passed on as idle wsrd.$smeormc repeated what someone had heard. There has been many a broken heart. ,Many a mar- ) riage has come apart. Many relationships have been

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Somebody said that somebody said. Trou- ble was cawed and suspicion fed. Somebody

changed. Many a Geighbor become estranged. In many a home wher~ peace once reigned, affection and loyalty have been stmined, and marly u life is incomplete all

because someone was indimmet. Many a friendship hns been wr~~kred - through rrossin unfounded mc2 unchecked. Mischief

was made and a rumor spread. Sowbody said that son~cbady said.

- PATrnNCE STnON

FROM THE EDITOR'S DESK APOLOGIES

First th ings f i r s t . A l e t t e r all- ;'eared in the l a s t i ssue (.Junc 1) \ , ~ i t t c n by Carl Ikl)onald, which gave h i s opinion on the submission of t h e Iknbnto~in Eastsjde Women's Centre t o the Calnegie Review Panel.

1 d i d n ' t give it much thought - a l e t t c r . . h i s opinion 2nd h e ' s welcomc t o i t - and honc~stly d i d n ' t believe t ha t allyone would take i t ser ious ly . hlron!: i s almost too mild a word. A number of \<omen were very upset tha t slich n narrolc view w d d even be pr in ted; t h a t i f such "shit" was ~ o i c c d person- to-person it w u l d be :~mplc grounds f o r having the spe:tker hnrred from Carnegie i u r v e r l u l abuse

I ' ve s p k e n with the author in thc las t few days, and he apologized f u r sounding so o f f - the-wall . He s a i d tha t what he 'd t r i e d t o express was a feel ing t h a t no area of t h i s Centrc should be given cxclusivcly t o o w group t h a t already has a place of t h e i r own. . t h a t something here would be scrapped i f it was. The p r inc ip le is okay, but i t seems t o have gotten l o s t i n the b ias . I t ' s not r igl i t t ha t being ignorant of the othcr s ide of the s to ry should automatically allow one t o assume t h a t one ' s o w view is " r igh t , popular, co r rec t . . . "

I apologize t o t h e women who took offense t o the l e t t e r . 'To see uncnd- ing \ior-l< t o e levate the d igni ty of women r id iculed i n a conmmity pub- l i c a t i o n ... I asked some of Lhosc who w r c concerned t r 3 m i t e back, b l ~ t mo:,t s a id t h a t it would only Cced the f i r e and po la r i ze people i n t c women Versus men. The -joke was/is m t a joke - taking t h i s as a joke i s thp t i p of the problem.

PRT

MJGGS SIGURGEIRSON has been ac t ive in the Downtown Eastside community f o r a number of years , both i n and out of community cent res . Bright, vivacious and able t o l i s t e n , she was acclaimed a s President of the Carnegie Community Centre Associa- t i o n not jus t once but twice! Like many i n t h i s Centre, Muggs saw no r e a l need t o purchase a membership card, a s using cards o r a basketball d i d n ' t happen. Then, l o and behold, the increasing problems with the Board of ~ i r e c t b r s brought a p lea t o her t o come and help.

Since becoming d i r e c t l y involved, she aided many members and users i n r eca l l ing the Board and having a Special General Meeting - r e su l t ing i n a new e lec t ion . Since assuming o f f i c e a s President , she has helped t o c l e a r o f f over a t h i r d of an ac- cumulated debt of $21,000 i n under s i x weeks.

Now, Muggs i s not a name a mother gives her daughter. As Muggs t e l l s i t , when she was a toddler , an 80 year-old neighbour had an equally aged pet named Muggs and one name was about a l l he could handle. In- cluded was four year-old Margaret!

Muggs is current ly hard a t work on her p l o t i n Strathcona Gardens and Committee, while being among the "best and brighest" a t Carnegie. Free f o r the summer from her work a t Total Education, an Alternat ive school, the coming months promise t o ge t b e t t e r and b e t t e r .

By PAIJL TAYLOR

LETTERS

I am writing with regards t o Carl McDonald's l e t t e r i n the June 1/87 Newsletter.

M r . McDonald claims tha t he has "never seen or heard of" sexual har- assment in the Carnegie Centre. This i n i t i a l l y leads me to believe that he is both blind and deaf.

He goes on t o say that he has been the victim of sexual harassment i n the centre. This leads one t o be- l ieve that M r . McDonald i s i n fac t blind, i n that he was sexually har- assed i n Carnegie but didn' t see it happen. Further on, when he s t a t e s that he was harassed sexually by a woman, he was "embarassed" but "not hurt" and, macho man tha t he is, he "can take it."

He opines as well tha t equal r ights and "programs for self-defence" are acceptable but only i f paid fo r i n cash. I 've been around a t Carnegie for a long time and I'm not aware that M r . McDonald has ever paid rent a t the place. Perhaps t h i s i s because he is more equal than others.

He wonders "what decent woman wants t o be out in t h i s crime-ridden area l a t e a t night?" Have you ever been out l a t e a t night i n the Downtown Eastside , Carl? I f you have, does that make you an indecent man?

In Disgust, Sam Snobelen

- - - - - - - - - - - - G - Early t o bed and ear ly t o r i s e - E - - makes one miss the Late Show - - - and the Waltons. - - - - - - - - - Carl MacDonald - - -

~ - - -

Dear Readers,

Alas, there is no slander from Sam i n t h i s issue. H i s (inimitable) mind is on vacation even though h is body (attached thereto h i s big mouth, of course) is s t i l l with us. Vague mumblings about "H.B.('and h i s s l i d " I ' m innocent - l e t ' s get back in control - T. fooled me - I ' d love t o

work with these guys ..." Sam was afraid he'd puke h i s guts out. Tune in next issue when he's back on E a r t h

On Lawyers Down yonder h a l l , across thick f e l t ed f loor ,

--C__-

Past telephoning wench with dic t ion poor; Behind translucent panel, bearing name, The leeching lawyer- claws h i s way t o fame.

