lucy decoutere letter transcribed
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Ju
l
y
9
2
00
3
J
ia
n.
m
i
ss
le
tt
er
s. th
in
k
th
e
a
d
v
en
t
of
e
m
ai
l
i
ns
ta
n
t c
o
m
m
u
n
ic
at
io
n
is
sy
m
p
to
m
a
ti
c
o
f
l
os
s o
f
p
a
tie
n
ce
m
a
y
be
re
s
pe
tt
fu
r
w
or
d
s.
M
a
y
b
e I
h
a
te
ce
ll
p
h
o
ne
s
be
c
au
s
e t
h
ey
ar
e
a
lm
os
t
t
o
o
e
as
y
.
A
n
d
f
o
r
m
e
if
h
a
ve
g
i
ve
n
m
y
t
im
e
to
b
e
w
it
s
om
eo
n
e
d
on
t
w
an
t
to
h
a
ve
m
y c
el
l
p
h
on
e
m
a
ke m
e
o
r
ra
th
e
r
p
ut
m
e a
t
so
m
e
o
ne
el
se
s
d
is
p
os
a
l.
A
n
d le
tt
er
s
ar
e
k
e
ep
e
rs
.
O
n
ce
d
e
li
ve
r
ed
y
o
u m
y re
r
e
ad t
hi
s
tu
c
k
it
u
n
d
er
y
ou
r
p
ill
ow
.
..b
u
rn
i
t.
.
.
w
ha
t
ev
e
r w
h
at
ev
e
r.
h
av
e
a f
ew
re
gr
e
ts
f
ro
m
th
is
p
as
t
w
e
e
ke
i
w
h
k
h l
d
ke
t
o
s
h
a
r
w
ft h
y
ou
N
o
th
a
t
w
o
n
t
d
o
m
ea
n
to
sa
y
th
a
t
w
a
n
t
to
c
le
ar a
w
a
y a
co
u
p
le
o
f
c
o
bw
e
b
s.
w
an
t
t
o
tr
y
t
o
pr
o
pe
r
ly
an
s
w
er
h
er
e
qu
e
st
io
n
s
w
hi
c
h y
o
u
p
o
se
d
t
o m
e
b
ut
w
a
s
un
a
b
le to
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resp
on
d
to
be
cau
se
am
basicaHy
a
chicken
shit
am
a
very
fas
t
acc
ura
te
ju
dg
e
acc
isso
r
is
th
at
a real
wo
rd?
of
peo
ple
s
c
har
act
ers
Not
nec
essa
rily
She
is go
od
h
ate
him.
She
is
s
tup
id
Kinda
moreviscerahEnerg-etic
you kn
ow
And
rem
em
ber se
eing you
at th
at
p
arty
in
Banff
literally turn
ed
ar
oun
d
and
walked
t
he
oth
er
w y
T
hat
sparks
thin
g
t
hat
you dig
so
m
uc
h
Well, rat
her
th
an
th
e
m
ot
h
to
th
e
fl
am
e
it sho
ots
me
in
t
he
o
ther
dir
ecti
on
You w
ere too
sparkling
And
t
hen at
Karaoke
saw
you had
signed up
t
o
sing
not
really su
re how
m
ad
e
n
ac e co nn e c t i ons
b-utf-Ufk...
a-m
now
realizing
y
our
f
ace is e
ver
yw
her
e
at
all
ti
me
s
a
nd
t
hin
kin
g
it was
cool
you
w
ere
th
ere
But
w
hen it
ca
me
down
to
it
c
ou
ldn
t
talk to
you
Ju
st
couldnt
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So
finally
at
the
BBQ
but it
seemed
you
were
talking to a number
of
women
and
was
torn
flattered that you were
in
to
hooking
up
later
but
pretty
sure
you
had
a
bit of
a
collection of
well
you
get
the
idea.
