poetry journal vol. 1

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Poetry Journal Vol. 1

E S J A E


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First published independently in 2011 by Esjae

Copyright Stacey Hubbard 2011

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About The Poet

Esjae is a poet with a large collection of poem under her belt, even getting her poem Homeless

published in her local newspaper the Cambridge News! When she isnt writing she will often be

found with headphones glued firmly to her ears, her laptop on her lap with her many social networkaccounts open so that she can get her written works to a wider audience.Her passion for poetry comes from one of her very memorable English Lesson in year 9, where she

was meant to be watching a modern film version of Romeo and Juliet. But she just couldn't get into

it, so she ended up writing - 'Hood Up, Head Down' her first ever poem! Ever since then her passion

for writing and poetry has just grown and she writes whenever she get the chance.

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Acknowledgements

I WOULD LIKE to thank a lot of people who have helped me to bring this collection of my poems to a

wider audience. Firstly, my family without them I wouldnt have the means or have of the inspiration

for my poetry. Also my fianc Scott, without him I would have given up writing poetry a long timeago!

Sometimes when Im writing I have wanted to pack it all up and give it many times but I

havent due to the support I get from the followers and readers of my blog and those who follow me

on Twitter, as well as those who support my Facebook fan page So a massive thank you to all of

you as without you this collection wouldnt be here in front of you now!

I would also like to thank my GCSE English teacher, Ms Bailey, as without here I wouldnt

have started writing poetry in the first place!


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Dreamer Part 2

Just last night I was laying awake thinking about the dream I should have been dreaming

The people I wish I could stop from screaming

So many lose their lives

Fighting to save you and I

What about their husbands and wives

What about the children with parents in the sky

They say it has to get worse before it gets better

Would you say that to a mother reading that unforgettable letter

The world is filled with so much pain

And yet we still moan and complain

Our lives are so easy compared to so many others

Like those without sisters and brothers, fathers and mothers

Would you want someone to forget to donate?If you didn't have any food on your plate?

If you were a soldier contemplating your fate?

The world is a horrible place sometimes

So many people fall on hard times

But all I can do I pray they find a miracle so that can survive

And live another day in their lives

You see they're fighting for you and me

So that we can be whatever we want to be

They're giving their lives

So spend a minute, think about those who didn't survive

Cause they're doing it for us

Not for some sort of a buzz

They are our pride

We shouldn't have anything to hide

It's time we gave a thought to all the families

And forgot about all of the controversies

Let's support them in what they need to do

Remember it's for me and you


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You Might Surprise Yourself

Race, Place

Black, White

Tall, Small

Fat, Thin

Cheating, Beating

Dreaming, Screaming

Hoping, Praying

Crying, Lying, Dying

Teenagers, prejudice

Guns, Knives

Louts, layabout

Hoodys, scum

Don't stereotype me

Don't tell me who I should be

I see all the problems you see

Don't try and blame them on me

Times have changed

Communties rearranged

Knives carried for pride

Cars taken for a joy ride

You only see the bad

All the things that make us mad

You want us to change

You call us strange

We need opportunities

Some sense of responsibilities

A way to repay the communities

You've taken everything away

Then leave us with the blame

Teenage pregnancies

Dangers and obscenities

Guns and knives

So many have lost their lives

Lost and gone

But never forgotten

Don't just give them a passing glance

Give them another chance

A helping hand might be all they need

Listen to their opinions you might surprise yourself, you might not disagree


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You Don't Need To Pretend

I watch people shut down, turn off

I see people roll their eyes, tut, scoff

They want me to be the same

But I don't want to follow the crowd, I don't need someone else to blame

Society has taught me to see a man begging in the street

And turn my back without giving him anything to eat

I'm meant to have a smile every single day

I'm not allowed my own opinion, can't have my own say

So listen up this is me breaking out, I refuse to be just another person

I won't stand back and let this situation worsen

I won't salute a leader I don't believe in

I won't pray to a God if I'm only going to sinI'm not the definition of perfect

But I'm always going to give our war heroes respect

I'm not part of your religion

That doesn't mean I'm going to treat you like vermin

If I have a problem I know it's mine

I won't pass it off on someone else and say that I resign

Life is tough

You might have had enough

You don't always have to be strong

As long as you know where you belong

Everything will work out in the end

Be yourself, it's your life you don't need to pretend


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When I Look Beside Me

When I look beside me and see you standing there

I'm reminded of all the things you have and continue to do for me

All because of this bond between us that makes you care

It's invisible for all but the heart to see

Sometimes I don't feel as though I'm giving enough

But this love has always manages to pull us through

Even in the darkest days when it's gotten tough

I have been able to smile because I look beside me and see you

You might fear that I'm going to leave

But every day for now and forever

I promise you we will remain togetherBecause in us I have and always will believe