Good Works

Claude Planidin

Given a community of courage and in tegr i ty the Sp i r i t cannot die.

The world waits and watches and learns

as the Sp i r i t makes the invis ible v i s ib le

given a community of courage and in tegr i ty where a l l things good are possible.

Well weaponid he:. . h i s l ega l t a len t s strong, Ar,d avaricious hooks two inches long. Hi.s calm assurance confidence, inspires Through br ief on b r i e f , 'till a t l a s t he r e t i r e s . Though ' b r i e f ' be name of each f inancia l gain, Procrastination always lengthens s&ne, Until poor c l i en t - contemplating cost - W i l l compromise'd be--and double-crossed; For warring c l i en t s cannot always know How legal beagles' household par t i es go Where, l iquor loosed, each lawyer t e s t s h i s mettle And, in such solemn conclave--'grees t o s e t t l e , Before, i n cour t , with wigged Judge and Jury He wastes much time--and drinks--in verbal fury! For widow too, h i s subt le a r t he weaves, And with weeping woman loud he grieves: While patt ing shaking shoulder with r igh t hand He s t r i ve s amain, with l e f t , t o f ind some land In dead husband's testimonial 'd w i l l Which cents w i l l buy - - and cons'mate legal s k i l l His lakeside l o t o r nearby country home Thus was secured. Nor c r a f t nor s k i l l alone Increases ample (holding) company shares; (Pure greed helps s e t t l e Widow's small a f f a i r s ) I t a l so helps (a f i ne career engloss) To woo and win the daughter of the Boss. In drinking too, the lawyer owns h i s s k i l l And e 'en though besotted, he drinks on s t i l l . In middler years, with bleary eyes and jowls-- With nervous twitch and blink l i k e pregnant owls-- With many a drunken curse-in French and Saxon- H i s rasping voice i n court-a tortured klaxon. .So passes a l l h i s fame, save fo r remark Made by 'pov'rished Widow(1iving i n the park) "He was a good man - - when I was beref t He only charged me half what was l e f t , Entrusted res'due kept me fed and dressed;

*Nil n i s i bonum-." She forgot the r e s t . When f i f t y - f i ve , t o heav'n h e ' l l beg h i s way, St .Peter - gruff and s te rn - but jus t - says "Nay, The good d ie young then enter in to heaven; The Devil take YOU man - - you're ninety-seven."

From cavern'd depths the Devil screams i n fea r - - "No lawyers - please, - the re ' s limits-even here."

By Captain Bi l ly - Bil ly , D.S.O. Ph.D (L i t t . Oxford)

* N i l n i s i bonum - Nothing, a s : H i s l i a b i l i t i e s were $5000 and h i s asse t s n i l

What unless used a f t e r a degree o r order, t o indicate i s that it w i l l become effect ive on a specified date unless modified o r made invalid by some contin- l i f e? gency such a s an addit ional item given gratuitously.

IIIIIII1UlIIIIIIIIIIllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll * An author owned an a s t e r i sk And kept it i n h i s den Were he wrote t a l e s t ha t had large sa les Of err ing maids and men, And always, when he reached the point Where carping censors lurk , He cal led upon the as te r i sk To do h i s d i r t y work.

By A. Nonymous

Smile

Smile a t the whole world And the whole world smiles a t you.

Cry And you cry alone.

Scamp

Moves

By Claudius Ivan Planidin

A quick t r i p moving through his tory t e l l s a quick s tory - - f i r s t the great vision, second the great word, t h i rd the great deed.

Humble pen (and f a i t h fu l fr j~end) have I been neglecting too long the powers of a mover and shaker i n potent ia l? I s the time r ipe t o stand up and be counted in a cosmos vast where words shape worlds?

Life is a challenge - meet i t Life is a g i f t - accept i t Life i s an adventure - dare it Life i s sorrow - overcome it Life is tragedy - face it Life is a duty - perform it Life is a game - play it Life is a mystery - unfold i t Life is a song - sing it Life i s an opportunity - take it Life i s a journey - complete it Life is a promise - f u l f i l l it Life is a beauty - praise it Life is a struggle - f igh t it Life is a goal - achieve it Life is a puzzle - solve it Life is l i f e - l ive it.

Author Unknown Submitted by Sheila Bell

The Philosopher

By Claudius Ivan Planidin

Catching my serious demeanor he t e l l s me over coffee chuckling through h i s hacking cough i n the community centre downtown - -

"I've f i na l l y figured it a l l out. Life is fo r l iving! That's a l l there is to it, l i f e i s fo r living!"

H i s grizzled chin and twinkling eye t e l l me he knows whereof he speaks.

I t ' s pouring i n Vancouver. making a sucking sound a s i a h a l t : MainGHastings. l i g h t s r e f l e c t the grimy st a t ing an i l l u s i o n of cheerf ness, while the r a i n attemp away the d e r e l i c t s ' and boo sidewalk s ~ i t .

