Number Three

December 200,

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Baywatch Magazine. Produced by M.S.P.C. Education Unit Copyright 2000

Cover drawn by Tom Bow

' Back cover fino-printed by Terry Tibbey

Olympic Torch at Long Bay 2

Poetry 4

Freedom to Feel 5

Humour 6

Modes of Behaviour 9

Yetta Dhinnakhal 10

Recipe 13

Poetry LBH 14

From FRAMED 16

Alaugh 17

Thoroughbreds 18

Poems 20

Beginners Brawn Ill 22

The XXVII Olympics 24

Meditation 26

Poems 27

Olympics 29

Courageous Cathy 31

Word Game 32

Production Workers:

Kit Shepherd Zig Jaworowski Afa Afamiliona Tom Bow David Burridge, Anne Marinos

Contributors:

Elie El-Youssef Tom Bow Paul Marshall Adam Craig Darryl Dunbar "Amico" Aidan Kavanagh Peter Flood Terry Tibbey Dean Elton Jason van der Baan Stephen Lea-eaton Stephen Watson

Others who choose to remain anonymous

Words of welcome and thanks from the Editor. ..

This is the third issue of BAYWATCH, an inmate newsletter produced by Education in the MSPC Areas 1,2 and 4. In this issue you will find some Olympic -stories, plenty of poetry, our regular feature 'Beginner's Brawn" (chapter 3), articles relating to prison, pictures from art classes and individual artists, items about Feelings, and some assorted small pieces.

Material is always Welcome from inmates, of the sort that would interest the local audience here: poetry, your own thinking on issues, stories; drawings ahd prints are also very welcome, srnall, large, borders etc. It is good to include a wide range of material to reflect (he wide range of people and experiences that make up this place. In this issue you will find a few items from other gaols on the complex .... this is simply by way of encouraging them to begin their own magazine!!

For those inmates who are working toward Year 10 equivalent through the CGEA, working on this newsletter is an interesting project that you can get certificates for!

Thankyou to everyone who has contributed their work, either in print, or behind the scenes. I am lucky to have inherited some of the production framework from Zig Jaworowski, our previous inmate production manager, who has now moved on; his abilities, energy and flair are sorely missed.

It has been a big year for Sydney and all of us in our own way, I am sure; the . Olympics offered us a way of stepping into other people's shoes and looking at ourselves from the 'outside'. The effort and achievements of those involved in organising and competing were quite something!

We hope you enjoy the read, and travel well until the next issue!

The Olympic Torch at Long Bay

(by Kit Shepherd, from a conversation with Jason Vanderbaan of 24 Wing, MSPC)

The head coordinator of the Torch Run, Sue Cameron, came with Rachel Haggett (Therapeutic Manager of the Violence Prevention Program) to pass on some of the "spirit" of the Olympics inside the walls. "They still see us as people, as Australians, she didn't treat any of us any less because ofwho we were ... she didn't want us to miss out on the Olympic experience,". said Jason.

"She showed us a video of the Run and gave a talk about the T 0rch relay to us, as if we were the actual Torch Bearers (it felt at the end as if we were going to be on it!). So she gave us the information she'd given many of the Bearers before this day: telling them where to stand, ·how to get ready, what to do if approached by a member of the public; which is your section of the Run. Runners had to sign an agreement not to sell the Torch (they could buy it themselves for $37 4 ). She reminded us how we would become part· of history by carrying the Torch!"

"As soon as you touched the Torch you felt part of the 'movement', part of history," Jason said.

"She told us about the one hundred days' journey of the Torch, from Athens to Uluru. At one town, she said, everything had been wrapped in purple, because the jacarandas ' hadn't yet blossomed. It brought everyone together: asians, blacks, all different creeds were unified and happy in a crowd.

"She was an amazing person, full of zest, and with a persona that was very strong. And she wanted us to be part of what the rest of Australia was able to enjoy.

"Here. in the Kevin Waller Unit, it brought us to!:Jether too. We all chanted Ozzie! Ozzie! Ozzie! Oil Oil Oi! Together; we felt part of it."

Other views about the Olympics •..

from the Kevin Waller Unit: •• "I thought it stunk, because I coUldn't go; I'm glad it's over, now! can geton with my gaol. ... "

... And a response from a staff member: "I enjoyed it more on TV with ~aU the

· commentaries .. Qui there at the Stadium people took their video cameras to show their friends. A lot of people went just to say they'd been there ... I left the Stadium quite angry because people around me told me to sit down, and that I couldn't · dance in the aisle when others did .... "

From 11 Wing ...

"Cathy made the Olympics when she lit the Torch and won the Gold Medal. The volleyball girls, when they won the Gold -that was alright. Gold in water polo - the girls - that Vl(as good. The girls held up their end of the stick - hockey. pole vault . .. . The blokes got nothing, except for Thorpe!"

The Torch in 11 Wing ... "Sue Cameron brought two torches to the Unit and gave a talk. She worked for three years organising the Torch Relay - went all around Australia and followed it from start to finish."

People in the Unit were photographed holding the Torch. "It was good to feel the Torch, all the brothers, kooris, the whole Unit, including psychs and officers."

"It was a special day, the highlight of the Olympics period for me... we were told someone was coming to give a talk (I thought it would be someone who carried the Torch talking about what it was like to run), but she gave a much bigger picture of things. She was very dynamic and drew us in by telling us how the whole thing was organised, so we all. wanted photos. She put a lot of trust in us to bring that in and talk to us; I take my hat off to her."

"People on the outside haven't seen it; but we got to touch it and had lunch with one of the organisers."

