be2ore t"e9.!.M. t"at my teet" needed #uin$. %"at &as about t"irty years a$o i2 I remember correcty and I "ave "a2 o2 t"oseteet" yet and "ad a o2 t"em unti ast year &"ic" is #roo2 enou$".

o& et me te you "o& and &"en I too my ast drin and t"at &i cose Part One o2 t"is autobio$ra#"y. 6"en I&as disc"ar$ed 2rom t"e /rmy t"ey $ave me a 2ive>doar bi and a suit o2 cot"es. %"at &as a. %ain$ t"e 2ive doars I&aed u# Maret Street in San Francisco and into a saoon in &"ic" I "ad s#ent many doars. /s soon as I entered t"e

bartender 8immy 6isnom said =6e 2or t"e ove o2 Pete "ere's t"e #iano #ayer. 6"ere in t"e Sam Hi "ave you beenE !ome on and I' set u# t"e drins on t"e "ouse.=

=O.7. 8im $ive me a $ass o2 mi= I re#ied.He #oed ots o2 2un at t"e mi but "e bou$"t it :ust t"e same and t"at is t"e ast drin I "ave ever taen.6"y I ased 2or mi I do not no&. Ho& nor &"y t"e desire 2or beer e2t me I do not no& eit"er. I no& t"at 2rom

t"at moment on my i2e &as so&y c"an$ed. ?ou coud not buy me to tae a drin. I &as a 2i$"t don't t"in it &as notand I &aed a t"at ni$"t u# Mission Street and do&n t"e #eninsua to San 8ose &"ere I sneaed into a ivery barn &it"

t"e 2ive doars sti in my #ocet. %"e rest o2 t"e story beon$s in Part %&o.

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Part Two

Chapter OneReha((tat(on

%O R-H/I<I%/%- SO M/? 6/S%-D ?-/RS 6/S O% -/S? yet I taced t"e :ob &it" a determination&"ic" meant business. %"ere &oud be no more 2ooin$ around 2rom t"is #oint on. I2 my c"id"ood dreams &ere not tocome true i2 I coud not 2ind 9od t"en I &oud do t"e best I coud &it"out 9od. Maybe I &as a =ost sou.= More t"anone evan$eist tod me t"at and I sti "ear it every day even yet. My mai a&ays brin$s in at east one etter a day &"ic"tes me to =2ee 2rom t"e &rat" to come= or to =sto# tram#in$ under2oot t"e bood o2 t"e amb= or some ot"er #"raseeAuay as 2oois". I remember a 2e& years a$o :ust be2ore "is deat" iy Sunday &rote me a etter 2rom !anton O"io

&"ere "e &as "odin$ a =cam#ai$n 2or 9od and sous= as "e #ut it. In "is etter "e said in #art =2or 9od's sae sto#drivin$ men and &omen out o2 t"e 7in$dom o2 9od;:ust as 2ast as I save t"em you drive t"em a&ay.= %"e ast time I"eard iy Sunday "e &as #reac"in$ in t"e 6"ite %em#e a#tist c"urc" in Portand to &"ic" c"urc" I "ave madere2erence ese&"ere. Sunday "ad cambered onto t"e to# o2 a tabe and &as #reac"in$ 2rom t"ere. His seeves &ere roedu# "is coat &as o22 and i2 I ever sa& a $ood t"eatrica #er2ormance t"at &as it. In t"e midst o2 "is "aran$ue a baby

be$an to cry. %"is bot"ered Sunday Auite a bit so sto##in$ "is sermon "e ased =Is t"ere a co&#unc"er in t"e "ouseE=Someone raised "is "and si$ni2yin$ t"at "e &as a co&#unc"er. =%"en I &is" you &oud come and assoo t"is "ei2er andtae "er out o2 t"e "ouse= said Sunday audin$ to t"e mot"er o2 t"e cryin$ baby.

rep#ied to unda" that disputed his c#aims to 7#eadin$ men and !omen into the >in$dom o% od7 and o%%ered to meet him in pub#icdebate either in Canton or an" other cit" he named. The o%%er !as not accepted, nor has unda" corresponded !ith me %rom that da" on. sa! a #ist recent#" o% the unda" earnin$s co&erin$ his ministr" sa! a#so his statement as to ho! man" sou#s he had #ed into 7the >in$dom7in his t!ent"-%i&e "ears ministr". % he did, and i% each 7sou#7 secured one other 7sou#7 and brou$ht it into the kin$dom, and i% it took one "ear

to !in that other 7sou#,7 the !a" %i$ured it out, this !or#d !ou#d ha&e been 7sa&ed7 %i%teen times o&er. ure#" it is not askin$ too much to askone !ho has %ound od to !in one more, e&en i% it takes a "ear to do it, is it@ The s"chiana 0o&ement is not thirteen "ears o#d. t has nopreachers nor churches. ts operations are entire#" b" mai#, and its members are secured b" ad&ertisin$. ne man a#one, ho!e&er, has beenab#e to brin$ more than E;<,<<< peop#e to a kno!#ed$e o% the True i$ht. ure#" unda"8s con&erts shou#d ha&e been ab#e to $et one each"ear.

In cosin$ t"e 2irst #art o2 t"is boo I e2t you in San 8ose !ai2ornia. I "ad se#t t"at ni$"t B&it"out a drinC in aivery barn. In t"e mornin$ t"e #ro#rietor a man named Hi raed me out o2 t"e "ay and be$an a series o2 Auestions. Hesaid "e ied my oos and did not see &"y a =2ine "andsome>ooin$ youn$ man ie you are= s"oud be out o2 &or. Iased "im i2 "e ne& o2 any &or and a2ter t"inin$ a &"ie "e said =?es I beieve I no& &"ere you can $et a :ob. Itisn't muc" but it's &or and it's "onest &or.= I tod "im to #ut me in touc" &it" t"e man &"o "ad t"e &or. 9oin$ to t"e

#"one "e caed u# a man by t"e name o2 en Davis. en &anted to 2ind a man and "e &oud be in t"e ivery barn t"ata2ternoon;ee# me t"ere. en came and I "ired out to "im 2or 2ive doars a mont" &it" room and board. eit"er o2 t"e

atter &ere &ort" "avin$ but I too t"e :ob even &"en I ne& &"at it &as.en Davis &as in t"e dead "orse business. 6"enever a "orse &oud die en &oud $o out $ive t"e o&ner 2ive

doars 2or t"e "orse and "au it to a $ue 2actory in San Francisco. In t"e case o2 od =na$s= t"at t"ou$" sti ivin$ coudnot stand u# en &oud $ive t"em Bt"e o&nersC 2rom 2ive to seven doars and 2i2ty cents 2or t"em. He "ad a #asture

be"ind "is =2arm= and into t"is #asture &ent t"ese od =dead and dyin$ na$s.= 6"en "e "ad enou$" to mae u# a caroad"e &oud tie t"em to$et"er t"e tai o2 one to t"e "ater o2 anot"er and it &oud be my :ob to drive t"em into Mi#itas :usta 2e& mies 2rom San 8ose. %"ere I &as to oad t"em into a bo+ car and accom#any t"e oad o2 od na$s to Petauma&"ere t"ey &oud be c"o##ed u# 2or c"icen 2eed. 0suay by tain$ it very so&y &e $ot t"e na$s into t"e bo+ car. /tPetauma "o&ever it &as a di22erent :ob to $et t"em out. %"is &as my :ob;coectin$ dead "orses and "auin$ t"em to aSan Francisco $ue 2actory and s"i##in$ dyin$ na$s to Petauma. -very mont" I received 2ive doars 2or t"is &or. Istayed &it" Mr Davis Auite a &"ie. I remember &"en I e2t I "ad t"irty>2ive doars. %"e reason $iven 2or my disc"ar$e

&as t"at "orses &ere not dyin$ 2ast enou$";as $ood a reason as any 2or I &as very "a##y to eave t"at #ace. I drive #astit occasionay &"enever I am near San 8ose but I never sto# to ca at"ou$" t"e name o2 Davis is sti on t"e mai bo+.Takin$ m" thirt"-%i&e do##ars, boarded a train %or an Francisco. ne&er paid the s#i$htest attention to sa#oons. !as not interested in

them. 6hat !as a%ter !as another (ob. 0urra" and +ead" !ere then, and sti## are, the #eadin$ emp#o"ment a$enc" in an Francisco, sothere hied m"se#%. stood out in %ront o% the p#ace %or se&era# hours, !atchin$ the ne! (obs stuck on the board in %ront. There are usua##"scores o% peop#e standin$ in %ront o% 0urra" and +ead"8s. t is one o% an Francisco8s o#dest #andmarks. 0ost o% the (obs !ere out in the!oods, and that, thou$ht, !as !here shou#d be %or at #east a "ear. !anted to think. !anted to $et this bi$ ph"sica# %rame o% mine in thebest o% condition, and the !oods certain#" !ou#d do that. The on#" troub#e !as—!hat cou#d do@ n a #itt#e !hi#e the 7artist7 !rote on the hu$eb#ackboard, "Whistle punk wanted—fifty and found."

7s there a !hist#e-punk in the cro!d,7 he asked.76hat8s a !hist#e-punk@7 asked him. *e to#d me that a !hist#e-punk !as a bo" or man !ho pu##ed the !hist#e cord !hich

communicated !ith the donke" en$ine in #o$$in$ operations. 7Can "ou do that@7 said, 7% course, can do that,7 and he hired me.

%"e :ob &as at t"e cam# o2 t"e Peican ay <umber !om#any near 7amat" Fas. y a stran$e coincidence I am&ritin$ t"is autobio$ra#"y at t"e 2oot o2 Peican Mountain on &"ic" =I #uned &"iste= neary t&enty>seven years a$o.%"e #resident o2 t"e Peican ay <umber !om#any is Mr H. D. Mortensen &"o &as aso #resident at t"at time. I &asentertained in "is "ome ast year. He is a student o2 mine. It is stran$e "o& t"in$s &or out in t"is c"eAuered i2e o2 mine.

%"ose days &"en you "ired out at a distance t"e com#any &oud advance t"e rairoad 2are. %"is amount cou#ed

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&it" t"e Murray and Ready commission &oud be e#t 2rom your #ay. %"at evenin$ I &as on a train 2or 7amat" Fas.Here is anot"er stran$e coincidence—t"e man &"o "ad t"e contract to "au t"e men 2rom 7amat" Fas to Rocy Pointt"e man &"o mana$es Rocy Point is no& my brot"er>in>a& /rt <eavitt. In due time I arrived "ere at Rocy Point and&as taen u# a s&itc"bac o$$in$ rairoad to t"e !am# umber One o2 t"e Peican ay <umber !om#any. <itte did Idream &"en I &ent to &or =#unin$ &"iste= t"ose on$ years a$o t"at some day as eader o2 t"e ei$"t" ar$est rei$ionin /merica I s"oud be "ere at t"is same Rocy Point &ritin$ an autobio$ra#"y 2or t"e &ord to read. Someone oncesaid =9od moves in a mysterious &ay His &onders to #er2orm.= %"at is t"e &ay t"e S#irit &"ic" is 9od moved in mycase. ot"in$ ess t"an a divine $uidance coud "ave brou$"t me sa2ey to t"e #ace I occu#y in t"e rei$ious ream o2 today.

%"at &as a #ro2itabe season s#ent on t"e mountain :ust at my bac. I came out o2 t"ose &oods a rea man. @ery 2e&

coud "ave t"ro&n me. My musces stood out ie bands and I &as #roud o2 t"em. I soon $raduated 2rom =&"iste>#un=to =c"oer>sin$er= &"ic" :ob consists o2 "ooin$ a ar$e stee cabe around t"e end o2 t"e 2aen o$ and t"en $ivin$ t"esi$na to t"e =&"iste>#un= &"o in turn &"istes to t"e en$ineer to #u t"e o$ 2rom t"e &oods to t"e sid&ay. I savedevery nice I made t"ose days and &"en t"e season &as over I did not oa2 around s#endin$ &"at money I "ad saved. I$ot anot"er :ob #iin$ $reen umber. I2 my readers no& &"at sort o2 a :ob #iin$ $reen umber is t"ey no& t"at t"e onymen &"o can stand u# under it are S&edes. ?et I coud #ie more $reen umber and do it 2aster t"an any S&ede &e "adon t"e :ob. I &as in t"e =#in= o2 #"ysica condition.

S"orty a2ter t"at I &aed into t"e Star Dru$ Store in 7amat" Fas to mae a 2e& #urc"ases —toot"#aste and t"in$sie t"at. I entered into conversation &it" a very 2ine a##earin$ cer t"ere Fran -vans by name. I met "im a$ain yearsater in Miami /riona. My s"irt &as o#en at t"e nec and my seeves &ere roed above my ebo&s and reay I &as a

bit #roud o2 my si+ 2eet. =oy I'd "ate to tan$e &it" you= said Fran -vans. One remar ed to anot"er and 2inay I tod-vans I &as a re$istered #"armacist. I e+#ained t"at I ied &or in t"e &oods but I mi$"t consider $oin$ bac to t"e

dru$ business i2 a $ood :ob o#ened u#. Fran -vans neary s"oo my "and o22. =6e've been tryin$ 2or mont"s to $et a$ood man "ere= "e said. =6ait unti I ca !ar Pat" t"e o&ner o2 t"e store.= Pat" came do&n and met me. I &ent outand bou$"t some =store>cot"es= and t"e ne+t day I &as bac in t"e dru$ business a$ain. It 2et $ood. My re"abiitation&as comin$ aon$ 2ine &it" never t"e si$"test desire 2or beer.

S"orty a2ter t"is Doctor Hunt o2 7amat" Fas buit a "os#ita. He mentioned to me t"at "e &anted a #"armacy int"e "os#ita. I "ad no money 2or #"armacies or anyt"in$ ese at t"at time but I interested t"e Reverend -. P. <a&renceB&"o by t"e &ay ater married Mrs Robinson and meC and "e "ad some money. I o#ened u# t"e 6arren Hunt Hos#itaP"armacy. <ater Hunt too t"e store over #ayin$ <a&rence &"at &as due "im. Recenty I &as in a #arty o2 Re#ubicans&"o drove %"omas -. De&ey 2rom oise Ida"o to !ad&e &"ere a ar$e banAuet &as $iven t"e #residentia candidate.Sittin$ in t"e seat ne+t to me &as t"e Reverend -. P. <a&rence. 6e c"atted about od times and I s"a see "im a$ain assoon as I "ave time.

It &as about t"is time t"at I met t"e ady &"o is no& Mrs Fran . Robinson. Severa youn$ 2os o2 7amat" Fas

boarded &it" a Mrs Rutenic &"ose "ome &as and sti is a 2e& bocs 2rom t"e Star Dru$ Store in &"ic" I &ored.ein$ si+ 2eet ta and a 2ine #"ysica s#ecimen I "ad no troube &"atsoever in securin$ attention 2rom t"e adies in t"e

boardin$ "ouse. <adies &ere 2ar 2rom my mind t"ose days 2or I "ad more im#ortant &or to do. Finay in dis$ust one o2 t"e adies caed u# Pear <eavitt one Sunday a2ternoon and in2ormed "er t"at s"e &as $oin$ to brin$ do&n a $ood>ooin$ 2eo& 2or "er to meet. Pear <eavitt ans&ered t"at s"e &as not interested in youn$ men. S"e ony t"ou$"t t"at2or it too but t"ree meetin$s 2or us bot" to 2a vioenty in ove and &e &ere married &it"in a very 2e& &ees. %"at &asone mistae I did not mae. It "as been t"e $ood :ud$ement and t"e indy "e# o2 my $ood &i2e &"ic" "as been a boonmany times. %"ere are 2e& moves I mae today about &"ic" s"e is not consuted and "er $ood :ud$ement &"ic" isinstantaneous is sedom &ron$.

/2ter t"e 6arren Hunt Hos#ita "ad taen over t"e #"armacy I too a !ivi Service e+amination 2or #"armacist int"e 0nited States @eterans' ureau at %ucson /riona and &ent 2rom 7amat" Fas to t"at /riona city soon a2ter. /2redour 2irst>born came to us in %ucson. %"e @eterans' ureau o22ices &ere over Stein2eds store and some "a##y days &ere"ad t"ere. Fran S. Finey t"e man res#onsibe 2or t"e a##ointment and a very cose 2riend o2 mine recenty #assed a&aydurin$ an o#eration in t"e <etterman 9enera Hos#ita in t"e Presidio in San Francisco. I "ave a&ays missed Finey.

%"e ureau ran about a year and &as ordered cosed. %"ere &as some scanda connected &it" t"e ureau in6as"in$ton and I'm $iven to understand t"at t"e bi$ c"ie2 bac east &as sent to t"e #enitentiary 2or $ra2t. !ertainy t"ere&as some sort o2 $ra2t $oin$ on 2or &"en I ordered t"e initia stoc o2 dru$s 2or t"e #"armacy &"en t"e s"i#ment arrivedit contained about t"ree times as muc" as I "ad ordered and in addition to t"e stoc o2 dru$s t"ere &ere t"ree e+#ensivemicrosco#es. 6"at t"ey t"ou$"t I &oud do &it" t"ree microsco#es I do not no&. /2ter t"e ureau &as cosed Isecured a :ob &it" %. -d. <itt a #rominent dru$$ist in %ucson and s"orty a2ter t"at I &ent bac to <os /n$ees &"ere I&ored 2or Horton and !onverse t"e eadin$ c"ain o2 #rescri#tion stores &it" "eadAuarters in t"e Paci2ic Mutuauidin$. %&o c"a#s &ored in t"at store &it" me Ra#" ort"ru# and -ddie Riebsame. Riebsame &as Auite a boy;oneo2 t"e od time ine o2 #rescri#tion men and at t"e same time a very 2ine c"a#. Rieb used to coo "is meas in t"e

#"armacy and t"ese meas usuay consisted o2 si+ boied e$$s avis"y basted &it" butter sat and #e##er. He &oud eatt"e &"oe si+ e$$s and t"en te us "e &as "un$ry.I s"a "ave to #ass over t"e detais o2 our 2e& years in <os /n$ees 2or i2 I #ut t"em a in t"is boo it &i be too

ar$e. %"ere are more interestin$ "a##enin$s to reate;"a##enin$s &"ic" today are o2 internationa im#ort in t"erei$ious ream and "a##enin$s &"ic" &i ere on$ brin$ to t"e "uman race t"e actua trut"s o2 9od. I am t"ere2oreim#atient to te you o2 t"e ince#tion o2 t"e Movement I no& "ead. I am aso im#atient to te you t"e $ood ne&s o2 t"e

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com#ete iberation bot" o2 body and sou &"ic" is 2or you.t !as at ;<< aure# A&enue in 4orth *o##"!ood that made the %ina# decision to cut comp#ete#" #oose %rom a## %orms o% re#i$ion as kne!

re#i$ion to be. ne unda" mornin$ !as in a beauti%u# 0ethodist church on 6i#shire ou#e&ard. The structure must ha&e cost a ?uarter o% ami##ion do##ars. counted e)act#" t!ent"-si) peop#e in that church. sat throu$h the sermon, and a%ter it !as o&er, made up m" mind that this!or#d needs somethin$ %ar di%%erent %rom the re#i$ious hod$e-pod$e that minister handed out that beauti%u# unda" mornin$. !as (ust asan)ious to %ind od as had e&er been, but had despaired comp#ete#" o% e&er %indin$ out an"thin$ about od throu$h church or$anisations. kne! their messa$e b" heart. had tried their %ormu#a a doen times. It did not work. t ma" !ork %or others, but it did not !ork %or me, andnothin$ #ess than an actua# e)perience o% the o!er kne! must be od !ou#d satis%" me.

I &as $rieved and some&"at aarmed over t"e &"oe #icture 2or u# to t"at time t"e ony or$anisation caimin$ tono& anyt"in$ about 9od &as t"e !"ristian c"urc". ot 2indin$ any o2 9od t"ere and no&in$ t"at 9od coud be 2oundI be$an to be a bit des#erate. %"an 9od I "ad t"e coura$e to t"ro& a&ay and disbeieve everyt"in$ t"e c"urc" "ad todme about 9od. I &as aone one Sunday in our itte "ome on <aure /venue &"en I made t"e decision &"ic" &i mean somuc" to t"is &ord and to 2uture $enerations. /s usua I &as t"inin$ o2 9od and t"in$s #ertainin$ to 9od. I ne& I "ad2aied to 2ind 9od and I aso ne& t"at I &oud continue t"e searc" 2or 9od as on$ as I ived. %"e troube &as t"at I didnot no& &"ere to $o 2or 9od outside o2 t"e c"urc" and "avin$ uttery 2aied to 2ind t"e 2irst t"in$ about 9od in t"atc"urc" &"ere coud I ooE

I decided t"ere2ore to see i2 I coud not 2ind 9od by some ot"er met"od. o one coud "ave convinced me t"at 9oddid not e+ist and no one coud convince me t"at t"e c"urc" ne& anyt"in$ at a about 9od. %"ose t&o t"in$s I &as sureo2. %"is od ="e>2ire= doctrine e#t cro##in$ u# in my mind and I &as a bit a2raid to deny &"at t"e c"urc" tau$"t 2or 2ear o2 =osin$ my sou= and andin$ u# in ="e>2ire= 2or t"at is t"e teac"in$ o2 t"e !"ristian c"urc". I do not beievet"ere are 2ive "undred !"ristians in t"e 0nited States &"o actuay beieve t"at but it is t"e teac"in$ o2 t"e !"ristianc"urc" nevert"eess. Had it not been 2or t"at teac"in$ and t"e 2ear it instied into "uman minds t"rou$" t"e dar a$es o2

t"e rei$ious #ast t"ere &oud be no !"ristian c"urc" today. %"ere &oud be no need 2or it. I2 man is not a ost sou and i2 man is not doomed to "e &"ere is t"e need 2or t"e =savation= o2 t"e c"urc"E/s I stood t"ere in my room distressed beyond measure I i2ted my eyes to 9od and said =O" 9od i2 I "ave to $o

to "e I' $o &it" t"e consciousness t"at I &ent t"ere earnesty tryin$ to 2ind you 9od.= /nd t"en a remarabe t"in$"a##ened. Instead o2 2eein$ condemned 2or denyin$ t"at t"e c"urc" no&s anyt"in$ at a about 9od t"ere came to me a2eein$ o2 &onder2u #eace and rest. Stran$e;"ere I s"oud 2ee des#erate 2or "ad I not taen t"e stand t"at t"e c"urc"no&s not"in$ &"atsoever about 9odE I "ad but instead o2 t"at con2ession brin$in$ condemnation it brou$"t in2inite

#eace. /t ast I ne& I &as on t"e ri$"t trac. I ne& t"at 9od as t"at 9reat S#irit must e+ist is not to be 2ound inanyt"in$ t"e c"urc" teac"es. 9raduay I &as $oin$ bac to t"e 9od o2 my c"id"ood. /s I t"re& overboard t"e c"urc"story o2 /dam and -ve t"e 2a o2 man t"e destruction o2 man by a 2ood because o2 "is sin t"e miracuous birt" andconce#tion o2 8esus !"rist t"e atonement t"e resurrection etc. I be$an 2or t"e 2irst time in my i2e to e+#erience t"e2reedom and t"e #eace &"ic" I instinctivey ne& &as 2rom 9od.

%"e ony t"in$ I "ad been abe to $et 2rom t"e c"urc" &as t"eory con:ecture doubt and t"e not satis2yin$ assurancet"at i2 I ived as &e as I ne& "o& to ive and i2 I beieved its creeds and do$mas everyt"in$ &oud be a ri$"t;Is"oud no& 9od u# t"ere amon$ t"e an$es &it" t"eir "ar#s and t"eir streets o2 $od. My name certainy &oud be 2oundu# t"ere in t"e bi$ boo i2 I :oined some c"urc" or$anisation and did t"e best I coud do by beievin$ t"at a certainc"aracter true or traditiona &as 9od /mi$"ty. %"at is a t"e !"ristian c"urc" ever ased me to beieve. %"ey &antedme to mae #ubic con2ession t"at t"is c"aracter 8esus !"rist true or traditiona &as 9od /mi$"ty.

I did not no& &"et"er 8esus !"rist &as 9od /mi$"ty or not neit"er did I care. I &anted to no& t"e Po&er o2 t"e$reat S#irit 9od. I &as not interested in any =son= 9od mi$"t "ave "ad nor dau$"ter 2or t"at matter and as 2ar as

beievin$ t"at 8esus !"rist &as 9od I s"oud "ave to be s"o&n #roo2 o2 t"at. %"e c"urc" itse2 I ne& "ad absoutey no #roo2 o2 t"is stran$e t"in$ it ased me to beieve. %"ere2ore "o& &as I to no& &"et"er 8esus !"rist &as 9od /mi$"tyor notE / rei$ions are not"in$ more t"an socia or$anisations &"ic" say t"ey beieve t"at a certain c"aracter &"o iveda$es a$o &as 9od /mi$"ty. %"e name o2 t"e rei$ion de#ends u#on t"e name o2 t"e c"aracter &"o &as su##osed to be

9od /mi$"ty. /s 2ar as actuay no&in$ about 9od and as 2ar as bein$ abe to #rove t"at t"is c"aracter &"o ived or did not ive many a$es a$o &as 9od no rei$ion can do t"at.

<et me iustrate &"at I mean. %"e !"ristian rei$ion is caed =!"ristian= because it beieves t"at !"rist a$es a$o&as /mi$"ty 9od in #erson. Miions o2 !"ristians say t"at t"ey beieve t"at. %"ere are more miions &"o beieve t"atanot"er c"aracter o2 anot"er name &as 9od /mi$"ty. %"e Hindoos "ad every 2undamenta o2 t"e !"ristian story and "adit 2i2teen "undred years be2ore t"e !"ristian "ad it and t"ey caim t"at 8esus !"ris"na and not 8esus !"rist &as 9od/mi$"ty. %"ere are ot"er miions &"o beieve t"at Mo"ammed &as 9od /mi$"ty. %"ere are ot"er miions o2 2oo&erso2 a doen systems o2 rei$ion outside o2 t"e !"ristian rei$ion and t"ey a beieve t"at some ot"er c"aracter &as 9od/mi$"ty. It is Auite evident t"ere2ore t"at a rei$ion as &e "ave it today is a con$re$ation o2 #eo#e &"o beieve t"att"eir =deity= &as /mi$"ty 9od. ot a sin$e one o2 t"em can #rove t"eir caims. 9od /mi$"ty does not a##ear in t"e

#icture at a 2or t"e record o2 eac" rei$ious structure very #ainy s"o&s t"at t"ey no& absoutey not"in$ about t"ePo&er o2 t"e 9reat S#irit>9od. / t"ey beieve and a t"ey caim to no& is t"at a certain man &"o may "ave ived and&"o may not "ave ived &as 9od /mi$"ty. %"ere is rei$ion as &e "ave it today.

n the Christian re#i$ion, e&er"thin$ hin$es around esus Christ. n the *indoo re#i$ion, #ar$er and o#der than Christianit", e&er"thin$hin$es around Chrishna. n the 0e)ican re#i$ion a#so %ar o#der than Christianit", e&er"thin$ hin$es around8 ueta#coat#, and so on. 4one o% their s"stems o% re#i$ion e&en attempt to kno! od outside of their own theory of who God is. The Christian c#aims his od to be esusChrist the *indoo c#aims a#mi$ht" $od !as Chrishna, and so on. I disagree with them all by claiming that neither Jesus Christ nor Chrishna

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nor !rometheus nor uddha nor any other man on this earth who is worshipped as God—e#er was God. $he $rue God e%ists entirely outside of these religious theories and mark me well here is not to be found through any of them. 'ou cannot ha&e t!o ods. % esusChrist !as od A#mi$ht", so then !as Chrishna and the rest o% the 7cruci%ied $ods,7 %or the" all appeared on the scene long before theChristian "God" appeared.

am sure "ou !i## see this. A## o% these re#i$ions are $roups o% peop#e !ho ha&e been tau$ht b" some or$anisation ca##in$ itse#% a7re#i$ion,7 that someone, a!a" back in the dark and mist" a$es o% the past, !as A#mi$ht" od. 6ho 7A#mi$ht" od7 !as, and is, dependsupon !hich s"stem o% re#i$ion "ou be#on$ to. The !ho#e series o% re#i$ions are not based upon od A#mi$ht", but upon someone else whowas supposed to be God according to the founders of these systems of religion. That none o% these s"stems actua##" kno! od is &er"e&ident. ne #ook at the !or#d around us, and one #ook at the d"in$ condition o% re#i$ion as a !ho#e pro&ides proo% incontro&ertib#e that noneo% these man-made 7$ods7 e&er !as, or e&er cou#d ha&e been, the reat pirit !hich rea##" is the Creati&e nte##i$ence behind this uni&erse,!hich uni&erse, b" the !a", !as ro##in$ around on its orbit throu$h space #on$ be%ore, "es mi##ions o% "ears be%ore an" o% these 7$ods7 !ere

e&er heard o%.It is ess t"an 2our "undred years since t"e !"ristian rei$ion decided &"at is =t"e &ord o2 9od.= %"at &as decided by

a vote o2 one "undred>ei$"ty !at"oic #riests and bis"o#s at t"e !ounci o2 %rent and as be2ore reated one o2 t"e reasons&e "ave t"e 2our $os#es is because animas "ave 2our e$s. %"e !"ristian c"urc" "as t"e audacity to o22er t"at idiotict"eory to t"e &ord and te it t"at t"e =$od= o2 t"at reveation is 9od /mi$"ty t"e Su#reme Ruer o2 a manind.

od is not to be %ound, there%ore, in an" e)istin$ s"stem o% re#i$ion on the %ace o% the earth toda". These s"stems ha&e a 7$od7 o% their o!n manu%acture, and that accounts %or the sad state o% the !or#d and the church— it has not now nor has it e#er had the faintest particle of the actual truths of God in either. 0" !ork is to brin$ those truths to the !or#d, and the %oundation %or the remarkab#e re&e#ation !hich iscomin$ to this !or#d, !as #aid in that #itt#e room at ;<< aure# A&enue that unda" mornin$ not too man" "ears a$o.

