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Lenten JournalLenten Journal

Have you ever found yourself longing for more than what life offers day to day? While we all crave a variety of things,

nothing can fully satisfy the great longing of the soul. Truth is, our cravings were made to be

fulfilled by one source alone.

Welcome to God Craving,a companion journal to our Soul Craving Lenten message series.

Each Monday, you’ll reread the message, scripture and story from the weekend - with additional, related scriptures throughout the rest of each week. Daily reflections will uncover layers of spiritual depth to consider.

Best of all, each day space is provided in this journal for you to write out your own thoughts and prayers, processing your growing relationship with God.

Our deepest prayer is that God will use this season to become very real in your daily walk, a fresh presence for your soul.

Sincerely,Your God Craving Journal Servant Writing Team

Week 1Soul Craving: What Do You Want?

John 1:35-40Refocus Questions This Week

for personal or group reflection

• What do you want?• What do you naturally crave?

• What are the obstacles that most often keep you from following Jesus?• What obstacles could you give up (fast from) and/or what healthy practices

could you pick up over the next 40 days?

Monday - John 1:35-40

A New PathSuzanne Marvin

“She kind of had a reputation with guys when she was younger, Mom. She kind of got used, but that’s not who she was.” My son spoke those words to me about a friend of his who passed away at only 28 years of age. Who she was and who she grew to be were extreme opposites. She had to walk a different path to find life. The last several years she was led to help others. When she wasn’t supporting those who needed help, she was leading fundraisers for veterans, animal shelters and various people she had heard about who were in need. She was busy and involved, and she had found life when she stepped outside of herself.

John recognized Jesus and pointed him out to his disciples so they would follow their Savior. That is the direction they needed to go to find life. It was not following John; he was just a guide, but for a relationship in Christ, they had to turn and follow the source.

When we look for our worth in others, in anyone but our Savior, we are bound to be disappointed in life.

Lord, grant us peace, hear our prayers and give us the courage to step outside of ourselves.

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Tuesday - Revelation 3:14-22

Spiritual Poverty Matt Wainscott

I remember being absolutely amazed at the level of brokenness I saw amongst the highly affluent. I was working as a police officer and for some reason thought that certain types of calls wouldn’t happen in such “nice” neighborhoods. Yet I was entirely wrong. Somehow, I had allowed material possessions to equate to an overall wellness that wasn’t there.

I’m really no different. I can become unaware of spiritual poverty because of the affluence of our society. I don’t know what it means to be truly hungry. Yet in reality, I need Jesus to expose the poverty of my life apart from a life lived in intimacy and obedience to him. The discipline of fasting can be incredibly helpful to exposing my true spiritual condition.

I know these words in Revelation start harsh—and I think I need that wakeup call—but really I see the warmth of Jesus here. He disciplines me because he loves me, and he is waiting to come in and refine me into true abundance the second I bring my thinking into alignment with his.

Would you ask Jesus to expose the spiritual poverty in your life? Then, repent and invite Jesus into your brokenness.

Father, I invite you to expose in me areas of spiritual poverty. Bring my thinking in these areas into alignment with yours. I invite you into these areas to transform me from the inside out. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

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Wednesday - Matthew 6:16-18

Fasting for the Broken Jody Willoughby

I thought it was over. I thought we were over. My marriage had hit rock bottom, and we had two choices: leave it there in all its brokenness or start rebuilding. With God’s grace, we chose to rebuild.

Soon after, we were asked for help, guidance and prayer from a couple close to us. They were now where we had been... lives shattered. They were desperate to find a way to glue the pieces of their marriage back together again.

Time went on, and their situation didn’t seem to be improving much. So we decided to fast together for their marriage. The agreement was one day, no food, praying for our friends and their marriage. The day was like any other day, except this day every time I felt hunger, had visions of sugarplums dancing in my head, smelled the sweet aromas of Italian cuisine in the air or found that spaghetti sauce had miraculously landed on my hand and begged to be licked off, I prayed. I prayed for healing, grace and forgiveness in this couple’s marriage.

At the end of the day, James and I reflected back together and realized that hunger never made us angry or short with one another or our children. We discussed how much more we prayed throughout the day. In the end, this shared journey brought us closer to God and closer to each other.

Lent is a time many choose to fast and focus on God. Have you decided to give up something? How will this sacrifice keep you focused on God?

Lord, I pray that I will stay focused on you today. May all that I experience lead me closer to you. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

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Thursday - Isaiah 55:1-9

When the Fire Dies James Willoughby

My eight-year-old son is a voracious collector. His most recent obsession is football cards. Before football cards were several other collections that he pursued with the passion of an addict, but his latest fix comes in the form of foil-wrapped stacks of cardboard heroes.

When he tears into a pack, there is a fire in his eyes as he hunts for his favorite players and hopes for a coveted autographed card. Then the fire dies out, and his mind goes to the next pack of cards. I totally get his obsession and have around 10,000 baseball cards in my basement that attest to my former addiction.

When I look at my son’s young life and his passions, I am filled with both worry and hope.

I worry that his passions will be channeled into unhealthy pursuits as happens to so many of us. Our culture assaults us with wrong ideas about what will fulfill our needs: cars, clothes, bigger houses and vacations. We pour our passions into food, drugs, alcohol, unhealthy relationships, jobs—but they all leave us wanting. The fire in our eyes ignited by the flesh always dies.

