in search of a song volume 761

8/4/2019 In Search of a Song Volume 761

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Grace

Vella


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A Waterways Project

Publication

Richard Spiegel

Barbara Fisher

codirectors

Thomas Perry

administrative assistant

Chris Lehmann and Joe Trancelliti

Teachers

Beacon High School

Steve Stoll

Principal

Richard Organisciak

Superintendent

Alternative, Adult and Continuing Education

Schools & Programs

2000 Ten Penny Players

with funding support from

the NY State Council on the Arts

GraceVella


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Alone though together we are still farapart

Look and seeUse your eyes for some good

You are you and I am meYou feel one thing and do I

We are not connected

We are not meant to be,We are not controlled by destiny

I am my own and you are yours tooIf we should be together

That is something good and newBut you must know that although together we are still

Far apart

And through all thisI still have a heart

I am sorry if I hurt youI am sorry if you felt painI am sorry for everything

But it's not all a game

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4/22

You have to knowThat all I go though

All the emotion

Well, it is different then yoursIt's all a commotion.

So now that I have made my point clearWe will see where it leads

And find out how to fight all out our fears

My Own Eyes

When I look though my eyes

I can see not the would

But my world

And my life I think my own thoughtsI feel my own feelings

Each person looks through their own eyes

Each person hears and sees different things

But we can relate

Since we want people to feel the same as we do

But no one feels exactly the sameIts all in your own eyes

And in your own head

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5/22

By the Sea

It was a many and a many a year agoIn a kingdom by the seaAll just became quiet for little old me

But there was a still fear flowing down like streams

I felt the hurt and the quiet in my soul

If only I would just let it all goI felt the pain and I can remember it clearAll I could think of was me and my dear

But he had gone away with the seaHe had gone away and left lil old me

So here I sit by the dark blue waterAnd hope and pray for me and my daughter

I remember it all; it is all so clearWhen you left my heart with nothing my dear

But it was a many and a many years ago

In a kingdom by the sea

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6/22

Dark as Night

Even though it's not dark, inside it feels dark as night

I can feel it in me, the rageBut hopefully one day everything will get bright

I am all alone and there is nothing but quietIt's like I am stuck in a cage

Even though it's not dark inside feels dark as night

Everything is so sad I am looking my sightI have to act and pretend am on stage

But hopefully one day everything will get bright

If only everything could just go rightif only I could turn back my age

even though it's not dark inside feels dark as nigh

It's too hard; I can not fightI can not fight off my rage

But hopefully one day everything will get bright

It's so dark there is no light

Do I have to be a sageeven though it's not dark, inside feels dark as night,but hopefully one day everything will get bright

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7/22

Dont Hold Me Down!

Dont hold me down

Dont hold me downDamn it, you dont hold me down

Why do you do this?I need my spaceI need to breathI need my space

With you here, well you hold me downWith you here, I cant breath

With you near, I cant seeGive me space let me breath

Let me goLet me free

Dont hold me downI need my space

Cant you let me be?Can you let me breath?

Can you just leave me alone?Why do you do this?

Why do you do this to me?

Just let me goAnd let me be

Who I want to be

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8/22

Dreams

Looking out

What do I see?I can see so muchBut what is real

And is fact?What can be changed?I can change so much

But I dont know howI dont see howI dont feel howIt is my dream

My lifeMy world

I can change anythingBut do I have the power?Do I believe I have the power?

Do I want that powerTo shape everything that happens in my life?

My dream?I dont know

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9/22

Good-bye

I felt all the pain

And I didnt say anythingI felt all the pain

And I just kept coming backI felt the painHit after hit

After hit after hit

It numbed my heartAnd my soul

And now I must let you go

I stood there

Just waitingHoping you would changeBut you didnt

I stood there hoping you would careBut you didnt

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10/22

In Her Mind

Thoughts Feelings no one will ever understand.

Feelings emotions she doesn't want people to understandPeople will never know,

She doesnt want them to know

Covering it all up,Something she is good at

Yet few see through itThey can see the pain in her eyes when she laughs or smiles

People tell her they careSay they want to help

They want to know

What if she tells themWill they understandCan they understand??

Nothing makes senseToo many feelingsToo many emotions

Too many thoughtsToo many things that will never happen

That will always be the same

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11/22

Always aloneNo one there to care

No one there to bother

And even if they were thereThey wouldn't care

Would they??