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I was looking forward to it, after all the hype, but I was' disappointed b,ecause there wasn't as much media coverage as for the Olympics. The Paralympians should be recognised more for the extra hard work they put into it We didn't hear if anyone broke world records; they should have let us know.

I don't think we can really say. Australia is a sporting country... More of the games of the Paralympians should have been broadcast. Why didn't channel 7 do the Paralympics too?

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Jane Saville, a normal Aussie girl, with a Dream. A Dream to compete in an Olympic Games, in her home country, in front of her friends and family.

The experts in her field would say "top ten would be remarkable, top twenty more than likely." But this Aussie Dreamer had something different in mind. She was going for glory. She was going for gold.

For Jane it was all or nothing. With 500 meters to go she was heading the field. Her Dream was in view, she cot.Jid almost taste it. She was honouring her Dream as she entered the tunnel to the Stadium - the entrance to the magic, the glory, a realisation of her destiny.

Anticipating the accolades she was about to receive, the Gold Medal was sparkling in her eyes, but then like a thief in the night, her Dream was ripped from under her in one foul swoop. She was devastated. She seemed almost suicidal. But with time to reflect I would like to believe she was thinking; better to have lost being so close to her Dream than to have never Dreamed at all.

The Dreamer

We read the poems, we read the verse Some get better, some 9et worse.

All in all as poems go They seem to be, so full of woe.

There are those that write and tell a tale Of how they ended up in jail.

Others try; with a little whirl Of how they love_and miss their girl.

Why can't someone who's a little snappy Write a poem, that's a bit more happy. We're all in jail, and in the same bag

So please a poem, that's less of a drag.

Give us words, that aren't alf woe There's always words like H Ho Ho. ',

So if you write words, in form of a rhyme For Christ sake mate, make them happy

·next time .....

By David Budgie Burridge

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Sunday shadows Cool ocean breezes

Take the sting- from a hot January Sun.

Shadows of buildings And fences

Stretch their probing fingers across · the land.

From where I sit I can feel the cooling Zephyr See shadows

But only shadows of imprisonment.

My ocean is the sky With its hundred islands of white

cloud My mind sails its journey- of

adventure

Upon this blue ocean To lands beyond the horizon

To tranquillity.

Sun has sunk lower Breeze colder

Shadows longer -Wire cages and prison bars engulf

me ....

By David Budgie Burridge

FREEDOM TO FEEL

When 1 was at school there was no

information given to myself or other

students about life's crises that may occur

in years to come. Children weren't taught

that it was okay to feel: sad, angry, upset

or whatever else. II was blocked out.

When a problem popped up we didn't

know how to deal with it. No one wanted

to listen to a kid with a problem - no

matter how big it may be. The most

popular saying from

Teachers/Parents/Adults in general was

"you're exaggerating again," or 'Stop

telling lies," or "Stop making stories up

again."

lf.l had a genuine .problem and I was

feeling really sad and confused, I would try

to talk with someone and I would always

get the same replies. It's like children

don't have problems, children aren't

allowed to feel as muph as adults do.

The world is a pretty scary place to grow

up in especially without guidance and

without knowing t!6w to deal with issues

when they arise-:'if not one listens to a

child when they are young, when they are

going through different feelings and

emotions, then that child is going to grow

up with all this built up inside of them. No

one trusted them enough to listen, so this

child is going to grow up not trusting

anyone. 1 had no guidance when I was

growing up and at a young age I felt pain,

hurt, sadness, guilt, shame, fear. But no

one wanted to listen to me, when I did try

and tal_k to someone, "Ah you'll be right",

"You'll get over it" . And because I was

young I believed that. Believing that

"yeah, I'll get over it". "Well I'm now 30

years old and I still carry all those awful.

feelings and emotions that I once tried to

talk about. Right through my life it has

affected me. Blocking it all up inside, I

·was a walking time bomb. I know things

would have been so different ifonly

someone would have listened. If only

someone would have understood me,

believed me. I would have been a

different person: one who wasn't full of

anger, hurl and frustration. ·children

should be listened to more, understood

more, because they have feelings, and

they need to be heard more. I have two

children aged three and a half and five and

a half and I can .say one thing's for sure,

they will not go through the same as I did.

I want them to have the freedom to feel

and to talk about any problem they may

have. THE END

By Paul Marshall KWU

Welcome to our humour section ...

Dearest Mathew,

Hello. I was thrilled to receive mail

from you - I was thinking of putting

in an application asking if OZ

POST had gone on strike. The truth

is, I thought you had passed away -

on the drugs -off with Jenny - out

with the elves or perhaps you saw

god ! However your're back writing

in. full colour to your sister Basia.

Welcome back Kylie, Oh sister.

Going over, or should I say sorting

through my New York state of mind

- I discovered more Evil, yes more.

One would be thinking is it possible

to have any more, I'm here to tell

you it is.

I'm in a spot of bother. An officer

with a vast array of chicken wings

on shoulder is indeed most upset '­

and quite irate- I've been

chas.tised and told not to yell or

interfere, surely he must know I'm

gay - I wasn't yelling - I was

screaming.! And, as for interfering,

the inmate was dying -at a rate I

can ooly describe as 'emergency'

while the resuscitating team was

going hammer and tongs. I thought

Nike- he won't be needing them­

not in his condition- a size too big,

I thought a little way ahead - I'll get

a 50 gram mer for them, smokes for

the week and who knows, maybe a

deal of pot- the sky's the limit-' I'm soaring, I'm on cloud nine.

