The Terminal Beach

At night, as he lay asleep on the floor of the ruinedbunker, Traven heard the waves breaking along theshore of the lagoon, like the sounds of giant aircraftwarming up at the ends of their runways. Thismemory of the great night raids against the Japanesemainland had filled his first months on the islandwith images of burning bombers falling through theair around him. Later, with the attacks of ben-ben,the nightmare passed and the waves began to remindhim of the deep Atlantic rollers on the beach atDakar, where he had been born, and of watching fromthe window in the evenings for his parents to drivehome along the corniche road from the airport.Overcome by this long-forgotten memory, he wokeuncertainly from the bed of old magazines on whichhe slept and went out to the dunes that screened thelagoon. Through the cold night air he could see theabandoned Superfortresses lying among the palmsbeyond the perimeter of the emergency landing fieldthree hundred yards away. Traven walked throughthe dark sand, already forgetting where the shore lay,although the atoll was little more than half a mile inwidth. Above him, along the crests of the dunes, thetall palms leaned into the dim air like the symbols ofa cryptic alphabet. The landscape of the island wascovered by strange ciphers.

Giving up the attempt to find the beach, Travenstumbled into a set of tracks left years earlier by alarge caterpillar vehicle. The heat released by theweapons tests had fused the sand, and the double lineof fossil imprints, uncovered by the evening air,wound its serpentine way among the hollows like thefootfalls of an ancient saurian. Too weak to walk any further, Traven sat downbetween the tracks. Hoping that they might lead himto the beach, he began to excavate the wedge-shapedgrooves from a drift into which they disappeared. Hereturned to the bunker shortly before dawn, and sleptthrough the hot silences of the following noon.

The Blocks

As usual on these enervating afternoons, when noteven a breath of on-shore breeze disturbed the dust,Traven sat in the shadow of one of the blocks, lostsomewhere within the centre of the maze. His backresting against the rough concrete surface, he gazedwith a phlegmatic eye down the surrounding aislesand at the line of doors facing him. Each afternoon heleft his cell in the abandoned camera bunker amongthe dunes and walked down into the blocks. For thefirst half an hour he restricted himself to theperimeter aisle, now and then trying one of the doorswith the rusty key in his pocket - found among thelitter of smashed bottles and cans in the isthmus ofsand separating the testing ground from the air-strip

- and then inevitably, with a sort of drugged stride, heset off into the centre of the blocks, breaking into arun and darting in and out of the corridors, as iftrying to flush some invisible opponent from hishiding place. Soon he would be completely lost.Whatever his efforts to return to the perimeter, healways found himself once more in the centre. Eventually he would abandon the task, and sitdown in the dust, watching the shadows emerge fromtheir crevices at the foot of the blocks. For somereason he invariably arranged to be trapped when thesun was at zenith - on Eniwetok, the thermonuclearnoon. One question in particular intrigued him: 'Whatsort of people would inhabit this minimal concretecity?'

The Synthetic Landscape

'This island is a state of mind,' Osborne, one of thescientists working in the old submarine pens, waslater to remark to Traven. The truth of this becameobvious to Traven within two or three weeks of hisarrival. Despite the sand and the few anaemic palms,the entire landscape of the island was synthetic, aman-made artefact with all the associations of a vastsystem of derelict concrete motorways. Since themoratorium on atomic tests, the island had beenabandoned by the Atomic Energy Commission, andthe wilderness of weapons aisles, towers and

blockhouses ruled out any attempt to return it to itsnatural state. (There were also stronger unconsciousmotives, Traven recognized: if primitive man felt theneed to assimilate events in the external world to hisown psyche, 20th century man had reversed thisprocess; by this Cartesian yardstick, the island atleast existed, in a sense true of few other places.) But apart from a few scientific workers, no one yetfelt any wish to visit the former testing ground, andthe naval patrol boat anchored in the lagoon had beenwithdrawn three years before Traven's arrival. Itsruined appearance, and the associations of the islandwith the period of the Cold War - what Traven hadchristened 'The Pre-Third' were profoundlydepressing, an Auschwitz of the soul whosemausoleums contained the mass graves of the stillundead. With the RussoAmerican dŽtente thisnightmarish chapter of history had been gladlyforgotten. The Pro- Third The actual and potentialdestructiveness of the atomic bomb plays straightinto the hands of the Unconscious. The most cursorystudy of the dream-life and fantasies of the insaneshows that ideas of world-destruction are latent inthe unconscious mind... Nagasaki destroyed by themagic of science is the nearest man has yetapproached to the realization of dreams that evenduring the safe immobility of sleep are accustomed todevelop into nightmares of anxiety. Glover: 'War, Sadism and Pacifism'

The Pre-Third: the period was characterized inTraven's mind above all by its moral andpsychological inversions, by its sense of the whole ofhistory, and in particular of the immediate future -the two decades, 1945-65 - suspended from thequivering volcano's lip of World War III. Even thedeath of his wife and six-year-old son in a motoraccident seemed only part of this immense synthesisof the historical and psychic zero, the frantichighways where each morning they met their deathsthe advance causeways to the global armageddon.

