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A world we don’t own!
By: Samah Saleh
It is my pleasure to share with you some thoughts and ideas from
my fieldwork notes about women experiencing absence between Israeli
prisons and the occupied Palestinian territory. This reflection is
through my PhD research as I follow the life journey for Palestinian
women who have been released from Israeli prisons, by looking into
their life before, during and after imprisonment.
Today I am going to share with you stories from women talking about
their imprisonment experience, which reflects different experiences of
absence. In the first half of the paper, I will be looking into the
different mediation that builds the bridges between the prison and the
outside world… In the second half of the paper I will be looking at
their experience when they leave prison and return to normal life.
I am going to use cartoons from Mohammad Sabaaneh who painted them while he
was imprisoned and succeeded in sending them to his family and
he finished the paintings after his 6 months of administrative detention.
I know that I am talking about women‘s experiences, but I think these
images can reflect the ideas and thoughts that all prisoners have and can
complete the story.
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Let me start with Rula, who was imprisoned for ten years.
I remember everything about my imprisonment experience it is not easy at all to
forget this experience, when you are locked between four
walls and your life is stolen. You don’t own anything other than the
images from the past because you don’t have present. Your present is
confiscated and closed and your future is indefinite… everything stuck
in your brain and you just keep it… prison is a really hard experience
inhuman, at the end human wasn’t created to be locked it was created
to be free
Let’s imagine how we will be in prison! Prison is a complete isolation;
you are surrounded with high walls; the surveillance system is part of
your daily life, cameras, guards, and investigations. Your movements
are limited to a small room that you share with other people; you have
45 minutes to see the sun or to breathe. Prisoners call this time
“FORAH” “release time”, there is a wire between you and the sky so
still you can’t feel it or see it clearly.
What are the things, then, that mediate or serve as some kind of a
bridge between inside and outside/between absence and presence? Perhaps the
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first and most important thing is family visits:
Family visits are limited and can happen every three to four weeks
if the person is lucky. These visits are through windows so there are
no real interactions because this visit is under surveillance, Manal
who was imprisoned for seven years is a mother of four and described
this first visit for her children “I got a family visit after so many
weeks…it was my children, my youngest was five years…she was in
shock… when she saw me she started to cry, she wanted to come to me…we had
glassed window, she got the phone the only way we can hear each other…. I started to
sing a song she likes… she was putting her hands
and fingers on the window trying to touch my face, I felt it… she
started to kiss me…. I was shaking I started to give her kisses… I had
tears on my eyes…. the phone was cut and lights turned off… she was
waving to me and crying when she left”
The second way of mediating absence: Radio and TV. Radio is one of
the most important pieces of technology for prisoners as it is the
only way they can learn about the outside world, and then to add to
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their imagination and to develop the images they have about their own
life after imprisonment. It is also the only way they can listen to
special programs that their families can call and send them voice
massages and update them about the family news and condition of the
surrounded…. Each prisoner can own a small radio with which they can
search some Arabic channels to follow the news and to listen to family
greetings program, and to listen to other things like the following
cartoon which represents the way prisoners follow a football game and
each one comments according to the way they imagine the game.
Also each room has a television set with few channels, which the
Israeli prison Authority choose for prisoners but this can be the only
window to see how the outside world is. When the prison Authority want
to make any pressure on prisoners they confiscate all the radios and
TVs and they stop the family visits so these windows looking to the outside
world will be closed and they will be in total isolation…and left with
their memories and thought about the absent life of the outside.
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Another way of making contact with the outside world/what they are
missing is the role of new prisoners in refreshing imagination and
memory.
Routine is a major thing in prison as women have told me, when they
started to repeat their stories and memories…. But when a new woman
arrives things change…new stories and images they can use to fill the
gap in their imaginations, which generate their memories about spaces
and people, even though it is painful…. this “newcomer” as they call
them made them happy. Lenan said: you could see how happy and excited we were
when a new prisoner come, we always wait for those people, we
wait them because we know they will tell us how the life looks like
outside of prison, how the life is developed and how the different
cities start to look like, and then we started to use our imaginations
of how Nablus look like for example, what new roads they opened what
new cafe, how people changed what fashion they wear… so we start our
game by imagining that we are in this cafe and we start to act as it
is exactly according to the girl descriptions… we use to feel happy
even it is just our imaginations.
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Lets move to look at women experience when they get out of prison and
back to life
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Women leave prison so excited to go back to their own lives and
continue the dreams that were on hold for so many years… they don’t
realize things would change because they are living in complete
isolation, even if they were trying to follow the changes of the
outside world through stories they heard or radio programs or TV. They
are prepared theoretically, but the reality is a completely different
story. Most of the women were focusing on how space is completely
different, people are different, and even the political vocabulary is
different. They describe their feelings and respond to all of these
accelerated changes in the outside space. We felt a gap? To what does
this gap refer? What exactly did they find out they had ‘missed’/been
absent from? The point is that you don’t know what you are missing
while you are missing it/you don’t know what you are absent from while
you are absent. It is only when you are out that you fill in the
‘gaps’…Can this gap mean the presence of their memories from their
past.
