a soul's thoughts

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A Souls ThoughtsBy

EZECHI DAMIAN AGWUH


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Contents

BEATIFIC BERNADETTE

Winter

Falling

You and I

ALONE

Life

My hero

PAUSE (II)

Pain

The milk man

CHALLENGED

Sins of our Fathers

Daddy


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BEATIFIC BERNADETTE

Descending from a dusty sloppy road,

I madea dazzling discovery.

An epitome ofelegant beauty,

Hid herself humbly, in agreen top and gray trousers.

What an adorableangel!

What agorgeous goddess!

What a quixotic queen.

That overwhelmed and obliterated my defenses,

taking my heart captive.

As a captive,

held in the chains of her charm.

I soon comprehended that my calamity was beatific,

at my Captors beneficence.

O Captor!

I give obeisance to your conquest.

For you stand tallwith a diadem,

declaring your dual personality.

Adorned with royalty,

Your queen ship is foretold by CHINYELUGO.

As you revealgreat civility, courtesy, maturity and diplomacy,


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in your dealings with the humble hearted.

O my Beatific Bernadette!

You beautify my mental state,

each timewe communicate.

I anticipate,

youraffectionatelove.

Through this love,

I celebrate,

how fortunate

I am to have found a soul mate

In you!


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Winter

What bitterly cold winter it was!

Just because, you went away.

Winter became strong,

because huge distances set us apart.

My warmth came from images of you in my head.

Winter storm hit hard, becausewe did not communicate.

We barely had emotionalwarmth to live through

the dark, lonely and dreadfulwinter.

Oh, what a truly bad winter it was.

Into a new year,

comes awarm beginning.

We survived winter in reconciliation.

Now, I can show my happiness,

because my beloved and I are together.

I will stop winter from reaching into our precious relationship.

My beloved is my everything, as winter taught me so.

Without my beloved, I willalways be in winter.


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Falling

In Auchi I was lonely and sad.

Not been able to see you, made things bad.

Our fantastic friendship turned sour.

By the second, by the minute, by the hour.

As I escaped Auchis sadness,

I can nowreveal my gladness.

Just being herewith you gives meabsolute happiness.

As your charm increases my weakness.

You give me butterfly feelings,

whenever I hear you calling.

My heart and soul cant stop falling;

for yourgentleaffection, that stops my worries from coming.

Oh, howlovely is theelegance that you bear.

So soft and sweet is the sound of your voice I hear.

Allenveloped in a fabulous fragrance you wear.

The totality, compels me to desire to share,

yourravishing beauty which is rare.


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You and I

You and I, were stunned by aglimpse

ofeach other in the very beginning.

You and I, seems

To derive comfort from each others warm caring.

You and I, share

A sweet affection others cant find.

You and I, bear

distinct painfulemotions that troubles our minds.

You and I, crave

The day distancewill not tear us apart.

You and I, wish to give

anything to keep ourgentleaffection intact.

Should You and I let distance

separate us into misery?

Do You and I still have confidence

In a chemistry we share, that makes us happy?


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Are You and I destined

to be soul mates in love, foralleternity?

Is it that You and I are frightened

By what peoplewill say, ifwewerealovable couple.

You and I, what we had ,

Was it a fling?

Must You and I be sad

Because I was not compellingly convincing!

My lady and I, I will cherish

And love to the very end.

Will YOU, love me much more than akind friend?


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ALONE

Stop calling me! she said.

Was it thelack of finances that led?

I couldnt believe it, but it is true.

Suddenly my heart turned blue.

Alone is lonely.

Things moves so slowly.

Noiseeverywhere, but my world is as quiet as agrave.

Food, music and pleasure; I couldnt crave.

What happened? She didnt tell.

My hopes, dreams and ambitions gradually fell!

Where can I find solace,

in all these madness.

It seems one day, shewill be back.

Probably this time, finance I will not lack.

All I can do is work hard and wait.

Still, where can I find strength, when my pain aggravates!

Who says LOVE isnt giveand take.

When that fails, all is earth quake!

