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About the Author

A single parent of two children who has a huge love ofanimals, having many as pets. A great cook who enjoys

baking as often as possible.

Loves learning new things, having qualified as an

accountant and a chef in her younger years.


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I would like to thank my close family and friends fortheir support in my hour of need. Also, Mr. Carl Leavy

Photography in Cornwall and Mrs. Tina White for

pushing me to send this book off to be published, as well

as my two fantastic children whom I love dearly.


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Copyright© Katrina Scarlett (2015)

The right of Katrina Scarlett to be identified as author of this

work has been asserted by her in accordance with section 77

and 78 of the Copyright, Designs and Patents Act 1988.

All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be

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A CIP catalogue record for this title is available from the

British Library.

ISBN 9781785545290(Paperback)

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www.austinmacauley.com

First Published (2015)

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Introduction

When Mary Jane goes on to a dating website at the

request of her children to find a partner as they were

growing up, she could never have imagined what was

going to happen to her life, her sanity and her health.

Then she met Terrence, and life changed, but was it

for the better or would it end her?

When Terrence went on the same website, he waslooking for a causal relationship and he never expected

what he got when he met Mary Jane and her children.

Would his life, sanity and health also be at risk of

disintegrating around him?

With many sexually tense events, twists and turns to

keep you reading from the edge of your seat. What must

Mary Jane and Terrence go through to discover if theyhave found what they were searching for all their lives?


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Chapter 1

It was late one night, around 11.30 pm. The stars were

out, a light breeze filtered in through the back door that

was open for the dogs to come and go as they pleased.

Sat at her computer was Mary Jane, typing away on

a dating website on which her membership was about to

end. You see, as a single Mum, Mary Jane had been

alone for eight years bringing up her children and hadnot been near anyone since her break up with the father

of her youngest at nine weeks pregnant.

Three days previously, her two children had said to

find someone as they were growing up and would not be

about much as they had their own social lives.

Mary Jane thanked them and signed up for a trial on

a site that introduces you to single men in the hope thatshe would meet a nice guy and be able to start living

again. She had put everything into her kids and bringing

them up but the trail was about to end that night and she

had spoken to a few guys online, some asking for money

to help bring gold back to England. When that happened

Mary Jane stopped talking to them as she knew it was a

scam and she would not see or hear from the guys again.But half an hour before the membership was to end

someone said ‘hi’ to her. He looked normal and sweet he


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said nice things, so she agreed to talk to him. His name

was Terrence and his I.D was ‘T-bone’.

As they spoke they exchanged e-mail and MSN I.Dsand continued talking until midnight, then the

membership ended, so they continued talking through

MSN. Mary Jane’s I.D was ‘Bo-peep’.

The messages flew backwards and forwards between

Bo-peep and T-bone that night, and they got on really

well. Since they had mutual interests they agreed to meet

up on the following Saturday at the local supermarketnear Mary Jane’s house.

Terrence lived around forty miles away from Mary

Jane. He had just moved to a place called Bodmin in

Cornwall and Mary Jane lived in a place called

Camborne, which was near Truro.

The area was lovely, full of trees, countryside and

beaches where Mary Jane walked the dogs and took thekids to play on warm summer days. Mary Jane would

take the dogs and her kids, Michelle and Neville, to the

beach for the day to have a picnic and a swim in the

ocean.

Well, Saturday arrived and the kids had gone to see

their father, so Mary Jane was alone and had no worries.

That morning she showered and got ready. She put onher makeup and did her hair in a loose pony tail. She

wore jeans and a t-shirt and flip flops, and thought,

that’ll do, as she looked in the mirror.

Mary Jane was not a slim girl but she was not huge

either, just a little over weight, but she looked good. She

walked out of the house and drove to the supermarket in

Pool. There were lots of people milling about as thesupermarket was close to the local weekend market. She


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waited for Terrence to arrive from Bodmin, reading the

texts he was sending as he drove to meet her.

The text went along the lines of: I’m looking forwardto seeing you and getting to know you, and talking about

hobbies. He liked carp fishing and dogs, and although

Mary Jane was not into fishing she thought she could

cope with it as it not football. She hated football.

Terrence arrived and texted, “I’m here, where are

you babe?”

Mary Jane answered, “I’m sat on the bench by thefront door of the supermarket. I’m wearing a red top and

jeans.”

Terrence replied, “I’m wearing track suit bottoms

and an old t-shirt.”

He had not made much of an effort to dress up but

that didn’t matter, as he walked towards her she saw he

was not overly thin either but he was kind of cute. Hehad little cherub cheeks and a sweet smile. He sat next to

her and they talked about the journey from Bodmin and

agreed to go for a drink. They left the supermarket and

went to the McDonalds around the corner. They sat

outside drinking and talking whilst Mary Jane had a

cigarette, they laughed and joked and realised they had

grown up around the same area in Yorkshire and theyknew the places they each spoke about. As their date

ended they agreed to meet again the next day.

When Mary Jane went home that evening she was

thinking what a nice guy he was and how she felt

comfortable in his presence, which she had not felt in a

long time.

As Mary Jane put the kids to bed and sat at hercomputer to check the emails from that day, a message

appeared on MSN saying “Hi, how’s you? I really


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enjoyed meeting you today and look forward to seeing

you tomorrow.”

Mary Jane smiled and thought the same. She’d reallyenjoyed today, it made a change from staying home,

doing the house work and cooking.

They stayed up late messaging each other and when

Mary Jane went to bed Terrence was texting on the

phone until the early hours talking about places in

Yorkshire.

Three hours later Mary Jane got up and got ready togo meet Terrence again. Off she went with a smile on

her face thinking, I hope this works out.

The second date went really well. They went to

Truro and sat on the quay watching flocks of swans

swim up the water’s edge and congregate near the flood

gates. Laughing. They sat there talking for hours about

anything and everything, they even went to a beachcalled Portreath whilst sat on a bench, a church

congregation arrived to do a service on the beach and to

baptise one of the congregation. They sat there laughing

at the singing and how the birds tried to join invite was

so funny. They moved a little further away so as to not

disturb the service and when they sat down again he held

her hand and put his arm around her and they satsnuggled up on the bench enjoying the scenery and

listening to the birds singing along with the service that

was going on.

They watched as the vicar – who was wearing shorts

and a t shirt that said I am the Preacher on it – walk into

the ocean with three other people and dunk some poor

girl under the water as a wave crashed over the top ofher. They ran out of the water to get dry and warm up. It

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As the day ended, Mary Jane and Terrence talked

about where this was going and they agreed to start

dating, but slowly. Mary Jane had a friend arriving thenext day to stay for a week from up country and she was

looking forward to catching up with all the gossip and

having a laugh or two.

As the week progressed, Terrence and Mary Jane

were talking via text and MSN on an evening when

everyone else was in bed. Not much sleep was had by

either of them that week.One night, Terrence arrived without much notice to

see Mary Jane. She welcomed him in and made a brew

and he talked with her friend and had a laugh and they

seemed to get on. Everything was going brilliantly.

When her friend left the following Monday morning

Mary Jane had not had any sleep as she had to take her

friend to the bus station to catch the coach back home. Arelaxing day was needed as everyone was tired and

would need an early night. Whilst she was thinking

about going to bed that evening (around 9 pm) she got a

text message from Terrence saying he needed a hug as

he had just been told some bad news about an aunt.

Mary Jane told him to come down for a brew and a

talk. When he arrived he was looking as though he wasabout to cry. When he walked in she opened her arms to

give him the hug that he so badly needed. And he kissed

her, which she was not expecting. They sat on the sofa

talking and he said he had just found out his aunt had

died that morning, so Mary Jane put her arms around

him again to hug him and said, ‘Sorry about your loss

babe.’