This is not the p#ace to introduce incontro&ertib#e e&idence that a## re#i$ions ha&e some!here had a common ori$in, nor is it the p#ace to

enter into a discussion as to the re#ati&e merits o% the man" s"stems o% re#i$ion on the earth toda". % %u##er in%ormation and conc#usi&e proo% o% the human ori$in o% the Christian re#i$ion is desired, that proo% ma" be %ound in Gleams &#er the 'ori(on, and in Crucified Gods Galore, both!ritten b" me. et me (ust interpo#ate here #on$ enou$h to sa" that the re#i$ion o% siris, !ho #i&ed t!ent" thousand "ears be%ore Christ !ase&er heard o%, contains the same identica# teachin$s as the teachin$s o% esus. am not sa"in$ that these teachin$s are not true, %or e&er"inspired prophet o% od, re$ard#ess o% !hat the name and date ma" be, a#!a"s teaches the same thin$. The troub#e !ith the Christian churchis that !hi#e it #ikes to #i&e the eas" #i%e under the c#oak o% the re#i$ion !hich is ca##ed 7o% esus Christ,7 it does not #ike to carr" out the preceptso% its o!n re#i$ion. !i## $i&e %i&e hundred do##ars and !a#k %i&e hundred mi#es to see a true Christian. A## o% these prophets had the samemessa$e, but the churches, under the spe## o% their pa$an #eaders, chose to %o##o! the dictates o% those #eaders instead o% %o##o!in$ thesimp#e, p#ain messa$e o% the o!er o% od, !hich messa$e all prophets brin$.

'ou can %ind in the teachin$s o% siris, !ord %or !ord, #ine %or #ine, sentence %or sentence, the same identica# teachin$s !hich toda"appear as 7ori$ina# and inspired !ritin$s o% the %athers o% the Christian church.7 There is no ?uestion but that the entire Christian re#i$ion !assto#en %rom or borro!ed %rom the *indoo. The simi#arities are in too $reat a pro%usion to be (ust coincidence. /&en the name o% their 7man-$od7 is a#most identica# !ith that o% the Christian. There is one %ina# ar$ument !hich no re#i$ion on the %ace o% the earth can ans!er—that is—if you know so much about God and if the man you worship as God really is the true God why do you not throw the power of that true God against the terrific world conditions which are threatening to destroy this ci#ilisation from the face of the earth) 4o s"stems o% theo#o$" can dothat. A## the" can do is to te## us that i% !e be#ie&e that their particu#ar 7cruci%ied $od7 !as od A#mi$ht", !e sha## be sa&ed. The" are &er"care%u#, ho!e&er, to add that there is no 7sa#&ation7 in an" other s"stem o% re#i$ion—7there is none other name $i&en under hea&en !hereb"!e ma" be sa&ed,7 sa"s the Christian—e&ident#" a%raid o% competition.

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Chapter Two

-$y"h(ana I$ orn

*A 4T ATT/0T T D/C+/ T*/ +6T* 4 T*/ 4e! i%e !hich be$an to mani%est in me %rom the da" on !hich decided to thro! a!a" e&er"thin$ that had been tau$ht me about od b" m" parents and the di%%erent churches. thou$ht perhapscondemnation !ou#d come, but to m" (o", the %ee#in$ o% %reedom, o% ne! #i%e, be$an to take ho#d o% me, and I knew beyond the possibility of doubt that my childhood dreams were to come true. I was sure that the re#elation of God I was to bring to the world would be the most ama(ing re#elation this religious world has e#er known. I am more than e#er con#inced of this today.

sa! at once that !hat had suspected %or so #on$ !as true. sa! and kne! that the path!a" to od #a" entire#" outside o% thetheo#o$" o% an" re#i$ious or$anisation on the earth toda". sa! these s"stems o% re#i$ion in their true #i$ht—honest—earnest—but a## based

upon !hat the promoters o% their s"stems o% re#i$ion chose to te## them to be#ie&e. For instance, in proo% o% this statement, ask the ne)tChristian "ou meet i% he or she is prepared to pro#e the truth o% the Christian stor". Ask him i% he kno!s that one o% the reasons there are %our $ospe#s in the Christian bib#e is because anima#s ha&e %our #e$s. ee !hat he te##s "ou. These $ood honest sou#s, and there are mi##ions o% them here in the =nited tates, ha&e been mis#ed b" their #eaders !ho, in their o%% moments, ma" be %ound dri&in$ bun$s into beer barre#sand the #ike.

The mi##ions o% church members here in America actua##" !ant to kno! od. The" think, !ithout in&esti$atin$, that their church is theon#" thin$ on the %ace o% the earth !hich kno!s an"thin$ about od. The" think, because the" kno! no better, that there ne&er !as another 7cruci%ied $od7 outside o% esus Christ, and the" s!ear b" a## that8s ho#" that there ne&er cou#d ha&e been. t is %or this reason that the headso% these churches ha&e so &er" bitter#" attacked this Teachin$ and m"se#%. ha&e brou$ht to the American peop#e the truths o% od. Thesechurch #eaders, kno!in$ that these truths !i## e&entua##" rep#ace the errors the" are teachin$ in the name o% od, %oresee their o!n u#timatedestruction. o the" tr" to $et me out o% the picture. itt#e do the" kno! the o!er behind me or the" !ou#d not tr" that. ne man, endo!ed!ith the pirit o% od, is more powerful in a world which knows not God than the rest of the uni#erse combined.

uch a man can contro# his o!n destin" because he kno!s ho! to app#" the o!er o% the True pirit, od, in his #i%e. 6ith od in the#i%e, one has e&er"thin$. 6ith nothin$ more than a church s"stem o% theo#o$" in #i%e, one has nothin$. This !or#d toda" is a !onder%u# e)amp#eo% a !or#d that, in spite o% se&era# hundreds o% mi##ions o% nomina# re#i$ious pro%essors, does not know the first thing about the actual truth of the present e%istence of God. *ad there been one sma## re#i$ion on the earth teachin$ the actua# truths o% od, *it#er ne&er !ou#d ha&e beenheard o%. t !i## take, there%ore, a ne! re&e#ation o% the True od to brin$ to this earth the o!er !hich can restore peace, hea#th, ande&er#astin$ #i%e. That is the mission o% the s"chiana 0o&ement.

-very day brou$"t ne& evidences o2 t"e trut" o2 &"at I &as no& #redicatin$ my 2uture i2e u#on. -very day t"e &ayo#ened u# and a stran$e Po&er seemed to come into my i2e. / 2ear &ent out to be re#aced by a &onder2u con2idence./t ast I &as comin$ to no& t"e in2inite #eace &"ic" 9od in t"e i2e brin$s. %"e stran$e #art o2 it a is t"at t"is ne&e+#erience &it" 9od $re& on me. It came as a t"ie2 in t"e ni$"t. It stoe in. I ne& and reco$nised Its #resencenevert"eess and I ne& t"at 9od &as a ivin$ reaity "ere and no&. %"e bi$ :ob t"en &as to brin$ t"is true conce#tion o2

9od to a &ord 2u o2 =rei$ion= and sti not no&in$ 9od. I ne& t"at it &oud be caed Auite #resum#tuous to standaone and te t"e &ord o2 $reat rei$ions t"at none o2 t"em ne& t"e 2irst t"in$ about 9od. ?et t"at is e+acty &"at I "ave"ad to do and I "ave un"esitatin$y done it.

I do not beieve t"ere is anot"er man aive &"o coud or &oud "ave dared to do it. ?es attacs "ave been made byt"e c"urc" but outside o2 t"e 2inancia oss and t"e su22erin$ to my 2amiy &"at "ave t"ey amounted toE %"ey $ave memore internationa #rominence t"an any ot"er rei$ious eader o2 t"e times.

Ho& I &as to $o about tein$ a &ord o2 rei$ion t"at it ne& not 9od I did not no& at t"at time. I did "o&everno& enou$" never to mae a sin$e move myse2. I &aited 2or t"e eadin$s to be cear and &"en I reco$nised t"em I2oo&ed. It made no di22erence &"ere t"ose stran$e eadin$s too me I ne& t"at t"rou$" me 9od /mi$"ty &as $oin$to s"o& t"is &ord 2or t"e 2irst time in its "istory t"e di22erence bet&een =rei$ion= and t"e actua Po&er o2 t"e 9reatS#irit 9od. O2 course I &as ea$er to be$in but not ea$er enou$" to start be2ore t"e time &as ri#e. Sendin$ MrsRobinson and baby /2red "ome to t"eir 2os in Ore$on I decided to move 2rom <os /n$ees bac to Portand Ore$on.%"ere seemed to be a de2inite ur$e to retrace my ste#s so to Portand I &ent. I secured a $ood #ayin$ #osition and at oncesent 2or my &i2e and baby. 6e secured a "ome out on 34 t" Street ort"&est. %"is "ome is sti o&ned by Mr 8o"n Suter a

#rinter &"o "as &ored 2or a ar$e Portand #rintin$ "ouse 2or t"irty years or more. He "ad moved a&ay 2or t"e summer and &e rented "is "ome &"ie "e &as a&ay. I ca and see 8o"n Suter every o##ortunity I "ave.

sha## ne&er %or$et the da" the pirit o% od spoke de%inite#" to me in the uter home. had been #"in$ under a tree in rant *i$h ark,stud"in$ some !orks a#on$ the re#i$ious ne! thou$ht #ine. The particu#ar set o% books as reca## it, !as a &o#ume ca##ed $he *ecret of the +ges b" +obert Co##ier. ha&e since met se&era# times the author o% those books—in %act, had dinner !ith ob Co##ier in the *ote#+oose&e#t not #on$ a$o. These sma## books he#ped open the !a" !as tr"in$ to tread, and m" $ratitude is to ob Co##ier %or ha&in$ !rittenthem.

The impu#se !hich came to me that da" !as to re#a) abso#ute#", keep &er" sti##, and allow the in#isible *pirit of God to manifest itself tome. had a de%inite #eadin$ to do (ust that, so in order to be ?uiet, #a" under the trees in rant *i$h ark. A %ee#in$ o% abso#ute securit" andper%ect assurance !as mine that da". t !as not unti# #ater thou$h, in the uter home, that e)perienced the same 7&isitation7 had !hi#e a

chi#d in on$ Crendon. erhaps shou#d not ca## these moments !ith od 7&isitations.7 % use this !ord, some re#i$ious or$anisation mi$htha&e me arrested as an insane creature !ho has 7&isitations,7 and that !ou#d cause me a bit more incon&enience in addition to the $reatamount the" ha&e a#read" caused me.

6hen od decides to mani%est *is o!er to a human bein$, that man is the sanest man this side o% hea&en. 0oreo&er, !hi#e there is no?uestion but that !hat am about to re#ate !as a direct communion !ith od, it !as the most per%ect#" beauti%u# and natura# mani%estation

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possib#e. It was the thing I needed to assure me beyond doubt that God li#es on this earth today and can through his !ower bring to thisearth that ,i#ine !ower in such measure that wars illness fears doubt death—all these can be once and for all completely banished and God the Great *pirit-God can li#e together on this earth with man eternally. Immortality is possible here and now and would ha#e beene%perienced a long time ago had there been no man-made religious organisations to usurp the place of God. Just as soon as thoseorganisations are shown for what they really are this world will find and know the fullness of God.

Mrs Robinson &as do&n>to&n &it" /2ie. I "ad &aed bac a 2e& bocs 2rom 9rant Hi$" Par and "ad aid t"e!oier boos do&n on a tabe. %"en sin$in$ to myse2 I ay do&n on t"e bed and cosed my eyes. I &as a&ays =tain$&it" 9od= as my advertisement states but t"is day I &anted 9od actuay to revea "imse2 to me;not t"at I doubted butI &anted t"e e+#erience t"at I "ad on$ed 2or and su22ered 2or a my i2e. I &anted t"at e+#erience ri$"t no&. I ay

#er2ecty sti not a move :ust com#etey restin$ in t"e 9reat S#irit 9od. %"en 9od o#ened t"e vei &"ic" is su##osedto se#arate us mortas 2rom 9od and t"ou$" 9od and I are very cose no& I s"a never 2or$et t"at day. %"e 2utureo#ened u# ie a rose. I cannot describe it;suc" moments are not described by any &ords in any an$ua$e t"ey ares#iritua moments and are s#irituay discerned. / $reat in2inite #eace stoe over me. I &as over&"emin$y "a##y. %"erein t"ose 2e& seconds 2or t"at is a t"ey &ere I su##ose I sa& victory a"ead. I sa& t"e road I &as to trave. I sa& t"e"ome &e no& ive in. I sa& t"e ans&er to t"e crimina trias &"ic" &ere to come ater. I sa& everyt"in$ in one 2as"e+acty as it "a##ened and 2or t"is reason I am so absoutey sure o2 t"e 2uture. It &as indescribabe. <et me :ust try todescribe it by sayin$ t"at t"e S#irit o2 t"e In2inite 9od s#oe to me. / I coud do &as to ie and s"out =9ory to 9od; 9ory to 9od in t"e "i$"est= and I did s"out. %"e tears roed do&n my c"ees 2or 9od "ad at ast reveaed Himse2 tome and "ad done it t"rou$" met"ods entirey removed 2rom any t"eoo$ica or$anisation on t"e 2ace o2 t"e eart".

ne stran$e thin$ about that e)perience !as that sa! the home in !hich no! #i&e, and the $rounds, and the &er" identical pipe-or$an ha&e. The home !e bou$ht in 0osco! !as at once reco$nised b" me some "ears #ater, as part of the home I saw that day in John *utershouse. 6hen !ent to /urope a %e! "ears a$o, $a&e 0rs +obinson instructions to bui#d an addition to our home. did not dra! the p#ans,and to this da" she does not kno! o% the e)perience am no! re#atin$ to "ou. keep man" thin$s pertainin$ to od to m"se#%. The pub#icsees on#" the resu#ts, not the ource o% ri$ination. 6hen returned %rom /urope, here !as the house, comp#ete as had seen it that da" inort#and.

That !as a ha##o!ed e)perience. t chan$ed me. t made me. t e?uipped me !ith stren$th to do the !ork !hich is mine to do. t put thesea# o% the 0ost *i$h od on m" #i%e, e)act#" as kne! it !ou#d be put on me sooner or #ater. I belie#ed God I still belie#e God. I shall ne#er doubt God—not "up yonder in the sky"—but here and now in me and in you regardless of whether you ha#e church affiliation or not. It is my con#iction that you will be more likely to find God without church affiliation than with it. *uch affiliation offers a strange god to the world onethe $rue God knows nothing about.

%"e ne+t day t"ere &as a very 2amous -n$is" ady visitin$ in Portand and some"o& or ot"er I met "er. <ooin$me in t"e eyes s"e said =I s"oud ie to ta &it" you sir.= 6e &ent 2or a &a in t"e !ounci !rest #ar and t"ereseated on a benc" s"e said to me =6"at is t"e rei$ious e+#erience you recenty "adE= I &as astounded I "ad notreveaed t"is e+#erience to anyone;yet t"is ady ne& a about it. =It's beauti2u to reaise t"at I "ave #ersonay met t"eman &"om 9od is to use to brin$ in t"e 9reat Day o2 9od= s"e said ooin$ at me. Our ta asted many "ours. 9odno&s t"en better t"an anyone ese no&s "o& His #ans s"a &or out 2or t"e redem#tion o2 t"e "uman race.

am reminded here o% a &erse !hich is runnin$ throu$h m" mind—7od8s purposes !i## ripen %ast, un%o#din$ e&er" hour the bud ma"ha&e a bitter taste, but s!eet !i## be the %#o!er.7 ure#" had tasted the &er" bitterest drau$ht #i%e has to o%%er an"one. *ad not su%%ered as%e! ha&e e&er su%%ered@ *ad not m" &er" sou# been seared b" the per%id" o% those !ho mas?uerade as 7a$ents o% od@7 think it had. utthe %#o!er is be$innin$ to b#oom no!. see the %ruits o% m" #abours hard b". The batt#e is not o&er "et, but the %oundation o% &ictor" is so#id#"p#anted, and the ne)t %e! "ears !i## brin$ to this earth—God in person—not ph"sica##", don8t mean that, %or no man has seen od at an"time.

9od is invisibe S#irit. I2 any man or any or$anisation tes t"is &ord t"at /mi$"ty 9od a##eared on t"is eart" in t"e2orm o2 man t"at or$anisation is not s#eain$ t"e trut". I reaise t"at t"e true conce#tion o2 9od destroys rei$ion as &e"ave it today 2or a t"e $ood it is in t"is #resent &ord crisis it mi$"t :ust as &e not be "ere 2or it no&s not 9od. Itno&s "a2 a "undred man>made or c"urc">made t"eories o2 9od but t"ey are not su22icient to revea t"e 9reat S#irit9od to t"e "uman race. %"is s"oud be evident to a. It s"oud reAuire no ar$ument to sustain it.

S"orty a2ter t"is I 2et a very de2inite ur$e to eave Portand so I &ent to t"e &"oesae dru$ "ouse in Portand andased i2 t"ey "ad an o#enin$ some&"ere ese. I &as sent to t"e Pioneer Dru$ Store in ?aima and it &as t"ere I met tomy sur#rise 8immy 0rAu"art and ob Mc7iney o2 t"e od days in -ensbur$. I &ored "ard t"ere saved money and inevery s#are moment &as ee#in$ very cose to 9od. I ne& t"at a brea &oud come soon. 6"ie at t"e Pioneer I s"areate a rat"er amusin$ incident &"ic" t"e boys in t"e store sti au$" about.

It &as Saturday a2ternoon;2armers' day. One 2armer on &"om I &aited tod me t"at "e &anted to $et a botte o2 minera oi 2or use as a a+ative. 6e "anded t"e Re+a ine o2 #"armaceuticas and t"ese #aid a commission o2 t&o andone>"a2 #er cent to t"e saesman sein$ t"em. aturay &e a tried to se Re+a $oods. I sod t"is c"a# a botte o2 minera oi. It cost one doar. %"en rememberin$ our instructions Band t"e commissionC to se in as ar$e a Auantity as

#ossibe I be$an on t"at 2armer in earnest. I tod "im t"at i2 "e &oud tae one $aon o2 t"e minera oi ei$"t times asmuc" as one #int "e &oud save t"ree doars and I e+#ained t"ree doars saved is t"ree doars earned. He too t"e$aon. Runnin$ bac to 8im 0rAu"art I said =6"at is t"e #rice on 2ive $aons o2 t"at oiE= 8im Auoted me a #rice and

be2ore t"e 2armer $ot to t"e door I "ad caed "im bac and e+#ained "o& muc" money "e &oud save i2 "e bou$"t 2ive$aons o2 t"e oi.

ein$ a $ood 2armer "e bou$"t anot"er 2our $aons. I 2et #roud o2 my sein$ abiity t"at day. My c"eAues t"ere at

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t"e Pioneer &ere a&ays ar$er t"an anyone ese's 2or commissions. Ho&ever t"ere &as a bac2ire 2or on Mondaymornin$ into t"e store came a stout ady &it" =bood in "er eye.= S"e &anted to no& &"ere t"e youn$ 2eo& &as &"o"ad sod "er "usband 2ive $aons o2 minera oi 2or a =a+ative.= I 2inay "ad "er Auieted do&n and on convincin$ "er t"at t"is minera oi &as t"e 2inest t"in$ to use in a tractor s"e &ent a&ay "a##y. 6e &oud "ave re2unded "er money anytime s"e demanded it;ony s"e did not demand it.

/ t"rou$" t"ese mont"s s#ent in ?aima t"e outine o2 t"e ne& %eac"in$ I &as to $ive to t"e &ord be$an to tae2orm in my mind. I &as "o&ever &orin$ t"e =$raveyard= s"i2t and "ad itte time in &"ic" to &rite anyt"in$ at"ou$"never &as t"e Movement I &as about to 2orm out o2 my mind. I considered t"e =soa#>bo+= met"od o2 distribution butrued t"at out decidin$ t"at by mai &as t"e ony 2easibe &ay to brin$ t"is ne& %eac"in$ to t"e &ord. I &oud mae ac"ar$e 2or it re2undin$ t"eir money i2 not com#etey satis2ied and t"en someday some &eat"y man &oud endo& t"e

Movement and I coud t"en send it around t"e &ord 2ree o2 a c"ar$es and #ay t"e #osta$e and ot"er many e+#enses inaddition.6it" t"is in mind I sent a &ire to t"e S#oane Dru$ !om#any in S#oane asin$ t"em i2 t"ey ne& o2 a #osition

&"ere t"e dru$ stores cosed at si+ o'coc. %"e ne+t day came a &ire t"at t"ere &as a #osition in Mosco& Ida"o at t"e!orner Dru$ Store &orin$ 2or !. -. oes. I contacted Mr oes and by t"e end o2 t"e &ee I &as in Mosco& Ida"o./t t"at time Mosco& &as unno&n. It is no&n a over t"e civiised &ord today and t"ere is more ta about =t"at manRobinson in Mosco&= t"an about any ot"er rei$ious eader.

6"en &e arrived in Mosco& &e &ere very muc" dissatis2ied &it" t"e #ace. %"e tri# on t"e train 2rom S#oane "ad been "ard and t"e rain &as #ourin$ do&n. %"at &as in /#ri 1,( t"irteen years a$o. Outside =u= 6ard's #aint s"o#t"e "orses &ere tied to t"e "itc"in$ #osts and i2 ever t"ere &as a 2armer2ied city Mosco& &as t"at city. I said to MrsRobinson =<et's $o bac to S#oane. I &oud not &or in t"is sort o2 #ace 2or anyt"in$. I can &rite some&"ere ese.=S"e ur$ed me to stay at east overni$"t 2or s"e and itte /2ie &ere tired.

!ain$ u# !"arey oes I in2ormed "im t"at I "ad arrived but t"at I &as not $oin$ to &or. He invited me to comeu# and see "im and ased me &"at t"e matter &as. I tod "im t"at I &as not used to &orin$ in a ="ic= #ace and tod"im 2urt"er t"at t"ere &as not enou$" money in t"e #ace to mae me stay t"ere. <au$"in$ !"arey said =O" "ec comeu# and see us. I'd ie to see t"e coour o2 t"e man's "air t"at tas ie you do I' bet you're a "ec o2 a $ood man.= 6ea2ter dinner t"at evenin$ &e &ent u# to see !"arey oes and I ied "im. I sti ie "im 2or "e's a rea c"a#. He taedme into stayin$ one mont" and $ettin$ bac t"e e+#enses o2 t"e tri# 2rom ?aima and I a$reed to t"at. %"is e+#erienceony $oes to s"o& "o& very easy it &oud "ave been 2or me to "ave e2t 2or S#oane a$ain but an a>&ise 9od &as&atc"in$ every move I made and &as seein$ to it t"at I made no move t"at &as not t"e #ro#er move to mae;"ence Istayed in Mosco& and sti ive t"ere.

%"e usua :ob o2 "ouse>"untin$ 2oo&ed and &e &ere aided in t"is by Harod !orneison t"e secretary o2 t"e!"amber o2 !ommerce &"o $ave /2red a stic o2 r"ubarb to c"e&. /2red "ad a itte tricyce and it &as amusin$ to see"im #edain$ u# Main Street t"at day c"e&in$ on t"at stic o2 r"ubarb. 6e 2inay ocated an u#stairs a#artment and t"e

ne+t day I started to &or. %"e more I &ored in Mosco& t"e better I ied t"e #ace. %"e od 2i+tures in t"e !orner Dru$Store are no& $one and in t"eir #aces are ne& and u#>to>date ones. 6"ie &orin$ 2or t"e !orner Dru$ Store I &as2ortunate enou$" to &in t&o nationa &indo&>trimmin$ contests and t"is "e#ed us consideraby as &e coud not savemuc" 2rom a saary o2 one "undred>seventy>2ive doars a mont".

radua##" !hat is no! kno!n as the s"chiana 0o&ement took %orm. carried a #itt#e b#ack-co&ered notebook n m" pocket, and as a&a#uab#e thou$ht !ou#d come to me, !ou#d (ot it do!n. 0ost o% the %undamenta# thou$hts n m" 0o&ement !ere !ritten do!n in that dru$store. Then be$an to #ook around %or a t"pe!riter, %ina##" #ocatin$ one, an o#d Corona, !hich !as o!ned b" Care" mith, a c#othes-presser in0osco!. Care" and had a $ood time %ishin$ up at the un$a#o! a %e! "ears a$o, and the memories o% his hotcakes !i## #in$er #on$. n themeantime, and to sho! ho! much !as in earnest, rented the dinin$ room o% the 0osco! *ote# e&er" !eek and there he#d #ectures on m"ne! conception o% od. 0osco! is a sma## cit" o% about %i&e thousand peop#e, and an"thin$ unusua# is sure to be the sub(ect o% much $ossip.*ere !as , !orkin$ in the Corner Dru$ tore a## da", and #ecturin$ to the pub#ic at ni$ht. t created ?uite a sensation, and more than one%in$er !as pointed to the %orehead and mo&ed round !ith a circu#ar motion !hen !as passed on the street.

Ho&ever t"e cro&ds came and it &as evident t"at &"at I &as teac"in$ &as destined to mae its mar. Many coe$e #ro2essors attended t"ose ectures and an order &as issued 2orbiddin$ any #ro2essor 2rom t"e 0niversity o2 Ida"o ocatedin Mosco& 2rom attendin$ my meetin$s. I do not no& &"y t"at order &as issued. Per"a#s it &as because I did not "avet"e academic standin$ o2 some o2 t"e #ro2essors in t"e 0niversity o2 Ida"o. /t any rate t"ey &ere 2orbidden to attend t"emeetin$s. %"is did not &orry me 2or t"e ony reason I "ed t"ose meetin$s &as to $et t"e $enera reaction o2 t"e #eo#e tot"e ne& trut"s o2 9od and t"at reaction &as $ood.

ne aturda" ni$ht took the #itt#e Corona home and, askin$ 0rs +obinson not to disturb me, !rote that ni$ht the comp#ete %irst set o% s"chiana essons. !orked a## ni$ht and a## the ne)t da", and !hen the" !ere comp#eted $a&e them to m" !i%e %or criticism. There !as nocriticism—nothin$ put praise. he !ondered ho! had been ab#e to !rite these essons and predicted at once that the" !ou#d $o around the!or#d. 7The" are $ood. The" are unusua#, but ho! are "ou $oin$ to $et them distributed@7 she asked. rep#ied that the !a" %or their distribution !ou#d be taken care o% at the ri$ht time, and %urther in%ormed her that i% this phi#osoph" o% od !as true, shou#d be the %irst oneto demonstrate the %act.

/ itte ater I &as ready 2or t"e 2inancin$ o2 t"e Movement. <et it be remembered "ere t"at I "ad not been inMosco& ninety days and i2 anyone raises any money in Mosco& 2or any #ur#ose t"at is ne&s. o one in Mosco& &it"2e& e+ce#tions "as any money. %"e city is a ty#ica university city and t"e #ay o2 coe$e #ro2essors is not too "i$".Sometimes I t"in it is but t"ey "ave to ive as &e as anyone ese. Puttin$ t"e <essons in an od brie2case I e2t t"ea#artment and &"en Mrs Robinson ased me &"ere I &as $oin$ I tod "er I &as $oin$ do&n>to&n to raise G(5)).)). S"e

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ooed at me in a Auiica sort o2 &ay and said =In t"e 2rame o2 mind you're in you are very a#t to $et it.= I ne& very&e I s"oud $et it.

6here, or %rom !hom, did not kno!. I did not need to know. 6hat had disco&ered about od, and the present e)istence o% od in my life, !as a## the assurance necessar" that !hate&er mone" needed !ou#d be %orthcomin$, e&en i% had not been in 0osco! ninet" minutesinstead o% ninet" da"s.

I &as standin$ outside t"e dru$ store &aitin$ 2or somet"in$ to "a##en &"en a $rocery cer by t"e name o2 edP"ii#s came aon$. Incidentay ed is sti &orin$ in t"e same store but is #art o&ner no&. =ed "ave you anymoneyE= I be$an. ed ooed at me rat"er mysticay and said =?es I "ave some money. 6"at's on your mindE= O#enin$u# t"e dru$ store I too "im in and e+#ained to "im &"at I &anted to do. I tod "im t"at i2 "e oaned me any money "e&oud eit"er ose it a or I &oud $ive "im bac t&ice t"e amount o2 t"e oan. ed $ave me "is c"eAue 2or a "e "ad 2ive

"undred doars &it" t"is remar =I don't no& you very &e Robbie you "aven't been "ere on$ but you oo $ood tome. I t"in you're a ri$"t. I "eard your ectures and i2 t"is 2ive "undred doars &i do you any $ood tae it.= ed started to eave t"e dru$ store but I caed "im bac 2or it &as t&enty>2ive "undred doars I "ad started out to

$et;not 2ive "undred. I ased "im i2 "e ne& anyone ese &"o "ad 2ive "undred doars and "e re#ied t"at 9eor$eenson "is brot"er>in>a& to be "ad t"at sum. =!a "im u#= I said. ed did and a 2e& minutes ater enny as &e no&ca "im came to t"e dru$ store. I e+#ained to "im &"at I &anted and "e $ave me 2ive "undred doars. %"at made onet"ousand doars inside o2 an "our. %"en I ased bot" o2 t"ose c"a#s i2 t"ey ne& o2 a t"ird 2eo& &"o "ad a itte money.enson &"o sti is &it" t"e 6ard Hard&are and Paint !om#any mentioned t"e name o2 one o2 t"e cas"iers at one o2 t"eoca bans;-mer /nderson. -mer &as caed over and "e &rote a c"eAue at"ou$" "o& a S&ede came to #art &it"seven "undred and 2i2ty doars t"at Auicy is somet"in$ I "ave never been abe to e+#ain. /nderson 2or years "as beenin our em#oy as !.P./. and booee#er and "e's a $ood one.

