hidden gifts by jacinta mcshane

7/31/2019 Hidden Gifts by Jacinta McShane

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F n d e a t n C d T g n a m

G e i i m a @ e l t s

Na nousm survevbrs treucpg tgrbu`g dnadmr

N]TYEA CNDN]HMU


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ND%4*9I


5/29

e&&ma ?e!ts

Na Nousm Turvevbrs Yreucpg tgrbu`g Dnadmr

E ammimi Dnadmr ea cy helm tb gmnh dbcphmtmhy


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"bc esmnsm tb =bcphmtm mnhea$

Tudg `rntetuim

( dna am$mr rmpny

Tudg gu&e#ety

( gn$m am$mr m5pmremadmi

Tudg pbwmr( am$mr jamw ( gni

Tudg omnuty

( gn$m am$mr smma

Tudg lrmmib&( gn$m am$mr jabwa

Tudg trutg

( gn$m am$mr rm#mnsmiTudg pmndm

( gn$m am$mr lm#t

Tudg #elm

( gn$m am$mr dgmresgmi

Dnadmr gns `e$ma tgmsm omnutelu# `eltstb &y sba nai &m

4m sgnrm tgm& wetg ybu

wetg bur #b$m


7/29

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Mxpnanteba b! Ymrcs na" Ancmsusm" ea tges obb#

=eaty =ea&y na& Fndeatn

( wns dgrestmami Fndeatn" (a tges stbry, ( n& jabwa ns

6Deaty:: oy &y ln&e#y, nai 6Deaiy: ea &y mnr#y wbrjea` ymnrs"

On#bbjns

Cn&&y 8 n pmtetm, s#e&, nttrndte$m wb&na gni ormnsts tgnt

#bbjmi #ejm on'bbjns" Ygrbu`gbut tges stbry, &y &btgmr:sormnsts nrm rmlmrrmi tb ns 6on'bbjns:"

es-mnsm

( rmlmr tb Dnadmr tgrbu`gbut tges obbj ns ies3mnsm omea`

speretun# uarmst ns bppbsmi tb iesmnsm ns n pntgb#b`edn#

dbaieteba" 1bomrt )uramy 8 nutgbr bl Ygm Inadm bl PbuaimiTbuhs su&s up ies3mnsm ns2 6%bt omea` nt mnsm, nt bam wetgTperetun# Tm#l" %bt omea` no#m tb om ea on#nadm, ea gnr&bay wetg

tgm uae$mrsm" N## btgmr iesmnsms 8 pgysedn#, m&bteban#, &matn# 8

sprea` but bl, nrm dnusmi oy, speretun# ies3mnsm":

=d-nadm"

Dnadmr es spm#t wetg n dnpetn# 6D: up tb tgm matry ba -0 tg

+morunry :.0 ea dgnptmr - 8 &y sn#$nteba" Dnadmr gns pbwmr

b$mr &m up tb tges pbeat"Dnadmr es spm#t wetg n s&n## 6d: lrb& tges &b&mat ba tb tgm

mai bl tges stbry rml#mdtea` &y pbwmr b$mr dnadmr"

?b&amss


8/29

gbhested

4gb#ested dnrm es tgm aurturea` nai trmnt&mat bl tgm materm

pmrsba pgysedn##y, m&bteban##y, speretun##y nai &matn##y wetg

tgm m&pgnses ba tgm 6wgb#m:"

bcms' (gm Onaj busm na& ecn%n&y bn&

Ns n ln&e#y wm #e$mi eaeten##y ea tgm )naj Kbusm nai #ntmr

ea *e&n$niy 1bni ea Imrry, %brtgmra (rm#nai"

(gm Onaj busm ea Tgepuny Tt"mmt 6N$ms : 8 >31Ygm )naj Kbusm es setuntmi ba tgm dbramr bl Dnst#m Ttrmmt

nai Tgep?uny Ttrmmt 8 tgm &nea strmmt ea tgm dmatrm bl Imrry ba

n s#e`gt ead#eam #mniea` ibwa tb tgm ibdjs oy *bu`g +by#m")ue#t mnr#y ea tgm !..s, tges gu`m stbam mieledm es bur gb&m

nai iniiy:s wbrjp#ndm rb##mi eatb bam" Ygm Keomraena )naj ns

et es jabwa, tnjms up tgm materm `rbuai l#bbr nai pnrt bl tgm

onsm&mat" Yges es Iniiy:s ib&nea, tgm ba#y p#ndm wgmrm gm es

ea dgnr`m" 1edg, &ngb`nay dbuatmr wetg tn##, wrbu`gt3erba

rne#ea`s smpnrntm tgm stnll lrb& tgm dustb&mrs wgb matmr lrb&tgm Tgep?uny Ttrmmt matrnadm" Iniiy gns ges bwa pre$ntm blledmnt tgm lnr mai nai n s&n## duoed#m am5t tb et wgmrm gm dna smr$m

dustb&mrs" +bur dnsgemrs mndg gn$m tgmer bwa duoed#m

n#ba`seim" #i, wbra wbbima l#bbrobnris suppbrt tges blledm

wgedg es ousy le$m inys n wmmj nai &bst m$maea`s wgma iniiy

wbrjs #ntm"

Nt tgm ondj, n pre$ntm ibbr bpmas tb bur gb&m wgedg gns n

#nr m &nro#m3te#mi gn## nai smpnrntm matrnadm lrb& Dnst#m

Ttrmmt" Fust omgeai tgm stners #ems n s&n##, stbam3l#bbrmi nrmnwetg matrnadm tb tgm ondj ynri butseim nai n wbbima, #ntdgmi

ibbr tb tgm lbrmobiea` dbn# dm##nr om#bw" *ba` weaiea` stners

#mni up tb bur lburtmma3rbb&mi gb&m ba n lurtgmr tgrmm l#bbrs"

N spndebus #naiea` bpmas but tb le$m rbb&s ba tgm lerst l#bbr2

tgm jetdgma wgmrm wm spmai &bst bl bur te&m, mntea`, wntdgea`

Y, prnyea` nai le`gtea`O tgm pbsg irnwea` rbb& wgmrm&n&&y e&prmssms gmr lremais p#nyea` tgm penab, ireajea` eatb


