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Date: 15-Jan

HE:

I wait everyday till 8!! in t"e #$$i%e even i$ t"ere i& n# w#r' All #$ (ytea((ate& a&' (e w"y) "#w %an I tell t"e( t"at I d#n*t wait $#r any +ernal #r

#$$i%ial w#r' ,t t"e #nly rean w"y I wait i& t"e .&e%retary*- a /irl in (y 8!! +(0"in%"wad ,& .Se%retary* i& n#t "er real na(e it*& rt #$ a %#de na(e /iven t# "er,y (e and (y $riend& 2rly &+ea'in/ I li'e "er S"e (i/"t n#t ,e #ne #$ t"#&e w"#

l##' li'e Ai&"warya Rai #r Preitty 3inta ,t &"e i& %te and &i(+le and t"at*& t"erean I li'e "er 4#r +a&t (#nt"& I "ave ,een &tarin/ at "er in t"e ,& w"ile

/#in/ t# #$$i%e and %#(in/ ,a%' $r#( t"e #$$i%e 6"en I /et int# ,& (e"#w (yeye& &ear%" t"e w"#le ,& 7&t t# "ave "er /li(+&e

I never "ad a /irl$riend till n#w n#t t"at I d#n*t li'e t# "ave $riend&"i+ wit" /irl& ,t(e"#w t"ey &ally +re$er tall-dar'-"and(e alitie& in t"eir ,#y$riend& #t #$

w"i%" I +#&&e&& n#ne I d#n*t want t# 7(+ t# any relati#n&"i+ li'e t"i& wit" t"e&e%retary ,t at lea&t 7&t a $riend&"i+ i& it +#&&i,le9

I want t# tal' t# "er I want t# "ave $riend&"i+ wit" "er I 'n#w "er na(e $#r I "ad&een "er ID %ard #ne day t I d#n*t "ave t"e /t& t# tal' t# "er I even d#n*t 'n#ww"et"er &"e 'n#w& (e even ,y $a%e I 'n#w n# #ne %an "el+ (e "ere) n#-#ne #t"ert"an (y&el$ ,t I &i(+ly "ave n# /t& At lea&t (e#ne +r#,a,ly a %#((#n $riend

(i/"t at lea&t $#r(ally intr#d%e & t# ea%" #t"er

SHE:

2"ere i& #ne /y in (y #$$i%e ,& Hi& na(e i& S"rira( I t"in' "e li'e& (e$#r (e and even (y $riend& "ave #,&erved "i( (any ti(e& &tarin/ at (y&el$ Evenw"en "e /et& int# t"e ,& rat"er t"an &ear%"in/ $#r an e(+ty &eat "i& eye& &ear%"t"e w"#le ,& $#r (e D#n*t 'n#w w"y ,t I 'ind #$ li'e it S#(eti(e& t"e $eelin/ #$'n#win/ t"at (e#ne l#ve& y# i& $ar ,etter t"an a%tally l#vin/ (e,#dy I didn*t"ave any a$$air till t#day n#t t"at I didn*t li'e #r l#ve any#ne t"ere wa& a /y in (y%#lle/e w"#( I li'ed a l#t ,t (e"#w "e &tayed away $r#( (e n#t t"at "e didn*tli'e (e ,t +r#,a,ly ,e%a&e I a( n#t t"at ,eati$l and "e wanted (e#ne (%"

(#re ,etter t"an (e

2"i& /y S"ri t"at*& w"at "i& $riend& %all "i( I "ad "eard it #n%e in t"e ,&) "e

&ee(& t# ,e intere&ted in (e n#t &re a,#t l#ve a& &%" ,t $riend&"i+ (i/"t n#t,e ,ad At lea&t t"e /y &ee(& t# ,e de%ent #ne I w#ld li'e t# ,e "i& $riend ,t"#w %an I /# $#rward9 A$terall "e i& t"e ,#y "e &"#ld %#(e #ne &te+ a"ead ;n#t

