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SecondSecondSecondSecond Chance Chance Chance Chance

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ISBN ISBN ISBN ISBN 978978978978----1111---- 326 326 326 326 ---- 11301 11301 11301 11301 ----8888

Copyright © CamTan Ringel 2015Copyright © CamTan Ringel 2015Copyright © CamTan Ringel 2015Copyright © CamTan Ringel 2015

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Dedications

I owe my ability to recognize and adhere to inspiration and I owe my ability to recognize and adhere to inspiration and I owe my ability to recognize and adhere to inspiration and I owe my ability to recognize and adhere to inspiration and

creativity to dear friends. My own self and some very admirable creativity to dear friends. My own self and some very admirable creativity to dear friends. My own self and some very admirable creativity to dear friends. My own self and some very admirable

projects that are going on around us,projects that are going on around us,projects that are going on around us,projects that are going on around us,

Sometimes just there, ticking on in the background.Sometimes just there, ticking on in the background.Sometimes just there, ticking on in the background.Sometimes just there, ticking on in the background.

THE BACKBONES THAT MAKE SENSETHE BACKBONES THAT MAKE SENSETHE BACKBONES THAT MAKE SENSETHE BACKBONES THAT MAKE SENSE

WHEN SENSE WHEN SENSE WHEN SENSE WHEN SENSE SEEM FAR FETCHEDSEEM FAR FETCHEDSEEM FAR FETCHEDSEEM FAR FETCHED

Thank you for being my rockThank you for being my rockThank you for being my rockThank you for being my rock

Thank you for letting me try being a rock to some of you tooThank you for letting me try being a rock to some of you tooThank you for letting me try being a rock to some of you tooThank you for letting me try being a rock to some of you too

SurvivorsSurvivorsSurvivorsSurvivors

CrisisCrisisCrisisCrisis

HillcroftHillcroftHillcroftHillcroft

Tottenham ChancesTottenham ChancesTottenham ChancesTottenham Chances

Second ChanceSecond ChanceSecond ChanceSecond Chance

Vivienne BornemannVivienne BornemannVivienne BornemannVivienne Bornemann

Peter DuncanPeter DuncanPeter DuncanPeter Duncan

Mr P MontyMr P MontyMr P MontyMr P Monty

Paul ByrnePaul ByrnePaul ByrnePaul Byrne

Marta & Kurt RingelMarta & Kurt RingelMarta & Kurt RingelMarta & Kurt Ringel

Everyone involved with RAW poetry events.Everyone involved with RAW poetry events.Everyone involved with RAW poetry events.Everyone involved with RAW poetry events.

Everyone associated with Voodoo CiTi/Rocky VoodooEveryone associated with Voodoo CiTi/Rocky VoodooEveryone associated with Voodoo CiTi/Rocky VoodooEveryone associated with Voodoo CiTi/Rocky Voodoo

WE ALL MAKE A TEAMWE ALL MAKE A TEAMWE ALL MAKE A TEAMWE ALL MAKE A TEAM

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Ombrophobia

OMBROPHOBIA = 'The fear of Rain'OMBROPHOBIA = 'The fear of Rain'OMBROPHOBIA = 'The fear of Rain'OMBROPHOBIA = 'The fear of Rain'

Red 'n' Yella Red 'n' Yella Red 'n' Yella Red 'n' Yella ---- Auntie Ella Auntie Ella Auntie Ella Auntie Ella

Lose your umbrella Lose your umbrella Lose your umbrella Lose your umbrella

to free your writing handto free your writing handto free your writing handto free your writing hand

At a poetry convention in St Andrews, UK, I tried to gather as much At a poetry convention in St Andrews, UK, I tried to gather as much At a poetry convention in St Andrews, UK, I tried to gather as much At a poetry convention in St Andrews, UK, I tried to gather as much

advice as a novice possibly could. The one advice that sticks most in advice as a novice possibly could. The one advice that sticks most in advice as a novice possibly could. The one advice that sticks most in advice as a novice possibly could. The one advice that sticks most in

my mind was rather simple:my mind was rather simple:my mind was rather simple:my mind was rather simple:

'Always carry pen and paper''Always carry pen and paper''Always carry pen and paper''Always carry pen and paper'

oh, and use it...oh, and use it...oh, and use it...oh, and use it...