He started to kiss her and run his hands over her

body. Things got carried away, they went upstairs to the

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long. He kissed her from head to foot and ran his hands

over her breasts, taking each in his mouth and sucking

and biting them as he went. He let his hand wanderdown between her thighs. When his hand reached what

he was looking for, he found – to his surprise – that she

had very little hair down there. He took a deep breath

and moved down to where his hand was and started

licking and sucking at her clitoris while his finger dug

deeper in her. He was taking her high in the clouds and

letting her fall down before reaching the edge again, and

when she was wet enough he thrust into her with a

vigour that was not expected and fucked her until she

climaxed from a great height. They fell back on the bed

sweating and breathing heavy whilst they lay next to

each other, kissing and cuddling. She said, “I have never

done that before.”

He said “Nor have I, babe. That was fantastic,” and

he held her tight.

During the night they woke up and they continued

where they had left off and saw the sun rise together

through the open window.

When he got up to leave for work that day he said,

“I’ll see you tonight,” and off he went after having a

mug of tea and some toast.He texted her throughout the day saying how much

he enjoyed last night and she said the same. Over the

next few days the relationship grew and they started to

fall in love with each other and get closer as they talked

about loads of things via text and MSN.

They discussed each other’s sexual desires and each

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Chapter 2

It was early August when this all began. Both Mary Jane

and Terrence were enjoying going with the flow and

meeting up regularly to have sex and act out their desires

Terrence was 6ft 2” tall with short, curly, mousy-

brown hair, with hair covering his back and chest. He

had no tattoos but was thinking about getting one.

He was quiet and kept himself to himself and hatedanyone talking about personnel things that had happened

in private, as he believed that what happens in private

stays in private, which Mary Jane agreed with. What

happens behind closed doors stays there unless it is

violence.

Mary Jane stood 5ft 9” tall, she had long blonde hair,

piercing green eyes, a cute little button nose and a smilethat would dazzle a king. She enjoyed a laugh and

playing practical jokes on her friends, she was slightly

plump but liked to be called curvaceous rather than fat.

Mary Jane had had bad luck with previous

relationships and was very cautious with Terrence.

The first official date was splendid. He picked Mary

Jane up and took her out for a meal at a local restaurant.

They ate steak with mushrooms and salad with a glass of

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local beach in the moon light along the water’s edge.

When they were hidden by the rocks that were jutting

out, Terrence laid down a blanket and started a small fireup as they sat and drank more wine on the beach and

talked about life.

There on the beach as they lay next to each other

talking he leaned over and kissed her on the lips, and his

hands started to wander – as they always did – up her leg

and in to her panties. It was dusk and no one was about

on the beach, only the two of them. The passion tookover and they made mad, passionate love there beside

the rocks and as they were in the middle of making love

a wave came crashing in and swept over them and they

ended up soaked from the ocean and love making. As

they finished making love on the beach Terrence told

Mary Jane a little about his past.

He was forty-six years old, had no family and hisonly sibling had fallen out with him and they did not talk

anymore. His ex cheated on him with his best friend and

he had caught them in the act of making love in their bed

at home. He had arrived back from work early and when

he saw them he walked out of the house and left. He

never looked back and moved to Cornwall and that was

nine months before he had met Mary Jane.

Mary Jane had had a similar experience with her

exes. They had all cheated on her, so both Terrence and

Mary Jane knew what it felt like to be cheated on and

both would not do that to each other.

Terrence got to know Mary Jane’s two children,

Michelle and Neville, and they all got on great. They

went on day trips out and holidays away to America and

Canada, and they made love every chance they had. Life

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When Terrence went to work one morning Mary

Jane had a feeling that something was wrong. The night

before, Terrence had mentioned that he had to go awayfor a week for a stag do with his cousin, but now she felt

uneasy and that something just didn’t seem to ring true

about what he had said, so she kept quiet but listened

very carefully to everything that was being or not being

said. That weekend the kids had gone to stay with their

dad and Mary Jane decided to make Terrence’s one

dream come true; to go to a grave-yard and make love on

someone’s grave in the middle of the night. So they left

the house to walk along the coast to find a small, remote

grave-yard that was out of the way and no one would be

going to visit at that time of night.

As they found the grave-yard they walked to the

back, amongst the owls tweeting, the bats flying

overhead and the mice and rats running past their feet as

they walked.

The moon was full that night and the stars were

twinkling brightly. There was a light breeze. As they

reached the back part of the grave-yard they sat down

and started to kiss and fondle each other.

As Mary Jane was fondling Terrence he became hard

and she took him in her hand and placed him inside hermouth. She ran her tongue along the tip and stroked him

up and down, following with him in her mouth at the

same time. She removed his member from her lips and

kissed the end and ran her tongue along the outside edge

so that the breeze caught him after he had been in the

warmth of her mouth. He took a sharp breath in through

gritted teeth and he said that no one had ever given him

one of these before, so she continued to run her lips andmouth along his length until he came with a violent

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pulled her skirt up, ripped her panties off and thrust his

fingers inside her with an unexpected thrust. She yelped

out in shock and delight at the hard invasion.He played with her clitoris with his thumb and fore

finger and went toward her with his tongue as an owl

flew overhead hooting. They were breathing heavily and

perspiring from the anticipation of what was to come.

His tongue flicked in and out of her most intimate place

while his thumb and finger continued to play with her

clitoris. Whilst all her senses were flying high he pulledaway from her and thrust in to her with his engorged

penis. They both yelled out as he entered her in ecstasy.

He thrust in and out, grabbing hold of her legs and

placing them around his neck so he could get deeper

inside her and make her feel the whole length of him

from tip to ground. She ground her hips to his rhythm

and he felt every single millimetre of her sliding up and

down his engorged penis. As they were making love it

started to rain and the drops fell on them, but they were

too engrossed in making love and they never felt the

rain. The thunder and lightning started over head and

this only increased the intense feelings that were flying

within that grave-yard that night. As the thunder gave an

almighty clack they both climaxed together and rode the

wave of emotions back down and laid breathless for anhour, quietly thinking about what had happened.

She rolled over to face him and he was crying

silently into his arm. She leaned over to make sure he

was ok and he said, “Yes, my love, that was the most

emotional sex I have ever had, but I’m sorry, I am going

back to my ewe have been talking recently and that trip

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but I do. I love you both but I have known her for more

than ten years.”

Mary Jane sat up and said calmly “So you’rechoosing the devil you know rather than the devil you

don’t. You know what she did to you last time, she will

only do it again, my love, and you will be the one

hurting as you will have lost one of the best things you

ever had.”

He threw emotional words at her and said “In fact, I

have not stopped seeing her whilst we have beentogether. When I was supposed to be in Canada I was

actually in Bodmin with her the whole time.”

Mary Jane took a deep breath to stop herself from

crying in front of him and said to him, “If you truly

loved her you would not have stayed up late at night

talking to me whilst she lay in bed upstairs and texting

me during the day whilst you were with her.”“Yes, but I do care for you both and I thought I’ll do

to her what she did to me. But I regret hurting you in the

process and I’m not sure if I will tell her I was with you

or not,” Terrence told her.

Mary Jane turned her head from him to compose

herself again before she totally broke down in front of

him. She said to him “You have to listen to your heart,my love, and I knew that was what you were doing the

whole time.”

“How did you know,” he asked.

“Does that really matter?” she said. “I just knew that

you were playing this dangerous game, but you don’t

know the rules and you’re going to end up getting hurt

big time, as she will cheat on you again,” she said.

