in the darkness
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Poetry By Peggi TrustyTRANSCRIPT
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In The Darkness
Poetry by Peggi Trusty
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Poetry heals the wounds
inflicted by reason.
—Novalis
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Table of Contents
Unknown 1 (The Deist) 5
Help me 6
Guest, the sonnet 8
Presence 9
Your pleasure 10
I was made to worship 11
I love you 12
In the darkness 13
Sunset 14
Adoration 16
Why are you so in love 17
If 18
Perpetual Lover 19
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The terrible weight of redemption denied The black cloud from which forgiveness hides
Damned to wander Damnation subscribed
Hell hath great fury where revulsion presides Impaled on utterances long passed by
Transgressions towering up into the sky
Ruthless tyrants Inflicting a godless demise
Birthed from a dreadful devotion built on lies Cradle the unloved
Adorned with hostility Resurrected for detestation Burdened by impossibility
To be abandoned Convicted and tried
Existing under the banner
Of redemption denied
DENIED
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UNKNOWN 1 (THE DEIST)
Some live life in common rage Believing in some vanished sage
And praying to the dried dead bone That created me and left me alone
And the prophets come and still they go Promising a grand finale’ show
And still I cry to the cold concrete Hoping to kill the demon defeat
But the receiver sings a dial tone And the back of my bible reads, “Author Unknown”
Simply Creator. A god, you can’t be How else could you stand so far from me?
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It’s not enough to bow my head
And have no words to say
It’s just ‘cause I’m stressed
And my life’s a mess
And my soul has gone astray
So God
Not the one I worship everyday
In my passion and my play
No
Not the one whom I praise
With the curses and the concoctions
I spin half dazed
God
My disheartened lover
The victim of my viciousness
HELP ME
As though these garbled words
Have wings
Lost in a mind that
Can not sing
Even though I have dressed myself
In demon skin
And lay beneath the whoredom
Of a thousand sins
ME HELP
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Perhaps my effort might be confused
And you’re just thinking that
you’re being used
And I just want to be amused
I know my words don’t
come out right like before
And I walked away,
and I closed the door
And maybe I don’t love you anymore
But God
In the midst of my corruption
Tangled and petted
by Satan’s seduction
I know that I need you to dwell within
And I want so badly to love you again
So this is my unofficial
Pretend resignation
From the life I can’t seem to let go
The unpublished proclamation
Captive in this cryptic emancipation
To a God I may never know
HELP ME ME HELP
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GUEST, the sonnet
Somebody wanna tell me what’s goin’ on The sun hasn’t shone in a long time So I shine my own light for a dawn Unless God wants to give me a sign The Devil is at the dinner table The door was open and he just walked in Now I feel like I am living in Babel- But that is no excuse for me to sin So do I want to get it up or just get down
I keep thinking that it is all wrong I imagine that I could just wait around ‘Til my dinner guest decides to move on So my phone is disconnected and off goes my light And Satan wants to know if he can spend the night
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PRESENCEPRESENCE
“Do not cast me away from Your presence, “Do not cast me away from Your presence,
And do not take Your Holy Spirit from me.” And do not take Your Holy Spirit from me.”
Psalms 51:11Psalms 51:11
I want to dwell in your caress I want to dwell in your caress
So that the shadow I cast is yoursSo that the shadow I cast is yours
Envelop me in your darknessEnvelop me in your darkness
Cast me only on to your shores Cast me only on to your shores
Let your breath alone escape my lipsLet your breath alone escape my lips
In your embrace permit me to growIn your embrace permit me to grow
Let my life’s purpose be our eclipseLet my life’s purpose be our eclipse
Even if your mysteries I never knowEven if your mysteries I never know
Heaven is much nearer and will not delayHeaven is much nearer and will not delay
But I am in need of your presence todayBut I am in need of your presence today
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I hunger
to be more like you
My lips wet
with insatiable desire
I vacillate between sin
and salvation
Heaven and hell’s fire
How can I be close to you?
How do I starve
the beast with in?
How can I know more of you?
And be released from temptation?