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tgm s&n## gburs nai gb#iea` blledm pnrtems tb e&prmss iniiy:swbrj db##mn`umsO tgm #nr`m #e$ea` rbb&, wetg gu`m &ngb`nay

ieaea` tno#m nai &ntdgea` seim3obnri db$mrmi ea se#$mrwnrm

nai dut drystn# `#nssms" Kmrm ( bltma p#ny wetg &y orbtgmr nai

sestmr" Tnatn #mn$ms bur Dgrest&ns prmsmats gmrm, tbb" %m5t tb et

#ems tgm #ba`, uausmi pnatry wetg rbws bl &bst#y m&pty

dupobnris wgmrm ( geim sb&mte&ms, nai sgm#$ms, sb&m

dbatneaea` &n&&y:s e##3lntmi nttm&pts nt &njea` in&sba n&"Ygma bppbsetm bur jetdgma es &n&&y:s nai iniiy:s omirbb&

wetg twb omis, bam ibuo#m nai bam sea`#m" Yges es wgmrm (

&njm iniiy stbp #b$ea` &m"

ur omirbb&s nrm ba tgm smdbai l#bbr" Ygmrm es n tbe#mt nttgm tbp bl tgm stners am5t tb &y peaj wn##3pnpmrmi omirbb&,

wgedg #bbjs but ba tb tgm ondj ynri om#bw" ppbsetm es &y

orbtgmr:s nai sestmr:s omirbb& nai pnst tgnt, tgm #nr`m, p#nea,`rmmaesg ontgrbb& 8 nabtgmr geiea` p#ndm 8 lrb& &n&&y:s

rn`ms" Ygmrm nrm twb lurtgmr &mssy rbb&s nt tgm lnr mai, wgedg

wm &nea#y usm ns p#nyrbb&s" pstners ea tgm ntted nrm tgrmm

&brm spnrm rbb&s, bam wetg n #blt weaibw but ba tb tgm

s#bpea` s#ntmi rbbl ge`g nob$m tgm rbni" Cbst rbb&s nrm gu`m

wetg ge`g dme#ea`s nai lermp#ndms" ( #b$m tges gbusm out ( n& abtgnppy gmrm"

ecn%n&y bn& 6N$ms >3->51

ur amw gb&m es iniiy:s rmterm&mat gb&m, tgm lerst gb&m

tgnt gm gns gni ndtun##y tb ouy" %b pbrtmr gmrm, ab ousy blledm

ibwastners, ab ouseamss pnrtems, ab &brm butseim dntmrmrs" Kmrm

wm nrm ba bur bwa" N edtbrena imtndgmi gbusm, wgetm stbam

wetg o#ndj wbbiwbrj nai n s&n## ondj `nrima, setuntmi ea n

rmseimaten# nrmn ba tgm &nea rbni tb *e&n$niy, n tbwa sb&m 0&e#ms nwny" Ibwastners ba tgm `rbuai l#bbr es n settea` rbb&

wgedg wm dn## tgm 6o#um rbb&: nai wgmrm wm spmai &bst bl bur

te&mO n ieaea` rbb& wetg bur penab, wgedg es bur omst rbb& nai

wgmrm wm spmai $mry #ett#m te&mO jetdgma wetg N`n dbbjmr,

jetdgma tno#m nai s&n## sdu##mryO nai n `rbuai l#bbr ontgrbb&"

pstners nrm n smpnrntm tbe#mt nai lbur omirbb&s" Muetm n oets&n##mr tgna wm wmrm usmi tb nai n wbr#i nwny lrb& &n&&y


10/29

nai iniiy:sdb&lbrtno#m, sbden# #elmsty#m" Yges es wgma iniiy`mts sedj"


11/29

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Eatrb"udteba% &nst na" &rmsmat

(t:s e&pbsseo#m tb prmiedt gbw mndg bl us we## rmndt uate# wm

db&m lndm tb lndm wetg &nbr dgn##ma`ms ea bur #e$ms" Ielledu#tnai bltma trnu&nted m5pmremadms dna bllmr us wbaimrlu#

bppbrtuaetems tb ie` immp eatb wgb wm rmn##y nrm nai uamnrtg

bur trum 6`biamss:"

Ns n sea`#m prblmsseban# &btgmr wetg n aeam3ymnr3b#i sba,&y suiima ienàbses bl na n``rmsse$m lbr& bl ea$nse$m )rmnst

Dnadmr ea Cny -..= nt tgm n`m bl >- turami bur wbr#i

db&p#mtm#y upseim ibwa" 1mm#ea` lrb& bam dreses tb nabtgmr,wm stru``#mi tb dbpm ns n ln&e#y, stu&o#ea` nai stn``mrea`

n#ba` tges m&bteban##y nai pgysedn##y dgn##maèa` pntg"

4retea` tges obbj wns abt n dbasdebus imdeseba out bam

obram bl &y e&&mientm rmndteba tb &y Dnadmr ienàbses"

+#buaimrea` uaimr tgm sgbdj, ( dn&m gb&m lmm#ea` sb n#bam,

db&p#mtm#y im$nstntmi, nai e&&mientm#y stnrtmi pburea` but&y tgbu`gts nai lmm#ea`s ba tb &y db&putmr" Yges wns &ypre$ntm p#ndm, &y sbu#&ntmO sb&mwgmrm ( dbu#i tura tb sgnrm

&y lmnr, imspner, na`mr nai jmmp n `rep ba wgnt wns gnppmaea`

tb &m nai &y sba"

Yges es abt n obbj nobut &nèdn# Dnadmr durms abr es et

nobut &y 6le`gt: br 6ontt#m: wetg Dnadmr" ( n& abt n ibdtbr abr

n ?un#elemi nutgbrety ba Dnadmr out ( n& na ealbr&mi dnadmr

pntemat" [nrt bl &y dgn##maèa`, ymt m&pbwmrea`, m5pmremadm

gns ea$b#$mi &njea` &y ielledu#t wny tgrbu`g bur om#mnùmrmigmn#tg smr$edm, spmnjea` up gbamst#y nobut gbw ( lmm#,

dgn##maèa` bpeaebas, &njea` ielledu#t dgbedms out n#wnys

&njea` &y bwa imdesebas" Ygm ealbr&nteba nobut $nrebus

db&p#m&matnry tgmrnpems nai trmnt&mats ea tges obbj nrm tgm

rmsu#t bl &y pmrsban# smnrdg lbr tgm omst wgb#3ested trmnt&mats

tb db&p#m&mat &y dba$mateban# &miedn# trmnt&mat" Db&&matsnobut uaan&mi prblmsseban#s br br`naesntebas nrm ea ab wny


