Holden’s Playlist

By: Miss Donnellan

Title: Let's Take A RideArtist: Justin Timberlake

Hop in the car and go with meYou don't have to pack everythingDon't you wanna feel the breeze?And forget everything, baby

Hop in the car and go with meYou don't have to pack everythingDon't you wanna feel the breeze?And forget everything baby

Got laid off at your job todayYou've been working at this place for yearsAnd though you were underpaidMami that place isn't worth your tears(Oh, oh)

I know that life is hard on youAnd you can't seem to find out whyI'll explain, just grab your coat, girlAnd just join me on this ride

Let's take a ride, on the country sideLet's just get awayWe can spend the night, till the morning lightLet's just get away

Girl you're the bestYou could beAn angel among societyBut you get crushedFrom what you seeYou try to hard to help and that's enough for me(Woo..)

Try to change what you canAnd accept all the things that you cannot(Don't stress yourself baby)I know you wanna fly away from the worldBut for now with the time we've got

Significance: Represents yearning to run away to the country with Sally.

“You wanna get the hell out of here?... We could drive up to Vermont and Massachusetts and all around there. It’s beautiful as hell up there.” Holden to, Sally Chapter 17

Title: I’m with you Artist: Avril Lavine

Im standing on the bridgeIm waiting on the darkI thought that you'd be hereby nowThere's nothing but the rainno foot steps on the groundIm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone trying to find meWon't somebody come take me home

it's a damn cold nightTrying to figure out this lifeWon't you take me by the handTake me somewhere newI don't know who you are but IIm with youIm with you

Im looking for a placeIm searching for a faceIs anybody here I know

Cause nothing's going rightAnd everything's a messAnd no one likes to bealone

Why is every thing so confusing?Maybe Im just out of my mind

Yeah yeah yeah...

Significance: Discusses a sense of loneliness and not knowing where you belong. It made me wonder why no one went looking for him.

“It was that kind of a crazy afternoon, terrifically cold, and no sun out or anything, and you felt like you were disappearing every time you crossed a road.” Chapter 1

Title: NumbArtist: Linkin Park

I'm tired of being what you want me to beFeeling so faithless lost under the surfaceDon't know what you're expecting of mePut under the pressure of walking in your shoes(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)Every step that I take is another mistake to you(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

[Chorus]I've become so numb I can't feel you thereBecome so tired so much more awareI'm becoming this all I want to doIs be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering meHolding too tightly afraid to lose controlCause everything that you thought I would beHas fallen apart right in front of you(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)Every step that I take is another mistake to you(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)And every second I waste is more than I can take

[Chorus]

And I knowI may end up failing tooBut I knowYou were just like me with someone disappointed in you

Significance: Expresses feelings of pressure from expectations and lack of feeling.

"You don't like anything that's happening." Phoebe to Holden, Chapter 22

"I think that one of these days," he said, "you're going to have to find out where you want to go. And then you've got to start going there. But immediately. You can't afford to lose a minute. Not you." Ch 24

Now I will tell you what I've done for you -50 thousand tears I've cried.Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you -And you still won't hear me.(going under)Don't want your hand this time - I'll save myself.Maybe I'll wake up for once (wake up for once)Not tormented daily defeated by youJust when I thought I'd reached the bottom

I'm dying again

I'm going under (going under)Drowning in you (drowning in you)I'm falling forever (falling forever)I've got to break throughI'm going under

Blurring and stirring - the truth and the lies.(So I don't know what's real) So I don't know what's real and what's not (and what's not)Always confusing the thoughts in my headSo I can't trust myself anymore

I'm dying again

I'm going under (going under)Drowning in you (drowning in you)I'm falling forever (falling forever)I've got to break through

I'm...

So go on and screamScream at me I'm so far away (so far away)I won't be broken again (again)I've got to breathe - I can't keep going under

I'm dying again

"This fall I think you're riding for - it's a special kind of fall, a horrible kind.  The man falling isn't permitted to feel or hear himself hit bottom.  He just keeps falling and falling.” Chapter 24, Mr. Antolini

Title: Going UnderArtist: Evanescence

Significance: Expresses feeling of losing control, being stuck and receiving no help.

Title: Fade to BlackArtist: Metallica

Life, it seems, will fade awayDrifting further every dayGetting lost within myselfNothing matters, no one else

I have lost the will to liveSimply nothing more to giveThere is nothing more for meNeed the end to set me free

Things not what they used to beMissing one inside of meDeathly lost, this can't be realCan't stand this hell I feel

Emptiness is filling meTo the point of agonyGrowing darkness taking dawnI was me, but now he's gone

No one but me can save myself, but it's too lateNow I can't think, think why I should even try

Yesterday seems as though it never existedDeath greets me warm, now I will just say goodbye, *Goodbye*

"What I was really hanging around for, I was trying to feel some kind of a good-bye. I mean I've left schools and places I didn't even know I was leaving them. I hate that. I don't care if it's a sad good-by or a bad good-by, but when I leave a place I like to know I'm leaving it. If you don't, you feel even worse." Chapter 1

Significance: Holden’s thoughts about death, leaving, saying goodbye.