But I have great hope. There are promises in these verses from Isaiah. If we turn from these empty, unfulfilling pursuits, listen to God’s instruction and choose to fill ourselves with what is good, we are promised mercy, faithful love and fulfillment that is beyond our understanding. What pursuits in your life are separating you from your relationship with Christ?

Father, ignite in me a fire that can only be fueled by you. And smother the unhealthy desires that consume me. Amen.

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Friday - Psalm 116:1-12

He Heard My Voice Debra Friend

I don’t speak very loudly and often mumble to the people in my life by dropping my voice at the end of a sentence. The past year brought me quite low and longing for relief from stress, from responsibility, from physical pain and from sorrow. Near the beginning of the tenth month of my distress, I felt like I was screaming to my family for relief, screaming to be heard. I saw and heard no measurable response.

And then, on the twenty-first day of a Bible reading plan, an invitation from God arrived. In response, I wrote out my lists of distress and complaints, and read them aloud to him. I told him I was going to give up trying to come up with my own solutions, expectations and manufactured miracles. I would trust that his miracles would happen, and they would be not me-sized, but God-sized.

He heard me. “I love the Lord because he heard my voice…”

After the injuries, the insults and the darkest of days, the Lord heard my weak and faltering voice. He listened; and though I was asking for relief, he gave me the healing of significance. Here, in my right-now life, I get to enjoy him. How can I ever repay him?

Father, I can enjoy life with you while I’m still living. Help me to recognize your gifts to me and to appreciate them. Help me to live forward into life by daily remembering the past, thanking you for the present and claiming your perfect hope for the future.

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Saturday - John 1:35-40

How We Spend Our Days Kate Johnsen

I have weaknesses. I have distractions. I can dither away the days like a professional time waster. I know I need to make some changes. As author Annie Dillard said, “How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.”

Lent is a season for recalibrating, for identifying and eliminating those habits that aren’t life giving. Through this season we can choose to replace some of the distractions with pursuits and disciplines that draw us closer to Jesus. What will you fast from during this Lenten season? In exchange, how can you grow closer to Jesus?

Lord Jesus, the cry of my heart is to let you shine your light through me, and that is only possible if I grow closer to you. Help me to release those habits that take me away from you. More of you, Jesus, and less of me. Amen.

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Week 2Craving Grace & Forgiveness



• What is your understanding of grace?• In what parts of your life do you need to receive grace?

• Where/to whom do you need to offer grace?• Who or what do you struggle to forgive?


Losing the Layers Kim Miller

We love the Michigan weather from which our extended family’s cottage has beckoned every summer for over a century: warm sunny beaches by day—flannel shirt chilliness as evening settles in over the bay. Every year before our own family traveled north, Grandma would always remind us to PACK LAYERS!—as if it were an entirely new concept, never before considered. We’d laugh and admonish one another to PACK LAYERS! It became a fun family joke as we prepared to head north.

When it comes to multi-weather dressing, layers are great. As it turns out layers are not so great when it comes to embracing a Messiah. John 4 describes a woman with a multi-layered protective exterior of “not good enough” exceeded only by the depth of her need for mercy. This love-hungry lady is a hot mess of a human on that sweltering day at the well.

Jesus isn’t having it, however. Dismantling every layer of religious entrenchment he assures that who, what and where she’s come from won’t matter now. Jesus’ words press through every imaginable excuse: the kind of worshippers the Father looks for are those simply and honestly themselves before him…

No excuses. No pretense. None righteous. No sinners too far gone. Lose the protective layers of not-good-enough. Just be…with me.

Dear God, I, too, long to be simply and honestly myself before you. Even though awkward and undeserving, I embrace the forgiveness that allows me to simply be with you today. Thank you for your amazing grace...

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Tuesday - Romans 6:11-23

The Door of Forgiveness Suzanne Marvin

She was pretty and smart, and I respected her when I first went to work for her, but over time that respect dwindled. Often she would blame others for her mistakes, share private information with those she favored and take credit for my work. After three years, I asked if we could talk privately. I reminded her of things she had been doing and told her I was hurt by her actions. She replied that we did not need to go back over the past and it was time for me to leave.

Over time my anger became bitterness. Every time I saw her, the old hurts resurfaced, until one day I saw her at a conference. I walked up to her and said hello. I congratulated her on her son’s marriage, and I told her I wished them the best. To my surprise her eyes started filling up with tears. We spoke for only a few minutes and I left to find my seat. During the break she approached me, “Suzanne,” she said, “Happy Birthday!” And with that, forgiveness had been granted, and the healing had finally begun.

“Forgiveness is unlocking the door to set someone free and realizing you were the prisoner!” - Max Lucado

Thank you, Lord. Through you I can face the hurts in my life and find the courage to forgive.

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Wednesday - 1 Peter 3:8-16

Razor-Sharp Tongue Kate Johnsen

I took it too far. It was a subject I was passionate about, no doubt, but I lashed out in anger. I wasn’t proud of what I’d said, and I can’t imagine Jesus was either. Have you ever felt this shame and regret? Maybe it was overreacting to something your spouse or child did (or didn’t do). Maybe it was that growing frustration at work just boiling over.

Our words, when unrestrained, can injure, maim and kill. We justify it by calling it “blowing off steam” or “clearing the air.” A wise mentor once told me, “In most cases, it is better to be kind than right.” What would be different in our lives if we chose the high road of kindness at every turn?