The bus .t comes t o The neon . r ee t s , c r e '111 bright - its t o wash z y people'

A t the u r iha l ' s she1 t e r a bedraggled group of Native Indian men and women stand i n somber s i l ence , l i k e ravens perched together on a deserted dwell- ing, t h e i r usual l i v e l i n e s s washed away. A pol ice c a r ' s s i r e n i s heard. The cops chase pas t , splashing the group. A man makes an obscene f inger s ign , while a woman screams a few foul words a t the disappearing ca r . I t is speeding towards a mass a r r e s t of Chinese youngsters, who a r e a l l be- ing pushed and shoved i n t o a pol ice van. A hooker rushes through the downpour. flis f lashy paint job, s l a t t e r n wig and swaying hips a ren ' t enough t o d i s - regard h i s masculine l egs , which a r e well-exposed t o j u s t below the pe lv i s . Iie enters the Regent, eyeing the men only. Nasty Josephine, her a s s over- flowing her cha i r , is already there . She howls v u l g a r i t i e s a t the male -

pros t i tu te . A couple, obviously stewed t o g i l l s , argue about the respec of the woman's murky pas t . W i l e two cops saunter around looking the sordid scene, the "country" band plays an o ld M .Tagger h j t :

the t a b i l i t y

, over- two -map '

ick

"oh help me, please doctor , I'm damaged t h e r e ' s a pain where the re once was a hear t . . "

I would not miss it f o r the world!

Clothes do not When we ar r ived back a t the t r a i l e r a person make Mrs. h o t had del ic ious lasagna

~y mm and I were most fortmate ready f o r US. We shared our adventures t o be guests a t a s-er home i n What- and by t h a t time we were r e a l l y t i r e d . corn Meadows. The campsite is located d id not have any problem get t ing i n the Sudden Valley area near Bell- to sleep. ingham. The former mayor of Burnaby Sunday Mr. and Mrs. Emmot took and h i s wife t r ea ted us l i k e royalty. U S t o a fancy res taurant ca l l ed the

The t r i p down the re was most i n t e r - C1luckanut es t ing . I t d id not take us long t o Chuckanut Manor. Chuckanut means get through the border because w e were "mountain of the sea". The res t au r - a l l Canadian c i t i z e n s . Near Belling- ant overlooked the ocean and the ham we saw a deer crossing the road. landscaping was beau t i fu l , We stopped f o r food supplies a t a My Mom was concerned t h a t she was b ig Supermarket. not dressed well enough f o r the fancy

I chose ghosthuster ce rea l f o r res taurant u n t i l she saw M r . finmot breakfast . We managed t o ge t the l a s t in a p a i r of ragged jeans. Then hlom specia l box which had a ghost which f e l t completely a t ease. kept changing colours on it. On the way t o the fancy eat ing

We arr ived a t the campsite about p lace , we accidently ran in to a Vin- ten o 'clock a t night on May 15. There tage Car Parade which was in teres t ing . was a s a t e l l i t e d i s h which allowed us We went f o r a tour and saw more t o ge t about 240 channels. We stayed property t h a t t h e Emmots owned on

most of the n ight watching cartoons. our r e tu rn trip. A beautiful stream The next morning I went bike r id ing. through it.

I came down the s t eep h i l l too f a s t , Later t h a t day Terry, Mom and I h i t a rock and went f ly ing through went f o r a walk by Cain Lake. There the a i r . I ended up with a sh iner is an abundance of w i l d l i f e there . and f e l l on my head. \de saw a beaver swimming across the

After taking up some a r t i c l e s t o lake and plenty of waterfowl. the loca l community h a l l f o r the auc- we went back t o the property by t i o n , we l e f t f o r S e a t t l e , \\re stopped the stream. Then we picked up rocks a t every totem along the way and f i l l e d with quartz and discovered studied its h i s to ry . rocks t h a t would be good f o r na t ive

The most in te res t ing totem pole was spearss in Everet t . \\re took some p ic tu res Later t h a t evening we watched a there. After looking i n the loca l video c a l l e d "The Golden Seal." Then telephone book we f i n a l l y found a I f e l l sound asleep. Taco Bell res taurant . They make the The next afternoon, we headed fo r best tacos and a t a very low pr ice . home. We stopped a t a r e s t place

I. A s we came near S e a t t l e ,there was and went f o r a walk through the f o r - a huge t r a f f i c jam and we had t o wait e s t which was c lose by. i n the l ineup f o r a long time. When Whe~? w e ar r ived a t t h e border 1 the t r a f f i c f i n a l l y moved, we saw a a s ign -Government of Canada c a r a t the s i d e of the freeway which Cbstoms Inspection - w i t h a la rge had been completely burned. Canadian f l ag . I s h a l l always have

We stopped and walked around the happy memories of t h i s wonderful Space Needle, 1 saw a f ly ing saucer weekend. between two control towers. By WAYNE SCfFIIDT-11 years

T h e Vancouver Sun,

Phyllis Schiafly, who helped defeat Tuesday, June 9, 1987 the Equal Rights Amendment, is putting the heat on a group she calls the Freezeniks. Schiafly, 56, who has been quoted

as saying the nuclear bomb is, "a marvelous gift that was given to our country by a wise God" wrote in her monthly newsletter from her Alton. 11.1inois hbme an article titled Phoney bbrality of the Freezeniks.

t IT WILL BE A GREAT DAY

SGEN OUR SCHOOLS HAVE

ALL THE MONEY THEY NEED,

AND THE MILITARY HAS TO

IIOLn A BAKE SALE TO

BUY A BmER.

From your pap

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~ h k Annual General Meetrng of !he members of the Carneg~e Community Centre Assccrat~on will be held in the theatre of the Carnegie Cornrnunrbf Centre at 6 Phi on Thursday June 25,1987 for the purpose of hear ing reports, electing directors. and ail other business as may be properly brought before the meeting.

