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Its not like Ive completely forgotten about it. I

probably still remember this place, and I even

dream of its scenery, just as Im doing now.

I can only remember this place in my dreams.Rightits not like Ive forgotten about it. I just

cant find any cues to help me retrieve these

memories. Nothing could possibly trigger my

memories of this scene. Theres simply nothing in

the real world that resembles it at all. If I tried, I

could certainly remember it, but I lack theopportunity to do so.

Nothing from my everyday life could possibly

remind me of the person before me.

Do you have a wish?

The face of the person who calmly asked me that

question, was continuously morphing into new anddifferent faces. My dream was generated by my own

subconscious, but somehow, I couldnt grasp the

features of his (or her) face. I saw it, of courseat

least, I believe I did. Its just that he (she) somehow

resembled everyone and no one at the same time.

Back then, I guess I gave a passive, harmlessanswer to his (or her) question, though I dont

remember my precise response. Anyhow, when he

(she) heard my answer, I was presented with a

container of some kind.

This is a boxthat grants any wish.

It did look like a box, now that he (she)mentioned it.

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I squinted at the box. My vision wasnt bad, but I

still couldnt see it clearly. There was nothing in the

box, yet it exuded a strange feeling. It was like

holding a closed cookie box that made a rattlingsound when you shook it, but was empty once you

opened it.

I think I asked him (or her) something trivial at

that point, along the lines of Why are you giving

this to me?

Because youre truly interesting! I cantdistinguish one human from another human, even

though Im fascinated by humanity. Ironic, dont

you think?

I didnt really understand what he (she) was

trying to say, but I nodded halfheartedly

nonetheless.But youre an exceptionI can distinguish you

from the rest of humanity. You might think that

this is nothing special, but its more than enough to

capture my interest!

I looked inside the box. Even though the box was

empty, I felt as if I were being attacked by anunpleasant sensation and my entire body were

being drawn toward the bottom of the box. I quickly

looked away.

This boxwill grant any wish. I dont care what

you wish forI wont stop you even if your wish

destroys all of mankind. Im just interested in whatyou, or your species, choose to wish for.

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I said something in response, and he (she) smiled.

HeheNo, no. Its not some kind of special

power. Humans already have the ability to grant

wishes just by forming a clear image of what theydesire. Im only able to give that power a little

push.

I accepted the box.

Of course, I wouldnt remember this dream when

I woke up.

But I would clearly remember what I thoughtabout him (or her). It was the same impression that

I had of him (or her) in the dream.

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disgusting?

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Interlude

I am inside a scene that I can only rememberwithin my dreams.

I have accepted the box from him.

Please be at ease! Usually such a thing comes

with a catch, but this one has none. You wont lose

anything precious, nor will your soul be stolen. You

know, its not the nature of the box that causes suchtragic consequences, its the nature of the human

who uses it. If you use it correctly, your wish will

come true without any risk.

If you use it correctly

Is it really so easy to use it correctly? I dont

know. I dont know, but even if using a box is risky,its still an extraordinary opportunity. Its like a

winning lottery ticket. Theres always the

possibility that you might ruin your life with your

sudden wealth. But you wouldnt normally worry

about that, right?

So who would ever refuse to accept this box?Whats the meaning of this?

Because heres a person who chooses to return

the box.

Are you holding yourself back for some reason?

Do you not believe me? Ordo you fear me?

Of course Im worried about all of these issues.

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But my primary reason for rejecting the box lies

elsewhere. I simply dont need it.

You see, my wish is for my everyday life to

continue. I have already attained this goal withoutany need for that box.

Im like a trillionaire who doesnt bother to strive

for an extra million yen. Of course Im aware of its

value. Even so, I dont need to accept the box from

such a mysterious person.

Right. I rejected the box.

Thus

Even if I did wish for this recurring world so that

my everyday life would continue, theres no way

that I could be the culprit.

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so soft that I almost fail to notice itbut overlooking itwould be a fatal error.

*rasp* *rasp* *rasp* *rasp*Theres a tiny little rasp being applied to me. Where?

