journey to my heart

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A Journey To My Heart-Poems Written From My SoulA Journey To My Heart-Poems Written From My Soul


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1-LONGINGS1-LONGINGS

I have given you my heart and soulI have given you my heart and soulI have become yours, I swear.I have become yours, I swear.This world tortures me.This world tortures me.

So, I have found my 'home' in you.So, I have found my 'home' in you.Hopes start from you.Hopes start from you.And so does my wishes.And so does my wishes.I have clasped my handI have clasped my handWith yours for a lifetime.ith yours for a lifetime.

Your picture can neverYour picture can neverBe erased from my memory.Be erased from my memory.The moments you have given meThe moments you have given meCan never be taken away.Can never be taken away.This I and the lord know.So, come and claim meSo, come and claim me

Before they reach meBefore they reach meTo possess my life.To possess my life.


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2-A LOVE SONG2-A LOVE SONG

Oh my sweetest love!Oh my sweetest love!Here is a song for you.It is a song that flows

From deep within me.You shook your feathersIn me without my knowledge.

Your separation is meltingIn my eyes like dew.These days have been offeredTo me after lives of purification.

You put your hopes in meWith tears and unseen dreams.Like a festival of flowers and colors

You are dancing in my garden.

You remain in me as a mysteryOf unheard melody of love.Tell me, my divine loveTell me where to find you.


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3-OFFER OF LOVEOFFER OF LOVE

When the wind is blowing on your faceWhen the wind is blowing on your faceAnd the whole world is against youAnd the whole world is against youI could offer you a warm embraceI could offer you a warm embrace

To make you feel you are wanted.To make you feel you are wanted.When evening shadows and the stars appearWhen evening shadows and the stars appearAnd there is no one to dry your tearsAnd there is no one to dry your tearsTo let you know how much you are loved.To let you know how much you are loved.When the night is dark and coldWhen the night is dark and coldAnd you feel all alone and scaredAnd you feel all alone and scaredI could hold you in my armsI could hold you in my armsTo make you realize that you are not alone.To make you realize that you are not alone.


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4-WAS IT ONLY A DREAM?4-WAS IT ONLY A DREAM?

As I walk by the oceanAs I walk by the oceanSavoring the serene sounds of the wavesI hear someone call me from behind.

My heart skips a beat since it was oddFor someone to be here at this early hour.Only the sounds of waves and seagullsCould be heard around.The sun is seen rising far awayFor marking a new day.I was at peace, taking it all inAnd feeling the cool breeze against my skin.Till I heard this voiceA voice of great warmth and love.I turned around in surprise

Only to find myself breathingHeavily on my pillow.How could it be?It felt so real and good.Was it God or someone elseWho called my name?I needed to know.But it was only a silly dream.


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5-FRESH BEGINNINGS

Life goes on as it never endsThe memories are behind me nowThe memories are behind me nowAs I start my life fresh and beautiful.As I start my life fresh and beautiful.

The thorns of yesterday still prick me.The thorns of yesterday still prick me.I ignore them for I have stepped into a path.I ignore them for I have stepped into a path.A path that has lushA path that has lush grass.grass.As I stroll on, I come to another turn,As I stroll on, I come to another turn,Where I find sharp stones and dirt.Where I find sharp stones and dirt.But I stroll onBut I stroll onAsAs I need to satiate myI need to satiate my hunger.hunger.Ahead lies an oasis of lifeAhead lies an oasis of lifeFilled with its crispy freshness.Filled with its crispy freshness.I need to reach my destination.I need to reach my destination.To meet life's new challenges.To meet life's new challenges.

I can hear the chirping of the birds,I can hear the chirping of the birds,The dance of the flowers,The dance of the flowers,And the howls of the wind.And the howls of the wind.All this fills up my soulAll this fills up my soulAnd I go on and on.......And I go on and on.......


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6-KEEP THEM BURNING6-KEEP THEM BURNING

Keep the candle burning until I come.Keep the candle burning until I come.Hold yourself and wait for me.I will be arriving shortly.

To wipe away your tears, love.And embrace you in my hands.So that you feel protectedFrom the wickedness of the world.Make preparations for our tomorrow.When you do not have to weep anymore.Light the candles and keep themBurning in the hours of solitude.Replace the old flowers with new onesFor we will be starting our life new.Cook your favourite dinner for us.

And put a red candle in the center.I am on my way to kiss away your bluesAnd hold you close to me.Darling, here I come.


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7-DESPERATELY

Desperately I reach for youIn my sleep, only to findAn empty space beside me.

How much I ache to beComforted by your armsAround me and my headResting on your bare chestAnd your hoarse whispersIn my ears like music to the senses.I want to feel your breathOn my face and close my eyesIn pure pleasure.My body trembles in the cold nightLonging for your warmth.

But all these are desiresThat will never be fulfilled.I would rather die happilyThan having to be tormentedLike this in life.Tell me, my sweetest loveDo you ever feel the same wayAnd cry for me in the night?


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8-UNCONTROLLABLE

I tried so hard to control myselfBut your name kept coming to my lipsAgain and again.

What is it so extraordinaryThat I keep thinking about you?I see many faces everyday.But it is your faceThat I long to see.What magic have you doneTo make me feel so strong about you?I keep looking for your face in the crowdOnly to be disappointed and hurt.But still, I never give upHoping that one day I will

Catch a glimpse of you.Oh! Life is so painfulWithout you here to share with me.I long for your face each dayBut end up crying alone in my room.Will you ever be a realityOr are you just a fantasy?