6e t"ere &as G1*5).)) out o2 t"e G(5)).)) needed and t"e ni$"t &as sti youn$. I su$$ested t"e name o2 Oscar

/nderson anot"er S&ede and a #rominent Mosco& 2armer. %"e boys a$reed to $o out &it" me to see "im and &"ieOscar rat"er derided t"e Movement "e did $ive me a c"eAue 2or G*5).)). %"us my ob:ective &as ac"ieved. %"e G(5)).))"ad been raised in one ni$"t in a stran$e to&n and by a man t"ey ne& very itte about. I 2et I needed t"is t&enty>2ive"undred doars to "ave one t"ousand sets o2 t"e <essons #rinted and ten t"ousand eac" o2 t"e etters &"ic" &ere to besent to t"ose &"o re#ied to our nationa advertisements 2or t"at is &"at I decided to do;advertise nationay. Many amiionaire &i sto# and #onder be2ore attem#tin$ to aunc" a nationa advertisin$ cam#ai$n but I did not "esitate 2iveseconds. Moreover I "od today t"e &ord's record 2or success2u mai>order advertisin$. <et me te you about t"at 2irstad &"ic" "as #roved to be suc" a sensationa #iece o2 advertisin$ co#y.

kne! nothin$ !hatsoe&er about ad&ertisin$. had ne&er !ritten an ad in m" #i%e. !as no promoter, but did kno! somethin$ o% theo!er o% the reat pirit in me, and !hat #itt#e did kno! about that o!er was more than sufficient for me in any emergency. orro!in$ asheet o% paper %rom the #oca# ne!spaper, sat do!n to tr" m" hand at !ritin$ an ad. had not the %aintest idea ho! to $o about it. Then, %romno!here, came this thou$ht, 7Don8t !rite an ad, te## the peop#e !hat "ou ha&e to o%%er them.7 That is e)act#" !hat did, and a## did. t !as a##

kne! ho! to do. That piece o% cop" !hich cost me %our hundred do##ars to insert brou$ht more than t!ent"-three thousand do##ars !orth o% orders %or this ne! Teachin$. t !as somethin$ ne&er be%ore !itnessed in the ad&ertisin$ %ie#d. 4o piece o% cop" #ike that had e&er appearedbe%ore. % that piece o% cop" !as true, it meant that a## the di%%erin$ s"stems o% re#i$ion !ere not true, %or &er" p#ain#" said this in that %irstpiece o% cop".

ut o% the t!ent"-%i&e hundred do##ars had raised, had sa&ed %our hundred do##ars %or the insertion o% this %u##-pa$e ad in !sychology /aga(ine. 6ishin$ to make connections !ith an ad&ertisin$ a$enc", !ent the ne)t da" into pokane, 6ashin$ton, !here in?uired %or the#ar$est a$enc" there. entered that o%%ice and asked %or the senior partner o% the %irm sho!in$ him the cop", handed him a che?ue %or %our hundred do##ars to co&er the cost o% the ad. *is commission !ou#d ha&e been si)t"-ei$ht do##ars had he hand#ed this piece o% cop" and hiscommissions %rom that da" to this, had he done so, !ou#d ha&e been ?uite a tid" sum. This c#e&er ad&ertisin$ man, ho!e&er, took one #ook atthe cop" and then #ooked at me. 7*o! much mone" ha&e "ou, "oun$ %e##o!@7 he asked. rep#ied that the %our hundred do##ars he he#d in hishand represented e&er"thin$ had. Ca##in$ his partner in, he said 76e don8t !ant to hand#e that sort o% stu%%, do !e@ 6e can8t a%%ord to. ur reputation is !orth too much to us, and besides, !e don8t !ant to be a part" to this "oun$ man8s #osin$ the #ast do##ar he has.7 The other partner a$reed. Turnin$ to me, he said, 70r +obinson, su$$est that "ou %or$et a## about this and keep "our %our hundred do##ars. That pieceo% cop" is mechanica##" imper%ect. eop#e !on8t ans!er it and "ou !i## ne&er $et a reputab#e ma$aine to run it. t8s too re&o#utionar".7 Turnin$to those t!o ad&ertisin$ $ent#emen, said, 76e##, "ou %e##o!s are the t!o smartest men ha&e e&er seen, or the t!o bi$$est %oo#s,7 and !a#ked out.

I ha#e already told you the phenomenal results of that ad#ertisement and it has appeared and still is appearing in the most outstanding publications in the 0nited *tates. $here ha#e been a few maga(ines and newspapers which ha#e refused the copy but in e#ery case these periodicals ha#e been members of a certain "faith" which if it could would deny the right to anyone to teach any other religionthan the one they teach. $he two ad#ertising men mentioned ha#e both personally called on me soliciting our ad#ertising account. When I recalled my first inter#iew with them they professed not to remember it1 but I did. $he first ad#ertisement appeared in !sychology /aga(ineand as before stated that "mechanically imperfect" piece of copy brought in enough in2uiries and enrolments to make further ad#ertising possible. $he second ad#ertisement appeared in the !athfinder. It cost fifteen hundred dollars and the third appeared in !hysical Culture. Inone year from the date of the first ad#ertisement we were sending our teaching into si%ty-se#en different countries. I belie#e the *pokanead#ertising agency made a bad guess.

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&regonian $he /ilwaukee Journal $he 3ew 4ork 3ews $he Washington $imes-,ispatch Ca#alcade and 5#erybodys, t!o o% the #ar$estcircu#atin$ ma$aines in reat ritain, and other %orei$n ma$aines and papers b" the score ha&e %eatured us in their co#umns.

et it be understood that ha&e sou$ht no pub#icit". do not !ant it. !ish it !ere possib#e %or me to keep entire#" in the back$round,and #et someone e#se, %ar more ?ua#i%ied than , take the credit. !ant no p#audits o% men. !ant to brin$ to this !or#d the actua# truths o% od,!hich truths !i## #iberate men e&er"!here, because the" are truths of God . That is m" !ork. A## ask is that be #e%t a#one !ith m" od andnot inter%ered !ith as ha&e been. count it an honour to ha&e been so &icious#" attacked b" the churches, %or that is e&idence that this !ho#e0o&ement is born o% the pirit o% od, other!ise the" !ou#d not attack it.

/ t"is amain$ $ro&t" and success &as #easin$ and $rati2yin$ to me in t"at it #roved t"at I "ad t"e messa$e t"e&ord needs. ut t"ere &as one t"in$ I &as ooin$ most ea$ery 2or;t"at &as etters 2rom my Students tein$ me &"at

9od &as doin$ in t"eir ives. I s"a never 2or$et t"e 2irst etter o2 t"at ind &"ic" came in. It tod o2 t"e instantdisa##earance o2 a case o2 c"ronic r"eumatism o2 t&enty years standin$. It &ent ie t"e mornin$ mists be2ore t"e risin$sun. %ain$ t"e etter &it" me I :um#ed in t"e car and drove ie 2ury to my "ome &"ere I said to my $ood &i2e =It&ors Pear. It &ors;oo at t"is.=

%"at &as t"e 2irst etter o2 t"is ind I "ad received and naturay it made me "a##y indeed. %"en anot"er etter ie itcame in and be2ore many more &ees "ad $one by t"ese etters &ere t"e rue not t"e e+ce#tion. 6e saved one "undredand 2i2ty t"ousand o2 suc" etters and no& &e t"ro& t"em a&ay a2ter &e ans&er t"em as &e "ave not t"e s#ace in &"ic"to store t"em.

%"ese etters "ave a been unsoicited and naturay not one #enny "as ever been #aid 2or one o2 t"em. I "avere#roduced a 2e& in anot"er c"a#ter. %"ey come 2rom a over t"e &ord. I2 I &ere to te you a t"e t"in$s &"ic" "ave"a##ened t"rou$" t"e Po&er &e endeavour to teac" it &oud mae you bin your eyes I assure you. %"is "as never beena ="eain$= Movement and it never &i be so on$ as I "ead it. ?et cancer and ot"er incurabe diseases "ave meted a&ay

be2ore t"e Po&er o2 t"e 9reat S#irit 9od. I can s"o& you evidence o2 deat" bein$ averted many times. ?et t"ese t"in$sunusua as t"ey are are but sidei$"ts on t"e $reater &or &"ic" &e are doin$. 6"en 9od is reco$nised in t"e i2e and&"en t"e Po&er o2 9od is consciousy used in t"e i2e t"ese undesirabe #"ysica diseases cannot "e# but disa##ear.%"ere are "o&ever "undreds o2 t"ousands o2 ives &e "ave deat &it" &"ic" "ave no #"ysica im#airment and naturay&e do not "ear as muc" about t"ose ives.

recei&e more te#e$rams than an" man in the tate o% daho. recei&e more #on$-distance ca##s at a## hours o% the da" and ni$ht thanan" man in daho. co&er more mi#es tra&e##in$ and tr"in$ to he#p peop#e than an" man in the =nited tates. The demands on m" time aresuch that m" a&era$e da" is %ar #on$er than ei$ht hours, assure "ou. 6ere it not %or the o!er o% the i&in$ pirit, !hich pirit know , shou#d not be ab#e to do !hat do. ut $reater is the od in me than an" other o!er, e&en the o!er o% death. As #on$ as abide in thato!er, and conscious#" kno! that o!er, !hat care #@

<et me te you o2 one amusin$ etter. It &as not so amusin$ at t"e time to t"e &riter &"o &as in deady earnest. He&as a #ostmaster o2 a ar$e -astern city. %"in$s "ad been $oin$ &ron$ &it" "im a round and "e &rote me as 2oo&s

7D/A+ Dr +44: 7There is nothin$ #e%t %or me in #i%e. 'ou are teachin$ the truths o% od, but am be"ond a## hope.##ness, %inancia# !orries, bad in&estments ha&e made me decide to end it a##. e%ore man" da"s sha## ha&e b#o!n m" brains out. appea# to "ou as a #ast resort—is there an"thin$ "ou can do to he#p me be%ore commit suicide.7

Here is my re#y

70' D/A+ 0r -A4D-: 7'our #etter recei&ed and contents noted !e##. n the %irst p#ace "ou cou#d not b#o! "our brains outbecause "ou ha&en8t an". 'ou mi$ht b#o! ho#es in "our head, but that !ou#dn8t be b#o!in$ "our brains out. n the e&ent "ou decideto do this, #et me su$$est that "ou do it in some back a##e" some!here, as don8t be#ie&e the =. . o&ernment !ou#d appreciateha&in$ a mess made in the Federa# ui#din$ in... sha## !atch the papers !ith interest to see (ust ho! $ood a (ob "ou made o% it.7

%"at re#y evidenty &as t"e ri$"t one. <ater I received a on$ etter 2rom t"at c"a# tein$ me t"at "ad I tried to

sym#at"ise &it" "im "e #robaby &oud "ave committed suicide. /s it "a##ened my etter made "im t"in. It brou$"t"im to "is senses. I am $ad it did. <et it be remembered "ere t"at it is a terri2ic res#onsibiity "avin$ so many t"ousand&rite you t"eir "eart>t"robs 2or t"at is e+acty &"at t"ey do. ?et every etter is treated as i2 it &ere 2rom a reative. 6e$ive t"em t"e very best &e no& "o& to $ive t"em and de#endin$ u#on t"e S#irit o2 9od 2or $uidance &e invariabyac"ieve resuts &"ic" sta$$er #eo#e &"en t"ey read t"ese etters.

One &ord>2amous c"aracter &"o is a $reat booster 2or me is %ommy urns 2ormer "eavy&ei$"t bo+in$ c"am#ion o2 t"e &ord. %ommy never $ets tired o2 sin$in$ our #raises.

Premier Mussoini sent me a etter o2 a##reciation on one o2 my boos a 2e& years a$o. Famous scientists 0. S.Senators and !on$ressmen 2orei$n di#omats &ord>2amous #"ysicians. In 2act 2rom a &as o2 i2e come t"eseamain$ etters.

/n anaysis o2 my Students reveas severa interestin$ 2acts. %"ey are about "a2 men and "a2 &omen. %"eir avera$ea$e is 2rom 4) to ) years. Seventy>nine #er cent o2 t"em are =&"ite>coar= #eo#e in t"e G3))).)) a year cass. ot

=unatics= as one mont"y #ubication caed t"em recenty.

The 0o&ement had not been in e)istence much o&er one "ear !hen be$an to %ee# the !ei$ht o% un%air church attacks !hich !ere bein$made upon the 0o&ement and m"se#%. These attacks !ere made open#", and !orse than a##, under$round. uite natura##", !ord o% !hat !asbein$ accomp#ished throu$h the o!er o% od be$an to spread, and the churches be$an to take notice o% us. ome o% the statements made

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!ere &er" p#ain statements, both in m" #iterature and in m" ad&ertisements. made the open statement that the re#i$ion the churches !ereteachin$ !as not o% od. ca##ed attention to the %act, throu$h the books had !ritten, that e&er" %undamenta# o% 7orthodo)"7 !as kno!n tomi##ions o% peop#e thousands o% "ears be%ore Christianit" !as e&er heard o%. These statements ha&e not "et been cha##en$ed. The" cannot becha##en$ed because the" are true, and ha&e the proo%. o other means !ere taken to stop this 0o&ement and put me 7out o% harm8s !a"7 asone minister put it. Certain#" the" tried hard enou$h, but as C#i%%ord Drur" so !ise#" stated be%ore the 0osco! 0inisteria# Association, "If thisthing be of God nothing you can do can stop it." It happens to be of God.

The %irst open attack came %rom the Gospel +d#ocate, the o%%icia# or$an o% the Christian church BCampbe##ites. !i## not reproduce theartic#e here, as it is not !orth the space. u%%ice it to sa" that the artic#e, !ritten b" one C. C. re!er and !ritten !ithout the s#i$htestkno!#ed$e o% !hat he !as !ritin$, !as pronounced b" our attorne"s to be #ibe##ous in e&er" tate in the =nion. !rote 0r re!er, ca##in$ hisattention to that %act and askin$ %or the same space in the Gospel +d#ocate he had $i&en to #ibe##in$ me. *e a$reed, and sent in m" ans!er.t ne&er appeared, thou$h, and short#" a%ter sa! another name as editor o% the Ad&ocate. The stran$e part o% this is that short#" a%ter!ards

re!er became serious#" i## and a !ire recei&ed b" me stated that he !as not e)pected to #i&e. *e #i&ed, and kno! !h". ut !asn8t it stran$ethat , o% a## men, !as asked to he#p !hen death threatened@ ure#" it is stran$e ho! od !orks sometimes.

The ne)t attack came %rom the *unday *chool $imes. n %act this ma$aine took t!o or three shots at me. *arm#ess shots, thou$h, %or ithas been noted that !hen an" person or re#i$ious ma$aine takes a pot-shot at s"chiana hundreds o% its readers !rite us %or in%ormationand, throu$h the in%ormation !e send them, the" usua##" %ind od, and that is somethin$ the" !ere not ab#e to do be%ore. $he 6utheranCompanion !rote an especia##" &icious artic#e, but it did not state that the one !ho !rote the artic#e sti## o!es me %i%t" do##ars %or a set o% books am ho#din$ as securit" %or the repa"ment o% a #oan. !onder !h" that %act !as not mentioned in this artic#e.

So or$anised and vicious &ere t"e attacs made on t"is Movement and myse2 t"at iteray t"ousands o2 com#aints&ere sent in to t"e Post O22ice Ins#ectors in 6as"in$ton D. !. 6"oe Sunday Sc"oo casses &oud &rite com#aints tot"e Post O22ice De#artment. %"ey &ere ordered to. One o2 t"ese came 2rom a a#tist minister &"o at t"at time resided inMosco&. His name is t"e Reverend !. !. Mc9ra&. %"e etter o2 =com#aint= stated t"at t"e Posta aut"orities s"oudinvesti$ate =t"at man Robinson= in Mosco& &"o is usin$ t"e mais to de2raud =sucers= out o2 t"eir "ard>earned money

and =:ud$in$ by t"e amount o2 money "e is main$ "e is catc"in$ t"em by t"e "undreds.= aturay any investi$ation&as ordered but not"in$ &as 2ound &"ic" s"o&ed t"e si$"test taint o2 2raud. I do not a$ree &it" =ort"odo+y= and very

#ainy say so. %"is means t"at t"e Movement s"oud be sto##ed. /ny ne& reveation 2rom 9od &"ic" does not a$ree&it" t"e teac"in$s o2 t"e c"urc" must not be ao&ed to o#erate. -very one o2 t"ese com#aints &as based on our rei$iousvie&s not on anyt"in$ &"ic" coud be 2ainty sus#ected o2 bein$ 2rauduent. %"ese com#ainants ne& t"is &"en t"eysent t"e etters in.

/2ter t"e t&o ins#ectors &"o made t"eir investi$ation "ad re#orted on t"e Movement t"e Federa District /ttorneyordered t"e case cosed. =eieve me Doctor Robinson I &ent t"rou$" your Movement &it" a 2ine>toot" comb and i2 t"ere "ad been anyt"in$ &ron$ &it" it I &oud "ave 2ound it out= "e tod me some time a$o. Ho&ever not to bede2eated anot"er investi$ation &as made and t"e same resuts &ere re#orted.

6hat these re#i$ious bodies hoped to $ain b" persecutin$ me, is more than can $uess. 0ai# %raud is mai# %raud, and in no sense o% the!ord can an" re#i$ious 0o&ement o% the internationa# si$ni%icance o% this 0o&ement be char$ed !ith %raud in an"thin$ it teaches. The

Constitution o% the =nited tates &er" e%%ecti&e#" bars that. 'et these comp#aints poured in, and presume the" sti## pour in, a#thou$h not in as$reat a number. This 0o&ement has taken its p#ace at the head o% the re#i$ious procession, and !hi#e there are other re#i$ious 0o&ementsha&in$ $reater c#aimed membership, there is no religious organisation on the face of the earth which has grown as rapidly as this /o#ement1nor is there another religious organisation on the face of the earth which is demonstrating the !ower of God in as many li#es as this!sychiana /o#ement is.

A%ter a##, it8s the resu#ts in human #i&es that count. Ta#k is cheap. An"one can ta#k, but !hen one sees diseases disappearin$ #ike ma$icand #i&es b" the tens o% thousands bein$ re(u&enated and brou$ht to kno! od, that is !hat matters. !ou#d rather be doin$ the !ork amdoin$ than be the ope o% +ome, the *ead o% the a#&ation Arm", and the resident o% the Federa# Counci# o% Churches o% Christ, a## ro##edinto one. The" ta#k—the" make unpro&ab#e c#aims. We bring God to mankind. The churches cannot pro&e one statement the" make.

o true Movement o2 t"e S#irit o2 9od on t"e eart" can subscribe to anyt"in$ =ort"odo+y= teac"es 2or =ort"odo+y=as it e+ists today is obsoete. It stands "ere absoutey #o&eress eit"er to revea 9od to man or to do one t"in$ to&ardsto##in$ t"is "eis" &ar t"e nations o2 t"e eart" are en$a$ed in. I do not no& &"at &i "a##en be2ore t"is boo sees t"e

i$"t o2 day but I do no& t"at no rei$ious or$anisation on t"e 2ace o2 t"e eart" &i ever be abe to do anyt"in$ to&ard brin$in$ t"is $"asty t"in$ to a cose. =%"e bood o2 8esus= is #reac"ed universay by t"e !"ristian c"urc". =%"ere is a2ountain 2ied &it" bood= is sun$ in amost every !"ristian c"urc" but it &i tae more t"an t"e bood o2 8esus to brin$

#eace to t"is &ar>&eary eart". It &i tae more t"an =t"e bood o2 !"ris"na= 2or "e too s"ed "is bood u#on t"e cross to=save= manind. It &i tae more t"an t"e bood o2 t"e score o2 ot"er =cruci2ied $ods= to mae any im#ression on t"is&ord today.

It will take the !ower of God and this !ower no church on earth can teach because they know nothing whatsoe#er of that !ower. It isnot a case of the !ower of God in Christianity today. +ll this religion is trying to do is to get men and women to belie#e that Jesus Christ whono one can pro#e e#er li#ed was God +lmighty. It is an impossible task. $he world does not belie#e that story nor does it belie#e the story that Jeseus Chrishna was God nor !rometheus nor 7uirinus nor &siris nor any of the rest of the ca#alcade of crucified gods which ha#e paraded across the hori(on of world religious history. $his world has re8ected e#ery "crucified god" offered to it 8ust as it has re8ected the"crucified god" of the present church. t is sho!in$ $ood (ud$ement in doin$ so.

2 t"ese rei$ions &oud #reac" one t"in$;t"e e+istence and Po&er o2 t"e 9reat S#irit 9od t"ere &oud be need 2or ony one rei$ion. 6"en t"at day comes and it &i come t"is &ord &i actuay and iteray no& 9od. It cannot no&9od &"en someone ese is o22ered to it as 9od. %"ere &as never any need 2or 8esus !"rist or any ot"er =cruci2ied $od= toa##ear on t"is &ord's "orion. / t"ere ever "as been need 2or is t"e sim#e #ain reco$nition o2 t"e Po&er o2 t"e 9reatInvisibe S#irit &"ic" is 9od. ut no;t"at &on't do;t"e c"urc"es do not &ant an invisibe 9od. So t"ey made unto

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t"emseves $raven ima$es and t"ese ima$es t"e c"urc"es o2 a rei$ions "ave attem#ted to 2oist on t"e &ord as bein$ t"etrue 9od. <oo at t"e &ord about you as a resut o2 t"ese ima$es. %"en as yourse2 i2 it is not "i$" time t"at some manarose to brin$ to t"is eart" t"e trut"s o2 t"e One 9reat 9od &"ic" 9od never "as been seen by morta eye never "as beennaied to a cross and never created a man &"o 2rom t"e very be$innin$ &as =born in sin s"a#en in iniAuity and damnedto "e= i2 "e did not beieve t"at some one o2 a score o2 =cruci2ied $ods= &as 9od /mi$"ty.

The messa$e am brin$in$ to this !or#d !i## be accepted. t !i## be accepted because it is true. t !i## be accepted because it has theo!er to brin$ to men the consciousness o% the Abso#ute od. This is somethin$ mankind has not had brou$ht to it "et b" an" re#i$iousor$anisation. The da" had to come in !hich someone, !ith an e)perience o% od and the coura$e to te## that e)perience, must come a#on$.There ma" be paths %or me to tread !hich do not %u##" see. care nothin$ %or that. kno! in 6hom am be#ie&in$, and kno! that reatpirit li#es. There%ore, kno!in$ that, am happ" and content to be #ed e&er" step o% the !a", unti# the da" da!ns !hen a## men sha## kno! the%u##ness o% the o!er o% the pirit o% od.



Chapter -our

The Na.e %-$y"h(ana%

AT T* 4T, 6A4T T T/ '= *6 T*/ 4A0/ s"chiana came into e)istence. This is one o% the most remarkab#e instanceso% direct inspiration ha&e e&er kno!n and c#ear#" demonstrates that there is a $reat ocean o% o!er a&ai#ab#e to us a## in an" emer$enc". thas become second nature to me to depend upon this hidden, thou$h a#!a"s a&ai#ab#e, o!er, and $i&e &er" #itt#e thou$ht an" more toprob#ems !hich !ou#d cause man" peop#e a $reat dea# o% !orr".

ha&e to#d "ou about !ritin$ the ori$ina# ten essons o% this Teachin$, and up to that time had $i&en no thou$ht to !hat the Teachin$shou#d be ca##ed. t ne&er entered into m" head that a name !ou#d be necessar" unti# dre! up the %irst ad&ertisement. For se&era# da"s pondered in m" mind !hat the name o% this ne! Teachin$ shou#d be. The !ord 7ps"cho,7 meanin$ sou#, kept runnin$ throu$h m" mind. 'et

cou#d not ca## it the 7+obinson "stem o% !sychology 7 because it is not ps"cho#o$" in an" sense o% the !ord. t is pure and simp#e re#i$ion.One ni$"t on arrivin$ "ome I said to Mrs Robinson =I &is" I coud 2ind t"e #ro#er name 2or t"at teac"in$.= Juic asa 2as" s"e s"ot bac to me =6"y don't you #ut t"e %eac"in$ to &or and "ave it #rovide you &it" t"e #ro#er nameE= I$ras#ed &"at s"e meant and decided to do t"at very t"in$. 6"en I &ent to bed t"at ni$"t I #ut a #enci and &ritin$ tabeton a c"air beside t"e bed. It mi$"t be noticed "ere t"at I "ad never done anyt"in$ ie t"at be2ore nor did I no& at t"attime &"y I &as doin$ it. I :ust sim#y 2oo&ed t"is unseen ins#iration &it" some&"at marveous resuts. I "ave never 2or$otten t"at ni$"t. I &as in t"e most reaistic dream I "ave ever e+#erienced. / dream to me is somet"in$ very unusua

because I usuay see# ie a "orse and a&ae in t"e mornin$ com#etey re2res"ed 2rom a $ood ni$"t's see#. On t"is #articuar ni$"t or rat"er in t"e eary "ours o2 t"e mornin$ I e+#erienced t"is very reaistic dream. %"ere &as a roomabout t&eve 2eet sAuare #ainted bac and in t"e midde o2 it &as a Heen 9oud canvas army cot. On t"e cot &as a maecor#se &it" "is "ands 2oded across "is breasts. Standin$ over t"e "ead o2 t"e cor#se and main$ do&n&ard motions &it""is "ands &as a man I "ad never seen be2ore.

A%ter standin$ at the entrance to this room %or a %e! moments !atchin$ the proceedin$s, !a#ked into the room and said to this$ent#eman !ho !as makin$ the do!n!ard motions !ith his hands o&er the corpse, 74o!, (ust e)act#" !hat do "ou ca## that@7 Turnin$ to methis person #ooked me ri$ht in the e"e %or a moment and then said, 7'ou ou$ht to kno!. This is s"chiana the o!er !hich !i## brin$ ne!#i%e to a spiritua##" dead !or#d.7

ike a %#ash, a!oke. % "ou ha&e e&er tried to brin$ a concrete idea or thou$ht into !akin$ consciousness %rom the dream rea#m, "ouha&e disco&ered that it is a &er" di%%icu#t thin$ to do. *o!e&er, in a semi-conscious state, and comin$ ri$ht out o% s#eep, continua##" repeatedthe name 7 s"chiana s"chiana s"chiana 7 unti# !as !ide a!ake, and then !rote it do!n on the #itt#e tab#et !hich had p#aced on thechair b" the side o% the bed. A!akenin$ 0rs +obinson said, 7*ere is the name. ha&e it. t is s"chiana .7 At once she stated that shethou$ht it !as a &er" !onder%u# name, and kne! instincti&e#" that it !ou#d be &er" success%u#. kne! that the name o% this 0o&ement !ou#dha&e to be a de%inite entit". t !ou#d ha&e to be somethin$ entire#" ne!. *ad some #ess po!er%u# name been chosen, this 0o&ement mi$ht notha&e been heard o%.

o& et me te you t"e stran$e #art o2 t"is story. Some 2e& mont"s a2ter&ard I &as &ain$ by t"e des o2 t"e ady

&"o o#ened t"e mai t"en and I "a##ened to see a #"oto$ra#" yin$ on t"e to# o2 a $rou# o2 enroment bans. <et mee+#ain t"at I as every Student &"o enros 2or t"is %eac"in$ to send me "is or "er #"oto$ra#" and I in turn send t"emone o2 mine. 6"ie standin$ and ooin$ at t"e #icture it suddeny 2as"ed u#on me t"at t"is &as a #"oto$ra#" o2 t"e manI "ad seen in t"e dream standin$ over t"e "ead o2 t"e cor#se. Here ooin$ ri$"t at me &as t"e same man &"o $ave met"e name o2 t"is Movement in t"at stran$e dream. I caed 2or t"e a##ication enroment o2 t"at $enteman and 2ound outt"at "e ived in /e+andria -$y#t. His a##ication said "e &as a booee#er and &"ie t"at &as true it &as not a o2 t"etrut" 2or Mr irey &as and is a very &eat"y cotton im#orter o2 /e+andria. I visited "im in "is "ome and caed u#on"is 2at"er and mot"er in -n$and a 2e& years a$o.

!ain$ a steno$ra#"er into my o22ice I ased "er to tae a etter. In t"e etter I t"aned Mr irey 2or "is enroment int"is %eac"in$ and in2ormed "im t"at &"et"er "e ne& it or not "e &as to become associated &it" me in t"is Movement. I"ad no &ay o2 no&in$ &"et"er Mr irey &as a miionaire or a #au#er but I did as "im to send me 2orty t"ousanddoars. I :ust came ri$"t out and tod "im &"at I needed to reay #ut t"is Movement on its 2eet. /t t"at time &e &ere in

our second o22ice a very sma a22air and I &as sti &orin$ #art time in t"e !orner Dru$ Store./bout t"ree &ees ater t"e S#oane -astern %rust !om#any o2 S#oane 6as"in$ton caed me over t"e on$

distance tee#"one. On t"e tee#"one &as Mr Sam 7imbrou$". He said t"at "e "ad a ar$e sum o2 money t"ere 2or meand I said to "im =Ho& muc" is it;2orty t"ousand doarsE= He re#ied =o I "ave t&enty t"ousand doars "ere butanot"er t&enty t"ousand doars &i be "ere ne+t mont".= I &ent to S#oane and came bac &it" a cas"ier's c"eAue 2or t&enty t"ousand doars &"ic" is a ot o2 money. In due time t"e ot"er t&enty t"ousand doars arrived and 2or a time Mr irey "ad an interest in t"is Movement. He "as none at t"e #resent time "o&ever as I am returnin$ "im "is money no&at so muc" a mont". %"is story is unusua but it is t"e absoute trut".

There !as a resb"terian minister in 0osco! at that time b" the name o% C#i%%ord Drur". ha&e a##uded to him be%ore. had to#d C#i%%ordDrur" o% !hat !as doin$ and to#d him the troub#e !as ha&in$ in %indin$ a name. 6hen $a&e him the name, " s"chiana" asked him !hathe thou$ht about chan$in$ it to 7s"chianit".7 Drur" rep#ied that he thou$ht it !ou#d be a## ri$ht. *is on#" ob(ection !as that it !ou#d be toomuch #ike 7Christianit".7 discussed that prob#em !ith the $ood !i%e and she !as in %a&our o% chan$in$ the name to 7s"chianit".7 *o!e&er,

decided that ha&in$ secured this name direct#" %rom the source o% a## inte##i$ence and inspiration, had better #ea&e it a#one. This $ood (ud$ement has been abundant#" &indicated, because toda" the name s"chiana is kno!n a## o&er the ci&i#ised !or#d, and there is morecomment and discussion o% this re#i$ious 0o&ement than there is o% an" other re#i$ion on the %ace o% the earth. t is re&o#utionar". t isd"namic. t is po!er%u#. % it is true, e&er" ma(or s"stem o% re#i$ion !hich is %ounded on the death o% od on a cross is an untrue re#i$iousphi#osoph".