Third Beach

He had come ashore at midnight, after a hazardoussearch for an opening in the reef. The smallmotorboat he had hired from an Australian pearl-diver at Charlotte Island subsided into the shallows,its hull torn by the sharp coral. Exhausted, Travenwalked through the darkness among the dunes,where the dim outlines of bunkers and concretetowers loomed between the palms. He woke the next morning into bright sunlight,lying halfway down the slope of a wide concretebeach. This ringed an empty reservoir or target basinsome two hundred feet in diameter, part of a systemof artificial lakes built down the centre of the atoll.Leaves and dust choked the exit grilles, and a pool ofwarm water two feet deep lay below him, reflecting adistant line of palms.

Traven sat up and took stock of himself. This briefinventory, which merely confirmed his physicalidentity, was limited to little more than his thin bodyin its frayed cotton garments. In the context of thesurrounding terrain, however, even this collection oftatters seemed to possess a unique vitality. Thedesolation and emptiness of the island, and theabsence of any local fauna, were emphasized by thehuge sculptural forms of the target basins set into itssurface. Separated from each other by narrowisthmuses, the lakes stretched away along the curveof the atoll. On either side, sometimes shaded by thefew palms that had gained a precarious purchase inthe cracked cement, were roadways, camera towersand isolated blockhouses, together forming acontinuous concrete cap upon the island, afunctional, megalithic architecture as grey andminatory (and apparently as ancient, in its projectioninto, and from, time future) as any of Assyria andBabylon. The series of weapons tests had fused the sand inlayers, and the pseudogeological strata condensed thebrief epochs, microseconds in duration, ofthermonuclear time. Typically the island inverted thegeologist's maxim, 'The key to the past lies in thepresent.' Here, the key to the present lay in thefuture. This island was a fossil of time future, itsbunkers and blockhouses illustrating the principlethat the fossil record of life was one of armour andthe exoskeleton.

Traven knelt in the warm pool, and splashed hisshirt and trousers. The reflection revealed the wateryimage of gaunt shoulders and bearded face. He hadcome to the island with no supplies other than a smallbar of chocolate, assuming that in some way theisland would provide its own sustenance. Perhaps,too, he had identified the need for food with aforward motion in time, and that with his return tothe past, or at most into a zone of non-time, this needwould be eliminated. The privations of the previoussix months, during his journey across the Pacific, hadalready reduced his always thin body to that of amigrant beggar, held together by little more than thepreoccupied gaze in his eye. Yet this emaciation, bystripping away the superfluities of the flesh, revealedan inner sinewy toughness, an economy anddirectness of movement. For several hours Traven wandered about,inspecting one bunker after another for a convenientplace to sleep. He crossed the remains of a smalllanding field, next to a dump where a dozen B-29s layacross one another like dead reptile birds.

The Corpses

Once he entered a small street of metal shacks,containing a cafeteria, recreation rooms and showerstalls. A wrecked jukebox lay half-buried in the sandbehind the cafeteria, its selection of records still intheir rack.

Further along, flung into a small target lake fiftyyards from the shacks, were the bodies of what at firsthe thought were the former inhabitants of this ghosttown - a dozen life-size plastic models. Their half-melted faces, contorted into bleary grimaces, gazedup at him from the jumble of legs and torsoes. On either side of him, muffled by the dunes, camethe sounds of waves, the great rollers on the seawardside breaking over the reefs, and on to the beacheswithin the lagoon. However, he avoided the sea,hesitating before any rise or dune that might take himwithin its sight. Everywhere the camera towersoffered him a convenient aerial view of the confusedtopography of the island, but he avoided their rustingladders. Traven soon realized that however random theblockhouses and towers might seem, their commonfocus dominated the landscape and gave to it aunique perspective. As he noticed when he sat downto rest in the window slit of one of the bunkers, allthese observation posts occupied positions on a seriesof concentric perimeters, moving in tightening arcstowards the inmost sanctuary. This ultimate circle,below ground zero, remained hidden beyond a line ofdunes a quarter of a mile to the west.