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9-THE MONSOON

The dampness and coldness is soothing after the cruelty of the sun.The dampness and coldness is soothing after the cruelty of the sun.It calms the entire being and takes you into a world so serene.It calms the entire being and takes you into a world so serene.The spirit is once more awake and refreshed.The spirit is once more awake and refreshed.

That it opens up a new door of wisdom.That it opens up a new door of wisdom.After what seem like ages of agony and loneliness,After what seem like ages of agony and loneliness,It feels as if you are given a new life to exploreIt feels as if you are given a new life to exploreThe inner self that you had kept hidden from the world.The inner self that you had kept hidden from the world.Sometimes, life is nothing but a tasteless dishSometimes, life is nothing but a tasteless dishThat you have to devour with helplessness.That you have to devour with helplessness.Fortunately, we are given a re-incarnation.Fortunately, we are given a re-incarnation.And all that was thrown towards usAnd all that was thrown towards usIs forgotten and buried deep in our chests.Is forgotten and buried deep in our chests.Slowly, but mercifully.Slowly, but mercifully.


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SEPTEMBER 19, 2009SEPTEMBER 19, 2009

10-THE PARTY10-THE PARTYThe parties come and goThe parties come and goLeaving memories of joyLeaving memories of joy

Behind that lingers on.Behind that lingers on.Some sweet and loving,Some sweet and loving,Some sour momentsSome sour momentsSome proud timesSome proud timesAnd some happy and sadAnd some happy and sadMoments when youMoments when youSay goodbye to all.Say goodbye to all.But, the best partBut, the best partIs when you see a smileIs when you see a smileOn everyones facesOn everyones facesThat leaves you satisfied.That leaves you satisfied.


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11-THE HIDDEN GOD11-THE HIDDEN GOD

As the tears of misery flowsAs the tears of misery flowsFrom my eyes, I seek GodFrom my eyes, I seek GodWho has hidden HimselfWho has hidden Himself

Away so that I wontAway so that I wontTorment him with my pain.Torment him with my pain.He can hide all that he likesHe can hide all that he likesBut the tears that burnBut the tears that burnMy eyes will reach himMy eyes will reach himAnd I ask for justiceAnd I ask for justiceFor a woman, who is in despairFor a woman, who is in despairHow long can he hide?How long can he hide?From the curse he has set for meFrom the curse he has set for meTo you I turn, dear GodTo you I turn, dear GodTo you, I ask peaceTo you, I ask peace

For my being and lifeFor my being and lifeYou cannot deny meYou cannot deny meWhat I desperately askWhat I desperately askI have never been unfaithfulI have never been unfaithfulTo you or my religionTo you or my religionSo, give me my freedomSo, give me my freedomGive me my love and peace.Give me my love and peace.


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12-TEARING ME APART12-TEARING ME APART

The torture is ripping me apartThe torture is ripping me apartI am dying day by dayI am dying day by dayAs you creep into my soulAs you creep into my soul

And every inch in my bodyAnd every inch in my bodyYou smile at me wickedlyYou smile at me wickedlyEnjoying my misery and painEnjoying my misery and painI can hear your roars of laughterI can hear your roars of laughterAll around me in circlesAll around me in circlesI close my eyes to shut you awayI close my eyes to shut you awayBut your voice shatters into meBut your voice shatters into meI gasp in anguishI gasp in anguish

You envelop me completelyYou envelop me completelyTaking me bit by bitTaking me bit by bitBut I ask you this muchBut I ask you this much

Will your hunger be satiated?Will your hunger be satiated?Can you be free again?Can you be free again?Can you?Can you?


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NOVEMBER 3, 2009NOVEMBER 3, 2009

13-HUNGER13-HUNGER

A hunger rises inside meA hunger rises inside me

A hunger of change andA hunger of change andPassion to make a differencePassion to make a differenceIn the dreadful monotony.In the dreadful monotony.Is life all about makingIs life all about makingSacrifices for the sakeSacrifices for the sakeOf people that you loveOf people that you loveBut, in return, you get nothingBut, in return, you get nothingSpare contempt and injusticeSpare contempt and injusticeWho gave people the rightWho gave people the rightTo be selfish that they leaveTo be selfish that they leaveNo consideration to the feelingsNo consideration to the feelings

Of others or at least the onesOf others or at least the onesYou love and care about?You love and care about?Where is justice and fairness?Where is justice and fairness?I will rise above all thisI will rise above all thisEven if I get stonedEven if I get stonedOn the way to freedom.On the way to freedom.I will keep this hunger intactI will keep this hunger intactAnd burning so that it neverAnd burning so that it neverDies and fades away.Dies and fades away.This I promise to myself and God.This I promise to myself and God.


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JUNE 1, 2009JUNE 1, 2009

14-ON A RAINY DAY14-ON A RAINY DAY

To cool the soul and the earthTo cool the soul and the earth

The rains are falling in sheetsThe rains are falling in sheetsLike music that just flowsLike music that just flowsWith high notes and low notesWith high notes and low notesIt pours in a rhythmic beat.It pours in a rhythmic beat.I long to stand in the rain,I long to stand in the rain,As I sit on my bed and writeAs I sit on my bed and writeMy heart aches to go out and get wetMy heart aches to go out and get wetAnd off my mind wandersAnd off my mind wandersTo places I so desire to visitTo places I so desire to visitMind is like a tidal waveMind is like a tidal waveThat will hit you unawareThat will hit you unaware

You have to prepare yourself for itYou have to prepare yourself for itOr you get drown away by the force.Or you get drown away by the force.I try to resist my thoughtsI try to resist my thoughtsAnd listen intently to the rainAnd listen intently to the rainThat is perhaps singing my songThat is perhaps singing my songA song that of pain and desireA song that of pain and desireOh! How lovely would that be!Oh! How lovely would that be!To dance like a child in the rainTo dance like a child in the rainIt is times like these when oneIt is times like these when oneWonders why we ever grew upWonders why we ever grew upTo take away the simple pleasuresTo take away the simple pleasuresOf life and childhood.Of life and childhood.