?ou can readiy understand t"en t"e consternation and t"e bitterness t"is #"ioso#"y caused &"en I 2irst reeased it.

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Ony a man &"o no&s &"at "e is tain$ about by e+#erience or a com#ete 2oo &oud mae suc" a statement as t"at. I"ave never been accused o2 bein$ very muc" o2 a 2oo and &"en I oo at t"e conditions &"ic" e+ist in t"is &ord todayand &"en I remember t"e 2act t"at t"ese conditions e+ist in s#ite o2 t"e mutitudinous caims o2 t"e various rei$iousor$anisations and &"en I see t"e con2usion amon$ t"ese rei$ions and &"en I read t"at t"e /rc"bis"o# o2 !anterburycas t"e rei$ion o2 8esus !"rist a =boody rei$ion= I no& t"at a com#etey ne& #icture o2 9od is demanded by t"isa$e.

I &i $o so 2ar as to say t"at i2 some ot"er #icture o2 9od is not #resented to t"is eart" &"at &e no& as civiisation&i #eris" 2rom t"e eart". I2 ever I &as convinced t"at t"e 2uness o2 t"e Po&er o2 t"e 9reat S#irit o2 9od &i be brou$"tto t"is eart" by t"is Movement I am convinced o2 t"at t"is mornin$. /s I sit "ere dictatin$ t"is sim#e t"ou$" stran$estory my "eart beeds &"en I t"in o2 t"e misery and su22erin$ &"ic" &i come to t"is eart" be2ore very on$. %"ere &i

#robaby be a ni$"t attac on <ondon by "undreds o2 9erman bombin$ #anes and <ondon and -n$and &i 2a.BO%- %"is &as &ritten be2ore -n$and entered t"e &ar.C / t"e #o&ers o##osed to 9od "ave "eaded u# in one madman and t"e ony movement ca#abe o2 o##osin$ an un$ody creature suc" as Hiter is t"is Movement. I mae t"isstatement because t"e record o2 t"is Movement coverin$ a #eriod o2 eeven years is a record o2 dynamic action by t"ePo&er o2 t"e 9reat S#irit 9od.

There are man" $ood sincere Christians B!hich on#" means members o% the Christian re#i$ion to !hom the passin$ o% the o#d re$imeand the comin$ o% the ne! is brin$in$ much an$uish and %orebodin$ o% comin$ e&i#. 0an" o% these an)ious sou#s are a#read" cr"in$ !ith theo#o Hetski monks, "Woe woe unto you. What ha#e you done with our son of God)" ha&e a#read" recei&ed thousands o% #etters statin$ 7'ouare takin$ a!a" our od and our ib#e and are $i&in$ us nothin$ in return.7 4othin$, ho!e&er, cou#d be %arther %rom the truth than that. ha&etaken a!a" %rom the bib#e and %rom the Christian re#i$ion on#" that !hich is %a#se and !hich, there%ore, !as a detriment to both. A## that is$ood and true, ha&e #e%t. 6here&er "ou %ind Truth, it is the de%inite#" inspired !ord o% od, re$ard#ess o% !ho !rites it. o ha&e notdestro"ed an"thin$ true. The bib#e o% the Christian re#i$ion is sti## remainin$. A## ha&e done is c#ari%" it b" the i$ht o% the pirit o% od as that

i$ht has been re&ea#ed to me. ha&e taken a!a" nothin$ that ha&e not returned one hundred %o#d.It is true I "ave taen a&ay t"e cosmo$ony o2 9enesis but I "ave brou$"t t"e sense o2 9od t"rou$" astronomy and$eoo$y and is not a reveation o2 9od t"rou$" t"ese sciences 2ar sa2er t"an t"e so>caed =divine ins#iration= o2 any

bibeE I "ave dis#uted &it" is"o# 0s"er &"o tod you t"at on October ( at nine o'coc in t"e mornin$ some si+t"ousand years a$o 9od /mi$"ty created t"e "eavens and t"e eart". I "ave caed t"at story untrue and I "ave basted outo2 e+istence any t"eory o2 9od based u#on suc" an untrue statement even t"ou$" t"at date is to be 2ound o22iciayrecorded in a mar$ina note at t"e very be$innin$ o2 t"e !"ristian bibe. %"is is evidence t"at t"ey beieve t"at statemento2 is"o# 0s"er.

ut &"at "ave I $iven in t"e #ace o2 t"is instant creation si+ t"ousand years a$oE Have I not $iven you man's so& but constant evoutionE I "ave com#etey s"attered t"e 2oois" t"eories o2 t"e 2a o2 man but in t"eir #ace I "ave $ivenyou an eterna #ro$ress ever>2or&ard and ever eadin$ to&ard t"e 9reat <i$"t &"ic" is 9od. I "ave #roved t"e %o&er o2 abe story to "ave been &ritten seven t"ousand years be2ore t"e time o2 !"rist. I "ave #roved t"e entire !"ristian

t"eoo$y to be no&n in detai to miions o2 #eo#e t"ousands o2 years be2ore t"e !"rist o2 t"e !"ristian c"urc" or t"ec"urc" itse2 &ere ever "eard o2. ut I "ave re#aced t"at story &it" #"ioo$y. I "ave very e22ectivey taen a&ay t"e=miraces 2or demonstration= but I "ave re#aced t"ese demonstrative miraces &it" t"e #resent Po&er o2 t"e S#irit o2 9od&"ic" a&ays &ors in a beauti2uy natura order. I "ave taen a&ay su#erstition and i$norance but I "ave re#aced t"em&it" true 2ait" and no&ed$e.

I "ave removed t"e 2ase "ao o2 deity 2rom t"e "ead o2 t"e Syrian 8e& 8esus and in #ace o2 t"at 2ase "ao I "avecro&ned "im &it" divine "umanity. I "ave com#etey e+#oded t"e aut"ority and t"e in2aibiity o2 =reveaed t"eoo$y=o2 &"ic" t"e &ord is 2u and I "ave aso taen a&ay &it" it t"e dan$ers and disadvanta$es o2 suc" a rei$ion but I "ave

brou$"t to t"e &ord in its #ace a rationa 9od>ins#ired 2ast>$ro&in$ rei$ion embodyin$ a t"at &as $ood in t"e od2ait"s yet in com#ete "armony &it" &"atever #ro$ress t"e 2uture may brin$.

ut my &or is not 2inis"ed. It "as "ardy started. Muc" sti remains to be done. %"e do$matic &as o2 t"ese odc"urc" made =2ait"s= must be torn do&n 2or t"ey cumber t"e $round &"ere t"e edi2ice o2 a 2ar $reater and nober rei$ion

is bein$ buit. %"e 2oundations o2 t"is ne& rei$ious structure "ave been aid and on t"ese 2oundations under t"e $uidanceo2 t"e ind&ein$ S#irit o2 9od I s"a buid a better a nober a $rander rei$ious structure t"an t"e &ord "as no&n todate. o narro& c"urc">made creed s"a bar t"e #ortas o2 t"at %em#e o2 9od. ut "er doors s"a ever be o#ened to a&"o see t"e trut";not :ust 2or an "our on Sunday mornin$ to "ear some man e+#ound "is t"eories o2 an un#rovabe2ait" but a&ays o#en to t"ose &"o see t"e trut"s o2 9od &"erever t"ose trut"s are to be 2ound. 6it"in t"e sacred &aso2 t"at structure 9od t"rou$" t"is Movement is buidin$ and t"e sacred devotees o2 every 2ait" &i be abe to &ors"i#in security.

o cu# o2 "emoc s"a t"ere sti t"e #ro#"etic or #"ioso#"ic ton$ue. o cro&n o2 t"orns s"a t"ere adorn t"e bro& o2 innocents. o burnin$ 2a$$ots s"a t"ere a&ait t"e doubtin$ mind and "onest sou. o voice s"a t"erecommand e+ce#t t"e sti sma voice o2 t"e S#irit o2 9od. On t"e sacred atar o2 t"e ne& %em#e s"a rest t"e bibe o2 t"e!"ristian rei$ion and t"e bibes o2 every ot"er rei$ion. In 2act on t"e atar in t"at %em#e s"a rest every boo &"ic" "asins#ired t"e "eart o2 man. %"ere in t"at o&y %em#e I am buidin$ t"e o&y aarene t"e Syrian 8e&;8esus;&i berevered and so &i every ot"er Son o2 9od &"o "as "e#ed to ease t"e burdens o2 t"is sin>sic &ord re$ardess o2 &"at"is name may be.

%"e Hoy Mot"er Mary &i be adored by t"ose &"o &is" to adore "er as &i t"e ot"er mot"er Maia and t"e rest o2 t"e vir$ins &"o accordin$ to t"eir res#ective traditions brou$"t 9od to t"is eart" in t"e 2orm o2 a itte mae c"id. Inadorin$ t"ese mot"ers every &oman &"o "as #ayed t"e sacred roe o2 mot"er"ood &i aso be adored 2or t"e c"id t"e



Hoy Mot"er Mary bore i2 at a &as a "uman c"id even as you and I./s you read t"is boo you &i understand t"at a more #itiabe and &ort"ess #erson coud not "ave been c"osen to

brin$ to t"is &ord t"e trut"s o2 9od. ut I s"a not try to s"ir res#onsibiity because o2 my inabiity to do it :ustice.Instead I s"a continue to be $uided by t"e stars o2 "o#e and destiny. %"ere &i a&ays remain in me an in2inite #eaceand ove 2or t"e entire "uman race and as on$ as I ive my every e22ort &i be $iven to t"e tas o2 erectin$ t"is ne&%em#e o2 9od. I2 I continue to be $uided by t"ese t&o stars o2 "o#e and ove my destiny s"a remain sa2e and secure int"e "ands o2 an ever>#resent and ever>ovin$ 9od. 9uided by t"ese t&o stars o2 "o#e and ove &ise men 2rom t"e -ast2rom t"e 6est and 2rom t"e ort" and 2rom t"e Sout" &i ay t"eir treasure at t"e 2eet o2 every ne&born babe and&ecome it to a &ord o2 brot"er"ood &"ie a &ors"i##ers o2 every rei$ion s"a :oin t"e strains o2 #eace on eart" $ood&i to men.

6"ie I am on t"is sub:ect o2 direct mani2estations o2 t"e Po&er o2 9od in my i2e et me $ive you anot"er instance

o2 t"e su#ernatura ine+#icabe $uidance and #rovision o2 t"e Po&er o2 9od. %"is e+#erience came be2ore t"e one I "averecorded about my 2riend Mr irey.

I received a on$>distance ca 2rom e& ?or one day statin$ t"at I coud buy t"e bac cover o2 a ar$e nationama$aine 2or G5))).));t"e re$uar #rice bein$ G*5)).)). I ordered t"at cover reserved and sent my 2u>#a$e dis#ayadvertisement to t"em by airmai. 6orin$ 2or me at t"at time &as t"e son o2 a a#tist minister &"o incidentay be2ore"e $ot t"rou$" 2or$ed my name to c"eAues neary &recin$ t"e Movement. ?et a2ter icin$ "im out one ni$"t in t"emidde o2 t"e &inter I sent tee$rams a over tryin$ to 2ind t"at c"a# and "is &i2e and youn$ c"id to brin$ t"em bac toMosco&. Finay I 2ound t"em. In t"e meantime I rented a "ouse 2urnis"ed it 2ied t"e cear &it" coa and "anded t"eman G5).)) and #ut "im bac to &or. Inside o2 t"irty days "e "ad robbed me a$ain so t"is time I et "im $o 2or $ood.

8ust a 2e& mont"s a$o I &as caed u#on to #rovide "is &i2e &it" t"e materia necessities o2 i2e &"ic" I did. %"e #reac"er's son is ivin$ &it" one o2 "is #arents &"o is a #ro2essor in a a#tist %"eoo$ica Seminary./ t"at is beside t"e #oint o2 course but it is interestin$. %urnin$ to me t"is youn$ man said =6"ere are you $oin$

to $et G5))).)) &it" &"ic" to #ay 2or t"at advertisementE= I re#ied t"at t"e bi &oud not be due 2or ninety days andt"at &"ie I "ad no money at a t"e bi &oud be #aid &"en #resented. I did not "ave t"e 2aintest idea &"ere G5))).))&as comin$ 2rom nor did I care #articuary. I ne& t"at t"is Movement needed t"e immense circuation o2 t"atma$aine and I ordered t"e ad #ut in. In due course t"e bi 2or t"is advertisement came in;G5))).)) &it" t&o #er centdiscount 2or cas". 6e "ad t"at mornin$ e+acty t"ree "undred doars in t"e ban. /##roac"in$ me &it" t"e bi in "is"ands t"is #reac"er's son &"o served in an o22ice ca#acity said =6"at are you $oin$ to do about t"isE= <ooin$ "im int"e eye I said =Deduct t"e t&o #er cent and mai t"em a c"eAue.= <ooin$ at me rat"er stran$ey "e said =Have you anymoney in t"e ban &it" &"ic" to meet t"is c"eAueE= I re#ied t"at t"e c"eAue coud not #ossiby be bac be2ore ten daysand in2ormed t"is youn$ man t"at t"at &as my business and not "is.

It may be interestin$ to tae a #ee into my mind &"ie t"is &as $oin$ on. 6e may be abe to 2ind t"e secret o2 t"e #"enomena success o2 t"is Movement &e may be abe to 2ind #er"a#s t"e secret &"ic" once $ras#ed o#ens t"e entirevista o2 t"e Po&er o2 t"e Ream o2 9od to a. %"is is not my Movement. I 2ee I am ony t"e #"ysica ob:ect bein$ used to

brin$ to t"is eart" &"at I no& to be t"e actua and itera %rut"s o2 9od. I needed t"at advertisin$. I ne& t"at in t"eIn2inite &isdom and #o&er o2 t"e invisibe Ream o2 9od &as t"e ans&er to t"is G5))).)) #ro#osition. So I did t"e onyt"in$ I coud do. I maied a c"eAue 2or t"at amount.

o& et me te you &"at "a##ened. I #ersonay too t"at c"eAue to t"e #ost o22ice &"ic" &as directy across t"estreet and de#osited it in t"e mai c"ute. Inside o2 2ive minutes I received a ca 2rom t"e #resident o2 one o2 our t"reeoca bans. %"e $enteman &"o caed me &as a or&e$ian and o2 a very e+citabe ty#e. =%"is is an at t"e ban s#eain$. I2 you &i come do&n I "ave some money 2or you. 6ere you e+#ectin$ someE= I said to "im over t"e #"one=Ho& muc" money "ave you t"ere;2ive t"ousand doarsE= He re#ied =?es you must "ave been e+#ectin$ it.= Iin2ormed "im t"at I did not "ave t"e 2aintest idea &"ere t"e money "ad come 2rom but I &ent do&n to t"e ban. 6"en

t"e c"eAue 2rom t"e -ast came in some ten days ater it &as #aid. /s a matter o2 2act t"e money &as in t"e ban be2oret"e etter &it" t"e c"eAue encosed e2t Mosco&.

o& et me te you t"e inside story o2 "o& I came to receive t"at c"eAue. Incidentay t"e ady &"o sent it is no& avery $ood 2riend o2 mine ivin$ in Seatte. /t t"is time s"e &as ivin$ in Honouu. S"e "ad seen one o2 our advertisements in a Honouu ne&s#a#er and "ad $one into a boo store to order t"e com#ete %eac"in$. %"e boo storein due course ordered t"e %eac"in$ 2rom me sendin$ a c"eAue 2or same. 6"en t"e <essons arrived at t"e boo store inHonouu t"is ady &ent do&n and e+amined t"em. ot bein$ im#ressed &it" t"em s"e ordered t"em returned. %"e boo seer immediatey cabed me not to cas" t"e c"eAue 2or t"e <essons but to return it. Ho&ever t"is ady evidenty t"ou$"tt&ice 2or s"e &ent bac to t"e boo seer and decided t"at s"e &oud tae t"e <essons. /s a resut o2 "er tain$ t"e<essons a itte ater s"e sat do&n and sent me a c"eAue 2or G5))).)).

I2 I cared to I coud enumerate not one but "undreds o2 instances eAuay as remarabe as t"ese t&o. /s a matter o2 2act t"is entire Movement is 2antastic in its abiity to accom#is" &"at it &ants to accom#is" in s#ite o2 a o##osition.8ust &"en t"e days seem darest in some unusua manner t"e <i$"t be$ins to s"ine. It is uttery im#ossibe 2or me to taeyou into t"e inner recesses o2 my i2e. I cannot &rite t"ose e+#eriences. %"ey tae #ace in a ream &"ic" cannot be&ritten about. ut t"rou$"out t"is entire i2e o2 mine I reco$nise very ceary t"e 9uidin$ Hand o2 t"e S#irit o2 9od.%rue every c"urc" or$anisation in e+istence &oud $ive its ri$"t arm to "ave t"is Movement out o2 t"e &ay but t"at isony #roo2 o2 t"e Po&er o2 9od in t"is Movement.

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It is so revoutionary t"at it means t"e com#ete castin$ a&ay o2 ort"odo+ t"eoo$y and t"e re#acin$ o2 it &it" auniversa rei$ion under &"ic" every ivin$ sou reco$nises t"at t"e 2uness o2 t"e invisibe Po&er o2 t"e invisibe S#irit&"ic" is 9od e+ists on t"is eart" "ere and no& 2or t"e use o2 a. %"ere cannot be any imitations to t"at Po&er. 6it" itand t"rou$" it a t"in$s are #ossibe;even t"e banis"in$ o2 t"e s#ectre &e ca deat". %"at "as a&ays been #ossibeand &oud be actuay mani2ested "ere on t"e eart" &ere it not 2or t"e 2act t"at ort"odo+ rei$ions basin$ t"eir &"oet"eoo$y on t"e 2ase #remise o2 9od bein$ cruci2ied 2or t"e sins o2 t"e &ord.

%"ey "ave come to us &it" a t"eory o2 9od &"ic" t"eory can be 2ound in many #a$an systems o2 rei$ion. %"e!"ristian c"urc" cas t"ese ot"er systems #a$an. ?et t"ey &ere in e+istence &it" t"e very 2undamentas o2 !"ristianityon$ be2ore !"ristianity &as ever "eard o2. So i2 t"ese od rei$ions are #a$an so is !"ristianity. %"e #remise in eac" o2 t"ese systems o2 t"eoo$y is t"at 9od /mi$"ty made a mistae &"en "e created t"e 2irst man and made a bad one. %"en

to recti2y t"at mistae He dro&ned t"e "uman race ie rats in a tra# savin$ ony one 2amiy. 8ud$in$ by t"e conditions int"e &ord today t"is dro&nin$ &as Auite useess. I2 &e no& anyt"in$ at a about 9od and t"e true rei$ion o2 9od I amsayin$ t"at t"ere is no true rei$ion o2 9od on t"e 2ace o2 t"e eart" today. %"ere cannot be. I s"a be tod at t"is #oint byt"eoo$ians t"at t"e c"urc" does not beieve t"ose od stories any more but i2 it does not t"en &"at does it beieveE Itcame into e+istence and 2or on$ "as 2attened u#on suc" #"ioso#"ies as t"ese and i2 t"e c"urc"es t"emseves say t"ey donot beieve t"em &"at is e2tE

Tru#" the time is ripe %or someone to brin$ to this !or#d the true conception o% od. 6hen that true conception is brou$ht and %u##"rea#ised, !hat is happenin$ in /urope toda" can ne&er happen a$ain. A re#i$ious phi#osoph" can rise no hi$her than itse#%. % the od o% an"re#i$ion is #ooked upon as an absent od, and i% that re#i$ion has nothin$ more to o%%er than an ob(ect in the %uture, resu#ts o% that re#i$ionmust be ne$ati&e. The s"chiana 0o&ement teaches no dead od. ts entire phi#osoph" is based upon the present e)istence o% the in%inite,in&isib#e i%e mpu#se !hich must be od. That o!er—that mpu#se—that pirit—li#ing in each one of us here and now . This phi#osoph"then puts a## the o!er o% od into e&er" man8s hand, and the on#" prob#em remainin$ is to disco&er ho! to app#" that o!er.

/ Doctor o2 Divinity said to me in <os /n$ees ast &ee =!an you raise t"e deadE= ot &is"in$ to enter into adiscussion &it" t"e reverend $enteman I said to "im =I2 I coud you &oud be t"e 2irst man I &oud raise.= <et us ee# bot" 2eet on t"e $round "ere and et us reco$nise t"e 2act t"at t"is &ord is saturated &it" t"e t"eoo$y &"ic" "asconsistenty tau$"t t"at 9od may be no&n ony =beyond t"e tomb.= In ot"er &ords &e must die to =enter into t"e $oriest"e <ord "at" #re#ared 2or us.= I do not beieve t"at. I t"in t"at is ony i$norance o2 t"e S#iritua Po&er &"ic" is 9od&"ic" ao&s deat" to mani2est "ere at a. %"e "o#e o2 every rei$ion is eterna i2e. %"ey a "ave made t"e 2ata bunder t"ou$" o2 tein$ us t"at &e cannot #ossiby no& t"at eterna i2e "ere and no&. 6e s"a no& it t"ey te us i2 &ecom#y &it" c"urc" re$uations some&"ere above t"e sy in some ot"er ream. ut may I inter#oate a rat"er #ertinentAuestion "ereE May I as t"ese rei$ious or$anisations &"y it is t"at i2 9od ony &anted us to en:oy eterna i2e beyondt"e sy didn't He mae "is creation in t"e 2irst #ace beyond t"e syE 6"at did "e #ut t"em "ere 2orE 6"y did 9od $o toa t"e troube o2 creatin$ a marveous universe ie t"is ony to destroy it reveain$ "imse2 to "umanity some&"ereeseE It :ust does not add u#. %"e ony in"abited &ord &e no& anyt"in$ about is t"is one. Our i2e &as $iven to us to

ive on t"is eart" so &"y bast t"e "o#es o2 t"e entire "uman race by tein$ it t"at t"e very t"in$ it desires most;ano&ed$e o2 9od;cannot be "ad unti &e "ave #assed out o2 t"is #icture.

%"is may seem ie a 2antastic statement. 6e are "o&ever ivin$ in a 2antastic &ord today. Fantastic t"in$s are"a##enin$ in -uro#e and more 2antastic t"in$s &i "a##en &it" i$"tenin$ ra#idity. I do not no& &"at &i "a##en

be2ore t"is boo a##ears. I do no& t"at t"is eart" is 2or t"e saddest drama ever to be recorded on t"e scro o2 "istory.It's a&ays darest "o&ever be2ore t"e da&n and t"e 2act t"at t"is Movement e+ists;t"e 2act t"at I am on t"e eart"

&it" t"is messa$e;is t"e surest ind o2 #roo2 t"at t"e vision I "od 2ort" to t"e &ord &i be mani2est some day be2oretoo on$. I2 I "ave been caed u#on to #ay some itte #art in t"is &ord o2 drama i2 it "as been $iven to me to see

#er"a#s a itte more ceary t"an some&"at t"e %rut"s o2 9od are I can do not"in$ more t"an to ive conscientiousy astruy as I can ive "odin$ ever be2ore me t"e s#iritua #icture &"ic" is mine.

I must te you o2 t&o more instances &"ic" you &i 2ind very interestin$. Some si+ or seven years a$o I received anemer$ency ca to drive some ei$"t "undred mies in an endeavour to save t"e i2e o2 a sc"oo teac"er &"o &as dyin$. Irarey mae t"ose tri#s no&. In t"ose days I ans&ered every ca o2 t"at ty#e t"at &as "umany #ossibe. I arrived in t"iscity ate at ni$"t and made my &ay to t"e itte &ooden "os#ita &"ere t"is sc"oo teac"er ay dyin$. Juiety o#enin$ t"edoor I &aed into t"e rece#tion room and #ut my "at and coat on t"e tabe. It &as a one>story buidin$ &it" a "arunnin$ u# t"e midde and rooms on eac" side. oticin$ a i$"t comin$ 2rom one o2 t"e rooms I Auiety &aed u# t"e

#assa$e&ay and stood outside t"e door. I "eard a $ir's voice say =ut Doctor Robinson is "ere no&.= Ste##in$ into t"eroom and tain$ one "and o2 t"e $ir in mine and ooin$ "er in t"e eyes I said =Ho& did you no& t"at I &as in t"is

buidin$E= S"e re#ied =My ot"er se2 sa& you come in remove your "at and coat and &a u# t"e "a.=<ooin$ at "er I said =/re you dyin$E= S"e re#ied =I am dyin$ and ivin$. In ot"er &ords &"ie I ie "ere on t"e

bed t"ere is anot"er #art o2 me &"ic" is standin$ beside you.= 9ras#in$ t"e situation I said to "er =/ns&er me t&oAuestions be2ore you $o 2or you &i $o.= %"en I ased "er t"ese t&o Auestions &"ic" s"e ans&ered ceary. =Is t"e

consciousness &"ic" is standin$ beside me t"e same consciousness &"ic" is in t"at body yin$ on t"e bedE= %"e youn$ady re#ied =It is t"e same consciousness but as I ose t"e #"ysica body t"e true consciousness o2 i2e becomes muc"more cear and t"is consciousness it is &"ic" is standin$ beside you.=

I t"en ased "er i2 s"e &oud be abe to commune &it" me a2ter a consciousness "ad e2t t"e body on t"e bed. S"ere#ied =?es I coud communicate &it" you but you &oud not be abe to receive t"e communications because you e+ist

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as a #"ysica body.= %"en I ased "er anot"er Auestion;a darin$ and very vita Auestion;and I as a students o2 t"e so>caed #syc"ic or s#iritua ream to read care2uy "ere. I said to t"is youn$ $ir =Do you no& t"at t"e consciousness&"ic" is standin$ beside me can #revent your #"ysica body 2rom dyin$E= S"e re#ied =I no& t"at but I do not care toive any on$er at"ou$" I coud i2 you &is"ed me to.=

I submit t"is e+#erience &it"out comment and I &ant to $ive you anot"er one &"ic" "a##ened s"orty a2ter. %"e"usband in t"is case is at t"e #resent time in t"e !abinet o2 t"e 0nited States 9overnment. His name is no&n a over t"e&ord. He "as no use 2or me and never did "ave and oudy berated "is &i2e because s"e &as cryin$ &"ie "is o&ndau$"ter "ad not ain in "er itte $rave t"ree days yet.

I received a on$ distance tee#"one ca one a2ternoon asin$ me i2 I coud come at once to a certain city about nine"undred mies 2rom Mosco&. I re#ied t"at I "ad :ust com#eted an ei$"t "undred mie drive but i2 t"e case &as reay an

emer$ency I &oud start no&. %"e beauti2u mot"er im#ored me to eave at once o22erin$ me any amount o2 money to$o. <et me say in #assin$ t"at I "ave never yet ao&ed anyone I "ave ever $one to see to even buy me one $aon o2 $asoine. ot a 2ive>cent #iece "ave I ever taen to&ard e+#enses o2 t"ose tri#s.

%"e #atient &as a itte $ir a beauti2u t"in$. /s I reca it &as interna stre#tococci in2ection and a very bad case. ot no&in$ as muc" o2 t"e Po&er o2 t"e S#irit o2 9od t"en as I no& no& I &ored myse2 u# into a 2reny over t"atcase. %"is &as absoutey t"e &ron$ t"in$ to do but I did it nevert"eess. %"e itte t"in$'s tem#erature &as u# to 1) andt"e abdomen &as boated. Discoouration o2 t"e body "ad started. %"is &as t"e in2ormation I received over t"e tee#"one.

I drove &e into t"e midde o2 t"e ni$"t and 2eein$ myse2 2ain$ asee# I #ued into a itte country "ote at6eiser Ida"o no&in$ t"at it &oud "ave been dan$erous 2or me to "ave driven any 2urt"er. I #ut in a on$>distance cato t"is "ome and tod t"e ady t"at I coud not drive any 2art"er and &as $oin$ to $et a 2e& "ours see# and &oudcontinue t"e :ourney t"e ne+t mornin$. I s"a never 2or$et t"e "a##iness in "er voice as s"e in2ormed me t"at itte an &as better. Her tem#erature "ad $one do&n and s"e &as conscious once more. I t"en in2ormed t"e ady t"at bein$ t"e

case I &oud turn around and drive bac to Mosco& &"ic" I did t"e ne+t mornin$. Frenied attem#ts &ere made to catc"me aon$ t"e &ay bet&een t"at city and Mosco& Ida"o. %"is 2amiy beon$ed to t"e Mormon c"urc" or$anisation &"ic""as very itte use 2or any rei$ious or$anisation outside o2 its o&n. 6"en it &as discovered t"at t"e mot"er "ad sent 2or me t"ere &as #enty o2 troube bre&in$. On cain$ on t"is itte $ir t"at same a2ternoon and on noticin$ t"e remaraberecovery t"e attendin$ #"ysicians be$an to sAuirt into "er arm somet"in$ t"e nature o2 &"ic" I do not no&;#robabyanti>stre#tococci serum. In any event be2ore ni$"t t"e itte $ir &as dead.