The Terminal Bunker

After sleeping for a few nights in the open, Travenreturned to the concrete beach where he had woken

on his first morning on the island, and made hishome - if the term could be applied to that dampcrumbling hovel - in a camera bunker fifty yards fromthe target lakes. The dark chamber between the thickcanted walls, tomb-like though it might seem, gavehim a sense of physical reassurance. Outside, thesand drifted against the sides, halfburying the narrowdoorway, as if crystallizing the immense epoch oftime that had elapsed since the bunker'sconstruction. The narrow rectangles of the fivecamera slits, their shapes and positions determinedby the instruments, studded the west wall like runicideograms. Variations on these ciphers decorated thewalls of the other bunkers, the unique signature ofthe island. In the mornings, if Traven was awake, hewould always find the sun divided into its fiveemblematic beacons. Most of the time the chamber was filled only by adamp gloomy light. In the control tower at thelanding field Traven found a collection of discardedmagazines, and used these to make a bed. One day,lying in the bunker shortly after the first attack ofben-ben, he pulled out a magazine pressing into hisback and found inside it a full-page photograph of asix-year-old girl. This blonde-haired child, with hercomposed expression and self-immersed eyes, filledhim with a thousand painful memories of his son. Hepinned the page to the wall and for days gazed at itthrough his reveries.

For the first few weeks Traven made little attemptto leave the bunker, and postponed any furtherexploration of the island. The symbolic journeythrough its inner circles set its own times of arrivaland departure. He evolved no routine for himself. Allsense of time soon vanished, and his life becamecompletely existential, an absolute break separatingone moment from the next like two quantal events.Too weak to forage for food, he lived on the old rationpacks he found in the wrecked Superfortresses.Without any implement, it took him all day to openthe cans. His physical decline continued, but hewatched his spindling legs and arms withindifference. By now he had forgotten the existence of the seaand vaguely assumed the atoll to be part of somecontinuous continental table. A hundred yards to thenorth and south of the bunker a line of dunes, toppedby the palisade of enigmatic palms, screened thelagoon and sea, and the faint muffled drumming ofthe waves at night had fused with his memories ofwar and childhood. To the east was the emergencylanding strip and the abandoned aircraft. In theafternoon light their shifting rectilinear shadowsmade them appear to writhe and pivot. In front of thebunker, where he would sit, was the system of targetlakes, the shallow basins extending across the atoll. Above him, the five apertures looked out upon thisscene like the tutelary symbols of a futuristic myth.

The Lakes and the Spectres

The lakes had been designed to reveal anyradiobiological changes in a selected range of fauna,but the specimens had long since bloomed intogrotesque parodies of themselves and been destroyed. Sometimes in the evenings, when a sepulchral lightlay over the concrete bunkers and causeways, and thebasins seemed like ornamental lakes in a city ofdeserted mausoleums, abandoned even by the dead,he would see the spectres of his wife and son standingon the opposite bank. Their solitary figures appearedto have been watching him for hours. Although theynever moved, Traven was sure they were beckoningto him. Roused from his reverie, he would stumbleforward across the dark sand to the edge of the lakeand wade through the water, shouting soundlessly atthe two figures as they moved away hand in handamong the lakes and disappeared across the distantcauseways. Shivering with cold, Traven would return to thebunker and lie on the bed of old magazines, waitingfor their return. The image of their faces, the palelantern of his wife's cheeks, floated on the river of hismemory. The Blocks (II) It was not until he discovered the blocks thatTraven realized he would never leave the island. At this stage, some two months after his arrival,Traven had exhausted his small cache of food, and

the symptoms of ben-ben had become more acute.The numbness in his hands and feet, and the gradualloss of strength, continued. Only by an immenseeffort, and the knowledge that the inner sanctum ofthe island still lay unexplored, did he manage to leavethe palliasse of magazines and make his way from thebunker. As he sat in the drift of sand by the doorway thatevening, he noticed a light shining through the palmsfar into the distance around the atoll. Confusing thiswith the image of his wife and son, and visualizingthem waiting for him at some warm hearth amongthe dunes, Traven set off towards the light. Within ahundred yards he lost his sense of direction. Heblundered about for several hours on the edges of thelanding strip, and succeeded only in cutting his footon a broken coca-cola bottle in the sand. After postponing his search for the night, he setout again in earnest the next morning. As he movedpast the towers and blockhouses the heat lay over theisland in an unbroken mantle. He had entered a zonedevoid of time. Only the narrowing perimeterswarned him that he was crossing the inner field of thefire-table. He climbed the ridge which marked the furthestpoint in his previous exploration of the island. Fromthe plain below it the recording towers rose into theair like obelisks. Traven walked down towards them.On their grey walls were the faint outlines of humanforms in stylized poses, the flash-shadows of the