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pmrsban# out imseàmi tb rml#mdt tgm strma`tgs nai wmnjamssmsbl na b$mrwbrjmi, tnr`mt3ire$ma nai pgnr&ndmutedn##y3#mi

systm&" (a lndt, &y spmnjea` but nssmrte$m#y tgrbu`gbut &y

trmnt&mat om#ems &y uttmr tmrrbr nt wgnt es gnppmaea` tb &m

nai, uaomjabwa nt tgm te&m, omèas n rm&nrjno#m prbdmss bl

eaamr gmn#ea`"

Ygm ùts bl tges stbry `bms ondj tb tgm mnr#y !>.:s ea

%brtgmra (rm#nai" Ns n dge#i, &y ln&e#y wns n pedturm blpmrdme$mi &eii#m3d#nss rmspmdtnoe#ety nai suddmss 8 n

`#n&brbus, tn#matmi, but`bea`, ybutglu# &btgmr nai n &udg

b#imr, rmsmr$mi, eatm##e`mat, ndnim&ed, prblmsseban# lntgmr, wetg

tgrmm omnutelu# dge#irma2 6[e##nrs bl tgm db&&uaety:, sb tbspmnj" Ygm rmn#ety gbwm$mr wns tbtn##y iellmrmat" Cy dge#igbbi

ns pnrt bl tges ln&e#y gnroburmi na eatredntm, smdrmt wmo bl

pgysedn#, sm5un# nai m&bteban# nousm"a tgm bam gnai, streppmi bl nay nllmdtnteba, tges es n rnw

stbry bl tgm trnu&nted out ma#e`gtmaea` nai #eomrntea` mllmdt bl

Dnadmr upba bur ln&e#y, dnpturmi ea buran# lbr&nt ns et

bddurs, wetg &y sba:s m5pmremadm e##ustrntmi ea ges m&bte$m

sjmtdgms, bosmr$ntebas nai db&&mats" a tgm btgmr, tges es n

&udg immpmr stbry, wetg Dnadmr ndtea` ns n dntn#yst lbr &ydb&p#mtm speretun# gmn#ea`, rm$mn#mi ea anrrnte$m l#nsgondjs tb&y trbuo#mi dge#igbbi wgedg nrm eatmrspmrsmi tgrbu`gbut tgm

&nea tm5t" Dnadmr mano#mi &m tb leai tgm dburn`m tb dbalrbat

&ysm#l nai è$m oertg tb n omnutelu# out supprmssmi, nai immp#y

nsgn&mi pnrt bl &ysm#l, oreaèa` n&n'ea` geiima èlts eatb bur

uadmrtnea wbr#i"

( gbpm tgnt bur rnw m5pmremadm we## gm#p ybu leai ybur

eaamr $bedm, $emw ybur trnu&nted m5pmremadm lbr tgm 6rmn#:

&mssn`m nai tgm n&n'ea` geiima, 6gmn#ea`: èlts tgnt et dnaorea` tb mndg nai m$mrybam bl us"


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(He!m )m!brm

9adu&omrmi oy immp#y &nsjmi lmm#ea`s bl eanim?undy,

easmdurety, omtrnyn#, sgn&m nai lmnr, ( npprbndgmi #elm ns el etwmrm n dbastnat tgrmnt tb &m" Ygmsm uaimr#yea` lmm#ea`s nai

nttetuims &naelmstmi tgm&sm#$ms ea n rm#mat#mss ammi tb prb$m

&ysm#l" Kmadm tgm wbrjea` seim bl &y #elm ib&eantmi, ns tges

wns wgmrm ( dbu#i lmm# 6ea db&p#mtm dbatrb#:, #mniea` &m eatbim&naiea` dnrmmrs ea sn#ms nai trneaea` dbasu#tnady" Kn$ea`

om`ua &y sn#ms dnrmmr ea &y &ei twmatems, ( dgna`mi &y an&m

lrb& 6Fndeatn: tb 6Deaiy: ea n dbasdebus oei tb &njm et mnsemrlbr m$mrybam tb prbabuadm nai rm&m&omr &m2 br sb ( tgbu`gt,

#ett#m rmn#esea` tgnt ( wns lurtgmr supprmssea` &y eaamr sgn&m

nai `ue#t" (al#ntmi oy &y `rbwea` m`b, ( smt up &y bwa

Yrneaea` Dbasu#tnady ea !! wetg n rm#mat#mss imtmr&eanteba

nai we## tb suddmmi" +nde#etntea` iyan&ed wbrjsgbps tgm #ma`tg

nai ormnitg bl 9a`#nai nai (rm#nai, &y stnainris wmrmm5dmpteban##y ge`g ns ( pusgmi &ysm#l &mrde#mss#y, wetgbut naydbaseimrnteba lbr &y pbbr obiy" ( iei abt matmrtnea lne#urm ea

nay wny nai sb Deaiy m&mr`mi 8 strba`, $mrsnte#m, tmandebus,

db&pmtete$m, e&pmddno#y `rbb&mi, suddmsslu# nai &bst bl n##

lemrdm#y ire$ma oy im&bas immp wetgea"

4ge#st &y wbrjea` #elm wns wgmrm ( m5dm##mi, nai lm#t ea

db&p#mtm dbatrb#, &y pmrsban# #elm wns n iellmrmat &nttmr,

lrn`&matmi wetg ualu#le##ea`, uagnppy rm#ntebasgeps rmpmntmi

&y gmnrt3ormnjea`, wbuaimi inadm bl dge#igbbi" Kmrm ( wns#bst" Tbden##y ( nppmnrmi tb gn$m et n##, `bea` bll lbr m5pmase$m

gb#einys, &mmtea` up wetg lremais, mntea` but nai sb ba" )ut

rmn##y tges wns tgm ba#y wny ( jamw gbw tb #e$m" Kmadm &y #elm

prebr tb tgm oertg bl &y sba wns na uadb&lbrtno#m &mi#my bl

twbLtgrmm inys n wmmj ea n gbtm# ea sb&m dbramr bl br

(rm#nai pndjmi wetg se5 gbur nirman#ea3gypmi gnri wbrjea`trneaea` inys ea tgm spbt#e`gt, lb##bwmi oy wmnry, #bam#y inys