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Mary Jane stood up and collected her panties that

had been thrown to one side and placed them in her

pocket. She turned to Terrence and said, “You know, Igenuinely loved you and I will always love you and you

were the only one I have let in to my heart in eight

years.”

Terrence said, “I thought you were lying about that.”

“No,” she said. “I was not.”

“I will be here when she hurts you again, my love, as

you will need someone to talk to and to help you throughthe grief that will follow.” She walked over to him, sat

on the floor, leaned over and gave him a kiss on his

cheek and turned to walk away.

When she got home she locked the front door and

climbed in to the shower and cried like a baby under the

droplets of water that fell on her naked body. She

remembered every single touch that she had just feltfrom his hands.

Mary Jane stayed in the shower for an hour just

crying and holding herself tight, thinking to herself what

must she have done to have him do this to her.

When she got out the shower she had missed calls

and messages on her phone from Terrence saying “I’m

sorry babe I feel awful for doing this to you.”

Mary Jane answered with grace and dignity: “I knew

all along that you were playing this dangerous game and

now you have lost and I have won. You have to know

the rules and conditions of any game you choose to play

and you have not researched these. Your loss, my love. I

loved you dearly and I always will.”

As she walked in to the kitchen she smiled to herself.

Terrence had told her he could not have kids but little

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Terrence got up off the ground where he sat and

straightened his clothes and walked back to his car

outside Mary Janes place. As he walked towards herfront door to knock, he saw no lights on and wondered if

she had got home ok. He never knew she was stood

watching him as he turned and got in the car and drove

away.

Mary Jane fell to the floor and curled up, crying

herself to sleep that night on the cold, concrete floor of

the kitchen.


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Chapter 3

Mary Jane woke to the sun rising through the window of

the kitchen and the dogs laid next to her on the floor

keeping her warm. As she stirred, the dogs woke up and

kissed her face to make sure she was ok.

As Mary Jane stood up from the cold floor to make a

hot mug of black coffee and a slice of fruit from the

fridge, the sun shone right in her face and glistened brightly. Mary Jane smiled to herself and thought that

things were going to be better from now on and she

wouldn’t let that bastard beat her into the ground. She

was stronger than that.

Just then the children came in and asked “What’s for

breakfast, Mum?” As Mary Jane started to make the

children’s breakfast she was thinking about what to donext. She thought there is nothing left for me here

anymore and my oldest leaves school this year, so I think

a change of scenery is called for. With that, she placed

bread in the toaster and eggs on the griddle and bacon in

the oven to cook. She went to her iPad and turned it on

and started looking for somewhere to live away from

Camborne. After about 10 minutes there was a place thatcaught her eye, it involved looking after the next door

house for a reduced rent on a farm up near Wade Bridge

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As Mary Jane was looking into it further, she became

aware of an alarm going off in the background and

remembered that she was cooking. “OH shoot!” she said,looking at the burnt eggs and toast in the toaster. As she

threw the burnt food in to the garbage bag to start again

the phone went off, letting her know she had a call.

“Neville, can you do the eggs and toast please, darling? I

must get the phone.”

She picked up the phone and said, “Hello, Smith

residence, can I help you? OH hello…Yes…Speaking.Oh great, yes that would be fantastic! When do you need

me to start and when do I finalize the move to a new

place nearer to work? Oh yes, I will get the information

and get back to you later this afternoon. And thank you

so much.”

As she turned around the children were stood behind

her in the hallway leaning against the kitchen doorframe, waiting to hear what had just happened. She

pointed to the kitchen and said, “Come on, we need to

talk about something important, darlings.”

As they sat down to eat breakfast, Mary Jane sat with

a mug of black coffee in her hands, looking at the floor

and wondering where the hell to start this conversation.

It was going to be hard to tell them they were moving upto Sowerby in West Yorkshire for a job.

She knew Neville would not want to go as he was in

his final year of school, but Mary Jane needed to leave

Cornwall and get away from the memories of the past

twelve months with Terrence.

Neville spoke first and said, “He hurt you didn’t he

Mum?”Mary Jane looked at him with tears in her eyes and

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get away from here and start anew. The phone call I just

had was a job offer in Yorkshire, doing the accounts for

a large commercial farm near the Yorkshire moors, notfar from a place called Sowerby and we can move next

month in to a large for bedroomed house and we don’t

have to get rid of the animals, we can take them all with

us. Only problem is, we have to leave next month and

that means leaving everything we know here in

Camborne. So I would like the both of you to think

about it for me and let me know your answer by 3pm

today please.”

As Mary Jane went about cleaning up the breakfast

dishes, placing them in to the dishwasher and wiping the

sides down, her phone beeped to say Terrence had texted

her.

“I am sorry, babe, I never meant to hurt you. Can we

talk? Can I ring you now?”Mary Jane answered, “If you like, but what is the

point, you made your choice last night.”

When he phoned moments later, Mary Jane

answered the phone with a strict thought in mind: don’t

tell him about the job offer up country, see what he has

to say for himself

“Guten Morgan,” he said.“Good morning, what can I do for you? “She

sounded calmer than she felt, her hands were shaking as

she held the phone to her ear and her legs were going to

give out on her if she didn’t sit down soon. The emotion

was still too raw for her liking but she had to remain

strong and sound as though the information she found

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Mary Jane said, “Do you think that would be wise?

We would only end up in bed making love and that is

not going to sort this shit out, is it my love?”She again referred to what she said the night before,

about how you have to choose which way you want to

go with your head or your heart, and when you have

chosen you need to keep going down that road and not

look back. She said “I have to go right now, I have to

finish doing what I’m doing before it gets worse. Take

care, Terrence, love. You’ve got my phone number ifyou need to talk later.” She put the phone down on him

and finished her cleaning.

When she had finished, the kitchen looked the

cleanest it had ever looked as she had scrubbed the

floors and sides to a bright gleam. You could see your

face in the surfaces.

She sat down with another mug of black coffee andstarted thinking about moving to Yorkshire. It was a big

change but she sure did need to leave the house they

were in.

Just then, the kids came in to the room and said, “We

have thought about what you said, Mum, and we will

move if you really want to go.”

So, the decision had been made; they were moving.Mary Jane picked up her phone to look into the price of

a removal van for all the furniture they had.

After Mary Jane had arranged a price and agreed

with the company that it was ok to drop off the boxes so

they could start packing up the belongings, she returned

the phone call she’d had that morning and confirmed that

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would give them time to unpack most of the stuff in the

house and settle in a little.

Sowerby Dairy Farm sent an email to Mary Janeconfirming the moving date and where the keys would

be upon arrival, so that they could move in on the 28th of

August, as well as the directions to the property and

where they were allowed to go and where the animals

could not go.

The excitement started to grow in the Smith family

as they went about the task of packing their belongings.There was just a week left until the removal van arrived

to collect the stuff and transport it to Yorkshire.

Mary Jane had not heard from Terrence in a few

days. He must have made his decision about staying with

Claire. Mary Jane breathed a sigh of relief as she had no

idea how he would take it that they were moving. She

had felt the baby move for the first time that morningand felt a little bad for not having told him that she was

having his baby. She had not even told her children yet

that there was going to be a new baby and if they knew

they would not let her move furniture around like she

was doing when they were in bed. She also had to make

sure everything was clean before the removal men

arrived to move it into the van to take away.Just then there was a knock on the front door. The

kids had gone to see their friends before they left, they

wanted to spend some time with them and take a break

from packing the house up.