Yes, sometimes we have to say the hard thing, even as Jesus demonstrated, but usually we say more than we should. Have you chipped away at another’s self-confidence, weakened a relationship or sabotaged a project? A key to seeing good days in this life, according to Peter, is keeping myself from speaking evil or deceit.

Lord Jesus, bind my tongue when I want to use it for my own benefit, not to glorify you. Help me to learn restraint so I can enjoy your abundance and peace in this life. I want more of you to flow onto others through the words I speak. Amen.

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Thursday - Psalm 51:1-12

A Life of Constant Renewal Bill Lutz

Lately I have been asking God to give me a clean heart. Maybe it’s better said that I have been asking God to give me a clear mind. I need a clear mind to find myself completely surrendered for the Lord’s plan.

In the work world, I feel like I am a transplant. Part of me is still longing to feel completely here. Don’t get me wrong. I absolutely love what I do and I have a deep care and affinity for the staff, the servants and our neighbors at New Path. A peace and an inherent value that just can’t be measured comes with this work.

Looking back, I never would have imagined myself being here. I graduated from Wright State University with two degrees, ready to be a long-term government employee. Everything was going well until what I thought was my calling came crashing down. I had hoped to get a promotion that never happened.

Confusing months of praying in anguish finally ended when I knew that I needed to leave that season of work and find my next. And here I am. I have never been happier in a vocation. Yet, I still need that clear mind to fight the temptation to think about my former work life. I find myself wanting to live in the past rather than living in the future God has prepared for me.

Heavenly Father, loving, caring relationships are a blessing. We pray that we can look into our painful past but not be held captive by it. Lord, give us the gift of a future that you have prepared for us. In Jesus’ name, Amen!

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Friday - James 4:1-12

Filling the Need Melissa Leembruggen

Humans have spiritual needs. I teach this concept in communication classes. This need drives relationships connecting us to belief systems. Through connections with primary relationships—parents, siblings and friends—we learn right from wrong, love from apathy; these beliefs and values of life shape us into emotion-filled people. Therefore, it is no wonder that by the time we are about two years old, we crave grace and forgiveness after making childishly poor decisions, like touching hot stoves or hitting siblings, because bad decisions separate us from the love of our people.

In life, our selfish decisions wreak havoc not only in our earthly relationships, but also with our heavenly Father. As James says, the solution to filling our soul-craving need after making wrong decisions is to humbly submit our hearts in confession to receive the purification that fills our spiritual need with grace and forgiveness from God.

What positions of pride do you need to confess today?

Father, help us humbly submit our hearts, as we seek to fill our spiritual needs through worldly actions. Let us confess sin, knowing that the cravings we have in our hearts can only be filled by you. Amen.

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Got Baggage? James Willoughby

The Bible verses that offer me the greatest hope and reassurance describe the forgiving, accepting nature of Jesus. Over and over Jesus is seen fraternizing with the unclean, the broken, the lost, people with shady pasts, people with shady presents, people who need healing, people who need grace—people like me.

In John 4, Jesus is on the wrong side of the tracks. He’s alone and tired, seeking a short break from a hectic schedule, when he crosses paths with a local woman. And this woman has baggage. Not only is she from a despised ethnic group, but she has been married five times and is presently with a man that she’s not married to.

Jesus doesn’t ignore the woman like most religious leaders of that time probably would have. He engages her. Already knowing her junk before she names it, he calls her to action.

For the longest time, my junk kept me stuck. I believed that I had to eradicate sin from my life before Jesus could ever use me. But the more I heard stories like this, the more I realized that Jesus would accept me, warts and all.

And the promise made in John 4 is that not only will Jesus accept us and fill us with living water, but we will have a “spring of water welling up” in us. Accepting Christ’s grace means that we will become vessels, pouring out his love and grace for others. Do you have any junk keeping you stuck in your spiritual journey?

Father, you know our junk before we even name it. Thank you for loving us and working through us in spite of our sins.

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Week 3Craving to Be Part of Something

Bigger than Ourselves



• Name some of the resources (gifts) in your hand.• What needs do you see around you?

• With God’s help, how might your resources be used toward meeting those needs?• What do you need to do today to make that happen?


When I'm Not Enough, Jesus Is Jody Willoughby

After graduating from high school, I found myself wandering aimlessly through life. While something inside of me yearned for great things, I didn’t really believe greatness was in the cards for me. But through a tragedy, my perspective soon changed.

It was before sunrise when the phone rang, and in the darkness tears fell and hearts broke. After a short bout with cancer, my sister-in-law had passed away. She was less than a year older than me and had two young children.

On the day of her funeral, there was no shortage of testimonies from those closest to her. One after another stood and shared how she had positively impacted the lives around her. As I listened to their words, I couldn’t help but wonder, “What would people say about me?”

I felt empty; my life was hollow and stale. I had spent the last decade chasing the things of this world to satisfy the cravings of my soul. What I was really craving was for my life to matter.

That day I gave my life to Jesus, and a transformation began. He has called me to things I never could have imagined. Each time I respond with doubt and worry. I am not enough. But Jesus doesn’t need “enough.” Jesus fed 5,000 on what appeared to be not enough. Jesus needs the willing, and he fills the gap.

At your funeral, what do you want people to say about you? What difference do you hope to make in the lives around you?