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SOME DIARY PAGES edrle& and everyt"in/ i& 7&t w#r'in/ a& +er t"at 6"y &"#ld I 7&t inter$ere and

,rea' (y #wn rle& t"ere,y di&r+tin/ t"e ,alan%e #$ t"i& w"#le &y&te(9

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Date: 1@-Jan

HE:

2#day w"en I /#t int# t"e ,& and l##'ed at "er &"e retrned ,a%' a %te &(ile 6a&&"e &eri#&9 I d#n*t 'n#w) +r#,a,ly &"e (&t "ave t#ld "er $riend& a,#t (e andt"ey (&t "ave ,een (a'in/ $n #$ (e and t"at*& w"y w"en I /#t int# t"e ,& &"e&tarted la/"in/ and I (i&nder&t##d it $#r &(ilin/ S%" a $##l #$ (e Da(n "er

$riend& (&t ,e "avin/ $n di&%&&in/ t"in/& a,#t (e

SHE:

2#day w"en "e /#t int# t"e ,& I &(iled at "i( t "e &ee(ed t# ,e (#re +ledt"an +lea&ed I& "e really intere&ted in "avin/ $riend&"i+ wit" (e #r n#t9 I really

d#n*t 'n#w 6"y a( I t"in'in/ (%" a,#t "i(9 Have I &tarted li'in/ "i(9 Or i& it7&t li'e y# 7&t /et &ed t# (e t"in/& a& a "a,it and t"en y# n'n#win/ly &tart

li'in/ t"e(9 I t"in' it*& t"e latter %a&e "ere Plea&e /#d +lea&e let t"at /y ,e ade&%ent #ne My &i>t" &en&e &ay& "e i& a de&%ent /y I t"in' "e (&t "ave /#t

+led ,e%a&e #$ t"e &(ile I /ave "i( It wa&n*t (y $alt $#r I &"#wed "i( t"at Ia( intere&ted in $riend&"i+ =#w t"e ,all lie& in "i& %#rt 6ill "e dare $ir&t t# tal'9

Date: 18-Jan

HE:


3/13

I a( da(n %#n$&ed I d#n*t 'n#w w"at t# d# Every day every#ne ar#nd (e i&,#(,ardin/ (e wit" (e ta%ti%& t# a++r#a%" "er ,t n#t"in/ &ee(& t# &it (e wellMy r##((ate& even &tarted tantin/ (e t"at I %an*t "ave a /irl$riend #r at lea&t t"e/t& t# a++r#a%" t"e /al I a( leavin/ it n#w #n l%' I will 7&t %#ntine w"atever i&

/#in/ #n) let t"e l%' ta'e & w"erever and "#wever intended

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Date: %e+t $#r (y %l#&e $riend& I a( even &re

t"at n#ne #$ (y %#-traveler& in t"e ,& 'n#w t"at I li'e "er 6"enever I &tare at "erI ta'e ne%e&&ary +re%ati#n a& n#t t# ,e t## #,vi#& I d#n*t want t# e(,arra&& "erin any way 6"en I a( tryin/ (y ,e&t $#r t"i& t"en w"y did &"e "ave &%" %rel

e>+re&&i#n& #n t"e $a%e9

I t"in' eit"er &"e 'n#w& n#w t"at I li'e "er and &tare at "er and &"e d#e&n*t want t#en%#ra/e (e #r &i(+ly &"e 7&t "ate& (e $#r n# rean 7&t li'e (any #$ (y

%la&&(ate& w"# "ate (e $#r n# rean

I d#n*t 'n#w w"at t# d# n#w ,t eit"er way& I t"in' &"e 7&t d#e&n*t want (e t# ,eanyw"ere ar#nd "er S"e 7&t "ate& (e 7&t #ne (#re $ailre D#e& it "rt9 Ye& itd#e& ,t I a( very (%" &ed t# it I*ll try (y ,e&t n#t t# l##' at "er I d#n*t wantt# d# anyt"in/ t"at &"e d#e&n*t li'e I will try t# $#r/et "er a& i$ &"e wa& 7&t #ne