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To Words and Rhymes I'm Confined

I'm writing what people don't want to hear but they know

It might be scandalous, but that's how it's going to go

I'm doing this on my own from scratch

I'm taking on the world, one day, I'll win game, set and match

The inspiration comes from the world around me

So many people suffering in the world, I want to help not just 'wait and see'

I'll pick up haters along the way

But they won't stop me from saying the words I have got to say

I'm learning, and every day I'll be returning

There are thousands of problems that are concerning

I'm not afraid to speak my mind

Even if it is to words and rhymes I'm confined


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The Long Goodbye

This is where my heart lies

Right here in this moment

We're stuck for words,

Neither of us know how to say our goodbye's

Reminiscing over the gifts that were sent,

The hours that we spent together

Promising each other our forever

Never going to forget what you've done for me

Never going to forget the dreams you made me believe

Never going to forget the world you made me see

We're trying to say the words our hearts long to speakWe're taking separate paths because our journey together looks bleak

This is the long goodbye

In my head I know why

But my heart just longs for us to lie


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The Greatest Gift

You have been given the greatest gift

Be sure to treasure this life you have been given to raise

The time will be sure to pass in a blurry haze

But every single moment will be sure to amaze

Each day you will be reminded of the perfection

The parcel of joy you hold in your arms has inside

Between the two of you is an unbreakable connection

Something you should always be proud of and unwilling to hide

Treasure every single day

You have been given the greatest gift that life can give

Not a single second are you able to reliveSo treasure every minute, hour and day as though it isn't going to stay


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Take These Words As My Promise To You

I want you to take these words as my promise to you

To love and cherish you and everything single thing you do

You have been my one true love from the very beginning

Whenever I think of you I know that in this life I'm winning

It doesn't matter where we are

You'll always be my shining star

I promise to love you,

To let you have every piece of my heart

I promise to support you in all you do,

To be by your side and never let anything pull us apart

I promise you this is forever,

Because this isn't something that can be thrown awayI promise you that I won't be walking away ever

Because by your side is where I want to stay

I know that we're only young

And that some would say our lives have only just begun

It doesn't matter where you are or what you do

I'll always love you and support you

Through the laughs and tears, the ups and downs

I won't run away, I'm always going to be around

Take this promise and never forget

I'm taking this journey with you and only you

I know that the future isn't something I'll ever come to regret

Because in my heart it's only about us two


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One Day You'll Find Me

Nothing feels right

So I follow the light

Heading up into the night

One day we will reunite

But until then I'll be alright

I'll just float around

In this new life I'm not making a sound

Where I head to

I can't tell you

But one day you will find me

Just when that is I can't guarantee

Promise to visit me at my gravesideTell me about your day, know that in me you can confide

And I'll be there every day to help and guide

Because even though you can't see me I'll always be by your side


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We Will Always Have Yesterday But Never Tomorrow

I wait for the night time

To see you star in the night sky

And when it's time for sunrise

I have to say yet another goodbye

At least I can stand here by your grave side

To talk about the memories we made

And the lives that you have saved

I can look back to yesterday

And I can be angry that you weren't able to stay

But I'm reminded of the future you have given all of us

Even though you won't be returning on that army bus

You have done so much for so manySo many that won't even know your name

So many who will live their lives just the same

But for me I'll be living, holding on to our,

Private dreams and past memories

Staring at your treasured star

Taken from me fighting our countries enemies

We will always have yesterday

But we will never have tomorrow

I'll be thankful for everyday

Even though I'm filled with this sorrow


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I'm Living My Truth Without Your Lies

You think you know it all

You think you know me

But if I tell you the truth you would stop and stall

If you open your eyes then maybe you would see

That I'm not longer going to

Play your games

Pretend that to me you're being true

When really you have 101 different love flames

You maybe 'Mr Perfect'