Lord, I give my life to you. Fill me with your Holy Spirit, and use me for your glory. Amen.

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Tuesday - Nehemiah 4:1-15

The Lowest Points Melissa Leembruggen

As we fast, God opens our hearts to greater things, just as God opened Nehemiah’s heart to greater things for his people in a place they had never been. With faith, Nehemiah asked the king for grace to do his God-appointed work; with boldness he requested the resources also. God led Nehemiah and his people in the success of completing something bigger than themselves.

In our lives, God asks us to do things “beyond.” Sometimes we recognize them, but sometimes we don’t because all we see is being positioned at the “lowest points of the wall.” That location doesn’t seem to matter. It is unworthy of our talents: dirty, dangerous or mundane. But as servants of the Lord, when God places us on a wall, it has purpose! Therefore, we need to pull our family—by blood or faith—around us for strength and arm ourselves with the resources for that job. When each person does a specific job, we are ALL part of something bigger than ourselves—God’s big picture.

In what position has God placed you on a wall being rebuilt today?

Father, lead us daily to our appointed position on your wall. Help us to see the importance of serving you, the gift of our companions in service and the resources you’ve provided. Amen.

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Wednesday - 1 Samuel 17:33-51

Awaken the Deep Desires Matt Wainscott

I believe at a young age God fills our hearts with desires and longings. We may suppress or ignore them, but they’re there. I have noticed over the course of my life that if I pay attention to those yearnings and am obedient to them, they inevitably prepare me to be a part of something bigger than myself.

From a young age I was always pretty fascinated with leadership. Whether it was in sports, boy scouts or at church, I was always interested in trying to lead things. Then when I served in the Army, I found myself to be a part of leading small teams to accomplish the work we had been given. I now see how God was preparing me to help launch, empower and equip our life group leaders.

I see this progression in David’s life. It was probably pretty tedious and boring to work as a shepherd. Yet David was faithful in protecting his sheep from the lion and bear. In the same way, as we are faithful to the work God has put in front of us, we are preparing ourselves and making ourselves available for Jesus to craft us into work much bigger than ourselves.

What are some of your deep desires? What roles are you struggling to finish obediently?

Father, I invite you to awaken the deep desires you have placed in me. Give me courage to be faithful to the work you have given me in the present. Amen.

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Thursday - Exodus 3:1-15

Who am I ? James Willoughby

I am an introvert verging on socially awkward. I am terrible at most sports. I am a worrier and let anxiety consume me at times. I don’t think fast on my feet. I am impatient. And I am exactly who God created me to be.

In spite of all these shortcomings, God still calls me into action. But sometimes when I am called, instead of saying yes, I argue. I remind God of my shortcomings, and I suggest more qualified candidates. But God reminds me that through him I can do great things.

Moses had a similar response to God’s call. We often think of Moses as a great leader of men, the liberator of the Hebrews. But his initial response to God was, “Who am I?” Moses was a murderer. He wasn’t an eloquent speaker and argued with God that no one would listen to him or believe him. But God countered all of Moses’ arguments and reassured him, “I will be with you.”

Each of us has a list of flaws that begs the question, “Who am I?’” But each of us also possesses a combination of life experiences, abilities, knowledge and passions that uniquely qualify us to serve God in a way that only we can.

You may have heard it said that inside each of is a “God-shaped hole” that only he can fill. Well, in God’s plan, there is a you-shaped hole that only you can fill.

What do you like about yourself? What do others say you’re good at? Are you using these traits and abilities to help others? If not, what’s stopping you?

Father, remind us who we are in you, and give us the clarity and courage to live into your plan for our lives.

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Friday - 2 Kings 6:8-17

False Accusation Kate Johnsen

The criticism had been brutal and unfounded. I needed to move forward but felt paralyzed by the shock of the accusations and misinformation. I quickly learned that you cannot prove you didn’t have secret meetings. I realized that many who I had considered to be friends were only acquaintances. I needed to remember that the cause was greater than my pain. I needed to fulfill my commitment.

Elisha was surrounded by an army who were sent on a mission to capture him. His servant was panicked, seeing no way out. But Elisha was unruffled. He saw things differently. Elisha asked God to open his servant’s eyes. How many times do we forget that God is in the battle with us, that we’re supported by heavenly forces?

In my season of false accusation, God gave me eyes for the bigger picture. He helped me to give my best despite the confusion that was swirling around me. He helped me to realize that my pain was for the greater good.

When has knowing you were part of something bigger helped you to get through a hard time? How can you help another by asking God to open their eyes to see?

Heavenly Father, help me to be obedient even when the road is treacherous. Help me to help others to see your forces in motion when they are discouraged and hurting. Amen.

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Bigger than Ourselves Rachel Billups

My grandmother married my grandfather when she was 15 years old and he was 33. She never finished high school and gave birth to my mother when she was only 17. I grew up experiencing what one mentor of mine called a “thin slice of life,” thin because of my limited resources and small pictures. But God does God’s best work with limited resources.

Take this story from John 6, a mother packs a lunch for her son to enjoy in the middle of the day—it’s limited—two fish and five small barley loaves, but what she doesn’t know is that on the other side of that lunch is Jesus, and a prayer turns that limited lunch into a miracle.

So often we think we need all the resources, all the gifts for God to do really big stuff in our lives, but in reality what we need is to let God use what we have—no matter how limited our lunch.

