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TRADING BAREFOOT

By Ryan Herron

Copyright 2015

Ryan Herron

All Rights Reserved. No part of this book may be changed in any form e!ceptfor the incl"sion of brief #"otations in revie$ $itho"t permission in $riting fromthe a"thor % p"blisher. &o" may ho$ever share this book in its entirety as longas the a"thor is attrib"ted.


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Table of Contents

SHOUTOUT......................................................................................................................5

WHO IS Ryan Herron........................................................................................................6

FOREWORD By Rob Booker...........................................................................................7

PREFACE ..........................................................................................................................9

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SHOUTOUT

'erry Cash ( trading adviser. )e all need advisers. *"ite often if + have an idea + $ill

bo"nce it off 'erry and he $ill be honest and tell me if it is b"nk or $orth p"rs"ing. 'hanks

'erry,

-atthe$ Renner ( trading programmer. + "se programmers to take my ideas and t"rn them

into reality. 'he indicators and s"ch yo" $ill see in this book are programmed by this g"y. 'op

Notch.

Rob ooker ( trading mentor friend. + have bo"nced ideas off of Rob and he al$ays give me

his "nbiased opinion and has al$ays helped me look at the market differently. He $rote the

for$ard to this book.

-ichael and /tephanie Herron ( +n the beginning other than my $ife this $as the 2 people

$ho believed in me. 'hey tho"ght + $as n"ts then and still do,

Also a special thank yo" for all those $ho have impacted my life in some $ay... "stin

onham ena )atson achary Hogan /tephan 3atanic 'rey Redd Rod ro$n Amanda

-argolis 4'hor4 d$ards Chris Arnold 6"stin Hetr7berg Rich 6aycobs 6osh"a -"rakami

r"ce 8atrick 6oseph Carter aniel 9on7ale7 Corte7 ric :o$ler radley :ried 3hari ane

Cam )hite than ench 9"an Chen /hannon 'immons 'odd /mith Roy "rleson 'roy

pperson Rick )yatt Ryan /mith 6ohn Cooper /teve Hoven 6erry ockee Hector

9amboa ob /pringer Rich -a"er Christopher )all Nick :lo$ers

ast and certainly not least thank yo" to my loving family Chris Ann ;my a$esome $ife


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WHO IS

RYAN HERRON?

Ryan Herron is an everyday trader and trading ed"cator. He learned ho$ to

trade $hen he lived in the back of a van and he no$ trades from his home

office. He has been heard on 'he 'raders 8odcast has been feat"red by'rading8"b is an ed"cator on cxmarkets.com has been feat"red in

inaryology and posts ="st abo"t everything he does online for all to see. All the

rest is irrelevant.


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FOREWORD By Rob Booker

Ryan is going to tell yo" the tr"th.

He>s going to tell yo" $hat trading for a living is really like. +t>s $hat + love best

abo"t the book yo">re abo"t to read.

8art of trading for a living ? or getting to that level ? is to define $hat s"ccessreally is. +nstead of thinking abo"t s"ccess as a certain amo"nt of money in the

bank Ryan reminds "s that s"ccess is abo"t m"ch more than money.

"t $hat>s incredible is that once yo" take that leap ? and broaden yo"r

definition of s"ccess ? yo" start making more money. 8arado!ical. "t tr"e.

Ryan>s the kind of g"y $ho $ill live in a van to save money ="st so he can have$hat he $ants later. "t he>s also the kind of g"y $ho $ill give yo" the shirt off

his back.

He>s not in this b"siness of trading to look better than anyone. He>s in it to make

everyone else aro"nd him better. As yo" read this book + enco"rage yo" to

make some notes and ask yo"rself@

)here can + improve

Ho$ does this story relate to me

Ho$ do + make trading ;and life< more diffic"lt than it needs to be

+n $hat $ays do + compare myself to others that is "nprod"ctive


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Ryan $ill tell yo" abo"t his loneliness. His str"ggle. His darkest moments. And

yo" might ask@ )hat does this have to do $ith trading

)ell ? +>m glad yo" asked.

)hen yo" overcome yo"r demons yo" are a better trader. +t>s as simple as that.

Ryan $ill tell yo" abo"t ho$ he did that.

)hen yo" keep looking for opport"nity even $hen life thro$s a 7illion obstacles

at yo" ? then yo">re more ready than ever for trading.

"t that>s not all yo">re going to get.

Ryan is also going to teach yo" $hat goes into a profitable trading system. He>s

going to tell yo" $hat goes into his o$n trading system.

He>s going to share $ith yo" some hard facts abo"t losses. And ho$ to add to a

$inning trade ;+ absol"tely love $hat he says abo"t thats going to sho$ yo" some things that +>ve never seen a trader teach

anyone in a book.

/o@ &o" are abo"t to look over the sho"lder of someone $ho made it. /omeone

$ho crossed the chasm of obstacles and made it to trade for a living.

+>m e!cited for yo" to get started.

Rob Booer

9ilbert Ari7ona

November 2015


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PREFACE

+f yo" are reading this most likely yo" are a str"ggling trader trying to find yo"r

$ay in the market. -aybe yo" have been trading for a monthB possibly for years

are still searching for that one strategy that $orks. 'his book is intended to open

yo"r eyes and help yo" think a little differently.

*"ite often $e as traders tend to read all the message boards o"t there or

follo$ people blindly and $onder $hy $e can4t fig"re it o"t either. 9"ess $hat

'he simple fact is no one kno$s $hat $ill happened ne!t year ne!t month or in

the ne!t 5 min"tes. 'his book is intended to prove that even tho"gh yo" may not

kno$ $hat4s going to happen it is possible to trade effectively.

+f all yo" gain is one idea from this book $hether it is abo"t trading in the

foreign e!change market f"t"res options or even $ith binaries then + have

done my =ob. All + $ant is for yo" to $alk a$ay $ith one small idea or tho"ght

that may help yo" in yo"r trading =o"rney. ne idea co"ld possibly t"rn yo"r

entire $orld aro"nd. + call some of these ideas the 4light b"lb4 or 4$o$4 moment.

)hen that light b"lb finally does come on yo" $ill NDR be the same again,

+n this book + $ill sho$ yo" ho$ + look at the market. &o" $ill see my charts as +

see them. &o" $ill learn $ho my mentors are and $hat type of strategies +

model. &o" $ill learn $hy + trade the $ay + do and + $ill attempt to sho$ yo" that

the act of trading ;the technical aspect< +/ N' diffic"lt. 'he diffic"lt part is all in


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o"r minds. 'rading is a mental game not an act"al 4$here do + b"y4 type of

thing. &o" $ill also see that yo" can take a losing system and t"rn it into a

$inning system.

+ am yo"r average everyday g"y $ho $ants more o"t of life. + $ant freedom, o

yo" $ant the same things + have been in yo"r shoes time and time again. +

have $alked those lonely paths. :or most of my life fail"re $as normal. + hated

life. + hated it so m"ch that + finally came to the end of my rope and said E'his is

nonsense, + am gonna fig"re this o"t,F

Right no$ at this very moment + $ill describe my s"rro"ndings for yo". + am

sitting here on a '"esday evening in my bro$n recliner. -y feet are propped

"p. + have my laptop resting on my legs $hile + type on this keyboard. -y $ife is

face?booking on the co"ch. 'he living room is dimly lit G and yes + am barefoot

right no$.

+f yo" don4t already kno$ me then yo" may not kno$ that + don4t really care $hatpeople think of me. + am a coffee sl"rping redneck and love a grilled cheese

sand$ich more than caviar. + don4t live a lavish lifestyle among the elite beca"se

that4s ="st not $ho + am. 'he biggest concern in life is the happiness of my

family. +n my vie$s life is one big song of 3"mbahya and s"nshine a$esome,

&o" $ill learn abo"t ho$ living in as Degas led to sitting in a =ail in the middle of

8anama. &o" $ill find o"t ho$ + fo"nd the girl of my dreams on the other side of

the globe. &o" $ill learn $hat it4s like to live in a vehicle. + met some infl"ential

people in the trading ind"stry along this ro"te as $ell. + kno$... +t makes no

sense yet b"t it $ill.


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arefoot trading is living the life yo" $ant. + don4t care if yo" make 1 million per

year or 10000 per year... +f yo" can s"pport yo"r family and yo" are happy

then yo" have made it, At least that4s the $ay + feel abo"t it.

/tep o"t. -ake a fool of yo"rself. Cry yo"rself to sleep $hen yo" scre$ "p and

then get "p and do the same thing tomorro$. +t $ill be the hardest thing yo" ever

do b"t in the end yo" may have freedom for the rest of yo"r life. )anna =oin

me Come on and start trading barefoot,

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Part 1Story Time


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Sue!! i! O"errate#

&ep yo" read it correctly. /"ccess is overrated. 'he term s"ccess according to

a dictionary is the accomplishment of one4s goals the attainment of $ealth

position honors or the like. /"ccess is $hen a person feels like $hat he or she

has done is an accomplishment in his or her o$n lifeB b"t there are different

types of s"ccess.

+ am a living e!ample of s"ccess. + may not have the net $orth or make as m"ch

as another trader on a given day b"t does that mean + am "ns"ccessf"l oes

the fact that 6oe lo$ -oneymaker trades $ith a contract si7e of 1000

$hereas + only trade $ith 100 contracts make him any more s"ccessf"l than

me Not in my eyes.