Inmate I here, doing well, has

made full recovery- Argh Jane -

I'm in panic mode with no help from

the outside world. It will have to be

unnatural of me to act -thinking

this will have to be a golden globe

award. I'm needing to visit an

outside hospital, the same as my .

shoeless counterpart! Argh, chest

pain with lack of oxygen, I hit the

buzzer- I hear the sound of keys,

the clang of the gate, hiding a

brown paper bag. I go in to.

hyperventilation mode - toes

curling- tingling all over- "Chief!

Chief!, it's my heart", them not

knowing its really black. Being

carted down by stretcher - toes still

curled, hand clutching my chest.

I'm thinking Meryl Streep would be

proud. I'm only days from holding

my Golden Globe.

I hear the sound of the Nurse (It's

nurse Ratchet- this bitch only last

week told me to bleed to death,

with my response "you have the

charm of a junk yard dog who has

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definitely lost your bedside

·manner"). Nurse, I quiver with a

voice only a mother who has borne

children, could take to with open

loving arms - me thinking this bitch

better not have adopted - she

places her four fingers across my

forehead with the thumb softly

rubbing my eye -yes I've done it­

"this,rnan must be taken to the ,' --- ·- -·- -- -- -

hosplt~l; ~e don't have the

technology or the equipment to

help,./.RING THE AMBU!-ft.NCE

IMMEDIATE:LY: this ma~l$ in need

ofRPG" . Finally ambos arrive,

pJacingme.ill theb.ack -I stretch . .· . ·- ·.- .

out my arm towards nurse Ratchet

-:-··my licls softly close, she touches

me. I give. her a squeeze to say

tnanks - if only she knew she has

played .a major role in getting me to

the outside world ... Arriving at

casualty I'm wheeled in and

hooked up to the monitor and

beside me lays Samson!!

by AMICO

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AGGRESSIVE- PASSIVE-: ASSERTIVE MODES OF BEHAVIOUR ·

(refiectiotls from a student after a class on Assertive Communication)

Aggression: I can be/have been an aggressive person at moments throughout my life, My personal views on this particular mode of behaviour are negative mostly.

I believe aggr~ssion .can only be positive in business 0n;port qr.maybe even when. a predic~!T{~Qt ~@C!:jrS:test,llling in one · having todefliln<'l· ores6!!f.

Persori@ny,{~i~W~~~I}'l(iq'~9r.b.~ti~~~ourl •· wished .• · II)~'/~" PPP~~~~el:lhlOiari extenttiYat 1 had tq <J!lirt)es; ~ii:)£e.!•paYe.been incarcerated 'on riumerous occasions, physically injured people, I have a full understanding of the sequences of events which have1ed me t0. display this behaviourwhich can be complex. although not.incomprehensible.if expl;;~lned.

Passive:. I believe. passive behaviour can be smart/mature for the most part.

As a person I h?ve found myself being more passive, with age amongst my peers soil directlyreflec(s.ona portion of personality although there are times within the gaol environment that being too passive can be mistaken for a weakness which can cause confli<:t, so choosing the right times to exhibit this mode ..

Assertiveness: I am a very a$sertive person. I display honesty, listening, accept responsibility 'tor things I dol and always willing to try new things.

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I believe being over -assertive can have a negative effect on people/ how they perceive your/treat you, so knowing how to maintain a certain amount is important.

Being assertive at work/socially can be very beneficial if displayed in the appropriate manner.

The following article was published in the Corrective Services Bulletin (Issue 484), written by Julian Faigan.

YETTA DHINNAKKAL: Premier at official opening

Friday 23 June 2000 saw the opening of the Brewarrina (Yetta Dhinnakkal) complex, a rural correctional centre which will give young offenders a second chance in life.

The I 0,500 hectare property lies about 50 minutes south ofBrewarrina, on the road to Coolabah and Nyngan. This is the first time that this Department has established a correctional facility on a working rural propetl:y and greatly enhances the bepartlilent's commitment to outback New South Wales, complementing facilities iu Broken Hill and Ivanhoe.

Yetta Khinnakkal is not uback of Bourke"­though it's not too many hours away from it -but the deeply red soil, the cri~p, fresh aU: and the piercing, slanted winter sun leave visitors. in no doubt that they are in a fabled part ofthrs vast contment.

Upon arrival at the Centre, the official party­including Premier Bob Carr, Minister Bob Debus, Commissioner Keliher, Senior Assistant Commissioner Woodham and assistant Commissioner McCamish- was challenged by a group of imnates in traditional warrior dress. They were then welcomed to the Ngeumba land by local elders Gracie Williams and Les Darcy and a greeting was delivered in the Bheumba language by Brad Steadman fi·om Brewarrina. Members ofthe Brewarrina DanceGroup then performed a group of traditional dances.

Master of Ceremonies, former Regional Commander North West Ken Middlebrook introduced the Commissioner, Dr Keliher who thanked all those many people involved in the establishment of the facility.

Addressing the large gathering, Premier Bob Can a~nowledged the Ngeumba Elders and people on whose traditional lands the new complex has been established.

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'~Qn this land," the Premier began,- "we will dedicate this new facility, Yetta Dhinnakkal, which translates roughly as 'right pathway'. This facility is intended as a place of hope and change for young Aboriginal men; these are people who have been in trouble with the law, who may have drng artd alcohol problems, and who may not have been employed or trained."

The new centre, h~ said, offered them a chance to gain skills, to break drng habits, to work with the land, to retain traditional links and to re-learn Aboriginal customs.

