traces of her shadows

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H O C K S O N F L O I N

Tr aces of herS h a d o w s

Copyright 2009, Hksn


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When someone finds a flower impressive,

Who will think of t he stalk holding it?

Ill remember my French girl, not because the one whobroke my heart,

cause the one who taught me how to love.


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Traces of her Shadows

If you believe in immortal life then, how you planned to spend it?

A very common question from the religious believers,

Im also the believer of a religion andEsther the beautiful Jewess chosen by the king of Persia to be his queen is

someone I think very often when I start to write how beautiful the girl Im

going to talk about is.

And for this question three possible answers we can expect from people,

The first answer is

I may suffer in noisy and unrestrained Hell,

Ill walk with god like Enoch walked in this world and angels will come around

us in heaven

Answer of supernatural believers and

The third, nothing named immortal life Says agnostics.

I got a different answer for this question.

I lived with dreams,

I set goals to reach,

Not even my single move was made without reason,

Every step took me close to the joyful life I dreamt,

I lived for her; I greatly aimed for a life to live with her.

Shes beautiful, the girl I talk about.

She got everything but Im not knotted with whom I desired to live.


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She is all I think about,

she is everything that I need.

I loved her more than many things in life;

She is the deep meaning for my life.

I counted my weeks for a new beginning but

she was plucked out from the garden where she flourished.

When someone finds a flower impressive,

who will think of the stalk holding it?

This happened!

I lost my crown and

getting weak daily like how a stalk dries and fall down from the plant.

But Im sure,she will always remember the impressions I made in her life like

scars left behind by fallen leaves on the trunk of palms.

Whatever happens,

how many kids she brings forth in her life,

no one in this world could doubt on our love.

I dont have belief in immortal life of a soul, but

As long as our breath strolls in this earth, someone from somewhere willfeel what it means true love,

As of me this is what immortality means-the term never ending.

Gir l Of Hksn Text 2 1.11.2006

Its the same sky 4 all t hose who look up,

But it s not the same wor ld 4all those who look around.

But 'girl of Hksn'"shez Hksn's wor ld"

Whether I look up r look around.


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Days are going without any hope and expectations;

its the tenth month after I realized she is not for me.

All my dreams and desires went vain ever since she got married.

Its a summer morning in south India,

Saturday

The seventh and last day of the week,

A day set aside for rest by Jews,

I was moving towards my house with my father

who is sitting to my left whereas,

Im driving the car,

the route where we are travelling is much familiar to me,this route, I take very often to travel and

is one of my favorite road,

a road way filled with many of my old memories and

was once banned for me to use, but

I never unloved this Princess of my hearts highway.

After all these days, whenever I travel through this road

my mind will down falls to my 17th age, and

will experience the joy of improbable-the days of my life when I possessed her cordially and held the role

Man of her world.

All these memories running in front of me like her shadows

whilst Im moving at a speed of 40kmph.

Suddenly at one place,

Ive always seen her smiling but

today she is not there andnever seen her there after marriage but

saw a car- the car she owned after her marriage,

tears filled the iris of my eye and my vision blurred,

cried inside and a droplet ran through my cheeks and fell on my lap

A part of energy which I saved for a life to live with her.


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Retained my vision after the downpour and

continued my journey with my father towards my house but

still wandered behind the traces of her shadows she left for me to

live rest of my life with.

Rather than staying alone,

this trace of her shadows comforts me well

at the time of misery.

Whenever I pass on through that road

Ill always feel she is watching me.

The trace of her shadows remains me,I was once her lover.

I loved her but

she behaved like the withering petals over the ground

She flourished in my heart,

Withered,

When the wind came from a well settled lad and

Fell on the ground called marriage.

Though it was not a happy ending

I still love to think of you sweet heart.

"My Heart Grieves"

A great girl of my life and an important Inspirer to my

Write is about to marry."My Heart Grieves to miss the mighty Hksn's feminine.

My desire of living with her reached its end while

designing my dr eams for the new life to live with her .

Gir l Of Hksn Text 06 .06 .20 08


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At my very little age of 12

I started dreaming about her at nights and

depict her as the beautiful female characters Cinderella and Snow white and

Ive always been the prince of both stories.