+t doesn4t al$ays boil do$n to money even tho"gh money is part of s"ccess. +

don4t give a flip if yo" are making 10000 per day or 2 per day yo" can be a

s"ccess beca"se there are different levels of s"ccess. )hat abo"t other areas

of s"ccess...family...marriage...health...the ability to

travel...happiness...spirit"al...etc... /"ccess comes in many forms and if yo"

are doing something to be pro"d of then stand tall, n=oy yo"r s"ccess and feel

pro"d.

ook at the follo$ing I traders. + $ant yo" to ask yo"rself $hich trader is more

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1. 'rader A. et4s call him illy ob ( He lives in N& and trades $ith an

investment bank. He has a s"per fast sports car and a 10000 s# ft

mansion. He snorts cocaine and has tho"ghts of s"icide all the time. He

treats everyone like dirt. He makes 1 million a month.

2. 'rader . et4s call him 6immy 6ohn ( He lives in a modest ho"se. He

trades from a home office and makes eno"gh to s"pport his family $hile

p"tting e!tra cash back each month for the f"t"re. He has a bea"tif"l $ife

and great kids. He en=oys every day $ith passion.

I. 'rader C. et4s call him )illie )ee ( He makes 5 per day trading

e!tremely small contracts. He is doing it on a consistent basis day in and

day o"t. He $orks in a factory at night and $hen he gets home he adds

another 5 in his trading acco"nt. 'he acco"nt is b"ilding over time.

)hich one of these fine gentlemen are s"ccessf"l +t4s kind of st"pid and

arrogant that the 4$orld4 $o"ld say that trader EAF $as more s"ccessf"l ="st

beca"se he $as making more money. 'rader EAF $o"ld be the one aired onCNC and filmed shaking hands $ith onald 'r"mp $hile the other 2 $o"ld be

"nheard of.

)hy doesn4t the $orld think trader ECF is also a s"ccess He had a goal of

learning to trade and has accomplished that goal, All he ever $anted in life $as

to learn ho$ trade consistently and this has been accomplished. He is happy as

a lark. )hat + didn4t tell yo" in the narrative above is that trader ECF $ill still

contin"e to $ork at the factory for another 5 years "ntil retirement as he already

has 25 vested years. He is ="st fine $ith it. 'he 4$orld4 ho$ever $o"ld see this

g"y as a =oke.... b"t $hy He kno$s ho$ to trade s"ccessf"lly.

+f he kno$s ho$ to trade s"ccessf"lly and he is making a profit each $eek or


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each month on a consistent basis then $hy is he fro$ned "pon )hy is he not

given credit + $ill tell yo" $hy in a fe$ min"tes.

No$ trader EF lives a similar life that + lead. )e are yo"r typical everyday

family people. )e are do$n to earth and don4t like to 4fla"nt4. )e have a$esome

families and have a blast $ith life. )e love each ne$ day and $e love o"r =obs.

All $e ever $anted to do as far as money is concerned $ere to become

profitable traders. )e met that goal and no$ $e feel s"ccessf"l.

/"ccess is too often looked at N& from a financial perspective. /ome $ill

say Eook at -r. Hotshot and ho$ m"ch money he has.F )hat they fail to

reali7e is that if they looked in$ard instead of looking at the $ealth of someone

else they might already find s"ccess. 'here $ill al$ays be more people that are

far more s"ccessf"l than yo" so forget abo"t comparing yo"r $ealth $ith theirs.

'ry to look at life and ask the #"estion EAm + happyF

&o" $ill never hear )arren "ffet say this E +f + co"ld only reach the level of

s"ccess that ill 9ates $as on.... He has 5 billion more than + do.F

+f yo" think abo"t it hard + $o"ld bet yo" are a s"ccess. +4ll tell yo" a fe$ storiesabo"t 4feeling s"ccessf"l4 later in this book b"t let "s first dive into a topic that

might ="st offend some readers. + really don4t care $hether + offend yo" or not.

'he tr"th is the tr"th.

et "s look at arbara Don 'railer?trash ( /he lives in a trailer ;a stereotypical

trailer park $ith a redneck lifestyle similar in many $ays as the 'D comedy

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fridge. y /"nday night they are all broke again and ="st $ait till the ne!t :riday

for payday so they can start the process over again. 'hey all love each other

and have f"n in life even tho"gh the $orld may see them as a =oke.

+s this family a s"ccess +s arbara Don 'railer?trash rich and $ealthy

ook at it this $ay. ook from the eyes of a poverty stricken mother in the middle

of a ="ngle some$here that lives in a tiny shack. 'his mother and her baby

doesn4t have money for beer or "rger 3ing. /he doesn4t have A 'D. /he

doesn4t have a fridge. He doesn4t o$n a car. /he o$ns nothing b"t a co"ple of

cans of food and a pot to cook rice in. :rom HR perspective the trailer parktrash lifestyle is only a dream and she $o"ld give anything to be as rich as

them,

/"ccess is relative. 'he ne!t time yo" vie$ s"ccess only thro"gh a financial

lens step back and remind yo"rself E+ am more s"ccessf"l than many many

people in the $orld already.F + have more 4things4 than the ma=ority of the peopleon earth. + have more $ealth than JKL of everyone on arth.

Really &o" don4t think so &o" don4t think yo" are $ealthy already )hat if +

told yo" that &MR life $as the envy of millions )hat if people lay a$ake at

night and only dream abo"t having life as great as yo" have it Check o"t the

follo$ing pict"re. 'he simple fact is that if yo" only make 25000 per year yo"

are in the top 2L of all income earners on the entire planet 'ake all the people

on earth and compare yo"rself...


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+n this pict"re from globalrichlist.com it sho$s that if yo" make 25000 per

year yo" are in the top 2L of the richest people on earth. e thankf"l yo" can

afford that c"p of coffee. e appreciative that yo" can drive in yo"r o$n car.Ho$ abo"t that air conditioning yo" have 9ive thanks.

)hat &o" ate food today 9ot yo"r belly f"ll did ya e a$are that some

people didn4t get that l"!"ry. -illions of people may not have had anything to eat

today other than a handf"l of rice or maybe half a c"p of $atery so"p. 'his is a

reality that happens everyday b"t $e as citi7ens of a developed nation close

o"r eyes and ref"se to admit that $e are already $ealthy.

+ said all of that to say this one little statement. E+f yo" do not already feel like a

s"ccess in some $ay yo" $ill never achieve the level of s"ccess that yo" $ant.

e thankf"l for $hat yo" already have and more s"ccess $ill follo$. nce yo"

reach the level of s"ccess that yo" deem as being a$esome in yo"r o$n life

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start giving to those less fort"nate than yo". y giving to someone else yo" are

telling yo"rself that yo" already have more than yo" need. 'his changes yo"r

brain and changes everything.


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O$$ortu%ity i! e"ery&'ere

ven if yo" do not feel like a s"ccess yet there is still hope. 'his hope comes

from the opport"nities that yo" may be overlooking in life. pport"nities

especially in the M./ and most of the developed co"ntries in the $orld abo"nd.

+f yo" look yo" may find opport"nity in places that yo" never deemed possible.

'hey are literally aro"nd every corner $aiting to be taken.

et4s take a look at my o$n son 6oey. Here is a prime e!ample of taking a hold

of opport"nity and he is at the time of this $riting only 1J years old. +f anyone

reading this is an avid 4herper4 or is involved $ith the reptile comm"nity o"t

there then yo" may kno$ my son 6oey Herron. He loves snakes li7ards and

all things venomo"s. :or the record + N', ,

6oey has been digging thro"gh the dirt and t"rning over rocks to look for critters

ever since he co"ld $alk as a toddler. His favorite 'D sho$ as a kid $as 4 'he

Crocodile H"nter4. He loved everything /teve +r$in stood for he and idoli7ed this

man. )hile gro$ing "p 6oey $as al$ays fascinated $ith the reptile $orld. +

co"ld never like snakes b"t + $anted him to p"rs"e $hatever passion he had so

+ s"pported his hobby. 'he life he leads today is s"per creepy in some peopleseyes b"t s"per a$esome in his and many other eyes. He took opport"nity and

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He at the age of 1J has friends $ith $ell kno$n 4herpers4 and $ell respected

people in the reptile comm"nity s"ch as@

1. 6im Harrison ( C"rator at 3ent"cky Reptile oo

2. 6im ykes ( -anager at Rain :orest Advent"re ;'hey allo$ed 6oey to

hold meetings for free<

I. Ch"ck H"rd ( He is a venomo"s reptile mentor to 6oey

. Chad 9riffin ( $ns CCO Reptile Resc"e

No$ many of yo" reading this may have no cl"e abo"t any of these folks b"t in

the reptile comm"nity they co"ld be kno$n as the 4higher "ps4. 6"st like Rob

ooker or 'im /ykes are kno$n in the trading comm"nity the folks above are

s"per $ell kno$n and 6oey has a personal relationship $ith them.

Ho$ did he do it He took opport"nity and made something $ith it. He grabbedit. He didn4t $ait for opport"nity to come to him. He did not sit aro"nd dreaming.