14/29

nt gb&m lbrdea` &ysm#l tb `b but ea tgm m$maea`s uaimr tgmim#useba tgnt ( wns 6#e$ea`:" Ygm erbay omea` tgnt *e$ea` wetg

&ysm#l wns tgm gnrimst bl n##"

Ybwnris tgm mai bl !!., n `bbi lremai nsjmi &m wgy (

dbateaumi tnjea` tm#mpgbam dn##s lrb& &y &btgmr m$mry iny br

twb" Ygmsm dn##s wmrm abt dba$mrsntebas ns sudg out &brm

n#dbgb# eaiudmi, im&matmi &bab#bùms lrb& &y &btgmr ea

wgedg sgm dbateaumi tb #nymr lurtgmr ùe#t upba &m rmiudea`&m tb tmnrs" (l ( wns #udjy ( &nan`mi tb uttmr tgm bii 6yms: br

6ab:" Kn$ea` leaesgmi wetg &m, sgm wbu#i bltma tgma rea` &y

sestmr nai spmw but n se&e#nr ternim" Cy sestmr nai ( wbu#i tgma

dbasb#m mndg btgmr #ntmr" Ygm ba#y rmp#y ( dbu#i è$m &y wesmlremai wns2

6( iba:t jabw wgnt m#sm tb ib" ( tgbu`gt ( bwmi &n&&y

tges ns sgm es $mry #bam#y seadm iniiy iemi:Ygma tgm pmaay irbppmi" [mrgnps ( ieia:t ammi tb ib tges

nay&brm"

( sbu`gt n dbuasm##br nai $mry s#bw#y om`na tb lmm#

tgrbu`g &y dge#igbbi" Yges #mi &m tb &njea` tgm ielledu#t out

$etn# imdeseba tb stbp n## dbatndt wetg &y &btgmr n##bwea`

&ysm#l prmdebus 6lmm#ea`: te&m"Cy prmànady nai tgm oertg bl &y omnutelu# sba ea !!>

orbu`gt na n&n'ea` smasm bl lu#le#&mat, rm#eml nai #b$m eatb &y

#elm" Cy wgb#m wbr#i gni dgna`mi, tgnaj


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9$matun##y sm$ma ymnrs #ntmr, ( rm#udtnat#y gni tb ni&et tb&ysm#l tgnt ( metgmr ammimi tb rmiudm &y wbrj#bni br dgna`m

iermdteba" Deaiy wns termi nai drndjs wmrm om`eaaea` tb sgbw

nt #ba` #nst" N#tgbu`g tges wns $mry ielledu#t, s#bw nai pnealu#

nt tgm te&m, ( n& `rntmlu# tgnt ( wns no#m tb &njm tges dgna`m"

Dbasm?umat#y, ( beami n #bdn# dgnrety wbrjea` wetg $u#amrno#m

gb&m#mss ln&e#ems ea Npre# -..=" ( lm#t db&p#mtm#y nt gb&m"

am &batg eatb &y amw rb#m, ( wns ien`absmi wetg )rmnstDnadmr"


16/29

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N Ybxed )mèaaea`

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E ibat wnat tb `b ibwa gmrm iniiy, E nc sdnrmi. Iniiyhbbjs sni. Ubu cust ib ns ybur cbtgmr snys, Deaty. Ubu wehh

m nhre`gt ibwa gmrm. Ubu cust stny gmrm uateh E dbcm ndj lbr

ybu nai ba ab nddbuat dbcm ndj u!stners. Petg tmnrs

irb!!ea` sehmathy lrbc cy myms, E wn"m ym ym nai dhutdgea`cy tmiiy, E shbwhy dhncmr ibwa tgm ènat stm!s eatb tgm

dmhhnr. Ygm ibbr sguts suiimahy mgeai cm, cnjea` cy hetthm

biy #uc!. E jabw ets cy lnuht sb E gn"m tb stny gmrm. E trustIniiy nai ibat wnat tb `mt gec eatb trbuhm wetg cnccy. $y

hetthm hua`s stru``hm tb rmntgm ea tgm custy, inc! ner nai tgm

gnrsg, `hnrea` he`gt !emrdms cy termi, tmnrluh myms. Tge"mrea`

nai tmrrelemi, E rbbt cysmhl ba tb! bl n gmn! bl yudjy dbnh ea

tgm dbramr, nwny lrbc rn"mabus cedm sdurryea` nbut mamntg

cy lrmm%ea` lmmt. E ie` but sbcm dbnh wetg cy gnais, tryea`gnri tb cnjm n sbrt bl mi lbr cysmhl wgehst tryea` tb jmm! cyamw irmss dhmna, br cnccy wehh `mt na`ry n`nea. Dbclbrtea`

cb"mcmat butseim tgm nrrmi weaibw `rniunhhy lnims ns n

drumh gnai bl inrjamss imsdmais, cnjea` cy esbhnteba cbrm

tmrrelyea`. E lmmh nhbam nai rms!basehm lbr tgm wgbhm wbrhi.

-.tg Npre# -..=2

Iurea` n lb##bw3up nppbeat&mat wetg &y #bdn# ibdtbr lbr

gbr&bam rmp#ndm&mat tgmrnpy, sgm dbaler&s tgnt &y rmdmatwb&o sdna rmsu#ts nrm leam, ns ( suspmdtmi tgmy wbu#i om" Tgm

`bms ba tb dgmdj &y o#bbi prmssurm, ndjabw#mièa` tgnt et es

supmro, ea lndt tgm omst et gns m$mr omma@ ( nttreoutm tges tb &y

rniedn# dgna`m ea dnrmmr" Tgm tgma prbdmmis tb dgmdj &y

ormnsts" %bw &y #mlt ormnst gns n#wnys omma oe``mr tgna &y

re`gt" Yges gns am$mr rmn##y dbadmrami &m, mspmden##y ns ( gni etdgmdjmi oy tgm )rmnst Dnadmr Dbasu#tnat nt tgm gbspetn# tma