But really you're 'Mr Disrespect'

You haven't got the right to say to me

Who I should beWhen you have me confused with 'Miss Last Night'

It's too late for you to protest, to put up a fight

You lost that right

When you didn't pick up last night

I told you from the beginning

You thought you were winning, when all you were doing was sinning

No one will and has ever made a fool out of me

From now I'm living my truth without your lies

I'm walking out, and I won't be coming back, you'll see

There won't be any more tears from these eyes

I'm stronger now that I've woken up to see who you really are

You just another Mr Want It All with a sports car

I'm no longer going to be 'Miss Day Time'

While you sneak off to see 'Miss Night Time'

You may think you know everything

But in reality you know nothing


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Christmas Time

Christmas trees

Falling Leaves

Holly and mistletoe

Children playing in the snow

Family and friends

Making amends

Celebrating the festive season

Exchanging gifts with meaning and reason


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Real True Love

I love the way you feel, the way you touch

The way when you're not here I miss you so much

I never feel worthy of your love

You're so precious, only to be described as an angel sent from above

I'm never going to stop proving my love, until you believe

That by your side I will always remain, never going to leave

I will give you everything I can emotionally and physically

You've got my love unconditionally

I would promise you the world, the moon and stars

But that wouldn't compare to the promise of a relationship as good as ours

What we have between us can only be described as true love

And I'll always think I'm undeserving of you

And every single little thing that you do


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On Guy Fawkes Night

Explosions in the night sky

With sounds of admiration we reply

Pink, green and blue

Everyones jostling for the best view

Necks craning up at the sky

Watching the rockets fly,

The Catherine wheels spin

And the screamers creating an unforgettable din

Whilst the bonfire blazing bright

On Guy Fawkes Night


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Just The Way

You're on one knee

Telling me how much you love me

Giving me forever

Telling me you want us to always be together

Happiness is spilling out of me

The future is where I want to be

Just you and me

We've got something that can only be described as perfect

It's just the way our hearts connect

We're united by this bond,

Together is how we will always belong


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I Love It When

I would like to tell you that I don't need you

But you and I

Both know I'd rather die

Than say we are through

We have something that only belongs to you and me

Something I'm not afraid for the world to see

Each and every day this love grows a little bit more

Because it's you and the things that you do that I adore

You see it might sound clich

But I love it when I hear you say

'I love you'


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I Am Me

I might be alone

But I'm fully grown

I know who I am

Who I need to be

I am me

That's plain for the world to see

I'm breaking out from these chains

And your containment

Proving I'm not here for your entertainment

That I have a purpose for being on this earth

And some self worth

You won't control meNot anymore

You won't tell me who to be

Not anymore

I am the person everyone can see

It might be plain and boring old me

But I'm proud of who I'm turning out to be


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To My Father This Christmas Time

To my Father this Christmas time

You have provided me a life filled with memories

Memories that I can look back and smile upon

You guide me when you can see that I'm doing wrong

And praise me when you can see me doing right

But I know you'll always be proud of me,

Not just tomorrow, today or tonight

You always try and understand the person I'm meant to be

But most of all I am thankful for the life you have given to me


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This World

Have you ever thought that the world was built for you

But that there is something missing

That's just how I felt before I found you

And spend time in your arms gently kissing

I never knew that in you

I would find the key to unlock my heart

Kept safe for our special start

No one would have thought we would be together

Ready for our future to last forever

Now I know the world wasn't built for me

But for the two of usWe don't need to shout it from the rooftops or to make a fuss

Because when people look at us it's obvious for people to see

This is a love built to last

And we'll treasure every moment as it goes past


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This New Year Is Just For You