target community burnt into the cement. Here andthere, where the concrete apron had cracked, a line ofpalms hung in the motionless air. The target lakeswere smaller, filled with the broken bodies of plasticmodels. Most of them lay in the inoffensive domesticpostures into which they had been placed before thetests. Beyond the furthest line of dunes, where thecamera towers began to turn and face him, were thetops of what seemed to be a herd of square-backedelephants. They were drawn up in precise ranks in ahollow that formed a shallow corral, the sunlightreflected off their backs. Traven advanced towards them, limping on his cutfoot. On either side of him the loosening sand hadexcavated the dunes, and several of the blockhousestilted on their sides. This plain of bunkers stretchedfor some quarter of a mile, the half-submerged hulks,bombed out onto the surface in some earlier test, likethe abandoned wombs that had given birth to thisherd of megaliths. The Blocks (III) To grasp something of the vast number andoppressive size of the blocks, and their impact uponTraven, one must try to visualize sitting in the shadeof one of these concrete monsters, or walking aboutin the centre of this enormous labyrinth thatextended across the central table of the island. Therewere two thousand of them, each a perfect cube 15feet in height, regularly spaced at ten-yard intervals.

They were arranged in a series of tracts, eachcomposed of two hundred blocks, inclined to oneanother and to the direction of the blast. They hadweathered only slightly in the years since they werefirst built, and their gaunt profiles were like thecutting faces of a gigantic dieplate, devised to stampout rectilinear volumes of air the size of a house.Three of the sides were smooth and unbroken, butthe fourth, facing away from the blast, contained anarrow inspection door. It was this feature of the blocks that Traven foundparticularly disturbing. Despite the considerablenumber of doors, by some freak of perspective onlythose in a single aisle were visible at any point withinthe maze. As he walked from the perimeter line intothe centre of the massif, line upon line of the smallmetal doors appeared and receded. Approximately twenty of the blocks, thoseimmediately below ground zero, were solid: the wallsof the remainder were of varying thicknesses. Fromthe outside they appeared to be of uniform solidity. As he entered the first of the long aisles, Travenfelt the sense of fatigue that had dogged him for somany months begin to lift. With their geometricregularity and finish, the blocks seemed to occupymore than their own volumes of space, imposing onhim a mood of absolute calm and order. He walkedon into the centre of the maze, eager to shut out therest of the island. After a few random turns to left and

right, he found himself alone, the vistas to the sea,lagoon and island closed. Here he sat down with his back to one of theblocks, the quest for his wife and son forgotten. Forthe first time since his arrival at the island the senseof dissociation set off by its derelict landscape beganto recede. One development he did not expect. With dusk,and the need to leave the blocks and find food, herealized that he had lost himself. However he retracedhis steps, struck out left or right at an oblique course,oriented himself around the sun and pressed onresolutely north or south, he found himself backagain at his starting point. Only when darkness camedid he manage to make his escape. Abandoning his former home near the aircraftdump, Traven collected together what canned food hecould find in the waist turret and cockpit lockers ofthe Superfortresses. He pulled them across the atollon a crude sledge. Fifty yards from the perimeter ofthe blocks he took over a tilting bunker, and pinnedthe fading photograph of the blonde-haired child tothe wall beside the door. The page was falling topieces, like a fragmenting mirror of himself. Since thediscovery of the blocks he had become a creature ofreflexes, kindled from levels above those of hisexisting nervous system (if the autonomic system wasdominated by the past, Traven sensed, the cerebro-spinal reached towards the future). Each eveningwhen he woke he would eat without appetite and then

wander among the blocks. Sometimes he took acanteen of water with him and remained there fortwo or three days on end.

The Submarine Pens

This precarious existence continued for the followingweeks. As he walked out to the blocks one evening, heagain saw his wife and son, standing among thedunes below a solitary camera tower, their faceswatching him expressionlessly. He realized that theyhad followed him across the island from their formerhaunt among the driedup lakes. At about this time heonce again saw the distant light beckoning, anddecided to continue his exploration of the island. Half a mile further along the atoll he found a groupof four submarine pens, built over an inlet, nowdrained, which wound through the dunes from thesea. The pens still contained several feet of water,filled with strange luminescent fish and plants. Thewarning light winked at intervals from the apex of ametal scaffold. The remains of a substantial camp,only recently vacated, stood on the pier outside.Greedily, Traven heaped his sledge with theprovisions stored inside one of the metal shacks. With this change of diet, the ben-ben receded, andduring the next days he returned often to the camp. Itappeared to be the site of a biological expedition. Inthe field office he came across a series of large chartsof mutated chromosomes. He rolled them up and

took them back to his bunker. The abstract patternswere meaningless, but during his recovery he amusedhimself by devising suitable titles for them. (Later,passing the aircraft dump on one of his forays, hefound the half-buried juke-box, and tore the list ofrecords from the selection panel, realizing that thesewere the most appropriate captions. Thusembroidered, the charts took on many layers ofassociations.)