In every breath I call your name
Seeking your pleasure
at every turn
Yet I am locked
in some strange glass house
A window away from what I yearn
Let me sit at your welcome table
Let there be plenty good room
for even me
Fill me up,
that I might over flow
Calm this terrible sea
I am arrogant and crooked
Strong and weak
I have been
beautiful and horrible
Now a servant’s heart
is all I seek
I know that you will
love me always
Just teach me how
to love you too
Sew me into your bosom
Do not shake me if I beg you to
Oh and Lord, let me serve you
That is all I want to do
One hand stretched
out to your people
The other hand
holding on to you
YOUR PLEASUREYOUR PLEASURE
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I WAS MADE TO WORSHIP I WAS MADE TO WORSHIP
I was made to worship
To call your name from revering lips
So precious, so holy, so awesome
Inhaling your breath in constant sips
I was made to worship
With every movement I adore
Every beat of my heart
Drums praise to you, Lord
My understanding is imperfect
My leaning toward sin
But I can prostrate my spirit before you
And you will make me over again
Endow my soul in spotless array
Take my transgression from me
Remove any wall between us
While I lift me voice to thee
Cause I was made to worship
Created to praise you in everything
To wash your feet with my tears
And in every song that I sing
If my voice be silent
Then raise my hands, is what I’ll do
And if my hands are full
Than with my feet I’ll run to you
I was made to worship
No one can love you like me
To cry after you in desperation
And carry your cross to Calvary
I was made to worship
So praise is what I’ll do
With everything that I am
I was made to worship you
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I LOVE YOU
“My soul followeth hard after thee:
thy right hand upholdeth me”. Psa 63:8
I love you like the moon loves the sun
Pursuing her around the vast ocean of sky
Following hard, yet my desire is undone
Still I must reflect you or my purpose will die
I love you like the dry earth loves the rain
Mouth open, so you might quench my thirst
Drowning my will, washing away my pain
Fill my spirit until my boundaries burst
I love you like waves always kissing the shore
And still you love me so much more
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Fall upon meFall upon me Press your presence into Press your presence into the crevasse of darknessthe crevasse of darkness
Where light has never shownWhere light has never shown I long to see you thereI long to see you there
Mending the wounds of the my Mending the wounds of the my strange addictionsstrange addictions
Fastening flesh to desiccated boneFastening flesh to desiccated bone
Lord I need youLord I need you My spirit cries after you My spirit cries after you
In ways my mind In ways my mind has never knownhas never known
I can’t live without youI can’t live without you Breathlessly panting after you Breathlessly panting after you
With every whisper With every whisper and every groanand every groan
My spirit dances in your presence My spirit dances in your presence
And my lips sing your praiseAnd my lips sing your praise But touch the secret placesBut touch the secret places
Those that have known no gazeThose that have known no gaze
And then Lord, bless meAnd then Lord, bless me Do not forget that I love youDo not forget that I love you
Do not forget my outstretched handDo not forget my outstretched hand And your promise to make me newAnd your promise to make me new
And bathe my deprivation in your holinessAnd bathe my deprivation in your holiness
Drown my desperation in your bloodDrown my desperation in your blood My starvation is in anticipationMy starvation is in anticipation Of the inclination of your loveOf the inclination of your love
So make my darkness lightSo make my darkness light
When it comes, as it always willWhen it comes, as it always will Be the moon to brighten my nightBe the moon to brighten my night
I fall so farI fall so far
But there you areBut there you are Standing thereStanding there Your arms ajarYour arms ajar
Oh I love youOh I love you
Lord I love youLord I love you Just because of who you areJust because of who you are
IN THE DARKNESSIN THE DARKNESS
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It was a glorious and awesome arrival
The day
As fresh as spring
Life
The perfect cool breeze smelling of distant
rose
Coming from where
Going to where
Only God truly knows
And there it goes
Slipping beyond my vision and yet
Colorful memories embracing the sky
Oh, but it’s just another sunset
From the lips of God
Life is born
Hands caressing
Each perfect form
His own breath and blood
That his creation might exist
And he beckons such a life
With a life-giving kiss
Thus His heart breaks
when that life is gone
But he whispers ever so gently
Though the sun sets
There comes a dawn
He understands loss
He too grieves with pain
When his own son died
He sent the rain
But after the rest was over
His son rose again
On the East side
Of the tree of life
Feet dangling in the cool sea of glass
There will sit the resurrected
Waiting peacefully
For you to come pass
Meet them there
Meet them there
Just beyond the twilight
At a time we’ll not forget
Somewhere beyond today
Just beyond the sunset
SUNSETSUNSET
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It was a glorious and awesome arrival
The day
As fresh as spring
Life
The perfect cool breeze smelling of distant
rose
Coming from where
Going to where
Only God truly knows
And there it goes
Slipping beyond my vision and yet
Colorful memories embracing the sky
Oh, but it’s just another sunset
From the lips of God
Life is born
Hands caressing
Each perfect form
His own breath and blood
That his creation might exist
And he beckons such a life
With a life-giving kiss
Thus His heart breaks
when that life is gone
But he whispers ever so gently
Though the sun sets
There comes a dawn
He understands loss
He too grieves with pain
When his own son died
He sent the rain
But after the rest was over
His son rose again
On the East side
Of the tree of life
Feet dangling in the cool sea of glass
There will sit the resurrected
Waiting peacefully
For you to come pass
Meet them there
Meet them there
Just beyond the twilight
At a time we’ll not forget
Somewhere beyond today
Just beyond the sunset
SUNSET
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ADORATIONADORATION
I want to love you as David didI want to love you as David did
and know your face as Abrahamand know your face as Abraham
Can I walk with you like Enoch?Can I walk with you like Enoch?