As Mary Jane walked to answer the front door she

stepped back in shock. For who should be there but

Terrence, with a large bunch of roses and a shy grin onhis face. She closed the door behind her and stood on the

doorstep to talk to Terrence so he could not see that they

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to change her mind now and all she wanted to do right

now was run into his arms and cry and tell him she loved

him and that she was pregnant with his child. Shewanted to say that she was sorry but they were moving,

but instead of doing that she stood up tall and took a

deep breath.

“Yes, what can I help you with, Terrence?”

“Can I come in to talk please?” he said.

She looked at the door and thought, if we go inside

we will just end up in bed. “No, I’m decorating the stairsand it is a right mess, let me get my bag and we can go

to Portreath and get a coffee and have a chat there.”

“Ok. These are for you, love. Shall I wait in my car

or are we walking?”

“I think I’ll go in my car and you in yours, then we

don’t have to come back here.”

As Mary Jane walked into the hall to collect her bag,

she saw herself in the hall mirror and thought, I look a

right state. Oh well, it will have to do.

She was wearing a pair of old trousers, trainers and a

grandfather shirt, with her hair scrapped back off her

face into a tight pony-tail down her back. I really should

have my hair cut, she thought as she picked up her bag

and the car keys from the sideboard.

As she walked toward the front door she saw a pen

and some paper and thought, I best leave the kids a note

to tell them where I am and not to worry.

Hi kids. Gone to Portreath for a coffee. Won’t be

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Then she left and walked to her car and noticed

Terrence looking at her as she walked towards where she

was parked on the pavement.I must really look a mess, she thought. I bet he’s

thinking I’m glad I did what I did now.

As Mary Jane started her car Terrence moved his out

of the way so she could pull out without a problem. He

followed her to Portreath and in to the parking space

next to her in the car park near to the cafe where they

would have a coffee.As Mary Jane went to get out of the car, Terrence

stood next to her door as she opened it and got hold of

her hand. He pulled her into his arms and said to her as

he kissed her, “I’m so sorry, love. I made a mistake. I

never should have done that to you. Can you forgive

me?”

Trying to catch her breath, Mary Jane leaned backagainst the car before she fell to the floor and made a

fool of herself for fainting. As she looked up, Terrence’s

face was white.

“What’s the matter, love?” he asked .

“Nothing, why? You just shocked me by grabbing

hold of me like that. I’ll be ok in a minute when I get my

coffee and a cookie. Shall we?” She pointed to the cafeso she didn’t have to push past him.

As she walked towards the cafe he followed next to

her, trying to grab hold of her hand as they walked. This

was unusual as he didn’t like public displays of

affection, so she kept her hands tight on her bag and her

keys.

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was getting too hard to talk without breaking down in

front of him.

It was getting late when their coffee arrived.“Have you eaten today,” he asked.

“Yes, I had some eggs this morning thanks. I’ll be

ok.” She started to pick at the cookie she had ordered,

thinking, if I eat this I will be sick. Her hands were

shaking and her legs felt like jelly under the table. Every

time he looked at her heart missed a beat and she could

feel herself getting hot under the collar, just by lookingat him and remembering the last time they were together.

She saw him looking at her again she smiled and asked if

everything was ok?

“Yes,” he replied. “You look good, you’ve got a

glow I’ve not seen before but you’re shaking like a leaf.

Are you sure you’re ok?”

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Chapter 4

As they were sat in the window talking about the thingsthat had happened, Terrence said, “I love you, babe, you

know that don’t you? But I still love her too and I don’t

know what I am going to do at that moment.”

A seagull flew into the window and made everyone

sat near them jump from the noise it made.

At the back of Mary Jane’s mind, she was thankful for

the distraction the seagull gave her, so that she couldthink what her reply would be to the statement he had

just made. The reply came to her in that instant. They

were leaving on Saturday morning, so she could arrange

to meet up Saturday night to go for a drink and talk

further. She was feeling light headed with him so near.

By the time he found out they had left the area there

would be hundreds of miles between them, and he wouldnot be able to just turn up like he had just done and

shake her world apart like he had. Her strength was

going to kick the proverbial bucket in a minute and walk

out the door and she’d wind up telling him everything,

including about the baby. She still needed to come to

terms with the idea herself as she was only three months

gone and was not yet starting to show, apart from her

skin was glowing and her hair was very shiny and

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She then turned to Terrence and said, “Look, love,

why don’t we go out for a meal on Saturday night as I

will have more time to talk to you then. I have to gethome and finish the decorating before the paint sets in

the tin, as I left the lid off the pot.” She smiled at him to

make him feel that everything was ok and not give off

the impression that she would not be in Cornwall

anymore. By the time he realised she had left they would

be unpacking the kettle and making their first brew in

their new home in Yorkshire. They’d be unpacking their

night clothes and bedding so they could go to bed, before

starting on the unpacking on the Sunday morning.

Terrence smiled at Mary Jane and said, “Yes, that

would be nice. What time shall I pick you up?”

Mary Jane thought for a second and said, “How

about 8pm, love? I’ll book us a table in the restaurant

round the corner. Chinese ok for you, yes?”“Yes,” he replied as he touched her hand which was

laid on the table next to the coffee mug and the cookie

that she had been trying to eat, but felt too sick when she

put any near her mouth.

She wanted him so badly. She could just take him

there and then, but she refrained from doing anything of

the sort. “Well,” she said. “I best get going. I have loadsto do.” This was not a lie by any means, she was just

doing something other than painting. They were

finishing the packing.

As Mary Jane rose to leave the cafe she felt herself

starting to fall towards the floor and she blacked out.

Terrence jumped up and caught her before she hit the

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He realised right there that he loved her more than he

had thought was possible, and he knew in that instant

what he was going to do. When he got home he’darrange to go and talk to Claire about Mary Jane. He had

not told her anything, but Mary Jane knew the whole

truth and yet she had still agreed to go out for a meal

with him on Saturday and she was here right now in his

arms after having spoken to him about it all.

In that instant he was brought back to reality by a

member of staff asking if he needed any help with theyoung lady in his arms, and he thought, oh shit yes, call

an ambulance now.

The staff then took over as he seemed to have lost

the ability to do anything. They laid Mary Jane on to the

floor in the recovery position and waited for the

ambulance to arrive. After what seemed like an hour, the

ambulance arrived and Mary Jane was starting to comearound.

Just as the paramedic was walking in, Mary Jane was

starting to sit up. The paramedic rushed over to her and

said, “Please stay on the floor whilst I do your vitals and

we can chat, ok?” Mary Jane nodded her head to

acknowledge that she understood what he was saying.

She was still feeling light-headed but felt better for being told to stay on the floor. As the paramedic was

taking her blood-pressure and pulse, she looked over to

Terrence and saw how worried and white he looked at

that moment. He turned his head to look directly at her

as she sat on the floor and he mouthed, “Are you ok,

love?” Mary Jane felt faint all over again

Just the paramedic spoke to her, asking questionsabout her health and what she had eaten that day.

Terrence was about to answer about what she had eaten

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eaten for six days. I just feel sick every time I try to put

food near my mouth.”

Terrence looked mad as he realised she had lied tohim about having eaten earlier. Bang goes the idea that

he would let her walk out of the cafe and go home

without him forcing his way in to the house to make sure

she had something to eat. So she sat there hoping that the

paramedic would say that she needed to go to the

hospital to make sure everything was ok, as then it

would be easier to tell Terrence that she was ok to goalone and that she’d see him Saturday night. But he was

watching her with the paramedic and looked stern.

The waitress came over to ask if there was anything

she could do to assist and just as the paramedic was

about to answer, Terrence said, “Can you get me a bowl

of chicken soup and a sweet tea? The waitress looked at

Mary Jane and the paramedic and they both nodded theirheads as if to confirm what he had asked for.