I loved herwith the power, a Leo could have.

Always ready, and loyal to serve.


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Yet, shewas cryingand I couldnt stop it.

I had the WILL, but theresources I didnt.

I dont knowwhy.

If I had to do it allagain, this time I wont be financially shy!


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Life

Life becomes an enigma

when we havea dilemma.

Life is elusive,

as inevitable death assails it.

Life is a bitch,

when the flow ofgood tidings seize.

Life is full of surprises

without our compromises.

Life is a poem to the poet,

who sees life from a different light.

Life is a design for theengineer,

Who emulates lifes design imagery,

to create stunning technology.

Life is not all schlumbergic,

but beatific.

Life is not all static,

but dynamic.


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Life is not all unchangeable,

but changeable.

Life is the simple smiles on our faces.

the sadness of ourworries,

and the pride of our successes.

Life is the courageweembrace,

To go through the sorrows that surface,

As tragedy comes ourway,

We crave for the day solacewill stay.

Life is the bravery we seek,

To fight the slavery we hate,

To emancipate the oppressed

And createroom for success.

Life is the joy we celebrate,

From the newly born that emanates,

To bea continuation of ourgeneration,

Life becomes lovable,

As we becomeaccessible,

To share thelove that should be


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And keep our hearts happy.

Life is the memories we make

In the pictures we take,

To leavealegacy behind,

forgenerations to find.

Life is the colors we see.

Theraceweare from.

The cultures we protect.

The traditions wekeep.


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My hero

Talland fair,

With tenderloving care.

So strongand tough,

Even when circumstances seemed rough!

He hears a brothers cry.

He makes a move to askwhy.

He sees an urgent need.

Heacts fast, while sacrificing his greed.

Heembraced aProfessionalPaupers weakness;

And boldly believes that this

Pauper can live in palace.

My Hero said to thePauper,

you are too blessed

To be hawkingand overstressed!!

My Hero gave thePauper,

A token and his spirit that willlive forever!

What an astonishingworld welive in!

I still can see, two once-classmates playing!


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Nowaregrown MEN,

Separated by professional opportunities and academic domain.

Stillare united with an undying friendship.

One seemed powerfulenough, the otheras weakas a sheep.

My Chibuzor, will not rest,

Until thePauper has the best.

Pauper says to the Hero,

when I becomegreat,

Then theworld willknow you are thegreatest!


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PAUSE (II)

I dont want to stand up!

I dont want to get up!

I dont want to look up!

Because I just cant move up!

Life seems likea cold force.

My life seems likeaPAUSE!

It seems am overwhelmed by a dark force!

But I still believe in a course.

I just want to stand stilland wait,

Praying that this hazegoes away, so I dont hate

All havegone farand am the onegoinglate.

I pray I healand quickly recuperate.

FATHER I dont want to be ungrateful!

My life does not seems

Thereare not too many things to be thankful.

I just want to be slow, silent and watchful!

Becauseallaround me is so sorrowful!

life is likeaPAUSE people say.

Am anxiously waiting for the time to quit this PAUSE and press PLAY.

My resources arewaiting foran opportunity to come in and stay.


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I hope soon pleasurewill comeand allwill be fun to brighten the day!

This PAUSE must end;

Because it is only agamewith rules

And I want to play with my loverand friends.

I will master therules and learn to ascend.

Fortuneand Famewill come my way and I will never descend!


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Pain

A superb sunny day defeats

another nonpareil night.

Just alovely day

to feellarger than life.

An excellent time

to express exuberance.

Then suddenly,

my world grew dark.

Thoughts, enthusiasm and optimism,

vanished like smoke!

A vile villain,

encroached within me!

This vicious enemy,

brought my wonderfulworld

to agrind halt!

My brilliant brain,

set-off its alarm bells,

forexcruciating pain.

This monstrous villain of

agonizing pain,

clenched my nerve cells with

its fire claws

compelling me

to an


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Out-burst ofgrief!

Hauling me

to alife of misery!

I breathe, eat, sleep and dwell,

in aworld of hell.

Where I find no

Peace.