Traven: In Parenthesis

Elements in a quantal world: The terminal beach. The terminal bunker. The blocks. *** The landscape is coded. Entry points into the future=Levels in a spinallandscape=zones of significant time. August 5. Found the man Traven. A strangederelict figure, hiding in a bunker in the desertedinterior of the island. He is suffering from severeexposure and malnutrition, but is unaware of this or,for that matter, of any other events in the worldaround him He maintains that he came to the islandto carry out some scientific project - unstated - but Isuspect that he understands his real motives and theunique role of the island... In some way its landscapeseems to be involved with certain unconsciousnotions of time, and in particular with those that may

be a repressed premonition of our own deaths. Theattractions and dangers of such an architecture, asthe past has shown, need no stressing. August 6. He has the eyes of the possessed. I wouldguess that he is neither the first, nor the last, to visitthe island. - from Dr C. Osborne, 'Eniwetok Diary.'

Traven lost within the Blocks

With the exhaustion of'his supplies, Traven remainedwithin the perimeter of the blocks almostcontinuously, conserving what strength remained tohim to walk slowly down their empty corridors. Theinfection in his right foot made it difficult for him toreplenish his supplies from the stores left by thebiologists, and as his strength ebbed he foundprogressively less incentive to make his way out of theblocks. The system of megaliths now provided acomplete substitute for those functions of his mindwhich gave to it its sense of the sustained rationalorder of time and space. Without them, his awarenessof reality shrank to little more than the few squareinches of sand beneath his feet. On one of his last ventures into the maze, he spentall night and much of the following mornfng in afutile attempt to escape. Dragging himself from onerectangle of shadow to another, his leg as heavy as aclub and apparently inflamed to the knee, he realizedthat he must soon find an equivalent for the blocks or

he would end his life within them, trapped inside thisself-constructed mausoleum as surely as the retinueof Pharaoh. He was sitting helplessly somewhere in the centreof the system, the faceless lines of tomb-boothsreceding from him, when the sky was slowly dividedby the drone of a light aircraft. This passed overhead,and then returned five minutes later. Seizing hisopportunity, Traven struggled to his feet and madehis exit from the blocks, his head raised to follow thefaintly glistening beacon of the exhaust trail. As he lay in the bunker he dimly heard the aircraftreturn and carry out an inspection of the site.

A Belated Rescue

'Who are you? Do you realize you're on your lastlegs?' 'Traven... I've had some sort of accident. I'm gladyou flew over.' 'I'm sure you are. But why didn't you use ourradio-telephone? Anyway, we'll call the Navy andhave you picked up.' 'No...' Traven sat up on one elbow and felt weaklyin his hip pocket. 'I have a pass somewhere. I'mcarrying out research.' 'Into what?' The question assumed a completeunderstanding of Traven's motives. He lay in theshade under the lee of the bunker, and drank weakly

from a canteen as Dr Osborne dressed his foot.'You've also been stealing our stores.' Traven shook his head. Fifty yards away thestriped blue Cessna stood on the concrete apron like abrilliant dragonfly. 'I didn't realize you were comingback.' 'You must be in a trance.' The young woman sitting at the controls of theaircraft climbed out and walked over to them. Sheglanced at the grey bunkers and towers, and seemeduninterested in the decrepit figure of Traven.Osborne spoke to her and after a downward glance atTraven she went back to the aircraft. As she turnedTraven rose involuntarily, recognizing the child in thephotograph he had pinned to the wall of the bunker.Then he remembered that the magazine could nothave been more than four or five years old. The engine of the aircraft started. As Travenwatched, it turned on to one of the roadways and tookoff into the wind. Later that afternoon the young woman drove overto the blocks by jeep and unloaded a small camp-bedand a canvas awning. During the intervening hoursTraven had slept. He woke refreshed when Osbornereturned from his scrutiny of the surrounding dunes. 'What are you doing here?' the young womanasked as she secured the guy-ropes to the roof of thebunker. Traven watched her move about. 'I'm... searchingfor my wife and son.'