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ymnrs n`b ust nltmr ( `n$m oertg tb Fbsg" Ygm m5p#nanteba tgnt (wns è$ma tgma wns tgnt tgmrm wns n s&n## dyst, 6prbono#y lu##

bl wntmr:, nai n prbono#m rmsu#t bl gbr&bam e&on#nadm ium tb

&y n`m" 4gnt n dgmmj@/ Kbwm$mr ( wns rm#em$mi" Ygm

dbasu#tnat su``mstmi ( tnjm 9$maea` [re&rbsm e# nai etn&ea

)- supp#m&mats" Yges wns #nu`gno#m db&ea` lrb& sb&mbam

wgb es ead#eami tb nibpt n imresbry npprbndg tb naytgea`

rm&btm#y n#tmrante$m" *bbjea` ondj, ( wesg tgnt ( gni #bbjmieatb tges lurtgmr, ns ( abw uaimrstnai tgnt gbr&bam e&on#nadm

dna om dbaseimrmi n#tgbu`g abt prb$ma/ ns bam bl tgm pbsseo#m

dbatreoutbry dnusms bl )rmnst Dnadmr" (a lndt, tges dbasu#tnat:s

l#eppnat db&&mats ndtun##y `n$m &m n ln#sm smasm bl smduretynobut &y ormnst"

Kbwm$mr, ns &y ibdtbr lmm#s &y #mlt ormnst, sgm lrbwas,

bosmr$ea` tgnt et lmm#s $mry #u&py" Tgm e&&mientm#y lnst trndjs&m tb &y #bdn# gbspetn# lbr n &n&&b`rn&" Yges es tgm stnrt bl

bur #elm dgnaèa` m5pmremadm ns n ln&e#y"

--ai Npre# .=2 Ns ( ib abt gn$m n pnrtamr ns sudg, ( nsj &y

d#bsm lremai Cnrtea tb db&m wetg &m" Ns ( gni na upsmttea`,

uadb&lbrtno#m m5pmremadm wetg na mnr#emr &n&&b`rn&" ( wnat

sb&m db&pnay nai suppbrt ba tges bddnseba" ( n& abt rmn##ydbadmrami nobut tgm rmsu#ts" ( lmm# tgnt &y ibdtbr es ust tnjea`m5trn prmdnutebas omlbrm prmsdreoea` Kbr&bam 1mp#ndm&mat

Ygmrnpy"

Nt tgm gbspetn#, ( dgna`m eatb na b$mrse'mi `bwa nai wnet"

( n& dn##mi ea ?uetm ?uedj#y" ( m5p#nea tb tgm rnieb`rnpgmr wgnt

gni gnppmami #nst te&m nai tgnt ( n& lmm#ea` n #ett#m amr$bus

tges te&m" ( wnat tb &njm surm tgnt sgm lu##y uaimrstnais gbw (

n& lmm#ea` nai dna smm &m lbr 6&m: nai abt &mrm#y nabtgmr

pntemat" N#tgbu`g ( ib abt rmn#esm et nt tgm te&m, tges es tgm stnrtbl &y 6ndte$m: pnrt ea &y trmnt&mat" Tb&mtgea` ( ib ns ( `b

n#ba`" Ygm rnieb`rnpgmr es $mry uaimrstnaiea` nai m5p#neas tgm

prbdmiurm tb &m omlbrm omèaaea`" Tgm tgma ùeims &m s#bw#y

tgrbu`g mndg stn`m" adm ( jabw tgnt tgm rnieb`rnpgmr es 6wetg

&m:, ( lmm# #mss amr$bus nai abt nobut tb om 6ibam tb:" ( lmm#

m&pbwmrmi"


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&burs !nss nai suiimahy E gmnr tgm hntdg ba tgm ibbr nttgm tb! bl tgm dmhhnr stm!s. Iniiy gns dbcm lbr cm. E rua u! tgm

stm!s wetg n rmamwmi ims!mrnteba eatb iniiys nrcs. &bhiea`

ges gnai nai dhutdgea` cy tmiiy, wm `b ndj u!stners, cy hetthm

hm`s strneaea` tb tnjm bam stner nt n tecm tb jmm! u! wetg

Iniiy. &m es 'uemt nai hbbjs sni. E gb!m cnccy es abt stehh

cni wetg iniiy br cm. $y easeims nrm nhh cuiihmi u!. E

dnaabt stb! sge"mrea`. (t tgm tb! bl tgm stners, Iniiy tmhhs cmtb `b tb cy rbbc ns gm sbhmcahy wnhjs ndj eatb tgm jetdgma. E

wesg gm wbuhi `e"m cm n duiihm. E ibat jabw wgnt E gn"m

ibam wrba`. E !hny 'uemthy u!stners nhbam ea cy rbbc dnrmluh

abt tb cnjm n sbuai ea dnsm E naaby cnccy n`nea. E tgeaj cyrbtgmr nai sestmr nrm ea tgmer rbbc !hnyea`. E lmmh hmlt but nai

abt !nrt bl wgnts gn!!maea` nrbuai cm. )ntmr, E dbcm ibwa

tb tgm jetdgma lbr tmn na*ebus tb smm cnccys lndm. Tgm hbbjssmrebus ut abt na`ry. E tnjm n imm! rmntg nai tmatnte"mhy set

ibwa wetgbut sb cudg ns n wges!mr. E nc nlrnei tb rmntgm ea

dnsm E cnjm m"mrytgea` wbrsm nhh b"mr n`nea. Ygm tmrrehm stull

gns !nssmi lbr abw. Ygnt m"maea` wm nhh jammh ibwa ns n

lncehy ncba`st tgm inys scbuhimrea` nsgms nai !rny. Pm sny

tgm rbsnry, !rmtmaiea` tgm ni tgea`s nrm abt tgnt ni.