Mary Jane was about to get up off the floor when

Terrence walked over to her, picked her up from the

floor and placed her gently on to a chair at the table

where they were sat previously. He thanked the

paramedic for his help and he looked at her as if to make

sure she was happy with the situation. She nodded at himand smiled.

Just then, the waitress arrived with the sweet tea and

chicken soup and Mary Jane picked up the spoon and

started to eat. As she was eating she realised she was

famished and started eating with a renewed vigour.

Terrence followed the paramedic out of the café,

asking him questions about what would have caused herto black out. The paramedic looked through the window

at Mary Jane as if to check it was ok to answer him. He

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days then that could be the main cause, but there could

be other things at play here. I would advise she visit her

GP in the morning to get checked out. Watch over hertonight, don’t leave her alone, she needs to be with

someone.

When Terrence walked back in, Mary Jane was

passing her bowl to the waitress, smiling at her saying,

“Thank you, that was lovely and the tea is nice. Thank

you for all you did whilst I was on the floor. The

waitress said it was ok and asked if she needed anythingelse at that moment. Mary Jane saw Terrence walking

towards her and she said, “Could I please have a small

bowl of sorbet?” And off the waitress went.

When Terrence arrived at the table he looked at

Mary Jane and said, “The paramedic said I was not to

leave you alone tonight, so I’ll be coming back to yours

to look after you.” Mary Jane turned white again and hecrouched next to her looking worried.

She wondered how the hell she’d get out of this one.

He couldn’t come back to her place as he would see they

had virtually packed up the whole house. She said, “It’s

ok, I have Neville there to look after me.” She gave a

weak smile.

Terrence said, “No way. I’m staying.”Then Mary Jane thought, why not get a bed and

breakfast? That way he would not see the house.

She mentioned it to Terrence and said the paint

fumes would do her no good. Terrence seemed to

consider the idea and smiled. “Ok,” he said. “That

sounds like a good idea. “And so he went off to book a

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Mary Jane thought that once he had fallen asleep she

would sneak off home and hide the car and ignore the

door.By the time he had returned with the keys for the

room, Mary Jane had eaten the sorbet she had ordered.

He gently took her arm and walked her towards the front

door of the cafe to lead her towards the room he had

booked for the night. No sooner had he got her outside,

he grabbed her around the waist, spun her to face him

and started kissing her neck, lips and forehead. She placed her hands on his shoulders to keep from falling to

the ground again and returned the passionate kiss right

outside the front door of the cafe with everyone

watching. He kissed her with an open hunger that she

had not felt before.

He stopped as suddenly as he started and said, “If I

don’t get you to the room now I’m going to take youright now in front of the cafe with all those people

watching us, and that would not be a good idea. We

would get arrested for indecent exposure, my love. Let’s

go shall we?”

Looking up to his eyes Mary Jane smiled and nodded

her head. This was not good. She could feel herself

falling under his spell again and she was so close toleaving. What should she do? There was no other option.

She had to get away now.

He grabbed her hand and started to lead her towards

the chalets on the beach behind the café. He opened the

first door he came to, picked her up and carried her in to

the room. He placed her gently on the bed. She lay there

looking up at him as he walked back towards the door to

lock it and close the drab curtains that were up against

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As he walked over to her he turned the bed-side lamp

on that was next to where she was laying, he sat down

gently and started to stroke the hair out of her eyes soshe could see better, and he saw her pale face looking up

at him with expectations that he was not sure he could

fulfil. She was not aware of the look on her face as she

watched him moving around the room.

He went over to where the tea facilities were on the

table across the room from the bed, he switched the

kettle on and proceeded to make some sweet tea for herto drink. Whilst he waited for it to boil he went in to the

bathroom and started to run a hot bath for her, as her

makeup was streaming down her cheeks from when she

had been crying whilst she was out of it on the floor.

As Mary Jane watched him move around the room

with a svelte ease, she dreamed of what his reaction

would be if she told him right now that she was pregnantwith his child.

Her eyes started to droop and she fell asleep right

where she had been placed. The next thing she knew was

Terrence waking her up with a hot sweet tea. He said,

“Your bath is ready, my love. Drink up your tea and let’s

get you in that bath to wash all that dirt you have on your

face.”She sat up, took the mug from him and started to

drink; it was hot and sweet. She looked at him and asked

how long she’d been asleep.

“Oh, not long, love. Only about an hour. I was sat

here.” And he pointed to the side of the bed next to her.

“I laid holding you in my arms, watching you sleep like

a baby.”His eye twinkled like stars as he watched her

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bed holding the mug with both hands and blowing the

steam so she could take a drink without burning herself

on the hot tea.He looked so content as he sat there watching her

watch him whilst she drank her tea. As she finished her

tea she went to lean over and place the mug on the

bedside table when he took it from her hands and placed

it on the table nearest to him. He gently pushed her back

on to the bed and laid next to her, pinning her to the bed

with a gentle but heavy weight so she could not move.She didn’t want to move.

His hands started to run along the top of her clothes,

towards her breasts under her shirt. He touched them

gently and said they felt different to the last time he

tasted them. He smiled as he kissed her with a fever of

need that was trying to get out, he wanted to take her

right there, to rip every piece of clothing off her bodyand keep her in that room forever.

Just then he stopped kissing her and jumped off the

bed. He walked around and picked her up. She looked at

him in a questioning way. “What the hell are you doing

now look?”

He walked into the bath room and placed her on her

feet next to the steaming bubble bath. When he had gotthe bubble bath and the warm towels, she thought

through a fog in her mind.

He slowly started to undress her, taking off her shirt

with ease, button by button. Her breathing grew with

each button he undid, as he got to the button on her jeans

he kissed her nose and undid the jeans and slid them

down her legs to the floor, leaving her stood in themiddle of the room in just her bra and panties. Thank

God they were new and not the old ones she had on

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Chapter 5

He stood looking at her standing in the middle of the

room wearing her peach bra and panties and saw her

rounded breasts breathing heavily; up and down they

went. He walked over and pulled her hair loose from the

hair clip that held it and watched as her hair cascaded

down her back. He put his arms around her as he undid

her bra, from behind he kissed her neck as he unfastenedthe clasps that held it in place.

He then started to crouch in front of her as he pulled

her panties down her legs. Mary Jane stood there unable

to move an inch, her heart was missing too many beats,

if she moved she would fall to the floor and that would

not be good.

As his fingers tugged the panties down him followedwith gentle kiss along her stomach and down her thighs.

He stopped just above her pubis and blew gently on it,

making her shiver with delight and anticipation. He then

lifted each foot so as to remove the panties completely.

He threw them to one side where he had thrown the rest

of her clothes and she stood in front of him in her

birthday suit, her hair cascading down her back. His eyesran all over her body, making her feel uneasy at being

looked at like that. He turned to face the bath and placed

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child in so as not to get burnt. She remembered doing

this for her kids when they were small.

He turned suddenly, making her jump out of her skinat his sudden movement. He swept her off her feet and

placed her in the bath and proceeded to undress himself

and climb in the tub after her. He found the soap on the

side and proceeded to wash her arms, legs, feet and

between her thighs. Every single touch felt as though she

was going to explode, she tried to hold her breath when

he said, “Breathe, baby. Don’t pass out on me again. Icould not handle that twice in one day. You scared the

hell out of me. Why did you lie and say you had eaten

this morning? You said you had not eaten in six days.