B ut
I came back
to alifax
and
felt
like
an asshole
for
not
befriending
you
just
because Im
a
freak
so
called you up
And felt
ripped off
for not being there
for
that
extra
day
with
you.
was
absolutely
sure Id never
hear
from
you.
But
did And
what
found
is
youd say
things
was
thinking
about.
dont
know if you remember
say i ng t hat
you h ad[rnagine d w h at
my
life is
like
am paraphrasing here
and
that
you were really
basing
this
on...
well
nothing.
was
doing
the
exact
same thing.
But instead
of
saying
so
think said
something
ridiculous
like
is that
fun for you?
[or]
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equafly
sentimental
But
h a hard
time
hearing anything
like
that
from
you
because
was
certain
you
were
saying
this
to other
people
so
couldnt
appreciate
it. Couldnt
absorb it.
decided
wanted to solve
the
mystery a
nd cmet oTo ron1oH dont
like
making
more
or less out of a
person than
they
are
without
knowing
them
wanted to see
you
figure
out really
where you
are coming
from
as
much
as one can
in a
few days
tried to
make
the trip
about
work
to
take
the
pressure off
visiting
you
but had
no
reason to
come to
Toronto except
to
hang
with
you
To be
sure that you were a
re
a f a W a b e pe
r son b soaTh N o t a
figment
bTmy
imagination AndT5da
safety
net of
people
to
see
things
to
do etc
but
felt
very vulnerable
though
tried to
be
there with an
open
heart
guarded
And was
sure
youd
never notice
That
was
my
biggest
mistake
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We
hooked
up
for
dinner
and
you
totally
knocked
me out.
No
wonder
couldnt
eat
anything.
You
scared the hell
out
of
me.
Either
because
you
were reading
my
mind
or
asking me to
read it
for
you.
mean
really
what
on
Earth
could
be
better
than
lying with
you
listening
tornic having
pea ce
No thing.
Bti t
put
to
me
like
that
then?
really
could
not
deal.
Such
a
simple
thing
but
am used
to
spendingt4rne
wit h
people
men
suppose who are so
totally
unavailable emotionally
that
clearly
did
not know what to do.
Nuff
said.
But thats
the bottom line.
am
worried
that
gave
y mixed
messages
and
if
did
firstly
apolologize...
urn...
mean
Apologize
fuck
where is
my
4ity . a n d se
eond4y I hone
s t y
did
not
intent to.
loved
spending
time
with y
this
weekend.
You
are
hilarious.
And
really
loved seeing
you
becoming
progressively
more
relaxed
[with]
me.
Some
times
felt
a bit
left in
the
dust
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like w
hen
c
oul
d
se
e
how th
e th
ing
you
No
bu
hav
e
sho
ws
a
co
oln
ess
can
onl
y
ex
per
ien
ce
bu
t
no
t ac
tua
lly
d
o
appreciate
your
advice
[w ith]
Trailer
Pa
rk
B
oy
s
T
he so
ngs
you
wri
te
th
at
I
ve
hea
rd
a
re re
all
y
bea
utif
ul
A
nd
ho
pe
th
at
my
vi
sit
d
idn
t cra
mp
y u too
m
u eh
really
have
to
go
to sleep
Its
ve
ry
at
e
J
ian
Y
ou
re gre
at A
nd
wan
t
t
o
kn
ow
mo
re
ha
ve
mo
re
fu
n
eas
y
tim
es
wi
th
y
ou
b
eca
use
it so ve
ry r
are
rig
ht?
Who
am
trying to
kid? How
many
other
me
n
rea
lly ge
t thi
s
wh
ole
ani
mal
kid
fuck
ing
th
ing
?
am
s
ad
w
e
d
idn
t
s
pen
dt
he
nig
ht
to
geth
er
co
uld
ha
ve
be
en mo
re op
en
w
ith
you
tha
n
in person
rathe
r th
an
[w ith] p
en
pa
per
fin
d
disc
los
ure
i
n
c
af
s
tric
ky
lo
ve
y
our
h
and
s
Lu
cy