'he act of taking action even if it seemed far fetched at the time propelled him

into $orking $ith some of the finest in the ind"stry.

pport"nity is al$ays there a$aiting for someone to grab it. +t doesn4t care $ho

grabs it and is al$ays available aro"nd every corner. "r =ob as h"mans is to

look for it and make it happen. ven $hen there is no opport"nity $e can often

force an opport"nity by ="st taking a step in the right direction. -ake a phone

call. /end an email. +mplement that trading strategy and test it. 'here are

n"mero"s and "nlimited opport"nities if $e start thinking a bit differently abo"t


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life.

+ $ill speak abo"t my opport"nity later in this book. :or no$ ="st be a$are that it

$ill sho$ "p if yo" make yo"r stand. :or instance let "s take a peek at

someone looking for a =ob. -aybe they need a =ob as a second income. -aybe

they are ="st looking for $ork to add to their savings acco"nt. -aybe they ="st

got fired. 'he simple fact is that they need a =ob and need it no$.

+nstead of relying on someone to ="st come to them they decide to be proactive

in their =ob h"nt. 'hey have heard all the crap on 'D abo"t the "nemployment

rate ho$ the =obs that are not there and the 1000 g"ys looking for a =ob thatonly has 20 openings. 'hey don4t care tho"gh. 'hey decide to make something

happen. Here is a story of $hat + did $hen + needed a =ob.

+ had ="st come off the road ;&o" $ill learn abo"t driving across America for my

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+ got "p and started at Pam and did not finish till abo"t Jpm. + $as determined. +

$as going to get a =ob and prove all the ne$s people $rong. 9"ess $hat

happened + had a =ob in 2 days. +t $as driving for a local co"rier that did not

pay m"ch at all. +t $as to say the least a lo$ paying =ob... b"t + had a =ob,

9etting the =ob lifted my spirits beca"se + kne$ that even tho"gh it did not pay a

lot it $o"ld help $ith some of the bills "ntil + fo"nd something better. As + $orked

at this ="nk pile of a =ob + $o"ld spend my e!tra time looking for a better

opport"nity. After a very short amo"nt of time + finally fo"nd one that paid $ay

more than eno"gh to cover o"r monthly e!penses.

)hat $o"ld have happened if + had fo"nd any =ob that + $as "nhappy $ith... b"t

ref"sed to strive for more + $o"ld probably be still $orking there and

complaining every dayB Complaining abo"t ho$ there are no =obs o"t thereB

Complaining abo"t ho$ my life s"cked.

+ kno$ this beca"se that is the man + "sed to be. + "sed to believe it $hen they

said there $ere no opport"nities. +t $as not "ntil + started to think differently that

opport"nity started to pop "p every flipping place + foc"sed my attention. &o" are

getting ready to learn abo"t my life and ho$ + $ent from thinking + $as a total

do"che to a s"ccess. &o" $ill see that many of the e!amples in this book are

not even abo"t trading b"t rather abo"t life in general. +t is these real lifee!amples that helped me become the trader the h"sband and the father + am

today.


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Re&i%# to t'e ()!

Hey, +t4s the 4K0s,

1JK ristol Dirginia. Atari 2Q00 Coke and a snickers bar for 50 cents -ichael

6ackson on the radio reak dancing bicycle ="mping /at"rday morning

cartoons +4ll sho$ yo" mine if yo" sho$ me yo"rs.

'he s"n $as beating do$n on my head as a playf"l K year old. + didn4t care

abo"t the heat. None of "s did. )e $o"ld play all day "nder the s"nB + al$ays

$anted to be 4the banker4. All + cared abo"t $as getting money, + $anted all the

money in the $orld. + $o"ld demand 1 million here and I million there. +f my

friends didn4t pay "p + $o"ld sell their big $heel to the evil neighborhood bad

boy -ichael /nodgrass. -ichael $as so mean to "s kids that $e had a nick

name for him... -ichael ooger )eed.

+ remember trying to r"n my o$n b"siness as that bright eyes K year old. + had

the most a$esome idea in the $orld, + $as going to start a drink stand b"t + had

a niche. + $o"ld sell 3ool?aid instead of lemonade. + al$ays $ondered $hy other

kids $o"ld sell lemonade beca"se it $as nasty. 3ool?aid $as a m"ch better

prod"ct that DR&N $anted,

+ co"ld mark "p the price as $ell and still make mega b"cks b"t + had a ploy to

do this. + $o"ld $rite the price 4C"p of 3ool?aid 10 cents4 and then mark it do$n

to P cents. All the local lemonade vendors $ere charging 5 cents b"t since + had


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a better prod"ct + kne$ + $o"ld sell more...and + did "ntil the day +' happened.

+n the ad"lt $orld + see all the ne$s abo"t 4o$n $ith the big evil corporations4

or 49et rid of those 1 percent people. +t is kind of a nonsense proposal to try to

go "p against a h"ge corporation $ith all the money beca"se they have so

m"ch more po$er than the typical citi7en. +t can be done tho"gh. 8eople can

topple those regimes sometimes in the blink of an eye and + can prove ho$

easy it is...

-y older brother and 6oe Romans started trotting over to my 3oolaid stand one

s"nny afternoon. + $as like the evil corporation beca"se + sh"t do$n all the local

lemonade stands $ith my prod"ct and + even charged more for it in the process.

)ell + ass"me the local kids didn4t like the fact that there $as only one game in

to$n anymore so they formed a posse to take me do$n. + played strong tho"gh

E+t $ill be P cents for a c"p of 3oolaid.F + insisted.

Not only did my brother and 6oe inform me that they $o"ld not payB they alsodrank as many c"ps as they co"ld for free and there $as nothing + co"ld do

abo"t it since + $as a tiny little t$it. + tried to yell and scream at them b"t the

more + did the more they drank. 'hey finally ended my $orld $ith po"ring o"t

the rest of the 3oolaid and t"rning over my stand. + $as devastated. + $as lost. +

vo$ed to get back at my brother for this in="stice $hen + $as big eno"gh to

handle it.

/ince + didn4t have a b"siness anymore + decided to try playing $ith fake money

for a $hile and trying to save any dignity + still had left. /o + sat there playing the

banker on the back deck beca"se my mother had bro"ght home a bo! of

envelopes from the local H"ff Cook +ns"rance company. 'hose envelopes s"re


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did look like money to me at the time. + remember my dad talking abo"t b"ying

100000 from the ins"rance people. +f he can b"y 100000 then so co"ld + +

imagined.

Roger Romans $as my best friend that lived ne!t door. )e $o"ld come "p $ith

all kinds of games intended for the detriment of o"r other friend Chad )illiams.

ven tho"gh my brother had ca"sed me grief + didn4t think the same r"les

applied $hen + $as doing it to someone else. )e $o"ld make m"d pies and try

to get Chad to eat them. )e $o"ld hide all of Chads toys. )e even painted a

m"stache on him $hile he $as asleep. No $orries tho"gh. Chad al$ays

ret"rned the favor.

Chad $as a rep"blican and + $as a democrat. )e had no idea of $hat this

meant b"t at the time o"r parents fell into these 2 political $ays of thinking so

the kids ="st follo$ed $hat their parents did of co"rse. He al$ays asked me E+f

yo" are a democrat ho$ can yo" $ant a lot of moneyF + didn4t have a cl"e $hat

he $as talking abo"t at the time.

+ remember Chad saying his dad made lots and lots of money and like$ise he

had all the finest toys aro"nd. His dad $orked as a car salesman and + tho"ght

E)o$, All he has to do is sell cars to people veryone has to b"y a car so ho$

co"ld he go $rongF + tried to think of ho$ + co"ld start selling cars. + had a bike

b"t co"ldn4t sell that as it $as my only form of transportation. -y brothers bike

ho$ever $as fair game, &eah that didn4t t"rn o"t too $ell.

Chad Roger and + $o"ld play all day and only come home $hich $as at least 2

miles a$ay $hen the street lights came on. )e $o"ld r"n thro"gh the $oods

and play $ar ride the $heels off o"r bikes imitate o"r favorite 'D sho$


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characters and had a blast. +t $as the K0s so being miles from home at K years

old $as not fro$ned "pon.

+ remember $e $o"ld $alk to mily avenports ho"se to ask her mom to help

"s cross the road. 6 -arket $as on the other side of the main high$ay and

that $as the only road that $as off limits. n the other side of the road $as a

fantastic place $ith all kinds of candy and pop galore, very trip to 4N6A&/4

;'hat4s $hat $e called it< $as a trip to a$esome,

+t $as only $hen + $ent home that + $asn4t happy. + hated going home. + kne$

may parents loved me. 'hey provided a roof over my head and food in my belly.

'hey provided me love and even bo"ght me great toys. )e $ent on vacations

and $ere a typical 1JK0s 49ris$ald4 type family. -y parents $ere great parents.

+t is not beca"se + hated them or even disliked them. )hen the play time $as

over each day ho$ever + $o"ld sigh.

)hen + $as at home + $as not allo$ed to listen to -ichael 6ackson on the radioso + had to sneak into my closet and close the door. + $o"ld t"rn the radio do$n

so lo$ that + had to hold my ear on the speaker to hear it. )hile en=oying the

forbidden m"sic + $as at the the same time in a state of a$areness. +f my mom

ca"ght me listening to the devils rock m"sic + $as in big tro"ble.