The Premier continued: "On November 14, 1996 on behalf of the State and people of New South Wales, I apologised to the NSW govermnent. I am proud to have made that apology. Reconciliation, of course, must be based on justice, equality and respect. That remains our guidepost today."

"They Royal Commission into Black Deaths in Custody pointed the way to alternative forms of custody for indigenous people. Yetta Dhinnakkal is another step in that process. But there have been others, too."

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The Premier outlined how his Govemment almost two years ago had handed the Mutawtinji National Park back to its traditional owners. "This has been one of our proudest acheivements," he said. "Offenders from Broken Hill Gaol work fi·om a mobile camp to restore the park, putting something back into the community, learning new skiJls."

Last September,Mr Ca.rr opened the WarakiJTi Centre at Ivanhoe. "There, too, inmates are working to benefit the community wbile gaining new skills to help them re-enter their community upon release. These families­now with the addition of Yetta Dhirm~kkal­exist to provide new opportunities to help stop the cycle of crime, to help irunates combat their addiction problems and to give them skills so when they get out, they stay out...for good."

In his comments to the gathering, corrective Services Minister Bob Debus spoke of the opportunity offered by the new facility at Brewarrina:: "Nobody here," he said, "wants to See any more yoUng. men come into ga\)1. Nobody·here wantstto see any more local young men taken away from their friends. and family, down to old stone prisons in Bathurst or Parramatta or Ooulburn. Fighting crime, and preventing crime, is a job for all of us. For the community and for government." _

"The rivers will be cleared of weeds. Fetal animals will be eradicated. Valuable sites, of great archaeological interest an(! cultural importance, will be preserved and restored. I whish to place on record my thanks to all those who have worked so hard for this project, and to the people ofBrewarrina who have been prepared to embrace an innovative idea where others may have resisted." "

The Minister concluded: "Europeans came to this country as convicts, in chains. This project, today, is another step away from a tradition of punitive incarceration. My hope is that with the support of all those present here today, Yetta Dhinnakkal will be a step into the future not only for the inmates, and for the local community -but for all of us."

A memorable and ample "bush tucker'' lunch followed the official ceremony. CeJtainly, the scale llmd quality of this feast matched the impm1ance of the occasion. "The food was supplied and cooked by Bill and Ron Cochrane of Goodooga," explained Pat Maurer, the recently appointed Director of the Indigenous Services Unit. "It included kangaroo, emu and

echidna with macadamias, joh.nny cakes and a variety of bush chutneys." Pat and her inmate helpers displayed the food I the Centre's canteen area. Their efforts were appreciated by all - visitors, staff and irunates.

Twenty inmates are now in residence at Yetta Dhinnakkal and are all involved I the diverse work associated with a large property. In a break with tradition, they wear a grey uniform and the shirt has an attractive logo, designed for the Centre by Pat Maurer. The inmate population will rise shortly to about 35, with 50 as the forecast maximum.

Many of these inmates have experienced the yards in Bathurst or Grafton gaols and are not unhappy to be in Yetta DhinnakkaL It is clear from talking with them tlJaat they look forward with confidence to the opportuniities offered by this unique correctional facility.

PASTA SAUCE

1 clove of garlic, chopped 1 onion, chopped

2 toll)atoes, chopped 1.Ttisp tomato paste

Dried Herbs -"bayleaf,thyme, oregano or marjoram . Oil Salt and pepper

1 cup water

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· during the cooking, tomakerequired thickness.

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Bite the Bullet

We are .... Taking too much. Too much in vein. For the ... taste ofthe rush, orfor the sake of pain.

You talk too excessive. Uke you are in a rush. Not long left to live. What's the point to hush.

And I oh, promise not to give away the way one day you lost it. So why oh, why don't you come out to play,

Why don't you come out your closet

To Bite Tile Bullet. Bite The Bullet.

(You shut your mouth} Said­Bite The Bullet. Bite The Bullet.

(You can't get me out) Said-

You'd be best, To give it a rest, For at least a little while. Hey what's with the smile,

If you don't wanna die young, Boy best bite your tongue, Boy best bite the bullet.

After Anzac

Evening Thin sickle moon, pale blue sky Flecked witb some orange clouds, On tbe ground, Streamers .... newspapers discarded Paper hats blown about slowly in tbe evening's wind, Next morning, Big broomed dustmen sweeping gutte1'5 Last of tbe crowds waiting at bus stops Giggling schoolgirls, quiet businessmen And me, Walicing home Witb empty chip-papers drifting round my feet.

By Peter Flood L.B.H.

You are ... living it he!rd; Believe me I know. You wiii ... Either go far, Or die lame and slow.

But if you Can put up with the way, Of the rut you're living in.

That's another way of saying, Fuck Giving lnl

By Darryl Steven Dunbar C Ward

PRISONERS ARE CITIZENS

Justice Action is working with the

Human Rights and Equal

Opportunity Commission, the

Australian Prisoners Union and a

host of Australian and international

authors, academics and activists to

produce a book on prisoners' rights

in Australia., The aim of the project

is to promote greater community

awareness of prisoners' rights and

the experience of imprisonment, in

the way in which the earlier

HREOC work, "Bringing them

Home", raised awarene.ssofthe

pllight of the Stolen Generations.

To be effective it is vital that the

book reflects the views and .

experiences of prisoners

themselves. Letters or cassettes ..

can be sent to "HREOC Prisoners

Rights Project", c/e Justice Action,

PO Box 386, Broadway, NSW,

2007 or to Meredith Wilkie, Human

Rights and Equal Opportunity

Commission, GPO Box 5218,

Syd~y NSW 1042. Replies

should be sent as soon as possible

for the best chance of inclusion no

later than January 2001.