I didn’t start out as a person with limitless resources. Nope, like the boy in this story, I had a limited life. But when I gave my limited life to the limitless God, a miracle happened—God used my life for God’s bigger purpose. What limits do you place on your life? What about on God’s ability to use your life? What would it look like for you to hand God what you have? We all have limited lives, but we serve a limitless God.

God, I hand my life to you, as limited as it is. Multiply my efforts so that I can be part of something bigger than myself. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

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Week 4Craving Self-Awareness



• Is it easier for you to see your own weaknesses—or someone else’s? Explain.• When you take an honest look, what area of your life needs healing?

• Who in your life helps you to identify your issues of brokenness? Your strengths? Do you need to invite someone to help in this way?


Authentic Living Kate Johnsen

I’ve been reading Scary Close by Donald Miller. Don speaks of our “self” in the book, and how, at a young age, most of us experience shame that compels us to cover up our true self. We instead use different mechanisms to help others like us. We can’t achieve true intimacy with others because we hide behind the shell we’ve created. Perhaps you have a shell of humor or intellect. Perhaps you make yourself indispensible in the lives of others. Whatever the defense mechanism, it costs you a piece of who you really are every time you rely on it instead of being honest. It keeps you from being intimate with others because you don’t trust that being your true self is enough.

How many times do we lack insight into our own motivations? How can we become more of who God created us to be instead of the person we think the world wants us to be? What would be the outcome of authentic living? What if we embraced the notion that God loves us and wants to use exactly who we are to fulfill his purpose here on Earth?

Lord Jesus, I get exhausted trying to be more than you created me to be. Help me to risk showing others my true self. Help me to let go of those pursuits that weren’t meant for me. Help me to be enough. Amen.

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Tuesday - Mark 10:46-52

What Do You Want ? Matt Wainscott

What do you want me to do for you? I think this blind man has a lot to teach me. For one, he wasn’t swayed by the crowds or seeking others’ approval—he kept yelling louder for Jesus. Next, he knew the source of true healing was Jesus—not some counterfeit substitute such as food or Facebook or alcohol. He also persisted by continuing to call on Jesus, even when it didn’t work initially.

Next, what grabs me is the man’s faith: “Throwing his cloak aside, he jumped to his feet and came to Jesus.” That cloak was probably the man’s sole possession. To discard it shows absolute faith in Jesus to make him well.

I struggle to make sense of why Jesus would ask him what he wanted—it had to be pretty obvious to everyone involved. Yet healing came when the man stated plainly what it was he wanted from Jesus.

I imagine that things like busyness blind me to my true deficiencies. I read this and feel challenged to enter a little deeper into what is going on inside of me beneath the surface, and then to tell Jesus plainly what I want.

If you pictured Jesus walking by, what would you ask him for?

Father, I thank you that you make time for the beggars on the side of the road. I confess that I often turn to substitute sources of healing. I ask that you would expose in me the areas of my blindness and brokenness that need your healing. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

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Wednesday - 1 Corinthians 3:16-23

Self-Awareness Begins with God-Awareness Melissa Leembruggen

Much of the self-help industry is built on helping people become self-aware. I admit, I’ve learned a few things from these kinds of books. I also teach about the importance of self-awareness as a first step to changing and improving communication patterns. But when we are in relationship with God, self-awareness needs to be considered from a less human perspective.

The Bible tells us that after Pentecost the Holy Spirit began to indwell believers. Since the Holy Spirit is the third aspect of the Trinity and God’s nature, that means God does exist inside each believer, which makes us God’s temple. For believers who desire to see with greater depth, a shift in ideology must occur. The only true way to gain self-awareness then is to become more aware of God. In studying God’s word, character and promises, we can become more self-aware because God knows our hearts and minds intimately already—even more deeply than we will ever know ourselves.

How are you encouraged to know God more deeply, and how could this knowledge help you be more self-aware?

Spirit, let us swim in the depths of awareness of God as we fellowship together through the gift of being God’s temple. Amen.

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Thursday - Psalm 139:1-14

The Starting Place Suzanne Marvin

I recently listened to a licensed social worker talking about finding worth in others. She said the basic belief of a social worker is that their clients deserve good things because they are human beings and that they are doing the best they can. She gave an example of when she was working with youths who were being released from juvenile detention. She worked with one young girl who was especially difficult. Her language was foul; she was extremely mean and had even bit her. The social worker said that she struggled to find something good about this girl until she looked at her hands. The young girl had very dainty and pretty hands. She focused on her client’s hands, and in time was able to build on that as their relationship grew.

Some people make it hard to find the good. And it can be difficult to peel back the layers. It can be even harder to find our own goodness or worth. Especially when we mess up. But it is important to not give up. Ask God to reveal something good in you and start from there. Remember, God is ready to do a new thing in you. Let him help you find a place to begin.

God, reveal to me who you created me to be. Give me the wisdom to know your way and the courage to follow.

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Friday - Ephesians 4:17-5:2

Fixer Upper Kim Miller

“We’re Chip and Joanna Gaines. We take the worst house in the best neighborhood and turn it into our clients’ dream home. Do YOU have the guts to take on a fixer upper?”

Oh, how we love this popular HGTV show. We adore the idea that the truly awful, unlivable house could become a gorgeously inviting and livable home.