/o $hy did + hate going home + hated r"les. + hated r"les $ith a passion. +

$anted to do things my $ay. +t $asn4t really the r"les + hated b"t the reason

behind the r"les that + tho"ght $ere cra7y and st"pid. +n my mind to this day +

still hate r"les and being told $hat to do. 'o me r"les have al$ays been a $ay

for 'H -AN to control people. "t like it or not $e $ill al$ays have r"les $e

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)hy co"ld + not listen to rock m"sic on the radio )hat $as the point behind it

All the men from ch"rch listened to co"ntry m"sic that talked abo"t alcohol and

$omen so $hat $as the difference in a different style of m"sic + hated that r"le

so m"ch + rebelled against it. y gosh my parents $o"ld not stop me from

en=oying this m"sic and + fo"nd a $ay to have $hat + $anted... 'he babysitter.

C"riosity... + have al$ays been c"rio"s abo"t everything. + think + have asked the

#"estion E)hyF more times in life than every other person in the history of the

"niverse. )hy do + have to clean my room mom )hy do + have to t"rn do$n

the 'D dad )hy 8lease ="st give me an ans$er. + need the reason. +f yo"

don4t have a reason then $hy is there no reason

+ $ant to kno$ $hy things happen. )hat makes hydrogen and o!ygen $hich

are 2 e!plosives into $ater Ho$ the flip does that happen Can yo" take

gasoline and hairspray and t"rn it into $ater Noooo.

)hy do the planets revolve aro"nd the s"n 'here is not eno"gh mass for this

to happen normally. )hy do politicians go into office broke and come o"t

millionaires Aren4t they there to serve

)hy is a plant ;mari="ana< illegal $hen beer is not )hy

)hy do my spirit"al beliefs make me an o"tcast )hy

)hy do $e have a f"t"res market )hy

)hy do most traders fail )hy


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)hy )hy )hy

*"estions are and have al$ays been a ma=or part of $ho + am. /ometimes that

simple $ord gets me into tro"ble. + hate r"les and if the r"le is st"pid then it4s

="st plain st"pid. + #"estion everything.

/on +t4s bed time, /on clean the basement, /on take o"t the trash. /on clean

yo"r room. /on do yo"r home$ork. AAAAHHHHH,,,, )hat for )hy on earth

sho"ld + be tort"red into doing all of this garbage 'his is st"pid and + hate it,

;Coming from an K year old mind<

+ didn4t "nderstand at the time the ma=ority of these r"les had reasons behind

them even if + tho"ght they $ere st"pid. )hen dad "sed to tell me to clean o"t

the basement $hat he really $anted to $as to install a $ork ethic that $o"ld

come in handy later in life. He also $anted the basement clean b"t that $as

basically a byprod"ct.

)hen my mom asked me to do my home$ork + didn4t kno$ at the time $hy +

$as re#"ired to do this agoni7ing task and felt it $as a $aste of time. )hat she

$as really trying to get me to "nderstand $as ho$ to be able to "nderstand the

b"siness $orld later in life.

+ hated r"les then and + still hate r"les today. +t is not the act"al r"les + hate b"t

rather the meaning behind the r"les. +f + have to do something + $ant to kno$

$hy. + need to "nderstand the reasoning behind $hatever is asked of me. + am

often still like a child trying to rebel against their parents b"t no$ it is me

rebelling against the $orld against the close minded non?thinkers against those

$ho do ="st beca"se they are told $ith no #"estions asked.


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-any of yo" reading this are or $ant to become traders. +n the $orld of trading

$e have r"les. As + have already told yo" + hate r"les $itho"t reason. )hat +

love are r"les that have a reason behind them.

et "s take a look at a r"le and $hy it does or doesn4t matter...

/on Clean yo"r room.

)hat are the reasons and conse#"ences behind this statement

• +f + clean my room + $ill not be on that 'D sho$ 4Hoarders4

• +f + clean my room + $ill feel at ease by being able to sleep in a so"nd

environment.

• +f + clean my room it $ill be easier to clean the ne!t time.

• +f + clean my room + $ill not =erk in pain $hen + step on that ego on the

floor.

-any r"les are there for a reason b"t + have to kno$ the )H&. o yo" kno$ the

)H& for the r"les yo" are follo$ing in trading o yo" kno$ $hy yo" are b"ying

on that moving average crossover or $hen Rsi is oversold )hat do these r"les

mean )hat does an Rsi stand for Ho$ can it kno$ that something is

oversold )ho $rote the indicator )hy do $e follo$ the a"thor of the indicator

blindly and b"y 6"st like the 4no rock m"sic4 r"le + had to end"re as a kid some

r"les are ="st do$nright abs"rd and have no meaning behind them. 3no$ the

difference. Never DR do $hat yo" are told for the simple fact that yo" are told

to do something.

+n order to kno$ $hy + $ant to b"y somethingB e"r%"sd or gold for instance +


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have to kno$ the )H& behind it. ven tho"gh many people think + am a rebel

for thinking this $ay it act"ally helps $ith my trading. + can not ="st b"y beca"se

someone on the internet tells me to do so "nless + kno$ the "nderlying reason

for this.

+n my trading + "se something called a donchian channel. 'his channel $orks

for me b"t + still have to kno$ $hy + am b"ying at the high $hen everyone else is

telling me to sell. + have to "nderstand $hy my indicator $orks and + need to

kno$ $hy it $orks for me and does not $ork for someone else.

+n trading be like a child. 'hink of trading as this K year old boy $ho $as c"rio"s

abo"t the $orld and $anted to kno$ $hy. Ask #"estions, +f yo" do not ask

#"estions yo" $ill never kno$ the ans$er. )itho"t #"estions yo" may as $ell

be like the people $ho blindly do $hat those in a"thority tell them to do. +f

someone 4in a"thority4 tells yo" to do something that does not make it right all

the time. Ask )hy.

+f yo" have a trading system that does not $ork. on4t ="st thro$ it a$ay and

="mp to the ne$ biggest and baddest thing being marketed on the internet. Ask

$hy. )hy does this strategy not $ork -aybe yo" $ill find some things that

s"rprise yo" beca"se + took a strategy that does not $ork and t"rned it into

something that $orks dang $ell,

+ did this by asking $hy. + had to research and pester traders over and over. +

had to test and retest and retest some more till + $as bl"e in the face. + t"rned a

losing strategy into a very nice $inning one by ="st asking the #"estion E)hyF

/o let4s take another look at that K year old boy no$.


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&o" no$ kno$ that + #"estion everything and ask $hy. &o" kno$ that + rebel

against a"thority. No$ the #"estion is this... )hy am + like this )hat compels

me to go against the flo$ of the cro$d )hy do + look at the cro$d a sheep

going to a sla"ghter $hen in fact the sheep co"ld easily overtake the $olf

-y mom and dad the very 2 people + rebelled against ta"ght me to be this $ay.

'he 2 fine parents al$ays $anted me to get to the root of the problem and even

if it meant me rebelling against them they $ere $illing to teach me a ne$ $ay to

think abo"t life.

-om "sed to tell me ER"e ;that4s $hat she called me for some "ngodly reason<

if yo" can learn to o"t?think the other person then yo" $ill be the one to get the

=ob.F

ad "sed to tell me E/on Al$ays Ask )hy and $hen yo" find yo"r )H& ask

H). 8"t forth effort and yo" can have anything yo" $ant in life.F

Roger and Chad ;'hose 2 childhood friends + mentioned earlier< often tried to

get me into massive tro"ble s"ch as toilet papering someones ho"se. + never

did do many of these shenanigans beca"se after asking myself )H& at an early

age + al$ays came to the decision that the conse#"ences o"t$eighed the =oy of

s"ch an activity. +f yo" toilet paper someones ho"se yo" have a fe$ min"tes of

=oy b"t a $eek of gro"nding and an entire day of cleaning. 'he bad o"t$eighed

the good. Asking )H& helped me make a better decision.

y the $ay + did event"ally get back at my brother for destroying my 3oolaid

stand and al$ays picking on me. + ended "p rolling him do$n a h"ge hill in a

barrel that almost killed him as it hit trees all the $ay do$n. 'his is one instance


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that + didn4t $orry abo"t the conse#"ences "ntil after + had committed the act.

)hat $as the conse#"ence -y brother never did take advantage of me again.

+ $as prepared for $hatever conse#"ences came for rolling him do$n that hill

b"t there comes a point in each of o"r lives $hen $e are fed "pB $hen $e have

had eno"ghB $hen $e $ill not take it anymore. + s"spect that yo" may be at the

end of yo"r rope in trading. 8lease don4t be disco"raged. Help is on the $ay,


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T'e roari%* +),!

+rresponsibility,

et "s fast for$ard to 1JJJ. + $as 2I and an absol"te mess. + had made so

many horrible mistakes in life that + tho"ght life $as ="st going to be one big pile

of crap "ntil the day + died. + $as miserable at the time and co"ld not for the life

of me fig"re it o"t. +t seemed like everything + tried t"rned o"t to be the $rong

move. ife seemed to be playing against me. + got involved $ith all the $rong

people. +t seemed as if + $as al$ays in all the $rong places at the $rong times. +

had to either find a $ay to make my life better or ="st end it all in a bla7e of self

inflicted g"nshots into the core of my brain.

1JJI "ntil the spring of 4JJ $ere the hardest years of my life. 'hey $ere the

most irresponsible as $ell. Here comes the part that + am most embarrassed to

talk abo"t b"t it is the tr"th and if + am going to $rite this story + feel that

e!cl"ding the tr"th $o"ld be a dishonest pile of garbage... so here goes...

