i saw love today
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Christmas Story 2009TRANSCRIPT
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I Saw Love Today
By Troy Kechely
Copyright 2009
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Mary’s hands tightened as the pavement before her disappeared under a sheet of white mist from the snow
blowing across the interstate. She felt her heart beat a bit faster as she kept the vehicle on the road even though she
couldn’t see the road.
“You know I really hate this trip.” She looked over briefly at her passenger and then looked back to the road.
The old Rottweiler-Malamute mix barely looked at her as he lay with his head on the counsel between the two front
seats. The journey had been fine from Bozeman to Billings but as they headed south towards Sheridan the weather got
worse as did the roads. The blowing snow cleared off and the pavement was visible again allowing Mary to relax if only
a little. She looked back over at Griz.
“So what do you think Griz, does this trip suck or what?” Griz moved his
head to look up at Mary with his deep brown eyes. The tan spots above them
moved like eyebrows giving Griz even more personality. Looking back forward
he started panting. “Too warm for you? Okay, I will turn down the heat.” Mary
turned the temperature setting down another notch and was very glad she wore
a sweater under her coat like her son recommended. Being part Malamute Griz’
favorite temperature was about 20 degrees so often times the car was almost as
cold inside as it was outside so Griz would be comfortable. Zipping up her coat
she smiled in knowing Griz was more comfortable. “I can’t believe the things I
do for you, though it is nice to have a road trip buddy.” Griz just kept panting
though more out of enjoyment of the colder air coming from the dash board vents than anything else. The road signs
showed the options ahead.
“Griz, you want to go to Gillette or Buffalo? Hmmmm? Well come on we got to decide. I guess we will keep
heading to Casper. There isn’t much in Gillette, trust me, I have been there.” Again Griz did little more than pant. Mary
smiled realizing she was having a conversation with a dog but really didn’t care. Griz, though belonging to her son, was
“grammas’ boy” as she called him so when she decided to go down to Casper to visit her mother in the nursing home it
was an easy decision to ask to take Griz along. She tried to make the seven hour trip down to Casper at least four times
a year but it was difficult with work and weather issues. Her mother had been in the nursing home for ten years now.
Being in her 90’s and blind the visits have gotten more and more difficult to make. More so because Mary’s mom was
less and less there mentally. Lately it seemed to have gotten worse, to the point where normal conversation was
impossible. Still she needed to go down, it was after all her mom.
After several more hours and a few white knuckle moments they arrived in Casper. Finding the motel Mary got
settled in and after feeding Griz and grabbing dinner herself she decided to head out to the nursing home before all the
residents went to bed for the night. Griz was not overly excited to get into the car one more time after spending most of
the day in it. Being 11 years old he struggled getting in and out to the point where Mary’s son had gotten him a ramp to
use. With falling snow Mary opened up the back of the car, unfolded the ramp and then waited patiently for Griz to
decide on whether or not to go up it. Finally, with very slow and deliberate steps, Griz made his way up the ramp and
into the car.
“Take your time Griz.” Mary laughed. Griz was not known for being the fastest dog on the planet. His knick
names being ‘boat anchor’ and ‘mobile speed bump’ after all. Still she didn’t rush him. If anything Griz helped her
realize that life was too short to rush and often times it was good to just slow down a bit. The drive over was short but
slow given all the traffic, people rushing about to do their last minute Christmas shopping. Mary had brought a few gifts
for her mom. Some clothes and such though she knew that her mom would not even know what they were or who
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brought them. Arriving at the nursing home the process of using the ramp was reversed and soon Griz was sniffing
around the trees that surrounded the entrance.
“Griz, come here buddy, you need to be on leash in there.” Griz kept sniffing, his selective hearing becoming
more and more selective with age. Locking the car up Mary walked over and connected Griz to the leash. She knew he
didn’t need it but still she wanted to be safe. Her son worked with dogs constantly doing training and rescue so she was
used to being around all types. Often he would get in the really difficult ones as he seemed to enjoy them more but
Griz was one that bucked the trend. Being a rescue himself he had been found wandering the streets of Bozeman as a
puppy. Her son took him in and has had him almost 11 years. The last five Mary had been living in the same town and
had grown rather attached to Griz and aware that he was about as mellow as they come. It was Mary that taught him
to ‘speak’ to ask for treats. Something her son was rather put out by. She kept telling him that all she did was give Griz
his voice. Her son’s response was that now Griz would not shut up. It was true. Griz now was very talkative if he felt
something needed to be said, which was most of the time. Walking through the doors the attendant looked at Mary and
smiled.
“Hi, I am Mary and I am here to see my mom Virginia. Oh and I did bring a dog for her to see if that is okay?”