Mary Jane looked at the water and said to the

bubbles, “I just can’t seem to face eating right now, but I

enjoyed that soup you ordered and I ate it all like a good

girl.” She smiled at him and he seemed to breathe a sighof relief.

“Well,” he said, “please eat or you will get ill and I

don’t want that, ok?”

She smiled and laid back in the water. He stood up

and moved to sit behind her so he could wash her hair

and caress her breasts from behind.

My god, he thought, have they grown or am Iimagining it? He shook the thought out of his mind and

carried on washing her body, every single inch that he

could and some more just for the hell of it. He was

enjoying this.

When he had finished, she was breathing gently and

he thought she had fallen asleep, so he just held her close

to his body as if it was the last thing he would ever do.He heard his heart say, “Don’t you ever let her go, you

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does and you will never feel this way again and if you let

her go what is the point of carrying on without her in

your life?”Then he slipped under the water and woke with a

fright. Had he dreamed that or was it real? As he looked

around the room he thought, where the hell am I? He

saw her stood in the doorway, wrapped in a towel, still

wet and with a white face. He smiled and breathed again,

he had not realised he had been holding his breath. He

stood up, showing himself in all his glory and he lookedat where she was looking and saw his engorged penis

standing to attention.

He stepped out of the bath tub and she backed away

from him as if she was scared of what he was going to

do. He said, “Are you ok, love?” She smiled and nodded

but turned to walk towards the bedroom and started to

get dressed. He went in after her and said, “Just lay nextto me please. I need to hold you.”

She sat on the edge of the bed and he pulled her in to

his arms and curled around her, pinning her to the bed.

She squealed with laughter and let herself go limp in his

arms. He placed his lips on her throat and blew gentle

kisses and his hands started to wander as if they had a

life of their own. He cupped her breasts in his hands, placed one in his mouth and started sucking hard. He

caressed her hair with his other hand clamping hands full

and pulling her head backwards. He knew he was being

rough but he needed that right now. God how he had

missed doing this to her over the last few weeks. He

thought, my God I love this girl so much it hurts like

hell.

As he continued, she started to respond to his touch

and started to writhe and groan. He moved his mouth

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Savage would be a word you could use for how rough he

was. But she responded to every bit of it with as much

vigour as he.Her hands started to rub up his back towards his neck

and she played with the hair on the back of his head,

pulling it away from her and making him groan as much

as she was.

He suddenly pinned her deeper into the bed, pulled

her legs apart and knelt between them, kissing inside her

thighs. He then got off the bed and pulled out the curtaincords and tied her gently to the bed. He laid her spread-

eagled across the bed. He started at her feet and worked

his way up to her breasts and her mouth, then he moved

her legs apart with his knees and he thrust inside her.

Strong and wild, he rode her like never before and she

yelled out in glory as she climaxed within seconds of

starting. He then climaxed seconds later and lay on topof her. He undid her bonds and she placed her hands

around him as he lay on top of her. They fell asleep for a

few hours as they lay together. A few hours later she

woke up feeling stiff and pinned. She realised he was

still laying on top of her, so she gently moved from

under him and went to the toilet. She then promptly got

her clothes and got dressed. She kissed him gently on his

forehead and said quietly, “I love you, Terrence, with allmy heart. But you killed me when you did what you did

and I’m not sure I can ever trust you again, my love.

Live a safe, long life and be happy. I love you.”

She sneaked out of the room and ran to her car in the

parking lot and drove away as fast as she could without

waking anyone up.

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walked in they said, “Are you ok, Mum? You’ve been a

long time.

“Yes, darlings,” she replied. “I’m on. Come on, let’sgo to bed and finish this off in the morning before the

removal men arrive, ok?”

“Do you want a cup of tea before bed, Mum?

Michelle asked her.

“Oh, yes please, darling. Can you bring it up? I’m

going to get in to my night clothes and climb in to bed.”

“Ok, Mum. I’ll bring it up for you.”

“Love you!” they both said at the same time as she

walked out of the kitchen towards her bedroom.

“Love you too, babies,” she shouted back to them

with a smile on her face. She thought how lucky she was

to have such great kids.

The next morning, Mary Jane woke at 4am to the sun

rising and smiled as she saw her cup of tea next to her

bed. Cold. Aw, bless them, she thought.

She climbed out of bed, got dressed and went

downstairs to find that the kids had finished packing and

just left out three mugs, the coffee and toaster with bread

for breakfast. She threw the cold tea out and washed hermug to make a fresh drink. She sat down looking out the

back door whilst the dogs were having a wee.

She listened to the local radio until the children got

up and the removal men arrived. Then all hell let loose.

She made the drinks and toast, the removal men got to

work removing all the boxes and furniture and stacking

it in the back of the van they had arrived in. As theywere finishing loading the van, Mary Jane put the dogs

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Neville asked if he could drive with the van and

Michelle stayed with Mary Jane. When they were

finished, Mary Jane walked around the house makingsure nothing was missed and then walked out the front

door and locked it. She then hugged her daughter and

said, “Come on, babe, let’s start the next chapter in our

lives.” And she drove away from the house towards the

landlords to return the key and give him her address to

forward any mail she may receive.

As she left the key and got back in the car, she drovetowards Portreath to take one last look at the ocean as it

would be awhile before she would see it again.

As she drove down the hill towards the sea front she

saw Terrence’s car, still in the car park, and realised this

was risky. She drove straight past and silently blew him

a kiss and said, “Farewell my love, you’ll understand

one day and I love you always.”Just then as she drove past she saw him walking

towards his car looking mad. He turned to look and it

seemed as though he had seen her. She panicked but kept

on driving, saying a pray under her breath as she hit the

A30.She knew he had not seen her and was thankful.

As she drove along the A30 she said, “Let’s get a

coffee, babe.” and pulled in to McDonalds at IndianQueens. Also known as hamburger hill to the locals.

They ordered the coffee and something to eat and

they carried on the long journey to Yorkshire. As she

drove, the tears started to flow down her face. She

wondered if she had done the right thing by leaving

without saying a word to Terrence.

The sun was shining down that day, but a dark cloud passed over the sun as they left the A30 and drove on to

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Chapter 6

Whilst Mary Jane and Michelle were driving up the M6

towards Yorkshire, listening to The Rose on CD, both

crying for their own reasons, Mary Jane squeezed

Michelle’s hand and said, “It will all work out, babe.

Come on, chin up, we will be fine.”

But back in Cornwall, Terrence had found out that

Mary Jane had gone. The house was empty and she hadleft nothing. It looked as though she had never existed or

lived here.

He fell to his knees and held his head in his hands,

he let out a childlike wail, looking up to the sky as if

shouting to him above. He says, “Why? What am I going

to do now? I have lost the one thing I never should have

let go and I realise that now! Oh my God! Mary Janesaid I would regret it one day and now she’s gone.”

He sat on the porch of Mary Jane’s house crying and

rocking himself back and forth until it turned to dusk and

Mary Jane’s neighbour came over with a mug of tea and

a blanket and sat next to him. She placed a hand on his

knee and asked, “Are you ok, dear? I saw you here

alone.”He looked up at her with a swollen face from crying;

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dripping off his chin like a waterfall. He pulled his legs

inward and curled up, crying even harder than before,

because someone was being nice to him when it was hisown fault that he had lost the love of his life. He now

knew what he had to do, but where to begin he had no

idea.

Carol put her hand on Terrence, pulled him nearer to

her and held him in her arms whilst he cried himself to

sleep on that cold porch. The rain started to fall and the

thunder arrived, the storm went on for hours as if all theanger needed to be shown to everyone. This young

man’s heart had been broken.