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FEBRUARY 16, 2010FEBRUARY 16, 2010

PROMISEPROMISE

15-When I feel tortured15-When I feel tortured

By the people around meBy the people around meDay and night,Day and night,I long for your kind voice.I long for your kind voice.And sweet loveAnd sweet loveThat kept me goingThat kept me goingThrough lifes many difficulties.Through lifes many difficulties.Ever since you are goneEver since you are gonePeople torment mePeople torment meWith cruel words and deeds.With cruel words and deeds.I wish I had your shouldersI wish I had your shouldersTo rest my head and weepTo rest my head and weep

And lessen my burdens.And lessen my burdens.But when I think of the courageBut when I think of the courageThat you gave me before you leftThat you gave me before you leftI wish to move on in lifeI wish to move on in lifeSince I dont want to make you sad.Since I dont want to make you sad.I promise I will live each dayI promise I will live each dayWith new hope and new faith.With new hope and new faith.I promise you, my love.I promise you, my love.


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FEBRUARY 10, 2010FEBRUARY 10, 2010

MOON AND MEMOON AND ME

16-My mind goes into a solitary mode16-My mind goes into a solitary mode

As the sun turns orangeAs the sun turns orangeSetting to welcome another nightSetting to welcome another nightMy heart aches for the moonMy heart aches for the moonAnd neglect the lovely orange sunAnd neglect the lovely orange sunBut I am sorry as I say this.But I am sorry as I say this.I am not one to despise the sunI am not one to despise the sunAs I believe the sun is very muchAs I believe the sun is very muchA part of me as the moon.A part of me as the moon.

Yet, it is the moonYet, it is the moonThat has captured my heartThat has captured my heartAnd truly mesmerizes meAnd truly mesmerizes me

With its intriguing waysWith its intriguing waysI belong to the moon.I belong to the moon.I know I do as I haveI know I do as I haveThe same shades.The same shades.I am mysterious like the moon.I am mysterious like the moon.Also, I shine on peopleAlso, I shine on peopleWhen they need light.When they need light.But, ungrateful peopleBut, ungrateful peopleAbandon the moon and move on.Abandon the moon and move on.As they do the same to me.As they do the same to me.So, here I am weepingSo, here I am weepingWith my companion, the moon.With my companion, the moon.


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MARCH 30, 2010MARCH 30, 2010

17-ARE YOU THERE?17-ARE YOU THERE?

Without you here beside meWithout you here beside me

I feel completely lost and alone.I feel completely lost and alone.Dont know what magicDont know what magicYou have over me, darling.You have over me, darling.That I keep hopingThat I keep hoping

You are coming back.You are coming back.It is silly of me to think so.It is silly of me to think so.But, my heart refuses to listen.But, my heart refuses to listen.When I need youWhen I need youI just close my eyesI just close my eyesAnd there you areAnd there you areBeside me, holding meBeside me, holding me

In your arms and wiping the tearsIn your arms and wiping the tearsFrom my eyes, saying you are hereFrom my eyes, saying you are hereI can feel your fingers in my hairI can feel your fingers in my hairAnd your warm breath on my skin.And your warm breath on my skin.

Your lips brush against my cheeksYour lips brush against my cheeksKissing away my tears.Kissing away my tears.But, when I open my eyesBut, when I open my eyesI find you gone.I find you gone.Is this madness that I feelIs this madness that I feelOr are you really there?Or are you really there?

You are tearing me apartYou are tearing me apartDay by day and night after night.Day by day and night after night.I want you to come backI want you to come backOr you are taking me with you.Or you are taking me with you.


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18-REGRETS18-REGRETS

APRIL 1, 2010APRIL 1, 2010

Tell me where I went wrongTell me where I went wrong

I had so much hopes and wishesI had so much hopes and wishesAbout my life and future.About my life and future.Where did they go?Where did they go?What happened to them?What happened to them?Why is it that you wish for somethingWhy is it that you wish for somethingAnd God makes another happen?And God makes another happen?Lifes full of riddles and puzzlesLifes full of riddles and puzzlesI am tired of solving all of them.I am tired of solving all of them.The road I chose seemed right thenThe road I chose seemed right thenBut, with a sigh, I say its been wrong.But, with a sigh, I say its been wrong.All I needed was a slight thinkingAll I needed was a slight thinking

The punishment is right for not doing so.The punishment is right for not doing so.The enemy of me is myselfThe enemy of me is myselfI must have listened to my inner self.I must have listened to my inner self.I have ruined everything.I have ruined everything.Now, nothing can be done.Now, nothing can be done.Perhaps, there is hope for mePerhaps, there is hope for meFor a better tomorrowFor a better tomorrowFor a better lifeFor a better lifeFor love.For love.I wait and waitI wait and wait


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19-LIFE IS A JOURNEY19-LIFE IS A JOURNEY

APRIL 1, 2010APRIL 1, 2010

Life is a journey and we are travelersLife is a journey and we are travelers

Chosen by God.Chosen by God.To reach our destinationTo reach our destinationWe must travel throughWe must travel throughAll kinds of paths.All kinds of paths.The one who finds his destinationThe one who finds his destinationIs a good traveler.Is a good traveler.And the one who do notAnd the one who do notHas to go on till he does.Has to go on till he does.The punishment is severeThe punishment is severeFor not finding it.For not finding it.