Keepinga blind eyeand

Oblivious attitude to

the dazzling dynamic

world around me.

Oh wacky world!

a harbor for horrendous painful tale.

Declares a horrific tale,

ofa young handsome man

Ferociously subdued,

mutilated, dismembered, shredded and

devoured beyond recognition

by his mentally derailed

assailant.

Who was armed with aknife,

as they commute in a transit train.


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What will be theenormity

of the traumatic pain,

that incapacitated his mother?

Howwill sherecuperate?

As shegasped forair,

slumping into a coma.

On hearing the horrific news!

A mirrored effect emerges,

in anotherappalling tale.

Inadequate health insurance

and a nonchalant government,

deprivea critically ill

magnificent husband

from salvaging medical care,

as he bled to death,

through every orifice of his body.

What devastating pain,

ripped through the heart

of his helpless wife.

Who watched him takea


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painful plunge

into deaths domain.

Pain oh pain!

Cruelty or brutality?

You assail in diseases and disabilities.

You prevail in social=injustice.

You overcome in the marginalization of the poor!

You obliterate in mans greed, hatred and wickedness!

Pain oh pain!!

Foe or friend?

In indifferenceand ignoring

The incandesce of hope,

We incur your infernalembrace.

In empathy and effacing despair,

Weextricate ourselves

from your obnoxious embrace.

When the Divineembraced you,

Redemption pricewas paid.

When mortals embrace you,

Our martyrdom is gained!

Pain oh pain!!!

Insight or sight?

Thewise see beyond you.


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Theweak see in front of you!


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The milk man

In sixteen nineteen of Times tickingwatch,

Whilereturning from a fascinating Ndongos ritual,

That we crave so much.

Someone of ourkind

seized us from behind.

Holding us so tight

in the dead of night.

Dragging us into caves and cages,

At day break,

taking us to a vessel of sadness.

Oh vessel of sadness it was.

As we saw men with milk skin.

As we heard distinct and different language, that made us scream!

As we met ourkongo brothers from Angola,

bound with thickraffiaropes at their hands and feet.

As wewere struckwith stupendous horror,

At the sight of sturdy, gigantic milk men.

Sailing into the spanning surging seas.

Sailing into thewest.

To survive through the cold and callous seas,

Was our quest!

Hungerand hypothermia hindered our hopes.

Bang, bang! Our ship came to a halt.


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Fierce battlewas waged for our heads.

Victory was won by the White Lions men,

As they took us to where they led.

Some died on the battle,

Some died beforereaching the promised land.

Arriving in Virginias shores,

We duggraves into the sand,

Mourning the dead as we stand.

Wewere bound with chains and shackles.

Wewere bound into alife of captivity and slavery.

With little food to keep us strong,

We took ourexhaustion to till theground.

Forced to farm,

In cotton, sugarand tobacco plantations,

To satisfy our owners and overseers

Wealth and greed expectations.

Whilewe became their mechanized farming system,

The sun scorched our dark skin.

Whilewewere sold likegoats and sheep,

The pregnant cloud urinated on our blistered skin.

Whilewe tried escaping this agony,

The overseers whip tore-up our scarred skinned!

While our sisters and mothers wereraped endlessly at night,


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The mosquitoes bite our subjugated skin!

While theseevil, wickedness and woes continued,

Our number increase

In the north and south.

Like four million seeds sprinkled

In the Milk mans garden.

As we slaved night and day,

Monkeys and chimps came ourway.

Caught at Africa.

Brought to America.

Zoo business blossomed,

While Zoo keepers dazzled!

Zoo business become political,

As Timas become philosophical.

Timas kept political ideologies with him.

Timas kept monkeys and chips with him.

Timas, a third ofa politicalgeneration.

Linx was sixteenth of his generation.

Timax took the political stage.

Linx took the failures wage!

Timas pioneered theemancipation

Of Monkeys and Chimps.

Linx s paramount desirewas

The Salvation of UNION and primates.


