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Poetry Series

Cristelle Elaine Collera

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June 2011

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Cristelle Elaine Collera (August 3,1994)

Given the nickname 'Walking Dictionary' by classmates, Cristelle discovereher love for weaving words into verse early in life. She was appointededitor-in-chief of their school paper twice, and won a slew of writing andpublic speaking awards in elementary and high school.

She draws inspiration from her own (drama-filled, never boring) life and h(more than frequent) interventions in her friends' affairs. She is equippedwith a special pad of pink stationery where she writes the drafts of herpoems.

She is currently a freshman taking up BS Life Sciences at Ateneo de ManilUniversity.

Works:

None... Yet. *wink*





At The End Of The Day

Rubbing my eyes awake, I sit up

Then thoughts of you start coming aroundStifling a frown, I heavily sighYou’re out of my sight, but in my mind.

As the day wears on, I go through lifeAll the pressures, the worry and strifeAre forgotten with visions of youAnd remind me of work I should do.

Going through life’s turbulent currentOur lives too busy, energy spentFor I know we have no time for usIt takes great strength not to fall apart.

But thankfully, we’re still standing hereI know I have nothing to fear.Now I see you, waiting for somebodyRemem’bring that “somebody” meant “me”.

And a wide smile comes across my faceFor at the end of the day, we’re still the sameI’m yours, you’re mine, it has been that wayTogether forever, for now and always.






Blanche

Everyday his knees go weak

And faster his heart beats.Everything stops at a standstillAnd he freezes, unable to speak.

Her eyes twinkle like the stars in the skyRosy cheeks, kissable lips, she shines.Her glowing radiant faceIs more than enough to complete his day.

He'd give anything to see her smileAnd it'll make everything worthwhileIf she'd love him back, that girlShe's enough to brighten up his world.

She doesn't know he loves herSo can you tell her that?Whatever may happen afterThere's still his love for a girl named Blanche.






Can't Run Forever

Once again, it's a Friday

And I find myself finding a wayTo avoid you as much as I canIt's seeing you everyday I can't stand.

'Cause you make me want to break the rulesOf that I know I can be sure.If you dared me to jump off a cliff Trust that I wouldn't even blink.

And that's the scariest part of itKnowing that I couldn't thinkWhenever you're near, I go crazyTill now it still amazes me.

My mind goes back to the day we metI'd sworn that I'd never fall again.But all it took was a single momentAnd my oath was, in a flash, forgotten.

Running away from this strange feelingOnly worsens, and its remedyIs you, but I'd rather stay sickThan ever hear you rejecting me.

Now I look around for signs of youSo I'd see who I'm hiding from.But looking in the wrong direction,I bump into you, out of nowhere.

And I realize I can’t run foreverFor this new love will never leaveStubbornly coming back every timeI drive it away, out of my sight.

Trying my best to ignore youMy body still freezes, unable to move.But you see me, and muster a smile,Sending delicious shivers down my spine.

I know you're very happy with herAnd I don't want to barge into your worldBut can't this girl have a right to dream,That maybe someday, you'll end up with me?






Clandestine Rendezvous

I check the other rooms, and everyone’s asleep,

I try my best not to make a peep.If this is still right, I do not know,I stopped thinking five minutes ago.

They tell me this is all just pointless,That I’d be better off with someone else.They say this is all a foolish gameThat I’d lose anyway.

But I tell myself that this is right,That this isn’t just some miserable plight.Though this is complicated, you and meThere exists nothing more real.

And we have a place only ours to findAway from them all and their prying eyesWhere no one can judge and no one can frown,And no one can try to bring us down.

So I’m tiptoeing out of the house with care,Swiftly and silently, with no time to spare,To meet you by the lake at midnight, ‘Cause this love’s still worth a try.






Confession

Know that I’ve always loved you

After all this time, I still do.But now we’ve grown far apart, coldI reach out and find no hand to hold.

Once you promised me foreverIn the midst of this cruel storm.No lies, till death do us partYou said you’d keep me safe from harm.