Now Im 22, still continues the 10 year old habit of dreaming about her but

these days not depicting her in other characters,

Ill bring her in my dream - the way how I wanted to see her in my life.

The most fascinating among those dreams is published in the title

Pacific Dreams and Scottish Desires.

Its possible to figure-out mistakes in this write but

not even a word or a feeling I tried to show in this write is fake or drama,all from the life I lived behind her shadows.

Gir l Of Hksn Text 29.11.2006

Once in me li ved a gir l,She sti ll l ives, but not inside me.

She just vacated off saying

'Stop bothering me''Girl of Hksn'

Do u wants me to wr ite down all that I have is yours"

I dont have anything to show others as a mark of our love but

As long as I live in this earth,

Its possible to show them the traces of her shadow.

They are not just shadows,I live with them,

they respond to my smiles,

as you took the role earlier in my life.

If you look back in your life, what would you remember about Me.?


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I never said you are Juliet;

I just wanted you the way you are,

you are unique to me,

I always wanted to posses you legally thats the reason,

why I never asked for CLOSED-DOOR practicals or adolescent transgression,

but Im proud now,

I gave you to your hubby as virgin

as of how your mother brought you to this earth.

Young boys like Rafael Nadal

came like storms to replace the old Roger federer but

he was firmly fixed for certain period and dominated tennis but

in my case it was not young guys,

a previous generation guy came like wind,

threw me aside and possessed her legally.

Like I said in my previous post

STORY OF LOOSER

I know what we had is dead and gone.

And I don't mean to interrupt your life.

There's a question I just gotta ask.

Do I ever cross your mind?

Do you ever think of me, Anymore?

Drenched happiness with my FRENCH girl will not knock my door again.Those old phone calls with SIEMENS will not ring again.

"Hksn's past life passed away,Only tear remains"

Girl of Hksn Text 18.10.07


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Now I ask to myself,

About what I should dream now,

Where should I reach?

For whom Im running?

I couldnt able to figure out the answer for all these questions.

Without you I'm creeping all around the town looking at those traces of your

shadows.

Your marriage and your life in international city clearly say

Isnt that your dream comes true?

I'm happy in the way you made a fortunate beginning after marriage butin rest of my life nothing will make you to ask this same question to me

Isnt that Hksn, your dream comes true?

because, none of my dream was without your part in it,

Ive always dreamt of a life with you,

So this question will not make any sense in my life.

Solitude is never perfect without some vestige of life.

Written by a kind of man like me,I agree with him,

My life of being alone would not be perfect without her shadows and

memories.

If my dream of* living in SCOTTLAND,

* shopping with DOLLARS,

* using GUCCI products will not come tr ue, andThen I could miss something.

But'Girl of Hksn'

I will miss everything, if I miss to live a life with you.Girl Of Hksn 02.05.2007


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Now Ive chosen my path to walk alone,

I'm independent,

I can make my own path to travel no one can question me.I can say to you that I cant change your mind,

It wont be good to change the mind set of some ones wife.

I got to let you go,

nothing will ever be the same and

nothing remained same in our life,

so just go on your way,

go ahead and do your things with your family you choose to live.

She lives over and over again in my dr eams,Time is going on

but st ill couldnt understand whats my fate with her .

'Girl of Hksn'So dir ect f r om my hear t

"You the greatest gir l I ever had."

Gir l Of Hksn Text 3 1.03.2007

I got a wish and I believe you will hear me if you read this article,

Some days later, I may also find a life for me,

Its difficult to accept someone in the place where I dreamt to keep you as my

wife but

Like its said inADIDAS advertisement nothing is impossible

I believe everything is possible and

all I need is,

You should come to my marriage andshould look the girl who replaced your position.

That would be a hard moment to see you coming with kids and husband,

but all I want is to see you on my auspicious day and

that would be greatest moment in my life if it happens.


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These are just the traces of our shadows;

It will take another lifetime to picturesque these unfeasible moments which

made those ineradicable shadows in my life.

As long as our breath st rolls in this ear th,

Someone from somewhere will feel

What it means true love.

HKSN FLOIN Copyright 2009, Hksn

"If it happens to see her smile every day, then

my loveWill endure forever ."

Girl Of Hksn Text 05.12.2006


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