Changes to the Heliport at CRAB Beach have been announced and some- body's business is in high gear:

Helij et ~irways : - increasing from one 13 passenger

helicopter with.6 flights per day to three 12 passenger flights / day. Heliport Services Inc.: building

$300.000 worth of new facilities - tekink build- ing with coffee shop G lounge.

Okanagan Helicopters Ltd. : is ad-ding - one twenty-

four passenger helicopter.

intent of Bills 19, 20 By HARRY RANKIN

The injunction which Attorney-Gen- era1 Brian Smith is seeking against the B.C. Federation of Labor and the B.C. Teachers Federation has no precedent in Canadian history. It is an effort to legally ban and silence all criticism of, and opposition to, any and all policies intro- duced or implemented by the Social Credit government.

The statement circulated by the attor- ney gene~al to explain his application for the injunction is even worse in the ludi- crous and false charges it makes against the labor movement of B.C.

Let me give you some examples. The attorney general brands the one

day work stoppage in protest against Bills 19 and 20 as "unlawful," a "conspi- racy," "an offence against the state," an attempt to "subvert the democratically- elected will of the people by force" and an effort "to subvert democratic process of the legislature."

The one day protest by labor has not been declared unlawful by any court. Any statement by an attorney general does not make it so. He is simply using his high position to pass judgement and find people guilty even before a trial.

To brand the one day stoppage a "conspiracy" has even more sinister implications. Conspiracy in law is a very serious offence, punishable by severe penalties. Again, the attorney general is using his high position to present his personal opinion as law.

The attorney-general also accuses trade union leaders of "trying to move the making of laws out of the legislature and into the streets." The inference here is that if the people of B.C. gather in protest in any street demonstration against any legislation introduced by the Social Credit government, they are sub- verting the democratic process.

'It is an attempt to subvert the democratic process, to silence all opposition and outlaw all protest8

- Harry Rankin

That also is dangerous nonsense. It is not only our right, but our duty to pro- test what we consider bad for the pro- vince. The streets do not belong to the Social Credit government. They belong to the people. They are not Social Credit property. They are public property.

The one-day work stoppage was a protest only against Bills 19 and 20 - nothing else. It was directed only at anti-labor legislation, the aim of which is to deunionize B.C., and destroy the whole trade union movement.

It was not an attempt tooverthrow the government. It did not even raise the demand that Vander Zalm resign. There- fore, to call it an offence against the state or an effort to subvert the democratic process of government is simply danger- ous nonsense.

To charge that the work stoppage was an attempt to subvert the government by force is even more far-fetched. No force was involved in the work stoppage and no effort was made to stop people (including Premier Bill Vander Zalm) from crossing picket lines.

The injunction takes the issue of force even further. The term "force," as it is used in politics and governmental change, usually means drastic measures such as revolution, use of arms and phys-

ical violence against people and prop- erty.

The Criminal Code of Canada does not define force, leaving this to the courts.

But the attorney-general has, in his injunction, given an entirely new defini- tion to the word. He asserts that force includes work stoppages, breaking union contracts, intimidation, picketing and strikes, "resisting legislative change," and showing that government "has been misled or mistaken."

In other words, if any citizen of B.C. expresses any disagreement with any action of the Social Credit government, that person is automatically guilty of attempting to overthrow the government by force.

The injunction could even prevent the New Democrat MLAs in the legislature from registering their opposition to any government bills, because that would be "resisting legislative change." If the NDP advocates "government change" by throwing out Social Credit at election time and electing an NDP government, that could also be banned as an attempt to change government by the unlawful use of force. Any such efforts could be classed as "intimidation" or part of a labor "conspiracy."

This injunction is a clear indication of how Bills 19 and 20 will be used. In fact, government spokesmen frankly state that the injunction is being sought because Bill 19 has not yet been passed.

Bills 19 and 20 and this injunction are not only an attack on the trade union

A F ~ D T H A ~ JOT ALL. ~ H \ S hj€v\l A ~ T I - TEAUER BILL 15 REALLY G o d % To HURT O U R C\DJ AdD

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movement. They are an attack on demc- ;racy itself.

They are an attempt to subvert the democratic process in B.C., to silence all opposition, to outlaw all protest and to establish a one-party authoritarian state in B.C. based on the model of the corpo- rate state introduced by Italy's fascist leader Benito Mussolini and recently by dictator Augusto Pinochet in Chile.

Why are Vander Zalm and the Social Credit government so blatantly trying to destroy democratic and trade union rights in B.C.? The only people who would benefit would be the big corpora- tions. Without unions, wages could be cut to Third World levels, social pro- grams eliminated, work hours increased and safety regulations on the job elimi- nated.

Profits would skyrocket and that is exactly what the big corporations which control our economy want. They put Vander Zalm into office, they financed his party and now he is delivering what they want.

Repressive legislation designed to des- troy unions and democracy has never worked, and it won't work in B.C. The working people of B.C. fought long and hard to establish their unions and to win decent wages and conditions on the job.

Our young men and women gave their h e s in the struggle against fascism in World War 11. We're not about to give up our democratic liberties now. The struggle against Bills 19 and 20 will go on until they are withdrawn and trade union and democratic rights restored in our province.

PEACE OF TIE PUZZLE n

c 1986 Kelly Crockhart 6 David Ryerson

The world is a puzzle One Peace is missing We a l l know where it is But no one can reach high eno~~gh. We're a l l scared of something I t may be darkness o r love O r jus t our own shadows That we cannot break f r e e of .