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20-INSANITY20-INSANITY

MAY 12, 2010MAY 12, 2010

Hes all around me.Hes all around me.

He wont leave me aloneHe wont leave me aloneEvery moment, every breathEvery moment, every breathHes there with me.Hes there with me.With no shame or guilt.With no shame or guilt.He watches me all the time.He watches me all the time.I cant help but undress my shame.I cant help but undress my shame.He knows my each thoughtHe knows my each thoughtAnd my desires, fears, longingsAnd my desires, fears, longingsHes a part of me thatll never leaveHes a part of me thatll never leaveUntil the day I pass awayUntil the day I pass awayFrom this world.From this world.

He wont rest till he gets me.He wont rest till he gets me.And I wait for that day.And I wait for that day.Eagerly, patiently, silently.Eagerly, patiently, silently.For I too love him the wayFor I too love him the wayHe loves me desperately.He loves me desperately.Anyone who watches meAnyone who watches meOr hears me might sayOr hears me might sayIt is madness and insanityIt is madness and insanityBut, whatever this may be,But, whatever this may be,I call this love and love alone.I call this love and love alone.If loving is madness,If loving is madness,

Yes, I am mad.Yes, I am mad.Put me in an asylumPut me in an asylumAnd do whatever you please.And do whatever you please.But, my love for himBut, my love for himWill never, ever change.Will never, ever change.


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21 JULY 05 2010, MONDAY 10:45 PM21 JULY 05 2010, MONDAY 10:45 PM

MEMORIESMEMORIES

After a decade of bitternessAfter a decade of bitterness

Old memories have come to haunt meOld memories have come to haunt meLike a ghost of yesteryearsLike a ghost of yesteryearsScaring and shaking me within.Scaring and shaking me within.I am clueless as to howI am clueless as to howTo solve this riddle or mysteryTo solve this riddle or mysteryI have done some soul searchingI have done some soul searchingBut I do need some timeBut I do need some timeTo find an answerTo find an answerAn answer that would settleAn answer that would settleMy mind and heart.My mind and heart.


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22 AUGUST 23 2010, MONDAY22 AUGUST 23 2010, MONDAY

ACHING HEARTACHING HEART

This heart aches for you day and nightThis heart aches for you day and night

But realize that we cannotBut realize that we cannotBe with each other anyway.Be with each other anyway.Why did God torment us this way?Why did God torment us this way?To pull our hearts and makeTo pull our hearts and makeUs weep in pain.Us weep in pain.The passion and the love we feelThe passion and the love we feelFor each other is driving us crazyFor each other is driving us crazyBut we have to control ourselves.But we have to control ourselves.It is not easy, I know,It is not easy, I know,But there is no other way to this agony.But there is no other way to this agony.Like this, we would destroyLike this, we would destroy

Each other and make others unhappy.Each other and make others unhappy.Where is life taking us?Where is life taking us?I wish I knew.I wish I knew.And you wish you knew.And you wish you knew.One day, we can be togetherOne day, we can be togetherIf God has made a planIf God has made a planFor us.For us.We will wait for that dayWe will wait for that dayAnd suffer this torture in silence.And suffer this torture in silence.Till then, we can live in the hopeTill then, we can live in the hopeThat I love youThat I love youAnd that you love me.And that you love me.Together with this loveTogether with this loveWe will live forever.We will live forever.


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23-AUGUST 24 2010 TUESDAY23-AUGUST 24 2010 TUESDAY

A DREAM COME TRUEA DREAM COME TRUE

My morning starts with youMy morning starts with you

And so do my nightsAnd so do my nightsYou are the reason I live nowYou are the reason I live nowIf you are not thereIf you are not thereThere would be no lightThere would be no lightHope comes from youHope comes from youAnd so does loveAnd so does loveWhat had been an illusionWhat had been an illusionHas become a realityHas become a realityHow can I ever thank youHow can I ever thank youEnough for filling this voidEnough for filling this voidThat was left by someoneThat was left by someone

My heart ached with painMy heart ached with painAnd loneliness that toreAnd loneliness that toreMe apart day by dayMe apart day by dayI was suffocatingI was suffocatingIn this horrid realityIn this horrid realityUntil you came and lifted me upUntil you came and lifted me upAnd showed me rainbows and sunsetsAnd showed me rainbows and sunsetsWithout a fear in meWithout a fear in meThat once moreThat once moreDarkness would engulf meDarkness would engulf meThis is what they call loveThis is what they call loveIs it not, my beloved?Is it not, my beloved?Yes, I know thatYes, I know thatThis is definitely love.This is definitely love.


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24-AUGUST 28, 2010 SATURDAY24-AUGUST 28, 2010 SATURDAY

THE VICTORY OF OUR LOVETHE VICTORY OF OUR LOVE

As I sit on my bed, thinking of youAs I sit on my bed, thinking of you

I can feel your warm handsI can feel your warm handsAll over my body, caressing meAll over my body, caressing meMy body trembles as it movesMy body trembles as it movesHere and there, exploring every part.Here and there, exploring every part.

You dont let me write, as youYou dont let me write, as youShower me with kisses and whispersShower me with kisses and whispersIn my ear that you want me.In my ear that you want me.