The opening verses of the Ephesians 4 passage describe a dark, ignorant, insensitive and greedy pack of Gentiles who’ve modeled everything the Ephesians are being called away from. It’s a total renovation challenge… to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires… and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.

While we’re tempted to think of salvation in terms of a little paint here, a few wall hangings there, this passage calls us to tear out walls, pull up floorboards and install a COMPLETELY new mindset fueled by kindness and compassion.

In short, God has taken us—the worst “houses”—and made a way for us to become “dream homes” where God’s character indwells. Jesus didn’t die to make us a little better version of our ignorant and insensitive selves. Jesus gave his life so that we could now be gorgeously livable homes where the richest of God’s love lives out.

Dear God, give me the guts to not settle for less than your complete transformation. Thank you for the love it took to make me into your fixer upper.

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I Didn't Know I was Blind until I Could See Jody Willoughby

In John 9, Jesus and his disciples came across a man who had been blind since birth. I can relate to the man in this story because I was blind for many years—not physically but spiritually. I wasn’t raised in church or with any spiritual upbringing. I was selfish. I did what I wanted because it felt good and made me “happy.” It never mattered that my actions might hurt someone else.

This attitude and way of living brought my marriage close to divorce. I lost friends and did things I deeply regret. Eventually I found myself on Jesus’ path. With mud and spit, he opened my eyes. When I saw just how sinfully I had been living, I was ashamed and disgusted with who I was.

But God showed me a new way. As he worked on me, my life became a testimony of his redemption.

God calls us to be the light of the world. In order to shine that light, I need to take time each morning to assess what’s going on inside of me. I need to pray and ask God to reveal the dark areas inside my heart. I need to study his word and learn what it means to be more like Jesus. And when I fail, I need to ask for forgiveness.

Take some time to prayerfully consider areas Jesus is calling you to confront. Write down ways you can actively work on those areas, and choose to do at least one of those actions today.

Father, help me become more self-aware of my true spiritual attitudes. Help me be honest with myself and with you. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

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Week 5Craving Simplicity & Contentment

John 10:1-10 Refocus Questions This Week


• What does Jesus promise us in this life?• What does abundant life mean to you?

• What steps might you take to invite/allow Jesus to provide “life to the full”?


Trust in a Shepherd Melissa Leembruggen

“I just want to be a sheep, BAA.” This children’s Bible song holds a deep spiritual truth. Jesus says he is the gate to the pasture through which all must enter. He is also the good shepherd. If he is our shepherd, we as believers are already his sheep, BAA!

The joy of being a sheep is life simplicity. The shepherd makes the decisions, leading the sheep to green pastures, quiet water and safe shelter while protecting them from enemies.

The only requirement is trust. Sheep must learn to trust the shepherd’s voice. In fact, shepherds often carry lambs so they can get used to the shepherd’s voice and smell. The shepherd is with them 24/7, in good and bad weather.

If you are craving a new type of simplicity and life contentment, consider the trust you are placing in your shepherd daily. Are you following his voice? In what areas of your life could you be more content? How can you trust the shepherd and listen 24/7?

Jesus, thank you for being our good shepherd. Strengthen and equip us to follow you on the paths of this life. Amen.

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Tuesday - 1 Timothy 6:6-10

Trivial Pursuits James Willoughby

I am a car guy. Since I was a kid, I’ve loved them. My grandpa had a collection of scale model cars, and every time I went to his house, I spent time ogling them, dreaming of the day I would eventually own my own car.

After graduating college, I got my first real job. And I bought a sports car the week I was hired. Over the next several years, I dumped thousands of dollars into automotive upgrades. My sports car was eventually replaced by a luxury sedan, and I began anew seeking upgrades. I spent hours deciding on the perfect suspension set up and wheel/tire package.

I was on the verge of selling my sports car and spending the proceeds spiffing up my new toy when something happened. I was attending A Follower’s Life class and was truly beginning to follow Jesus. After months of researching car parts, I suddenly had this crazy idea to sell my sports car and give the money away.

So that’s what I did. I gave some to a family member who was in need, some to my wife and some to the church. At that same time, I also stopped wasting my time looking at car forums online.

It was one of the most liberating decisions I’ve ever made. The pursuit of stuff is an endless quest. No quantity of things ever quite satisfies. But the joy that came from using my resources to help others was priceless.

Are you investing money or time on an endless quest? How could you better invest those resources?

Father, all that I have belongs to you. Remind me not to squander my resources on pursuits that don’t matter.

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Wednesday - Genesis 12:1-9

Go and Become Debra Friend

I’ve spent a lifetime trying to figure out what comes next. At my worst, I call it scheming; at my best, it’s called planning. I want the big picture first. I will dissect it, break it down, calendar it and distribute copies of the action items to all involved.

Did Abram swallow hard when God told him to “go” and become a great nation? I’m guessing he did. I recognize his practice of simplicity: gathering his small family, deciding what and whom to take, and what and whom to leave behind for the journey.

What’s hard for me to relate to is Abram’s contentment to follow that big-picture-grand-plan that God laid out for him, as he understood it. The first stop for this little entourage was a tree! Abram kept going, and kept walking and becoming; journeying into a promised future.

What if I were in Abram’s situation? What if God gave me the responsibility to leave and to participate in a great future? I am reminded today that he did just that.

I have three questions. I ask you, God, for answers simple enough for me to understand. What do I need to keep? What do I need to leave behind? What do I need to change? I pray for a heart that is content with your answers and leave the planning to you. I want to go and become, just as you’ve asked and designed me to do.