As we all know things change quickly and we can realize it
because we can see it and also take part of it even if we are not in
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some spaces but technology facilitates this for us but not for those
women prisoners who live in complete isolation.So this experience of
release can cause a gap for women especially those who have been in
prison for so many years…. Women prisoners experienced absence and presence of
many things.
In Ramallah which I would characterize, in general/broadly speaking, as
'the absence of a world that they own':
This may take the form of an absence of familiarity and familiar
social relations: Hanan who considered from the returnee “A’deen” and
was imprisoned for 5 years in the early 80s and then exile for 18
years, said: “we people of Ramallah use to know each other, even people
from Al-Berih we knew them… I was craving to come back to Ramallah
after all these years… but when I was back, I felt… and said… no it is
not Ramallah that I wanted, people use to know each other, there are a
lot of random building, streets are dirty, people you don’t know….
Never accepted the place in the beginning but now I am use to it now”
The skyline of Ramallah for example changed dramatically in the decade
following the Oslo accords, Liza Taraki argued in her study, the
arrival of PA led to the surprisingly rapid elaboration of a new
globalized urban middle-class lifestyle, which found its most
hospitable terrain in Ramallah. Many of the new higher-ranking
bureaucrats were PLO figures and allowed to enter the West Bank and
Gaza after decades of exile. These returnees (‘A’ideen), while small in
number, made their imprint on Ramallah’s cultural and social scene
through their outlook and lifestyles, all of which contributed to the
elaboration of the urban and modernist they had imbibed in Beirut,
Tunis, and other Arab cities.
Rula was imprisoned in the first Intifada and then released after
Oslo. She heard about all of the changes of Ramallah, and also described
the absence of a world that she once owned, and which was once
familiar. In the following quote, Rula refers not just to the changed
physical and social organization of the occupation, but also of the
political language that was used to describe it: I felt hug gap…
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before prison the social life and the economy was really simple, the
occupation was inside our cities and villages and streets, I was
seeing the Israeli Jeeps it was like good morning for me… the life was
really simple in the first Intifada, we were released five years after
Oslo to find the division of opinions between people with Oslo against
Oslo… with suicide bombers and against… there was a social gap between people,
and the structure changed a lot. A lot of people become a PA employees… phone and
mobiles were new… new cars all this is different from our imagination and
preparation in prison… we were released to a globalized world…. I always say out of
my house is a world I don’t own… I don’t like this situation in the city… I don’t
know people.
This 'division of opinions between people', of a changed political
terrain which was reflected in a changed political vocabulary, were
also clear to Abeer after five years of imprisonment between 92 to 97
said when I was released it was really hard to find Abou Amar (Arafat)
in Ramallah, this shift was really hard as much as the interrogation
period for me in prison, I never understood the situation and
conditions I was released to, it was completely strange place for
me…. We lived really hard period not easy at all… in 1992 it was the
first Intifada and in 1997 the Palestinian Authority… concepts changed
we cant use words like enemy about Israel anymore and a lot of
concepts disappeared.
Women who have been imprisoned in the second Intifada had similar
experiences, that Second Intifada created another change for Ramallah
the intensification of the spatial regime of cantonization, Ramallah’s
status as city apart has been consolidate. Since 2000 it has become
more socially heterogeneous than it was at the onset of the Oslo
process and the closure of the cities that made a lot of people from
all over the West Bank and Gaza live in Ramallah.
So I want to say a few words in conclusion. Clearly, many things are difficult
for the women when they first come
out of prison. It affects them for example at a bodily/sensory level.
Heyam told me that the first month was really difficult I did not like
to go anywhere… I was in a complete quietness in prison we never heard
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cars or children’s noises there are no noises… and it was quite long
period and then to be released to all this sounds and clutter city…
With time however, the women begin to be present in the society to
which they have returned in different ways.
Nevertheless, their own experiences in prison still follow them; their
imagination about other prisoners and moments they shared and they
consider that other people don’t understand their feelings. Abeer who felt the
loss of her prison friends said at that time I was wishing to go back
to prison I know there is nothing worse than prison but that was my
wish… I felt I am stranger with this people… For a sudden you are
separated from the other girls and each had to start her own life… I
was feeling people didn’t understand me, and also they are not the
same people they changed they are like new people… but now things
change and I am fine.
Most of the women I have interviewed there chose to be close friends
to women who had been imprisoned because as they said they are the
only ones they can understand their feelings and also they shared with
them the suffering of prison and understand completely how they feel
when they are released…. This suggests that the women can be “absent”
in some way from the society they have returned to, and still in some
ways, present in prison. The overwhelming presence of prison – from
which they wanted to escape is now present to them again even though
they are out from it physically, the prison experience of ‘absence’
doesn’t really end until they are able to reestablish their presence
to themselves outside of it. Those women are strong and most of them
back to be activists in their community and work to serve their own
community.
References:
• Taraki, Liza (ENCLAVE MICROPOLIS: THE PARADOXICAL CASE OF
RAMALLAH/AL-BIREH). Journal of Palestine Studies Vol. XXXVII, No. 4
(Summer 2008), pp. 6–20
• Mohammad Sabaaneh is a Palestinian painter and caricaturist. He was
detained by the Israeli force and held without charges for six months.
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