'They're on this island?' Surprised, but taking thereply at face value, she looked around her. 'Here?' 'In a manner of speaking.' After inspecting the bunker, Osborne joined them.'The child in the photograph - is she your daughter?' Traven hesitated. 'No. She's adopted me.' Unable to make any sense of his replies, butaccepting his assurances that he would leave theisland, Osborne and the young woman drove back totheir camp. Each day Osborne returned to change thedressing, driven by the young woman, who seemednow to grasp the role cast for her by Traven. Osborne,when he learned of Traven's previous career as amilitary pilot, appeared to suspect that he might be alatter-day martyr left high and dry by the moratoriumon thermonuclear tests. 'A guilt complex isn't an indiscriminate supply ofmoral sanctions. I think you may be overstretchingyours.' When he mentioned the name Eatherly,Traven shook his head. Undeterred, Osborne pressed: 'Are you sure you'renot making similar use of the image of Eniwetok -waiting for your Pentecostal wind?' 'Believe me, Doctor, no,' Traven replied firmly.'For me the hydrogen bomb was a symbol of absolutefreedom. I feel it's given me the right the obligation,even - to do anything I want.' 'That seems strange logic,' Osborne commented.'Aren't we at least responsible for our physical selves,if for nothing else?'

'Not now, I think,' Traven replied. 'After all, ineffect we are men raised from the dead.' Often, however, he thought of Eatherly: theprototypal Pre-Third Man - dating the Pre-Thirdfrom August 6, 1945 carrying a full load of cosmicguilt. Shortly after Traven was strong enough to walk, hehad to be rescued from the blocks for a second time.Osborne became less conciliatory. 'Our work is almost' complete,' he said warningly.'You'll die here, Traven. What are you looking foramong those blocks?' To himself, Traven murmured: the tomb of theunknown civilian, Homo hydrogenensis, EniwetokMan. 'Doctor,' he said, 'your laboratory is at thewrong end of this island.' Tartly, Osborne replied: 'I'm aware of that, Traven.There are rarer fish swimming in your head than inany submarine pen.' On the day before they left, the young womandrove Traven over to the lakes where he had firstarrived. As a final present, an ironic gestureunexpected from the elderly biologist, she hadbrought from Osborne the correct list of legends forthe chromosome charts. They stopped by the derelictjuke-box and she pasted them on to the selectionpanel. They wandered among the supine wrecks of theSuperfortresses. Traven lost sight of her, and for thenext ten minutes searched in and out of the dunes.

He found her standing in a small amphitheatreformed by the sloping mirrors of a solar energy devicebuilt by one of the visiting expeditions. She smiled toTraven as he stepped through the scaffolding. Adozen fragmented images of herself were reflected inthe broken panes - in some she was sans head, inothers multiples of her arms circled about her like theserpent limbs of a Hindu goddess. Confused, Traventurned and walked back to the jeep. As they drove away he recovered himself. Hedescribed his glimpses of his wife and son. 'Theirfaces are always calm,' he said. 'My son's particularly,though really he was always laughing. The only timehis face was grave was when he was being born - thenhe seemed millions of years old.' The young woman nodded. 'I hope you find them.'As an afterthought she added: 'Dr Osborne is going totell the Navy that you're here. Hide somewhere.' Traven thanked her. From the centre of the blocks he waved to her thefollowing day when she flew away for the last time.

The Naval Party

When the search party came for him Traven hid inthe only logical place. Fortunately the search wasperfunctory, and was called off after a few hours. Thesailors had brought a supply of beer with them andthe search soon turned into a drunken ramble.

On the walls of the recording towers Traven laterfound balloons of obscene dialogue chalked into themouths of the shadowy figures, giving their posturesthe priapic gaiety of the dancers in cave drawings. The climax of the party was the ignition of a storeof gasoline in an underground tank near the airstrip.As he listened, first to the megaphones shouting hisname, the echoes receding among the dunes like theforlorn calls of dying birds, then to the boom of theexplosion and the laughter as the landing craft left,Traven felt a premonition that these were the lastsounds he would hear. He had hidden in one of the target basins, lyingamong the broken bodies of the plastic models. In thehot sunlight their deformed faces gaped at himsightlessly from the tangle of limbs, their blurredsmiles like those of the soundlessly laughing dead. Their faces filled his mind as he climbed over thebodies and returned to his bunker. As he walkedtowards the blocks he saw the figures of his wife andson standing in his path. They were less than tenyards from him, their white faces watching him with alook of almost overwhelming expectancy. Never hadTraven seen them so close to the blocks. His wife'spale features seemed illuminated from within, herlips parted as if in greeting, one hand raised to takehis own. His son's face, with its curiously fixedexpression, regarded him with the same enigmaticsmile of the child in the photograph.

'Judith! David!' Startled, Traven ran forwards tothem. Then, in a sudden movement of light, theirclothes turned into shrouds, and he saw the woundsthat disfigured their necks and chests. Appalled, hecried out. As they vanished, he ran off into the safetyof the blocks.