A couple of hours later Terrence stirred and he

opened his eyes thinking the arms around him belonged

to Mary Jane and he grabbed her to pull her closer to

him. He heard Carol say, “No dear, I’m not Mary Jane!”

He sat up bolt upright and apologised to her andstarted to rock again. She said, “Come on, let’s go make

another drink and talk about it.” She stood up and held

out her hand to lead him away from the cold, wet porch

they had been sitting on.

As he sat on the kitchen chair in Carol’s house,

waiting for her to pass him a hot sweet tea, he smiled at

her and said, “I’m sorry for showing myself up andthank you for all your kindness.” She smiled back at him

and said it was ok.

She said, “What happened between you two? You

both seemed so happy and then you just left without

warning and now Mary Jane has left.”

He looked at her with fresh tears rolling down his

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With that, Carol passed Terrence his drink, sat next

to him and held his hand. She said, “Come on, dear, let it

all out, you will feel better for it. A problem shared is a problem halved.” And with that he started to cry freely

again.

Suddenly he turned to Carol and said to her, “You

know, Mary Jane was my hero and everything I wish I

could be. She gave me unconditional love and when I

cheated on her with my ex and walked away from her

and the kids I left my heart with her. I now know that Inever should have let her go. What am I going to do?”

Carol said, “What you’re going to do, my dear, is

you’re going to drink that tea and have something to eat,

then you’re going to start looking for her and run as fast

as you can to sort this out and if you’re meant to be

together, you will be with her soon.”

“I don’t even have a picture of Mary Jane and thekids,” he said.

Carol said, “I have one here you can have, my dear,

but you have to rest and get dry, ok?” And with that,

Carol showed him to the couch and pulled a clean, dry

blanket out. “There you go, get some sleep and you can

start in the morning. “He sat on the couch and Carol

placed the blanket over him and he fell asleep with tearsrolling down his face again.

Terrence slept fitfully, he kept waking up and

looking for Mary Jane in the room, but he never saw her.

He thought he saw her once, stood by the back door

waving at him saying, I’m here my love, come get me

and make it all right, and with that she turned and

walked away in to the clouds.He watched the sun rise out of the black sky and turn

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from a distance harmony crossed over him and the hope

came in to him that he would find Mary Jane and make

everything right. He would never let her go again, hewould never let her out of his sight and he would be

romantic, loving and attentive to her every need.

Meanwhile, Mary Jane, Michelle and Neville arrived

at the new house in Yorkshire. The storm had arrived

there too, it was tipping it down as they opened the front

door and every one ran indoors, including the dogs. They

searched the house and looked in all the rooms.The house was huge and the kitchen was a dream. A

huge farmhouse kitchen with an AGA and huge

windows overlooking the fields where the dogs would be

running free in the morning.

Then Mary Jane heard a squeal of delight come from

upstairs that sounded like Michelle. She ran out the

kitchen and upstairs to where the sound had come fromand found Michelle running around a room with a smile

on her face and she said, “Mum, can I have this room

please? Look at it, it’s huge and it’s got a dressing room

for all my clothes. Please Mum can I have it? Please?”

Mary Jane smiled at her and said, “Yes of course you

can, darling.” And with that Mary Jane walked off to

search all the other rooms. She found what would be herroom, it over-looked the back of the house and fields,

they went for as far as the eye could see and just when

you could see no further a forest appeared on the edge

and went until you could see no further. Right then, as

she looked out of the window, a fork of lightning

appeared over the trees and her heart missed a beat and

made her feel faint. She sat in the middle of the floor and

curled up and cried until she was spent.

From outside, Mary Jane heard the removal men

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wrong. They looked at Mary Jane and said, “This

weather is not the best, love. Would it be ok for us to

wait until morning to start bringing in the furniture?”“Yes, sure,” she said, and offered them a drink of tea

and they all walked in the house for a drink. Neville said

that he’d get some bedding sorted and disappeared out of

sight.

As Mary Jane and the removal men sat talking about

where the furniture would go, a peace fell over her and

she felt content for the first time in weeks.The removal men left to find somewhere to sleep and

left Mary Jane and the children wandering round an

empty house.

As they curled up in the lounge that night they all

fell asleep quickly. Mary Jane had a fitful sleep, it was as

if she was feeling Terrence’s feelings as well as her own

and she wondered what he was doing right now.Terrence was sat on the couch at Carol’s house

thinking exactly the same as Mary Jane, watching the

storm overhead, and he too fell asleep once more.

Mary Jane woke to the birds singing. The storm had

ended. As the sun rose up from behind the forest over

the way she sat up slowly thinking, I could put a huge

Christmas tree in that window and leave the curtainsopen so we can see the snow in the background, how

nice that would look.

She stood up and walked in to the kitchen to make a

coffee and open the doors to let some fresh air in to the

house. It smelled a little musty from not being lived in,

the dogs ran outside in to the field and Mary Jane stood

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Just then, she heard a knock on the front door, she

jumped, thinking, he can’t have found me so soon. She

went to answer the doorIt was the removal men. “Morning, love,” they said.

“We’re here to unpack the furniture for you.” And with a

smile, she let them in.

Neville and Michelle walked in to the kitchen and

said, “Can we go investigate, Mum? We want to see

where the local shops and stuff is.”

“Yes, sure, darling. When you find the shop, can you bring some stuff back with you?” She gave them a list of

what was needed and gave them some money. Off the

kids went to find out what there was to do.

The removal men walked in with the first bit of

furniture and smiled as they walked past Mary Jane to

place it where it should go. And that was how the day

went; unpacking and moving furniture around until itwas put where it should be.

It was around mid-afternoon when Mary Jane heard

the phone go, she ran to answer it and found it was Carol

who was calling her. Oh dear, she thought, something

must be wrong for her to call, I only gave her the number

for emergencies.

“Hi Carol. How are you, darling? Yes it’s greatthank you, the house is fantastic, you will have to come

and visit us. What about coming up for Christmas? We

would love to have you here and bring in the New Year

as a family. Yes, that would be great, so let me know if

you’re going to come and stay with us.”

Carol said, “I need to talk to you, babe. Terrence was

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“Well,” Carol said, “He stayed here on my couch. He

was in a real mess, he was sat crying on your porch all

day. I went out when the storm arrived and sat with himwhilst he cried and brought him home and gave him a

blanket, and he cried himself to sleep on my couch. He’s

upstairs now in the shower. Can you please talk to him?”

Mary Jane wanted to shout no, but she said, “I can’t

talk to him right now, Carol. I need some time to sort

myself out and think things through.”

“But he loves you, Mary Jane.”“If he loved me, Carol, he would not have cheated on

me would he? I bet he’s still with Claire and he will be

going back to her after he leaves your place. Carol please

don’t tell him where we are, I can’t deal with all this

right now, and I need some space. Please, Carol.”

“Yes, Mary Jane, I promise I won’t say anything

about where you are, love.”Just as Carol said that, Terrence walked in and

realised she was talking to Mary Jane and knew that

Carol knew where she was.

Carol quickly ended the call and turned to Terrence

and smiled at him, hoping he had not figured out who

she was talking to just then.

“Everything ok, dear? Do you feel better for that

shower? How about a bacon sandwich? That will help

you start the day right.” She said as she turned to walk in

the kitchen to start cooking the bacon.

“Where is she, Carol? Please tell me. I know you

were just talking to her.”

Carol stopped what she was doing and turned to facehim. She said, “Dear, I made a promise not to tell you

and I cannot and will not break that promise. I hope you

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Terrence smiled at her and said, “Shall I make the

tea?” And he walked over to the kettle to turn it on, but

in his mind he was thinking, how can I make her slip upand tell me where she is?