I drove bac t"e ne+t &ee and t"e mot"er o2 t"at itte c"id and I sat #racticay a day in my car in t"e cemetery&"ie s"e tod me t"e inside story o2 &"at "ad "a##ened. 6"en consciousness "ad returned to t"is itte c"id "er mot"er &as so "a##y t"at s"e t"re& "er arms around "er nec and said =O" an you are $oin$ to ive. ?ou are $oin$ to iveand I am so "a##y.= %"e itte $ir "o&ever "avin$ been so cose to deat"'s door t"at s"e "ad cau$"t somet"in$ o2 t"e$ories o2 t"e true i2e &"ic" is 9od re#ied =O" but mama I don't &ant to ive. I "ave seen &"ere I am $oin$ and I donot &ant to ive "ere any on$er.=

o& t"ese t&o cases "ave a direct bearin$ on &"at I am tryin$ to do inso2ar as brin$in$ t"e true no&ed$e o2 9odto t"is eart". In t"e one case t"e youn$ ady reaised t"at "er rea se2 &as abe to overcome #"ysica deat" "ad s"edesired to. In t"e second case t"e itte $ir ony si+ years od &it" c"idis" "uman nature "ad c"osen to ive in t"e 9od>consciousness instead o2 ivin$ in t"e surroundin$s to &"ic" s"e "ad been accustomed. I coud say more about t"osesurroundin$s but I &on't. %"e 2act I am tryin$ to drive "ome to you is t"at "ad it not been 2or t"e 2oois" and #a$anteac"in$s o2 #resent>day c"urc" or$anisations t"at one must die to no& 9od t"is eart" &oud be a #aradise no&.!ertainy no c"urc" in t&o t"ousand years or in ten t"ousand years "as been abe to advocate any rei$ious #"ioso#"y or do one sin$e t"in$ to&ard main$ 9od a reaity "ere and no&. -very ast one o2 t"em "as not"in$ more to o22er t"an a="ome in "eaven.= /s 2ar as I am concerned i2 &e do not no& "eaven "ere &e never s"a no& it. ot t"at i2e in itse2 is destructibe. It is not. It is com#etey indestructibe. ut &"y cannot &e no& and reco$nise t"e 2uness o2 t"e Reamo2 9od &"ic" Ream &e s"a no& &it"out t"e bodiesE I re#eat cannot &e no& t"e Po&er "ere and no& instead o2 "avin$ to &ait unti t"is i2e is overE %"at is an untrue #"ioso#"y. It dis"onours 9od. %"e essence o2 everyt"in$ t"at "asi2e is 9od and 9od cannot be destroyed. It is my contention t"at it &as never meant 2or 9od to be "idden 2rom t"e"uman race 2or even one second and &ere it not 2or t"ese =cruci2ied $od stories= t"is &ord &oud be a 2ar di22erent

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Chapter -ive

A Co/ardy Atta"#

/% %HIS POI% I M? S%OR? I 6I<< RI-F<? %-<< ?O0 about &"at is reco$nised to be t"e mostcontem#tibe vicious attac ever made on a man by a com#etitor. %"e ori$inator o2 t"is attac no& ies sient in t"e tomb

;s"ot t"rou$" t"e "ead by "is sma ne#"e& not too on$ a$o. Stran$e;#assin$ stran$e "o& t"e "and o2 9od #rotectst"e one &"o de#ends u#on t"at Hand 2or $uidance. it is interestin$ to note t"at as a resut o2 t"is attac every manconnected &it" it "as rea#ed t"e re&ard o2 "is #er2idy. I s"a not $o into too muc" detai as many o2 t"e #artici#ants aresti aive and sti ive in Mosco&. I don't &ant to embarrass t"em by $ivin$ you t"eir names and t"e #art eac" #ayed int"is most contem#tibe o2 a attacs.

Senator ora" s#eain$ o2 t"is attac said =6it"out Auestion t"is "as been t"e most merciess t"e mostcontem#tibe and t"e most vicious attac ever to come to my notice. 8ust as on$ as Doctor Robinson needs my "e# "es"a "ave it.= Had it not been 2or Senator ora" t"e &ay mi$"t "ave been muc" "arder t"an it &as at"ou$" 9od no&sit &as "ard enou$". Ho&ever t"e true s#iritua #ioneer $ets used to "ards"i#s and bo&s 2or t"ose t"in$s are a 2ore$oneconcusion &"en one attem#ts to brin$ to t"is &ord a conce#tion o2 9od &"ic" does not 2it in &it" t"e conce#tion "ed

by t"e e+istin$ rei$ious or$anisations.%"e remarabe t"in$ about my case is t"e unerrin$ and s&i2t retribution &"ic" 2oo&ed in t"e &ae o2 t"ose

mis$uided individuas &"o tried to sto# t"is Movement and drive me and mine into some stran$e and t"ere to dieunno&n or to su22er remorse as on$ as &e ived. <itte t"ey ne& t"at t"e Po&er o2 9od is be"ind t"is Movement andits Founder. Had t"ey no&n t"at t"ey &oud "ave t"ou$"t t&ice be2ore en$a$in$ in suc" scurrious attacs.

<et me "ere recount &"at "a##ened to t"ose men and t"e order in &"ic" it "a##ened and you may t"en as yourse2 &"et"er it #ays to try to sto# a Movement &"ic" "as 9od in it. %"e ori$inator o2 t"e attac &as s"ot t"rou$" t"e "ead. Henever ne& &"at "it "im. His t&o itte ne#"e&s 2rom 7amat" Fas &ere visitin$ in Mosco& and 9eor$e <am#"ere t"eori$inator o2 t"ese vicious attacs "ad taen t"em out sAuirre s"ootin$. On t"e &ay "ome t"e boys &"o &ere in t"e bac seat o2 t"e car sa& a sAuirre.

%"eir t&enty>t&o ri2es &ere oaded and in t"eir an+iety to s"oot t"e sAuirre one o2 t"em "ad "is 2in$er on t"etri$$er. =0nce 9eor$e sto# Auic. %"ere's a sAuirre= said one o2 t"e t&o boys. 9eor$e sto##ed Auicy and t"e sudden

brain$ motion o2 t"e car caused t"e boy's 2in$er to ti$"ten on t"e tri$$er and t"e buet entered t"e base o2 t"e brain o2 9eor$e <am#"ere. / #remature deat"E Per"a#s. Some say a :ust re&ard but &"o am I to :ud$eE

%"e second man invoved &as a 2ormer 0nited States Senator. His de2eat created a nationa sensation 2or bein$ a e& Deaer and "avin$ t"e active bacin$ o2 t"e President and t"e !abinet "is re>eection seemed assured and "is de2eatim#ossibe. ?et "e &as de2eated 2or re>eection and t"e 0nited States Senator &"o &as "e#ed and baced 2inanciay byme &as over&"emin$y eected. %"is Senator is O% a e& Deaer. He &i $o 2ar in $overnment #oitica circes

"o&ever.%"e ne+t man &"o inter2ered and &"o did everyt"in$ in "is #o&er to u#set t"is Movement &as a <ieutenant>9overnor. He &as bady de2eated in t"e same eection &"ic" s&e#t t"e 0nited States Senator to de2eat. %"is man aso &asa e& Deaer and "ad t"e bessin$s o2 t"e Democrats on "is "ead. %&o State Senators aso &ent do&n to de2eat and oneattorney &as u# on disbarment #roceedin$s &"ic" as I &rite t"is are sti #endin$. / district attorney &as s&e#t out o2 o22ice and t"e ne&s#a#er &"ic" ins#ired t"ese attacs o&ned t"en by <am#"ere &as mer$ed &it" my #a#er ast

ovember B1,3,C. %"ere is ony one ne&s#a#er in Mosco& no& and I contro t"at. As re#ate these e)periences to "ou, "ou !i## notice that m" p#an o% de%eatin$ the enem" !as to #et him de%eat himse#%. did not %i$ht

back. A specia# !eek#" paper !as $otten out in an attempt to s!in$ pub#ic opinion a$ainst me, and !hi#e the artic#es in the paper !erecrimina##" #ibe##ous and kne! it, and !hi#e !as be$$ed to take action, (ust sat back and smi#ed and #et these %orces !hich !ere tr"in$ tode%eat a 0o&ement o% od destro" themse#&es. That is e)act#" !hat the" did. did not make one mo&e o% reta#iation. kne! the" !ere beaten%rom the &er" start. *ad these cases been hand#ed an" other !a", mi$ht ha&e #ost. ut, reco$nisin$ the omnipotent o!er o% the in&isib#e

pirit, od, in m" #i%e and in the 0o&ement, I knew the outcome from the beginning .%"ere &ere times &"en it ta+ed t"e in$enuity o2 Senator ora" to de2eat t"e =enemy= as "e caed t"em but t"ede2eat came and i2 ever a man &as douby vindicated I am t"at man. %"ere "as been ots o2 2oois"ness in my i2e and I"ave "urt myse2 #enty #er"a#s by t"is 2oois"ness but t"ere "as never been one &ron$ move made &"ic" coud

#ossiby "urt anyone ese. I "ave never done one t"in$ &"ic" is dis"onest. %"ose =2oois"= t"in$s I "ave e+#ained to youin detai and I et you be t"e :ud$e in vie& o2 &"at "as "a##ened since as to &"et"er or not t"ese t"in$s &ere 2or better or 2or &orse. /ny&ay t"ey &ere my doin$s and i2 t"ere &as any su22erin$ to be done as a resut o2 t"em I aone su22ered.

n 1933, s"chiana !as assumin$ ma(or proportions, and our printin$ bi## !as &er" hea&". t a&era$ed t!o thousand do##ars a month and!as a## done b" eor$e amphere8s ne!spaper, $he ,aily *tar-/irror . For thirt" "ears, this ne!spaper had dominated, or tried to dominate,the #oca# po#itica# %ie#d. 4atura##", another ne!spaper !as not !e#comed, and e&er" attempt !as made to keep it out. *onest, #e$itimate,competiti&e methods, ho!e&er, !ere %or$otten. *ad the" been used, amphere probab#" cou#d ha&e stopped me &er" easi#". *e did not kno!

ho! to hand#e competition thou$h, and tried b" underhand, dirt", contemptib#e means to $et m"se#% and m" paper out o% the !a". nstead, hemade me more %riends than e&er had be%ore, and the chie% reason made so man" %riends !as because !as smart enou$h not to %i$htback. The atah Count" and 0osco! peop#e #iked that. Their s"mpathies !ere, and sti## are, !ith me.

%&o t"ousand doars a mont" &as a ot o2 money to #ay out 2or #rintin$. ?et I did not no& "o& to $et around it ast"is sum &as in addition to our o&n t&o muti$ra#" mac"ines &"ic" &ere runnin$ t"ose days t"ree ei$"t>"our s"i2ts. /s

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a matter o2 2act in t"at year &e "ad t"ree com#ete cre&s &"ic" &ored ei$"t "ours eac" and t"en &e coud not ee#abreast o2 t"e demand 2or t"e %eac"in$. %"e #ace &as never cosed. %"ose &"o did not "ave t"e money &it" &"ic" to

#ay 2or t"e %eac"in$ &ere $iven it 2ree o2 c"ar$e. I did t"at unti one day t"e cas"ier caed my attention to t"e 2act t"att"ere &as so muc" mai $oin$ out to t"e =2ree= students t"at i2 it e#t u# anot"er mont" &e coud not o#erate 2or t"enumber o2 <essons bein$ sent to t"ose &"o did not #ay &as $reater t"an t"e number sent to t"ose &"o did #ay. aturaysuc" a situation coud not ast so a$ainst my &is"es I &as com#eed to discontinue t"e =2ree= distribution o2 <essons.6"en someone endo&s t"e Movement I s"a $o bac to t"at system.

My #rivate study in t"ose days &as over !rei$"ton's store in Mosco&. I "ad t&o itte o22ices in &"ic" t"e #ersonamai &as ans&ered by myse2 and a secretary. One day a noc came at t"e door. O#enin$ it I sa& t"ere a s"ort man &it"a decidedy Indian sant to "is 2eatures. / bi$ ci$ar &as ti$"ty cenc"ed bet&een "is teet". I invited t"e $enteman in and

ased "im &"at I coud do 2or "im.=My name's Marineau. I run a itte t&o>by>2our &eey ne&s#a#er in - River= "e re#ied. 6e s"oo "ands and Iased "im to sit do&n and ta about &"at &as on "is mind.

=6aa I've &anted to meet you 2or a on$ time;"eard a ot about you and &ant to $et some o2 your #rintin$. I've $ota $ood #ant but t"e 6eyer"aeuser <umber #ant is cosed do&n and t"e to&n o2 - River is a s"ot to "e= came bac t"is man by t"e name o2 Marineau.

e)p#ained to him that m" printin$ !as a## bein$ done b" the *tar-/irror in 0osco! and to#d him that did not be#ie&e !anted to sendan" o% it out o% to!n.

76e##, he##, 8&e $ot to eat as !e## as amphere,7 came back 0arineau. 78m in daho, too, (ust about %i%t" mi#es %rom 0osco!.7 There !asa pecu#iar ndian $#int in this man8s e"e !hich rather #iked. *ere !as a rea# chap, so $i&in$ him a %e! sheets o% the #iterature on !hich !e!ere runnin$ #o!, asked him to $o to /#k +i&er and $i&e me ?uotations. n a %e! da"s, 0arineau !as back !ith the ?uotations. Comparin$them !ith the prices had been pa"in$ the *tar-/irror , sa! that the" !ere about ha#% as hi$h. at once sa!, too, that it certain#" !ou#d sa&e

me a #ot o% mone" i% cou#d $et m" printin$ done at ha#% o% !hat had been pa"in$.<ooin$ at Marineau I said =6"at are you tryin$ to do;bid beo& cost :ust to $et t"is #rintin$ and t"en soa meater onE= Picin$ u# "is "at Marineau said =?ou're not tain$ to me. I2 I can't mae t&enty>2ive #er cent on your

#rintin$ I don't &ant it.= I ased "im i2 "e meant t"at "e coud mae t&enty>2ive #er cent on t"e Auoted #rices and "ein2ormed me t"at "e did. %"en it da&ned on me t"at I "ad been #ayin$ about t&ice as muc" 2or my #rintin$ as I s"oud"ave #aid. %"at meant t"at I "ad been osin$ in t"e nei$"bour"ood o2 one t"ousand doars a mont" t"rou$" <am#"ere'soverc"ar$es. I $ave t"is Indian>ooin$ $enteman &"o is by t"e &ay a one>si+teent" Indian t"e orders and in due timet"e &or came bac &e done. More orders &ere sent ater.

uttin$ t!o and t!o to$ether, decided that m" best bet !as to o!n a printin$ p#ant o% m" o!n. A %e! da"s #ater, takin$ someone !ithme !ho kne! the &a#ue o% printin$ p#ants, s#ipped into /#k +i&er. *ad not kno!n !here the to!n !as, shou#d most certain#" ha&e missedit. There is a !onder%u# e#ectric #umber mi## there, c#osed do!n, more8s the pit". t did not take #on$ to #ocate the 5lk 9i#er 3ews, and inside o% t!o minutes it 6as a## o&er /#k +i&er that 7Doc +obinson is in to!n #ookin$ throu$h the 4e!s p#ant.7 i## 0arineau !as not at home, and !e

!ent throu$h the p#ant, m" associate $i&in$ me the 7#o!-do!n7 on its &a#ue. A%ter a!hi#e i## %#oated in, and !ithout !astin$ !ords, askedhim !hat he !anted %or this hu$e metropo#itan !eek#", and he rep#ied, 7h, don8t kno!. 6hat8## "ou $imme %er it@7 rep#ied that !ou#d $i&ehim se&en thousand do##ars. This !as acceptab#e, and !rote a che?ue and obtained a bi## o% sa#e. i## o%ten sa"s that it took him si) monthsto rea#ise that he had so#d his p#ant to me. That is the !a" usua##" operate—instant#". %irst make up m" mind !hat it is !ant and then $oand do it. ha&e a#!a"s been #ike that make a bi$ decision spontaneous#", !here others mi$ht ha$$#e and (a$$#e %or a month. can c#ose adea# in %i%teen minutes or #ess, and usua##" come out on the ri$ht side o% the #ed$er.

i## promised to $et the p#ant mo&ed to 0osco! at once, so !ent back and #eased an o#d $ara$e %or the ne!#" ac?uired s"chianaprintin$ p#ant. n some !a" or other, as ne!spapers ha&e a habit o% doin$, a ne!spaper in pokane heard o% that sa#e. The ne)t mornin$there came out on the %ront pa$e B%or !as ne!s in an" 6estern paper a picture o% m"se#% and a statement that had bou$ht the 5lk 9i#er 3ews and !as mo&in$ it to 0osco! to start another ne!spaper. 4othin$ !as %urther %rom m" mind. !as not a ne!spaper man, kne!nothin$ about ne!spapers, and m" !ho#e interest !as in brin$in$ to men and !omen the truths o% od, and not in the ne!spaper business.

oin$ to !ork that mornin$, eor$e amphere stopped me outside o% the bui#din$. *e had a cop" o% the ne!spaper in his hand. hadnot seen the paper that mornin$. 7ee here "ou son-o%-a ———,7 started amphere, 7 !ant to ta#k to "ou. There8s a #ot o% thin$s "ou don8t

kno!, and b" od, 8m $oin$ to te## them to "ou no!. I own the newspaper business in this town and am going to keep on owning it. I tell thebusinessmen of this county where theyll ad#ertise and if you go through with this newspaper deal Ill put you in the federal !enitentiary and by God I#e got enough political pull to do it.7 #ooked at amphere rather interested#" and said, 7Are "ou drinkin$@7 *e !as a chronic drinker.7Don8t make a damned bit o% di%%erence i% am. 8m sober enou$h to te## "ou !here to head in.7 ookin$ at him amused#" this time, said,7amphere, don8t kno! !hat "ou are ta#kin$ about, and 8m a rather bus" man, so i% "ou ha&e no ob(ections, #8## #ea&e "ou no! and $o to!ork.7

#ockin$ m" !a", amphere said, 7'ou kno! $oddam !e## !hat 8m ta#kin$ about,7 and pu##in$ the pokane paper %rom his pocket, hesho!ed me the artic#e !hich stated that had bou$ht the 5lk 9i#er 3ews and !as mo&in$ it to 0osco! to en$a$e in the ne!spaper business.t !as ne!s to me. 6hat amphere said about 7te##in$ the businessmen o% 0osco! !here the" cou#d ad&ertise7 !as a#so ne!s. ersona##",!hi#e kne! there !as but one paper here, and had been %or about thirt" "ears, serious#" ?uestioned !hether 0r amphere contro##ed a##the business houses in 0osco!. n %act, had a decided#" di%%erent idea, so standin$ there, thou$ht much in a short space o% time./specia##" did think about the threat to put me in the Federa# penitentiar" throu$h po#itica# 7pu##.7

ookin$ amphere ri$ht in the e"es, said to him, 7amphere, do not kno! !here that paper secured that artic#e—certain#" not %romme, %or ne&er ha&e had the %aintest notion o% puttin$ another ne!spaper in 0osco!. *o!e&er,7 added, 7i% "ou think "ou contro# the po#icieso% the businessmen in 0osco!, and i% "ou think that "ou can dictate !here the" a## are to ad&ertise, and i% "ou think "ou can put me in theFedera# penitentiar", 8## $i&e "ou a chance to do (ust that, %or do not a$ree !ith an"thin$ "ou8&e said.7 This interested the man, %or it !as a%act that !ith one ne!spaper he had been ab#e to dominate the #oca# %ie#d comp#ete#". 7amphere,7 said , 7"ou8&e $i&en me an idea. 4o! #etme $i&e "ou a #itt#e ad&ice. Go up to your office take off your coat and go to work for Im putting in a newspaper."

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%"is made "im boi. He "it me across t"e 2ace &it" t"e S#oane #a#er and t"en very &isey &aed a&ay s"outin$ atme as "e did so =?ou t"in I can't #ut you in t"e #en do youE I' s#end my &"oe 2ortune doin$ :ust t"at i2 I "ave to andyou "ad better &atc" out 2or I' $et you in t"e #en i2 it's t"e ast t"in$ I do.= %"at ni$"t rumours 2oated bac to me 2romt"e -s' %em#e &"ic" &as <am#"ere's "an$>out t"at "e &as main$ o#en t"reats t"at "e &oud #ut me in t"e

#enitentiary and I &as soemny advised by scores o2 #eo#e not to #ut in t"at #a#er. -videnty t"ey ne& <am#"ere better t"an I ne& "im. Ho&ever I do not bu22. I never $ive nor tae a bu22. I did not beieve t"at <am#"ere socontroed t"e Mosco& community t"at "e coud sto# me 2rom #uttin$ in anot"er daiy #a#er.

To pro&e that !as correct in m" dia$nosis o% the #oca# situation, #et it be said that the %irst issue o% the paper 0arineau and put out !ast!ent"-si) pa$es a$ainst the *tar-/irrors ei$ht pa$es, and the comp#ete edition !as abso#ute#" (ammed !ith ad&ertisin$. There !as #itt#eroom %or ne!s in the paper. 0ore than that, e&er" business house in 0osco!, !ith on#" three e)ceptions, ad&ertised in that paper !hich ca##ed $he ,aily 3ews-9e#iew . This is not a s"chiana ne!spaper, but a re$u#ar dai#" e&enin$ paper !hich no! has the #ar$est circu#ation in4orth daho. There is nothin$ !ou#d #ike better than to te## "ou a## the thin$s that happened !hi#e that paper !as comin$ out.

6e "ad an od !am#be #ress and eac" s"eet o2 t"e t&enty>si+ "ad to be run t"rou$" by "and and re>run to #rint ont"e ot"er side. ?et t"at 2irst issue consisted o2 t&enty>si+ #a$es and &e deivered over 2ive t"ousand co#ies o2 it. / ni$"ton$ &e &ored. First i 2ed t"e #ress and t"en I &oud 2eed it. %"en someone ese &oud 2eed. Mosco& at ast ne&t"at it "ad anot"er ne&s#a#er. I #ersonay soicited t"e advertisin$ and <am#"ere &oud 2oo& me u# one side o2 Mainstreet and do&n t"e ot"er. He t"reatened every businessman in to&n t"at =I' brea you i2 you advertise &it" t"at son>o2>a

;;.=%"e businessmen "o&ever seemed to "ave more con2idence in my abiity t"an t"ey "ad in "is 2or as #reviousy

stated ast ovember &e =mer$ed= bot" #a#ers at my su$$estion and accordin$ to my terms. %"us t"e 2amous Mosco&=ne&s#a#er 2i$"t= &as ended. %"e man &"o instituted t"e 2i$"t &as in "is $rave. / 0nited States Senator &as =ame>duced= a <ieutenant 9overnor and t&o State Senators &ere de2eated one attorney &as u# 2or disbarment #roceedin$s

one District /ttorney &as voted out o2 o22ice. Mosco& is satis2ied &it" its #resent ne&s#a#er set>u# 2or &e $ive it t"every best #a#er &e can. <am#"ere $ave t"em t"e c"ea#est ooin$ s"eet I "ave ever seen any&"ere but "e made a 2ortune by so doin$.

There are a %e! #au$hab#e incidents connected !ith this 7ne!spaper %i$ht7 !hich think "ou !ou#d #ike to hear. The" !i## sho! "ou ho!&icious this %i$ht !as, and ho! terri%ic !as the pressure e)erted to 7$et Doc +obinson.7 ne&er did take serious#" the amphere threat, o%trepeated, to 7rai#road me into the Federa# penitentiar".7 underestimated the man b" so doin$. *e came &er" c#ose to doin$ (ust that, or !orse. sha## #ea&e out o% this narrati&e man" thin$s, man" names, %or do not desire to embarrass an"one. There is much cou#d te##, and i% !ere to te## it, e&en at this #ate date, it !ou#d be sensationa#, but sha## re%rain. sha## #et the dead bur" their dead. ho#d no animosit" to!ardan"one. ha&e not the time %or that, %or this s"chiana 0o&ement keeps me as bus" as care to be.

6e en$a$ed the n#and 0otor Frei$ht to mo&e the p#ant o% the 5lk 9i#er 3ews %rom /#k +i&er to 0osco!. t !as a bi$ (ob, and notha&in$ enou$h trucks and trai#ers in 0osco! to do the (ob, the %rei$ht compan" sent to its u##man, 6ashin$ton o%%ice ten mi#es a!a" and

borro!ed a trai#er to assist. 6hen the cara&an o% printin$ materia#s, presses, and #ike ho&e into &ie!, kne! somethin$ !as !ron$. tandin$outside the $ara$e had rented !as the sheri%%, t!o deputies, the District Attorne", and the 0a"or—?uite an a$$re$ation to !e#come another ne!spaper into 0osco!.

6"at it &as a about I did not no& but I stood t"ere &atc"in$ care2uy 2or deveo#ments. 6"en t"e traier &it"t"e 6as"in$ton icense dre& u# t"e s"eri22 "is de#uties and t"e rest o2 t"e e$a i$"ts #ounced on t"at #oor driver andtoo "im to t"e county :ai c"ar$in$ "im &it" drivin$ a 6as"in$ton truc>traier in Ida"o &it"out an Ida"o icense ast"ey "ad a ri$"t to do. 0nder ot"er circumstances t"is #oor c"a# &oud "ave been $iven a =ticet.= /s it &as "e &ast"ro&n into :ai. He did not stay t"ere on$ "o&ever 2or inside o2 2i2teen minutes I "ad #aid t"e bai money and secured"is reease. %"ere &as a ot o2 e+citement on t"e corners o2 -i$"t" and Main t"at day.

Rat"er an amusin$ incident occurred &"ic" I &i reate "ere. ot ony did t"e o22icias #ut t"e driver o2 t"e truc in :ai t"ey con2iscated t"e mac"inery aso. %"is t"ey #ut in anot"er $ara$e across t"e street. 6ain$ u# very Auiety to t"eDistrict /ttorney I said =I su##ose you no& &"at you are doin$ in con2iscatin$ my mac"inery do you notEN

=O" yes I no& &"at I'm doin$;t"at mac"inery &as ie$ay brou$"t into Ida"o and by 9od I've con2iscated it="e re#ied. Smiin$ 2ainty I said to "im =etter $o oo t"at u# brot"er. /s it is it mi$"t cost t"is county and yourse2 rat"er "eavy dama$es.= He evidenty t"ou$"t t"at over 2or a #o&>&o& &as "ed bet&een t"e s"eri22 and "im &it" t"eresut t"at "e in2ormed me t"at I coud "ave my mac"inery. I did not &ant t"e mac"inery in anot"er man's $ara$e"o&ever. I &anted it in mine. %"e county o22icers baced out t"e truc drove it to our ne& "ome and t"ere unoaded t"emac"inery.

I "ad secured a itte dru$ store across t"e street 2rom &"ere t"is "a##ened. %"e ne+t =sAueee= movement "it met"ere. %o run t"is #"armacy I "ad en$a$ed a youn$ man &"o &as a icensed #"armacist in t"e State o2 6as"in$ton butnot in Ida"o. %"e a& in suc" cases is t"at a re$istered #"armacist in one state may #ractice "is #ro2ession in anot"er state

by re$isterin$ &it" t"e ationa /ssociation o2 oards o2 P"armacy. It usuay is about 2our mont"s be2ore t"e ne&certi2icate is received. %"e cost is t&enty>2ive doars. One day t"is ne& man &"o "ad com#ied &it" t"e a& by sendin$

in "is a##ication ban 2or re$istry in Ida"o #us t"e sum o2 t&enty>2ive doars caed me u#. =%"e District /ttorney isdo&n "ere and says "e is $oin$ to "ave to #adoc t"e #ace because I am not a re$istered #"armacist in t"e State o2 Ida"o.= %"e a& $ives one t"e ri$"t to #ractice unti t"e certi2icate is received #rovided t"e re$istration &it" t"e ationa/ssociation "as been made. 9oin$ do&n to t"e dru$ store I sa& t"e District /ttorney &"o &as at t"at time counse 2or <am#"ere standin$ t"ere. /s I entered "e said to me =Doc I'm sorry but I' "ave to oc t"is #ace u#. %"is man isre$istered in t"e State o2 6as"in$ton but "e is not re$istered in t"e State o2 Ida"o.=

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=6e &"y don't youE= I ased. =?ou need not "ave sent 2or me. I2 you're $oin$ to oc it u# you're $oin$ to oc itu#. ?ou're t"e District /ttorney;not I.= Puin$ t"e ey to t"e store out o2 my #ocet I "anded it to "im sayin$ =Here'st"e ey.=

He ooed at me rat"er Aueery 2or "e did not no& muc" about me as yet at"ou$" "e no&s ots no&. =Doc you've$ot somet"in$ u# your seeve= "e said =6"at is itE=

I muttered somet"in$ about my discoverin$ t"at I "ad better "ave ots o2 t"in$s u# my seeve in Mosco& and said to"im =?ou oc u# t"is dru$ store at your o&n ris and on your o&n res#onsibiity. I2 you are actin$ ie$ay you' #ayt"e bi.=

He e2t and I "ad "im 2oo&ed. He &ent to t"e o22ice o2 t"e ot"er ne&s#a#er and a2ter about t"irty minutes returnedto t"e dru$ store a$ain. =Doc I don't &ant to "ave to oc t"is store u# and I don't beieve I &i= "e said. I in2ormed "im

t"at i2 it &as "is duty to oc it u# "e "ad better do it. -videnty "e t"ou$"t better or &as not Auite sure I &as as bi$ a 2ooas I ooed 2or "e said =o Doc I' $ive you a c"ance to $et an Ida"o <icentiate in "ere but you do t"at as Auicy asyou can.= %"is &as #ure bu22 and an e22ort to save "is 2ace. Ho&ever not carin$ #articuary &"et"er "e cosed it u# or not I caed "im into t"e bac room and t"ere "an$in$ on t"e &a &as my o&n Ida"o State P"armacy <icense. Inaddition to t"at I s"o&ed "im t"e recei#t 2rom t"e ationa /ssociation &"ic" #rotected t"e man I "ad &orin$ 2or me.

S"orty a2ter t"at t"e beauti2u 2o&ers &"ic" border my "ome &ere a #ued u# one ni$"t and severa #icayunis"attem#ts &ere made to mae i2e as miserabe as #ossibe. Ho&ever t"e ne&s#a#er $re& by ea#s and bounds.

n the meantime, amphere $ot drunker and drunker. A## he cou#d ta#k about !as 7puttin$ that son-o%-a—— in the Federa# penitentiar".7 cou#d not understand this penitentiar" threat, "et he continua##" made it. n one occasion he to#d a %riend o% mine, 7That —— has cost memore than %i%teen thousand do##ars a#read", but it !on8t be #on$ no!. 8## bet "ou %i&e thousand do##ars that he is in 0c4ei#8s s#and be%ore ne)tFebruar".7 This a## came back to me, and !as m"sti%ied as to ho! he !as $oin$ to $et me into the Federa# penitentiar". put most o% it do!nas 7booe-ta#k,7 but !as mistaken. *e meant business. 0ore than one businessman !arned me, 7amphere is &er" &icious. *e has #ots o%

mone", and he ne&er %or$ets. *e8## keep a%ter "ou ti## he $ets "ou.7 A## this !as not too nice, %or !anted a %ree hand !ith s"chiana. t !as$ro!in$ &er" %ast and takin$ e&er" e%%ort cou#d make, and !hi#e a## this did not disturb me much, it did keep me constant#" a#ert. Thesecontinued threats !ere some!hat anno"in$.