The Catechism of Goodbye

This time he found himself, as Osborne hadpredicted, unable to leave the blocks. Somewhere in the centre of the maze, he sat withhis back against one of the concrete flanks, his eyesraised to the sun. Around him the lines of cubesformed the horizon of his world. At times they wouldappear to advance towards him, looming over himlike cliffs, the intervals between them narrowing sothat they were little more than an arm's length apart,a labyrinth of corridors running between them. Theythen would recede from him, separating from eachother like points in an expanding universe, until thenearest line formed an intermittent palisade alongthe horizon. Time had become quantal. For hours it would benoon, the shadows contained within the blocks, theheat reflected off the concrete floor. Abruptly, hewould find that it was early afternoon or evening, theshadows everywhere like pointing fingers. 'Goodbye, Eniwetok,' he murmured.

Somewhere there was a flicker of light, as if one ofthe blocks, like a counter on an abacus, had beenplucked away. Goodbye, Los Alamos. Again, a block seemed tovanish. The corridors around him remained intact,but somewhere in his mind had appeared a smallinterval of neutral space. Goodbye, Hiroshima. Goodbye, Alamagordo. 'Goodbye, Moscow, London, Paris, New York...' Shuttles flickered, a ripple of lost integers. Hestopped, realizing the futility of this megathlonfarewell. Such a leave-taking required him to fix hissignature upon every one of the particles in theuniverse.

Total Noon: Eniwetok

The blocks now occupied positions on an endlesslyrevolving circus wheel. They carried him upwardsinto the sky, from where he could see the wholeisland and the sea, and then down again through theopaque disc of the concrete floor. From here helooked up at the under-surface of the concrete cap, aninverted landscape of rectilinear hollows, the dome-shaped mounds of the lake-system, the thousands ofempty cubic pits of the blocks. 'Goodbye, Traven.' Near the end, he found to his disappointment thatthis ultimate rejection gained him nothing.

In the interval of lucidity, he looked down at hisemaciated arms and legs, decorated with a lace-workof ulcers. To his right was a trail of disturbed dust,the wavering marks of slack heels. To his left lay a long corridor between the blocks,joining an oblique series a hundred yards away.Among these, where a narrow interval revealed theopen space beyond, was a crescent-shaped shadow,poised in the air above the ground. During the next half an hour it moved slowly,turning as the sun swung, the profile of a dune.

The Crevice

Seizing on this cipher, which hung before him like asymbol on a shield, Traven pushed himself throughthe dust. He climbed precariously to his feet, andshielded his eyes from the blocks. He moved forwarda few paces at a time. Ten minutes later he emerged from the westernperimeter of the blocks, like a tottering mendicantleaving behind a silent desert city. The dune lay fiftyyards in front of him. Beyond it, bearing the shadowlike a screen, was a ridge of limestone that ran awayamong the hillocks of the wasteland beyond this pointof the atoll. The remains of an old bulldozer, bales ofbarbed wire and fifty-gallon drums lay half-buried inthe sand. Traven approached the dune, reluctant toleave this anonymous swell of sand. He shuffled

around its edges, and sat down in the mouth of ashallow crevice below the brow of the ridge. After dusting his clothes, he gazed out patiently atthe great circle of blocks. Ten minutes later he noticed that someone waswatching him.

The Marooned Japanese

This corpse, whose eyes stared up at Traven, lay to hisleft at the bottom of the crevice. That of a man ofmiddle age and strong build, it rested on its back withits head on a pillow of stone, hands outstretched at itssides, as if surveying the window of the sky. Thefabric of the clothes had rotted to a bleached greyvestment, but in the absence of any small animalpredators on the island the skin and musculature ofthe corpse had been preserved. Here and there, at theangle of knee or wrist, a bony point glinted throughthe leathery integument of the skin, but the facialmask was still intact, and revealed a male Japanese ofthe professional classes. Looking down at the strongnose, high forehead and broad mouth, Travenguessed that the Japanese had been a doctor orlawyer. Puzzled as to how the corpse had found itself here,Traven slid a few feet down the slope. There were noradiation burns on the skin, which indicated that theJapanese had been there for five years or less. Nordid he appear to be wearing a uniform, so had not

been some unfortunate member of a military orscientific party. To the left of the corpse, within reach of his lefthand, was a frayed leather case, the remains of a mapwallet. To the right was the husk of a haversack, opento reveal a canteen of water and a small mess-tin. Traven slid down the slope until his feet touchedthe splitting soles of the corpse's shoes, the reflex ofstarvation making him for the moment ignore thatthe Japanese had deliberately chosen to die in thecrevice. He reached out and seized the canteen. Acupful of flat water swilled around the rustingbottom. Traven gulped down the water, the dissolvedmetal salts cloaking his lips and tongue with a bitterfilm. The mess-tin was empty except for a tackycoating of condensed syrup. Traven prised at thiswith the lid, and chewed at the tarry flakes, lettingthem dissolve in his mouth with an almostintoxicating sweetness. After a few moments he feltlight-headed and sat back beside the corpse. Itssightless eyes regarded him with unmovingcompassion.

