the water meter
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THE WATER METER
a short story
by Vassiliki Panagioteli
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I raised my eyes high up to the sky. Angry clouds through and through
presaged a sad day. For quite a while icy drops of rain had begun to fall,
which would not take long to turn into snow.
- Afraid we won’t make it in time, mum?
She, wrapped in a scarf up to her eyes, chose not to respond. She raised
her head to the sky and gazed at the clouds, looking for something to say,
but did not find it.
It had always been like this. The words that could not be said remained
hanging in the air. I knew it well, so I did not insist. I stood there looking
up as well, waiting for a sign that perhaps the weather would not wreak
its anger upon us, at least for a few more hours. A couple of hours earlier
we had travelled in silence the distance to the sea, in a journey so odd for
this season of the year.
Reaching the hut we called summer house, I did not expect that the two
trees in the front yard would cause me such intense fear and insecurity,
outrunning even that torrent of nostalgia, which was waiting for nearly
ten years to burst out.
- You see how high they’ve gone?
I nodded, not wishing to put into words the panic that conquered me at
their sight from the first moment I laid eyes on them. The trees were
standing imperiously in their kingdom moving their huge branches at the
blowing of the wind, all-mighty in the ground, ignorant of the future
looming ahead on this last day of the year. Never had I looked at trees
with so much attention and fear. As far as the eye could reach they spread
out their thick branches, climbing even higher than the electricity wires,
which seemed powerless to obstruct their course.
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I see nothing else. Only two colossal trees, two poplars, reaching up high
for the sky as if wishing to conquer the world. Branches everywhere and
labyrinthine roots pushing the ground upward. Strong and wild, they
ruled the place, arrogant like love in the years of youth.
I hear nothing else but the whistle of the wind through the naked
branches, threatening and imploring at the same time. I held my breath
making a wish. Today these two poplars would be cut off, would
evacuate the place, would relieve not only my fears but those of the
neighbours, who were concerned about the foundations of their houses.
- You better stay in the car, mum. You’ll freeze outside.
I got dizzy looking up, so I looked down defeated and the fear grew
stronger. Their roots had pushed up the paving-stones of the yard, as if
there was no room for them on the ground, and were furiously searching
for another, more ample place to expand.
I think of nothing else. I wish for nothing else. I gaze at their roots in
awe. Not being able to sink in any deeper, they had taken the way
upwards seeking the water that would keep them alive. So close to the sea
they had no other choice for survival.
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The little house in the back of the plot looked dilapidated, as much as its
fifteen years of abandonment. Something in the colours of the walls still
showed its old, middle-class grandeur. If you could strain your ears to
listen to the wind whispering, you might hear the flapping of bed sheets
hanging along washing lines some carefree teenage summers, simulating
awnings which no one would dare buy in this wild place.
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Back then, multi-coloured phials of medicine for the heart were hanging
at the entrance of the square veranda, like precious ornament purchased
with taste and aristocratic luxury. The flower beds were bursting with real
flowers, which were struggling to resist withering, inevitable in this salty
soil. Despite their irrevocable fate, they strove to show off the pink and
purple colours of their history under the cooling shade of the two young
trees, which had started to send forth their wide leaves, ignorant of their
destiny to pass prematurely to oblivion.
The little kitchen was bursting with life despite its tiny world. It could fit
an entire summer with lunches soaked in heat and salt, as well as dinners
on the veranda along with an unstoppable fight against mosquitoes and
gnats, which intrepidly sucked life out of all living beings around.
Adjacent to the kitchen, there had been build a shack out of tin, wire and
wood bearing the ambitious sign “Barber’s shop” of grandfather’s, who
occasionally exercised the profession during the summers. Inside it was
dark and sad. A warehouse aspiring to become a shop. Only the royal
chair with its brown, velvet upholstery reminded a little of that aspiration.
The mirror opposite, large but frameless, nailed on the wood, was ideal
for recollections on the days of thunder.
Then, the poplars rustled their leaves vigorously, threateningly shook
their branches, manifesting the dominance they had been promised to
conquer since the beginning of the world. Shoulders bent in fear of a
gloomy future, of an incontrollable speed towards the inevitable, towards
the time that leveled the earth much later than the creation of dreams.
Innocent dreams, frugal, deprived of the gravity that kept them tied to
earth for now and forever.
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I made my way to the car and sat beside her trying to warm my numb
hands. I tried to visualize the place without the two poplars, which for
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years now had been nailed to the scenery. I could not do it. Their fate was
in my hands and my decision that they had to be cut off was inescapable.
- You think they won’t come?
Before I had the time to answer, I saw the crew in the mirror taking the
turn into the road.
- They are here, mum. Finally!
Opening the car door, I was struck by the cold wind in the face. I should
not have brought mum along. The cold had become more bitter and the
icy drizzle had been turned to real snow for good.
Her black figure staring at the trees and agonizing clasped my heart. I
could not remember her anymore as she was before putting on the black
clothes forever since dad’s death. I could no longer remember her in
colours, except only when I looked into the blue of her eyes. Only this
reminded me something of the past, this blue which I inherited.