You arouse every inch of meYou arouse every inch of meAnd win me overAnd win me overI sigh and respond to your kissesI sigh and respond to your kissesFirst placing warm kissesFirst placing warm kisses

On your inviting lipsOn your inviting lipsAnd which turn my passionAnd which turn my passionThat makes me moan with pleasureThat makes me moan with pleasurePlacing wet kisses all overPlacing wet kisses all over

Your burning bodyYour burning bodyAnd you pull me towards youAnd you pull me towards youInviting my tongue to exploreInviting my tongue to exploreThe sweetness of your mouthThe sweetness of your mouth

You run your fingersYou run your fingersAlong my spineAlong my spineMaking me shudder.Making me shudder.I clutch my hands on your backI clutch my hands on your backAnd hug you close to my breastsAnd hug you close to my breasts

You kiss them and nibblesYou kiss them and nibblesAt my nipples that drivesAt my nipples that drivesMe wild with passionMe wild with passionI moan and pull you closerI moan and pull you closerInviting you to meInviting you to me

You search my eyes as if to make sureYou search my eyes as if to make sureSeeing the passion in themSeeing the passion in them

You move inside meYou move inside meGiving me a sweet painful pleasureGiving me a sweet painful pleasure


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I wrap my legs on your backI wrap my legs on your backAnd pull your face to meAnd pull your face to meWe kiss and bite each otherWe kiss and bite each otherAt the same time rocking ourselvesAt the same time rocking ourselvesI urge you that its timeI urge you that its time

And you push a final timeAnd you push a final timeI cry out in pleasureI cry out in pleasureAnd we come togetherAnd we come togetherWe shudder and collapseWe shudder and collapseInto each otherInto each otherAnd you bury your faceAnd you bury your faceOn my chest and I hug you closerOn my chest and I hug you closerTwo drops of tears escape my eyesTwo drops of tears escape my eyesAnd you kiss them awayAnd you kiss them awayWe smile at each otherWe smile at each otherFor the victory of our divine loveFor the victory of our divine love

And fall asleep peacefullyAnd fall asleep peacefullyHolding each other,Holding each other,Never letting go.Never letting go.


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25-AUGUST 31 2010 TUESDAY 10:16 PM25-AUGUST 31 2010 TUESDAY 10:16 PM

PASSION AND LIFEPASSION AND LIFE

In life we are driven by passionIn life we are driven by passion

That makes us do thingsThat makes us do thingsWhich we never thoughtWhich we never thoughtWe could do.We could do.

Yet, we also do thingsYet, we also do thingsWe may regret later in lifeWe may regret later in lifeNot that there are manyNot that there are manyAnd still, this will not stop usAnd still, this will not stop usFrom doing things moreFrom doing things moreIf a person lacks passionIf a person lacks passionThey are considered worthlessThey are considered worthlessThe drive to do thingsThe drive to do things

In a different way in lifeIn a different way in lifeMakes us stand apartMakes us stand apartIn the crowdIn the crowdSame way, this appliesSame way, this appliesTo our physical love tooTo our physical love tooA woman seems interestingA woman seems interestingWhen she shows some passionWhen she shows some passionTowards the subjectTowards the subjectWho loves herWho loves herNo one likes femalesNo one likes femalesWho are like cucumbersWho are like cucumbersAppealing and interestingAppealing and interestingThey may be coolThey may be coolBut they are tasteless.But they are tasteless.


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26-LIFE IS A JOURNEY26-LIFE IS A JOURNEY

Life is a journeyLife is a journeyThat will never endThat will never endAnd love is a riverAnd love is a river

That keeps flowingThat keeps flowingWe are joined togetherWe are joined togetherIn this wonderful journeyIn this wonderful journeyThat is full of crazy adventuresThat is full of crazy adventuresAnd many narrow and steep roadsAnd many narrow and steep roadsWe will take this journeyWe will take this journeyTogether with our handsTogether with our handsClasped and will flowClasped and will flowWith this tide.With this tide.


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27-SEPTEMBER 12, 2010, 11 PM27-SEPTEMBER 12, 2010, 11 PM

DEPTH OF MY LOVEDEPTH OF MY LOVE

For you, I have given my loveFor you, I have given my love

And for you, I would give my lifeAnd for you, I would give my lifeI have worshipped for youI have worshipped for youFor you, I would be happy to dieFor you, I would be happy to dieStrangely, you are not awareStrangely, you are not awareOf the depth of my loveOf the depth of my loveUnless I prove it to youUnless I prove it to youI know you are not at faultI know you are not at faultBut the situations and lifeBut the situations and lifeHave made you doubtfulHave made you doubtfulBelieve me, my hearts true loveBelieve me, my hearts true loveI will make everything alrightI will make everything alright

If you give me a chanceIf you give me a chanceTo take the burdenTo take the burdenThat lay in your heartThat lay in your heartJust one chance, and then,Just one chance, and then,

You will realize how trueYou will realize how trueI had been and how right.I had been and how right.


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28-SEPTEMBER 22, 2010, WEDNESDAY, 8:36 PM28-SEPTEMBER 22, 2010, WEDNESDAY, 8:36 PM

A SELF-ANALYSISA SELF-ANALYSIS

I am the owner of my selfI am the owner of my self

And I take the responsibilityAnd I take the responsibilityOf my deeds and wordsOf my deeds and wordsAnd no one is at fault but meAnd no one is at fault but meI look back at the yearsI look back at the yearsWhere I had been a complete foolWhere I had been a complete foolTaken granted by the peopleTaken granted by the peopleThat I loved and trustedThat I loved and trustedBut, I have decided not toBut, I have decided not toLet that happen to me againLet that happen to me againFor this, I need to controlFor this, I need to controlMy emotions and keepMy emotions and keep

My impulsiveness in checkMy impulsiveness in checkWithout thinking too muchWithout thinking too muchOf the consequences in lifeOf the consequences in lifeI have done too many thingsI have done too many thingsWhich I later regrettedWhich I later regrettedEnough harm has been doneEnough harm has been doneTo my self-esteemTo my self-esteemI will never be a slaveI will never be a slaveTo my emotions againTo my emotions againI am a bold womanI am a bold womanWho has been givenWho has been givenKindly wisdom by the lordKindly wisdom by the lordAnd I will put that to useAnd I will put that to useAnd continue my life,And continue my life,Promising myself to neverPromising myself to neverRepeat the mistakes I once didRepeat the mistakes I once didWith this prayer in my heartWith this prayer in my heartI rest my soul and comfort myself.I rest my soul and comfort myself.