Title: Bohemian RhapsodyArtist: Queen

Is this the real life? Is this just fantasy? Caught in a landslide No escape from reality Open your eyes Look up to the skies and see I'm just a poor boy (Poor boy) I need no sympathy Because I'm easy come, easy go Little high, little low Any way the wind blows Doesn't really matter to me, to me

“After they left, I started getting sorry that I'd only given them ten bucks for their collection. But the thing was, I'd made that date to go to the matinee with old Sally Hayes, and I needed to keep some dough for the tickets and stuff. I was sorry anyway, though. Goddam money. It always ends up making you blue as hell.” Ch15.

Significance: Privileged upbringing, has a morbid outlook on things, losing grip on reality, lack of caring.

Title: Scared of LonelyArtist: Beyoncé

I'm in this fight and I'm swinging and my arms are getting tiredI'm trying to beat this emptiness but I'm running out of timeI'm sinking in the sand and I can't barely standI'm lost in this dream, I need you to hold meI'm scared of lonely

I try to be patient but I'm hurting deep insideAnd I can't keep waiting, I need comfort late at nightAnd I can't find my way, won't you lead me home?'Cause I'm lost in this dream, I need you to hold me

I'm scared of lonelyAnd I'm scared of being the only shadow I see along a wallAnd I'm scared of the only heart beat I hear beating is my ownAnd I'm scared of being alone, I can't seem to breatheWhen I am lost in this dream, I need you to hold meI'm scared of lonely, I'm scared of lonely

I cry at night 'cause my baby's too far to be by my sideTo wipe away these tears of mine so I hold my pillow tightTo imagine you I'll stretch your hand looking for mine'Cause I'm lost in this dream, I need you to hold me

I need your break when nobody is around'Cause I'm tired of this emptinessI think I'm drowning, I can't be lonelyAnd I'm lost in this dream, I need you to hold me

“New York's terrible when somebody laughs on the street very late at night. You can hear it for miles. It makes you feel so lonesome and depressed. I kept wishing I could go home and shoot the bull for a while with old Phoebe.” Chapter 12

Significance: Describes Holden’s sense of being alone and scared in a world he has no place in.

Title: if you really want to hear about it Artist: Ataris

another lonely seaside townwhere the seasons closed it down.but if you close your eyesyou can almost hear the sounds of crowds gone by.

another year you'll all be herefalling in love and watching sunsets and sunrises.it'll be grand and just what you planned'til tomorrow comes and you've said your last goodbyes.he says he'll write, but he won't writeand you will waste your timeso stay the fuck home and greet everyone with goodbye.

on this lonely winter's daywhile all the crowds were still awayI realized the attractionto temporary miles and holidays.

“If you really want to hear about it…” Chapter 1, opening words of book “Don't ever tell anybody anything.  If you do, you start missing everybody.” Chapter 26

boardwalk dreams all boarded upanother souvenir made to be broken.chasing the sun isn't my kind of fun.I'd rather sit and catch snowflakes on my tongue.when summers gone I won't be sadas you cling on to all the good times that you've had'cause being alone isn't really all that bad.

don't ever tell anyone anythingor else you'll wind up missing everybody.don't ever tell anyone anything.

Significance: Obsessed fans with a lack of ideas for original lyrics (?)

Title: TeenagersArtist: My Chemical Romance

They're gonna clean up your looksWith all the lies in the booksTo make a citizen out of youBecause they sleep with a gunAnd keep an eye on you, sonSo they can watch all the things you do

Because the drugs never workThey're gonna give you a smirk'Cause they got methods of keeping you cleanThey're gonna rip up your heads,Your aspirations to shredsAnother cog in the murder machine

They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of meThey could care less as long as someone'll bleedSo darken your clothes or strike a violent poseMaybe they'll leave you alone, but not me

The boys and girls in the cliqueThe awful names that they stickYou're never gonna fit in much, kidBut if you're troubled and hurtWhat you got under your shirtWill make them pay for the things that they did

"Life is a game, boy. Life is a game that one plays according to the rules."

“and everybody sticks together in these dirty little goddam cliques.”

Significance: Holden doesn’t accept the rules set before him by phoney adults. He doesn’t like being manipulated or told to ask his age and doesn’t like the kids at Pencey Prep.

Title: Playing God Artist: Paramore

I can't make my own decisions Or make any with precision Well maybe you should tie me up So I don't go where you don't want me You say that I’ve been changing That I’m not just simply Ageing Well how could that be logical? Just keep on cramming ideas down my throat Whoa

You don't have to believe me But the way I, way I see it Next time you point a finger I might have to bend it back And break it, break it off Next time you point a finger I’ll point you to the mirror

If Gods the game that you're playing Well we must get more acquainted Because it has to be so lonely to be the only one who's holy It's just my humble opinion but it's one that I believe in You don't deserve a point of view If the only thing you see is you Whoa

SignificanceA song that delivers a message to Holden: Don’t be a hypocrite!!

“People never believe you.” Chapter 5