My title might be confusing. That is not intentional but it is a My title might be confusing. That is not intentional but it is a My title might be confusing. That is not intentional but it is a My title might be confusing. That is not intentional but it is a

reflection on how thoughts can spring to mind in any shape or form. reflection on how thoughts can spring to mind in any shape or form. reflection on how thoughts can spring to mind in any shape or form. reflection on how thoughts can spring to mind in any shape or form.

My belief is that words have souls and as such they need to be heard, My belief is that words have souls and as such they need to be heard, My belief is that words have souls and as such they need to be heard, My belief is that words have souls and as such they need to be heard,

told and considered. Words are notold and considered. Words are notold and considered. Words are notold and considered. Words are not there to be swallowed. They are t there to be swallowed. They are t there to be swallowed. They are t there to be swallowed. They are

there to fearlessly open gateways. there to fearlessly open gateways. there to fearlessly open gateways. there to fearlessly open gateways.

However, back to what spooks and speaks under my umbrella:However, back to what spooks and speaks under my umbrella:However, back to what spooks and speaks under my umbrella:However, back to what spooks and speaks under my umbrella:

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Contents

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Dedications iii

Ombrophobia iv

THE LITTLE TROTS OF RAINDROPS 1

MORNNG BLUES 2

MY STREET 3

THE CITY 5

COMMUTER 6

DOWN BRICK LANE 7

THE DANCING LEMMING 9

WORD 1 10

THERE SOMETHING GRAND ABOUT EVERY SOUL 12

A NO 13

ILLUSION OF FAMILY 14

HAD A TWIN SISTER 15

WORD 2 17

NEITHER DOG NOR CAT 18

REGRETTABLE BIRTDAY (STORY) 19

FACEBOOK TRUTH OR BLUES 22

A LINK 24

WHAT ELSE CAN WE DO 25

REST YOUR HEAD 27

WORD 3 29

HOW BETTER COULD IT BE 30

THE HAND 33

NOW SHE DID 34

SAIL THROUGH 36

UNTITLED 37

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We think of demons so much that we ignore the angelsWe think of demons so much that we ignore the angelsWe think of demons so much that we ignore the angelsWe think of demons so much that we ignore the angels

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THE LITTLE TROTS OF RAINDROPS (One night after the break-in)

My window was open to darknessMy window was open to darknessMy window was open to darknessMy window was open to darkness

Stains of greedy fingers remain on the frameStains of greedy fingers remain on the frameStains of greedy fingers remain on the frameStains of greedy fingers remain on the frame

Now rain is pounding Now rain is pounding Now rain is pounding Now rain is pounding ---- I wish it could wash in I wish it could wash in I wish it could wash in I wish it could wash in

to cleanse my fears awayto cleanse my fears awayto cleanse my fears awayto cleanse my fears away

How calming it falls to the groundHow calming it falls to the groundHow calming it falls to the groundHow calming it falls to the ground

Even the cat sits quiet for onceEven the cat sits quiet for onceEven the cat sits quiet for onceEven the cat sits quiet for once

Not knowing why his gateway will stay closedNot knowing why his gateway will stay closedNot knowing why his gateway will stay closedNot knowing why his gateway will stay closed

My imaginable fence against the unknownMy imaginable fence against the unknownMy imaginable fence against the unknownMy imaginable fence against the unknown

I sit awake waiting I sit awake waiting I sit awake waiting I sit awake waiting ---- peering passed the glass peering passed the glass peering passed the glass peering passed the glass

Hoping to find wet footHoping to find wet footHoping to find wet footHoping to find wet foot----prints prints prints prints

A head forcing its way through the paneA head forcing its way through the paneA head forcing its way through the paneA head forcing its way through the pane

I picture my hand rise I picture my hand rise I picture my hand rise I picture my hand rise ---- as I smash it in as I smash it in as I smash it in as I smash it in

There are no alleyThere are no alleyThere are no alleyThere are no alley----cats out when it rainscats out when it rainscats out when it rainscats out when it rains

I rest in my arms I rest in my arms I rest in my arms I rest in my arms ---- dream of nothing dream of nothing dream of nothing dream of nothing

My world has been grabbed and shatteredMy world has been grabbed and shatteredMy world has been grabbed and shatteredMy world has been grabbed and shattered

It will take time to fIt will take time to fIt will take time to fIt will take time to feel free againeel free againeel free againeel free again

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MORNING BLUES

Early they come Early they come Early they come Early they come ---- early they go early they go early they go early they go

The rucksacks and trolleys of Gray's Inn RoadThe rucksacks and trolleys of Gray's Inn RoadThe rucksacks and trolleys of Gray's Inn RoadThe rucksacks and trolleys of Gray's Inn Road