There's people, think i t ' s being stone1 Tha t ' l l smooth over the rough They can ' t know when they ' re alone They' r e not high eno~~gh .

People climb Mount Everest To see the world below Even though they've reached the top There's s t i l l more t o go.

When you hear of man i n space Oh, in the skies above Though he 's found another place He's not high enough,

The world is a puzzle One Peace is missing We a l l know where it is Rut no one can reach high enough. b r k ~ ~ * ? ~ ~ ? ' ? ~ k ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ $ C ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ $ ~ ~ t . 9 ? F $ ~ $ C 3 ~ 3 ~ t 2 ~ ~ ~ C ~ ~ ~ ? > ? ' ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ?

As the heat continues on B i l l 19, the High Court threw out Attorney- f i ~ h i s is good legislation. General Brian Smith's injunction How many times must I tell against the Labour Unions. Vancouver you that? This is great c i t y council w i l l debate a motion legislation. 9 ~ u n k 16 asking the provincial govt. t o withdraw i t s labour b i l l and a l - low a f u l l review by the leg is la ture and the public.. I

"Ilopefully, a majority of council w i l l f e e l they can support tha t , " said Ald. Libby Davies, who moved the motion. Mayor Gordon Campbell said tha t he i s "not wild" about R i l l 19, and being the la rges t mun icipal i t y i n the province, Van- couver must be considered .

- Preyier Bill Vander Zalm

" God bless the grass. Grass js l i k e the t ru th -

They r o l l the concrete over i t and think tha t it i s dead. . .

But the grass grows back. God bless the grass."

PRT

Daydreaming I ' m a t r a v e l agency p lanning my j o u r n i e s , t ou r ing t h e u n i v e r s e of t h e mind.

Vis ions of a l i e n l a n d s , b l u e s and wh i t e s of t h e s t a r k and s tunn ing North; l i q u i d s of l u s c i o u s masses of t r o p i c a l plumage. S t range , e x c i t i n g f a c e s , bodies move i n bewi lder ing unison.

F l o a t i n g t o t h e o r i g i n of my r e a l i t y , t a r r y i n g i n my homeland, f a m i l i a r d i a logues and promises of reunion.

Dreaming of t h e b e n e f i t dance i n t o x i c a t i n g conf luence when t h e t u rmo i l of t h e drums t r anscends i n t o a r e c u r r e n t w h i r l w i th wings of ange l s . W e a r e smi l i ng a t each o t h e r ' s s o u l .

My dreams ove r t ake m e : today I s topped a t a z r een l i g h t and tomorrow I must answer t o h i s f o r m a l i t y ; "I'm ve ry w e l l , thank you, and YOU?"

Submitted by Willemien

I ' m one of t h e s t u d e n t s i n your c l a s s . I come eve ry day. I s i t he re and I s m i l e and I laugh and I t r y t o t a l k your Eng l i sh which you always say w i l l be "my" language.

A s I s i t h e r e I wonder i f you, my t eacher , are a b l e t o t e l l when I am s i n k i n g i n s p i r i t and ready t o q u i t t h i s i n c r e d i b l e t a sk . I walked a thousand m i l e s , d e a r t e ache r , b e f o r e I m e t you.

When I say my name is Sombath, I want t o t e l l you a l s o t h a t back i n my v i l l a g e I had a mind of my own. I could reason. I could argue. I could lead . My neigh- bours r e spec t ed m e . There w a s much va lue t o my name, t e a c h e r , no m a t t e r how s t r a n g e i t may sound t o your e a r s .

You ask "Where a r e you from?". I was born i n a l and of f i e l d s and r i v e r s and h i l l s where people

. l i v e d i n a r i c h t r a d i t i o n of l i f e and oneness. My h e a r t overf lows wi th p r i d e and posses s ion of t h a t b e a u t i f u l l and , t h a t p l a c e of my ances to r s . Y e t , w i t h a l l t h i s I want t o s h a r e w i t h you, a l l I can mut te r i s "I came from ~ambodia" .

"How o l d a r e you?". I want t o c r y and laugh whenever you go around ask ing t h a t . I want s o v e r y much t o say " I ' m o l d , o l d e r t han a l l the dying f a c e s I have l e f t behind,

o l d e r t han t h e hungry hands t h a t I have pushed a s i d e , o l d e r than t h e s h o u t s of f e a r and t e r r o r I have c l o s e d my ears t o , o l d e r t han t h e world, maybe. And c e r t a i n l y much o l d e r t han Help m e , my t e a c h e r , I have y e t t o know t h e days of t h e week o r t h e months of t h e y e a r .

Now I see you smi l ing . I know you are th ink ing a f my groans and s i g h s whenever I have t o s ay t I houseft and i t comes o u t "how" i n s t e a d . I t h i n k many t i m e s t h a t maybe I was born w i th t h e wrong tongue and t h e wrong set of t e e t h . Back i n my v i l l a g e , I was smarter than most of my neighbours . Teacher, I t remble w i th f e a r now over words l i k e "chicken" and "kitchen".

Now you laugh. I know why. I do n o t make sense w i th t h e few Engl i sh words I t r y t o say. I seem l i k e a c h i l d because I only s ay c h i l d l i k e t h i n g s i n your Engl i sh . But I AM AN ADULT and I know much t h a t I cannot y e t express . I wish v e r y much t o l e a r n a l l t h e t h i n g s t h a t you a r e o f f e r i n g m e , t o keep them i n my h e a r t , and t o make them a p a r t of m e . Between my e f f o r t s t o s ay "How a r e you?" and "1 am f i n e , thank you" come uncont ro l - l a b l e emotions of l o n e l i n e s s , anger and u n c e r t a i n t y , So have p a t i e n c e w i t h me, my t e a c h e r ,

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when you s e e m e s u l k i n g and frown- i n g , looking o u t s i d e t h e classroom o r n e a r t o c ry ing .