Well, the sound comes from within me, so its shaving awayat my insides, of course.

*rasp* *rasp* *rasp* *rasp* *rasp* *rasp* *rasp**rasp* *rasp* *rasp* *rasp* *rasp* *rasp*

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I have to cover my ears because the sound feels sounbelievably noisyeven though its notbut doing so justmakes it seem even louder. Aah, naturally. Of course Ill

hear the sound coming from within me even better when Iblock off outside sounds. So I cant even cover my ears. Illnever ever be able to escape from the sound of myself beingabraded.

And it hurts. Getting abraded always hurts. I bet this iswhat it feels like when your heart turns into a blowfisha

continuous prickling pain. Are these feelings of guilt? Theyare more stubborn than I thought; I was sure that guiltwould be the first feeling that Id lose.

*rasp* *rasp* *rasp* *rasp* *rasp* *rasp* *rasp**rasp* *rasp* *rasp* *rasp* *rasp* *rasp*

Im getting abraded.

My heart.My self.Aah, if this continues, my insides will lose their shape

and crumble into small pieces like wood shavings. No...Itsalreadytoo late. Ive already been reduced to smallfragments.

Over these 20,000 iterations, I lost my sense of self. Imaware of this. I couldnt endure this boredom and lost myheart. I cant even communicate properly with othersanymore.

This world is rejecting me.Well, of course. From the very start, this was never a

place where I belonged. Ive forcefully thrust myself into it.Their classroom is constantly rejecting me.

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I know how to obtain relief.But I wont choose to do so.That is becausemy wish hasnt been granted yet.

Huh? But I have already crumbled into small pieces.So how come the only thing I still retain is this wish? Is thiseven possible? My wish was abraded along with my heart.As proof

I cant remember it.ahaha

I laugh unintentionally. Right, I cant remember. Ahaha,I cant remember. What was my wish again? Come on, letme remember! Ahaha stop joking with me! Why did Iendure the endless torture of these loops? I can only laugh.Though I can only laughaah, I have already forgottenhow to truly laugh long ago, and so I laugh emotionlessly.

SoI might as well just end it.An extremely simple conclusion. Why did it take me so

long to think of it?I just have to kill him. Right, I just have to kill him. I just

have to kill Kazuki Hoshino. After all, hes the origin of thisagony. If I can obtain relief by doing so, then I just have to

kill him quickly.But somehow I know.These shackles that were once my wish wont ever

release me.

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I only grasped the literal truth of love can change theworld when I was sixteen.

How many times have I already thought that life is just tootedious to bear, with its endless repetition of habits andhabits and habits? Ive seriously considered ending my life

so many timesI couldnt possibly count them if I usedboth of my hands, or even if I used both of my feet as well.

I was horribly bored.But I never gave voice to my feelings, and always

behaved cheerfully. After all, it wont do you any good ifyou openly display such a negative attitude for everyone to

see. I tried to be on good terms with everyone, which isntall that difficult. If you avoid thinking deeply about strongpoints and weak points or likes and dislikes, you can getalong with everyone.

A number of people gathered around me, and they alltold me the same thing.

Youre always so cheerful. You sure are worry-free,right?

Ah, yes. Everyone, thank you so much for beingcompletely deceived. Thank you so much for being ignorantof my ugliness until now. Thanks to you, Ive come to wantto throw everything away.

I think I know when this boredom began.Each and every person is just too self-centered.

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When I exchanged email addresses with a boy andreplied regularly to his emails, he got all excited andconfessed to me without any encouragement on my part.