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Timas enjoyed singing

Fantastic lyrics that were moving:

We have thewolf by theear

And can neither hold it

Nor safely let him go;

Justice in one scale,

And self preservation in the other

Eighteen apples, zero carrots and nine bananas

Werekept for Timas primates emancipations feast.

Eighteen apples, six carrots three bananas,

Linx kept for the UNIONs warredemption feast.

Both werealovable pair of the Milk man.

Both were Legends to the political man.

Still, both thought

Monkeys and chimps were no match

For them and their seeds.

This thought was accepted in all the states.

This thought was admired in Florida State.

In the midst of Obama!

The sex offenders gather.

To tella tale in Julia Tuttle causeway.


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To erect shanty houses for their stay.

No toilet and water in the heat,

While therats at night nibbled at our feet!

Dehumanized and enslaved by men,

Like Monkeys and chimps by the Milk men!

Oh mans inhumanity to man!

Oh mans eviland wickedness to man!!

Man says he can give

opportunity in theland of the free.

Man also can give oppression and slavery

In theland of subjugation!

Man is capable ofevil!

Man is capable ofgood.

Nothing is good

Except HIM who fashioned man

from the nothingness of dust.


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CHALLENGED

Thewild creatures of natureare diverse,

Though their deformities does not lingers.

Nature simply screens and selects its best,

Letting its ugly disabilities to havea quiet rest!

What crime did my friends and I commit?

As weare seen as natures vomit!

Tanaka-san cannot stand with his lousy legs.

Monsieur Mark cannot see the day light.

Senor Steve cannot hear the children laughing.

Mademoiselle Maria cannot picklovely lilies.

Mazi Madufor cannot sing superb songs

Miss Melissa cannot solve simple puzzles.

Was it Destiny that made my magnanimous friends this way?

Are our physiological make-up thrown to complete disarray?

I see Tanaka-san,

tough but torn.

His zeal to excel is amplified,

But his legs areatrophied.

With his pair of crutches,

He moves with crippling difficulty.


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As he chooses not to relent,

amidst this batteringadversity.

He vows not to failagain,

To compensate for the disability failures he sustains.

I hear Mazi Madufor mumbles away,

With no coherent thing he says.

Humbled with dumbness to speak,

Yet, his artistry in painting pushes him to arts peak!

Magnificent Miss Melissa moves slowly,

as she is diminished with intellectual challenges greatly.

She tries to make meaning

Why birds build nest,

But barely unravels it with unremitting quest!

Majestic Monsieur Marks world is like midnight.

Heenjoys playing his piano with huge delight.

He confidently plays

And makes a mincemeat of his impaired sight.

Even with AIDSs Cytomegalovirus Retinitis,

That malevolently marries him to a blind plight!

My friends challenges blinds mens visibility

to see the Challengeds possibilities.

Many shudderand shrinkwith pessimism,


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Because they cant imagine

The Challengeds burn with lively optimism!

Some strictly stop the Challengeds right to live.

Possessing ARV drugs which they fail to give!

Others willlet the Challenged live,

But they snub, scorn and shunt them away,

Takingrelish in quenching their head way!

Howlongwill congress and parliament of our countries,

Budget immensely for mans space discoveries?

As they ignore investments towards

The Challenged supportive participation;

to attenuate theworlds economic retardation.

Howlongwill the Challenged share the samerights that animals have?

Instead ofenjoying theroyalrights men have!

Amidst these sticky situations,

I sawa benevolent Samaritan.

Coming from a Maryland street,

painted with whiteand red straps.

Shegazed into the dark blue sky

with dazzlingwhite stars.

Radiating the Kennedys superb standards.


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Eunicewas different from therest.

She strove to bring

the Challenged to their best.

With inadequateresources

And indefatigable spirits;

She challenged the Challenged

To look beyond their demerits!

Oh! I salutea stunning saint of our time,

As she departs from our time!

Prominent Professors:

Vermeiji, Kuusisto and Hawking,

shows us that anything is possible.

Even greatness in disabilities is reachable.

So my friends aregreat and geniuses,

As Horaceattest Adversity reveals genius,

Prosperity conceals it

Shame to my other friends,

Who like theProdigal Son and his friends,

Squanders wealth, resources and opportunities

to its very end.