P l e a s e go on w i t h your enthusiasm, your eage rnes s , and your h igh s p i r i t . Deep i n s i d e m e , I am moved t h a t someone w i l l s t i l l g i v e m e s o much importance. Keep t h a t s m i l e when I keep f o r g e t t i n g t h e words you t augh t m e ye s t e rday and cannot remember those t h a t I l e a r n e d l a s t week.

Give me a g e n t l e v o i c e t o e a s e t h e f r u s t r a t i o n , h u m i l i a t i o n , and shame when I j u s t :annot communicate I I r e f r i g e r a t o r " , "emergency", o r 11 appointment". For you, my t e a c h e r , they a r e l i t t l e words, bu t f o r m e they a r e l i k e mons te rs t o f i g h t . P a t me on t h e shou lde r once i n a whi le and h e l p my t e n s e body and t rembling hands t o w r i t e A B C and 1 2 3 .

- Continue t o reward m e w i t h a warm I I good" o r "very good" when I have f i n a l l y pronounced "church" co r r ec t - - l y a f t e r one hundred "shurshes". F l a t t e r m e by a t t empt ing t o speak a phrase o r two from my language and I w i l l end up laughing w i t h you.

I a m one of t h e s t u d e n t s i n your c l a s s . I came today and tomorrow I w i l l come aga in . I s m i l e and laugh and t r y t o t a l k your Engl i sh which you w i l l s a y w i l l become my language.

Closed in (Written in a psychiatryc ward i n Lion's Gate f lospi ta l )

Why 'mi I here? I s i t wait ing, But f o r what? For whom? I f e e l so sczred, so alone, And yet I f e e l eroded By an unf'amiliar presence.

I look around. Everyone here is l i k e me, Yet, so d i f f e r en t . Each of us alone yet Completely surrounded By one another.

I f z e l the tension In the a i r . I hear the laughter , Yet underneath the laughter I s a sea of uncried t ea r s And an ocean of confused emotions

How I wish I could disappear. When I t r i e d , I f a i l e d , and I'm g lad , Even though I long t o go, I'm determined t o s t ay And f i g h t these f ea r s through.

I j u s t hope t h a t when A l l t h i s i s over, The people I love W i l l love me st211 And the people That d idn ' t care W i l l f i n a l l y reach out t o me And take me f o r Who I am today, Not who I was yesterday.

Lavon Garret t

Last night 1 was wandering around ;irld I was thinking about what people a r e thinking about! In MacLeanls Iwgazine there was t h i s l i t t l e ca r - toon which went, "You youst t o wake up e. ch morning with a song. "

Ilere's an o lder woman ta lk ing t o a songbird who's obviously supposed t o be happy, and she 's i n her cu r l e r s and o ld s l i ppe r s .

So, yeah, what it i s , is , we wake 11p each morning with no big deal . Each morning i s the same a s t he morn- ing before, and the morning before was nothing t o wr i te home about.

What i s t h i s b u l l about waking up each morning r e l a t i v e l y happy, every- thing i n t a c t , with something good t o (10 ? Hey, who ' s foo l ing who ?

We don ' t ; we wake up fee l ing noth- ing fo r the most p a r t and then going about ge t t ing on with it. Somewhere bctween t o t a l l y jaded and ch i ld en- thusiasm, t he re ' s a place f o r adu l t folks t o hang ou t .

Okay, so we don' t wake up each mor- ning en thus ias t ic and exci ted - we clon ' t have t o wake up he lp less ly aged e i ther !

T was looking around l a s t n ight watching people make the most of it, wanting it not t o end. I ' ve seen people w z e up the next morning and not put a very good s t a r t t o it a t a l l . (This has l i t t l e t o do with a l c - ohol, but alcohol i s a f ac to r ) . I'm :;tyrnied; i t ' s t h e same boat f o r ev- eryone and everyone is on the same 1,oa t .

Maybe Noah forgot something o r we ruined things so bad we had t o be taught a l i t t l e lesson. Whatever ...

Where has the na tura l enthusiasm and an t ic ipa t ion gone? We work a t it, we sometimes put on a good show; sometimes we ac tua l ly f e e l i t , but not a s much a s i n younger years. I have a fee l ing t h i s is what we c a l l aging, and we a l l do t h a t p r e t t y good (and usual ly before our time. )

The aging process: l o s s of a n t i c i - pat ion, loss of enthusiasm, loss of innocence. How t o slow t h i s down is up t o each of us individually. Spec- i f i c i a l l y - how t o wake up each morn- ing en thus ias t ic , exci ted and hopeful and how t o an t i c ipa t e a good day.

I t moves on. . . What about when it so easy t o honestly care about another person. In younger years, we could- not ge t over it; whereas i n l a t e r years we can ' t bloody well remember what happened, with who, how o r where? This i s d e f i n i t e l y not pos i t ive pro- gress ; t h i s i s age regression or some such th ing . . the opposite of a good thing. I t ' s not s o p h i s t i c a t i o n . . i t l s a loss . .and i t ' s up t o each of u s t o f igure out what l o s s .

I t ' s a l l w e l l and good t o be adu l t s and ge t on with i t , but i t ' s no good t o throw it a l l away on the way, and then go so f a r a s t o not remernber anything of the journey .