-Gtg Npre# .=2 ( wnet ea rmdmpteba tb smm tgm dbasu#tnat" N

aursm ?uedj#y sgbws &m eatb tgm spmden# wnetea` nrmn" Cy

an&m es dn##mi but nai ( n& sgbwa ea tb &mmt tgm blleden#

#bbjea`


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&nan`m tb o#urt but lrb& tgm imptg bl &y sgnjma obiy2 6tgmrmes n gu`m iellmrmadm omtwmma &y 6ammiea`: n oebpsy nai &y

6imdeiea` el ( n& `bea` tb gn$m bam:" (&&mientm#y tgm aursm,

wgb gns rm&neami se#mat up tb tges pbeat, db&ms tb &y seim nai

trems tb m&pntgesm2 6ybu nrm ea sgbdj imnr:" ( lmm# dbalusmi nai

tmrrelemi" ( iba:t jabw tges pmrsba" ( try tb m5p#nea tgnt ( n&

tmrrelemi bl ammi#ms" )mlbrm ( dna dbateaum, tges $mry

prblmsseban# #bbjea` nabay&bus aursm norupt#y eatmrruptssnyea` tgnt ( gn$m n ammi#m pgboen, wgedg sgm prb&pt#y niis tb

&y abtms" Tgm ?uedj#y sgbws &m tb tgm ibbr" ( lmm# ies&essmi

wetg b$mrwgm#&ea` amws" ( n& ea n in'm ns ( wnaimr tgrbu`g

rmdmpteba" Ygm 1mdmptebaest tm##s &m tgnt ( gn$m tb `b ondj tbtgm d#eaed, ns ( ib abt gn$m tgm dbrrmdt pnpmrwbrj" Ymnrs

se#mat#y irbp lrb& &y myms" Ygm 1mdmptebaest `mat#y &matebas

tgnt et ibmsa:t &nttmr nai obbjs &m ea lbr &y oebpsy" ( #mn$mtgm gbspetn#, set ea &y dnr nai dry nai dry nai dry"

4gy dna tgm dbasu#tnat abt m&pntgesmJ (s gm abt gu&na

n#sbJ (t smm&s tb &m tgnt tgm dbasu#tnat è$ms tgm lndts nai tgm

aursm nttm&pts tb è$m tgm m&bteban# suppbrt@ Yges ibmsa:t

wbrj" (t es iesbeatmi nai tbb #ntm" 4gntm$mr gnppmami tb

m5p#neaea` tges prbdmiurm tb &m `mat#y, nsjea`gbw ( lm#t nobutet nai el ( wns gnppy nobut prbdmmiea` rntgmr tgna nssu&ea` (we## n`rmmJ Yges wbu#i gn$m &nim n## tgm iellmrmadm"

Ygm `hnrm bl tgm anjmi he`gt uh !mamtrntms cy sbea`

myms, am"mr hmn"ea` cm nhbam. Ygrbu`g tgm scnhh curjy,

nrrmi weaibw nb"m, E dna smm hm`s bl cnay !mb!hm wnhjea`

!nst ba tgm !n"mcmat nb"m, dbc!hmtmhy uanwnrm bl cy

esbhntmi m*estmadm mhbw. E wesg iniiy wbuhi dbcm nai tnjm

cm nwny lrbc gmrm. $eautms !nss !nealuhhy shbwhy, hmaieaèatb hba`, sdnry gburs im!re"mi bl he`gt nai hb"m. Pgnt es

wrba` wetg cm+ E ibat wnat tb m nhbam. Ygm le`gtea` u!stners

es rm!hndmi wetg sbuais bl gua`ry cedm ibwa gmrm. E am"mr try

tb hmn"m mdnusm E jabw iniiy wehh dbcm lbr cm wgma et es

'uemt u!stners. (s E set gmrm nhbam, lrmm%ea` nai lre`gtmami,

uaimr tgm !emrdea`, nhi he`gt uh, tgm rnèa` wnr u!stners


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mnrs ibwa ba cy scnhh sgbuhimrs, imm!maea` cy `ueht lbr tgm!rbhmcs E gn"m dnusmi.

-0tg Npre# .=2 Kb#iea` tges uaomnrno#m amws easeim &m (

rusg ondj lrb& n wbrj &mmtea` tb pedj up &y sba lrb& sdgbb#

&y &eai ea tur&be#" N spmmi dn&mrn l#nsgms o#eaiea` &m lbr n

&b&mat dnpturea` &m ire$ea` nt H= &e#ms pmr gbur" g &y

`bi, tges we## orea` &y tbtn# pbeats up tb -" ( dna:t #bsm &yire$ea` #edmadm" Kbw we## ( `mt &y sba tb nai lrb& sdgbb#, `mt

&ysm#l tb rniebtgmrnpy m$matun##y ea 5lbri, nttmai wbrj

&mmtea`s nrbuai )udjea`gn&sgerm nai )mrjsgerm" 9$mrytgea`

es gnppmaea` tbb ?uedj#y lbr &m" Kn$ea` &nim sb&m dn##s tb&y sb#edetbr, ( rmn#esm ?uedj#y tgnt tb stnai nay dgnadm bl

gb#iea` ba tb &y #edmadm, ( sgn## ammi tb prmsmat &y dnsm

&ysm#l ea dburt ea 5lbri" Cy wbr#i es sgnjea` nai ( n&stru``#ea` tb gb#i ba"

Hri Cny .=2 4gnt n& ( `bea` tb ibJ ( n& tmrrelemi bl

ammi#ms" ( dnaabt lndm tges oebpsy uaimr n #bdn# nanmstgmted" (

lmm# sb n#bam" ( tm#mpgbam tgm gbspetn# nai nsj tb spmnj tb tgm

)rmnst Dnadmr Dbasu#tnat ge&sm#l" Turpresea`#y gm rmturas &y

dn##" ( n& ba &y wny tb wbrj" Kmnrea` &y &boe#m rea`, ( pu##b$mr ?uedj#y nai stbp ea n #ny3oy" ( m5prmss &y immp3rbbtmilmnr ea nosb#utm imtne#, gbpea` gm we## uaimrstnai2 6Ibdtbr (

wns nousmi ns n dge#i nai seadm tgma ( gn$m gni n gbrrbr bl

ammi#ms" Ygmy rm&eai &m bl &y lntgmr:s nousm:" Ygm #eam `bms

se#mat lbr n lmw &b&mats out tgma gm n`rmms tb nrrna`m sminteba

lbr &m lbr tges prbdmiurm" ( rmn##y npprmdentm tges" ( tgeaj ( dna

lndm tges prbdmiurm, jabwea` tgnt ( sgn## abt om nwnrm bl wgnt

es gnppmaea`" ( ust dnaabt omnr jabwea` wgnt es gnppmaea` tb

&m"N wmmj #ntmr, ( nsj &y strba`mst lremai


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ymnrs mnr#emr wgma ( nttmaimi na niu#t miudnteba dbursm eaCmietnteba" Yges wns &y lerst lbrny but eatb tgm wbr#i wetg &y

tgma twb3ymnr3b#i sba Fbsg, tgm drdgm lnde#etems nt tges db##m`m

&njea` et pbsseo#m"