It,

Note that the book will focus on

human rights rather than particular

legal issues. Included in the topics

the book hopes to cover are

isolation and seggro, visits from

families, friends and solicitors, drug

and alcohol and sex offender

programs, prison health services

and medicaiton, issues relating to

suicide and self-harm and access

to political material and voting while

in prison.

This book will only be as good as

the contributions prisoners make so

Justice Action urges all those with

something to say about their

human rights experiences in jail to

take the time to write about it. All

contributions may remain

anonymous.

From FRAMED: The Magazine of Justice

Action Summer 2000, Issue No 39

How's this for a laugh:

From the Internet. ... The Washington Post recently published a contest for readers in which they were asked to supply alternative meanings for various words ...... and another for supplying definitions for words that have been changed by one letter. ·

Willy-nilly( adj) impotent Coffee (n.) a person who is coughed upon Testicle (n.) a humorous question on an exam Esplanade (v.) to attempt an explanation while drunk Bustard (n.) a very rude Metrobus driver

Giraffiti: Inoculatte: Glibido: Ignoranus:

Vandalism spray-painted very high To take coffee intravenously All talk and no action

·A person who's both stupid and an asshole ..

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At What Age Should

Thoroughbreds Earn Their

Keep?

Like New Zealanders, we Australians love

horse racing - somehow we love racing

the beautiful majestic creature at an age I

can only describe as being inhuman and

cruel: 2 year old. At nine months we take

these foals away from their mothers, their

intake of milk ceases and we call this

weaning. At ten months they're broken in

and taught to trot, canter and gallop

around a dirt track. All horses have their

birthday on the 1s1of August, yet not all

mares know to foal on this day. If a mare

foals in June or July, the AJC gives grace

. to these foals by not classing them as

having a birth,day until the following

August. But if the mare is to foal

September., October or November, and

even as late as December, they have a

huge disadvantage because they're

classes as being a year old, when really

they are only 10, 9 or 8 months. After

they're broken in, which takes 8-12 weeks,

they're given to a pre-trainer, where

they're taught to jump outof barriers and

work fast. Thirty percent of these foals

don't make it to the races, as shin

soreness, damaged bones and breaks

occur.

And now a word from the horses mouth:

" I've made it to the races, I'm now called a

ra'!'re horse, I'm excited. I'm hoping to see

my friends Blaze, Star, Whisper. I give a

winnie as 1 know they know my voice, a

call come back from Silver. Silver winnies.

Blaze caught his fetlock in the barriers and

IS

was put down, Star was beaten by the

strapper and is blind in one eye. Whisper

was passing blood through her urine and

was put out in the paddock. Chicken,

that's me, my race name is "On Stage".

I'm feeling well, looking good and my coat

is shining like steel.

Last month my trainer started injecting me

with liquid.

1 heard Bill. the stable hand talk to the

foreman, asking him why is.itthatKiwis

don't sta1t racing their horse untjHhe;t're 4

years. They believe th~t h9f~e}~~n't

mature until the 4, Well, C?ll \i!l<lt~i~ft~' month$ yet his radng in the goldaplllfipper

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and that's for 2 year·olds. I shook m;t i> • •-c ' :-_~ _, - ,o~--- -- -\"-·;'"·'>J"::

head and thought:"l'll dq my best. Rii~\;1

oay. and· the Goid¢n.$lipperili:i6f1uf'S1'

be(1in. on Stage is 1\tfck'li~avily'~~':o~~~r: and trainer have laid bets ,all over th~

course. As my jockey is le!')!jed'l!pfgn lo;.'

my back, the trainer gives the jockey

instruction " Do what you have to, to !jet

over t.he line first." I jklmPJro!l1J~iPJ:Jaf[iflr

well, I'm enjoying myself- 1 00 m~\Ws to •

go, Dylans Pride is in front ~0 a ~, ~~~d, I

feel the sting of the whl~ once, t\yioe, 3

times the pain is unbearablewltn'lio

metres to go Dylans Pride is still ill front.

The hits come hard and fast. I'm catching

Dylans' Pride. I'm in front. I won, I hear

the crowd roar, On Stage has won the

1998 Golden Slipper. Coming back to the

Winners' Circle, trainer owners pat my

neck telling me I'm the best, I feel blood

come from my nose, the vet checks me

over. 1 hear the vet telling my trainer:

"This horse has busted his gut for you, he

is to be spelled and not to come near or

race on a track world wide. Trainer tells

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Billy to take me back to the stable. On

Stage never made it back to the stables.

His lungs filled with blood and he died. So

please let's fill our lungs with air, our heart

with compassion and ban all two year old

races in Australia.

By CAVALLO

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Til¢ old man's a sailor Nill he lives by the sea

He's been all round the world And knQWS how tough it carl be

To have -dreams made of ol().uds That float in the sky

And visions of living A life so free

We've argued ~ lot From fathertosdn.

About niY alw~Y!> tamblillg round Allcl .. ··notgefJin~.gthatmuch .. clone.

~8top,crti1si.n9·'round,"he says "Ju$1 get s!3ttled dewn, Yeu can't five your

·Wholelife just. living for fun".

Well, I'V<;! been a stud.ent A sailor and a soldieftoo

And some·ofhiswisdom Rings h()metrue

He!sJolcl me lots of things Here.•s some that I'll tell to you:

"Son, don't shovel no soil against the tide ·

'cause when the water come up you'll have nowhere to hide,"

don't lay all your money on a bad poker hand

and when it comes to women be as

loving as you can."