One day by t"e $ra#evine I "eard o2 a =secret= con2erence bet&een a 0nited States Senator <am#"ere t"e District/ttorney and t&o ot"er $entemen &"ose names I s"a not mention. I reay too t"at con2erence seriousy and no&in$no& t"e en$t"s to &"ic" <am#"ere &oud $o to =$et= me I e2t at once 2or 6as"in$ton D. !. to ta t"in$s over &it"Senator ora". %"e Senator in2ormed me t"at "e "ad been ee#in$ #retty cose tab on t"in$s and it seemed t"at "e &as in

#ossession o2 more in2ormation t"an I &as. He tod me to =ie o&= and do not"in$ and t"e 2irst move o#eny madea$ainst me to &ire "im.

The ne)t da" had a con%erence !ith resident +oose&e#t. The ne!spaper %i$ht !as not mentioned. The resident ta#ked !ith me abouts"chiana. 6e discussed the teachin$s o% hi#ip rooks, and he asked me ho! pro$ress !as bein$ made on +obinson ark. The$o&ernment had o%%ered to bui#d a #ar$e dam, thereb" creatin$ a beauti%u# arti%icia# #ake i% someone !ou#d bu" the #and and donate it to the cit"

or the count". bou$ht the #and. This !as discussed, and !hen #e%t, the resident shook hands cordia##" and asked me ne&er to come to6ashin$ton !ithout ca##in$ on him.

I must mention "ere a itte sc"eme to secure t"at ae and ee# it in t"e "ands o2 a 2e&. I ni##ed t"at sc"eme in t"e bud. / cor#oration "ad been 2ormed o2 a 2e& oca men. %"ey &ere $oin$ to #ut u# t"e money 2or t"e ae and #ar andt"ey t"emseves "ad a$reed to ee# a t"e ots immediatey ad:oinin$ t"e ae sein$ t"e rest to 8o"n J. Pubic.Marineau &ired me in San Francisco &"en "e $ot &ind o2 t"at sc"eme and t"e ne+t day Saturday sa& me in t"e o22ice o2 t"e Federa <and an in S#oane.

A che?ue had a#read" been recei&ed %or the #and %rom a 0osco! $ent#eman, but in%ormed the president !hat the p#a" !as. ho!in$me the che?ue %rom 0osco!, he said, 7s this man in on it@7 rep#ied that he !as the ori$inator o% the scheme. 76e##, he !on8t $et a!a" !iththat,7 rep#ied the #and bank man. 78## #ook into it.7 had made up m" mind to stop that stea# then and there, so pu##in$ a che?uebook %rom m"pocket, said to the banker, 7s m" che?ue as $ood as his@7 *e rep#ied that it !as, and c#osed the dea# %or the #and, a$reein$ to donate it toatah Count" %ore&er, barrin$ the commercia#isin$ o% the ark. n 0onda" mornin$ the 0osco! $ent#eman ca##ed up the Federa# and ank

and asked !h" he had not recei&ed the deed to the propert". *e !as in%ormed that Doctor +obinson had bou$ht the propert" t!o da"sbe%ore. o !e ha&e +obinson ark here in 0osco!, and all ma" en(o" it—not (ust a chosen %e!.

A%ter #ea&in$ resident +oose&e#t, had #unch !ith enator orah, said $oodb"e to him, and took the train %or 0inneapo#is !here !asschedu#ed to make an address. n arri&in$ at the 4ico##et *ote#, %ound there a !ire a!aitin$ me %rom a man ca##ed annerman—Chie% pecia# A$ent o% the tate Department. The !ire said, 7Would like to see you regarding statements made in passport application signed by you in :;<=. When will you be in Washington)" Then kne! that the mi## had be$un to turn. rep#ied to annerman Bhe died recent#" that had (ust #e%t 6ashin$ton, but that i% he had an"thin$ important to ta#k o&er, !ou#d cance# m" speakin$ en$a$ement and return. ther!ise, did not e)pect to be back in 6ashin$ton %or se&era# months. recei&ed his rep#" askin$ me to meet him in his o%%ice 0onda" mornin$. ea&in$0inneapo#is on the *ia!atha that ni$ht, doub#ed back to 6ashin$ton.

et me take "ou back no! to the 7secret7 con%erence had been to#d about in 0osco!. A certain te#e$ram #e%t 0osco! that ni$ht. nabout one !eek, t!o $ent#emen knocked at the door o% m" stud" and handed me their cards. The" !ere nspectors 0orse and Doran o% the

ost %%ice Department. These t!o $ent#emen impressed upon me that there !as nothin$ persona# in their &isit. The" stated that the" had7orders7 to 7reopen7 the c#osed in&esti$ation into the a%%airs o% s"chiana. to#d them the" !ere &er" !e#come to see an"thin$ !e had. The"asked %or stock-books and %or a#most e&er"thin$ e#se. Ca##in$ in the accountant, instructed him to put a## records at their disposa#, te## theman"thin$ the" !anted to kno!. &acated m" o!n stud" in order that the" mi$ht ha&e a com%ortab#e p#ace in !hich to in&esti$ate me and the0o&ement. The" sta"ed there t!o !eeks, and it !as not #on$ unti# amphere !as cro!in$ up one side o% the street and do!n the other, 7Theosta# nspectors are here checkin$ on that son-o%-a-—— it !on8t be #on$ no!.7 *is bets !ere made ane!.

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%"at man &as o22erin$ anyt"in$ u# to 2ive t"ousand doars t"at I &oud be in t"e #enitentiary inside o2 ninety days.He &as mistaen. One day I caed on Mr <am#"ere in "is "ome. =<am#"ere= I said =I'm $iven to understand t"at you"ave some money you &ant to bet t"at I' be in t"e Federa Penitentiary at Mcei's Isand inside o2 ninety days. I' taeabout 2ive t"ousand doars &ort" o2 t"at money.= He said t"at "e did not &ant to tae any o2 t"e itte money I "ad;"e"ad a 2ortune =/ny&ay you' need a t"e money you can $et. 6"y t"e Posta Ins#ectors are do&n at your #ace no&.=

I did not 2ee ie ar$uin$ &it" t"e man so not bein$ abe to $et 2ive t"ousand doars o2 "is money I e2t 2or "ome.Ho& "e ne& t"at t"e Posta Ins#ectors &ere in my o22ice t"e day t"ey arrived I do not no&;rat"er I s"a not te. I didas Ins#ector S. H. Morse i2 "e "ad ever "eard o2 9eor$e <am#"ere. He denied t"at "e "ad at"ou$" I "ave since securedin2ormation t"at t"is statement &as not true. Ho&ever <am#"ere did not #ersonay a##ear in t"e activities a$ainst me. Is"a not $o into t"e detais o2 &"at &ent on at"ou$" I am Auite 2uy advised. See#in$ do$s are better asee#.

/t no time &as I a2raid o2 any Posta investi$ation. %"ere "ad been t&o aready and besides I &as teac"in$ rei$ionand under t"e &onder2u !onstitution o2 t"ese 0nited States I may do t"at &it"out 2ear or 2avour. %"at &as a I asedt"en it is a I as no&. I2 &"at I teac" is "e#in$ men and &omen to 2ind t"e Po&er o2 9od it is $ood re$ardess o2 &"et"er it a$rees &it" t"e teac"in$s o2 t"e ort"odo+ c"urc" or not. Ort"odo+ c"urc"es can do not"in$ to stem t"e tide o2 "orror &"ic" is ba#tisin$ t"is &ord at t"is very moment. %"eir im#otence is &ritten a over t"em. %"eir t"eory o2 9od isnot true.

On t"is t"ird Posta Ins#ection as on t"e ot"er t&o t"e Posta Ins#ectors &ere uttery unabe to 2ind t"e si$"test tainto2 2raud in t"e &"oe Movement. It is not t"ere to 2ind. 6"at t"ey did &as t"is;t"ey 2ound t"e #ass#ort I "ad used on atri# to -uro#e a 2e& years be2ore. %"e number o2 t"is #ass#ort &as sent to t"e State De#artment to see i2 it coud not 2indsomet"in$ amiss &it" t"e #ass#ort. I "ave aready tod you enou$" to convince you &"ere I &as born;at east I "adnever "ad any idea t"at I &as born any&"ere ese t"an in t"e 0nited States on t"e tri# 2at"er and mot"er made be2ore$oin$ to <on$ !rendon.

The book copied %rom p#ain#" sho!ed that must ha&e been born here i% that record is true. 6hen decided to $et across the ocean %or a rest and to ramb#e around m" chi#dhood scenes a$ain, the matter o% a birth certi%icate came up. ha&e ne&er seen m" birth certi%icate, andthere are mi##ions in this countr" #ike me. *o!e&er, kno!in$ that had no birth certi%icate, made a specia# trip to the tate Department in6ashin$ton, D. C., and there e)p#ained the birth and e&er"thin$ connected !ith it. /&ident#" the tate Department be#ie&ed me, %or the"issued the passport !ithout ?uestion. =nder those circumstances, do not be#ie&e that an" char$e o% makin$ %a#se statements in a passportapp#ication e&er shou#d ha&e been made. *o!e&er, it !as made.

Arri&in$ back in 6ashin$ton, D. C., met annerman in his o%%ice, and he at once be$an to ?uestion me about m" birth. 4ot bein$ toodense or too dumb, and ha&in$ had a con%erence !ith enator orah in the meantime, said nothin$. A## did !as ask !hen the indictment!ou#d be returned. !as in%ormed that 7i% "ou #ea&e this countr" and $o, sa" to Canada, there !i## be no indictment, o% course, %or !ou#d notha&e "ou brou$ht back here. 6h" don8t "ou run "our s"chiana business %rom Canada@7 This is !hat annerman said to me. This is !hat to#d annerman, 70r annerman, "ou are ta#kin$ to the !ron$ chap. % "ou ha&e an"thin$ in the nature o% a crime or the &io#ation o% a #a! b"me, trot it out. 8## ne&er run a!a" %rom it, but i% "ou ha&e not, happen to kno! !ho is !orkin$ a$ainst me in this case. o $et "our indictment

and !e !i## $o to tria# as ?uick#" as possib#e.7%"is amost 2oored annerman 2or evidenty "e did not oo 2or suc" a res#onse. /t any rate "e said not"in$ more&it" one e+ce#tion. Havin$ seen t"e President o2 t"e 0nited States a 2e& days be2ore I said to t"e !"ie2 S#ecia /$ent o2 t"e State De#artment =I beieve I' $o bac and see t"e President. I sa& "im t"e ot"er day and "e' sto# &"at evidenty isto be a very determined e22ort to $et me out o2 t"e &ay.= <ooin$ at me in "is Auiet &ay annerman re#ied =Doctor I'ma2raid it &on't do any $ood ;;; "as aready been t"ere a"ead o2 you.= %"en I ne& t"at t"e ony t"in$ to do &as toreturn to Mosco& and $et t"e t"in$ over &it" as 2ast as #ossibe.

arri&ed in 0osco! in a %e! da"s and !ent back to !ork, a#thou$h kne! !hat !as to come. ne mornin$ met amphere on thestreet. 7Didn8t do "ou much $ood to $o back to 6ashin$ton, did it@7 he ?ueried. 74e&er can te##, amphere,7 rep#ied, and then as ana%terthou$ht, said, 7eor$e, !ou#d hate to inter%ere !ith a !ork as po!er%u# as the s"chiana 0o&ement. shou#d be a%raid that mi$ht besudden#" remo&ed %rom the picture m"se#%.7 *o! true that prediction !as, ha&e a#read" e)p#ained, %or he !as shot throu$h the back o% thehead b" a re#ati&e.

%"ere &as a tense atmos#"ere in Mosco& t"ose days. =0nder$round= c"annes ne& t"at an indictment &as comin$u#. I ne& "o& t"ey ne&. In any event Mrs Robinson and I made a tri# to oise to see Mr !arver t"e bind Federa/ttorney. !arver is a &onder2u 2eo&. He assured Mrs Robinson and I t"at t"e indictment &as not issuin$ 2rom "iso22ice. =I "ave $one t"rou$" you &it" a 2ine>toot" comb= "e tod us =and moreover I "ave noti2ied t"e De#artment t"att"is case &i be a '"ot #otato.' I don't &ant it in my o22ice you "ave too many 2riends but &"at can I doE= "e ased.=-ven i2 you are acAuitted on t"is c"ar$e t"ere is anot"er one comin$ u#= "e tod us. I ne& about t"at c"ar$e aso

be2ore I e2t 6as"in$ton.t be$an to #ook as i% the di%%icu#ties !ere $ettin$ mountains hi$h, and kne! that a## the po!ers possib#e !ere to be used a$ainst me.

ne $o&ernment o%%icia# said to me, 7Doc, !h"ine## don8t "ou stop puttin$ out that damned teachin$. t isn8t "ou the"8re a%ter—it8s theteachin$.7 kne! that as !e## as he did, and kne! somethin$ e#se, too. kne! that e&er" obstac#e thro!n in m" path !ou#d be surmounted.t made no di%%erence ho! &i$orous#" !as prosecuted, it made no di%%erence ho! &i$orous#" !as persecuted, I knew that the !ower I wasusing would wipe out of the way any and all attempts to stop this teaching . kne! !hen %irst re#eased it that the churches !ou#d not sit id#"

b" and #et me te## the !or#d their stor" is not true, so these attacks !ere not a#to$ether une)pected. *o!e&er, did not kno! so man" thin$scou#d crop up a## at the same time. There !as on#" one thin$ cou#d do, and that !as to sit back and !atch the o!er o% the reat pirit,od, come to m" rescue and con%ound m" enemies. 'ou !i## see soon the amain$ manner in !hich it did (ust that.

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Part Three

Chapter One

I A. A"0!(tted

T*/ F/D/+A 4DCT0/4T CA0/ T*+=* A F/6 6//> #ater. t !as dra!n in 6ashin$ton, D. C., b" the Department o% ustice. 0r amphere e&ident#" kne! it !as comin$ throu$h, as he had his attorne" in oise, !here it !as returned, a!aitin$ the ne!s, andread" to %#ash it to 0osco! so that he cou#d spread it a## o&er the %ront pa$e o% his ne!spaper, $he ,aily *tar-/irror . eor$e !as not ?uite%ast enou$h thou$h, %or ne!s o% the indictment appeared in m" o!n paper, $he ,aily 3ews-9e#iew , (ust 2 hours be%ore it appeared in the*tar-/irror . This made amphere %i$htin$ mad, and he b#amed his attorne" %or ha&in$ #et us 7scoop7 him !hen he !as in oise on the (ob,and !e had no attorne" there. 6hen the indictment !as announced in the 3ews-9e#iew , a## the (o" !as taken out o% it %or eor$e amphere,

natura##", %or he had #on$ a!aited this da".%"e c"ar$e &as contained in 2ive counts o2 t"e indictment and t"ese 2ive counts &ere a based on t"e #ass#ort

a##ication. 6"en t"e :ury &as s&orn in durin$ t"e 2irst 2e& minutes o2 t"e tria 2our o2 t"e 2ive counts &ere t"ro&n outt"e 8ud$e ruin$ t"ey &ere du#ications. %"is on motion o2 my attorneys. %"ere &as e2t t"en but one c"ar$e on &"ic" to$o to tria. %"e $overnment attorneys c"ose t"e count o2 =&i2uy and no&in$y main$ 2ase statements on a #ass#orta##ication by statin$ t"at "e &as born in t"e 0. S. &"en "e ne& 2u &e t"at "e &as born in -n$and.= %"at &as t"eone count e2t.

/n$a$ed %or the de%ence !ere Attorne"s A. . 0or$an o% 0osco!, and /d!ard 6. +obertson o% pokane. ud$e 0or$an at the time!as resident o% the daho tate ar Association. *e is no! our District ud$e. 0r +obertson is one o% the best kno!n crimina# #a!"ers in the=nited tates, and one o% the most #o&ab#e characters. sti## o!e him mone" on that case, and he has been &er" #enient !ith me. 4e!s items!hich ha&e appeared the !or#d o&er ha&e estimated m" !ea#th at an"!here %rom one mi##ion do##ars to t!ent"-%i&e mi##ions o% do##ars. !onder !hat the" !ou#d sa" i% the" kne! that Attorne" /. 6. +obertson has not "et been paid in %u## %or de%endin$ me at that tria# in 193I. As

a matter o% %act, the s"chiana 0o&ement is a non-pro%it re#i$ious corporation, operatin$ under an daho re#i$ious charter. A## am paid %romthe 0o&ement, and a## e&er take %rom the 0o&ement is a sa#ar", and that sa#ar" is hard#" su%%icient to meet our month#" ob#i$ations. ha&eno bank account, nor ha&e an" mone" o% an" sort an"!here. am not in the s#i$htest de$ree interested in mone". 6e ha&e to take inenou$h to pa" a## o% our operatin$ e)penses, and outside o% that !e are not interested in accumu#atin$ mone". % the makin$ o% mone"becomes o% an" interest to me, certain#" can make it. can put the s"chiana 0o&ement on a commercia# basis, or can se## m" ser&ices toother concerns %or %ar more than the mediocre sa#ar" dra!. The $ro!th o% the 0o&ement has been so phenomena# ho!e&er, that ma$ainesand ne!spapers ha&e !ron$#" attributed to it sometimes, the makin$ o% mone".

#i&e in a $ood home— ha&e to— shou#d #i&e in one, and so shou#d "ou. dri&e a %ine Cadi##ac car, and that, considerin$ the !ork doand the menta# strain in&o#&ed, be#ie&e to be m" ri$ht. see nothin$ unusua# in it. 0rs +obinson o!ns considerab#e propert", but none o% thatpropert" has been accumu#ated %rom an" mone" taken %rom the s"chiana 0o&ement. ust as soon as someone endo!s us, a## char$es !i##be taken a!a", and !e rea##" sha## be ab#e to do somethin$ %or od and humanit" then. 6hen a person kno!s the o!er o% od in the #i%e,that o!er is abundant#" ab#e to brin$ to a##, !hatsoe&er thin$s the" need, !hether materia# or spiritua# thin$s—it makes no di%%erence. As a

matter o% %act, the o!er o% od e)ists, not to sa&e the !or#d %rom 7he##7 but to brin$ to the !or#d the consciousness o% the %act that the o!er !hich is od is abundant#" ab#e to brin$ those &er" thin$s into bein$. ure#" the o!er !hich, throu$h the a$es has been creatin$ this!ondrous uni&erse, is ab#e to brin$ to "ou and to me the %e! #itt#e transitor" thin$s !e need@ think it is— am sure it is. kno! it is.

6hen these %a#se s"stems o% theo#o$" are remo&ed once and %or a## %rom this earth, then !i## the %u##ness o% the o!er o% the reatpirit-od, be made kno!n to a##. There !i## be no po&ert" in those da"s—neither !i## there be an" more tears—no si$hin$—no i##ness—nodeath—not e&en ne!spapers—%or a## those thin$s !i## be s!a##o!ed up in the !ondrous re&e#ation o% the e&er-abidin$ pirit o% od. Thosethin$s are at hand. The on#" thin$ pre&entin$ them %rom mani%estin$ is the %a#se picture o% od brou$ht to the !or#d b" the man" di%%erin$s"stems o% re#i$ion in the !or#d. ust a ca#m, cursor" ana#"sis o% them !i## con&ince an" thinker o% the truths o% these statements. Those !ho!i## not think, or those !ho cannot think, !e##, the" (ust #ose—both here and herea%ter. For od !i## be brou$ht to this !or#d throu$h someman bi$ enou$h menta##" and spiritua##" to "think God out.7

%"e tria o#ened in Mosco& and t"e courtroom &as cro&ded. -veryone in Mosco& ne& &"o &as at t"e bac o2 t"iscase and sentiment &as runnin$ "i$". <itte $rou#s o2 #eo#e coud be seen on every street corner and t"e sub:ect o2 t"eir

conversations &as t"e Robinson tria. %"at tria broe 9eor$e <am#"ere. He is dead and $one to "is re&ard Bi2 anyC and Isu##ose I s"oud not even mention "im. I "ave tried to 2i$ure some &ay to eave a t"is out but t"at &oud create a&ron$ im#ression. So in t"is boo I "ave not s#ared myse2 nor s"a I $ive t"e im#ression t"at I am =ee#in$ Auiet=about t"is tria and t"e 2oo&in$ de#ortation move. I am not as"amed o2 eit"er one. I beieve t"ey beon$ in t"is stran$eautobio$ra#"y.

One rat"er amusin$ incident "a##ened ri$"t at t"e be$innin$ o2 t"e tria &"ic" too some stin$ o22 t"e tenseness int"e courtroom. %"e Presidin$ 8ud$e &as !. !. !avanau$" one o2 t"e 2airest men ever to sit on a Federa benc". I beievet"e 0. S. stands aone in t"e &ord 2rom t"e stand#oint o2 t"e 2airness o2 its courts and may 9od "e# t"is &onder2ucountry i2 t"e day ever comes &"en t"ey are not 2air. 6e &ant no 9erman or Itaian or Russian courts "ere. %"ey &i be"ere t"ou$" i2 t"e /ies ose t"is &ar.

/t t"e o#enin$ o2 t"e tria statements &ere made by t"e #rosecution tein$ t"e :ury &"at it e+#ected to #rove and by t"e de2ence tein$ t"e :ury &"at it e+#ected to #rove. / Mr 9ri22it" made t"e o#enin$ statement 2or t"e $overnment

and "is statement &as somet"in$ ie t"is7JJJ o% course, the $o&ernment has not the %unds !ith !hich to en$a$e the noted counse# the de%endant has here. &er there sitsthe *on. A. . 0or$an, resident o% the daho tate ar Association, !hi#e o&er here, internationa##" kno!n, sits /d!ard 6.+obertson—the /ark +nthony of the +merican ar .7

-d. Robertson is a sout"erner. He &as educated at t"e <ouisiana State 0niversity at t"e time 2ormer Senator 8ames P.

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Po#e &as attendin$ t"at same university. S"ort o2 stature ea$e>eyed intensey in earnest Mr Robertson &i not tae acase unti "e is convinced o2 t"e innocence o2 t"e accused. !onseAuenty "e oses very 2e& cases. 6"en "e arose to mae"is o#enin$ statement to t"e :ury a smie stoe a over "is "andsome 2ace.

7enne#men o% the (oo!"—ah8&e been in the practice o% crimina# #a! a #on$ time no!, and durin$ that time ah8&e been ca##ed moste&er"thin$ a #a!"er can be ca##ed. ut this is the %irst time ha&e e&er been ca##ed 0ark Anthon". % remember mah histor"correct#", 0ark Anthon" is the $enne#man !ho knocked at C#eopatra8s boudoir and !hen she opened the door he to#d her he hadnot come there to ta#k.7

aturay t"is s#eec" brou$"t do&n t"e "ouse. %"e 0niversity o2 Ida"o "ad t"e a& casses attend t"at tria to see/ttorney Robertson in action and it &as re2res"in$ to "ave t"ese students come to me durin$ t"e 2reAuent recesses andte me &"ere -d. Robertson seasoned tria a&yer t"at "e is &as main$ a mistae. I t"in accordin$ to t"at $rou# o2

a& students -d. Robertson and 8ud$e Mor$an made so many mistaes in t"at tria t"at t"e &onder is "o& t"ey secured aicense to #ractice a& in t"e 2irst #ace.

sha## not $o into the detai#s o% that tria#. t cost a #ot o% mone", and it #asted man" da"s. 6itnesses !ere brou$ht here %rom /n$#and,4e! 'ork, 6ashin$ton and %rom other parts o% the countr". 0r annerman, as !as his ri$ht, !as there too. 0an" osta# inspectors andmmi$ration Department o%%icia#s !ere there, and about the on#" !itnesses cou#d brin$ !ere those !ho cou#d testi%" as to m" standin$ in0osco!. 4one o% them cou#d pro&e !here !as born an" more than cou#d. 4o one can pro#e !here he or she !as born. ne has tobe#ie&e !hat the parents te## him, !hich is e)act#" !hat did. A## throu$h the record—insurance papers—documents o% e&er" description !ereintroduced, and m" birthp#ace as had stated it %or < "ears !as a#!a"s the same—4e! 'ork Cit".

The (ur" !as e&ident#" con&inced that !as born there, %or in addition to brin$in$ in a 7not $ui#t"7 &erdict, the" si$ned a unanimousdecision that !as speakin$ the truth, and !as born !here said !as born. That !as comp#ete &indication be#ie&e. 4o appea# !as takenb" the $o&ernment, and e&er"one thou$ht that this !ou#d end an" action a$ainst me. ut kne! better. kne! !hat !as comin$ up at once.et it be remembered here that the speci%ic char$e on !hich !as tried and ac?uitted !as o% 7!i#%u##" and kno!in$#" makin$ %a#se statements

in a passport app#ication, in that he stated that he !as born in 4e! 'ork !hen he kne! %u## !e## that he !as not.7 The (ur" !ho heard thise&idence decided that I was born in 3ew 4ork as stated . ma" be !ron$, but be#ie&e that &erdict shou#d ha&e sett#ed the matter o% m"birthp#ace once and %or a##.

%"ere is one remarabe demonstration I must mention be2ore I eave t"is 2irst tria. Fi2teen minutes a2ter t"e verdict&as brou$"t in Sout" Ho&ard Street &"ere &e ive be$an to 2i &it" cars. %"ey came 2rom a directions. %"ey came byt"e doens. My "ome is Auite ar$e yet in 15 minutes it &as #aced to t"e doors &it" 2riends con$ratuatin$ us on t"everdict. %"e 2irst man to s"o& u# &as Miburn 7en&ort"y t"e #ro#rietor o2 Mosco&'s t&o #icture "ouses. Puttin$ "isarm round me "e said =Fran;I'm very "a##y.= ot muc" to say but t"en "e didn't need to say muc". I ne& &"at "emeant. %"is demonstration e#t u# most o2 t"e day. It became necessary to #ut one $ir on t"e #"one at t"e "ouse andanot"er one at t"e o22ice. I do not beieve I "ave ever seen a $reater s"o& o2 2riends"i# t"an I sa& t"at day.

% "ou !ant to make an"one—persecute them. % "ou !ant to stop a re#i$ious teachin$—ne&er persecute its #eader—i% "ou do, instead o% breakin$ it "ou !i## make it. That is !hat happened in 0osco!, and none kne! it better than eor$e amphere. 4e&erthe#ess, he had not

$i&en up hope. There !as more to %o##o!. At once he started the rumours round 0osco! that the deportation proceedin$s !ou#d do !hat thecrimina# tria# did not do... 7ust !ait... !e8## $et him "et,7 !as his usua# remark. 6hen it became kno!n that another !arrant had been s!ornout a$ainst me, this time b" the mmi$ration Department, %ee#in$ ran hi$h once more. $he *tar-/irror , o% course, b#aoned the ne!s acrossits %ront pa$e, on#", then toned it do!n &er" considerab#", %or the" kne! the sentiment. kept o%% the streets a%ter the %irst da" %or m" hand !asa#most shaken o%%.

0nno&n to me a #o#uar Mosco& meat>#acer !"ris Ha$an started a #etition around Mosco& asin$ MadamePerins to sto# t"is atest de#ortation move. In "a2 a day t"e si$natures o2 more t"an ninety #ercent o2 Mosco& #eo#e&ere a22i+ed to t"e #etition. /s soon as I "eard about it I sto##ed t"e #etition. I &anted no 2avours. I &anted to meet outon t"e 2ied o2 batte every c"ar$e &"ic" coud #ossiby be made a$ainst me. I &anted to meet t"em because I ne& in a2air 2i$"t I coud ic t"em. I did not &ant any 2avours or =#oitica #u= 2rom any source. It &oud "ave been im#ossibein t"is case to "ave secured t"is "ad I desired it so $reat and #o&er2u &ere t"e 2orces arrai$ned a$ainst me. Ho&ever Iam $ad no& t"at t"is a "a##ened 2or #er"a#s I s"a be e2t aone &it" my 9od to do t"e &or I "ave been caed u#on

to do.%"ere is a $enteman in t"is country caed Harry rid$es &"o admittedy is an aien. From a I can $at"er a t"isc"a# "as done since comin$ to t"e 0nited States is to ca stries and ee# t"e &ater>2ront in an u#roar. / I "ave ever done is to ead men and &omen to no& t"e Po&er o2 9od. ut Mr rid$es $ets a coe$e #ro2essor to sit as a s#ecia

:ud$e in "is case &"ie I &"o never caused any suc" commotion as rid$es caused &as not o22ered a coe$e #ro2essor to "e# me. O2 course rid$es &as not inter2erin$ &it" rei$ion so rei$ion did not inter2ere &it" "im.

