poems for occasions
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Primarily I see myself as an essayist and writer of short
stories. I do, however, write the occasional poem, more
often than not because something has profoundly struck
me, or I am frustrated, or sometimes to better understanda topic I am having difficulty with.
For me, writing poetry is the exception, not the rule, and
I am not prolific.
For Nicole (Her Beautiful Mind)
Halves
Have no place.
Whether's
When is, but one
Wondering why
She were not
*HERE*
Fortnight past.
Elegance is
Self-possessed,
Self-paradox:
Nil desperandum
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Surround nihlism
Ere expectation.
**
To a sweet friends evil twin
How we lie
MostIs in the glass-
Unseen selfCast, create
Unsustainable
Because
-ethic-
Know
One cannot
Service
Evil allegory
Or mafiaAnd present but
Ego-selfs
Lip-service to Angels.
**
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Passive-Affection = Passion-Aggression
Dont you think..?
One said.
No, I feel..
Another said.
Insecurity,
Passion-aggressionIs missing
Having been loved-
All success measures
Sole accomplishment
Nurtured image,
Not feeling.
Where is the child?
No love reflects
Passive-affections
Cold desire to be acknowledged-
This trick
Of self in glass is:The thief
Of self at last.
To be loved
For what you are NOT
Could be
The most important thing, so
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Why..
Hate that
Which refusesTo be you?
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Observing Romance
O bedienceB roke
S ome ones
E ngaged
R elevance-
V icious
I nclinations
N ailed a
G iven
R ecompenceO mitted-
M an isA pox:
N o
C oncern with
E mpathy
&
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R omance politics
U s, is Love Losing
I ncessantly sought
N ever found.
&
R omance had supplanted
A ll
G enuine
E ssentials
&
W hence friend
H ad loved like
Y earning
S evered
H er
E rnest belief
R omance
A ggrieved, saidN o
I nsolent
S elf
B eholden-
E ver
C austic and
A dverse
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U tterly
S ated only
E ros.
R omance
A nd
T he Lie-
S o many loved
R uin
E goD amnation-
U gliness
C apturedE lan
A nd
F ealty
R espect
I nvestment
E thics -all-
N amed:D evotion
T ossed
O ver
N aught
O ther
T hing
H ad
I nvited
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N or
G iven.
**
My Matriarch
I trust without condition
I serve without question
I worship with adorationI lay down my life at her direction.
Her demi-god,She creates in me
One who nurtures and defends her children.
Her lovemaking builds
My transcendence.
Her attention to my creation is;
Generous,
Healing,
Sincere.
Her presence decorates me.Her dignity honors me.
Her faith is my sole reality.
She may destroy me
With a peculiar silence.
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**
Whoever Hedda selects should be blessed for life:
Here, now.
Ere I
Dance w/
Dangers
Aroused
Innocence'
Simplicity recall;
Looking
Over
Verily a sight
Entices
Languid thought
Insists
Now, as
Ever
So dreamt
Suddenly.
Beauty isEthereal wonder incarnate
Your entity
Owns this
Native modesty, a
Demeanor
Returns
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Eternal summer
Childhood, whence
All time warped
Lived multiplicities expression:LOVE
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Never fall for someone under cover ;o)
Amelie
My Amelie
My beloved Amelie
Master Coward
Master of disguise
Sacrifice she does not respect
Every true love she does reject
My Amelie
So sensitiveShe would bleed to death
From a paper cut
My beloved Amelie
Her only loss is her own
Her self pity is overblown
Master Coward
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She teases quite frequently
A mask covers delinquency
Master of disguise
She lived to serve an agency
In turn attempted to murder me
My Amelie
My beloved AmelieMaster Coward
Master of disguise
How I would she would love me
Severed from her agency ;)
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Marla was cool but got cold feet..
Marla
Marla is a fiction.Who
In reality
Is
This quick mind
Bright and beautiful
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Dedicated
To worthy cause,
Unflinching.
Marla too,
Makes mistakes, unwitting
She played
A hearts lot
Grasping
Nearly any straw
This reality is,
Has been..Void of that healthy,
And reciprocal love
By
Circumstance requisite:
Brave beauty devoted,
A sidekick rising above
Any fear of death, she says
Im coming
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This is about illusion
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Dream Disallowed
Dreams domain
Antonym integral,Workfare of desire
Denatured
Appetite illusory
Inter-twine
Perception
Disagreed-
Stranger to the self
Indrawing
Sensation of expectation
Dispensed
Transparencies
Programed propensities and
Perspectives
Demise.