That you’d protect me, like you sworeThat oath is now dead, severed ‘Cause you’re beside me no moreLeft me reeling, my heart broken.

We’ve been through the darkest of timesBut I’m hurt more all the while.Seeing that you don’t care at allMakes stronger this bitter resolve.

Told you that I’ve always loved youDon’t know anymore if it’s still true. ‘Cause the present’s making me doubtIf I should stay – or leave right now.






Epiphany

Back then, I thought you were a problem

A predicament to be mendedThat leaving you would end all of thisBut now I wish I never did.

From the day I said I wanted outYou haunt me like a ghost, so restlessMemories clear then as they are nowNever have I been so sleepless.

Things I thought I’d be better withoutTurn out to be what I really wantCarefree moments in life whizzing byDeemed stupid by my heedless mind.

Decided to unclutter my headRealized I’d taken you for grantedWith things undone, words unsaidIt was true love I deserted.

T’was too late when I realizedThat I needed you by my sideToo late, you’re gone, nothing’s leftBut me, our memories, and regret.






First Love

There was once this boy and this girl

Who lived in completely different worlds.Neither one knew their paths would crossLeaving on each, a painful loss.

Destiny willed that they would meetAs they walked on that same streetNever knowing their lives would changeAs they strolled merrily on that one lane.

Then they bumped into each otherAnd getting up, can't help but stammerThey both knew that very dayFor the first time, love would come their way.

So came the start of endless phone callsTalking to each other from dusk till dawn.Sweet dates, flowers and chocolatesThinking they were perfect soulmates.

But alas! They weren't meant for each otherAnd experienced heartbreak like no otherWhen they realized the love was goneIt was, in fact, long over and done.

They say the first cut is the deepest,And they bore the pain inside the worst.Both were truly inconsolableAnd both wondering what went wrong.

Years later, they're grown up and more matureKnowing they can't be together in the futureHoping that someday they'll beHappy with the one they're meant to be with.

Though deep inside remained a longingBoth were still silently wishingFor just one more chanceTo be together forever at last.

Once upon a time they were supposed to beBut neither was able to seeThat fate would end their fairytaleAnd they would never be the same.

Destiny finally heard their pleasFor both to be truly at peaceAfter ten torturous yearsFilled with regret and painful memories.

She was thinking, reminiscing one dayAbout how things had always been the same





Since she loved and lost a lond time ago

Then stood up and started to go.

She was called by a voice somewhat strangeTurned to see who called her name.And she could hardly believe her eyesIt was him, looking handsome in a black tie.

Her painful past returned once againThe events replayed again in her headShe wanted to just move on aheadBut he took her hand and said,

“I missed you so much”, he pleaded.

She knew that moment that they'd never letAnything or anyone separate them againAnd to each other they promised forever.

To remain faithful no matter whatAgainst all odds, never to partThis they swore to each otherAnd to this day, they're still together.

Proving that first love never diesThey faced and fought every challengeThat wanted to keep them far apartDefying everything and fearing nothing.

And so ends this story I narrateAbout two people doomed by fateBut joined by destiny for each otherTo be together, always and forever.






Flash From The Past

Saw you again in school yesterday

Suddenly found myself in the wayOf your basketball, gone astrayLooked up and saw you, waiting.

Passed the ball to you, and suddenlyEveryone there started to cheer.You smiled a bit, and dribbled awayI left, though I wanted to stay.

To you it's probably nothingBut to me it's definitely somethingFor a moment there, I saw a flashStraight from our long-forgotten past.

My mind drifts back to the good old timesI had been so vibrant, full of life.Without a single care in the worldSo innocent, oblivious, we were.

Remember those long hours on the phone,When you never let me feel alone?We'd end every chat with 'Italy',I trusted, loved you then - and now still.

We never were for extravaganceNothing too special, nothing too grandWe valued the simple, little thingsSo many good memories I'd saved.

Eighteen whole months we faced togetherFeared nothing, for we had each other.Always thought we would last foreverOur story was unique, like no other.

But we had to wake up to realityHad to go our separate waysWe tried our best to keep holding onBut in the end, we had to let go.