>tg Cny .=2 ( wnjm up tges &braea` nltmr n $mry rmst#mss

ae`gt:s s#mmp, lmm#ea` u&py easeim" ( iba:t jabw wgnt es ngmni

bl &m tbiny nai tgnt sdnrms &m tb imntg" N## ( n& surm bl es tgnt


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Kmn#tg Tmr$edm 8 m$mrybam:s re`gt ns but#eami ea tgm %nteban#Kmn#tg Tmr$edm [#na nai &brm spmdeledn##y wetgea tgm [ntemat

Ni$edm nai *enesba Tmr$edm eaetente$m" Ns wm #mn$m tges db#i3

gmnrtmi p#ndm, ( dnaabt stbp dryea`" ( sbo eatb tgm gn##wny wn##,

nt wgedg pbeat bam bl tgm )rmnst Dnrm %ursms ùeims us obtg tb

n #ett#m rbb& upstners" ( wns tb $eset tges 6dbasb#ea`: rbb& &nay

te&ms b$mr tgm am5t lmw &batgs"

-7tg Cny .=2 ( ib abt gmsetntm ea dbatndtea` [ntemat Ni$edmnai *enesba Tmr$edm nt tgm gbspetn# nltmr &y irmnilu#

m5pmremadm" ( n#rmniy jamw %edj 8 tgm [ntemat Ni$edm nai

*enesba Tmr$edm &nan`mr, lrb& &y trneaea` inys" ( tm#mpgbam

ge& nai m5p#nea &y setunteba, nsjea` ge& tb eatmr$mam lbr &m" (wnat tgm )rmnst Dnadmr Dbasu#tnat tb om &nim lu##y nwnrm bl

wgnt ( gn$m m5pmremadmi" ( ammi tb om rmnssurmi tgnt tges we##

abt gnppma n`nea" N#sb ( ib abt wnat tb gn$m tb gnai#m tges n##&ysm#l, ea niieteba tb tryea` tb dbpm wetg &y ienàbses" %edj

smm&s tb uaimrstnai tgm gm#p tgnt ( ammi wetgbut omea`

pntrbaesea` ea nay wny" Nt #mnst, n## &y trneaea` wbrj gns

gm#pmi &m jabw gbw tb nddmss [ntemat Ni$edm nai *enesba

Tmr$edm" %bw ( dna smm et ndtun##y wbrjea` lbr &m"

Ets Tuainy nltmrabba nai iniiy tnjms us nhh lbr n wnhjnhba` tgm 'uny y )bu`g ?byhm, #ust tma ceautms wnhj lrbc burgbcm ea Tge!'uny. E hb"m tges tecm wetg Iniiy. $nccy es abt

gmrm tb tnjm gec nwny lrbc us. Iniiy es 'uemt ut n hetthm cbrm

dgntty tgna wgma gm es wetg cnccy. &m jabws nbut n hbt bl

tgea`s nai E hb"m gmnrea` gec tnhj nbut nhh sbrts. &m sgbws us

tgm e`, dbccmrdenh sge!s cbbrmi nhba` tgm 'uny, bam es n

irmi`mr nai nabtgmr es n dbnh sge!. E gntm `bea` ndj gbcm

nai ibat wnat bur tecms tb`mtgmr tb mai. E wnat cbrm tecm

wetg Iniiy. E nhwnys wnat cbrm bl Iniiys tecm. $y wgbhmbiy tmasms ns wm n!!rbndg bur gbcm, sgrbuimi ea inrjamss.

H.tg Cny .=2 Yges te&m, ( n& abt tnjea` nay dgnadms" (

ammi suppbrt sb ( n& oreaèa` Naaem nai &y lremai


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Ni$edm nai *enesba Tmr$edm gns eatmr$mami"/" 9$mrybam tnjmsup tgmer pbsetebas" Ygm dbasu#tnat sets ba bam seim bl ges imsj, (

set ba tgm btgmr, Naaem pbsetebas gmrsm#l nt tgm dbramr bl tgm

imsj, nai &y lremai


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tgnt gm nsperntms nabtgmr dyst wetg n ammi#m tb dgmdj el et:sdnadmrbus" ( set up wetg n stnrt, `nspea` lbr ner, nai sdrmn&2

6%b %b, %b:" ( n& tmrrelemi bl ammi#ms" Ygm dbasu#tnat ?uedj#y

iesnppmnrs eatb tgm am5t rbb& nai tgm aursm gm#ps &m rmdb$mr" (

bea &y lremais am5t ibbr nai tgm dbasu#tnat m5p#neas tgnt et

&ny abt om amdmssnry tb rm&b$m &y wgb#m ormnst" Km su``msts

( gn$m n #u&pmdtb&y wetg lerst stn`m #y&pg abim rm&b$n#"

albrtuantm#y lbr &m, tgm prbdmiurm dn##mi 6Tmateam# %bim)ebpsy: es abt ea bpmrnteba nt tges stn`m" N prbdmiurm, ns (

uaimrstnai et, wgmrmoy tgmy eamdt n iym eatb tgm #y&pg abims,

ge`g#e`gtea` tgbsm abims, el nay, tgrbu`g wgedg tgm Dnadmr

&ny om trn$m##ea`/" Kmadm lerst stn`m rm&b$n#, ns ( uaimrstnaiet, &mnas gn$ea` npprb5e&ntm#y aeam br sb abims amnrmst tgm

#u&p rm&b$mi, wgedg sgbu#i abt wmnjma &y nr& tbb &udg"