THEY HAVE FAILED

AND ARE DISABLED!!


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As they choose to loosely superintend,

Their powers, potentials and privileges,

They thinkwill neverend.


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Sins of our Fathers

Seeing her splendid smiling face,

I held herwith warm embrace.

She unveiled thegood tidings,

That overwhelmed mewith joyful crying.

My life metamorphosized from

Unreliable to dependable.

Irresponsible to responsible.

Radical to conventional.

Son to father!

I catered to her needs with the most tenderaffection;

All through the uneasy gestation.

What agrueling preparation?

What an apprehensiveanticipation?

What horrific pains,

Beyond my beloveds expectation?

Ah! At last,

Clarion cries emanate.

Animating us all to blissfully celebrate;

The colossalachievements and happiness,

Which we could not isolate, from


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Allwho called and came to congratulate.

The commencement of Fatherhood,

Which thelittlekingand queen inaugurates.

With assiduous care

And boundless love from my heart that I bear,

I assisted the twins to walk.

I helped thekids to talk.

I instructed them to respect Right and Wrong Demarcations;

Good and Evil Oppositions!

I introduced them to the beauty ofeducation,

to inspire theirambitions.

With wisdom and literacy,

They grew to maturity.

Passing the samelegacy,

for their own children to copy.

Lovewas of theessence.

LOVE appointed me to an office.

LOVE lured me to a calling.

Love compelled me to duty.

Loveand admiration, I had for them,

while falling in lovewith them.

LOVE is light,

Which shines so bright!


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Like the day outshines the night.

Darkness covers the night.

Darkness clouded Lucifers sight.

Darkness dragged Lucifer to a Devils plight.

Devil deceived Man from his might.

Devil devastated Man to a sinful plight.

Man was crippled by sin.

Sin brought therole of Fatherhood to ruin!

He comes in drunkand dampened in self-esteem.

Soon after, his littlelad screams.

To testify the horrendous battering hereceives

From a fatherwho believes

His son cannot academically succeed.

maybeam not academic material the traumatized lad laments.

As heweeps through his torments!

A voluptuous gorgeous goddess, in the mid-teens of her innocence,

Suffers in silence.

Watching her fiend father defiles her,

Because of his unleashed concupiscence!

Oh! Concupiscence fathers cannot extirpate!

Flaccid Frit lured Elis, to awindowless cellar to fornicate.

Insatiablewith a one-night stand,


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His darkness moved him to perpetuate,

An almost endless incestuous rape.

Which he cherished to celebrate!

Oh! Twenty four years of incestuous marriage!

Bringing forth children;with a fathering that have been savaged!

Did the same Darkness consumed Rido so well?

Who perfected his abduction skills very well,

To kidnap Jazy!

Taking her to a tent,

Where no one could tell.

Oh! Eighteen years of continuous rape!

What arelief that it wasnt incestuous rape!

Still ,can any sin be called light?

Sinceevery sin involves some contempt of God!

Saint Eucherius argues.

Far, far to the middlekingdom.

Theactivities of child snatchers are put to question.

Fathers blinded by material satisfaction

Begets otherloving fathers,

misery and financial confusion.

As they swiftly snatch littlelads, to unknown destination.


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In the middle higashi descent,

Flimsy fathers for craving of financial security,

Forcefully give their consent,

That theiradorable daughters in adolescence

And less;

Take up husbands.

Husbands whose virtues are violence.

As they practice pugnacity to pulverize

The purity and peace

Of their partnersadolescence.

Financial fathers flawed fathering of the financial system,

made theworlds economy fall into a credit crunch.

basing theirriskevaluation on a hunch.

Expecting the property bubbling,

Riskinglending

And realestate that were misleading,

To pull them out,

Beforea series of bailouts,

were initiated to avert theeconomic fallout!

Fathers of Lehman and others,

Caused the financial fall,

But Lehman plunged to save us all.

How many jobs and companies that werelost?

How many tax cuts


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And interest rate cuts?