Conformist satisfied solutions
Complacencies
Engaged martyrs
Demand
Proverbial condemnations,
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Pharaphrased evils
Embrace
Devoid,
A Child Id
Subversive
Garden myth
Detract
This god-is-no-god-god
Vindictive, invective
Image man.
Dismissed
Institution of fool,
Creation in fear
Ill gotten
Disillusion-
Project a nameEgo,
Corrupt casting
Discard
Authority-
Lie induced
Where shadow ill defined
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Degenerate
Ere
Voice,Integrity and,
Dreams
Domain
Disallowed.
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But I am not all about cutting peoples illusions.. mostly
my own.. I suppose I lost this one because I do not fear
to live on the edge..
A Catalan Woman
She will always greet me
And when I speak
It isAs if the universe were opened
Near vertigo
She searches for the words
In my language.
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Her life is
Daydream out-of-doors
She has a certain clatA saleswoman
Her colleagues yield
My presence
Like magic.
I am taken
Aback again
I hesitate, she waits
I return
Returned
I hesitate, she waits
I tell myself I am old.
There is something
Else, then
How do I sayI am afraid
Not in any sense
To know your younger loveliness
It is a matter of another.
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She tells me
Of her costume
Her honest expressionsInteresting face
Eyes alight and
Obvious intelligence
Are direct from the heart.
This Catalan woman
Has honored me
She asked
Will I go
To carnival, she had said
It is a place of gold..
We could not believe our ears.
It is,
I actually said and,
I sensedTo both our dismay
My philosophy:
It is better lonely at home
Than lonely at carnival.
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**
Jonah is not even a good fairy tale, myth, fable or what-
ever.. I can write better than that and so can many of you.
Succinct gets the message across better..
Jonah
Jonah was minding his own business.Nineveh, God said
Speak to Nineveh.
Jonah said:
Screw that,
Those people dont listen.
And God said:
You dont get it, Jonah
So try this:
Burped a Whale
The upchucked JonahWanted a bath, badly.
And Nineveh
Did not necessarily repent
As much as
Not knowing
Their left from right,
In the end
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God felt sorry for their cows.
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Fear, loathing and ego equal:
Narcissism
Dreams domain derailed:
Seek,
Grasp,Hunger.
Appetites illusion,
Workfares perverse destiny,
Wealths of (un)consciousness,
Peculiar povertys desire.
Perception distanced
Cried out
Remove this portrait!Once housed sensation.
Grievance now ongoing-
No god of empathy
Succors
Projection upon nothing.
Stranger self
Where dream lie
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Trapped
In overture of losing.
Externalized,Vision lost
Essence
Of selfs necessity.
Bleeding wounds projection
Every theft requisite
A nutrientUngarnered.
Myraid the peopleMy specie cling to
In institution
Of empty reaches.
Emptied eyed pennance
Resigned in time inferno,
Each aches' denial
A votive
Maintainance faade,And eternities
Of explanations excuseFruitless labors.
Transparancies programmed,
Prophecies hollowed,
Heavens promise of
Visions emptiedness.
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Sole manifest machination
Discards
Evident reason by
Self guised in scheme.
Disallowed discovery
A nature to deceive
My nature:
Great is the lie.
So transparent,Demised by self embrace
Introspection disallowed and
Detraction from self concealed.
Complacencies devoid
All means and must-
All-in-all possessed:
A vapid self-inherit.
Risen
Vindictive and small and founded
Institution is
Image project:
Creation cast in fear.Shadow ill defined.
Co-induced,
Point of view in glass.
Except lie contrive
Innate, obvious
Disability and
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Degenerate devotion,
Ere this fooled god
GracedPseudo-entity and
Knowing no voice-
Screams in mirror
Ego-birthed
Every vanity
Is silenced sensation.
Speak to me
Destinies mute image,Just desserts endeavor
Desolations
Endowed in each,
Directions
Dividend
Sight
Availed
Self-sightNARCISSISM
The Damned -
Given to self over
In image vesture
Cloaked prayer
Mocks deliverance.
Of bounty partaken
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Vanities dismissing
Every friend,
Foregoes every promise,
Endeavored this insanity
Enabled of self pity,
Framed, accorded,
A relativity.
Racked and pilloried
Devoid, divided,Self defamed self seeks
(naught) but denial.
Provisioned, empowered
A covenant
Of self-sundered (lie)
In lap of dream.
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I walk, these days, and not only because I am getting old
Now Days, I Walk
What riders entail
No risk?
Check!
Rein the self
In.
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Equestrian transition,
Thunder of hoof
Is butGalloping thoughts.
You
Who love
Horses,
To knowClean air
Rushing
Is
The young hearts,
Look again
A slow walk
Likely
Brings reward
Of safe arrival
AndDestination worthy.