6"ie t"e Posta Investi$ation &as $oin$ on I said to Ins#ector Morse in t"e #resence o2 Mrs Robinson one day=6"at $ood do you e+#ect to do by tryin$ to sto# t"is MovementE= I s"a not soon 2or$et "is re#y. Here it is...=Psyc"iana is a disturbin$ eement amon$ t"e c"urc"es and it "as to be sto##ed.= %"ere you "ave t"e ans&er to a ot o2 t"in$s &"ic" ot"er&ise mi$"t #ue you. %"e stran$e t"in$ about t"is a22air is t"at t"e rei$ious or$anisation &"ic" &ast"e most active in t"e #roceedin$s never a##eared on t"e sur2ace. I no& Auite a bit about t"e =submarine= activities o2 t"at or$anisation t"ou$".

rid$es did not bot"er t"e c"urc"es. I did. So re$ardess o2 &"et"er t"e c"urc"es are teac"in$ t"e trut"s o2 9od or anod #a$an su#erstition I must be sto##ed &"ie t"ey are ao&ed to ee# t"e trut"s o2 9od 2rom men and &omen byteac"in$ somet"in$ t"at in its very essence never came 2rom 9od. %"at "o&ever is t"e &ay #resent>day rei$iono#erates. It "as a&ays o#erated t"at &ay. Remember t"e InAuisitionsE I2 you disturb it... i2 you do not eave it aone in itsdisastrous &or o2 "idin$ 9od 2rom t"e masses... t"en it &i use a t"e #oitica #o&er it can muster to =$etN you. In mycase "o&ever t"at #o&er &as u# a$ainst a 2ar $reater Po&er and as a&ays &"en one 2i$"ts a$ainst t"e Po&er o2 9od

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t"at Po&er $rinds its adversaries to #o&der.%"e surest #roo2 t"at #resent>day t"eoo$y is done ies in t"e 2act t"at at ast at on$ ast t"e actua trut"s o2 9od are

bein$ brou$"t to t"is eart". It must 2oo& t"en as t"e ni$"t t"e day t"at t"ese trut"s &i &in over t"e errors &"ic" "ave been tau$"t in t"e name o2 9od. On t"e one "and you "ave every denomination in t"e !"ristian rei$ion cryin$ its eyesout over its 2aiure to do one t"in$ 2or 9od. %"ey cannot even save t"eir o&n 2ase structures et aone save t"is &ar>mad&ord.

On t"e ot"er "and you "ave one man and a #oor one at t"at 2i$"tin$ a aone 2or t"e trut"s o2 9od yet t"at oneman standin$ a aone can in t&eve years brin$ into e+istence a rei$ious Movement &"ic" in t"at s"ort s#ace o2 timerans ei$"t" numericay in t"e ist o2 /merican rei$ions. %"erein ies t"e di22erence... t"e one is teac"in$ #a$ansu#erstition in t"e name o2 9od and I am teac"in$ t"e #ure unsuied trut"s o2 9od. %"e atter cannot "e# but &in.

% the !or#d and the church !ere !ise, instead o% tr"in$ to do!n the s"chiana 0o&ement and m"se#%, it !ou#d #isten to !hat !e ha&e tosa". /ither am teachin$ the truths o% od or am not. The e&idence speaks %or itse#%. 0en do not $ather $rapes %rom thist#e bushes. % theresu#ts are $ood, the Teachin$ is o% od. % %ai#ure resu#ts, and e&er" church ta#ks nothin$ but %ai#ure, the teachin$s are not o% od, re$ard#esso% the human c#aims made %or them.

/ 2e& days a2ter my acAuitta a noc came on my 2ront door and standin$ t"ere &as a $enteman &"o identi2ied"imse2 as a Mr ice an ins#ector o2 t"e Immi$ration De#artment. 7no&in$ t"at de#ortation #roceedin$s &ere to beinstituted re$ardess o2 t"e verdict o2 t"is Federa 8ury I "ad been e+#ectin$ t"is ca and &as #re#ared 2or it. <et me statet"at de#ortation "earin$s are not :udicia #roceedin$s. %"ey "ave 2u :udicia #o&ers in a &ay but t"e accused "as veryitte c"ance in t"ose "earin$s. O2 course t"e 2indin$s can a&ays be a##eaed to t"e courts but not a "ave t"e means&it" &"ic" to do t"is.

/sin$ Mr ice in I ased "im to &"at I &as indebted 2or t"is visit. He stated t"at "e &anted to ta to me about my birt" certi2icate;"e ased me i2 I "ad one. I tod "im t"at a Federa 8ury "ad :ust rendered a verdict &"ic" very #ainyans&ered t"e Auestion as to &"ere I &as born. Mr ice re#ied t"at "e &as not interested in t"e verdicts o2 Federa 8uries

;"e &ored 2or t"e Immi$ration De#artment &"ic" as "e #ut it =is a a& unto itse2.= I ne& &"at &oud "a##enre$ardess o2 anyt"in$ I said so I said very itte to Mr ice e+ce#t to ca "im a =nice= man &"ic" "e su$$ested mi$"tnot be t"e e+act trut".

I re2erred "im to 8ud$e /. <. Mor$an no& District 8ud$e o2 <ata" !ounty and "ad very itte to say to "im myse2.%"at ni$"t I &ired Senator ora" &"o by t"e &ay "ad received many &ires 2rom ot"ers asin$ "im to ste# in and sto#t"ese attacs on Dr Robinson. %"e beoved Ida"o Senator no& $one to a &e>deserved rest &as never asee# and a2ter t"e &arrant 2or de#ortation &as served and t"e G())) bond #osted I &ired t"e Senator t"at I &as $oin$ 2is"in$.

came here to +ock" oint, sta"ed in the same %a&ourite cabin am no! occup"in$, and here, on this !onder%u# #ake, recei&ed ane!the assurance that i% paid more time to m" %ishin$ and #ess to the deportation hearin$s, shou#d be better o%%. 6hen an"thin$ seems to

threaten to disturb me these da"s, #et it a#one. do not think about it, and... it disappears. It 8ust is not there any more . That is a secret e&er"reader shou#d #earn. >irst—know that the *pirit which is God li#es in you and second—let that *pirit take care of you. If you do this you canne#er be confounded . This book is supposed to be an autobio$raph". t is but it is interspersed !ith #itt#e messa$es !hich !i## do "ou $ood i% "ou %o##o! them. The" do not ori$inate in me—the" do come %rom the pirit o% od... in me... in "ou... and in e&er"one e#se.

Senator ora" sa& Madame Perins and s"e very indy "ad t"e #roceedin$s #ut over 2or severa mont"s at myreAuest. Ho&ever t"e day 2inay came &"en t"e music "ad to be 2aced. %"e Immi$ration De#artment caed /ttorney -d.Robertson on t"e #"one and stated t"at t"ey "ad received t"e de#ortation &arrant 2rom D. !. =6oud t"e Immi$rationDe#artment ao& me to come to S#oane aone... or did t"ey desire to arrest me and t"ro& me in :ai in Mosco&E= -d.Robertson ased. It &oud be O.7. i2 I a##eared &it" G())) bonds in my #ocet at t"e Immi$ration De#artment inS#oane t"e ne+t mornin$.

I arrived t"ere on time and &as taen 2rom t"ere &it"out escort "o&ever 2or &"ic" I &as t"an2u 2in$er#rinted and=mu$$ed= :ust as a crimina &oud "ave been. %"at &ent "ard. Here at Mosco& &as a &onder2u &i2e t"e dau$"ter o2 a

#rominent !ircuit 8ud$e and &it" "er &ere t&o beauti2u c"idren &"ose #ictures a##ear in t"is boo. ?et "ere &as t"eir 2at"er &"o never no&in$y "urt a sou and never no&in$y made a misstatement in "is i2e on t"e to# 2oor o2 t"eS#oane !ounty :ai bein$ =mu$$ed= and 2in$er#rinted... and 2or &"atE For teac"in$ somet"in$ contrary to ort"odo+y.

%"e !ounty :ai o22icers caed t"e Immi$ration De#artment and in2ormed t"em t"at I "ad been t"ere &it" /ttorneyRobertson and I &as ao&ed to $o bac to Mosco& to my 2amiy. I "ad orders to re#ort bac in S#oane on 8uy () t"&"ic" I did. %"at &as in 1,3. %"e &arrant by t"e &ay c"ar$ed t"at I ie$ay entered t"e 0nited States at -ast#ortIda"o on t"e 1,t" day o2 Se#tember. /s a matter o2 2act I &as not any&"ere near -ast#ort Ida"o on t"at date nor "ad I

been 2or severa years i2 ever. I "ad ived "ere 2or about 35 years t"at I ne& o2 and to t"e very best o2 my no&ed$e I&as born in t"is country. Moreover a Federa 8ury "ad rendered a decision &"ic" s"oud "ave setted once and 2or a t"e2act o2 my birt"#ace and &"ere t"at birt" occurred.

6"en Senator ora" "eard o2 t"e de#ortation &arrant "e said =Doctor;I am t"e odest man in t"e 0nited StatesSenate;I've seen some 2unny t"in$s in t"e #ast 33 years... but I "ave never seen suc" a vicious #ersecution as t"is is. 0#

to t"e time o2 t"is de#ortation &arrant I "ad not"in$ to say... but no&... &e... I' "e# you and I' $o t"e imit even i2 itmeans a !on$ressiona Investi$ation.= y t"e &ay be2ore t"e case &as ended Senator ora" t"reatened to =investi$atet"is &"oe a22air on t"e 2oor o2 t"e Senate= be2ore t"e matter &as 2inay setted.

6"en it &as #roven t"at I &as not any&"ere near -ast#ort on t"e date mentioned in t"e &arrant Ins#ector Ste&art be2ore &"om t"e case &as tried said... =I'm $oin$ to ay anot"er c"ar$e readin$ t"at at an unno&n #ort on an unno&ndate you ie$ay entered t"e 0nited States.= /s be2ore stated t"ere is not muc" one can do be2ore t"ese de#ortation

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"earin$s e+ce#t introduce &itnesses &"o &i testi2y as to one's standin$ and conduct. Personay I &as dis$usted &it"t"e &"oe a22air es#eciay as t"e matter o2 birt" and citiens"i# "ad been t"ras"ed out be2ore a Federa :ury t"e "i$"esttria :ury in t"e and. Ho&ever &e did brin$ many &itnesses and I s"a brie2y run over t"em to s"o& you t"e ty#e o2 men &"o vounteered to "e# me. I coud "ave taen 1))) &itnesses into t"at "earin$ "ad I c"osen to do so.

%"e 2irst &itness &as a ri$adier>9enera o2 t"e 0. S. /rmy 9enera !"risman a c"aracter &"o &as oved by a&"o ne& "im. His testimony &as cear and concise. %"ere &as no room 2or doubt as to &"at "e meant. Here in #art is&"at "e said... =He stands very "i$" as a citien in t"is community... "e "as a 2ine civic s#irit and is a very a&>abidin$citien. He "as done a $reat dea to deveo# t"e to&n in bot" a business and a socia &ay.=

Then the enera# mentioned the $i%t o% +obinson ark, and the reso#ution o% the American e$ion that it be o%%icia##" named 9obinson!ark . !onder i% the e$ion !ou#d ha&e taken simi#ar action had 0r rid$es donated a park@

The ne)t !itness ca##ed !as Dr C. 6. Tenne", !ho !as Assistant Director o% s"chiana unti# the 0ethodist church %orced him to resi$n.Dr Tenne" kne! me man" "ears a$o. At the time o% this hearin$ he !as +epub#ican nominee %or tate choo# nspector, !hich position hehad he#d in 0ontana, %or se&era# "ears. For ei$hteen "ears Dr Tenne" !as resident o% oodin$ 0ethodist Co##e$e at oodin$, daho, and!as, be%ore that, resident o% 0ontana 6es#e"an Co##e$e at *e#ena, 0ontana.

%"en came t"e S"eri22 o2 <ata" !ounty !"arey Summer2ied. He it &as &"o su#erintended t"e #roceedin$s &"enmy mac"inery on t"e &ay 2rom - River &as attac"ed. He testi2ied t"at "e "ad made me a s#ecia de#uty s"eri22 &"ic""onour I sti en:oy and "e aso testi2ied as to t"e "i$" standin$ I en:oy in t"e <ata" !ounty community. S"eri22 Summer2ied &as 2oo&ed by t"e !"ie2 o2 Poice -rnie 6"itmore &"o testi2ied t"at I "ad "e#ed "im 2eed t"e "un$rycot"e t"e naed and never "ad turned "im do&n &"en "e a##eaed 2or "e# 2or someone ess 2ortunate. %"en came t"eProsecutin$ /ttorney o2 <ata" !ounty Murray -stes. His testimony &as on t"e same $enera order and "e aid s#eciaem#"asis on my bein$ a =very trut"2u and a&>abidin$ citien.=

%"en came Harry renn no& State Senator o2 our county and !a#tain o2 t"e %roo# 7 o2 t"e 11 t" !avary Ida"o

ationa 9uard. Mr renn testi2ied t"at "e ne& o2 2our cases t"at year t"at I &as #ersonay #uttin$ t"rou$" t"e0niversity o2 Ida"o. He stated aso t"at "e &as !"airman o2 t"e usiness Reations !ommittee o2 t"e !"amber o2 !ommerce and t"at I &as ever ready to "e# in any &ort"y cause. B6"at "e did not no& &as t"at many a time "ave I$one to t"e ban and borro&ed money &"ic" I coud i a22ord to borro& to $ive to someone &"o needed it &orse t"an IdidC.

Harry renn &as 2oo&ed by State Senator !. 9. Friend. In addition to bein$ State Senator "e &as DistrictSu#ervisor o2 t"e Farm Debt /d:ustment or$anisation and a #ros#erous 2armer. He &as aso Master o2 t"e Mosco&9ran$e 2or 2our years. 6"en ased about my #ersona standin$ and re#utation "e re#ied... =I can ony say t"at it is / o.1.= %"e ne+t $enteman caed &as 6. <. 7orter ot"er&ise no&n as =%"e !ou$ar.= He &as $raduated 2rom 6as"in$tonState !oe$e. He &as Democratic !ounty !"airman and member o2 t"e oard o2 /$ricutura /ct. He &as aso a StateSenator. His testimony &as rin$in$ in its carity and $ave my standin$ in Mosco& in no uncertain terms. /s a matter o2 2act my standin$ in Mosco& and over t"e &"oe &ord 2or t"at matter is &e no&n. %"e ony evidence &e coud #ut in

&as t"e evidence o2 t"ese &itnesses. o evidence a$ainst me coud be barred and &"ie t"e attorney coud =ob:ect= t"eob:ection meant not"in$;it coud not #revent a Auestion bein$ ased and ans&ered no matter "o& un2air t"at Auestionmi$"t be.

%"ere &as one t"in$ &"ic" I t"ou$"t &as Auite un2air in t"ese #roceedin$s and t"at &as &"en Ins#ector Ste&artased Mrs Robinson i2 s"e "ad ever taen any ste#s to become a 0. S. citien. Mrs Robinson &as born "ere in RocyPoint under a ar$e #ine>tree :ust a stone's t"ro& 2rom t"is cabin. S"e "as never been out o2 t"e 0nited States in "er i2eyet t"e Ins#ector ased "er i2 s"e ne& s"e &as sub:ect to de#ortation. %"e Auestion &as ater &it"dra&n.

%"ere came t"en ot"er c"aracter &itnesses but a to no avai 2or t"e e+aminin$ Ins#ector stated t"at "e &as $oin$ torecommend t"at I be de#orted. /2ter t"ese de#ortation "earin$s t"e #roceedin$s are sent to 6as"in$ton to a oard o2 Revie&. I2 one "as t"e necessary 2unds "e may "ave an attorney a##ear be2ore t"e board. 6"en t"e case &as set 2or "earin$ I sent /ttorney -. 6. Robertson to 6as"in$ton &"ere "e contacted Senator ora". %"ey bot" a##eared be2ore t"erevie& board. %"is board &as 2air t"ere is no Auestion about t"at.

6"en Senator ora" #ersonay intervened t"e board stood out o2 res#ect 2or "im. %"ey #romised "im t"at t"ey&oud $ive t"is case every consideration and t"ey stated t"at t"ey did not beieve it &as a =de#ortation= case at a. utt"ey #ointed out t"e unsatis2actory condition o2 my #resent status. I mi$"t &ant to run 2or t"e 0. S. Senate &"ic" o22er torun by t"e &ay I "ave t&ice re2used. I "ad no birt" certi2icate &"ic" meant t"at t"e citiens"i# &as a u# in t"e air.

%"en t"e oard ased my /ttorney i2 I &oud coo#erate &it" it in strai$"tenin$ out t"is matter to t"e satis2action o2 everyone. /ttorney Robertson said t"at I &oud do anyt"in$ at a to e$ay strai$"ten out t"is tan$e. %"en t"e oard o2 Revie& rued t"at I not be de#orted but eave t"e 0. S. vountariy and on securin$ a visa be ao&ed to immediateyreturn. %"at &as t"e o22icia ruin$.

t !as not the ru#in$ put out b" the Associated ress, ho!e&er, !hich sent o&er its !ires 79obinson ordered deported .7 The =nited resshad the truth o% the report, and sent o&er its !ires, the true stor". =ndoubted#" the appearance o% enator orah be%ore that oard o% +e&ie!had a #ot o% !ei$ht. The" kne! that this reat American !ou#d not be there in m" beha#% i% !ere not prett" near a## ri$ht. The enator !as notthat sort o% man.

He "as visited in my "ome many a time and once #aid me t"e $reatest "onour I s"a ever receive. S"orty be2ore "isdeat"... and "e must "ave "ad a #remonition o2 it... "e said to me =Doctor;t"ere is one t"in$ I &oud ie to see and t"atis you sittin$ in t"is seat o2 mine.= I t"aned t"e Senator but in2ormed "im t"e Psyc"iana Movement &as a in a to meand #oitica "onours I did not desire. %"at I considered a rea "onour.

/s soon as t"e "earin$ &as over /ttorney Robertson returned to S#oane &"ere "e ived and &e a&aited t"e o22icia

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re#ort o2 t"e 2indin$s o2 t"e oard. %"ese od /rmy and avy records "ad been du$ out and I don't bame t"e oard 2or t"inin$ I &as a =bad e$$=. ?et t"ere never "ad been one sin$e t"in$ e+ce#t $ettin$ drun in my &"oe "istory. etter men t"an I am do t"at and $et a&ay &it" it.

*ere #et me re#ate one o% the &er" dirtiest thin$s ha&e e&er heard o% or seen. 6hen the ne!spapers %ound out that enator orah hadappeared be%ore the oard o% +e&ie! in m" beha#%, the ne!s !as %#ashed %rom Coast to Coast. 7 orah defends 9obinson7 !as about the !a"the head#ines ran. 6hen 0r amphere sa! those head#ines, he kne! the second case a$ainst me had $one a-shimmerin$, so, in a #astminute attempt to do !hate&er dama$e he cou#d do, he had sent to the +e&ie! oard, on t!o consecuti&e da"s, thirteen te#e$rams,protestin$ a$ainst the inter&ention o% enator orah. These !ires !ere a## char$ed to the *tar-/irror , and most o% the men !hose names!ere si$ned to them ne&er sa! them. The" !ere ca##ed on the phone b" 0r amphere, !ho ta#ked them into #ettin$ him si$n their name.

I s"a not $ive t"e names o2 t"ose t"irteen men &"o sent t"ose &ires at"ou$" I no& t"em a. <et me $ive you one&ire &"ic" is ty#ica o2 t"em a. ?ou can ima$ine "o& t"e oard o2 Revie& 2et &"en suc" &ires as t"is be$an to comein. %"is &as be2ore t"e 2ina decision not to de#ort me "ad been rendered and t"e &ires mi$"t "ave done considerabe"arm. Ho&ever I ne& o2 t"eir e+istence t"e day t"ey &ere sent but t"ere &asn't very muc" I coud do about it. Some o2 t"e men &"ose si$natures a##ear on t"ose &ires "ave s&orn to me t"ey ne& not"in$ about t"em at a but I Auestiont"at. Here is one o2 t"e t&eve &ires

Federa# oard o% +e&ie!mmi$ration Dept., 6ashin$ton, D. C.

Cannot understand attitude of *enator "orah in 9obinson case. 'e cannot be fully informed as to his standing here which is that of afourth rate citi(en. 'e should be deported.

Here &as I internationay no&n as t"e Founder o2 t"e 2astest $ro&in$ rei$ious Movement on t"e 2ace o2 t"e eart"no&n as suc" a over t"e civiised &ord and yet t"ese oca men under t"e domination o2 9eor$e <am#"ere sent suc"&ires as t"at. aturay t"e ministers &ere &e re#resented one o2 t"em an -#isco#aian died ast &ee. It &as a

&onder2u c"ance 2or t"em—ony—it did not &or. %"e S#irit o2 9od as ever &as u#on me and I came t"rou$" veryvictorious as you &i ater see. B-very e22ort &as made to ee# t"ose &ires secret. ut I ne& about t"em amost as 2astas t"ey &ere sent. C

6"en t"e o22icia 2indin$s o2 t"e Revie& oard &ere received by t"e Immi$ration De#artment in S#oane an o22iciacaed u# -. 6. Robertson and tod "im t"at "e coud $et me on a train 2or !anada any time "e c"ose to. =6"at is t"eruin$E= ased my /ttorney. =O" Doc can $et on a boat or train $o to !anada and come ri$"t bac a$ain= "e &asadvised. =6e is a visa necessaryE= "e ased. =o;it is not= &as t"e re#y. !ain$ me on t"e #"one in Mosco& "etransmitted t"at in2ormation to me and t"e same day I &as in S#oane in con2erence &it" "im. eit"er o2 us ied t"ein2ormation t"at no visa &as reAuired as t"at &as not at a &"at /ttorney Robertson "ad been ed to beieve &as t"eRevie& oard's ruin$. /2ter tain$ it over I t"ou$"t I sa& a cooured $enteman in t"e &ood>#ie and made u# mymind I &as not $oin$ to !anada or any&"ere ese uness &e ne& &"at &e &ere doin$. %"at day &e bot" e2t 2or Seatteand t"e ne+t mornin$ &e caed at t"e Immi$ration o22ices t"ere and introduced ourseves.

-videnty t"e Ins#ector in c"ar$e ne& a about us 2or &"en ased &"at &e &ere to do "e re#ied =O" :ust et Doc$o over to !anada and come ri$"t bac a$ain... t"at's a t"ere is to it.= ut &as itE... &e s"a see. 6"en advised t"at at"at &oud be necessary &as my eavin$ 2or !anada and at once comin$ bac /ttorney Robertson ased t"e SeatteIns#ector i2 t"at bein$ t"e case "e &oud not $ive us a etter to t"at e22ect statin$ t"at I coud immediatey return. %"is"o&ever t"e Ins#ector said "e coud not do. <ater in t"e day &e &ent to t"e !anadian Immi$ration De#artment and aidt"e &"oe matter be2ore t"em. =!ertainy not= &e &ere tod... ="e can't even $et into !anada uness "e "as t"at etter 2romt"e 0. S. Immi$ration De#artment statin$ t"at "e &i be at once re>admitted.=

%"is in2ormation &e too bac to t"e 0. S. Ins#ector &"o in2ormed us t"at "e &oud not issue t"e etter. 9oin$ bac to our "ote &e sat in t"e bedroom and taed t"e &"oe matter over. %"en &e caed u# Senator ora" &"o at once $ot intouc" &it" t"e Immi$ration !ommissioner and &e received t"e in2ormation t"e 2oo&in$ mornin$ t"at t"e SeatteIns#ector "ad been instructed to mae a #re>e+amination so t"at immediate re>admission coud be "ad.

'ou can ima$ine our surprise the ne)t mornin$ !hen !e !ent do!n to $et that #etter. The nspector $ot ?uite !rath" and stated that he!ou#d not issue the #etter. Then he !ired the Commissioner that 7$his man has no #isa papers.7 6e had been instructed b" both the pokaneand the eatt#e mmi$ration o%%ice that a &isa !as not necessar". >no!in$ that some attempt !as e&ident#" bein$ made to b#ock us, !e !entback to pokane and there !rote a %u## and detai#ed #etter to 0r hau$hness", the mmi$ration Commissioner, statin$ !hat !e had tried todo, the treatment !e had been handed, and !e asked him to sho! us ho! to comp#" !ith the ru#in$ o% the +e&ie! oard. 6e sent a cop" o% the #etter to enator orah. Tru#" somethin$ !as bein$ done a$ainst us or e#se !e !ere tr"in$ to be #ed into a trap. n an" e&ent, !e !aitedour rep#" %rom the mmi$ration Commissioner and enator orah.

Many =under$round= &ires &ere #ued at t"is time in an attem#t to $et t"e Senator to =ayo22= t"e Robinson case.ut "e &as not t"at sort o2 a Senator. He &as in t"is 2i$"t to t"e 2inis" and &e sa& t"e 2inis" to$et"er. /n interestin$sidei$"t on t"e $reat c"aracter o2 Senator ora" enters "ere and you may ie to read it. He &as ased by a #rominentoise #oitician "o& Robinson came to "ave =suc" a #u &it" youE= %"e Senator's re#y is iuminatin$. =Doctor Robinson is a 2riend o2 mine... I no& "im and "is 2amiy intimatey... "e is bein$ #ersecuted... and it &oud mae nodi22erence to me i2 t"is case invoved t"e #oorest cooured man in Ida"o instead o2 Dr Robinson... I consider it my duty&"en an in:ustice is bein$ done to a constituent o2 mine to do &"at I can to #rotect t"e one &"o is bein$ so viciousy

#ersecuted... I am in t"is 2i$"t to stay.= %"at &as ty#icay =ora"=. I s"a ever ove t"e memory o2 t"at man as I oved t"eman "imse2 &"en "e &as aive.

In a itte &"ie a etter &as received 2rom t"e Immi$ration !ommissioner reco$nisin$ t"e troubes &e &ere "avin$ inour "onest attem#ts to com#y &it" t"e ruin$ o2 t"e oard o2 Revie&. %"e !ommissioner tod me to $o to Havana !uba

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and see t"e /merican !onsuate t"ere. I e2t 2or Miami t"e ne+t day. %"ere &as a very de2inite reason &"y t"at su$$estion&as made and &"en I arrived in Miami on my &ay to Havana I discovered t"e reason. For t"e 2irst time I "ad &"at to me&as evidence o2 t"e identity o2 t"e rei$ious or$anisation &"ic" &as &orin$ so Auiety yet so viciousy a$ainst me. Is"a not mention t"e or$anisation "ere... I don't beieve it &i be necessary. It is not an /merican system o2 rei$ion.

ot muc" o2 im#ortance "a##ened on t"e &ay to !"ica$o 2or t"at is &"ere I c"an$ed trains. 6"ie restin$ in t"eStevens Hote I received a on$ distance ca 2rom Senator ora". =%"e enemy is $ettin$ very vicious= "e said. He asotod me to ee# "im advised every "our o2 t"e day &"ere I &oud be. I2 I stayed at a "ote any&"ere "e &anted to no&

:ust &"ere "e coud $et in touc" &it" me. %"en "e in2ormed me t"at "e "ad taed &it" t"e !uban /mbassador to t"e0nited States and I "ad been made a di#omatic Re#resentative o2 t"e Re#ubic o2 !uba and t"is &oud insure my re>admission to t"e 0nited States a$ain. My #a#ers &oud be $iven to me in Havana.

%"at never became necessary 2or &it"in 5 minutes o2 t"e Senator's ca t"ere came a on$ &ire 2rom t"e Immi$ration!ommissioner in 6as"in$ton. He tod me t"at I &as to re#ort to t"e !"ie2 Ins#ector o2 t"e Immi$ration Service t"emoment I arrived in Miami. I caed t"e Senator bac and advised "im o2 t"e &ire 2rom t"e !ommissioner o2 Immi$ration and t"is #eased "im a ot. Ho&ever "e tod me not to 2or$et t"at I &as a Di#omatic /$ent o2 t"e Re#ubico2 !uba i2 t"in$s did not $o smoot"y.

On arrivin$ in Miami I made my &ay to t"e Federa uidin$ and ased 2or t"e !"ie2 Ins#ector o2 t"e Immi$rationService. %"ere I &as in2ormed t"at anot"er oard &as to meet be2ore &"ic" I &as to a##ear and a #re>e+amination&"ic" &oud assure my e$a re>entry &as to be "ed. %"is &as &"at &e tried to "ave done in Seatte but I $uess t"at &astoo cose to "ome;somet"in$ #revented it t"ere. %"e ne+t day I a##eared be2ore t"at s#eciay im#aneed oard and mya##earance be2ore t"at oard constituted a e$a entry into t"e 0nited States and &as re$istered as suc".

I 2et very "a##y over t"at and at once caed /ttorney Robertson in S#oane advisin$ "im t"at I &as eavin$ 2or "ome t"at ni$"t. =6ait a minute;&ait a minute= said -d. Robertson &"at's t"is a aboutEN I in2ormed "im o2 t"e

meetin$ o2 t"e oard and o2 t"e ruin$ t"at my a##earance t"ere constituted a e$a entry. Ho&ever "e advised me to $oto Havana and secure t"e visa any&ay. Senator ora" on bein$ aso caed by me re#eated t"is advice.

#e%t 0iami that ni$ht on the . . F#orida %or *a&ana, Cuba. Arri&ed there, ca##ed enator orah, or rather !ired the enator and to#dhim o% m" !hereabouts. There is much cou#d sa" here, but sha## #ea&e it out o% the picture. sha## (ust sa" that three !eeks #ater recei&edthe &isa and came back to 0osco!, daho. There is one interestin$ side#i$ht on the matter o% the oard !hich met in 0iami. The instructions!ere to c#ose the %i#es on this case, and send them air-mai# to 6ashin$ton. $he ne%t day a new commissioner of immigration was appointed .o the !isdom o% $ettin$ the &isa !as demonstrated. The appearance be%ore the 0iami oard mi$ht be cha##en$ed—not the &isa.

6hi#e !as a!a", kept in constant touch !ith 0osco!, and in%ormed a %e! c#ose %riends that shou#d be back !ithout an" ?uestion.6hen arri&ed back in 0iami, !as met at the dock b" ne!smen, and the !ord !as %#ashed o&er the !ires that had made a #e$a# entr",secured the &isa, and !as on m" !a" to 0osco!. As soon as the *tar-/irror sa! that item o% ne!s, it at once ran an artic#e entit#ed79obinson returns through the coal-hole7. t did not make much di%%erence to me !hether "ou ca##ed it returnin$ throu$h the 7coa#-ho#e7 or not— !as #e$a##" back.

n m" !a" to 0osco! stopped at 6ashin$ton and sa! and shook hands !ith enator orah. 6e had dinner to$ether, and his ad&ice!as this: 7Go back to /oscow and run !sychiana as #igorously as you can. If you are bothered any more send me a wire 7. ha&e not beenbothered, nor do e)pect to be.