How many billions of Dollars in debt;

Weare to pay for the future?

How many economies that were fractured!

Forland, food, jealousy

and cupidity.

Hutus Father sawan opportunity.

to take the Tutsis as theenemy.

Using the presidents death as an excuse;

They briskly put theirkilling skills to use!

Fathers continuously spilled blood,

to appease theiranger.

Untileight hundred thousand lives laid at the corner!

What brutality and barbarity fathers allowed to linger?

Oh! Sins of our Fathers!!!

How did fathering fall into ruin?

Fathers noweagerly enthrone sin,

To enlist themselves as devil followers

Confirming saint Catherine of Sienas beliefs

to sin is human, but to persist in sin is devilish!

So devilish these sin may be,

There is still hope,

Towards restoring our Fathers glory.

For it is more


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Blessed for fathers to give

Than to receive.

To build than to destroy.

To preserve than to defile

To rise from sin

Than to keep falling into sin;

As saint Mary EuphrasiaPelletier proposes

it is human to fall,

But angelic to riseagain!

Let our fathers riseagain and replace:

Carnalaffection

With fatherly affection,

Abduction abuse

With moral supervision,

Battery and rape

With literacy promotion.

Guns and knives in the street,

With books, sports and arts for our treat!

Deficient scienceand business curriculums,

With rich moralresponsibility curriculums.

Let our beloved Fathers support the beliefs of

Saint Teresa of Avila,

unless you striveafter virtueand practice them,

You will nevergrow to be more than dwarfs!


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Daddy

On the 19th of September you came!

To a family so humbleand poor, and things neverremained the same.

You told us how Grand Ma LOVED you in a specialway.

She questioned why put so much energy into readingwith alamp?

You told her, you would rather see youreyes blinded by thereading, than not to read at all

with thelamp!

Reading, neatness, humble behaviorand love for holiness took you to leadership roles.

The sweet, undyingand inseparable love you had for your brother, made you to love his

children and even humanity as though they were your very own.

Sometimes, I wander why be so kind to those that areeviland unforgivable?

But you were simply showing us the only way Christ taught was charitable.

This made you shine differently like the stars in the night sky!

Sometimes I caught you OLD, and still prayingat 5am and I say to myself Why!

As alittle boy, I love to stay by your side.

As agrown man I love to laugh, arguewith you and not take your side.

Your speeches lacked vulgarity and profanity.

Yourattitudewas allabout simplicity.

As time passed, I studied your Life ofPrayer!

And I emulated it, because it was the only thing that could make me better!

You loved the Angelic Salutation and the Angelus as well.

Which made you cling to the Queen of Angels so well.


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Time came, I promised you I will defend this family from harm and shame.

Time came, I promised you I wont bring dishonor to your name!

Time came, I quickly understood that I was like you in the making.

But different from you in Gods calling.

Time came, you had already achieved what Legends were born to do!

They were so much that I can count a few.

Time came, you made your mark in 4th degree.

Time came, I became Michaeland a friend to Saint Michael.

Time came, I dreamt of yourexit.

Time came, you went to the hospital to begin it.

Time came, I knew that I had alittle timewith you.

Time came, I had to show my loveand loyalty by kissing you.

Time came, I shared yourlast 30 minutes of immense strugglewith Death and his ally with

the Dark spirits!

Time came, I knew it was time to commit you into the hands of my trusted friend Saint

Michael on his glorious feast.

As he is thePrince of the heavenly host,

Hewill take you to the Queen of the Angels, where you will be in the company of theangels.

Now, I see people pouring-in to say a thing or two.

Now, I see the colossal vacuum you haveleft and the things you want me to do.

DADDY, I do pray at night.

In my heart, I am not letting you out of my sight!

At night, when I pray, I cry and I miss you!

Those tears are forgratitude, for the sacrifice you made for me.


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Those tears are for the joy you brought to me!

Those tears are for the determination to finish thework you have started.

Though sometimes, we dont agree!

Still, you are my first love!

I love you DADDY!

I miss you so much DADDY!

The End

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