Ir, c los ing, i f anyone knows what t h i s i s about - t e l l someone. I know but why I'm writ ing is another s t o ry .

By IMVE McCONNELI,

Where t o begin is most important when t ry ing t o communicate. I f you know what the o ther guy i s t ry ing t o say, then the b a t t l e is ha l f won. I f the 'other guy' is feeding you a crock of s h i t , you may not t e a l i z e it u n t i l t he damage i s done.

Let ' s look around here: The Board e lec ted i n Apri l has i n -

t e r n a l animosity between two o r three members, but nothing ser ious . The work is ge t t ing done and the Associa- t ion is running w e l l . Then a phone c a l l from CBC. . a person saying they' ve "heard rumours" t h a t the new Bd. i s a s s p l i t a s the l a s t one and t h a t the problems a r e ge t t ing worse. ... heard from who?

On the money thing. . $1,600 was tak- en two years ago and the woodwork shop had about $200 worth of material qu ie t ly leave the building. According t o the papers and TV, Carnegie i s on the brink of t o t a l col lapse.

(Correction: according t o one col= umnist a t the Sun - Peter FilcMartin, and h i s contact a t Cable 10 and ind i - viclmls who have swallowed a mountain oP surmise b u i l t on a scrap of f a c t . )

Alnlost everyone i n Carnegie has hcarcl so much garbage t h a t the t r u t h h a s n ' t been 'communicated' i n a while.

A t t he Review Panel meetings, the same f i c t i o n is r e i t e r a t e d by the same people - "$100,000 i s missing.. the senior s t a f f conspired t o r i p us o f f and we l o s t over $35,000. .FOClJS l i e d and conspired with the senior s t a f f t o ge t u s out..we were doing n great job!. . ." Why communicate in t h i s way? The Panel i s n ' t composed of g u l l i b l e fools . Max Beck does good work f o r the i n t e r e s t s of t h i s community. Ife could make a l l ru les here l i k e s t e l l t r a p s , but doesn' t . He has a good fee l ing f o r the people problems i n the neighbourhood; l i k e with t h e Oppenheimer Park food pro- gram and with suspending the r e l a t - ionship with the l a s t board.

The former executive and t h e i r sup- por te r s here a r e s t i l l t ry ing t o fool people in to swallowing more of t h e same malarky. Having a secre t "in camera" meeting with the Panel t o dump t h e i r scanty info , misinforma- t i o n and l i e s on another group,

The four th l a s t t r easure r speaks of doing so much work BUT b i l l s s t i l l appear from QJuly, October , November

and kcember..money taken from places it shoul dn ' t have been, doubling b i l l s t o committees u n t i l the head brings t h e i r r ece ip t s and is t o l d of an "error i n addi t ion" . .a l l energy seemed focused (nasty word, i s n ' t i t ) on f inding what was wrong with the l a s t f inanc ia l work - deja vu? . . . the t h i r d l a s t t r easure r was ous t - ctl by the bookkeeper who became the second l a s t u n t i l leaving for a ' r e s t ' without t e l l i n g anyone..the next ( l a s t ) t r easure r became so a f t e r , oh

So he q u i t . A t 10:02pm, a f t e r a board meeting he ?raised himself a s a "Peacemaker" and then q u i t . . leaving the finances i n a near d i s a s t e r - s t a t e . (good plan - it almost worked, too)

No p e t t y cash, no cheques f o r b i l l s , no repor ts o r a turnover of info and then a par t ing shot t o imply t h a t the ' r e s t i n g ' t r easure r had p i l f e red $$$$. A pathological l i a r j u s t c a n ' t s top - it ' s so much FUN!

A Treasurer 's Report of Association Finance is hanging now on the bul le t in board near the in fo desk and i f any- body wants one, j u s t ask me. The l a s t page i s c a l l e d " d i f f i c u l t i e s encount-

three weeks of 'concern' over the whereabouts of h i s predecessor; and then boys and g i r l s , a l l work on f in,mce stopped!

Cormnittees need pe t ty cash t o r a i s e Cunds; cheques a r e used t o pay b i l l s , and o ther normal s t u f f . The growing probl cm was t h i s person's reluctance to admit tha t he j u s t couldn' t do it.

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ered" and I found another one l a s t night: when the Learning Centre got the f i r s t instal lment of the l i t e r a c y worker's money, a thousand do l l a r s was t r ans fe r red t o Operating r i g h t away - and no one knew ... r i g h t . .

Now, a l o t of t h i s s t u f f w i l l be to rn apa r t and proclaimed a s l )L ies , 2) Wrong and 3) Bullshit. .and so on. So it goes.

The only problem I can see is the continuation of the crap from the l a s t board, a s the people causing it then a r e s t i l l t ry ing t o g u l l people with garbage.

Oh yeah, the Woodwork Project l o s t some money - maybe $6,000, but the exagerated amount and the b lown-o~t - of -proport ion th ing with the $1,600 caused a $70,000 grant t o be l o s t and f i v e jobs f o r t u t o r s here. a s well a s making innocent people here look s tupid and incompetent i n the world outs ide carnegie. Great S tu f f , el

So now, the C.B.C. has "heard rumours" and w i l l be here with b e l l s on t o spread whatever a l l over town.

Cet ready, fo lks , f o r the "BIG LIE'' Act 2, a t the A.G.M. on June 25.

By PAUL TPY LOR (Treas . '

'I'ake a Good Inok

Have you ever asked yourself . . . An I r e a l l y a l l there? Do people look a t me a s a s icko O r do they r e a l l y care?