Let the young
Riders
Rush
I desire
To know this flowers beauty
In detail.
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Assumption is deadly.. my intelligence is a result of
having been trained by "primitives"
Retort of the Ice Man
To know nothingAnd joke:
He is the Ice Man
Mocks reality unseen.
Fear your shards
Broken mirror
Selves boxed
In Ego
This fear
I see
In failed
Un-slain selves.
WhodDare-risk-break-free
Imprismed
Peoples
These many
Unslain self
Image
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Self
Serving
Collectively imprismedPeoples
Clinging
Each image embodied
In metaphor,
Reflects
Merely
Self-denied-selves-brittle
WhereNatures stone
Is-become-but-thin-glass.
Again and again
-seduced-just-so-
Inorganic agonies
In mirror box of ego;
Cowards
Deferential lies, encounterPreservations illusion
In self-narcissis self
Not only once.
Fear, yes
To release these many
Almost beings, surround
So many self-seen-selfs
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In mirror,
Sentient awareness walled away
Where underlie reflective restlessness.
Cowards cannot scent
Pheromones
Or will image
To be broken when:
Spilt agony
Reflect illusory wound.Casualties none-the-less
Conceal
Needs, wants,
Delicate hand with diamond tip
(but my tool is my Atlatl)
And arms intelligent strength.
Were I to break in,
Self-seen-selves-in-mirror
would you bleed
Like ten thousand shards
As abstracts in image cling.
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This one missed the opportunity of fifty lifetimes.. (her
or me? you decide)
A Poem for Sue
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Todays sight &
My Immortal Youth
Nuanced, is you:My lasting desire.
I remember
Energy endless and
Tomorrows cares
Were far away
My vanity,
Much foolishness,
Missed pursuits andMy many loves.
Had I known you then
Would it have
Been? Different-
Yes, I am certain.
Intrigue me
These bygone days
Within an innocenceI never knew.
Draped
In pensiveness
These many things
Named ensuing years
Such power!
My immortal youth
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Raw, fearless
Untamed
A godNow knows
(no) myth
Of surrender
For to love is:
Become mortal
For wise is:Become compassion
I desire you no lessDesire unchanged;
Except desire,
Knows now
I bring more
Of me
I know more
Of me
As I perceived-my youth-
FleeHaving:
Found you so lately.
!Fear is
Of missing
With life passing
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Entrenched
Futilities
Find
Fair
And far reaching memories
Seasoned.
RISK again
Any thing
Loves labor is:Risk, risk is:
Youth, Youth fled is:
To know only
Wise desire.
Never-the-less-every
Love-must-be
Risk.
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In a sense, I believe in angels and the idea we can
communicate. But sometimes you have to draw a line.
The Unbeliever (Santa Fe)
She channels for BALLHOG.
Rapt, the audience waits.
Convulsing slightly
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Her voice lowers.
I fart loudly and laugh.
Moments later
I am walking the street
Alone
After dark.
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This one, I think, speaks for itself ;o)
To My Congressman
Nicholson is a good actor
I liked his line:
"It pisses me off."
It pisses me off
To thinkThe 'Peter Principle' is true
And it pisses me off
When I think of you
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Ditto, same as preceding, they are all politicians
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No Fishing!
Hey Pope!
If you wereTo take a cup
In MY house
You will leave
Your shoes outside.
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This poem could be alternately titled 'A Simple Matter ofRespect.' I think it speaks for itself as well.
Self versus Centered
I want you
Is to say
I do not have you.
You-
Desire unfolding,Is revelation
What shall it mean
? I do not but
! Want
Except to say
I desire.
Implications
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Excel
At malefactor burnished.
That taken,
Possessed, petty
Offending freedom
Takes liberties
To want
Is no damn good, andI did not
Want youEver.
Except
Reciprocity would discover
You
Sincerely.
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This poem is one I've played with in several forms overtime.. have never really been satisfied with it but .. its
not a perfect world and Im not a perfect poet-
Reeds in a calm
Placed of dreams
Teasing
Across waters stilled.
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In this sight his
Shadow stalks,
In turn,He stalked.
Dreams people laughing
(they are the dead)
Feared lost,
To all his terrors instilled.
The shadow kills
I kill
Turn by turnWe slay and slew
What counsel would settle
A god so mortal vis a vis
One the other,
And:
Man's canon equate
A lie for a lie
RepriseIn death's embrace locked.
Illusion refract
Reeds calling
Will-o-wisp laughs malevolence
Dispelled? Likely not
Where fear underlie anger
Challenged illusion
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Meant delivered upon
Any liberty taken.