The Fly

(A small fly, which Traven presumes has followedhim into the fissure, now buzzes about the corpse'sface. Guiltily, Traven leans forward to kill it, thenreflects that perhaps this minuscule sentry has beenthe corpse's faithful companion, in return fed on the

rich liqueurs and distillations of its pores. Carefully,to avoid injuring the fly, he encourages it to alight onhis wrist.) DR YASUDA: Thank you, Traven. In my position,you understand TRAVEN: Of course, Doctor. I'msorry I tried to kill it - these ingrained habits, youknow, they're not easy to shrug off. Your sister'schildren in Osaka in '44, the exigencies of war, I hateto plead them. Most known motives are sodespicable, one searches the unknown in the hopethat YASUDA: Please, Traven, do not beembarrassed. The fly is lucky to retain its identity forso long. 'That son you mourn, not to mention my owntwo nieces and nephew, did they not die each day?Every parent in the world grieves for the lost sons anddaughters of their earlier childhoods. TRAVEN: You're very tolerant, Doctor. I wouldn'tdare - YASUDA: Not at all, Traven. I make noapologies for you. Each of us is little more than themeagre residue of the infinite unrealized possibilitiesof our lives. But your son, and my nephew, are fixedin our minds forever, their identities as certain as thestars. TRAVEN: (not entirely convinced) That may be so,Doctor, but it leads to a dangerous conclusion in thecase of this island. For instance, the blocks -YASUDA: They are precisely what I refer to, Traven.Here among the blocks you at last find an image ofyourself free of the hazards of time and space. This

island is an ontological Garden of Eden, why seek toexpel yourself into a world of quantal flux? TRAVEN: Excuse me (The fly has flown back to thecorpse's face and sits in one of the dried-up orbits,giving the good doctor an expression of quizzicalbeadiness. Reaching forward, Traven entices it on tohis palm. He examines it carefully) Well, yes, thesebunkers may be ontological objects, but whether thisis the ontological fly is doubtful. It's true that on thisisland it's the only fly, which is the next best thingYASUDA: You can't accept the plurality of theuniverse - ask yourself why, Traven. Why should thisobsess you? It seems to me that you are hunting forthe white leviathan, zero. The beach is a dangerouszone. Avoid it. Have a proper humility, pursue aphilosophy of acceptance. TRAVEN: Then may I ask why you came here,Doctor? YASUDA: To feed this fly. 'What greater love - ?' TRAVEN: (Still puzzling) It doesn't really solve myproblem. The blocks, you see YASUDA: Very well, ifyou must have it that way TRAVEN: But, DoctorYASUDA: (Peremptorily) Kill that fly! TRAVEN:That's not an end, or a beginning. (Hopelessly, he kills the fly. Exhausted, he fallsasleep beside the corpse.)

The Terminal Beach

Searching for a piece of rope in the refuse dumpbehind the dunes, Traven found a bale of rusty wire.After unwinding it, he secured a harness around thecorpse's chest and dragged it from the crevice. The lidof a wooden crate made a crude sledge. Travenfastened the corpse to it in a sitting position, and setoff along the perimeter of the blocks. Around him theisland remained silent. The lines of palms hung in thesunlight, only his own motion varying the shiftingciphers of their criss-crossing trunks. The squareturrets of the camera towers jutted from the duneslike forgotten obelisks. An hour later, when Traven reached the awning byhis bunker, he untied the wire cord he had fastenedaround his waist. He took the chair left for him by DrOsborne and carried it to a point midway between thebunker and the blocks. Then he tied the body of theJapanese to the chair, arranging the hands so thatthey rested on the wooden arms giving the moribundfigure a posture of calm repose. This done to his satisfaction, Traven returned tothe bunker and squatted under the awning. As the next days passed into weeks, the dignifiedfigure of the Japanese sat in his chair fifty yards fromhim, guarding Traven from the blocks. He now hadsufficient strength to rouse himself at intervals andforage for food. In the hot sunlight the skin of theJapanese became more and more bleached, andTraven would wake at night and find the sepulchralfigure sitting there, arms resting at its sides, in the

shadows that crossed the concrete floor. At thesemoments he would often see his wife and sonwatching him from the dunes. As time passed theycame closer, and he would sometimes find them onlya few yards behind him. Patiently Traven waited for them to speak to him,thinking of the great blocks whose entrance wasguarded by the seated figure of the dead archangel, asthe waves broke on the distant shore and the burningbombers fell through his dreams.

1964