And now it's been more than a yearSince we bade each other goodbye.Still can't believe we weren't meant to be,Till now I'm still waiting for a sign.

Did I just see a glimmer of hope in your eyes,Or is the light playing tricks on mine?I know it's just a flash from the past, butIs there really no more chance for us?






Flashback

I put out a dusty old box

Filled with memories of years bygoneThen I remember one magical storyWhich was to last an eternity.

I'd always seen them way back thenFound them really fascinating.Always together but without a belief That they'd be linked by destiny.

I got exasperated with both of themInsisting they were just friends.So I decided to let this end'Cause they're meant to be more than friends.

I made up an excuseSet them up with a ruseThat they had secret admirersNot knowing they were each other.

Anonymously the sparks flewAnd I knew exactly what to do.Revealed to them about each otherAnd they laughed together.

With each other they were perfectly happyAt my scheme with destiny i was pleased.I didn't make that work of artIt was there, right from the start.

Now the flashback's done, I hide the boxSeeing it was half past ten on my clock.I dress in pink and fix myself 'Cause I've got a wedding to attend.






For Tonight I'm Fine

The alcohol runs, burns down through my throat

And I’m doing my best to stand, copeBut it’s useless, I’m wobbling, stumblingMy world’s slowing down, blurring.

My entire body goes numbAnd all I can do is tipsily step upTo another rendition of Hotel California ‘Cause the karaoke’s all mine tonight.

And I start to think that I’m still alright,And I delude myself that everything’s fine.Even though I’m far from okay,Even though I’m still broken at the end of the day.

I’m smiling at everyone like there’s no tomorrow,I’m dancing around like I’m stealing a show.Downing the night away with a shot or twenty,Anything to block out this stupid misery.

I know I’ll be left with only a headacheAnd no memory of these things I did.I know I’ll be left with only a heartacheAnd haunting memories of those things we did.

I know tomorrow I’ll wake up wastedAnd the pain’s still going to be there.But till then I’ve got these hours ahead of meA getaway from the world as I know it.






Getaway

Life’s been changing lately

And I’m so close to crazyI need someplace else to stayRun off to a little getaway.

In a world of deception and liesWhere people are full of false desiresScrambling with each other for the topI want it all to stop.

A place where I’ll be carelessAnd not be met by blank stares.Where I can say, “Who cares? ” “I’m living my life and I wanna dare.”

Somewhere I can just relaxLie down, forget the factsGoals, objectives, timeplans, deadlinesWill be at home, left behind.

Been waiting a while to be freeTo be what I want, just me.So I’m giving myself what I’m dueAnd bid it all, “adieu! ”.






Goodbye

Goodbye is always the hardest word

As lethal it is, still utteredSome who say it, regret; others don’tNo matter, in the end it still hurts.

Goodbye is but a double – edged swordBe it come from one horribly scornedOr from a poor soul t’was still hurtingFrom carrying a burden silently.

Love, I know we’ve been faced with trialsThat you’ve been suffering all the whileThe silence hurts, we can’t denyPlease say anything, just not “goodbye”.






Intoxicated

Look at my clock, it's 3am

Why am I still up, awake so late?Can't help but think I'm turning jadedOn another night, intoxicated.

My vision's now just a blurMy head spins, forgetting the worldMy thoughts have all gone cloudedAnd so has my sense of judgment.

Everything in sight whizzes byAnd everything seems to fly into the nightExcept this photo album of you and meFilled with your haunting memories.

Drinking to no longer think of youProves totally useless, so I've found trueSo how exactly do I deleteYou, who used to make my days complete?

Now all I have are these keepsakes, fadedLeft to resign myself to what's fatedLeft without you for the rest of my daysHow I wish I could just remain intoxicated.






Invisible

Everyday, see you from afar

You’re like a bright, twinkling starSo close to me, near enough to reachYet so far, far away from me.

To you I’m just another girlTo me you’re not, and it hurts.You never see me though I’m hereYou never give me worth.

When I see you with herMy whole world’s just a blur.I can’t do nothing but to stareLike a ghost, like I’m never there.