(#re drea( in (y li$e w"i%" &i(+ly didn*t %#(e tre Pr#,a,ly I d#n*t de&erve t# ,ewit" "er 2"i& i& $ate a$ter all I will "ave t# #,ey it

Date:


4/13

2#day wa& a "#liday S# I %#ldn*t &ee "i( alt"#/" I wanted t# I a%tally wantedt# a+#l#/ie $#r w"atever "a++ened ye&terday I /#t int# t"e ,& and &ear%"ed $#rt"e &eat He wa& &ittin/ al#ne #n t"e &eat $#r ? it wa& a /##d %"an%e $#r (e t# &it

wit" "i( and "ave a w#rd #r tw# I wa& 7&t t"rilled I wa& a,#t t# &it #n t"e &a(e&eat w"en rti &aid (et"in/ I didn*t "ear it +r#+erly I trned t# "er S"e

&aidSee Aravind i& t"ere "e "a& re&erved &eat& $#r & I 7&t "ate t"at Aravind "e

i& alway& ready t# $lirt +r#vided t"e #t"er +ern i& a /irl 6"enever I &ee "i((e"#w I try (y ,e&t t# ,e a& away $r#( "i( a& I %an I even &"#w "atred t# "i(dire%tly #n (y $a%e ,t t"i& /y &i(+ly i/n#re& t"i& I d#n*t 'n#w w"y rti li'e& "i(

(%"

S# t"e +#int i& I went t# t"e &eat t"at Aravind "ad re&erved &+e%ially $#r & I $eltreally ,ad $#r S"ri ,t i$ I w#ld "ave denied Aravind*& #$$er and w#ld "ave &at #nS"ri*& &eat) it w#ld "ave 7&t ,een t## #,vi#& He (&t "ave $elt e(,arra&&ed

P##r /y

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Date:


5/13

2#day t"e #$$i%e "ad +lanned t# &%reen a (#vie in t"e %a(+& I "ad &een it ,tt"#/"t #$ en7#yin/ it wit" $riend& in t"e #+en air I t##' t"e +er(i&&i#n $#r an "#r$r#( (y ,#&& and went $#r t"at 2"e dial#/e& were n#t (%" adi,le #n t"e lawn&,t it wa& $n t# wat%" t"e (#vie in an #+en air t"eatre li'e t"at I wa& t# leave t"e+la%e t# retrn t# (y %,i%le and trned ar#nd w"en I &aw "er &tandin/ t"ere 7&t

ar#nd 1! $eet away $r#( (e

I d#n*t 'n#w w"y ,t (y "eart &tarted &+eedin/ a l#t "i/"er t"an even S%"(i*&4errari S"e 7&t &(iled at (e#ne in t"e %r#wd at (y ,a%' tried "er ,e&t n#t t#l##' dire%tly t# (e and 7&t le$t t"e +la%e I &t##d t"ere $#r a (inte #r tw# 7&t

w#nderin/ w"at "ad "a++ened

6"y did &"e &(ile9 Did &"e $eel /##d t"at I a( &till in t"e &a(e %#(+any #nly #r &"edidn*t even ta'e n#ti%e #$ (y +re&en%e and really &(iled at (e#ne in t"e %r#wd at

(y ,a%'9 t we were %l#&e t"at it wa& +ra%ti%ally i(+#&&i,le $#r "er t# 7&ti/n#re (e

SHE:

I &aw "i( t#day at t"e (#vie &%reenin/ 2"an' /#d "e i& &till w#r'in/ wit" t"i&%#(+any #nly I t"#/"t #$ &(ilin/ at "i( and /reetin/ "i( I wa& "a++y t# &ee"i( I wanted t# a&' "i( w"ere "e wa& $#r (any day& w"et"er "e wa& n#t well"ad "e %"an/ed "i& "#&e #r wa& "e &in/ ,i'e $#r t"e tran&+#rt ,t a/ain I didn*t

a&' a &in/le e&ti#n I &tayed %al( I didn*t want t# e(,arra&& "i( a/ain

I d#n*t 'n#w w"at I $eel a,#t "i( ,t (e"#w w"enever I &ee "i( I d# $eel,etter I "#+e "e &tart& travelin/ ,y ,& a/ain Every day we %an &ee ea%" #t"er int"e (#rnin/ and wi&" ea%" #t"er a very /##d (#rnin/ wit"#t any w#rd& #r &(ile

,t 7&t wit" a +lain l##'

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Date: 5-(ar%"

HE:

I re&(ed (y n#r(al dty t#day It wa& /##d t# &ee all t"#&e $a(iliar $a%e& #n%ea/ain a$ter (any day& O$ %#r&e (y eye& were &ear%"in/ #nly #ne $a%e #t #$

t"at ,t &till

J&t li'e (y n#r(al &%"edle I /#t int# t"e ,& S"e wa& &ittin/ t"ere wit" t"e &a(e+lain l##' #n "er $a%e n#w"ere even a &in/le line #$ re%#/niti#n ,t w"en &"e &aw

(e "er $a%e re$le%ted a &(all &(ile It %#ldn*t e&%a+e (y n#ti%e 6a& &"e "a++y t#&ee (e ,a%' in t"e ,&9 I d#n*t 'n#w a,#t "er ,t I wa& de$initely "a++y t# &ee"er

SHE:

I wa& "a++y I tried (y ,e&t t# %#n%eal (y "a++ine&& ,t I $elt li'e /ettin/ +$r#( (y &eat and 7&t &it ,e&ide "i( and tal' tal' and 7&t tal' t# "i( Hey w"at*&

t"i&9 6"at*& "a++enin/ t# (e9 I never $elt li'e t"i& $#r any#ne I& t"i& 7&t &y(+at"y


6/13

$#r t"at evenin/ t"in/ #r i& t"i& l#ve9 =# %"an%e #$ it I d#n*t ,elieve in t"i& l#ve at$ir&t &i/"t #r 6e d#n*t 'n#w ea%" #t"er we d#n*t 'n#w anyt"in/ a,#t ea%"

#t"er and "#w %an t"i& ,e l#ve9 Pr#,a,ly 7&t in$atati#n; w"atever it (ay ,e; Il#ve t"i& $eelin/ very (%"

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DA2E: @-Mar%"

HE:

2#day %an ,e %alled a& t"e l%'ie&t day #$ (y li$e I tal'ed t# "er $a%e t# $a%e $#r t"e$ir&t ti(e Ra7e&" (y $riend "ad (e w#r' in =i/di t#day and wa& travelin/ ,y #r,& and &r+ri&in/ly "e 'new "er well 2"ey were %#lle/e (ate& drin/ t"e de/reeHe intr#d%ed & $#r(ally I wa& "a++y t"at I 7&t $#r/#t t"at (eti(e ,a%' &"e

7&t av#ided &ittin/ ,e&ide (e Everyt"in/ in (y ,rain all (y nerv#&ne&& and"atred $#r "er a& well a& $#r (y l#&er ;all wa& 7&t wa&"ed +

=#w I %an tal' t# "er I "#+e I %an trn t"i& %"an%e t# &%%e&& O" /#d t"an'& a l#t;Ra7e&" wa& 7&t li'e an an/el &ent ,y y#

SHE:

2"an'& a l#ttt /#d; I a( "a++y Even "e wa& I %#ld ea&ily (a'e t"at #t $r#("i& $a%e It wa& 7&t ,ri/"t He &till "a& $eelin/& $#r (e 2"an' /#d I t"#/"t a$ter

t"at day I 'inda l#&t "i( ,t n# =#w we %an tal' t# ea%" #t"er #$$i%ially =#+r#,le( #$ w"# i& $ir&t ; we are $riend& n#w G#d y# are /reat