People judge o thers so o f t en They forget they have a few flaws, So they t r y t o blame others Without a j u s t cause.

My f r i end take down your mir ror , What do you see? You of course But can you see me?

Schizophrenia is hard t o cope with People won't ge t o f f your back, But people who l i v e i n g l a s s houses Shouldn't throw Rocks.

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I ' d l i k c t o say tha t I Love you - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

'I'here a r e eniot ions pent up inside me .Just dying t o be s e t f r e e ,

Rut every t irne 1 see you You see111 t o look r i g h t through me!

I ' d l i k e t o say so many things But I s t u t t e r rmd I 'nl shy,

So now wjth pen i n Iiand 'L? l ikc to c ~ y tha t I love you.

Because i f you Iiave any heart a t a l l When you read t h i s you should give inc

a c a l l , And say t o me tha t you love me too For t h a t would make my dreams

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April 24 t o 26 was Vic tor ia Camp. Ikeryone on time so everything was g rea t . I t a l l began near the end o f our f e r ry t r i p somehow. But who knew?

As we approached the community h a l l - a l l black with no l i g h t s lit - we rigr~red they had put the key i n the sec re t spot , but it wasn't t he re .

So there we stand, no phone num- I ~ c r on the b u l l e t i n board. Do you think we could remember the name of the Pellow in charge of the h a l l ? No!

Next, Joe went v i s i t i n g some of the residences asking i f they have the hey . Answers were NO! IIalf an hour Later I am r e a l l y ge t t ing excited!

.Joe went t o a house and phoned Victoria Scout Ilouse. 1,ucky f o r us they had a meeting t h a t n ight . They contacted the Cub Master who came by with h i s keys t o the h a l l . Oh, what a r c l i e f !

But we s t i l l had problems. No Dan. Where could he be? Dan had oui. food supplies i n h i s vehic le .

*Joe had given Dan a map on how t o !:c.t t o the l la l l . So J2e went back toward the route w e came t o see i f he could spot Dan. I went outs ide t o scc i f he was coming. 1 saw h i s ve- hicle but going the wrong way. Some- how .Joe and Dan spotted each o ther and went t o the bus s t a t i o n t o round up the r e s t of the crew.

'Ihey weren't i n y e t so back t o the Ilall t o unload our suppl ies . I t was not long before I heard Irene and the boys banging on the back door.

From then on it was n ice weather. About 1 4 of the 18 boys had never lxen t o Vic tor ia so it was a r e a l ad- venture f o r them. Wc went t o the I'rovi n c i a1 bh~sciun, Wax Museum, Butch- a r t (;arder?s and the 'I'al l y Ilo Por a

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horse and buggy r ide . We were given specia l r a t e s f o r

the Tally Ho excursion. Some boys chose t o nap a b i t and one leader de- cided it looked grea t so she was doz- ing too.

Joe decided t o s i t near the back because he is a l l e r g i c t o horses, but t h a t d i d n ' t s top h i s eyes from bugging out and watering.

Overall it was a grea t weekend f o r everyone u n t i l I got a t i c k l e in my th roa t and coughed most of Sunday. I saw the doctor and am twenty d o l l a r s poorer.

I t was a very specia l weekend we won't forget f o r a long time. Vic- t o r i a w i l l never be the same a f t e r having our boys v i s i t .

This was j u s t the adventure of ge t t ing over there - imagine what the rest of the weekend was l ike!

We a r e planning on going t o the Legis la t ive Buildings on June 13th. We prebooked ahead of time f o r - t h i s outing . By L JNnA MASON

IT'S BACK AT'

CARNEGIE

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Friendship I h d he s a i d , speak t o us of fr iendship.

h d he answered saying:

Your f r i end is your needs answc.red. lie is your f i e l d which you sow with love and reap with thanksgiving. And he is your board and your f i r e s i d e . For you come t o him with your hunger, and you seek him f o r peace.

When your f r iend speaks h i s mind you f e a r nc?t t o say "nay" in your own mind, nor do you withhold the "ay".

And when he is s i l e n t your hear t ceases not t o l i s t e n t o h i s h e a r t ; For without words, i n f r iendship , a l l thoughts, a l l d e s i r e s ,

a l l expectations a r e born and shared, with joy t h a t is unacclaimed.

IVhen you p a r t from your f r iend, you gr ieve no t ; I:or tha t which you love most i n him may be c l e a r e r i n h i s absence,

a s the mountain t o the climber is c l e a r e r from the p la in .

And l e t the re be no purpose i n f r iendship save the deepening of the s p i r i t . For love t h a t seeks aught but the d isc losure of i t s own mystery

i s not love but a ne t c a s t f o r t h ; and only the unprof i table i s caught.

And l e t your bes t be f o r your f r iend. I f he must h o w the ebb of your t i d e , l e t him know i ts f lood a l so . Par what is your f r i e n d t h a t you should seek him with hours t o k i l l ? Seek him always with hours t o l i v e . ]:or it i s h i s t o f i l l your need, but not your emptiness. And i n the sweetness of f r iendship l e t there be laughter and

sharing of pleasures. I:or i n the sea of l i t t l e things the hea r t f inds i ts morning and is refreshed.

Gesht-Gahn

The poem "1:riendship" was wr i t t en by a f r i end of mine. He uses h i s na t ive nme , which means "bringing 1 j ght in to darkness". b f y f r i end I

is from the Queen Charlot te Is lands. I be l ieve t h a t we should a l l be I

extremely proud of our her i tage . Irene Schmidt