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Thursday - Proverbs 3:3-8

Creepy Crawlies Kate Johnsen

What do you do with the creepy crawlies, those worries and anxieties that sneak in to dominate your thoughts? Mine like to take over between 2 and 4am. How will we ever have enough saved for retirement? How will there be enough hours in the day to complete all I’ve committed to? What can I do about this fractured relationship?

God calls us to trust. But trust doesn’t come easily to me in the wee hours of the morning. Some days I get up and read my Bible or favorite devotionals. Other days I take the dog for a long, hard walk to clear my head. And honestly, sometimes I just lie there and wallow in my mud puddle.

This year I’ve been trying a new strategy. I’m fighting against worry and fear with scripture. (Thanks for the idea, Jesus!) When finances are a concern, I tell myself, “My God will meet all of your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.” I’m working to take my thoughts captive. I’m leaving Jesus in charge.

What areas of your thinking need to be taken captive? What is your strategy for combating them God’s way?

Lord Jesus, worries are woven into the fabric of our lives but we want to trust in you. Help us to grab hold of your promises and trust in your provision. Amen.

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Friday - Matthew 11:25-30

Are You Busy? Jody Willoughby

Jesus invites all who are weary and burdened to come to him and he will give us rest. It sounds so simple, so refreshing.

Since accepting a new role at work, I often find myself worn. It’s one of those positions you carry with you after you leave the office. Each day I rush around and find myself repeatedly saying that awful phrase, “I’m so busy.” And every time those three words come out of my mouth, I want to smack myself in the face.

The last thing I want is for busyness to be the center of my conversations. Even when it’s true, I know it’s of my own doing.

Mornings are my time with God, and when these busy seasons come that time is often the first to go. I tell myself, “One morning of work instead of prayer and devotions will give me the space I need to breathe.”

But that’s a lie from the enemy.

If you read just a few pages of the gospels you’ll see that Jesus was busy too. People were constantly demanding his attention. Yet he still made time to connect with God.

I have to remind myself every day how vital this connection is. And when I make it a priority, I don’t feel worn. I can breathe. What do you do when you find yourself rushing from one thing to the next with no room to breathe?

Father, help us to look to you for rest, no matter how busy our lives may be. Help us trust you to provide the needed strength for whatever comes our way today. Amen.

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A New Love Suzanne Marvin

When her love died, a new love came. That was the story of my grandmother. She loved my grandpa dearly, and although he died young, she would never marry again. She was left with four children at home to nurture and feed on a broken-down farm. She must have worried how she would care for them; but if she did, she never let on. After Grandpa died, Grandma accepted Jesus as her Savior, and his Spirit shone bright on that tiny farm. I loved to visit my grandma—days were filled with hard work, but evenings and Sundays everything changed. Mild games of cards and croquet became great times of excitement and fun. Her kitchen was filled with people drinking iced tea and telling stories and laughing. I don’t remember hearing a cross word, but I remember all the laughter. It was a safe place, where life was simple and good.

My grandmother had so little. But on that little farm was the secret of living. God became the love of Grandma’s life, and with that decision, joy and contentment followed.

“Seek first the kingdom of God and all else will be given to you as well” (Matthew 6:32).

God, give me peace to take life one day at a time, to seek you first and trust you with everything.

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Week 6Craving Courage

John 12:12-19 Refocus Questions This Week


• What challenges are you facing?• Where do you need courage?

• What steps of faith could you take, signifying courageous, faith-filled movement to the next level?


Fearfully Courageous Kim Miller

My life has presented me with more than a few episodes of terror. I’ve skydived from 10,000 feet and single-handedly taken on the renovation of a used-up church building. Yet the day my husband and I skidded our 2008 Valkyrie motorcycle into an unforeseen stopped school bus was the worst. While I was checked out and treated in a rural emergency room, Clark was careflighted unconscious to the largest hospital in Michigan. The next five hours were awful. I was driven via police escort to the hospital with no knowledge of my husband’s condition. My drivers were obviously not at will to discuss details and, although supported by family and friends from afar, I had no idea if my husband was dead or alive.

Terrified.

When Jesus traveled the palm path toward Jerusalem—despite supportive followers and family—he surely sensed the impending death that lay ahead. Terrifying. Yet Jesus set his face toward Jerusalem, pressing forward. Not once did anxiety claim his soul. The only possible explanation for this calm was that Jesus had long before entrusted himself to his Father, whose plan superseded any possible pain and darkness ahead. And I ask myself, what would it feel like to live like that?

Dear God, what might I step out and risk if I entrusted myself to the One who is only trustworthy, whose plan supersedes any possible pain and darkness? What could happen if I would feel the fear—and step forward anyway?

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Tuesday - Luke 23:26-34

Resolute Courage Kate Johnsen

The crucifixion is the most difficult part of the Bible for me to read. I feel like I’m on one side of soundproof glass while Jesus and his enemies are on the other. I’m pounding on the glass and screaming, “Stop! You don’t know what you’re doing! Don’t put the Son of God through such agony!”

Though without the crucifixion, none of us would have eternal life. And coming to die for our sins really was the point of Jesus being on Earth, right?