The attendant stood up smiling and looked over the counter. Normally people brought in dogs, almost always of the
smaller variety.
“Oh my, he is a big one!” Griz looked up and let out a low howl to say hi.
“Well he is only 114 pounds.” Mary said with a smile.
“Wintering well I see. I don’t see it as a problem. I am sure the others will be happy to see a dog. All the
residents are in the TV room so go right on in. Turn right at the hall and you can’t miss it.” After thanking her, Mary
headed off into the facility. It wasn’t as though she needed directions as she had been there dozens of times but it
wasn’t worth pointing that out to the lady.
Griz started panting as they turned into the hallway, the temperature of the place much warmer than a normal
home to make the elderly residents more comfortable. The hallway was decorated with lights and other Christmas
themed items. She didn’t make it more than 10 feet down the hall before the first resident called out asking if they
could pet her dog. Mary was a little hesitant about it as she trusted Griz but knew that he was still a dog and could react
to things in a bad way. The man was in a wheel chair and was pushing himself along the hallway back to his room. He
stopped and Mary let Griz walk up.
“What a beautiful dog he is!” The man’s hand shook slightly as he petted Griz’ massive head. Mary was polite
but told him that she needed to go see her mom and the man understood. He wished Mary and Griz a Merry Christmas
and continued on his way. Entering the TV room she looked around for her mom. Not seeing her she asked one of the
nurses who had gravitated over to Griz who was now the center of attention in the room.
“Oh, Virginia, yes she is right there.” Mary felt terrible. Her mom was only 20 feet away. In the four months
since her last trip she had changed so much she did not recognize her initially. Mary fought back the tears and guilt of
that moment as the nurse went and got Virginia. She pushed her wheel chair along the hall back to a private room
where Mary could talk with her mom. As they walked down the hall Mary saw a familiar face.
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“Hi David, Merry Christmas!” The man’s face lit up and he approached with open arms to give Mary a hug. A
local pastor, he was a regular at the nursing home tending to the spiritual needs of the residents and staff. Every time
Mary was there she always ran into David.
“Mary! So glad you could make it down. How were the roads?” They talked for a moment but David knew that
Mary was there to see her mom and left her but not before doting on Griz and commenting how large he was. Once
again they were moving down the hall, their pace slowed by Griz, his old hips and shoulder not allowing him to move
very quickly. His panting was more noticeable and Mary wondered if perhaps he would be more comfortable in the car.
Entering the room the nurse tried to get Mary’s moms attention.
“Virginia. Virginia, you have a visitor. Your daughter is here. “ Her voice was loud in the hope that she would
hear her as Virginia was not only blind but mostly deaf.
“Huh, I do?”
“Hi Mom, merry Christmas. I brought you some gifts and a special friend to
visit.” The nurse walked out closing the door giving them some privacy. “Here mom,
give me your hand.” Mary took her moms frail hand and moved it over to Griz’s
head. “It’s a dog mom, his name is Griz.” Mary’s heart leapt as a smile formed on
Virginia’s face as her hand patted Griz. “You keep petting him mom, I got a book to
read you. It is by Lynn Cheney and it is about her growing up in Casper. Would you
like me to read it?” Her moms head was rolled off to the side against a pillow that
kept it semi upright. Her eyes staring vacantly ahead. Yet her hand kept petting Griz.
“That’d be nice honey.” Mary opened up the book and started reading.
Outside in the hall David rounded the corner and stopped. He watched for a few
moments through the windowed wall next to the door. Smiling a bit as Mary sat
reading the book out loud to Virginia who still was petting Griz. Turning the corner
he went on down the hall.
After several minutes Virginia pulled her hand back onto her lap. Out of habit she started picking her nails,
taking her index finger and catching it on the thumbnail of the same hand. Mary could see that the nails needed to be
trimmed and had brought a trimmer along for that purpose. That could wait though, for now she just reached out and
took her moms hand to keep her from picking her nails.
“Mom your hands are cold. Do you need me to turn up the heat?” She
dreaded the idea as Griz had laid down and was panting enough already.
“No I’m fine.”
“Okay, do you recognize some of the names and places I am reading about in
this book?” Virginia started humming, her attention going somewhere else. Mary
sighed, trying to be thankful that she had gotten some conversation out of her. It
had gotten worse over the years. She noticed it most on her Tuesday afternoon
phone calls with mom. Often times the conversations were totally one sided
because either Virginia couldn’t hear or just wasn’t there mentally. Still, every
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Tuesday, Mary would try to connect by phone. It was after all her mom.