Oh God, gods,
Archetype is but
Dreams awakened
Still.
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This poem is for one of two girls I will never forget from
my childhood, this one was my 'innocent' love, the otherwas not innocent at all...
Shadow in glass
Lori
Stir sleeping embers,
Visions in shift
At masquerade hall,
Of dreamt portal.
Conjured imaginings
-unleavened-Touch prevented by pane,
Windowed loveliness yet
Relative:
Of picture painted past.
Gathered reflection,
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A child's thought embrace
Mystery bridge-
Riveted.However cast,
Is memory
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Here is a poem about expectations (I've worked a lot onthis theme)
The Lie
They said
practical aspiration
is enduring feature
labor manifest dream
Making change
a nimble wit
wise vendor
hawking ware
How to keep herwarm, dry, fed
securing her presence
his preoccupation
Is she happy
is this dream
is this mundane truth
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without prisoner
And fear, do
secretly hearts yearnquietly assailed, and,
vanquished
Woman or man
woman or gods
created indifference
where his is a small world
His security
damages herdreams escaping
reality divorcing ideal
What false pillar
prop
people dying
even as they live
The living dead
(the damned)wager for the small,
mortal choice
His Herculean construct
dictate dying
even as she lives
in parameters constrict.
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This is about a brilliant woman friend who nonethelesscould not give up her projected expectations or demands
of others, subsequently could not find peace within
herself and, consequently battled depression and insanity
Clarity
Clarityin the complex
had become her enemy
Try, try as she might
she found
no end, no beginning
Futility had become her ruler.
To find the grain
and grind it
To bake the cakes
This is alla person
should sometime ask.
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Here follows the thought: I prefer women less cold these
days ;)
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Statue
Cold marble moves me.Gently my fingers trace
Exquisite lines
Fine features.
Her cold body defies
Heated theme
The swordOf Pallas Athena.
My mind's eye tastesSculpture
The lines
Of her neck
Finely chiseled lips
Awake pheromones
Ancient ambrosias
Of love
Gently tracing fingersPursue
Without end, aboveAgain below
And again around
Seductive curve of hips
Back arched
Breasts high
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Anima of Stone
Alive in my arms
In my mind, a gift
Of Michelangelo...
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This next is about a fellow Montana Vietnam Veteran
and friend who blew his brains out with a 45 caliber Coltrevolver
'Bill Said Goodbye'
I knew Bill
Ere my Father died
I knew bill
Bill was a solid man
We'd been to war
Bill and I, andWe were angry
For similar reason
I did not drink, Bill did
Yet we shared
Comraderie, we did talk
However in vain
I knew Bill as only
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I could know Bill
I watched Bill
Nearly to his end
Bill carried a mountain
A slowly crushing burden
I did not share
Because it belonged to Bill
And Bill
Did not let one take Bill's things.
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This poem is of some one of the many burdens which
have crushed men such as Bill
My dying comrade lie
in my arms torn
clutching him
my eyes are fists shaking
My comrade lie
in my arms rentHis blood soaking us
Under the beautiful blue
My dying comrade lie
Like a fallen star
In my arms fading
Like his dreams now doomed
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My dying brother lie
In my arms dreaming
I did not desireAny black wall
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At The Bless God Caf
On the Akazien street
Lies a view
Of the Apostle Paul
At the Bless God Caf
The windows are clean, large..
And politicians revel
In caffeinated gossip.
Across the way,
Dogs lift legs
On the cornerstone-
Where inside, boysLong to be baritones..
For the Apostle Paul.
The circumcised belfry
Erect, Orgasms
Noondays song:
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THONG!
Pulling the ropes
THONG!The priest imagines
THONG!
The little boys hands on
THONG!
Bulge beneath his
THONG!
Cassock untied
THONG!
Bleeding Jesus
THONG!
Silence forgives
THONG!
Raped mouth
THONG!
Sweating Temptation
THONG!
Guilt possesses children
THONG!
Beneath his spandex
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THONG!
A dogs nose
Knows jismsDeservedly lifted leg..
In the view from:
The Bless God Caf.
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From Mini-Dick to Fascist Prick (evolution)
2 stroke hard farts
Yamaha or Kawasaki,
mini-dick
Ejaculate blue fumes.
Thrusting forward
-puberty-
Decible stoked
Wimp hand
Throttle wheelstand-so erect & so gay-
Screaming
LOOK AT ME!!
4 stroke hard-tail:
Fascist Pricks
Harley with
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Straight pipes.
Decibles stroke
SubstituteFor the little dick
Beneath a big gut,
This beer-pubescent
-so limp & so gay-
Screams
LOOK AT ME!!