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29-FEBRUARY 10, 2011, THURSDAY29-FEBRUARY 10, 2011, THURSDAY

ESCAPEESCAPE

Can you hear them?Can you hear them?

They are coming to get youThey are coming to get youRun for your lifeRun for your lifeOr else, they will kill youOr else, they will kill youTorture your body and soulTorture your body and soulCrippling you for a lifetimeCrippling you for a lifetimeRun faster, my dearRun faster, my dearNever let them winNever let them winI know you can do itI know you can do it

You are strongYou are strongYou wont let them reach youYou wont let them reach youAnd kill you softly.And kill you softly.

Yes, you can do itYes, you can do itMove faster and steadyMove faster and steadyThere, you are almost doneThere, you are almost doneOne more final stepOne more final stepThats itThats it

Youve done it.Youve done it.


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Thursday, February 24, 2011Thursday, February 24, 2011

30-Rainy Eyes30-Rainy Eyes

Wherever you put your footWherever you put your foot

It will turn into a gardenIt will turn into a gardenFlowers will bloom, andFlowers will bloom, andRain would keep falling.Rain would keep falling.

Your eyes are like dark cloudsYour eyes are like dark cloudsI have lost myself in them.I have lost myself in them.

Your eyes have shown meYour eyes have shown meA thousand dreams, unknowinglyA thousand dreams, unknowinglySo, why rain is pouring out of your eyes?So, why rain is pouring out of your eyes?Tell me why.Tell me why.


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September 27, 2010, MondaySeptember 27, 2010, Monday

31-My Pleasure, My Joy31-My Pleasure, My Joy

Falling in love with youFalling in love with you

Has been a pleasure to meHas been a pleasure to meBecause I have never knownBecause I have never knownA more warmer human beingA more warmer human beingThan you, who is uniqueThan you, who is uniqueIn every kind of way.In every kind of way.One moment, you warm my heartOne moment, you warm my heartWith your love and affectionWith your love and affectionAnd the next you scold meAnd the next you scold meFor my stupidity and silliness.For my stupidity and silliness.One minute, you offer meOne minute, you offer me

Your full support and encouragementYour full support and encouragement

And in another, you keep me guessingAnd in another, you keep me guessingYou are just perfect for meYou are just perfect for meThe one I had been looking forThe one I had been looking forThroughout my lonely years.Throughout my lonely years.Now that I have you in my lifeNow that I have you in my lifeI have no other wish to askI have no other wish to askFrom God and would never complainFrom God and would never complainI want to run away with youI want to run away with youTo the castle that we builtTo the castle that we builtWith our love, dreams, and hopesWith our love, dreams, and hopesAnd I want to belong to youAnd I want to belong to youForever and everForever and everMaking sweet love to youMaking sweet love to youIn the cold and warm nights,In the cold and warm nights,And taking care of youAnd taking care of youIn every way.In every way.


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September 27, 2010, 10 PMSeptember 27, 2010, 10 PM

32-Madness32-Madness

When I wake up in the morningWhen I wake up in the morning

It is you I think of firstIt is you I think of firstAnd glance at myself in the mirrorAnd glance at myself in the mirrorTo find you looking at meTo find you looking at meI smile at you, and whisperI smile at you, and whisperI love you,and you whisper back.I love you,and you whisper back.Lazily, I get up from the bedLazily, I get up from the bedAnd walk into the bathroomAnd walk into the bathroomReminiscing the dream I had of you.Reminiscing the dream I had of you.My body warms over and long for youMy body warms over and long for youBut I have to control my emotions.But I have to control my emotions.Although you are so nearbyAlthough you are so nearby

Yet, very far away within my reach.Yet, very far away within my reach.I check the phone for your messagesI check the phone for your messagesWhen I do not find any, I sighWhen I do not find any, I sighAnd get back to my dutiesAnd get back to my dutiesMy mind is with youMy mind is with youEven though my body is here.Even though my body is here.When I finally hear from youWhen I finally hear from youI feel blessed and feel like flyingI feel blessed and feel like flyingHigh up in the sky in your loveHigh up in the sky in your loveWhat is it that you do to me,What is it that you do to me,I will never know?I will never know?But you are mineBut you are mineThat is enough for me.That is enough for me.


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September 28, 2010, 8:24 PM, TuesdaySeptember 28, 2010, 8:24 PM, Tuesday

33-My Loneliness33-My Loneliness

I am surrounded by a sound familyI am surrounded by a sound family

That are always active and noisyThat are always active and noisyBut, in this mad life, I feel lonelyBut, in this mad life, I feel lonelyAnd ache to be with a personAnd ache to be with a personWho truly loves me and understands meWho truly loves me and understands meHow I ache to be held by that loving handHow I ache to be held by that loving handThat would wipe these tears away.That would wipe these tears away.My heart is weeping for the loveMy heart is weeping for the loveI once had and lost on the way.I once had and lost on the way.Once again, life has given meOnce again, life has given meA chance to nourish in someones loveA chance to nourish in someones loveBut, I cannot help but wonderBut, I cannot help but wonder

If life would be cruel to me againIf life would be cruel to me againShowing its nasty face at meShowing its nasty face at meAs I wonder, his smiling and twinklingAs I wonder, his smiling and twinklingEyes, full of love and joyEyes, full of love and joyCome to my mindCome to my mindAnd I get lost in themAnd I get lost in themBurying my loneliness forever.Burying my loneliness forever.