Today is the beginning of a brand new year

Hold me close my dear

For with me you should know you have nothing to fear

Whatever may come our way

Together we shall stay

The bad days will come and go

Helping our love to grow

So much is happening in the world around us

But that's not what we want to discuss

Thinking and talking about where we want to be

The future together is what we both see

The first of JanuaryOnly 3 months and 5 days till our anniversary

Two years together

Me and you it's forever

From this year to the next

I'll tell you that I love you and how much I care for you

Whether it's in person or by text

I'll do everything I can do

Just for you


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Grandparents

To have you as my grandparents is a blessing

So now you have me here confessing,

That sometimes the things that I say may not be clean

And other times it may simply be mean

But I know right from wrong

And that I'm proud of the family to which I belong

Without you my parents wouldn't be able to offer me guidance and protection

From you they learnt to show their parental affection

So now I'm thanking you

Fall the things you have done and continue to do

Because without you,

I wouldn't be half the person I am today

So now all that is left to say -Is a big thank you

and that I'll never forget anything that you have done or continue to do


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Dear Santa

I'm writing a letter this Christmas time

I can't say that I don't have a single regret

Can't say there was a reason or rhyme

But there is this one thing I can't forget

Dear Santa, please, please

Get your elves together and use your expertise

To bring me the only thing that's on my list

The one I once kissed

The one I'm starting to miss

I see the old photos and I start to reminisce

Over all the old times we spent together

We said we would be foreverBut you moved on

So I had to find somewhere else to belong

Now I'm listening to our song

And I know it heart that's my home

To any other I would only be on loan

Santa take me back to the one I really need

And I'll be happier than I have ever been before, guaranteed

I'm asking for my one wish

To bring me the one I really miss

Santa, do this for me,

Please?


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Christmas Morning

Santa's sleigh bell warning

It's Christmas morning

Children smiling from ear to ear

Parents crying happy tears

Turkey piping hot

Christmas pud hitting the spot

Unwrapping presents

Everyone loving the contents

Spending time together

Watching the snowy weather

This is the best time of the year

As all the family is here


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All I Want To Do

A message out of the blue

Reminded me of you

The times we used to spend together

Running around in all types of weather

Then we grew up

We had separate paths to follow, different journeys to pursue

But now I'm back in contact with you

Reminiscing about the old times is all I want to do


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What The World Is Turning To Be

So many things are happening in the world around us

Addicts searching around to find a fix to get a buzz

Millionaires trying to find something to spend on

Politicians see the problems but scrub their minds to get gone

What about the single mother stranded on the street

Who thought about the homeless man on the street with nothing to eat

You chose to forget, just like me

Because you just didnt want to see

What the world is turning to be

All too wrapped up in our own lives

To worry about those struggling to survive


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Together Well Stay

Star in the night sky

Your sitting so high

On the throne you should have had all along

You shouldn't have left, it feels so wrong

But we all know that you couldn't change a thing

So now we'll be thinking of you all year long

Winter, summer, autumn and spring

We will be reunited one day

And together we will stay


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Im Just Sleeping

Plunging deep into my skin

Im fighting a battle that I want to but cant win

My eyes flicker and give you hope

Just as my body is shutting down, it cant cope

The machines are beeping

You keep telling yourself that Im just sleeping

My killer is running free

But on their conscience its me

In their mind Im all that they can see

Just kiss my good night just one more time

Lets forget this night and terrible crime

Let me give up this fightI promise to light up the night

Be the brightest star in the sky

Just let me go, let me sleep, let me die

I promise to talk to you everyday

Even if my words you cannot hear

I promise one day well be together again

I just dont know when


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Be Proud Of Who You Are

I want to reach out and help you

But I feel useless like there is nothing I can do

I can see the pain in your eyes

I can see through your lies

Saying that youll be alright

This isnt a battle you have to fight

You dont have to do this alone

Ill be there for you, just ask, pick up the phone

Whatever your problem, big or small

Ill help you to pick yourself up and walk tall

I know that you can do

Anything you put your mind toAnd so does everyone else too

Have a little self belief and be proud of who you are

It doesnt matter that youre not rich and that you dont drive a fancy car

Youre you, the one who means so much too so many

To those who dont care if you dont have a single penny


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A Fathers Promise

Babies crying all around

Off to sleep they go

No one daring to make a sound

Nappies, clothes and toys

Gifts for all the new girls and boys

Helium balloons and teddy bears

Presents from a proud father to show he cares

About his child so small

Whispering in its ear

If only your grandparents where here

Theyd shed a tear

But theyre looking down on you now

And trust me, I know they are so so proudNot only today but of who you will be

Whether youre like your mother or me

None of us can wait to see

You have my nose and eyes

And your mothers beautiful smile

But we have the greatest gift that we could ever receive

And I promise you, Ill never leave.

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