+ had a son 6oey that + abandoned $ith his mom. + paid no child s"pport at the

time and ="st $alked o"t. + had to find a better $ay to take care of my son even if

it meant leaving him behind for a $hile.

+ left and $ent into the $ild "nkno$n. + had to find a $ay to take care of myself

and my son. + $asn4t concerned $ith the mother of 6oey beca"se + $as ="st

yo"ng and irresponsible.


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'here $ere no =obs to speak of in the to$n $here + lived and + co"ld not make

ends meet by $orking at the local 8apa 6ohns pi77a store. + $as ="st fed "p $ith

life. No opport"nity it seemed. No f"n that + co"ld afford for me or my son e!cept

maybe b"ying a small s#"irt g"n at the local dollar store. )hat life $as this +

bent do$n and kissed my son on the forehead looked into the eyes of his mom

$hile she told me + $as lo$er than sc"m and $alked o"t the door.

+ $as determined to find a better life for my son as $ell as for myself or + $o"ld

die trying.

Have yo" ever seen the movie E+nto the $ildF 'his movie kind of describes

$hat + $as doing at the time. + $as $ondering from place to place trying to find

something to try to find a $ay to make a living. +t seemed as tho"gh everyone

else $as doing it b"t $hy co"ldn4t + + ended "p spending the ne!t fe$ years

moving from place to place $orking at =ob after =ob. + kept searching for my

place in life. + kept on searching for meaning. At the time + $as ="st as

miserable as before + left my son b"t + had to keep trying. + had to keep going.

+ moved to klahoma to a little to$n called nid. )ell that $as ="st a =oke so +

moved to Danco"ver )ashington in search of a better life once again. +

attended a school to get a =ob in the Airline ind"stry. + $as so e!cited at this

point. + tho"ght E)o$, + can fly any$here in the $orld,F At last + co"ld have a

career. ittle did + kno$ beca"se the baggage handler doesn4t make eno"gh to

raise a kid on let alone en=oy free flights.

+ $as finally stationed at -cCarran Airport in as Degas Nevada after

completing the co"rse. 'he only problem abo"t being able to fly for free $as that

even tho"gh + co"ld technically do it + really didn4t make eno"gh money to pay

my bills so the free flights $ere almost "seless.


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+ lived in a hole in the $all in a bad part of to$n beca"se that $as all + co"ld

afford. )hat made it even $orse $as that my apartment got broke into and the

thieves stole everything + o$ned. DR&'H+N9, + remember looking into the

d"mpster behind the comple! and seeing even my personal pict"res and

notebooks in the d"mpster, +t is like they took everything and d"mped $hat $as

most important to me. No$ that my apartment $as broke into + $as in even

more despair.

+ started looking for opport"nity and ans$ered an advertisement in the paper

that read something like E+ $ill f"nd yo"r b"sinessF + called and they $rote me

"p a b"siness plan and promised to get me 1000000 in loan money to start

"p a b"siness, All they needed $as I000 for the initial paper$ork fee. -y

tho"ghts at the time $ere that life $as getting ready to change for the better, +

$as on my $ay finally after all these years of horrible l"ck headed for a

breakthro"gh,

+ $aited and $aited and called and called to see $hen the paper $ork $as goingto be finali7ed. + $as ="st a d"mb co"ntry boy that tho"ght his l"cky break had

come. + never sa$ that I000 again ;+ begged my dad to loan me the Ik< and

again $as at the bottom of the barrel. + had been scammed. + co"ld not get the

money back beca"se by the time + contacted the :+ the scammers $ere gone.

+ had to sell my car to pay the rent. 'his $as d"e to my paycheck not covering

all the bills. /o + sold my car and bo"ght a bicycle to ride to $ork. +magine that...

selling a car to ride a bike,, 'his $ill sho$ yo" ho$ scre$ed "p my mind $as

at the time b"t $hat co"ld + do 'he end of the road $as nearing $hen + $as

riding to $ork on my bike hit a p"ddle that $as a little too deep and $ent flying

over the handle bars onto the pavement belo$. No$ + had bend $heels that


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$ere "seless.

/o at this point + had no clothes e!cept $hat $ere on my back + had no money

beca"se it had been stolen by scam artists + had no car and no$ + didn4t even

have a bike. + remember standing on the corner of /"nset Ave in as Degas at

night. + act"ally yelled at 9od E)hat kind of life is thisFAll + $anted $as to have

a break. + ="st $anted a chance to make it.

/o $itho"t money ;+ had abo"t 200 after payday


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life. As $e passed by 8anama City vendors + noticed things + had never seen

before. )ith filth every$here and more poverty than + had ever imagined +

noticed smiles and la"ghter. )ith dr"g lords s"ppressing the city + noticed

b"sinesses $ere still flo"rishing. + had been ta"ght that this place $as the

lo$est of the lo$ b"t that4s not $hat + sa$. + sa$ happiness on every street

even tho"gh poverty $as rampant.

'he to$n + stayed in $as in the 4interior4 and the province sho$n a of a type of

poverty that + had never seen before. -any of these people had literally nothing.

-any of them didn4t even have food for their families. 'hey had no clothes

e!cept $hat + $o"ld call 4hand me do$ns4.

+ remember $alking thro"gh a dirt road and sa$ a lady holding her ne$born son

living in a 10!10 shack that had scraps of $ood for the $alls and a fe$ scraps of

old tin for the ceiling. 'his ho"se had 2 cans of food on a broken $ood shelf.

ne pot $as hanging on the $all. ne blanket $as folded neatly on her dirt

floor. 'hat4s it, 'hat is all she had.

As + $alked this dirt road every day + sparked "p a friendship $ith this lady. +t

started as a smile and a nod as + $alked by b"t by the end of the $eek + $as

stopping to talk abo"t the $eather and $hatnot. Here is the kicker... /he $as

cooking one day $ith her one pot a handf"l of rice and invited me to dine $ith

her and her baby. )hat "t she has nothing, Ho$ can she possibly share

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'here $as no $ay + $as going to eat her food b"t she insisted. + sat do$n on the

dirt and $e began talking abo"t life in 8anama. )e ate $hite rice $ith a pinch of

salt as $e talked. No $ater $as available at that time so + ="st ate. + asked her

flat o"t EHo$ can yo" live like this &o" have nothing.F

/he began to tell me that even tho"gh she does not $ant to live like this there

are no =obs so she has to rely on the generosity of her friends. 'here are no

orphanages to care for her baby so she m"st do it. ven tho"gh she $as

handed a crappy life a response she gave me ="st shocked me. Even tho"gh +

kno$ + have nothing from yo"r perspective + still have food. + still have a roof. +

can still come and go as + please. -y baby is still fed. + choose to think abo"t the

happy things in life instead of $orrying abo"t tomorro$. 9od takes care of me

and my sonF

As + sat there eating + looked do$n the road. + $as shocked to find kids playing

soccer $ith an old patched "p ball. + $as blo$n a$ay at old men trying to make

bricks from m"d to sell so they co"ld b"y rice. ife here $as so different thatback home and + $as starting to reali7e that + had been selfish.

'he most dramatic thing that changed my life $as $hen + $o"ld hear m"sic

being played every night and people $o"ld sing and dance and have a great

time $ith each other. + remember thinking to myself E Ho$ can these people be

so happy $hen they have nothing at allF

A friend of mine that lived at the end of the road told me that the key to

happiness is to love people and ="st kno$ that everything $ill be 3. + tho"ght

this statement $as abs"rd at best. Ho$ co"ld a person kno$ everything $o"ld

be 3 Ho$ co"ld they not $orry


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)atching people living in absol"te poverty b"t still being happy totally changed

my vie$s on life in one single day. +f people co"ld be happy regardless of having

an ab"ndance of material things or even food to eat then something m"st be

going on that + $as "na$are of inside their brains.

Here + $as $ith abo"t 200 in my pocket and tho"ght + $as miserable. )hat

sho"ld + be miserable abo"t + had food. + had money ;200 $as a ' of

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Ae$ta%e

very son has a father b"t N' every father is a dad. + finally gave "p on my

dreams of making eno"gh money to give my son the good life. + had finally

reali7ed that life $as meant to be hard ;so + tho"ght at the time


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-aybe + $as clo"ded. 'he fact that + started p"tting my sons life above mine

started to change the $ay + tho"gh abo"t life.

+ co"ld start to see more and more days of happiness $hen + $o"ld play $ith my

6oey and he $o"ld look at me and smile. n the days that it seemed a str"ggle

to take care of him all that str"ggle seemed to disappear $hen he $o"ld come

to me and pinch me on the nose $hile yelling Ehonk,F 6oey $as a prankster

back then for s"re,

on4t get me $rong + $as still a piece of "seless garbage at this time $ho $as

still all scre$ed "p b"t it $as this time $hen + started to see things a little bit

differently in life. And then it happened...

)e $ere playing $ith a ball. -y son thre$ it and as + $as chasing the ball +

heard the s$eetest voice say the best thing + have ever heard in my entire life

"p till then, )hen a father hears his o$n son yell the name Ead,F for the first

time something changes in the core of his so"l. A son never reali7es ho$$onderf"l it is to be called dad "ntil he e!periences it for himself later in life. +t

took years of str"ggle to make my relationship $ith my son $ork b"t the payoff

$as better than anything + co"ld have ever imagined.

y this point + $as starting to feel a $ee bit happier abo"t life. + $orked #"ite

long ho"rs and at least + co"ld feed myself and my son. At the very least $e had

clothes on o"r back. + had an old =alopy car to get "s from point A to point . )e

didn4t have a lot b"t $e made it...barely.