But now I'm at where He's once been

"- I'm out on the sea And the sun's getting thin

But I've still got my dreams And I won't let them go

Let the tide come in Or the cold wind blow

By Peter Flood L. B. H.

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"from Nui Oat"

The same old soldiers walking along the same old Jlkyline, Dead hand reaching put through the sandbag$ > For the cream.and White butterfly ..

. Muddywatafunderth~ d~ckboards, Rats ~~<tmper in starshell darkness, The srrlell·of shit and rotting bodies

. Ra~ti~g your sweaty forehead on the @~!f ..• l'()•oatch your breath, then up and over the top Like th(!'first men on a lunar landscape. P()ppies slightly out of focus as the farmcarts bring in the peaceful yet dead.

Four wllite feathers clutched together In ;ll blOod stained envelope.

SeafQg Re<l .. ilaring lights Coming from the shore batteries, The roar of shells, the rattle of machineguns, Water running in the bilges, Feet slipping on the damp cobbles Of the quayside.

Don't be vague .... blame General Haig. A skull nestling in a bed of wild strawberries, Boots mouldering green with fungus, Saplings thrusting through rusting helmets, Sunken barges still drifting down rivers · Full of Autumn leaves.

What did you do in the great whore, Daddy?"

By Peter Flood L.B.H 2000

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Here we are again and I hope you are well on .. your way . to growing and putting on that size and mass. In the last installment ·1 promised that this . time I would be discussing your diet and supplement strategies, and the . best possible method and solution for ultimate growth. In order to do this, it's just not taking the supplements and hoping for the best (I don't think so!) -

·. there's a lot more behind it all. FOOD is the big MUST - and plenty of it.

In this article I will give you 10 tips to stimulating muscle growth. Well, here's how it works. Three key hormone factors must be looked at: testosterone, insulin and growth hormones (GH). The growth hormones increase amino acid uptake by muscle tissue for growth and repair, and at the same time they cause the body to burn fat raijler than sugar. In the same way that a car needs fuel to run, so do your muscles for hard core training. In this case you will have more residual sugar available for muscles. At this point glycogen levels stay peaked at the maximum limit in the blood.

Now let's have a look at how it's supposed to work.

1. Training theory Any type of training is an effective method of releasing growth hormones (GH). GH can only be stimulated through .heavy weights and maximum intensity ..

2. Stick to basics . Comp()und multj.joint exercises like squats and presses,. jn which you utilise the heaviest poundage. As to leg.· curls or lunges, heavy weights with basic exercise stimulate (yes) GH for putting on mass.

3. Train FASTand.HARO This· implies· that the faster and more a9gressive the speed during exercise contraction, the more GH you will ·release. But remember that total control and good form must also be ·. :;~ppUed. By this

· · aggression you also stimulate fast twitch fibres in your muscles, which is what you want in turn to help release GH quicker.

4. Rest between sets Moving too quickly from one set to another inhibits the training intensity. But don't wait too long. In essence if you have your partner finish his set, wait 30 seconds and then hit it again. This allows 60 seconds to 2 minutes rest. This enables · the GH response to occur.

5. More sets for GH release To ensure· growth, multiple sets for each body part to release GH. Heavy and hard, 3-5 sets to maximise growth. Once you have reached failure for that exercise it's time to rnove ·to the next one. Repetitions at the heaviest weigfht is the only way to go.

6. Repetitions low to moderate Using a method of between 6-8-12 reps range is the most productive and effective method of recruiting GH, overloading all the targeted muscle fibres.

Remember the heavier the weight, the lower the reps range (4-6 rep).

7. Stimulation If you need a stimulant, caffeine does the job. Yes, coffee. One or two cups of coffee one hour before you train will give you a kick. This actually increases the force of the muscle contraction, releasing GH and IGH (insulin growth hormones). Coffee actually combines Ephedra in .the body, and also spurs glycogen in the body.

8. Eat low carbs before training Porridge and oat meal are the best carb choices for your pre­workout in here, so they are digested slowly and your body will utilise small amounts of insulin. High glycemic carbs such as cold cereals flnd rice cakes, promote surges in insulin to inhibit the release of GH.

9. Post.workout After heavy training, fast acting carbs such as fruit JUtces, potatoes and carb drinks should be prepared, with easy-to-absorb protein sources such as egg whites and protein powders. This increases GH output in the first two hours after intense training.

10. Food The mother lode, from chicken, tuna, beef and pork. You need· ample amounts of it as well as your carb intake. You must carb right up because you need the food before heavy and intense training. \)ix meals a day is appropriate and beneficial for everyone. My motto is to "eat everything you can" because in gaol we need as much food as possible for seriow growth. In conjunction with a proper training method, and when to utilise your type of food in between training and sleeping.

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Supplements

As far as supplements go, since the Activities Buy-ups are no longer with us and do not exist, we have to improvise with what we've got at the moment. My previous number-one choice of supplement was Creatine, but it is no longer available since we cannot purchase it!

The next step is the canteen buy-ups. And I know this will cost you a lot more money, buf there's nothing that can be done about it just yet. But I suggest you buy the following products to help with training and recovery for your training schecules.

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Egg and Whey Protein Powder (You can only buy a 375 gm. Tin) Consume this after your workout with 400 mi. of skim milk, and before bed. Weight Gainer Again, 375 gm. Tin. Best consumption is one hour before. training. BCAA Tablets Two tablets a day. Anabolic Power Caps Two tablets a day.

