the ultimate truth of my life a philosophy of pessimism
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THE ULTIMATE THE ULTIMATE TRUTH OF MY TRUTH OF MY
LIFE!LIFE!Words Composed by:Words Composed by:
Raj K Pandey, MBS, MA Raj K Pandey, MBS, MA [email protected]@yahoo.com
[email protected] [email protected]
[email protected] [email protected]
Jawalakhel, Lalitpur Jawalakhel, Lalitpur
GPO BOX: 19862,Kathmandu, NepalGPO BOX: 19862,Kathmandu, Nepal
Mobile: 977-01-98510 86884Mobile: 977-01-98510 86884
Mobile: 977-01-9841 813529Mobile: 977-01-9841 813529
Date: 10:00pm, 30 May 2010 (Sun)Date: 10:00pm, 30 May 2010 (Sun)
I reached to the east and I reached to the west;I reached to the east and I reached to the west;I reached everywhere for the sake of survival;I reached everywhere for the sake of survival;When I reviewed my life in a point of time;When I reviewed my life in a point of time;Suddenly, I realized where I have exactly Suddenly, I realized where I have exactly reached, at last!reached, at last!
When I used to dream during my innocent childhood;When I was in unconditional love with my near one and the dear one;When I was in a total freedom of choice amid the nature;I naively used to thought, oh! Life is really a heaven!
But, when the course of my life changed;When I felt extreme lonely among the mob of the people;I thought, I had had acquired everything;But, what exactly I have acquired in my real life. I was merely survived for an elusive life.
I have lost several things in my life;I have lost inner peace and the happiness of my soul;My precious onetime life has been vanished into the elusion;For the sake of running behind the mirage but to get nothing;I have lost everything, which my life had naturally given to me.
I have completely forgotten to happily survive my life;As I have unnecessarily worried and focused to learn how to survive;I don't know where my natural happiness has gone, forever;I have totally forgotten to laugh and smile!
While running for the sake While running for the sake of getting physical of getting physical comforts;comforts;I have completely forgotten I have completely forgotten to live my natural life!to live my natural life!I might have been noticed I might have been noticed as an achiever for the as an achiever for the outsiders;outsiders;Others might have Others might have considered me as a great considered me as a great persona;persona;
But, while I thoroughly But, while I thoroughly scrutinized myself from the scrutinized myself from the bottom of my soul;bottom of my soul;Suddenly, I realized: what I Suddenly, I realized: what I have exactly achieved in the have exactly achieved in the total race of my life?total race of my life?And, where I have eventually And, where I have eventually reached in the course of my reached in the course of my life!life!
Composed by:
Raj K Pandey, MBS, MA [email protected]@gmail.com
[email protected] Jawalakhel, Lalitpur,
GPO BOX: 19862, Kathmandu, NEPAL
Mobile: 977-01-98510 86884Mobile: 977-01-9841 813529
Date: 10:00pm, 30 May 2010 (Sunday)
Note for Discussion:This write-up was prepared for the speak of mind at 10:00pm on 30 May 2010 (Sunday) to creatively use the load-shedding time in home, keeping in mind - NRN, for Global Nepalese Language Speaking Communities, Organized by NRN, Boston, USA. I had intensively discussed/interacted with several retired Lahure communities, who had spent energetic young blood in abroad and eventually returned to their homelands, simply to wait for death. I noticed them lamenting for loosing some beautiful aspects in life: loneliness feeling due to lack of love/family, and identity crisis in abroad, albeit they were financially secure for whole life! This write-up is targeted, especially for those:A professional, who achieves career height, but eventually retires at 60; A businessman, who works for 24/07, but finally collapses;A beautiful/handsome wo/man, who refuses/ignores the intimate love/marriage proposals, but ultimately feels extremely lonely, when the wrinkles starts on her/his face and s/he is sick; A politician, who uses hanky-panky to gain power/authority, but ultimately returns to the ground reality;An intellectual, who has enough information in the mind but merely for the sake of knowledge;A NRN, who abandons homeland, but mentally and emotionally in own country and psychologically facing identify crisis; andAll the people, who are surviving in nostalgic life after 60 years! Composed by: Raj K Pandey, MBS, MA (10:00pm at home, 30 May 2010 Sunday)Jawalakhel, Lalitpur, GPO Box: 19862, Kathmandu, Nepal,Mobile: 977-01-98510-86884/[email protected],[email protected],[email protected]