At that point + started becoming a dad instead of ="st a sperm donor. + did

ho$ever become a little angrier every day that $e didn4t have a great big fancy


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life $ith fancy things. ven tho"gh + $o"ld never leave him again + still str"ggled

$ith inner tho"ghts of disg"st. )hy co"ld + not provide for him in a $ay that my

dad provided for me )as it fate that $e have the short end of a stick

very time $e $ere at the park + noticed other parents drive their kids to the

park in nice sedans. very time $e $o"ld $indo$ shop + noticed another father

b"ying his kid a ne$ bike. 'his period in life $ent on and on and flipping on, Not

only $as + not allo$ed to b"y my son the nicer things in life b"t + $as also lonely.

+ $anted someone to sn"ggle $ith at night... someone to love intimately.

Ho$ on earth co"ld + get a $oman to love me $hen + didn4t even have eno"gh

money to b"y 6oey a ne$ toy Hell b"ying him a ne$ pair of shoes took a h"ge

ch"nk of my paycheck. + felt myself start to think tho"ghts of abandonment

again tho"ghts of ="st leaving again to try to find "s a better life.

+ $ill not, + $ill not, + $ill not leave him like that again, ife is misery again and +

might as $ell get "sed to it.... or + $ill fight on some more. 'otal conf"sion filledmy head so + began to pray for g"idance. Eord + am a selfish man. + $ant to

change b"t don4t kno$ ho$. A little help. 8lease.F + started to t"rn that despair

into a fighter mentality. + started to remember $hat mom and dad told me $hen +

$as a little kid EAl$ays ask )hy,F and E8"t forth effort.F + $as bo"nd and

determined to do something to change. + didn4t kno$ $hat that something $as

b"t + $as abo"t to find o"t.

/o + began asking $hy. )hy does my life s"ck )hy does everything bad

al$ays happen to me )hy do + hate everything )hat am + al$ays thinking

bad tho"ghtsEHmmm. /o $hy do + think bad tho"ghts )hat is the p"rpose of

thinking bad tho"ghts )here do bad tho"ghts get me in life )hat good comes


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from bad tho"ghtsF EHmmm. -aybe thinking bad tho"ghts are $orthless.

-aybe thinking bad tho"ghts are act"ally hindering me from getting $hat + $ant

o"t of life.F

:or one f"ll day + vo$ed to only think good tho"ghts. )henever a bad tho"ght

entered my head + $o"ld ="st say ENo $ay, &o" leave,F + tried many days to do

this and it seemed pointless. + kept 4trying4 to think good tho"ghts even tho"gh

my life still s"cked. + ="st kept trying everything + kne$ to lift my spirits. + $o"ld

attend ch"rch. + $o"ld $atch a comedy on 'D. + $o"ld la"gh at =okes at $ork. +

="st kept trying to fake happiness. + kept praying for g"idanceB kept on

searching.

+n the to$n $here lived there $as a h"ge yard sale that $as abo"t a mile long

called 8l"m Alley. n a $arm /at"rday afternoon + $as strolling thro"gh and

="st bro$sing all the ="nk people $ere trying to sell. 'hen + noticed something

that $as abo"t to be the biggest game changer in my life "p to this point.

+t $as a bo! of "sed cassette tapes by a man named 'ony Robbins. 'he nameof this cassette series $as 48ersonal 8o$er4. 1 for the entire 20 tape collection.

+ had never heard of 'ony Robbins b"t the bo! cover $as so compelling that +

$anted it. +t ="st looked neat.

'he lady $ho $as selling these tapes $as dressed in very nice clothes and +

noticed ="st by the $ay she carried herself that she $as 4$ell off4. + asked the

lady EAre these any goodF /he told me flat o"t E'hese tapes $ill change yo"r

life if yo" do $hat he says to do. 'hey changed my life.F + tho"ght E)hat $o"ld

it h"rt to ="st give it a shotF and $alked a$ay the ne$ o$ner of 48ersonal

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'hese cassette tapes $ere a set of personal empo$erment a"dios that

e!plained a $ay to get $hat yo" $ant o"t of life. + p"t cassette n"mber 1 in the

tape deck one night $hile + laid do$n to sleep. 'hat night + finished abo"t 5 of

these beca"se $hat + heard got me s"per e!cited for the first time in a long time.

+ $as so e!cited + hardly slept and co"ld not $ait to listen to more of them the

ne!t day.

As + listened everyday + $as hearing ideas that + had never dreamed abo"t.

/ome of the things that $ere said seemed like absol"te magic to my ears. 'his

set of tapes really did spark a ne$ road in my life. :rom a yard sale in a 8od"nk

to$n my life $o"ld change forever. ver the co"rse of the ne!t fe$ $eeks +

listened to these gems of greatness over and over and over. very time +

listened + $as being empo$ered. + felt myself act"ally getting e!cited abo"t life

and learning ho$ to retrain my brain into getting e!actly $hat + $anted o"t of life

by taking action like a mad man,

+ kne$ + didn4t have the f"ll ans$er b"t + $as finally able to smile again. + startedto think differently and started to act differently as $ell. + started to act"ally

believe that life $o"ld allo$ me to have the things + desired. 8ressing for$ard

$ith e!citement for once in my life $as so m"ch f"n.

Mp "ntil this point + $anted to change b"t didn4t really kno$ ho$. + started to

reali7e that maybe the self help g"r"s $ere right all along. -aybe 6es"s $as

right $hen He said in -ark 11@2 E'herefore + tell yo" $hatever yo" ask for in

prayer believe that yo" have received it and it $ill be yo"rs.F

:or the record + am a devo"t follo$er of Christianity. -y belief relies "pon the

kno$ledge that 6es"s $as born of a virgin died on the cross for the sins of the


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$orld and rose on the third day. 'his does not in any $ay conflict $ith my

belief in the la$ of attractionB it enhances it. + don4t care $hat yo" believe

$hether it is "ddha Allah -other arth atheism or the ch"rch of the flying

spaghetti monster beca"se the simple fact is that yo"r belief doesn4t have

anything to do $ith me and + am not here to p"sh my beliefs on yo". +n this

book ho$ever + am opening "p and letting yo" kno$ $here + stand and $hat

$orks for me.

8rayer started to $ork. + remember thinking E)hy didn4t prayer $ork beforeF

'he ans$er + $as given may seem like a long shot and back$ards b"t it really is

tr"e. 8rayed didn4t $ork "ntil + started to act"ally believe. +n my opinion yo" can

pray all day every day b"t if yo" don4t believe then it is all in vain. )hether it is

A 9od or something else + may never kno$ and $ill al$ays ask $hy b"t

this is one time that + didn4t care $hy. +t $as $orking...slo$ly at first and picking

"p speed as my life progressed ;as yo" are abo"t to find o"t


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Break T'rou*'

Eord + $o"ld like to have a girlfriendF + prayed. + kno$ it so"nds lame b"t ="st

h"mor me for a min"te.

-y e!citement gre$ into action. + started $riting do$n my tho"ghts and act"al

battle plans for achieving my goals of getting a girlfriend. + had not achieved a

single goal &' b"t + co"ld see over the hori7on. + co"ld 4feel4 great things

starting to happen in my life even tho"gh nothing had act"ally happened. -y

tho"ghts $ere no longer as negative as they "sed to be and my smile $as

act"al a real one. 'o be able to start thinking differently and to start seeing

things in a ne$ light $as a$esome.

'he more + $orked to$ard a goal even tho"gh it $as o"t of reach the more it

felt like + act"ally had a shot at it $hether it $as getting the girl of my dreams ora =ob that + loved. 'he more + talked to myself the more + talked to myself in a

positive manner.

:inally + $as ready to go after my first big goal. + had no cl"e that $hat + $as

abo"t to overcome $as to be the largest and most satisfying goal + had ever

even tho"ght abo"t achieving to this day. + asked 9od in prayer Eord please

send me a girl that yo" $o"ld see as a good fit for me. &o" kno$ $hat + am

looking for.F + kept that one tho"ght in my head. + $as specific do$n to her hair

color and physi#"e.

'hro"gh a chain of events + ended "p seeing this bea"tif"l angel from the mind


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of 9od right there on my myspace page, ;&es + said -yspace. ol< As + checked

o"t the pict"res of this hottie + kept thinking E/ho"ld + even email this girl /he

seems $aaaay o"t of my leag"e.F

/o + did $hat any g"y $ho $as desperate for love $o"ld do. + sent her an email

that started $ith E/o + see yo" like coffee...F and then 1 second after hitting the

send b"tton... N, )hat have + done + am making a fool of myself,

/he is too hot for me, /he is gonna la"gh at me and think + am a dork hole, h

$ell $hats done is done. + $as some$hat embarrassed.

&o" see she $as everything + had ever prayed for in a $ife from the time + $as

a kid. -y list of $ants for a $ife $ere rather selfish b"t this is $hat + prayed for...