She was standing there in the wind clasping her hands around her in order
to stop the trembling. She watched in awe the height of the trees to be cut
off, not believing as well that it was possible to be done. Her round, black
figure was filling my gaze, nothing else more real and painful could fit
inside me. The men of the crew had already climbed onto the branches
looking for a start to this macabre task.
The wind was hissing everywhere, the sea was threatening to come
ashore and swallow us all, obstructing us to venture on our sacrilegious
intentions. The rain, melancholic and erosive, kept on soaking our
clothes, reminding us of our mortality and ludicrousness.
Only the poplars stood imperious, indifferent and desperately remote, as
if they knew nothing or as if they knew the end but did not want to yield.
When the first branch landed on the ground, I turned my eyes away.
- You better go back in the car, mum. There’s no point to be
standing in the cold.
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When was the first time I set foot on this sandy, warm place? This
memory was also lost under the burden of more recent ones, which strong
and full of life did not allow with their nasty smell for anything else to
smell. I would have to dig deep or perhaps turn my eyes to the chopped
branches piling with rage in the yard.
The sound of the chain-saw or the whistle of the wind was howling in my
ears tantalizing and liberating all at once, airing the foul smells and bad
remnants of life. First I turned my eyes to the car. Mum’s blue gaze had
for quite some time now been fixed on me. I sought her opinion and she
looked high up to the trees, which were giving their unfair fight against
human decision and mechanical power. There were no more branches on
one poplar anymore, just a thick, maltreated trunk, which stood like a log
motionless and unyielding before the work witnessing his imminent
death.
I had never wanted to be part of this. It was not my life. It was the lives of
others who had burdened me with this lethal undertaking. Could this
always be the case? How many of the things in my life were actually
decisions of the free will of a free person? Perhaps a few, if I were lucky.
I looked again at the car and the black-dressed figure quickly met my eye.
Who else could have been here with me today? No one else. Only this
eternal woman who cried diaphanous tears, like when dad was gone
leaving her alone. Only her who was now sitting in the car, defeated by
the cold but not the ills of fate, insubordinate, absolute and in constant
conflict with life.
I should not have brought her along. I thought of myself more and of my
weakness to bring this day to a close, without the help of someone else by
my side. Like a kind of self-punishment, I obstinately refused to sit in the
car with her. I endured the freezing gusts of wind, paying part of the price
for my weakness.
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The last hours of the year were vanishing in the icy drizzle of this
almighty sky of sadness. They were passing by like so many others
before them, sometime in another life, around a fireplace with familiar
faces, who could not warm me though. Never had there been sleet more
matching to these hours, the final and agonizing hours of the year that
was bidding farewell to the world.
Wanting to or not, the eye met with the clouds amongst branches which
kept falling relentlessly on the paving stones of the yard, these same
clouds which would accompany people’s lonelinesses on earth, when
there would be no witnesses around to support the lightness of life, when
tedious talk would get tired as well, when silence would fall sugary and
weepy and thoughts would find an outlet in the air and start dancing
around people, disturbing their blissful comfort.
These same clouds, this same liberating sky that was always there, like
today. It was New Year’s Eve no more. There were no calendars for these
moments. Only branches that fell down with a thud, severed from their
mother, smashing everything in their path, shuttering pasts, making
presents intolerable, imagination-free.
The blue gaze was following me incessantly; I felt it moving onto me in
desperation. I never turned to meet it again, there was no reason. I knew
well what it was showing, what it was telling me, what it was asking of
me.
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The branches kept on falling with an earsplitting noise in this edge of the
world, which seemed to have been stuck in another era, back when snakes
predominated in the bulrushes and mosquitoes came down mercilessly on
any flesh that dared undress before darkness fell.
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There were no ordinary houses, only dark green tents with camp-beds for
the holiday-makers and primitive sanitation conditions. When summer
storms would break out, everything got covered in mud, but it was not
capable of scaring anyone. They would watch the sky from inside the
tent, exactly the same way I was watching it now myself. They knew that
the heavy clouds would go away for other places sooner or later, that the
fitful south wind would eventually give way to its rage and the sun would
shower everything with its glare once again, high up in its blue house.
The only thing that would remind the ferocity of the previous hours
would be the wet sand and the waters of the sea that would carry on being
stirred in the vast mixer of earth.
Today the wind would not give way, making the macabre task of the
chain-saw even harder. The final hours of the dying year were rolling
slowly, icily, painfully. This devastating task seemed to be proceeding
and having stopped at the same time. Nothing was moving and all
together swirled in the whirl of time. No blue anywhere. Only the eyes
that kept staring at me inquiringly through the frozen window of the car.
Down on the ground wreckage of two trees, two lives, two pasts
indissolubly intertwined with an invisible thread in the cycle of being.
- Come inside, you’ll freeze! – I heard the fatal blue trying to say.
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What can two poplars do to you? How have they become the problem of
a well-designed life?
When they were planted, the sea was still a tender image. With the group
of summer friends, we used to dive in its warm waters, staring at the little
boats in the horizon, feeling starved after hours of play. During those
summers we learned more than we should have, but would never forget
for a minute, perhaps only when the veil of life would fall heavy on our
teenage expectations and they would vanish in the darkness awaiting a
light so that they could shine again in their grandeur.