I t"in it is &e reco$nised by no& t"at a I am interested in is brin$in$ to men and &omen t"e trut"s o2 9od.Ot"ers "ave t"e same ri$"t to teac" &"atever t"ey care to teac" about 9od. %"ey can teac" t"at 9od is made o2 $reenc"eese i2 t"ey care to. ut t"ey &ent a bit 2art"er t"an t"at. Instead o2 mindin$ t"eir o&n business t"ey attem#ted to sto#me 2rom brin$in$ to t"e &ord t"e actua and itera trut"s o2 9od and in t"at t"ey made a mistae. %"ey &ere 2i$"tin$9od and t"at no c"urc" or$anisation can success2uy do.

8ust as on$ as I can s"o& t"at men and &omen are 2indin$ 9od t"rou$" t"e messa$e I brin$ I s"oud be ao&ed toteac" t"at messa$e. I2 t"e c"urc"es ose t"rou$" my messa$e i2 t"eir members dro# a&ay as t"ey are dro##in$ a&ay t"atin itse2 is #roo2 t"at t"e story t"e c"urc" comes to t"e &ord &it" is not true. I2 it &ere true t"is &"oe &ord &oud "aveno&n 9od a on$ time a$o. In any event t"e #eo#e t"emseves must be t"e :ud$es o2 &"at is o2 9od and &"at is not o2

9od. %"ere can be no better :ud$es.

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%HIS /0%OIO9R/PH? M0S% --DS - / 0FIISH-D OO7. /n uncom#eted story. For t"is &or o2 t"e S#irit o2 9od 2ar 2rom bein$ ended "as "ardy be$un. %"e #art your &riter is #ayin$ in it is o2 ony minor consideration. I consider t"e victory aready &on. For t"is &or "as attained suc" a sco#e t"at it &i continue on$ a2ter I"ave been aid under t"e sod;#robaby in t"e itte cemetery "ere in Mosco& Ida"o.

/ cou#e o2 years a$o &e "ed t"e Psyc"iana ationa !onvention in t"e S"rine /uditorium in Portand Ore$on.6onder2u time &e "ad in t"at !onvention. Students 2rom every State in t"e union &ere t"ere. I remember asin$ t"eStudents &"o "ad come 2rom t"e 2art"est #oint to rise. /n od cooured ady sittin$ in t"e bac seat rose and raised "er

"and. =Dr Robinson a" done come 2rom a t"e &ay 2rom Forida. I "ad Auite a "ea# o2 a time $ettin' "ere. <a&d "e# me ;a" done been steain$ money out o2 ma" "usband's #ocets 2o' over si+ mont"s no& :est to $it to come "ere to t"is yereconvention. ut #raise de <a&d "e done "e# me never to $it catc"ed doin' dat steain$ and is a" "a##yE... I' te de&ord I'se "a##y. Doctor Robinson i2 you' #ay dat #i#e>or$an a"' come u# on de sta$e and sin$ you'a a son$.=

O2 course t"is od cooured ady's s#eec" brou$"t "er t"e #audits o2 t"e cro&d and I at once invited "er to t"e #at2orm &"ie I too my seat at t"e ar$e 2our manua or$an in t"e /uditorium.

=6"at are you $oin$ to sin$E= I ased our cooured Student.=6"y a"se $&ine to sin$ dat oe son$ bout a 2ountain bein$ 2ied &it" bood= s"e re#ied.I &as not over>an+ious to "ear t"e strains o2 =%"ere is a 2ountain 2ied &it" bood= nevert"eess I #ayed t"e

accom#animent on t"e or$an &"ie t"e cooured ady san$ as i2 "er un$s &oud burst./2ter s"e "ad 2inis"ed &it" t"e =2ountain o2 bood= I turned "er t"ou$"ts to ot"er and more #easant sub:ects. I ased

"er to te t"e audience &"at t"e Po&er o2 t"e S#irit o2 9od "ad reay done 2or "er. Her testimony ran$ and ran$ and ran$.It is not #ossibe 2or me to "ear suc" testimonies and to read t"e scores o2 t"ousands o2 etters &"ic" are received and notno& t"at t"e S#irit o2 9od reay is at &or in "uman ives ri$"t "ere and no&. O2 course &e are u# a$ainst aninstitution &"ic" "as 2or centuries brou$"t to t"is &ord an uttery 2ase conce#tion o2 9od. %"at conce#tion is no moret"an an od #a$an rei$ious su#erstition tod a$ain.

aturay bein$ "onest t"is statement brin$s do&n muc" &rat" on my "ead. evert"eess t"at statement is true as I"ave #roven so many times. 6ere it not true and "ad t"e true #icture o2 t"e Po&er o2 t"e S#irit o2 9od been brou$"t tot"is eart" t"ere &oud be no suc" $"asty &"oesae murder as &e are &itnessin$ today. %"is &"oe civiisation is

be&idered. Our c"urc"es are ost. %"ey are at t"eir &it's end. %"ey actuay beieve t"e story t"ey are teac"in$ more's t"e #ity. For it is a terriby "ard :ob to te rei$ionists t"eir story is untrue. I2 t"ese same #eo#e are &ron$ in anyt"in$ eset"ey mi$"t t"an me 2or #ointin$ out t"eir error. ut &"en one discovers t"e actua trut" o2 t"e e+istence o2 9od and t"enattem#ts to te t"ose teac"in$ 2ase"ood t"at t"eir story is untrue t"at man "as "is &or cut out.

4e&erthe#ess, i% the pirit o% od be in that man, and i% he is a man that !i## ne&er !a&er, and i% he is !i##in$ to $o to his death at an"time %or the sake o% the truths o% od— that man will ine#itably win out e#en though it be against the whole world of theology . That is one thin$ kno!. n that assurance, #i&e and pro$ress in this !ork o% od %or the !ho#e human race.

/t t"e !onvention in Portand Mr 6"ittesey Secretary o2 t"e Masonic /uditorium &as a very interested s#ectator o2 t"e &"oe !onvention. He attended every meetin$. /2ter t"e cose o2 t"e series o2 addresses "e came to me and said=Dr Robinson you "ave started somet"in$ &"ic" &i ive on$ a2ter you "ave #assed a&ay.= He s#oe truy. Since t"atday I "ave come very cose to t"e vei o2 s"ado&s. @ery cose;and &ere it not 2or t"e actua Po&er o2 t"e S#irit o2 9odin me I s"oud be yin$ out t"ere in t"e Mosco& cemetery even no&.

t happened on the 25th o% une, 19<. A dan$erous heart attack. had, %or thirteen "ears been tearin$ m"se#% apart ph"sica##". 4o ca##!ent unheeded. Ca##s %or %inancia# aid. Ca##s in i##ness. Ca##s to speak. Ca##s to &isit. usiness ca##s. 4e&er %or one moment ha&e consideredm"se#% in this 0o&ement. ne&er sha##, trust. For to me to #i&e means (ust one thin$—bringing God to the world . % can8t do that don8t !antto #i&e.

%"e day be2ore t"is attac o2 !oronary %"rombosis I "ad made a very 2ast tri# to Portand Ore$on and return. Somenine "undred and 2i2ty mies. %"e ne+t mornin$ I $ot u# and dressed as usua but I &as so tired I coud not eat my

brea2ast. Puttin$ on my "at I started 2or t"e door intendin$ to $o to t"e o22ice 2or anot"er day's strenuous &or. ut Inever $ot as 2ar as t"e door. On my &ay 2rom t"e dinin$ room to t"e 2ront door a very severe #ain cau$"t me in t"emidde o2 t"e c"est. 0suay I can #ass any #ain o22 instanty. ut I ne& t"is &as a very serious #ain and I aso ne& t"e"eart "ad coa#sed or "ad some serious disturbance.

I sat in a c"air and t"e #ain increasin$ in intensity I ased Mrs Robinson to ca our 2amiy #"ysician &"o onarrivin$ #ronounced it a !oronary %"rombosis and a very serious attac. / s#eciaist &as caed 2rom S#oane 6as". toconsut &it" Dr 6ison t"e oca #"ysician and t"e dia$nosis &as con2irmed. %"e ne+t 2e& &ees &ere #recarious ones2or me. I ne& I s"oud recover but no one ese t"ou$"t I &oud. %"ere I "overed bet&een i2e and deat" &it" MrsRobinson stayin$ cose by me ie t"e $uardian an$e s"e is. /2ie and Forence &ere very muc" u#set. o visitors &ereao&ed.

6e t"e &ees and t"e mont"s &ent by and t"e dan$er #eriod #assed too. ut t"e recovery &as not &"at it s"oud"ave been. One day it &as decided to 2i+ a bed in t"e bac o2 my car and tae me to a "os#ita in Seatte 6as". I nearydied on t"e tri# 2or it reay &as a very 2oois" t"in$ to attem#t and &e "ad been &arned a$ainst attem#tin$ it. ut t"etri# &as made.

/ t"orou$" $oin$>over &as $iven me by t&o 2amous #"ysicians and t"ey "ed itte "o#e o2 utimate recovery. %"eyvery 2rany tod me so. On earnin$ t"at t"eir #ro$nosis &as bad and on bein$ tod t"e sad ne&s t"at I coud not recover

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I caed 2or my cot"es—and a ta+i. Dressin$ &it" t"e assistance o2 a nurse I "ad t"e ta+i tae me to t"e e& 6as"in$tonHote &"ere I en$a$ed a room and &ent to bed. I "ad been on a strict diet at t"e @ir$inia Mason Hos#ita in Seatte sodecided to ceebrate my reease by orderin$ a mea. I2 I &as $oin$ to die I &anted it to be on a 2u stomac". ut I ne& I&as not $oin$ to die. /nd so cain$ 2or room serviceN I ordered "am and e$$s Frenc" 2ried #otatoes buttered toastco22ee and t&o #ieces o2 custard my 2avourite #ie.

That !as that. %e#t better a%ter the mea#, and, short#" a%ter, dressed and !ent do!n the e#e&ator to the #obb" !here padd#ed around%or an hour or so. t %e#t $ood to be ab#e to e&en !a#k round a hote# #obb". The ne)t da" did the same thin$, and the da" a%ter that, ca##ed up0osco! and to#d i## 0arineau to brin$ the Cadi##ac. !as comin$ home. And not to die, but to $o to !ork. i## arri&ed in eatt#e the same da" ca##ed him, and the ne)t da" I sat up in the front seat of that Cadillac and rode =?@ miles from *eattle to /oscow . And did not die either.

Arri&in$ at 0osco! !ent to !ork, and toda", Februar" 2 nd, 191, am !orkin$ (ust as hard as ha&e e&er !orked. The attack !as onune 25th, 19<, bare#" se&en months a$o. 'et here am, %ee#in$ not the s#i$htest si$n o% heart co##apse or its a%ter-e%%ects, and I ha#e beendoing this for three months now . ast !eek returned %rom a trip to 4e! 'ork, Chica$o, 6ashin$ton, D. C., and made the trip a#one and!ithout an" he#p.

6"ie in D. !. I &as invited to s#ea to t"e associated ibe casses o2 t"e !"urc" o2 t"e ret"ren. Dr 6arreno&man is #astor o2 t"at c"urc". I s#oe 2or about 2i2ty minutes and at t"e end o2 t"e ibe study "our t"e ministeriacommittee &aited u#on me and ased me i2 I &oud not #reac" t"e mornin$ sermon. I did. ?et not t"e si$"test si$n o2 &eaness and "ad I desired to I coud "ave #reac"ed t&o more sermons t"at day. %"is :ust $oes to s"o& "o& t"e #o&er o2 t"e S#irit o2 9od can o#erate in every circumstance &"ere t"e e+istence o2 t"at S#irit is 2uy reco$nised.

%"ere "ave been ot"er e+#eriences in t"is "ome in &"ic" bot" /2ie and itte Forence "ave been at deat"'s door andit "as taen in Forence's case a t"e 2ait" a t"e con2idence a t"e assurance I "ave ever #ossessed in t"e S#irit o2 9odto #u "er t"rou$". ut s"e came t"rou$". /nd t"rou$"out t"e en$t" and breat" o2 t"is and and a over t"e &ord arescores o2 t"ousands &"o "ave tee$ra#"ed us "ere in Mosco& and I no& o2 no case &"ere t"e S#irit o2 9od "as not

res#onded brin$in$ a com#ete recovery as it did in my o&n case.

et me te## "ou o% a remarkab#e incident !hich happened in that ort#and con&ention. ust be%ore had started to speak one e&enin$, a6estern =nion bo" appeared at the Temp#e !ith a te#e$ram. *e !as sent to the p#at%orm !ith it. n openin$ the !ire, in pub#ic, read these!ords: 7/y nephew Corwin 'ull dying tubercular meningitis please help .7

O#enin$ t"e tee$ram in #ubic I read it to t"e dee$ates $at"ered t"ere in t"e auditorium. %"en I said to t"em =%"is boy &i not die 2or t"e Po&er o2 t"e S#irit o2 9od &i instanty "ea "im.= %"e ne+t day came a &ire 2rom t"e 2at"er o2 t"at boy statin$ t"at "e "ad recovered. I &as s#eain$ one year ater in t"e same Masonic %em#e and I recited t"is story./ ady interru#ted =Doctor Robinson I :ust &ant to state t"at I am t"e mot"er o2 t"at boy and I &is" to corroborateeveryt"in$ you "ave said. %"e boy miracuousy recovered.=

The s"chiana 0o&ement has been one continuous record o% such happenin$s as these. ne&er intended the 0o&ement to be ahea#in$ 0o&ement, and rea##" it is not. 6hate&er hea#in$s !e see, and there ha&e been tens o% thousands o% them, are but an ad(unct to the

o!er o% od as !e teach it. 6hen a human #i%e be$ins to reco$nise the sta$$erin$ %act that it has od in it, an"thin$ can happen. And !henone is %ortunate enou$h to ha&e had as much e)perience !ith this in&isib#e pirit as it has been m" %ortune to ha&e had, natura##" one be$insto e)pect od to do bi$ thin$s. And this in&ariab#" happens. 6hate&er e)pect od to do, od does.

%"ere are 2e& ni$"ts t"at I am not a&aened out o2 see# to ans&er some on$ distance tee#"one ca. So many o2 t"ese cas came in t"at I "ave "ad to tae t"e tee#"one o22 t"e "oo more t"an once in order to secure any see#.

More t"an ())))) unsoicited etters "ave been received 2rom a #arts o2 t"e &ord tein$ in no uncertain terms&"at t"e Po&er o2 t"e S#irit o2 9od is doin$ since t"is ne& reveation o2 t"e Po&er o2 9od came to t"is eart" t"rou$"t"is Movement. So many come in t"at &e do not ee# t"em any more. 6e "ave not t"e room. /t t"is #oint I s"a et youread a 2e& o2 t"ese etters. I beieve t"ey ri$"t2uy beon$ in t"is boo. eedess to say a suc" etters are Auiteunsoicited. 6e never as 2or t"e etters and most certainy &e never #ay 2or t"em. Here are a 2e&.

6My deepest gratitude e5pressed to you or your proound #oya#ty to hu!anity. $ou have given to us a new#ove% a new #ie% and a new wor#d. That a## the wor#d cou#d &now what I% 4ust one o"scure person% have

a#ready #earnt and acco!p#ished through your Teaching% this conception o great Truth. There cou#d "e no!ore suering or sorrow. There cou#d "e no !ore wars.6

6Than&s so !uch or your &ind he#p. I &now your Teachings and !y prayers were answered. Just a ew

!onths ago I was not we##had a growth under !y ar!. I went "ac& to the hospita# this #ast Thursday andthe doctors cou#d not ind a thing. They too& an G7ray picture% too% and you can i!agine how happy I a!. I

sha## wa#& in the right pathway ro! now on% and "e#ieve in that great Power o our 9iving )od. Than& you

again and again or your Teachings and good he#p.6

7 had t!o strokes o% para#"sis and !as in prett" bad condition. ne o% "our tudents to#d me !ou#d $et !e## and said shou#d!rite to Doctor +obinson. did this, te##in$ "ou o% m" mis%ortune and sickness. Toda" am %ee#in$ %ine. n aturda", u#" 22, hadm" doctor e)amine me %or b#ood pressure. *e tested m" heart and cou#d %ind nothin$ !ron$. Then he used the G-ra" and %ound m"heart in %ine condition. thank "ou, Doctor +obinson, and s"chiana %or m" speed" reco&er".7

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6I cannot very we## c#ose this #etter without irst giving you !y i!pression o your 9esson Nu!"er Two.

One can hard#y pass it without co!!ent. It has #et a per!anent !ar&er on !y !ind which sha## not soon

"e erased. It tears through convention and tradition% and revo#utionised the !anner in which !an has

"een taught to thin&. To say that I than& you and appreciate the opportunity aorded !e to participate inthis great study aint#y e5presses !y inde"tedness to you or the inva#ua"#e services a#ready rendered

upon the receipt o !y second 9esson.6

7First !ant to sa" s"chiana is beauti%u#. /ach da" #o&e s"chiana more and more. A#most an in&a#id, m" hea#th is be$innin$

to impro&e but best o% a##, Doctor +obinson, am ab#e to he#p others re$ain their hea#th. ust "esterda" a #ad" came to mesu%%erin$ !ith a &er" pain%u# $ro!th on her breast. used s"chianas8 Teachin$—od8s hea#in$ o!er—and this mornin$ sheca##ed me to sa" that !hen she !ent to sho! it to her nei$hbour this mornin$, to her $reat surprise it !as $one. 4ot e&en a scar there. 4o! she is persuaded she !ants to stud" s"chiana . ta#k s"chiana at e&er" opportunit". 8m be$innin$ no! toe)perience a ne! somethin$ cannot describe. Thin$s are comin$ a bit better %inancia##", too. 0an", man" thanks.K

76ithout a doubt, s"chiana essons are !onder%u#. 6hen recei&ed the %irst esson o% the %irst series, !as a &er" sick anddespondent man. t !as !onder%u# the up#i%t and peace o% mind it brou$ht to me and this has remained !ith me. 0" %inancia#position has &er" much impro&ed, and am (ust reachin$ out and bui#din$ a home !hich has been m" $reatest desire. t isastoundin$ ho! e&er"thin$ has been made so eas" in connection !ith the #oan o% mone" %or the erection o% the bui#din$. sincere#"thank "ou %or "our teachin$ o% the !onder%u# o!er o% the od-a!, and !ish "ou e&er" success in "our !onder%u# $reat !ork.7

I !ust write to te## you o !y 4oy and gratitude at having !y #itt#e son% /ichard% ho!e again and we## atersi5 !onths in Chi#dren*s Hospita# in 8enver. The nurses and doctors spea& o his hea#ing in such ter!s as *a

!odern !irac#e*% *who*s your guardian ange#% 8ic&K*% etc.% and I sha## never cease than&ing )od% ater seeing

the Power o the 9iving )od deeat the #ast ene!y* or /ichard.6

6Oh% 8octor /o"inson% you are a wonderu# !an% and this wonderu# truth you are teaching is worth a

!i##ion do##ars to anyone who wi## "e#ieve it and try it. I cou#d not go on without it now.6

76hen be$an stud"in$ !ith "ou, !as not on#" the saddest !oman in the !or#d, but a bitter one as !e##. ##ness, %inancia# !orries,and miser" do$$ed m" %ootsteps. 4o! ha&e a ne! #ease on #i%e—no, a new life, and thin$s are rapid#" takin$ %orm %or a better,richer #i%e sti##. !ou#d #ike to continue m" studies !ith "ou and he#p to p#ace this Teachin$ in the hands o% e&er"one contact. !ant others to %ind peace and hea#th in the o!er as ha&e, and be#ie&e it the best !a" to sho! m" $ratitude.7

6I a! sure you hear this ro! every #etter "ut I wi## never "e a"#e to than& you enough or "ringing this

!essage to a## o us. I cannot e5press !yse# enough to te## you how grateu# I a!. I a! very happy to "e in

a s!a## way connected with this organisation. It !eans !uch to !e and you wi## hear ro! !e ro! ti!eto ti!e.6

6A##ow !e to than& you ever so !uch or the very !any e5periences I have had since I have started !y

studies with you. My who#e #ie has changed+ I have "eco!e !ore se#7conident% I now &now who and

what )od is% where )od is% and now I can say that I do en4oy !y happy !o!ents spent with )od.6

7 am happ" to te## "ou ha&e %ound, throu$h s"chiana , the peace !hich passeth a## understandin$. #ook %or m" essons as#etters %rom a dear %riend, stud" them ?uiet#" each da" as "ou su$$ested, and $et a ne! thri## each time.7

6$our 9essons are rea##y wonderu#. There*s no dou"t a"out it% they are )od7inspired. Every 9esson is age!% so "eautiu##y worded and so u## o Power that one ee#s &ind o !enta##y recharged ater reading

the!. Than&s a !i##ion or introducing !e to the )od7Power. I*ve a#ways "e#ieved in )od% "ut it too& you to

put !e in rea# touch with Hi!. )od "#ess you.6

6I write these #ines "rie#y 4ust "ecause I ee# you shou#d &now what your 9essons did or !e. I receivednine 9essons. I read and reread the!% even ater "eing ridicu#ed or doing so. -or the past ive years I

wanted to attend "usiness co##ege% and than&s to your 9essons I have what I wanted. Things have opened

up or !e !ore than ever "eore in !y #ie. I a! e5ceeding#y happy% and #oo& to the 9aw o 9ie as !y

support. I trust it% "e#ieve in it% and it has he#ped !e wonderu##y.6

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6I a! g#ad to say that I a! a#!ost co!p#ete#y recovered ro! a serious heart ai#!ent and !uch credit goes

to 8octor /o"inson or the understanding I have o the )od79aw and how to use it. We are very sure o

inancia# success as we have a wonderu# start a#ong those #ines.6

6I a! so happy I can hard#y write. One o our state (enators whose na!e I sent in has 4ust ca##ed to see !e

and than& !e or sending in his na!e. He said it was the !ost wonderu# thing he had ever conceived or

heard o. My ather has had an i##ness the doctors said was asth!a o the heart. He is now a"#e to #ie down

and s#eep nor!a##y% and is apparent#y we##. We are so happy over his rapid recovery. Than&s or the Power

that wor&s so eective#y.6

6-irst I want to than& you !i##ions o ti!es over and over again or your great &indness and good deed. My

daughter o our years o age was so serious#y i## with co!p#ications o a ruptured appendi5 that the

ru!ours were that she didn*t even have a chance. ut I &new dierent. I 4ust didn*t "e#ieve in death withthe presence o the great 9ie7(pirit and its Powers. Ater three wee&s o that !ost horri"#e i##ness I wired

you and got an i!!ediate rep#y which I a! so very proud o. Now !y daughter is a## through draining and

is p#aying around with the other youngsters. Now I wi## c#ose with !y hus"and*s and !y heartiest than&s

to you or !y daughter has got to "e strong and hea#thy. Than& you so very !uch again and again.6

6As I stated in !y #ast #etter% we have "ought a #itt#e ho!e% than&s to the great )od79aw. A ew !onths ago I

was wor&ing on W.P.A.% and !y wie and I were as&ing )od or a private 4o" and a #itt#e ho!e o our own so

we cou#d get away ro! paying rent. Two !onths ago I got a private 4o"% and now we have a #itt#e ho!e o

our own. I certain#y &now that the great )od7power wi## do wonderu# things or you i you wi## on#ye5press your desires and e5pect the! to "e answered. Than& the great )od and you or these wonderu#

9essons.6

6I wish to send you this #etter o than&s or the !arve##ous resu#ts in hea#ing or us through the Power o

the #iving )od. We sent you a te#egra! #ast Wednesday !orning concerning !y nephew% three years o#d.He was crying with pains in his a"do!en and was a very sic& chi#d to a## appearances% "ut soon ater we

sent you word the chi#d e## as#eep and got "etter and &ept i!proving rapid#y% and now is perect#y who#e

and we##. We cannot than& you enough or throwing the Power o )od into p#ay or this chi#d o ours. Wewi## never orget this service% and hope to he#p *Psychiana* Move!ent a#ong as !uch as possi"#e inancia##y

and spiritua##y and a## ways. Than&ing you again% we are grateu# and wi## c#ose &nowing we are a## one inthe (pirit o )od and )od*s wor&s.6

7 think "our s"chiana is a $rand thin$. 6hen started stud"in$ "our essons e&er"thin$ chan$ed. ha&e a (ob no! pa"in$ $oodpa" %ourteen da"s a month. n m" case it !ou#d ha&e been impossib#e !ithout "our stud" o% the od-a!. am !ishin$ "ou #ots o% success.7

6It is now so!e ti!e since I wrote to you as&ing or he#p or !y sister% and I want you to &now !y heart is

over#owing with gratitude or what you did or her. Ater writing you she had one very "ad hae!orrhage%

"ut has had none since.6

6Than&s !any ti!es or your wonderu# he#p. I was very i## when I irst wrote you or he#p. The doctors

had a"out given !e up. Ater you sent !e the 9essons Nu!"ers One% Two% and Three% I !ade a "ig change.

My doctor is a!a;ed.6

I am 2reAuenty ased &"at &i "a##en &"en t"e &ord at ar$e no&s t"e 2uness o2 t"e im#ications o2 t"is &or.Frany I do not no&. I do no& t"at t"is &ord does not no& no& 9od. 6e are 2aced &it" a situation in &"ic"miions o2 #eo#e beieve or say t"ey beieve a certain set o2 rei$ious 2acts. %"ou$" t"ere are about 2ive "undreddi22erent sects creeds and cuts t"e 2undamentas o2 t"em a are aie. %"ey a beieve in t"e cruci2i+ion o2 a $od 2or t"e

=sins= o2 t"e "uman race.This conception o% od, !hi#e accepted b" so man" mi##ions, is a thousand mi#es %rom the actua# truths o% od. These mi##ions o% $ood

honest sou#s ha&e been tau$ht b" preacher and priest that the" must be#ie&e !hat the" sa", because there is no other name gi#en under hea#en whereby they can be "sa#ed" . 'ou see, the !ho#e re#i$ious structure o% toda" is predicated on the 7sin%u#ness7 o% man, !hich7sin%u#ness7 is inherent in man. Adam and /&e in the arden o% /den, the" sinned. There%ore, a## ha&e been born under a curse. That curse,!e are to#d, ma" be #i%ted on#" as one pro%esses his or her be#ie% in the death o% a $od to !ipe a!a" that sin.



t has been $i&en to the %ounder o% s"chiana to see the True i$ht. And m" !ork on this earth is to te## the churches, and their %o##o!ers,the stark, p#ain, simp#e %act that the" ha&e been mis#ed in !hat the" ha&e been tau$ht about od. A## re%erence to cruci%i)ion, atonement,baptism, &ir$in birth, resurrection o% the bod", and to esus Christ, are %ictiona# and most certain#" not %act. This is &er" easi#" pro&en. B+eadGleams &#er $he 'ori(on or Crucified Gods Galore b" this !riter. n spite o% the %act that the !ho#e Christian structure o% re#i$ion is %oundedon these supposed %acts, m" !ork is to te## the human race these so-ca##ed %acts are not true. That, in a nutshe##, is !hat am on this earth%or.

4atura##", i% these theories o% od are not true, then the !ho#e Christian re#i$ion is de#udin$ its %o##o!ers. That is a %act. /?ua##" true is it,that i% the Christian theor" o% od cruci%ied as esus is not true, the truth o% od must #ie some!here e#se. t does. And it is m" !ork to sho!this !or#d !hat that truth is. A sta$$erin$ thin$ to attempt@ % course it is. ut, i% am the man %or this !ork, and do kno! !hereo% speak,

then, throu$h the in&isib#e o!er teach sha## be ab#e to chan$e the entire re#i$ious structure o% the !or#d, brin$in$ to it, not a theor" o% od!hich !as sto#en %rom a pa$an s"stem o% re#i$ion, but the actua# truth o% od.

For truth is God. +nd there can be no religion higher than truth . The sad %act is that men and !omen, in spite o% the od-#ess conditiono% the !or#d toda", choose to han$ on to their pet church theories, e&en thou$h the" stron$#" suspect the" cannot possib#" be true. Theo!er o% od can brin$ such %anatics as *it#er to their knees &er" speedi#". And i% there !as on#" one church con$re$ation in America !hichkne! od, that !ou#d be accomp#ished. % the churches !i## not %ind od—i% the" insist upon !orshippin$ esus Christ as 7od-cruci%ied7,then the true re&e#ation o% the o!er o% od !i## come to this earth throu$h some other or$anisation !hich operates entire#" outside o% thechurch.

That is happenin$ no!. And the !or#d kno!s it is happenin$. And the churches kno! it is happenin$. The" kno! the" are po!er#ess, "etthe" !i## not $i&e up their heathen, pa$an ideas o% od A#mi$ht" bein$ cruci%ied b" human hands on a cross o% !ood. *o!e&er, the choice istheirs. % the" insist on teachin$ such pa$an do$mas, the churches !i## %a##. The" !i## stand id#" b" !hi#e others, !ho do kno! the o!er o% thepirit o% od, proceed to !in the !or#d, not to the church—but to the *pirit of God .

%"at is my &or. I "ave tried sim#y "onesty in t"is boo to #aint a bit o2 a #icture o2 t"e man "eadin$ t"is &ordMovement. He is not muc" o2 a man as you no& no&. ut in t"e in2inite &isdom o2 a $reat 9od t"is #oor #iece o2

"umanity is #er2ormin$ a &or. He is a vesse &"ic" 9od can use. /nd t"e reason 9od can use me is because I "ave no #et t"eories o2 my o&n re$ardin$ 9od. I "od to not"in$ t"e c"urc"es teac" concernin$ 9od /mi$"ty bein$ born o2 avir$in and cruci2ied on a cross.

There is (ust one thin$ kno!, and that is that !hat do not kno! about od, can be, and is bein$ dai#" re&ea#ed to me, as the needarises. ersona##", am nothin$. ne&er !ant to be an"thin$. cou#d not be an"thin$ i% !anted to. ut—through this insignificant man who perhaps should not ha#e been born at all God is speaking and God will continue to speak until the shadows of a church-filled God-lessearth pass away and the glory of the knowledge of the e#er-e%isting *pirit of God co#ers the earth as the waters co#er the sea . n c#osin$ thisautobio$raph", re%er once more, as started the book, !ith the !ords o% ohn BCardina# 4e!man—

/Lead Kindly Light, amid th' encircling gloom,Lead Thou me on;The night is dark, and I am far from home,Lead Thou me on.

Keep Thou my feet, I do not ask to see the distant scene,One step enough for me./

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