When I tried to avoid ignoring a boy who was beingsnubbed by the other girls, he mistook it for affection on mypart and confessed to me. When someone invited me to gosee a movie and I only accepted because it was impolite toturn him down, he confessed to me. When I went hometogether with someone several times because we happened

to live in the same direction, he confessed to me.Afterwards, they all made faces as if I were betraying

them, even though they only had themselves to blame, andended up resenting me. I was also resented by the girls whowere in love with those boys. Selfish. Self-centered. I washurt every time and became covered with scars. Eventually,

I didnt even notice the new scars forming when I got hurtanymore. Thats when I finally noticed

Id just need to associate with each and every personhalfheartedly without ever getting too involved. Id justneed to read the mood properly and converse shallowly. Iwould not show them my true self. I would just need to

close up my shell in order to protect my delicate interior.And then I became bored.Even when I only showed them my outer shell, no one

noticed any difference.They all said the same thing to me.Youre always so cheerful. You sure are worry-free,

right?What a wonderful success.

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You should all just disappear.

It was an ordinary day after school. As always, I was

smiling while making casual chit-chat with the strangersaround me who pretended to be friends. Then, all of asudden, without any special impetus

I was struck by a certain concept that suddenly gainedshape, and made me think of a certain word.

Solitude

Aah, I was completelyalone.Alone. I see, so I was alone. Despite being surrounded by

people, I was alone. I felt strangely pleased. This word fitperfectly.

But this word promptly bared its fangs and attacked me.It was the first time I realized that such utter solitude was

accompanied by pain. My chest hurt, I couldnt breathe.And even when I was finally able to take a breath, it felt asif the air were full of needles. Pain pierced my lungs. Mysight turned black for a moment, and I thought that my lifemight as well be over. But my sight returned right awayand life didnt end so easily. I didnt know what to do. I

dont know. Help me. Someone, help me.Whats the matter?Somebody had noticed my difficulties and said to me:You look very happy smiling like that.Eh?Im smiling?

I raised my hands to my cheeks because I couldntunderstand his words.

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The corners of my lips were certainly lifted.Really, youre always so cheerful. You sure are worry-

free, right?

I laughed out loud. Yeah, Im happy! I laughed. Ilaughed without even knowing why.

At that moment, the people around me graduallybecame transparent. One by one they turned transparent.They turned transparent and disappeared, so I couldnt seethem anymore. Some voices continued to address me, but I

couldnt hear them anymore. Yet somehow I was still ableto reply properly. I didnt get it.

Before I knew it, the classroom was empty. I was theonly one left.

But Im sure I was the one who made it empty.I rejected everyone.

I have an appointment, so Ill go now.Although I couldnt see anyone, I spoke with a smile and

picked up my bag. My relationship with everyone elseprobably didnt require me to specifically address anyone. Ishould have just spoken to the wall from the start if thatshow it was.

And yet, why?...Excuse me, but are you alright?Although there should have been no one there, for some

reason I could clearly hear those words. I had just passedthe school gates when I was brought back in a flash, and

everything became visible once more.

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When I turned around, I saw a boy from my classstanding there, all out of breath. Apparently, hed beenchasing after me.

His name was definitely Kazuki Hoshino. We werentintimate, nor was he special in any way all I knew abouthim was his name.

What do you mean?As I asked that question, I realized that a strange

expectation had enveloped me.

After all, he wouldnt ask whether Im alright unless henoticed something was wrong. It meant that he might havebeen able to sense my transformationsomethingimpossible even for the people who were near me andinteracting with me at the time.

Err... how should I put it? You looked very distant...

or, Im not sure, but it seemed like you werent part ofeveryday life...

He spoke with great difficulty and couldnt get to thepoint at all.

Err... never mind if I was just reading too much intothings. Sorry for saying such strange things.

He seemed to feel awkward and was about to leave....wait a moment.I kept him from leaving. He inclined his head slightly

and looked at me.E-err...I might have stopped him, but what should I say now?

But heyhe was able to describe me as distant, eventhough I was smiling in that lonesome classroom.

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...do I always look cheerful?If he responded like everyone else, then hed be just like

everyone else.

Ah, I had great expectations of him. I had enormousexpectations that he would deny my statement and trulyunderstand me.

Yeah. Well...you do look that way, he hesitantlyresponded.

Upon hearing those words, I became utterly

disenchanted with him, lost all my interest andimmediately started to hate him. I was surprised by thestrength of th

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