She had made it through chapter one when Mary noticed her mom was starting to doze off. Griz had already
gone to sleep which was normal for him. Closing up the book Mary collected her stuff and grabbed Griz’s leash. Pushing
her mom’s wheel chair down the hall with Griz in tow she found a nurse to help take her back to her room. They would
need a couple of nurses to move her into her bed and Mary knew she would just be in the way. Telling them she would
be back tomorrow morning she headed out into the cool night air. Knowing Griz was now in his element she allowed
him to snoop around the grounds and roll around in the snow before loading him into the car. Once back to the hotel
Mary said her prayers, thanking God for the safe travels down. She fought back a tear. The feeling of guilt of her mom
being in the nursing home making itself evident again. Trying not to think about it she went to sleep with the sound of
Griz snoring in the back ground.
The ritual on her visits to Casper was based on the schedule of the nursing home. She learned not to go there
during meal times as it was too depressing and stressful. Instead she tried to work it so she would visit for an hour or so
in the morning, then again in the afternoon and then once more in the evening. The rest of the time she would stay
back at the hotel and read and such. Now that she had Griz she had to factor him into things. After breakfast and a walk
around the hotel grounds they loaded up and headed over to visit mom again. Upon arriving they checked in as before
and went looking for Virginia. Not finding her in the TV room Mary asked an nurse.
“Yes she got her bath this morning and they put her down for a nap afterwards. Sorry we didn’t know you were
coming today.” Mary felt anger as she had told the nurses. Having driven seven hours down here in winter driving
conditions she felt that this morning visit being taken from her was not fair. Standing there in the hallway she could feel
her anger build until she saw the face of a woman in a wheel chair motioning towards Griz to come to her.
“Well Griz, I guess we should make the best of it huh?”
Griz, figuring some food would be involved, started walking
towards the woman. Mary had remembered to bring a bag of
treats this time and handed one to the lady who then, with
instruction, told Griz to ask for the treat. With a loud bark/howl
combination Griz demanded his treat. Laughing, the woman
handed Griz the treat. His large jaw taking it very gently. The
noise had gotten attention of the other staff and patients.
Around the corner came David.
“I thought that commotion would be you to.” Kneeling
down David scratched Griz’s neck.
“We’re sorry, I am still working on teaching him how to use his inside voice.” David smiled at the thought of the
massive dog having an inside voice.
“No worries. Where is Virginia?” Mary sighed at his question.
“It is Thursday, bath day. They didn’t know I was coming otherwise they would have waited.”
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“I see, well if you have time there are a lot of people here who could use some
Griz therapy.” Mary wondered if she should. She knew that her son had taken Griz to
schools and day cares before to teach about dog behavior and he trusted him enough
to let him go with Mary but still…she wasn’t
a dog handler. Taking a leap of faith she
agreed. Trusting that Griz would be the
ambassador that her son said he would be.
“Great! Come on. I got some people
here that never get visitors so this will be a
wonderful Christmas present for them.”
For the next hour they went from
room to room visiting each resident. Griz
getting treats, pats and even a hug. One
man with a walker could not get over how wonderful Griz was. He was telling stories
of training dogs in the military and how he missed them so much. The anger that
Mary had felt initially at hearing about her mom being asleep was long gone.
Replaced with seeing the joy that an old, nearly crippled dog could bring to everyone.
After seeing nearly every resident there Mary could see that Griz was tired. She told
the staff she would come back after lunch and headed back to the hotel.
After getting back to the hotel Mary prayed while Griz slept off the mornings
activity. She thanked God for the chance to see how an irritating situation could be
turned into something joyous. She thanked Him for Griz and that he was such a good
dog.
“Forgive me God. Forgive me for having mom put into the nursing home. I didn’t know what else to do.” The
tears flowed as she struggled with past decisions. She knew in her heart that she didn’t have any other choice at the
time. All of her family tried to get her mom and dad to move closer to them but Virginia was stubborn as a mule and
would not leave Casper. As their health diminished the family had to make the difficult decisions. Still, the weight of
them hung heavy on Mary each time she visited.
At 2pm Mary loaded Griz up once more and headed off to the Nursing home where as the night before they
went into the private visiting room to read to her mom and try and connect. Virginia kept humming a song that Mary
could not discern.
“Mom, what are you singing?” Virginia didn’t respond, her humming continuing. Is that ‘You are my sunshine’?
Again Virginia kept humming. Mary started singing, not knowing what else to do.
“You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are gray…” Virginia stopped humming
and turned her head towards Mary and then started singing along. Slowly, steadily they went through the song.
“Did you like that mom? Do you want to sing it again?”