It's unfortunate, but this is where we are, like it or not. But imporivse, and get the best out of it. You can only get back what you are prepared to put into it in any circumstance. But follow this guide and you will definitely get the results you are looking for. So, until next time, dear. readers, remember -BIG IS BEAUTIFUL!!!

Well, what can one say but quote

Juan- Antonio Samaranch, "This

was the best Olympics ever". This

Olympics, the XXVII of the modern

era had it all. The opening

ceremony tremendous. The

lighting of the cauldron reminded

me of an Alfred Hitchcock movie.

The suspense; will it be Dawn,

Betty etc. no the honour was given

to a proud Aboriginal girl, Cathy

Freeman. My favourite memory of

the opening ceremony goes to an

unknown thirteen year old girl, Nikki

Webster.

The games itself showed · "the

agony and the ecstasy" of being an

athlete at this level. Where does

one start to mention the heroes of

these games. In my eyes, tf:ley

were all heroes. Who could ever

forget Jane Saville's LAST minute

disqualification in the 20 kilometre

walk. Cathy Freeman, who for

49.11 seconds unified all

Australians. In the pool the men's

4/~0 metre relay. lan Tliorpe, I

have to keep reminding myself he

is only a teenager. The "Russian

Australian" pole vaulter TATIANA.

After seeing her the viagra tablets

can be thrown out. The last gasp

goal by the women's water polo

team. Cameroons penalty win over

Spain after it ended all square in

the soccer final. · Michael Johnson

and his unusual running style. I

Maurice Greene and Marion Jones

in their respective 1 00 metres

races. The hockeyroos winning

gold. C.·. J. Hunter and his

STEROIDS. NAOKO TAKASHANI

breaking the Olympic record in the

women's marathon.

Wilkinson ending

domination in the 10m

dive.

Laura

China's

platform

One could go on forever, they were

all heroes.

This was SYDNEY. This was

Australia and this was Australia in

the international arena. What a

triumph

people.

for this country

Sydney

and its

oozed

sophistication. Any worries over

transport to and from the games

were answered like the Y2K Bug.

The entertainers, volunteers,

officials, athletes, media and the

spectators made this Olympics one

to be proud of.

For me (I am Irish) Monday

September 2q~h was a day I will

remember a.o.d. I owe that memory

to an Aboriginal girl called Cathy

Freeman. In my eyes, what she

achieved in 49.11 seconds should

shame not only John "sorry"

Howard but all those narrow

minded bigots out there.

Long live the fight for reconciliation.

The closing ceremony was simply

what I expected. I was not

disappointed. It had everything eg

Elle, The Shark, Crocodile Dundee ' the Bondi Lifeguards. The

fireworks just added the icing to a

successful cake called the Sydney

XXVII Olympics.

By Aidan Kavanagh, VPP

ti\ISDITATIO~f

The following is part of an article written by David Englebrecht in 1991. It details a basic meditation technique. Enjoy!

Meditation is basically simple. Don't let any one tell you otherwise. Anyone can do it And it doesn't have to have any particular religious implication or context. There are many different techniques around that people use to meditate.

The following is a simple meditation technique for beginners:-

Sit comfortably in either a traditional cross-legged position on the floor or in kneeling position sitting on a firm cushion or upright on a straight-backed chair. In . whatever position you choose, posture is the most important thing.

You should be straight-backed but not uncomfortably rigid. Hands should be placed together in the lap, eyes nearly closed (or closed)> head up, chin in line roughly with your navel, directing unfocussed attention to a spot on the floor several feet in front of you.

Without attempting to create any special state of mind (some newcomers think they need to put themselves in some kind of trance), gently bring your attention to observing or counting your br,eaths. Thi!l'can be done with either your inhalations or exhalations but exhalations are usually the best. Breathe freely and naturally without forcing it.

Countup,saytoten,andifyou lose count or your mind wanders, just notice that it has wandered, or that you have lost count, and gently bring your attention back to your breathing or breath coulltillg.

Continue this process for the period you have set yourself to meditate: five minutes to begin with and maybe up to 25minutes as you get used to meditating. Simple?

Many difficulties people experience relate to misconceptions that meditation needs to be complicated to work. Not so! ·

Keep it simple!

Happy Meditating

Reproduced from with Complements newsletter of the HIV Complementary Therapies Collective, PO box 7696, Bondi Beach, NSW, 2010 Vol. 10, No.2 July 2000

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DEEPER THAN THE ABYSS

He met her at the station On a Saturday afternoon She thought it was flirtation But she found out very soon They had a lot in common As they danced around the room She knew then it was not flirtation In the light of tllemoon They danced long into the night With the girl he met at the station On that Saturday afternoon

Two decades and six have passed the test

. There love is completely honest And bigger than the rest It's bigger than the Universe And is truly blessed Each time they kiss They start to swoon It's deeper than the Abyss Like a rocket to the moon They have been in love Since he met her at the station On that Saturday afternoon.

Love to Wanda. Written and composed by Thomas A. Bow

MY OTHER ANGEL

My other angel Where can she be· Out there somewhere Kept from me I hope she is finu And all is well When will I know Time will tell In my thoughts Each minute, everyday I arn always here to.light your Way There will come a time You will know I am Dad And all that time We could have had Think of me. Aslofyou Prepare yourself In all you do Things may happen But remember this I am here for a cuddle Or a loving kiss

By Adam Craig

UNTITLED

If I was not a person And had a heart of stone I could do my time easy And on my very own I would not think of you Probably not at all Then I could stare straight ahead At another brick wall.