Alone she stands; alone she fallsAnd alone she plans to stay

Maybe it's better that wayNo one really understands any oneSo why do they try to understand her?

She just wants to be left aloneIn the quiet of herself

The quiet of where she feels safeIn the quiet where she wants to be

Alone to thinkAlone with her thoughts

All her thoughts mean somethingEvery thought opens up another corner of her feelings

Of her emotionsOf her life

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12/22

When will she relieve herself of all her sadness?What will help her make sense of her life?

What should she do?

What can she do?Day by day everything goes on

Everything repeats itselfSlowly everything turns in circles

Every second decides the nextEvery feeling decides the next

Every thought decides the feelingEverything turns in circles

So many thoughts and nothing connectsIf she can not make sense out of them

How can anything else?

How can she explain any of it?

But life goes onSecond by second

Life goes onShe can't stop time

She can't take anything back

So she lets it passHoping the next minute

Will be better then the lastUntil one day makes sense of it all

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13/22

But for now she will stay the sameAnd hide everything and leave it to other people

To look at her in different waysSince he is trying to figure out herself.

Stand Alone

Stand alone, that is what I do,Alone no one is here to care

Everything is so painfulAnd not give a

Why does it have to be this way?Why dont you care?

I am all alone in this wordAll alone and scared

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14/22

Pretending Who You Are

Stand up straight

Dont do thatDont be thatTalk like this

But is that who you truly are?Is that who you want to be?

Eat these things

Dress this wayBut is that who you truly are?

Is that the way you want to live?The way you talkThe way you act

Should not be judged

Should not be changedOr modified according to what other people wantSo why do we change?

Why do we stay to please other peopleWhen it makes us sad?

There is no pointThere is not reason

So just be yourself

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15/22

Ringing

Ringing

The feelings ring in my headI can feel it all in me

I cant stop the ringingI cant stop the pain the soundsThe loud sounds makes me deaf

Makes me blind

I try to stop itTry not to listenBut it is too loud

Too painfulToo much for me

How should I stop?Can I stop it?Can I make it lower?

Can I?Can I?

No one can hear it but me

No one can feel it but meHow do I stop it?

I dont know

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16/22

Stop

Stop the pain

Stop the hurtTake my soul

You can feel the burnIf only it could be better

If only I could smileBut that will not happen

Not for a little while

You hurt me so badAnd you make me cryYou can hurt my soul

But I will always be here

And you will always see my faceI want you to see what you are you doing to me

If only you could feelAll that you are doing me

If only you could seeAll the pain I have inside of me

We are two different peopleWith different feelings

As you can seeBut you have the power to hurt me

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17/22

I am sorry if I have hurt you in anywayI am hope that I didnt but you know that

You have done the same to meSo hopeful one dayWe can live in a way

That we well both be happy

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18/22

Tears

Every drop that falls out of my eye

Roles down my faceEach one has it own meaning

One by oneDrip by drip

Pain flowing downLike water

Like rainYou can feel the pain as it goes downYou can see the pain as it flows down

So many thoughtsSo many feelingsAll I can do is cry

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19/22

Was It Worth It???Cause I Miss You.

When you finally did it,When you pulled up the gutsWhen you pulled that trigger

Was it all worth it???

Do you wish you were here?

Do you wish you could have stayed?Seeing the world to this very day?

How was it like?Did it hurt?It hurt me.

Do you wish that you could take everything back?Or was it worth it in the end?Cause it hurt me.

Well, whatever it my be,Whatever the reason wasI hope you can hear me.

All I wanted to tell you was that I miss youAn wish you were hereStanding next to me

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20/22

Like you used to be.Its different without you

And I wish you would come back

Cause I miss you.

You havent been gone for longBut it feels like forever.

I would follow youBut I know that is not what

You want me to doSo for now I want you to knowThat I love you

I miss youAnd I will never forget you

And I will not let anyone else.

I miss you.

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21/22

What Do I Do?

All my thoughts

What should I believe?What should I think

Should I follow what makes senseOr what I hope?

Should I follow what may makes senseOr what may make me happy?

I am confused,Dont know what I to do

I have a feeling, a hope, thatWhat I will do next

Will effect the rest of my lifeWill determine what happens

In the rest of my life

So now what do I doWhat do I believeWhat do I say??

How do I make the next moveIn my life?

In the way I live my life?What do I do?Which one??

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