They sat down at the table to eat their sandwiches.

When they had finished, Terrence cleaned the dishes

away and put them back in the cupboard for Carol, and

he said to her, “Thank you for everything you did for me

last night, you don’t know how much it actually meant to

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Chapter 7

As the day was coming to an end, Mary Jane could see

the house coming together. All the furniture was in place

now and all they had to do was unpack the clothes and

ornaments and go shopping for food. Then she could

make a proper meal in the new house. But Neville had

brought the shopping home for today and that would be

enough to have something to eat tonight and go shoppingtomorrow.

Neville and Michelle were upstairs putting the

curtain up at the windows and Mary Jane was just about

to start cooking the dinner. She got out the mince and

onions to start frying them, she opened a bottle of red

wine whilst she cooked and went about her chores.

Around an hour later, Mary Jane was just putting thefinishing touches to the salad to go with the lasagne she

had just made. She went and set the table for them to eat

on and called the kids down to come and eat as dinner

was ready. The children came downstairs laughing at

what they were doing and ran in to the kitchen, nearly

knocking Mary Jane over. She nearly dropped the dinner

but she smiled because they seemed happy

As they sat down to dinner that night it was nearly

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they were out investigating the area. They both started to

talk at the same time and they fell about laughing.

It turned out that the shop was further away than theythought, but it was a nice village when they found it.

There was a lovely little pub where they could go for

lunch one day and a corner shop that sold the basics.

They had met up with some of the kids in the area and

made a couple of new friends and asked if it was ok for

them to go and meet them the next day.

Mary Jane said it was ok to go but she had to go tothe supermarket to get some food in, as they would

starve otherwise, and that was how the meal continued;

full of laughter and giggles and talking about what they

were going to be doing over the next few weeks.

Mary Jane went upstairs around 10pm that night and

climbed into the shower. She stood under the flow of

water, as it touched her body and she started to wash herhands, she let them wander between her thighs and she

played with herself under the warm flow of water

cascading down her body. She felt the baby move inside

her and her hands wandered up to her breasts and she

fondled them and massaged them and ran her hands

across her stomach. She stayed in the shower for an hour

and satisfied her needs, but she wished Terrence wasthere to share this with her and she released the tears that

she didn’t know she had been holding in, and cried till

she was exhausted and cold.

She got out of the shower, dried herself and put on

her night dress. She climbed in to bed and cried herself

to sleep, holding the pillow he had slept on the last time

he was with her at her old house in Cornwall.

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“Where were you last night and the night before?”

she shouted.

He turned around to make the tea and smiled as hesaid, “I was with the girl who I love more than I ever

loved you.” He turned to see her reaction to the

statement he had just made and her face fell.

She stopped shouting and whispered her reply.

“What do you mean by that remark?” she asked. As she

looked at him with wide eyes, a single tear rolled down

her cheek. He started to tell her everything that hadhappened since he moved to Cornwall the year before.

He started at the beginning when she had cheated on

him with one of her co-workers from the factory they

had both worked at.

“Well,” he said, “you never turned up for work that

day. In truth you had not told me that you had changed

your shift, so when you had not turned up, I came tocheck everything was ok with you and when I walked in

the house I heard noises from upstairs and went to see

where it was coming from. I walked in to the bedroom to

see you sat on top of him, riding him like a wild pony

and you were shouting out, yes, yes! We never had sex

like that, so why with him?” he asked. He then continued

with what he was saying to her. “I walked out of thehouse, got in the car and went to Cornwall that day and

never came back to you. I was hurt and didn’t know

what I was going to do after what I had just seen, so I

went to stay with my family and found a job. I worked

hard for the first few months, I only ate, slept and

worked and then I decided to sign up for a dating

website and got talking to a girl on there, she was called

Mary Jane. She had two children and we talked late in to

the night and then texted and emailed each other over the

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the first time, sat on that bench wearing those jeans and

that t-shirt, I fell in love with her instantly and knew that

it was going to be a strong bond.”Claire found her voice and said, “But it takes you

ages to fall in love and you fell for her instantly?”

“Yes,” he said, “I did, but I never realised that until

the other day when she passed out on me in the cafe we

were at whilst you were at work. I booked us in to a bed

and breakfast that night on the sea front and I made

passionate love to her in the bathroom and on the bed.That night I slept in her arms and woke with her and

made love to her again before I left.

He had lied about that, as in reality, Mary Jane was

the one who had left in the early hours without saying a

word to him, and she had then left Cornwall and that had

killed him inside. He knew at that moment that he must

have really hurt her, for her to pack up and leave withouttelling anyone where she was going, apart from Carol,

who he really must go and see again to see if he can

make her slip up about Mary Jane’s whereabouts.

As he continued to tell Claire that he has been seeing

Mary Jane for twelve months, he told her about the sex

they had together and said, “I have never made love with

that much passion before and I probably never willagain.”

Claire picked up on the never will again part of the

conversation. She smiled and said to him, “You lost her,

didn’t you?”

He said, “No, I have not, I will find her and make her

see that I am sorry for everything I have done to hurt her.

“He said to Claire, “I would like to say I’m sorry to you, but I won’t, as you started this and I made the mistake of

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When Jim saw what Mary Jane was wearing he

smiled and said, “Aye girl, too much,” and laughed.

She said, “Yes, I know that now, you fool.Tomorrow I will wear jeans, ok?”

“Aye, girl, that would be better.” Off he went to

show her around the building and where she would be

working from that day. He said,“…and when the wee

one comes we can move everything over to your place

and you can work from home if you like, just till you can

come back here.” They went for a coffee and to chatabout what needed to be done that day.

Whilst Mary Jane and Jim were drinking their

coffee, Jim said, “Do you mind if we call you MJ from

now on? It’s just easier to call you that if we need you

for anything.”

“Sure,” she said, and from that day everyone knew

her as MJ and no one ever mentioned the full name ofMary Jane again.

By the time MJ had sat at her desk she thought, this

is going to be a job and a half. She laughed to herself

because the person who had done it recently had made a

few mistakes that MJ needed to sort out before she could

do this year’s accounts. She made a start on the task that

needed to be sorted first and she worked until 5.30pmthat day and took some work home with her so she could

get ahead of the game as she needed to start this year’s

accounts.

When she got home from work her house was full of

people she did not know. She smiled; that’s my kids for

you, she thought, inviting everyone back for dinner. She

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Carol shouted down the phone to her, “Are you ok,

dear? I’m sorry but I have let it slip, he knows where you

are but not your address. I only said you were nearSowerby in Yorkshire. MJ spoke further with Carol and

told her not to worry about it and made sure Carol was

alright. She eventually ended the call and went in to the

kitchen to get a glass of red wine. She sat at the table

thinking about everything and going over what should,

could or would have happened if only she had done this

or done that. When she finally went to bed it was after

midnight, she climbed in to bed and slept a deep and

meaningful sleep, she must have needed it, for she felt a

million times better knowing that he knew she was safe

now.

She climbed out of bed and put on her jeans, trainers

and a jumper, also a hat, scarf and gloves and took the

dogs out for a walk in the woods. As she entered the

woods it had just started to snow and it was bitter cold

that day.

She spent hours walking the dogs and ended up in

the village where she got herself a coffee and something

to eat. Then, realising she had left her purse at home she

spoke to Dave (the owner) and asked if it was ok to send

Neville back with the money.

Dave said to her, “Aye, love. Sure, that’ll be fine.

Should you be out in your condition in this weather?”

“Oh, get away with ya, Dave,” she said. “I’m

pregnant not dying.” She laughed and they sat down

what is the point without love?

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