This pain is killing me soLike a knife, stabbing through my soul.My love for you’s nothing but trueHow I wish you would love me too.






Leaving The Past

Been waiting to escape my past

Filled with mem'ries I thought would lastDiaries, photos, everythingI thought would mean a lot someday.

Put them there a long time agoThought back then that I would knowThat it would be forever and everI knew I was that clever.

But alas, a big storm waitedTo render all things I had displacedNever to return to the stateWhich I loved and treasured till late.

Hard it may be, I didn't seeThe things which were in store for meI was scared in setting it freeThat I may lose a part of me.

But life goes on and onAnd I don't be the oneTo live in the past, oh noI have to finally let go.

So now I'll do what I ought toSought out the box, and soonIt will be just a pile of ashesBurning a past filled with regret.






Lonely Night

Looking up at a starry night

I let go and my mind takes flightWondering about life itself Forgetting the power and pelf.

Remem’bring what I left behindTo get a place in life so highSeeing how far I’ve really goneI have no regrets – except one.

A chance to be free, spontaneousTill it got in the way of my goalsWhich came in my life firstNever knew blessings could be cursed.

But alas, they brought miserySuccess, surprisingly emptyThough great, when I look I findBlank symbols, victorious but vile.

Never had a chance to explainIt was time to stop playing gamesI once thought were unimportantUntil I stopped using my heart.

Too scared to take too many risksToo afraid to fall into a pitDid things so utterly stupidEyes closed, heart about to bleed.

Staring at the sky tonightI know we watch the same old stars.I only wish you understoodWish you knew why we had to part.






Maybe It's Time To Say Goodbye

What's the matter with us?

I don't know what's wrong.Everything between us is slowly fadingAnd truly undeniably failing.

Gone are those long phone callsWhich kept us awake till the break of dawn.The endless chat, the sweet goodnightAnd 'I love you' said over the line.

Staring at each other when no one can seeThose little secrets between you and me.The past filled with precious memoriesWhich I would've loved to keep.

We've now come to a standstillHaven't you noticed it yet?So I'm not gonna lie, and I'm not gonna cryAnd say 'maybe it's time to say goodbye'.






My Sweet Life

I know my life's less than perfect

Hit a lot of bumps and more ahead.But to that I can surely say”I wouldn't have it any other way.”

I'm no celebrity, not a superstarWho sells platinum records and drives a sports carBut I've lots of people around meWho love me whoever and whatever I am.

I don't live in a posh mansionAnd I don't have a Jacuzzi in my bedroom.But I've a cozy little placeWhere I can comfortably spend my days.

No, I ain't the resident babeWho turns all heads when passing their way.But I've my friends who stayThey're truly loyal and would never stray.

A lot in this world's greater than meBut I'm contented, you can see.Who cares, I just happily laughAnd live my sweet life just the way I like.






Never We Will Be

I'd learned never to trust all fairy tales

The damsel in distress, castles, the princeNot even the “happily ever after”sReckoned that I certainly knew better.

Nor did I believe that love moved mountains'Cause it never really did anythingBut put people powerless under its spellStripping them of spirit, till nothing is left.

When you loved me, I thought I had been wrongThat maybe we could change fate all alongWe, too, had fallen for Love's cruel trapCouldn't see that we were doomed from the start.

But alas, we didn't listen to FateAnd now here we are, bruised, battered insaneRefusing to believe that it's overHoping that somehow, we'd stay together.

But the truth hurts, no matter how we feelWhat's not meant to be won't ever set us freeWhy can't we get a dose of reality?We never were, have never been, and never will be.






No Longer Pretend

We hold hands and call each other 'Dear',

We even have an anniversary.But we're nothing more than just best friendsPlaying a silly little game of pretend.

I'm yours and you're mine, laughingly'Cause your heart's hers, literally.I'm only the one helping youMake her fall for you too.

We hang out on Fridays of late,But never on a single date.'Cause all you talk about is her smile,Which makes your days worthwhile.