Km tgma rmpmnts tgnt gm dna abw ib n s&n## ammi#m nspernteba tbnsdmrtnea el nabtgmr #ett#m dyst es dnadmrbus" ( lmm# pnaedjy ymt

n`nea" Kes ualbrtuantm dgbedm bl wbris ba#y eadrmnsms &y

na5emty2 6Iba:t wbrry, wm we## ust 6pbp: n ammi#m ea nai tnjm

sb&m l#uei: Ygmrm et es n`nea2 6pbp n ammi#m ea: g &y


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uaimr tgm sgmmts wesgea` E wbuhi iesn!!mnr. Durhmi u! ea tgmscnhhmst nhh ecnèanhm nai sdnrdmhy rmntgea`, E hem stehh, cy

teay gnais gbhiea` cy mymheis te`gthy sgut. Ea smdbais, cy

!rbtmdte"m sgmmts nrm stre!!mi nwny hmn"ea` cm drumhhy m*!bsmi

tb 9adhm =ndjs sabrtea` nai tguaimrea` rnat; E ibat jabw

wgnt ybu tgeaj ybu jabw, Deaty, ut ibat ybu inrm rmntgm n

wbri tb naybam br E wehh cnjm surm tgnt ybu !ny. &es abstrehs

e``mr, ges rmntgea` gmn"emr, ges cnsse"m biy im"burs cm 4tbtnh hndjamss.

Hst Cny .=2 ( gn$m am$mr gni na bpmrnteba ea &y #elm nai

gmrm ( n& nobut tb `b ea lbr smrebus sur`mry wetg uadmrtneadbasm?umadms" ( dnaabt smm nay #e`gt nt n## nt tgm mai bl tges

tuaam#" Cy wgb#m wbr#i es dgnaèa` nai gbw n& ( `bea` tb

m5p#nea n## tges tb &y pbbr #ett#m oby" ( n& ges wgb#m wbr#i"4gnt nssurnadms dna ( è$m ge&J ( ib abt jabw gbw ( n&

`bea` tb `mt tgrbu`g tges" N## ( dna smm es imntg@ ( ib abt

om#em$m tgnt ( n& `bea` tb sur$e$m sur`mry, am$mr &eai Dnadmr"

( lmm# #bst nai sb n#bam, m$ma tgbu`g tgmrm nrm `bbi lremais

nrbuai &m"

Tettea` ea bur bhi jetdgma


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tgmer lua. Ygmy smmc tb gn"m mndg btgmr nai E ibat let ea. 5ure` lrbat ibbr b!mas nai E smm Iniiy. (s E rua b"mr tb gec,

cnccy n!!mnrs nt tgm ibbr tbb nai stb!s cm tnhjea` tb gec. E

nc iesn!!beatmi. E stnai mseim tgmer hm`s !ntemathy wnetea` lbr

cy tura. $nccy hbbjs "mry smrebus wetg gmr twb cbuatmi

n%bbjns hbdjea` cy "emw. Ygmy nrm nrùea`. E nc gb!ea`

Iniiy wehh è"m cm n duiihm ea n ceautm ut $nccy wbat hmt

tges gn!!ma nai E ibat jabw wgy. E lmmh tgnt E ibat cnttmr.Ygmy ib abt rmnhhy smm cm.

Hri Fuam .=2 4gmrm dna ( `b tb lbr gm#pJ Ygma, wetgbut

omea` dbasdebus#y nwnrm bl wgnt ( n& ibea`, ( stnrt wn#jea`tbwnris &y #bdn# dgurdg 8 Tt" Cnry:s D bl 9 ea Ny#msoury" (

jabw Dnaba Ye& Ke`èas tgrbu`g &y wbrj wetg tgm gb&m#mss"

( wnaimr ea nai nsj sb&mbam wbrjea` tgmrm el ( dna spmnj tbYe&" Ye& jeai#y db&ms b$mr tb smm &m lrb& ges gb&m" ( n& ea

oets, db&p#mtm#y pnaedjea`, wetgbut naytgea` tb gb#i ba tb" (

nsj ge& tb gm#p &m out ( ib abt jabw gbw gm dna" ( n& sb

wbrremi nobut Fbsg" 4gnt we## gnppma tb &y obyJ 4gb we##

#bbj nltmr ge&J Ye& es sb stmniy" Km #estmas tb &m nai smm&s tb

uaimrstnai, n#tgbu`g ( iba:t jabw gbw" ( gnri#y &njm naysmasm" ( lmm# ns el ( n& nt smn, uano#m tb swe& nai tgmrm es abrmsdum ea se`gt" ( ust ammi sb&mbam ( dna trust" Yges es &y wny

tb


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ceiiny cnss nt bur Dntgmirnh ea Imrry. (s lnr ns E dna tmhh,-bi gns "mry hetthm tb ib wetg nhh tges. ?br cnccy, tges es n

dgnadm tb irmss u! ea nhh gmr leamry nai sgbw us bll tb gmr

lremais nt dgurdg. ?br iniiy, tges es n cbrm sbcrm nllner. ?br

cm, E nc ba cy mst mgn"ebur, n rbni `rea !hnstmrmi

rmhe`ebushy ndrbss cy lndm, suddmssluhhy geiea` cy uadmrtneaty

nai easmdurety. Yges es cnccys sgbw nai wm nhh lnhh ea heam,

trnehea` ea gmr wnjm. ?erst cnccy, gmr n%bbjns stnaiea`!rbui, tgma iniiy lbhhbwmi y cysmhl, cy rbtgmr nai sestmr

lehm eatb tges ec!bsea` mieledm, shbwhy cnjea` bur wny tb bur

gnetunh !mw, le"m rbws lrbc tgm nhtnr nt tgm lrbat nai ba tgm

re`gt seim bl tgm neshm. Iniiy jammhs nai !rnys, cnccy hbbjsnrbuai tb smm wgb sgm jabws nai wgnt tgmy nrm wmnrea` nai E

cbutg tgm dbalusea`, )ntea wbris nai lbhhbw wgnt iniiy ibms.

Turrbuaimi y tgm gu`m, dbhburmi hmnima weaibws, tgm lrb%mastnrms bl tgm dbhi, cnrhm stntums !mmr ibwa nt cm. Ygm

sndreledenh stnrjamss bl tgm brantm nhtnr imdjmi ea wgetm,

mnrea` twb tnhh, re`ei dnaihmsmdjbas cm. (cba`st nhh tgmsm

!mb!hm, E lmmh scnhhmr nai cbrm hbst tgna m"mr.

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