)hat + am abo"t to say may shock yo" b"t $hy sho"ld it 6"st beca"se + am

$riting in a book doesn4t mean yo" don44t have selfish tho"ghts that yo" pray for.

'he only difference here is that + am being open abo"t it. + $anted a girl $ho

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&eah yo" think + am =oking + ass"re yo" + am telling yo" that this is $hat +

prayed for and the moment that + act"ally +D it co"ld remotely be a

possibility and took action this is OAC'& $hat 9od bro"ght to me. )e are

married to this day and more in love no$ than the day $e met. ven tho"gh at

the time + may have prayed for some selfish things o"r marriage today is :AR

from selfish. + give her my all and she gives me her all everyday.

ECan + act"ally think things into e!istenceF + $ondered. +t seems kind of abs"rd

that + co"ld think believe take action and get $hat + $ant. /ho"ldn4t it be harder

than that &o" be the ="dge.

/o this hot chick $rites me back. + $as so e!cited and $o"ld not even read the

message she sent to me "ntil + got home from $ork. + $anted to devo"r every

$ord even if it meant she $as telling me to b"g off b"t + had a hint she liked

$hat + had to say beca"se her email to me $as so long. + kne$ it $as long

beca"se + did peek at it for a fe$ short moments.

ver the $eeks to come $e emailed each other back and forth and became

#"ite fond of each others company. + looked for$ard to getting home from $ork

every day and reading the message that $as $aiting in my in?bo!. 'he $ay she

talked $as sincere and she $as a hoot, + $o"ld la"gh harder at her =okes than

ever before. 'hese emails helped me contin"e to raise my spirits each day.

'he $ords she spoke seemed to be golden. /he $o"ld lift me "p. /he $o"ld

make me smile. /he $o"ld make me ponder life $ith her in my f"t"re. + spent

ho"rs "pon ho"rs thinking of ho$ + co"ld better myself for my son and possibly

for her one day as $ell. + $as act"ally thinking long term abo"t someone $ho +

had never met. EAm + cra7y or am + falling head over heels for a girl $as


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technically ="st pict"res and $ords on my screenF

+ had to better myself if + $as ever going to be serio"s $ith her beca"se she

lived in 'he 8hilippines. 'o me that $as like she lived on freaking -ars beca"se

she $as o"t of my reach at the time. + had no money to fly there and co"ld not

afford a plane ticket for her to come here. + $o"ld not even think abo"t the

to"rist visa process at this time.

/ince she $as o"t of reach b"t 9od had given her to me ="st thro"gh a very

sincere and contin"o"s prayer + tho"ght E+ am going to say another prayer. + $ill

tr"ly believe it $ork to$ard it and + )+ achieve it.F + remember praying to

9od E ord + need to make a decent living of 50000 per year and + $ill even

be $illing to sleep in a car if that $ill make it happen.F ver and over day after

day + $o"ld say this prayer. +t act"ally got to the point $here + $o"ld start

vis"ali7ing myself sleeping in a car across the front seat $ith piles of money on

top of me for a blanket.

'hen something happened and + $as st"nned all the $ay do$n to my bones.

)hat + had prayed for $as getting ready to happen. 'he old saying says 4e

caref"l $hat yo" pray for beca"se it may come tr"e4 act"ally has some validity.

+ $as on a daily regiment of calling companies to try to find a better =ob. +

tho"ght if + call 10 companies per day then sooner or later + $o"ld get a good

=ob. + $as only calling companies that paid their $orkers higher than minim"m

$age beca"se in order to have a life minim"m $age $o"ld ="st not do. + needed

more.

:ed! called me back one day and said E Ryan $e do not c"rrently have any


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openings at o"r shipping facility ;that $as the position + applied for< b"t $o"ld

yo" be interested in driving for o"r C"stom Critical departmentF + didn4t kno$

$hat that $as b"t + said yes any$ay. 2 $eeks later + $as kissing my son

goodbye at the greyho"nd b"s station b"t this time + $as not leaving him. 'his

time + $as providing for him. 'his time + $as pro"d to be departing beca"se +

kne$ + $o"ld be back in a month $ith the money to act"ally provide him $ith a

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-i.e i% a "a%

/o + headed o"t on this greyho"nd b"s to North Carolina to pick "p the van +

$o"ld be driving. 'he =ob entailed doing the same thing that 4over the road4 tr"ck

drivers do b"t $ith smaller shipments. + also did not have to abide by the ho"rs

of service ;H/< la$ so + co"ld drive "nlimited ho"rs to get my shipment to the

proper facility on time. 'his is $hy they called it 4C"stom Critical4.

+ remember that first night. +t $as some$hat cold and lonely as + laid there trying

to fall asleep in the back of a van in the parking lot of a tr"ck stop after driving

all day to -isso"ri. + $as act"ally doing the very thing + had prayed for, + $as

sleeping in a van instead of a car b"t it $as really similar and making abo"t

503 per year no$.

iving in a van is $ildly different than living in a home. 'he lifestyle takes some

getting "sed to, -any people have asked me $hat it $as like so + $ill e!plain

that for a fe$ min"tes and then get back to my story. +4ll start $ith the night

time...

'rying to drift off to sleep t"cked inside a special forces sleeping bag yo" feel

kind of like yo" are camping "nder the stars. 'he only e!ception is that the

bright tr"ck stop lights glare tho"gh the $indo$ "nless yo" place a shield to

block o"t the light. A $indo$ shield also blocks o"t prying eyes of thieves and

robbers as $ell... b"t yo" are a$are they are al$ays o"t there l"rking in the

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'he so"nds of trying to fall asleep has its tro"bles as $ell. &o" al$ays hear

noise of the tractor trailers rolling thro"gh the parking lot the so"nd of someone

parking right beside yo" and talking on their cellphone the so"nds of dogs

barking and teenagers blasting their god forsaken speakers at all ho"rs of the

night.

/ometimes $hen + $o"ld take a load to a remote place the feeling can be

do$nright eerie. + once took a load to the docks in the deep so"th do$n in the

bayo"s of o"isiana. + had to drop the load at Pam and arrived aro"nd midnight.

'he only place to park $as along the side of a gravel road o"t in the middle of

nothing. + $as in the s$amp. No other h"mans for 20 miles it seemed like. +

don4t think + slept a $ink that night d"e to hearing noises + have never heard

before or since. +t $as like the /as#"atch $as gonna ="mp o"t and eat me at

any moment. Another eerie place $as near -arfa 'e!as. + had to stop near this

to$n on several nights so + ="st a$aited the aliens to snatch my body.

+ slept in the sl"m of etroit and a$aited a gang of th"gs to steal my tires and

then shoot me. + slept on the side f the intestate st"ck in a bli77ard. + slept in a

locked $areho"se. + slept every$here.

+ spent many night in freaky places b"t some of them $ere do$nright magical as

$ell. ne night + $as parked on a mo"ntain top in the rocky mo"ntains and the

air $as clear fresh and + co"ld see the glo$ from the moon light "p the

mo"ntains in the distance. -y tho"ght $as E)),F Another time + $as parked

along side a beach in /o"th :lorida and the crash of the $aves soothed me to

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Abo"t t$o to three nights a $eek + $o"ld grab a motel room on my "s"al ro"tes

to refresh and recharge and ended "p making some friends $ith the o$ners

over time. E Ahhh -r. Herron so nice to see yo" again,F !claimed this one

motel o$ner time and time again. 'he motels $ere not fancy b"t rather the

bottom of the barrel. + chose the cheapos d"e to saving money. All + $anted $as

a clean place to sleep in a bed and get a clean sho$er before heading o"t on

the open road again.

ating $as a chore. + had 2 options... Cook my food or eat in over priced tr"ck

stop resta"rants. + often chose option n"mber I... "ying canned goods at the

local dollar store and ="st eating cold pasta from a can. + learned to live on coffee

and chips b"rgers and pop. + finally $ised "p $hen my health took a dive. +t $as

abo"t a year on the road ho$ever before + really learned the ticks of the trade.

/ho$ering... 'he sho$er is a needed l"!"ry on the road so ho$ do yo" sho$er

in a van &o" don4t. &o" pay K to sho$er in the tr"ck stop. 'hey are "s"ally

pretty clean b"t + $ore flip flops to keep my feet off the floor. 'he last thing +

$anted $as some sort of nasty disease.

ften + drove at night p"lling a 4red eye4 from aredo 'e!as to -emphis and left

o"t aro"nd 5pm driving tho"gh the night. + kept myself a$ake by listening to a

$eird sho$ on O- radio called 4Coast to Coast A-4. 'his sho$ is abo"t all things

freaky. :rom aliens to conspiracy theories b"t it helped keep me a$ake. + gre$

fond of lots and lots of coffee as $ell,

/ince + did a lot of my driving at night the heat of the s"n blaring do$n in the

middle of s"mmer $as the $orst. Have yo" ever tried to sleep in a car on a hot

day +t4s abo"t darn near impossible. 'he problem is + co"ld not leave my motor

r"nning as it $as a gas motor and + didn4t $ant to overheat the engine $hile it


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idled. /o ho$ did + sleep d"ring the day in the middle of s"mmer + did abo"t the

most ignorant thing alive... + opened "p all the doors and $indo$s cranked "p

my fan and slept. + co"ld have been robbed n"mero"s times b"t thankf"lly +

never $as.