I've stayed beside you through everything,Through every joy and every pain,When she left you, to your distressI was there to help you pick up the pieces.

You invited me to watch the night sky with youAnd I got there as fast as I could.You close your eyes and turn to meTelling me to make a wish.

For a big shooting star flies byI'm lying on the grass, by your side.These strange feelings now ariseHow could I have been blind all this time?

As I lay my head upon your shoulder,You wish we'd stay friends forever.But I'm silently wishing for something elseFor this game to become no longer pretend.






Now Or Never

It's prom night, and I'm still in a trance,

Wond'ring if I'll even get a chanceTo explain everything to you properly,After such a long time in secrecy.

Braving all odds just to be here tonightI look around, but you're nowhere in sightSomething tells me what I'm doing ain't rightMust I run away, or stay and fight?

Fumbling with the buttons on my pink dressMy mind fills with many thoughts, much stress.Where would I even start to beginTo explain to you, all these strange feelings?

Truth is, I've loved you since that day we metThe details still very clear in my head.You may think I've forgotten that dayI haven't, and forever it'll stay.

It was a cloudy October 5,We were celebrating by the baysideTwo golds, three silvers on a record highYou came along and it was such a night.

The rain started to pour, on and onWe didn't care, like there was no tomorrow.Who knew this would have an impact so long,With more laughs, more talks and more morrows?

Now you're walking towards me saying,'Would you care to dance with me, dear? 'You take my hand and lead me to the dance floor,My heartbeat racing faster than before.

But what will I get from telling you the truth?You may not listen, and pretty soon;You'll be gone, to far-off lands galoreWith so much of your life left to explore.

Love makes us hold on to things we shouldn'tBut who are we to know any better?I know this risk to take I couldn't,But I'm already here, it's now or never.






Once Upon A Time I Made A Little Rhyme

Once upon a time I made up a little rhyme

And I thought it was just fine.Wrote it on a piece of paperAnd stored it in a drawer.

On one very windy dayI was looking for somethingIn that same place, forgettingThe paper was there, buried.

It just flew out the windowAnd I didn't even knowThat it would embark on an adventureWhich I'll surely remember.

When I found it was lostI got sad and thought'I hope it's returned to meI really loved it, you see.'

It was a very long time laterWhen someone knocked on my door.He said, “I've finally metThe one to whom my heart has set.”

I learned my work left him inspiredHe looked for its author all this time.I'd captured his heart, unknowinglyBy my words and their harmony.

That little paper now hangs in a frameTo remind me everydayThat once upon a time I made a little rhymeAnd it fetched for me the love of my life.






Retreat

I feel detached from all the world

For days, no news I have heardNo connection with the outsideAnd no other people in sight.

Missing the comfort of my own bedSoft pillows, propped upon my head.Eating, sleeping whenever I want,With no signaled bell tinkling out.

Everyday there's the formationsA schedule for every reflection.A time to eat, to pray, to sleep,To lock myself in thoughts down deep.

Two days to stay in silent retreatWill be a hard feat to complete.But through this I can only prayTo be a better person this way.






Slipping Through My Fingers

Gone are the memories once so sweet

The days we shared, once so fleeting, quickNow stretch into long, unbearable timeAs we are suffering all the while.

Stars we two used to wish onFade into the night, all dead and goneThe sky we stared up at togetherNow looks down on me, mocking my despair.

Whispered promises we'd sworn to keepHave flown away, carried by the windHow could we not be able to seeThat we had never been destined?

Everything's slipping through my fingersWhat once was us is now just a blurHolding on will only hurt us soGuess it's time to finally let go.






Sometimes Life's Just Not Fair

Sometimes everything falls apart

And coping up just gets so hardFeeling like you've so scaredShows that sometimes life's just not fair.

Broken hearts, broken dreamsBroken promises sworn to keepCan leave the worst, deepest scarsThat with you may never part.

Even in the face of mundane thingsThe simplest twitch may leave you crazedBig or small, they all collectUntil you'd horribly snap, I'd bet.

The day when no one caresThen you'd solemnly swearTo keep your cool no matter whatAnd end up completely mad.