“Why sure I do.” Virginia said as though she was as normal as she was 20 years earlier. Together they started
singing. It was at the start of the second chorus that Virginia went back into her own world. The lyrics of the song
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replaced by incoherent humming, her head turning away. Mary took hold of her moms hand and stopped singing,
listening to the hums from her. She broke into tears and bowed her head with her moms hand clasped in hers against
her forehead.
“I am so sorry mom. I am so sorry that you are here.
Please forgive me. I am so sorry.” The tears poured down her
face as she sobbed. David had been watching through the open
door.
“Mary, is everything alright?” She looked up and wiped
the tears from her face.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t know you were there.” David came in
and sat down. Griz had been watching but laid his head back
down to sleep when he realized that David didn’t have any treats.
“What are you sorry for Mary?” Shaking her head she wiped more tears away.
“I guess I have always felt that mom is angry with me for putting her in here. I didn’t know what else to do.
Now that she is fading I feel worse and worse. I just want her to know that I love.” The sobs grew stronger.
“Mary, she knows, I know, everyone knows. Did you know that there are two types of love? There is the
emotion, the love you feel for someone be it family or romantic. Then there is the action of love. I am here almost
every day. I see people here who I know have family that love them, yet they never visit. I know the emotion of love is
present but I don’t see the action. Mary, I saw love today in this room. I watched a daughter who drives hundreds of
miles many times a year, who calls every week, who will sit and read to and sing with a person who is not able to
connect with someone due to dementia. Mary, you are showing love the action. Something that is lacking here. What
you did yesterday with Griz showed that not only is your love there for your mom but for everyone here. People are still
talking about Griz and asking if he will be back. Stop beating yourself up Mary. You do a thousand times more than
many people do for their relatives here.” Mary struggled with David’s words but accepted them. She knew that God
forgives and that she needed to do the same for herself.
“Thank you David, really, I do thank you.” David held her hand for a moment and then left the room. Collecting
her emotions she opened up the book she had brought and started reading aloud to her mom. The memories of her
childhood and high school days being retold by Lynn Cheney, an old high school acquaintance. After another chapter
she decided to take Griz out to cool off and let her mom nap again. On the way out three more people asked if Griz
could say hi. She of course allowed Griz to woo them with his
charms. She could see that he was indeed becoming a star of the
place and a bright spot on an otherwise depressing place.
Outside she loaded Griz up and took him for a drive up
Casper mountain to play in the snow. Something he loved more
than anything else. She laughed and smiled as he rolled around
in it and for a brief moment he was almost a puppy again in his
demeanor.
The evening visit went well with two more chapters in
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the book being covered. She stayed as long as she could and even joined in with the staff and residents singing
Christmas carols given it was Christmas Eve. Once mom was asleep Griz and Mary headed back to the hotel. After a call
to her husband she again said her prayers, thanking God for the lesson of the day, thankful for a changed heart and
forgiveness.
Christmas morning came with two inches of fresh snow much to Griz’s pleasure. Mary gathered up her gifts for
her mom and after loading up Griz headed over to the nursing home. Walking in she did the usual greetings but was
surprised to see kids around. Turning into the TV room she saw several families there, grand children and great grand
children huddling around their respective elders. Griz let out a howl at the activity. The place, normally quiet and
solemn was now alive with the children and their energy. Finding her mom Mary decided to change things up a bit and
stay in the main TV room with all the activity. For the rest of the morning everyone took turns coming up to Griz to say
hi and have him ask for treats which he more than willingly did. Mary even noticed that her mom seemed a little more
alert, smiling a little at the sounds of the kids laughing and petting Griz.
At the end of the visit Mary walked outside and as before let Griz explore the grounds. Much of the burden she
had brought down with her now gone. Griz wandered back to her after making sure that none of the resident bunny
rabbits were around. Looking up at Mary he let out a barely audible ‘woof’.
“What? You have had enough treats my fuzzy bear. You did good though.” Mary knelt down and hugged Griz.
“ You are grandma’s boy aren’t you? “ Standing back up Mary looked Griz in the eye and smiled. “Griz, I think I actually
saw love today. And you know what, it was pretty amazing. “
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After thoughts:
As always this year’s story is based actual events. Mom and I took Griz down to visit my grandma in October of
this year and much of what is described here took place. It was while watching my mom care for and interact with her
mom that I realized I was watching love take place. Not the emotion, but the action. I knew then and there that it
would be this year’s Christmas story theme. Why? Simple, the birth and willing crucifixion of Christ is the ultimate
display of love the action.
This Christmas season I hope everyone can show and witness the action of love, especially that of our Lord and
Savior Jesus. Merry Christmas.
Troy, Griz and Grace.