Ra7e&":

2#day I "ad (e w#r' in =i/di "ad t# travel ,y #$$i%e ,& I t"#/"t ,etter t# /#wit" S"ri 7&t $#r t"e &a'e #$ /##d %#(+any ,t it didn*t &ee( t# ,e ne%e&&ary w"en

I &aw (y ,e&t $riend $r#( #r de/ree %#lle/e travelin/ ,y t"e &a(e ,& It wa& areally +lea&ant &r+ri&e t# &ee "er a$ter a %#+le #$ year& #r I t"in' (y tran&$er

t# Pne will re&lt in (e /##d t"in/ S"e "a& ,e%#(e (#re ,eati$l t"an &"e wa&in #r %#lle/e day& Da(n 6"y t"e "ell did I ne/le%t "er in %#lle/e w"en &"e "ad

%r&" #n (e; I "#+e &"e i& &till &in/le n#t even %#((itted #r I w#ld li'e &i(+le/irl li'e t# /et &ettled in li$e =#w I a( well &ettled in 7#, &"#ld /# $#rward wit"

l#ve (atter al

6"en I intr#d%ed S"ri t# "er t#day (e"#w "er $a%e lit + a& i$ &"e wa& ea/er t#"ave a w#rd #r tw# wit" "i( &in%e (any day& S"ri*& %#nditi#n wa& n# di$$erent D#

t"ey "ave (et"in/ ,etween t"e(9 I "#+e t"ere i& n#t"in/ #$ &%" rt O" G#dt"an'& a l#t t"at y# (ade (e (eet "er I "#+e y# "el+ (e #n%e a/ain t# (a'e "er(ine Plea&e 7&t 'ee+ S"ri #t #$ t"i&

GOD:

I$ y# /et #nly "a++ine&& t"en y# d#n*t $eel it& vale d# y#9 2"at*& w"yeveryt"in/ i& +lanned in &%" a way t"at w"enever y# /et "a++y y# &"#ld


7/13

nder&tand it& tre vale I "aven*t d#ne anyt"in/ &+e%ial "ere It*& all 7&t"a++enin/ a& +rede$ined

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Date: 1!-Mar%"

HE:

Sin%e Ra7e&" "a& intr#d%ed & t# ea%" #t"er t"e day& "ave ,een very /##d $#r & I(ean I didn*t tal' t# "er #r ,t at lea&t we e>%"an/e &(ile re/larly et*& &ee

w"et"er I %an &it ,e&ide "er (eti(e and "ave a w#rd #r tw#

Date:1


8/13

in$#r( "i( t"at I a( n#t %#(in/ y t"e ti(e I wa& $ree $r#( t"at %"a#& it wa&already He (&t "ave le$t $#r t"e day He wa& /#in/ t# M(,ai t#day "e (&t

"ave le$t early

6"at %an I d#9 I wanted t# (eet "i( and a+#l#/ie $a%e t# $a%e Mail #r +"#ne w#n*td# I "#+e we (eet #n M#nday I*ll e>+lain "i( everyt"in/ He i& a ni%e /y He will

nder&tand (e +r#+erly I a( "#+in/ #,vi#&ly I d#n*t "ave any #t"er #+ti#n atlea&t till M#nday

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Date:1F-Mar%"

HE:

I le$t $#r t"e day early t#day at I "ad traveled $r#( M(,ai in t"e (#rnin/ and needed re&t #r wa& it 7&t t# av#id "er &in%e &"e travel& ,y 8 #*%l#%' ,&9 I d#n*t

'n#w t"e rean ,t I $elt li'e 7&t av#idin/ "er

SHE:

6"ere i& "e9 He (&t "ave %#(e $r#( M(,ai in t"e (#rnin/ and 7#ined dire%tlyt"at*& w"y "e wa&n*t in t"e (#rnin/ ,& ,t w"y n#t in t"e &al evenin/ ,& at 89Pr#,a,ly "e wa& tired et*& "#+e "e (eet& (e t#(#rr#w (#rnin/ He will li&ten t#