Don't let them just beak your heartDo the best, play your part.Stand up, pretend the pain ain't there'Cause sometimes, life's just not fair.






The Sun Shines Once Again

Finally, the sun shines again

I feel its rays giving me warmthMelting away the vile regret,Led me out of a place so dark.

Finally, the birds start chirpingHappy things I once loathedNow I sit listening to themTo songs of life once forgotten.

Finally, the skies become blueFound out that it was, indeed, trueThat the storm had gone, far awayHere it was never meant to stay.

The heavens are now crystal clearAnd I know the end is nowhere nearThe stars up there twinkle, waitingFor me to reach them, high they may be.






Till We're Together Again

I wake up in another bed

Another place, another time.Thoughts of you start to fill my headRemembering that you’re gone, I sigh.

Stifling a frown, I realizeWe’ve been apart for quite a while.Honestly, it drives me crazyKnowing you’re miles away from me.

Can’t help but think how far you areAre we wishing on the same star?Do you think of me, miss me too? ‘Cause it’s killing me, missing you.

Do you wish for my swift return,For the day we’ll be together?Know that it’s all I ever wantTo be with you, not just anyone.

Hope you’ll wait for me to come homeSo I can smile when I knowThat every second brings me closerTo you and me, us and forever.






Unsent Letter

I gaze at you across the room

With this girl you’re talking to.You smile at her, she smiles at youHow I wish you’d look at me too.

For the thousandth time, my heart stopsOn my cheek I feel teardrops comeFor the millionth time, the pain cutsLike a knife, slicing through my heart.

Don’t you remember what we once had?Times when we were happy and gladNow a long – forgotten balladT’was our song, then of love, now sad.

I’d give anything to reliveThe past, when it was you and me.If that’s possible in my dreamsI hope I fall into endless sleep.

Everything happened long agoBut until now I still don’t knowWhy I have yet to let you goI guess I still love you so.






Verdict

It’s been a while since we last spoke

That you’re fine, I can only hopeSince we decided to let goAfter troubles which hurt us so.

You have your life and I’ve got mineLooking back, I can only sighAt a love, once deemed divineNow collapsed, left us asking “Why? .”

I try my best to rememberThe good times, when we were betterTo think of happy memoriesBut they stay locked away from me.

The only scenes that come to mindAre those of sadness and strife.Nothing’s left but wasted timeWe’d spent on useless, pointless fights.

Forgive me for being like thisI’m not a natural cynicBut now I’ve been rendered wearyBy the burden of this verdict.

‘cause now I’ve made up my mindFor it’s time to stop being blindI’ve mustered courage to fess up,And say, “We’re better off broken up.”

You look at me in disbelief Your eyes asking, “Seriously? ” Saying, “How could you be so cold? ” I, myself, don’t really know.

Now I can feel only relief For now I can finally seeWhat more the world has in store for me

From your grasp, I’m finally free.Cristelle Elaine Collera





When I Once Played Cupid

Everyday this couple I see

They most truly fascinate me.Always too shy to be seenBy the other, out of fear.

He loved her, and she was the sameHead over heels, fallen for himSo I decided to do somethingTo bring them together, with Fate.

I set them up one sunny dayNeither one knowing, they weren't late.Then they saw one anotherAnd admitted their love for each other.

For myself I gained two friendsAnd for them a love that never ends.I'll always remember all my lifeWhen I once played Cupid, and did it in style.





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Yes

One day we met, became good friends

Promised to be there until the endYou cajoled, “Please be there for me” I smiled, “Yes, I’m here, see? ”

Months passed, things turned differentWe fell in love, ‘twas not expectedYou asked from me, a simple chance “Yes, ” I said, hoping we’d last.

Hardships came, problems we facedDidn’t know our impending fateYou pleaded, “Can you still hold on? ” “Yes, I can, ” was what I’d sworn.

Now we’re here, you’ve dropped on one kneeClutching a diamond ring.Your eyes twinkling, “Will you marry me? ” One look from me danced, “Yes, I will.'


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