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September 28, 2010, Tuesday, 8:43 PMSeptember 28, 2010, Tuesday, 8:43 PM

34-Forgiving34-Forgiving

You continue to amaze me, my loveYou continue to amaze me, my love

By your unconditional love for meBy your unconditional love for meAnd the way you forgive my mistakesAnd the way you forgive my mistakesTo take my hand and hold it tightlyTo take my hand and hold it tightly

You reassure me that I need notYou reassure me that I need notFeel insecure about you, as youFeel insecure about you, as youWill continue to love meWill continue to love meAnd support me throughout my lifeAnd support me throughout my lifeWanting nothing in returnWanting nothing in returnBut my happiness, althoughBut my happiness, althoughMy happiness is youMy happiness is youAnd nothing else in this life.And nothing else in this life.

I have everything, but in realityI have everything, but in realityThat I can call mine.That I can call mine.So, I continue to love you moreSo, I continue to love you moreDay by day and feel protectiveDay by day and feel protectiveAs I have your love and togethernessAs I have your love and togethernessI dont have to pretend aroundI dont have to pretend around

You anymore and that makes everythingYou anymore and that makes everythingSo easy and smooth.So easy and smooth.I will never know how I gotI will never know how I gotSo lucky in life.So lucky in life.Maybe, someone up thereMaybe, someone up thereMust truly love me so muchMust truly love me so muchTo be loved sincerely and kindlyTo be loved sincerely and kindlyBy someone as good as you.By someone as good as you.


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October 04, 2010, Monday, 10:55 PMOctober 04, 2010, Monday, 10:55 PM

35-Life Is Beautiful35-Life Is Beautiful

Life is beautiful to thoseLife is beautiful to those

Who are beautiful insideWho are beautiful insideAnd who loves seeing lifeAnd who loves seeing lifeIn a positive wayIn a positive wayTaking the sweetnessTaking the sweetnessAnd the bitternessAnd the bitternessAs a chapter of a bookAs a chapter of a bookEach page filled withEach page filled withNew adventures and miseryNew adventures and miseryOr mystery or love.Or mystery or love.To those who are alwaysTo those who are alwaysTrying to see the evilnessTrying to see the evilness

Can never become happyCan never become happyAnd satisfied with lifeAnd satisfied with lifeTaking that evilnessTaking that evilnessOn others and makingOn others and makingTheir life miserableTheir life miserableSo, the motto of lifeSo, the motto of lifeShould be live and let live.Should be live and let live.Be happy and spread happinessBe happy and spread happinessLove yourself and give loveLove yourself and give loveTo those who are thirstyTo those who are thirstyFor your love and kindnessFor your love and kindnessSo that life offers youSo that life offers youA garden of rosesA garden of rosesThe thorns that will surely prick youThe thorns that will surely prick youBut the fragrance will always remain in you.But the fragrance will always remain in you.


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April 9, 2011April 9, 2011

36-I Dreamed36-I Dreamed

I dreamed of green meadowsI dreamed of green meadows

And flowers along the wayAnd flowers along the wayI dreamed of still watersI dreamed of still watersAnd words that no one could sayAnd words that no one could sayI dreamed of beautiful treesI dreamed of beautiful treesAnd an untouched landAnd an untouched landI dreamed of tall wavesI dreamed of tall wavesAnd a heart full of love in my handAnd a heart full of love in my hand

I dreamed of a rainbowI dreamed of a rainbowAnd shooting stars in my nightsAnd shooting stars in my nightsI dreamed of sweet wordsI dreamed of sweet words

And someone to hold me tightAnd someone to hold me tightI dreamed of white mountainsI dreamed of white mountainsAnd snow in the winter forestAnd snow in the winter forestI dreamed of a warm fireplaceI dreamed of a warm fireplaceAnd someone tender and honestAnd someone tender and honest

I dreamed of beautiful islandsI dreamed of beautiful islandsAnd love in the warm sandAnd love in the warm sandI dreamed of his loveI dreamed of his loveAnd hoped he would bring me to this landAnd hoped he would bring me to this landI dreamed of his closenessI dreamed of his closenessAnd his heart full of tendernessAnd his heart full of tendernessI dreamed of his laugh and his lightI dreamed of his laugh and his lightAnd eyes full of happinessAnd eyes full of happinessI dreamed of his handsI dreamed of his handsAnd his sweet, tender, and loving touchAnd his sweet, tender, and loving touchI was dreaming and have sent feelingsI was dreaming and have sent feelingsAnd know I have loved so muchAnd know I have loved so muchAnd secretly hoping that oneAnd secretly hoping that oneJust one can see what I can seeJust one can see what I can seeAnd I have a longing for someoneAnd I have a longing for someoneWho can feel what I was able to feel.Who can feel what I was able to feel.


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April 12, 2011, TuesdayApril 12, 2011, Tuesday

37-You Walked Into My Life37-You Walked Into My Life

You walked into my life

When I needed you the most,Broken and depressed,You breathed the life back into this chest,You treat me like no other hasAnd I thank you for that,I love how you caress my soul,I love your kisses and your hugs,And even when you tease me the way you do.

I love your heart.You are sensitive and strong

When I need you to beYou hold me and just let me cryWhen my world crashesHow could I not love you?

You are everything my dreams made up of,And you are everything I've never known,

You love everything about meThe good and the badAnd I love everything about you.

I love that you are protective of me

And that our personalities are a lot alikeI love how you hold my hand in yoursI never want you to stop

You say I'm stuck with you,Well that's fine by meI feel you are the one I've been searching forAnd I know you've been searching for me too.