(e and t"i& ti(e I will invite "i( $#r a %#$$ee #r

Date: +lained (e t"e w"#le t"in/ H#w &t+id #$ (e9 I wa& t"in'in/ reallya,&rd t"in/& a,#t "er S"e i& &%" a %te /irl) it wa& n#t "er (i&ta'e t"at &"e "ad

t# attend t"e (eetin/ I wa& 'ind #$ #' w"en &"e /ave (e t"e e>+lanati#n 2"e%#nver&ati#n a$ter t"at 7&t went n#r(al a& it &ed t# ,e earlier 6"atever t"at (i/"t

,e ,t I a( n#t /#in/ t# a&' "er #t any(#re

Date:


9/13

I %#ldn*t &ee "er $#r la&t 5 day& Did &"e %#(e t# #$$i%e9 I&n*t &"e $eelin/ well9 I"#+e &"e i& alri/"t O" G#d +lea&e +r#te%t "er

Date: 1!-A+ril

Ra7e&":

Her $at"er wa& &eri#&ly ill A& a $a(ily $riend I "el+ed a l#t S"e %#ldn*t /# t##$$i%e $#r a $#rtni/"t #r ,t I "el+ed "er in %#nveyin/ t"e (atter t# "er &eni#r& It"in' t"i& la&t wee' "el+ed (e a l#t a& in ,ildin/ a ra++#rt wit" "er and "er +arent&

4ate "a& /iven (e a /##d %"an%e t# /et %l#&er t# "er I t"in' I %an +r#/re&& "ere

Date:+lained "i( t"at daddy wa& &eri#&ly ill He enired a,#t dad*&"ealt" and t"en &i(+ly %"an/ed t"e &,7e%t t# trn (y attenti#n t# (ew"ere el&e

He wa& 7&t tryin/ t# ta'e (e #t #$ t"e ten&i#n a,#t dad*& "ealt" He i& &%" a(atre /y I 'new "e w#ld nder&tand

Date:

SHE:

S"ri and I "ave ,een /#in/ #t $#r a l#n/ ti(e n#w I "ave &tarted l#vin/ "i( I t"in'even "e i& &eri#& a,#t t"i& relati#n&"i+ ,t "e i& y#n/er t"an (e and I d#n*t t"in'

"e i& ready $#r any %#((it(ent at t"i& &ta/e #$ "i& li$e ,t (((a and dad are

+r&in/ (e $#r (arria/e) w"at &"#ld I d#9 S"#ld I a&' "i(9

Date:


10/13

Even "er and (y +arent& w#ld n#t "ave any +r#,le( in $a%t t"ey w#ld ,e "a++y i$&"e and I /et int# t"e (#&t ,eati$l relati#n&"i+

HE:

2#day &"e %alled (e + and a&'ed t# (eet $#r a %#$$ee at #r &al +la%e ,t later

&ddenly &"e %alled + t# %an%el t"e (eetin/ I d#n*t 'n#w w"y S"e nded&tre&&ed a ,it #n +"#ne I %#n%lded it t# ,e t"e re&lt #$ w#r' +re&&re t w"en

I &aw "er in t"e evenin/ in t"e ,& t#day &"e wa& in a ,it #$$-(##d I d#n*t 'n#ww"y S"e t"en 7&t "eld (y "and I t"in' &"e wanted t# &ay (et"in/ ,t &"e wa&

n#t a,le t# I %#ldn*t even nder&tand w"at &"e wanted t# &ay ,t I 'e+t ((6"en (y &t#+ %a(e nearer &"e relea&ed (y "and I a&'ed "er w"et"er &"e wa&

alri/"t S"e didn*t re+ly anyt"in/ el&e t"an .ye& 7&t $ine*

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,e I l#ve "er and t"at*& it

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