They wriggle their way at five in the morningThey wriggle their way at five in the morningThey wriggle their way at five in the morningThey wriggle their way at five in the morning

en route to a station or on their way homeen route to a station or on their way homeen route to a station or on their way homeen route to a station or on their way home

I blink in my sleep as I hear them pass byI blink in my sleep as I hear them pass byI blink in my sleep as I hear them pass byI blink in my sleep as I hear them pass by

There is life in the street and I am insideThere is life in the street and I am insideThere is life in the street and I am insideThere is life in the street and I am inside

having nightmares having nightmares having nightmares having nightmares

of being a child in the playof being a child in the playof being a child in the playof being a child in the play----ground watchingground watchingground watchingground watching

other children playother children playother children playother children play

Never asked to leave Never asked to leave Never asked to leave Never asked to leave ---- never asked to stay never asked to stay never asked to stay never asked to stay

Inside screamingInside screamingInside screamingInside screaming

HELP meHELP meHELP meHELP me

to get out of mto get out of mto get out of mto get out of my selfy selfy selfy self

I rise and waddle to the windowI rise and waddle to the windowI rise and waddle to the windowI rise and waddle to the window

to watch the world go byto watch the world go byto watch the world go byto watch the world go by

as it always does as it always does as it always does as it always does

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MY STREET

The man in the shopThe man in the shopThe man in the shopThe man in the shop

Greets meGreets meGreets meGreets me

I buy his productI buy his productI buy his productI buy his product

He asks meHe asks meHe asks meHe asks me

'How are you today?''How are you today?''How are you today?''How are you today?'

I smile and nodI smile and nodI smile and nodI smile and nod

Tongue stuck to the topTongue stuck to the topTongue stuck to the topTongue stuck to the top

of my dry mouthof my dry mouthof my dry mouthof my dry mouth

Get homeGet homeGet homeGet home

Pour a drinkPour a drinkPour a drinkPour a drink

ThinkingThinkingThinkingThinking

I am lovedI am lovedI am lovedI am loved

RecognizedRecognizedRecognizedRecognized

by the workers around meby the workers around meby the workers around meby the workers around me

Accepted and qualifiedAccepted and qualifiedAccepted and qualifiedAccepted and qualified

to live in this streetto live in this streetto live in this streetto live in this street

Wherever I come fromWherever I come fromWherever I come fromWherever I come from

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THE CITY

I like the anonymity of the cityI like the anonymity of the cityI like the anonymity of the cityI like the anonymity of the city

Its choice of shops and barsIts choice of shops and barsIts choice of shops and barsIts choice of shops and bars

Some who will remember youSome who will remember youSome who will remember youSome who will remember you

yet never take you for grantedyet never take you for grantedyet never take you for grantedyet never take you for granted

Nobody dare presumeNobody dare presumeNobody dare presumeNobody dare presume

knowing more about youknowing more about youknowing more about youknowing more about you

than what you choose than what you choose than what you choose than what you choose

to put on displayto put on displayto put on displayto put on display

The city is not for getting lost or awayThe city is not for getting lost or awayThe city is not for getting lost or awayThe city is not for getting lost or away

Its richesIts richesIts richesIts riches are there for the taking are there for the taking are there for the taking are there for the taking

Places of green when skies turn greyPlaces of green when skies turn greyPlaces of green when skies turn greyPlaces of green when skies turn grey

A safe corner or an adventurous mazeA safe corner or an adventurous mazeA safe corner or an adventurous mazeA safe corner or an adventurous maze

Choice of madnessChoice of madnessChoice of madnessChoice of madness

A touch of sanityA touch of sanityA touch of sanityA touch of sanity

Some say nothingSome say nothingSome say nothingSome say nothing

Some share happilySome share happilySome share happilySome share happily

The city offersThe city offersThe city offersThe city offers

few hindersfew hindersfew hindersfew hinders

There are as many ways outThere are as many ways outThere are as many ways outThere are as many ways out

as there are ways inas there are ways inas there are ways inas there are ways in

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Product Details

ISBN 9781326113018

Copyright CamTan Ringel

(Standard Copyright License)

Edition first

Publisher William Cornelius Harris Publishing

Published July 27, 2015

Language English

Pages 45

Binding Perfect-bound Paperback

Interior Ink Black & white

Weight 0.25 lbs.

Dimensions (inches)

5.83 wide x 8.26 tall