Maybe the point of my life isn’t prosperity, happiness and comfort but instead to serve God, even if it involves suffering. Jesus’ crucifixion gives me courage to do hard things, to move when the Spirit leads, even if I don’t understand why, even if it makes me uncomfortable. What’s the Spirit calling you to do that will require courage?

Lord Jesus, your crucifixion was brutal torture. Forgive me for wanting to protect you from the very purpose for which you came. Help me to face life’s challenges with the same resolute courage and grace that you did. Amen.

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Wednesday - Psalm 23:1-6

Vision Quest James Willoughby

Life is full of peaks and valleys, a compilation of joyous highs and crushing lows. Our valleys can be devastating life events like job loss or divorce, but they can also take subtler forms. Self-doubt, worry, loss of faith and depression can feel like a journey through darkness that will never give way to light. These afflictions can rob us of hope and keep us trapped in mediocrity.

The longest, darkest valley I have ever navigated was in my marriage. Over the years, puppy love dissolved into complacency and even contempt. We lied. We hurt. We grew distant. And we almost did what many in our shoes have done—called it quits.

God never promises an easy life. On the contrary, the Bible is full of warnings that we’re going to face trials. But the Bible also instructs us repeatedly that we are to push on in spite of our circumstances. There are 365 instances in the Bible where we are told to fear not.

Courage isn’t the absence of fear; it is perseverance in the face of fear. In Psalm 23, David reminds us that even in our darkest valley, we should have no fear, because God is with us. God was with my wife and me in our darkest hours and gave us a vision of a restored marriage that would someday be used to restore other marriages. That vision, and a constant reliance upon God, sustained us and eventually delivered us from darkness into light.

What promise in Psalm 23 most encourages you? Does it change your view of life’s hardships?

Father, give me your vision of where you want my life to go and the courage to sustain my journey.

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Thursday - Mark 14:32-42

Increasing Your Courage Matt Wainscott

This reading is all about where we get courage. Jesus doesn’t look really courageous in these verses—if anything he is brutally honest about the agony he feels. He sounds overwhelmed, burdened, stressed and depressed.

Yet after this point in the narrative, Jesus maintains his composure and remains completely obedient—all the way to the cross. So how does he do it?

Jesus balances his emotions by spending time with close friends and in prayer. Jesus started by picking his three closest, most loyal followers and brings them away where he confesses feeling sorrowful and overwhelmed. Yet he doesn’t stop there, he goes a bit further and then prays to the Father. Jesus repeats this cycle three times.

Personally, in my most stressful times it can be very therapeutic to share it with my wife and close friends, and then to be brutally honest with God. It is in community and through prayer where we are given God’s grace to face and overcome whatever burdens we are up against.

Do you have any emotions you need to be honest with God about? Who’s a trusted friend you haven’t talked to in a while—how could you reconnect?

Father, I confess that in my pride I try to handle way too much on my own, rather than in the context of connection with good friends and intimacy with you. Teach me your ways to deal with stress and give me true courage. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

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Friday - 2 Timothy 1:6-14

Love, Power & Self-Discipline Rachel Billups

I am afraid of water. A few years ago I found myself in Nicaragua, staring at the most beautiful body of blue water that my eyes had ever seen. But the only way to enter the water was to jump off a platform that hovered 10 feet or so above the water. Did I mention that I am afraid of water? My heart was pounding, my head aching, when that familiar terror began to pour its familiar lies into my brain, “Rachel, you can’t! It’s too high. You’re not a good swimmer. What if you drown?”

Truth be told, I’ve spent most of my life ruled by fear. It was fear that kept me from signing up, trying out, saying yes and earning a particular degree. Fear became an obstacle I couldn’t overcome. Maybe you’ve had a similar experience with fear—it’s been a barrier, it’s created a boundary or even created a moment of paralysis in your life. When I look back over my life, I realize I gave fear permission to keep me from living life and living life to the fullest.

But today’s scripture reminds us that fear is not from God. No! God did not give us a spirit of fear, but instead when we say yes to Jesus, the Holy Spirit floods our mind and heart with power, love and self-discipline. With the Spirit moving in our lives we do NOT have to be afraid. When fear rears its ugly head in my life, instead of letting it rule me, I repeat 2 Timothy 1:7 and I go for it. That day in Nicaragua, I refused to be ruled by my fear of the water, so I repeated my verse, got a running start and leaped into the breathtaking blue water. I didn’t die. I didn’t drown. No, I enjoyed the entire afternoon swimming in what could only be described as a piece of heaven on earth.

Lord you did not give me a Spirit of fear—so pour your Spirit of love, power and self-discipline over my heart and mind. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

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Facing Our Fears Suzanne Marvin

In December 2012, a young teacher named Victoria Soto hid her students in a closet to protect them from a gunman who was terrorizing her school in Newtown, Connecticut. When the gunman entered her classroom, she told him her students were in the gym, but the frightened students ran from the closet and the gunman started shooting. The young teacher threw herself in front of the children and was killed.

Jesus chose a time when all of Israel would be gathered to proclaim his mission as their Messiah (NIV Study Bible notes). It was a situation that would push the Pharisees beyond their patience, and he knew they would act. He knew the future he was facing and the suffering he would endure.

Most of us will never have to face such danger. For most of us the courage we need is the decision to say I will love, I will forgive or I will try again tomorrow when we really want to run away. Courage is the assurance that when you feel you can’t, God says, “Yes, you can.”

Lord Jesus, help me to remember that with you all things are possible.

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