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The trees were then little like us, weak but altogether strong, fearless and
ignorant, ephemeral like the happy clouds that momentarily blurred the
relentless summer sun. I used to glare at the obstacles of this course,
everyone would smell them in the air which blew and swept the sand,
sending it in gusts onto the wet skin. These clouds would not have been
so innocent and carefree forever.
- There is no sadder place like an empty, rainy beach -
I would recall at the times of darkness, being all sarcastic of the lack of
light, seeking that wet sand that chilled the feet, but kept them warmer
than the cold of loneliness in maturity.
The trees were still there. There, in front of me, being mutilated with rage
by the iron and the noise of the chain-saw, by human motive to get rid of
the burden of problems, which were not avoided with the teenage mind
and the force of the sea current and the wind of the dusk.
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The cold grew stronger as the day was closing in, making this sad duty
even harder. The thud grew heavier and heavier, just like the moments of
life that become unbearable from one point on. The drizzle froze the soul,
whitewashed the stare, brought in the eye the despair of desolation, the
pausing of feelings, the petrification of any thought. The eyes could only
look, they did not connect to thoughts. The mind froze, too. It shut the
windows, hid in the darkness, rejected the light, remained silent.
When did silence fall?
When was hearing lost?
When did the eyes close?
The blue gaze was the only warmth upon me, the eternal warmth, the
never ending anxiety that I would never feel. The sun would not come out
again like back then to warm our play on the sand. Those salty evenings
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with the clouds of dusk painting red the edge of the horizon would never
return. The flavours had changed, saltiness was prohibited, the sun was
dangerous, the trees had to be cut off, die, the problems to keep silent,
their roots to be cut, to be exterminated.
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The time which flies by, which passed and perhaps stood once, was there,
on the trunks of the mutilated trees. Nodes, scrapes and perfectly
concentric circles on the flattened trunks, with the roots gasping for air
and fresh water in this salty, sandy soil. Time would not pause easily one
more time, like back then in the youth when all was possible. The course
had been predesigned since the rotation of the earth in the cosmos, with
witnesses being the clouds and alibi the ignorance of what tomorrow has
in stock.
The macabre task was over with the daylight, the last of this strange year.
The drizzle, icy and merciless, kept on hoping to become a storm through
the hollow rumbling far behind the mountain. I bent my head to the
ground, obeying to primitive instincts urging me to see my feet stand on
dry land, even a few metres away from the galloping sea of my winter.
The cold could not touch me anymore, except that I could not feel my
hands in the pockets of my jacket.
I breathed in deep the familiar air of this primitive place, like those who
had planted the two poplars here many years before in order to shade
their summers. The same relief and sadness that accompanies the works
of life and death of everything unique in this life. I tried to picture their
faces, all red from the morning sun, with hope in their eyes for what
would come with branches full of leaves and summers filled with joy.
Where were those moments? In whose mind had they remained intact,
exactly like they were lived?
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In the clouds, in the sky, in the ground that were now weeping for the
disaster and the massacre. I felt small, like when you do not build but tear
down. Looking at the dying branches of the trees fallen incoherently on
the ground I felt deep in the place of the soul the darkness that falls on
what we call future. It would not be easy to erase from the memory of the
world these two tragedies, which were once trees with wide leaves and
universal dreams.
I bent my head and accepted the fate which was right now beginning.
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- It’s all over, mum. Come and see.
We walked side by side. Silence was falling heavier and heavier amongst
the branches which were piling now severed from life. Somewhere at the
edge of the plot a strong noise awakened us from the numbness. There
was water flowing, a lot of water.
- The water meter must have broken. What do we do now?
In panic I turned to look at her, unable to believe that this day would
never end. I took a quick look at the spot where the water was gushing
out, trying to estimate how deep under the chopped wood the meter could
be. It was impossible to be reached. I would have to climb on top of the
branches, lift the ones on the lid of the water meter, lift the lid, sink my
hand to its full extent inside the shaft, find the valve and turn it off.
- It’s impossible, mum. And in a while we won’t be able to see at all.
Defeated by the cold and the anxiety, I did not sense her absence from
beside me straightaway, but only when I raised my eyes looking for a
solution from heaven to this extended torment. She was there, on top of
the branches, gasping from the effort to lift them and throw them away. I
stood still watching the strength that I never knew those white hands were
hiding, now bleeding from their touch with the wood and the cold. All of
a sudden, she vanished, as if a deep well had swallowed her, yet I could
hear her breathing, I could hear the grinding of iron and the pressure of
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water settling until I saw her again emerging with the sleeve of her left
hand rolled up as far as the shoulder.
- We can leave now. New Year is almost here.
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Gone are the trees which once supported the existence of some dream.
They were slaughtered out of lack of knights which protected them with
their lives. Breath was lost, became another, thinner and scentless.
Yesterday was put in the chest destined for a dusty attic, abandoned in the
oblivion of time and the indifference of tomorrow.
There were no more words. Only gazes and silences.
The water meter, albeit turned off, carried on keeping readings...
April 2009
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