By Adam Craig

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The Olympics and Beyond!!

Speaking with an inmate about the

phenomenon of the Olympics and

how that two weeks felt in gaoL ...

A: The event came and went, it's

now gone and life goes on" he said.

"In gaol you go with what's

happening, once things are past,

that's it"

To the question:

"What about before the Olympics,

did people get excited and look

forward to it?" the answer was:

"Yes, of course ... like for everyone,

they had their own momentum and

people jumped onto that. The TV

coverage and the structure of the

day's activities made you feel yoy

belonged. People in gaol use their

TV guides to organise their

viewing. There was a solid agenda

with the Olympics; you could turn

the TV on at 6am and people would

be involved.

Q: "What about TV generally in

gaol?"

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A: "It's a window in your cell to look

out of. Sometimes I've been in a

gaol without a TV and that's been

refreshing. I've played guitar more

or read a book and that's good. On

the other hand it gives you an ~

escape, some colour in the cell,

some peace, and I'm sure that

without TV there would be more

frustration around the place. It's a

personal thing, people usually

watch TV alone, we don't watch it

much together; some people plan

their days around it often. Some

watch the news at 5pm, then the

· soap-opera, then Seinfeld and

some go to bed at 7.30 ... it's a

routine.

Q· And if you're two-out?

A: You need to be in sync with

each other; or the one who owns

the TV decides what to watch, or

you agree on your routines. You

couldn't do much study if you were

two out - I reckon the cell is too

small. Your personal space is

limited and you're in each other's

face.

Q: What about your experience of

time in gaol? Do you think about it

I in chunks of weeks or months, or

mainly day to day?

A: It depends .... on method one you

use your time with small events

throughout the day,... cleaning the

cell, dribbling around keeping

yourself occupied. You wonder

about small things and wish away

the day, you don't look forward to

things. The best part of the day is

from 3.30 on after muster. Then

you have no decisions to make,

there are no options and _the gaol's

daily routine is over; the anxiety '

factors related to wandering around

the wing and the yard with nothing

to do, are finished ...

When you are in gaol - it's hard to

see from the outside - even little

things are completely different.

The little things you do eg when

you feel tired and you decide to do

this or that, or deciding what to do

next- all tho'se little choices you

don't have here. People on the

outside may think that it's OK being

in gaol, but you lose control of your

time even in the smallest ways, and

of your personal space- there's no

privacy - the wing's crowded with

people.

Q: When you move to another

gaol, is there a gulture s~ock

because of the-different routines?

A: Yes, that's true. First of all you

just observe, and see the go. Then

you find your own routine. You

have to see who's who in the zoo

and work out what the go is.

Cathy Freeman's running suit looked like a cross between an athlete's suit and a weightlifter's. That is fitting because Cathy had the Herculean task of carrying the expectations of a nation, both Aborigine and immigrant. She was the personification of reconciliation: the hopes, the fears, the courage, the possibilities of a nation thatstopped to watch her.

She walked into the arena, her face nonchalant - after all, we didn't want her to worry, did we? Her feet showed that worry, a slow, deliberate walk to the starting blocks. Everything was automatic, rehearsed · endlessly over the years. She took a drink, checked her shoes - her feet firmly grounded in the colours of the Aboriginal flag. She stretched, removed her tracksuit, revealing the full bodysuit, covering her completely as did the expectations of a nation, almost losing herself inside.

She had a few words with other competitors, then a chat with the volunteer in charge .of her property. Was this the all-Australian confidehce in the face of adversity? We'd like to think so.

"On your marks." She eased herself into the starting blocks, slowly, deliberately. Now was the moment of truth, about to de what she knew she did best- run.

"Get set." The hush of the cro\1)/d was d6iil,fening. The spring was set, ready to be let ...

"Go!" She was supercharged by the explosion of the stadium. Her feet were running on the hopes and desperate wishes of a nation united.

Every Australian was pushing her to . ' v1ctory. It was not enough. As she

came out of the final turn, she was in third place. This was not good enough for Cathy, nor for Australia. Between us all she got the determination and the energy to streak ahead and win -gold. Gold for Cathy Freeman, gold for Aborigines, gold for Australia.

The relief flooded the stadium, swept across the nation. The crowd cheered with overt joy. Cathy had to ground herself. She accepted the congratulations of her competitors, then sat down and soaked up the cheers. She deliberately undid and removed her shoes.

Then . it was time to JOin the celebrations - but still she asked if she could do a lap of honour! I defy any official to try to deny her that.

She picked up · her two flags, intertwining them so they were one and started that glorious lap. She stopped to talk to unknown Aussies, to her family, to foreigners.

This was the reward. for courage. It was Cathy's moment and we all loved her for it. She could have spent the whole night in celebration in the arena.

That is Cathy's magnificent quality: She is so well grounded that we can cover her with our expectations, and she can still see through the tension to the target.

Thank you Cathy for granting our wishes.

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WORDGAME

CATEGORIES

This game can be played with 2 or more players (the more the merrier).

Using paper and pencil, draw up about 6 columns, with a small column at both edges of the paper. Decide together what categones to use.

Take it in turns to decide the letter of the alphabet to use, write the letter in the little left hand column. Then everyone has to write a word under each category begmn1ng

. with that letter. The first to finish says stop.

To score, people who chose words that no one else chose get one point, if others had the same word you get half a point. Wnte score 1n nght hand little column.

Here is an example:

Vegetable Part of Game or Car Movie name Famous a-z person

Bodv Sport

B Bean Belly-button Badminton Brassed Off Branda

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