+ have seen some strange things on the road. + have seen hookers climb o"t of a

tr"ck to $ash her hoohoo from a p"ddle on the gro"nd. + have been asked by a

d"de if he co"ld 4perform se!"al things4 for me. + heard g"nshots in the distance

$hile in 9ary +ndiana. + have "sed my air horn to scare a$ay potential bad

people on many occasions. + even got a P?11 sl"shy thro$n at me beca"se +

didn4t $ant to b"y stolen goods. 'he road is a dangero"s place from time to

time.

"t + loved it, + loved seeing ne$ places all the time. + sa$ the mo"ntains of

Colorado the desert of Nevada northern -ichigan in )inter bea"tif"l beaches

in :lorida and all the great landscapes in bet$een. + have seen the inside of

government facilities that not too many people see. + have driven thro"gh theevils Canyon in Mtah $hich is by for the coolest thing ever. + sa$ m"sic stars

getting o"t of their to"r b"ses. + even e!perienced driving as fast as + $anted

$ith a government escort once.

-ost of all + had time to st"dy the art of trading. + st"died most likely more than

every other person on earth d"ring this time. -y typical day $as something

like... )ake "p and read some trading books listen to trading related a"dio

$hile + drove $atched trading related yo"t"be $hen + dropped off the load and

listening to more a"dio in my sleep. + st"died literally 1Q ho"rs per day at this

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+ $o"ld learn all kinds of trading st"ff from all the 4masters4 o"t there. +f they $ere

on yo"t"be or had a $ebsite + have most likely seen their st"ff. + learned a lot of

great thing and a lot of garbage as $ell b"t the most important part $as that

9od gave me a =ob and lifestyle that allo$ed me to learn. + had more time to

learn this than most people beca"se $hat else $as + going to do $hile driving or

sitting in a parking lot + tried to "se my time $isely.

Note@ -y 4learning abo"t trading4 came a little later as yo" $ill read in a fe$

pages from no$.

3...back to story time...

+t started to hit me that maybe all these years had + ="st been a bit more

positive that my life $o"ld be so m"ch better no$. 'he reali7ation that this

driving =ob $as the 2nd thing that had come to pass ="st after praying and

believing $ith all of my heart that it $o"ld happen. )as there something to this

mystical thinking )as it #"ant"m mechanic entanglement at its finest

ack then vds $ere all the rage and + remember $atching one that sp"n me

right on my head and made everything start to make sense. 'his D $as

called 4'he /ecret4. /ome may call this movie a fake story of fakeness b"t the

principles in the movie have $orked for me ever since + started trying them so

believe $hatever yo" $ant. + kno$ my beliefs so + don4t really care $hat yo"

think.

+n the movie 4'he /ecret4 they convey I main points abo"t the la$ of attraction.

1. /ee it. 2. elieve it. I. Achieve it. 'o me it seemed as this $as a mind trick or

="st a marketing effort b"t + decided + don4t have anything to lose by trying it and


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so + did. + kne$ that positive tho"ghts $ere better. + kne$ that praying and

believing $orked and didn4t kno$ $hy b"t + didn4t act"ally care $hy for once.

'his movie $as even better than the 'ony Robbins tapes + listened to earlier in

life.

'he follo$ing is the honest to 9od tr"th of $hat happened. 'his is $here it gets

$eird...

/itting in a 'ravel Center of America tr"ck stop right o"tside of Cincinnati hio +

remember $riting in my notebook... 4+ $ill get a load to California and + $ill get a

load coming back o"t.4 + did this and believed this beca"se + $as p"tting the la$

of attraction to the test. + $anted to see if + co"ld act"ally make something

happen o"t of thin air. + kne$ that :ed! did not go to California at that time

beca"se there $ere no loads coming back o"t b"t + didn4t care. + $as giving it

my all and believing.

+n order to test the theory + had to act"ally get myself to believe that $hat + $asthinking $as already a done deal. + had to con myself into believing $hat others

$o"ld say is false or a lie. + act"ally had to make "p something and believe it as

real as anything + co"ld to"ch. 'hat day + kept $riting abo"t plans for traveling to

California the ro"te + $o"ld take the sites + $o"ld see along the $ay.

Ring ring ring. + picked "p the phone ERyan $o"ld yo" be interested in a load to

/acramento CaliforniaF + $as floored, + $as ama7ed, At that point + $as a

believer in this mambo ="mbo called the la$ of attraction.

9etting that load is not even the freaky part that made me believe more in the

la$ of attractionB it $as the load + $as ha"ling. + picked "p 10 bags of #"ick?

Crete concrete and took it over 2000 miles to a Home epot in /acramento


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California. 'he load alone cost Home epot over 000. 'his $as a c"stom

critical load so $hy on arth $o"ld they spend tho"sands on some bags of

concrete that they co"ld have p"rchased from a local distrib"tor

)hen + arrived at the drop off location I days later + $anted to find o"t $hy they

spent so m"ch on this load of general concrete so + asked the shipping

manager. + asked him $hy. His response $as that a mistake $as made in the

order system and + $as already there before they fo"nd the glitch. )ell ho$

abo"t that )hat a coincidence.

Not only did + get a load to California b"t + got a load from there to ritish

Colombia and then a load back to maha. All I combined paid o"t over 5000

cash in my pocket for a $eek and a half of driving, /ome may call this

coincidence. + don4t believe in coincidence.

/o here + am living in a van sleeping in parking lots ="st happy as a lark, + $as

making money hand over fist and had finally hit the point that + felt that my life$as $orth something. + $as able to provide for 6oey and hopef"lly see this

girlfriend of mine soon.

-y ne!t prayer $o"ld lead me to the $orld of trading. + ="st didn4t kno$ it at the

time. + am o"t here on the road making a lot of money no$ being able to send

money to my son and doing $hatever + $anted to do and + had a great +dea.

)hat if + co"ld b"y more vans and p"t drivers in them to make this money for

me )hat a fantastic +dea, 'hro"gh a lot of calc"lations and all that =a77 +

fig"red + $o"ld need abo"t 0000 to b"y a fe$ vans and get this b"siness

rolling.


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/o + prayed E ord + need 0000 in order to start this b"sinessF + $as eager to

get that money. + believed as hard as + had believed abo"t the California trip the

girl etc... + believed the 03 $as on its $ay and it s"re $as, 6"st not in the $ay

+ had tho"ght...

)hile coming to a stop in a traffic =am in -emphis 'ennessee a tractor trailer

plo$ed my van at abo"t 0 miles per ho"r and a settlement came in the amo"nt

of abo"t 0000. 'r"e /tory. )hat the + kno$. :reaky h"h

+ took a fe$ $eeks off $ork beca"se + didn4t have a van as it $as no$ a total

$reck. + had to b"y a ne$ one and + also $anted to hire a g"y to drive one. 'he

p"rchases $ere made $ith the settlement from the $reck. After it $as all said

and done + $as driving a van and had another g"y driving one that + had

bo"ght.

'hro"gh the coming months + sa$ that this $as N' $hat + intended $hen +

needed the 0k. + $as going do$n the $rong path even tho"gh + got $as + $asasking for. + $as some$hat scared of driving. very time + sa$ a tractor trailer +

$o"ld cringe. + even become more paranoid at sleeping the back of this van. +

$as thankf"l to have a good =ob that paid the bills b"t + $anted more.

+ $anted a life that $as different. + $as thankf"l of the one + no$ had b"t + g"ess

it $as time to move on to the ne!t step in this =o"rney of life. + had not yet p"t my

act"al $ants into the proper tho"ghts tho"gh. + contin"ed driving and thinking.

riving and thinking. +nstead of thinking like + "sed to think E)hy am + so

miserableF + $o"ld think on $ays to better my life. + $as happy no$ b"t + ="st

kept striving for more. Al$ays looking for opport"nity.


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W'at t'e b/a%k i! a .ore0?

/o + am sitting here at a :lying 6 tr"ck stop and typing a$ay on my laptop

looking for opport"nities to make a bit more money. + $o"ld enter into the &ahoo

search engine $ords s"ch as EHo$ to make money from homeF or E"sinesses

to start for cheapF and vario"s #"eries like that.

'hro"gh the days to follo$ + listed many items into my notebook that may bethings for me to look at in the f"t"re. + $as brain storming at that time. -y $hole

foc"s $as on one simple idea... + needed to find something that $o"ld offer

e!ponential gro$th.

o$ and behold + came across a $ebsite that offered a free stock trading game.

+ did this after hearing a g"y on 'D talking abo"t ho$ short sellers $ere making

oodles of cash and + had no cl"e $hat a short seller $as. All + did $as b"y a

stock and take profit 1 penny higher than $here + bo"ght it. /ometimes it took a

$hile b"t + had $on every single time + had done this. + tho"ght E-9 + can not

lose,F

+ #"ickly fo"nd fore! and $as hooked. + had a lot to learn tho"gh. + didn4t even

kno$ $hat the bid%ask spread $as and + $as getting highly pissed off every time

+ opened a position and $as immediately at a loss. 'hro"gh reading $ebsites

s"ch as fore! factory and dailyf! + soon reali7ed that + didn4t kno$ $hat + didn4t

kno$. Rednecks $o"ld say E&o" don4t kno$ s#"at,F


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+ started looking for pod casts and a"dio books that + co"ld listen to abo"t

trading $hile + $as driving. +

trading barefoot by ryan herron c 2015

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