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April 12, 2011, Tuesday, 10:00 PM

38-My Life, Your Garden

Ever since Ive met you,

My life revolves around you

Youve turned my desert into a gardenThat is full of colours and fragrances

Your words are like healing balm to my soulLike rain falling into the dry earth.

The love that you pour into my heartIs like adding a log to a dying fire

That would keep it burningAs though it would never run out

And I know the fire would burn foreverAs you continue to spark my life

Now that I have you with meI will never let you go.

Together, we will watch the sunsetsAnd together, we will walk forever.


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May 14, 2011, Saturday, 12:57 PM

39-Give Me A Lifetime

I long to live a lifetime

Wrapped within your armsTo see you there beside meTo know your many charms

But if that cannot happenId settle for some yearsTo have you as a part of meAnd calm my many fears

And if some years is far too longThen give a month or two

And I will make myself contentTo just be near to you

And if there is no month with youPray let me have a weekTo know how it would feel to haveThe ecstasy I seek

Or give to me a shorter timeLike maybe one whole dayTo look into your azure eyes

And say what I must say

But if you do not have a dayI beg for just one hourTo place you in a loving shrineWithin an ivory towerAnd if an hour you cannot spareIll make a minute doThat I might feel the blessed joyOf spending time with youBut if you cannot grant me thisAt least give me a spaceTo just reach out with a loving handAnd once caress your face.


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June 28, 2011, Tuesday

40-I am the one

I am the constellation to your night

And I am the shelter to your stormsI'm the deepest of your desires, andThe flame to your candle that burns.

I am the waves to your bluest oceanI'm the rhythm inside of your heartI'm the rain that falls from your skyI am the day that's before your dark.

I am the garden to your reddest roseI'm all the stars to your every night

I am the wings to help you soar andThe vision whenever you need sight.

I'm a sunrise to your every morningI am the treasure lost beneath your seaI'm the sunset to your every eveningI'm the beauty in nature that you see.

I'm the bird who sings in your treesI'm the dreams whenever you sleepI am the destiny you've searched for

And I am the journey that you seek.


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41-I am burning out

The dark shadows invade my soul

As love slowly dies withinI pray relentlessly to ease such painBut to no avail,my heart bleeds with utter disdain

You said you loved me, but you liedI said I hated you, and began to cryAs I cried, pain gripped my heartWith complete sadness and despairI know we must part

How do I make this heartache go awayMy head, and my heart,and its thinking goes astrayPlease let me see the light of love once moreHowever, more suffering is in store

Let love live, I sayI cry to thee; please never go awayMy love, help me ease the painBy loving me once again.


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42-Always You

Each day, I wake up in the morning,

It makes me sickKnowing I cant even kiss and hug you.I felt so sad and upsetBecause I missed you so badlyBut we cant do somethingAs were miles awaySitting now in one corner of my bedI was thinking and dreaming about youI know myself I want to be with youAt this momentBut I dont have power

That just one snap of my fingerIm with you.And Im admitting,That I was crazy the past few daysBecause Im scared to lose you one dayKnowing I never loved someone like this beforeAnd Im so hungry for your touch and your kissAlong this way, we were months togetherIm just holding tight to your promisesAnd I will give everything to youI will take care of you

And love you with all my heartI know Im not a perfect girl,But I can love you with all my heart and my soulBecause my LIFE and my EVERYTHINGIt will always be YOU.


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October 20, 2011, Thursday

43-Morning Blues

Did you sleep well, my love?

Were your dreams colourful?Did you have your cup of coffee?Have you read the newspaper yet?Did you check the news on TV?Are you sad about the world?Did you take a shower?What colour shirt are you wearing?Did you do the laundry?Have you done the dishes?Did you have your breakfast?What did you make today?

Did you have your orange juice?Was it up to your liking?Did you take your phone?Do you have the bag with you?Did you forget something?Of course you have

Yes, that must be me.


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June 17, 2011

44-Heart Is Like An Iceberg

The heart is like an iceberg

Which refuses to melt or moveFrom the position it is in.We are given no choiceExcept wait for its mercy.Till then, we struggleTo move this way or thatBut, we give up, cryingIn anguish for the tortureIt has put us in.Didnt think it was this toughWhen we set out this journey.

We try to hold onTo the glimmer of lightAnd wait, wait, and waitJune 16, 2011

45-Love happens only once in lifeWhen it does, hold it for lifeAnd never let go of it.It comes only once in a lifetime.The ones who long for it

May never get itBut, the ones who leastDesired it would be hitWith such force thatThey might find it hardTo breathe and hold on.Love is a beautiful feelingEven if it crushes youMercilessly and endlessly.Love is the only medicineThat man has ever craved for.We all need it to surviveThis lonely and empty life.


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October 20, 2011, Thursday

46-The dreams that were once colourfulLook dark, fearful, and lonelyThe hopes that I have had

For tomorrow lies scatteredAround me in piecesEverything is a blurAnd life is a nightmareI know theres no escapeFrom the claws of the demonIt is rushing for me with dirty handsAnd as fast as I am runningItll get me in the endTo kill me mercilesslyAnd eat my flesh and blood

So, goodbye to you, my friendWe will meet againOn the Judgement DayDo not forget to smileAnd wave your hand.I will push past the crowdAnd come to you.I will be looking forwardTo meeting you once moreFor it is you I am gratefulFor having given me a drop

With which I made an ocean.It is you I remember the mostAnd you that I say a prayer forDo not worry about meI will be with GodWaiting for you.

Rinshi AnsariRinshi Ansari

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