And be called like Moses to the Promised LandAnd be called like Moses to the Promised Land
How Can I serve you as those before?How Can I serve you as those before?
Living only to please you more and moreLiving only to please you more and more
Impregnate me with promise, like MaryImpregnate me with promise, like Mary
Use me like the maid of Naaman's WifeUse me like the maid of Naaman's Wife
Let me praise you like the daughters of HemanLet me praise you like the daughters of Heman
If I must be like the Phoenician woman, If I must be like the Phoenician woman,
chastise me but save my lifechastise me but save my life
My adoration is my praiseMy adoration is my praise
My song is my voiceMy song is my voice
The breath of my body is your spiritThe breath of my body is your spirit
And worship, my only choiceAnd worship, my only choice
Let me worship you like Mary MadelineLet me worship you like Mary Madeline
on my knees and at your feeton my knees and at your feet
And write a perfect psalm like HannahAnd write a perfect psalm like Hannah
Even if my presence in you sanctuaryEven if my presence in you sanctuary
is only to weepis only to weep
How do I tell you that I love you?How do I tell you that I love you?
How do I beckon you to move upon my heart?How do I beckon you to move upon my heart?
When your perfect presence is all I seekWhen your perfect presence is all I seek
And my will, that I might do my partAnd my will, that I might do my part
You are the bosom wherein I restYou are the bosom wherein I rest
The mind wherein my dreams manifestThe mind wherein my dreams manifest
You are the beginning and the end of my dayYou are the beginning and the end of my day
The strength in my painsThe strength in my pains
reignsreigns
holding the devil at bayholding the devil at bay
My father and motherMy father and mother
the Lord of my lifethe Lord of my life
My vision my perceptionMy vision my perception
Perfect peace in strifePerfect peace in strife
Let me serve you as I was created to doLet me serve you as I was created to do
Let every portion of my life glorify youLet every portion of my life glorify you
Oh bless me LordOh bless me Lord
Fill me as you have never doneFill me as you have never done
Make you spirit my apparelMake you spirit my apparel
Mingled with the blood of your sonMingled with the blood of your son
Oh bless me fatherOh bless me father
Engorge my praiseEngorge my praise
Let my life be a blessingLet my life be a blessing
All of my daysAll of my days
Any darkness I seeAny darkness I see
Let it be the darkness you sendLet it be the darkness you send
And let the close of my lifeAnd let the close of my life
Be only at your AmenBe only at your Amen
My poetry is my praiseMy poetry is my praise
My pen is my voiceMy pen is my voice
My desire My desire ----birthed by your spiritbirthed by your spirit
And worshipAnd worship
Yes worshipYes worship
My only choiceMy only choice
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WHY ARE YOU SO IN LOVE I am undone because of your mercy
As though there is some controversy
Concerning where my heart belongs
I drink from wells of my own foolishness
I’ve become my own God
which makes no sense
And I wonder where it all went wrong
So why are you so in love with me?
How does your mercy still cover me?
Does loving me lead to your misery?
Oh please don’t let it cease to be.
You search for me when I walk away
Put your arms around me
and beg me to stay
Listen to my cursing and
bless me anyway
Just because you love that way
I run from you and you fight for me
Giving your life on Calvary
Just so we can share eternity
What have I done that you should
want to be with me?
How can you hold my brokenness?
Knowing my leaning is toward
chronic transgress
Don’t you know that my life’s a mess?
Yet somehow you love me nonetheless
So why are you so in love with me?
Why does your mercy still cover me?
Does loving me lead to your misery?
Please don’t let it cease to be.
And where would I be if it weren’t for you
Always pressing in your stubborn pursue
Its deprivation that makes me
finally turn to you
And stay is all you ask me to do
I wish that I could hold your cry
Place me in the rock
so I can watch you pass by
Experience your love facing you eye to eye
And wrestle with you until
the breaking of the sky
Teach me how to be in love with you
Give mercy like you show me to
Erase the misery I put you through
Please show me how to love you too
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IF If there were peace for my soul It would rest in sleep Where only the words of my savior My soul would keep If there were kisses I treasured And lips I have known It would be the sweet morning whisper Where His promises are sown If I had a dream It would solely be kept In his tender palms Where we both have wept And if I must walk As He tells me I shall It would merely be an emerging From the crevice wherein we dwell Let me not rise up And forget what has passed Let me treasure my scars And the hills in my path Let time be the maker Of those small and great And God own the kisses In the last breath that I take And let it be If the world must see Of all that I am It is He in me
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My soul cries out to you
Unworthy, and incomplete
Full of terrible desire
Come to me now Lord
Fill me, consume me
Let it be as Jeremiah’s fire
I have loved too many lovers
Unknowing
That my want was for you
And now I am
Beckoned into your throne room
Perfectly prostrate in my pursue
Your presence cascades from heaven
My adoration leaps
to meet you in mid-flight
I tremble
And you hold me close
Covering me in your wondrous delight
I have wandered the world
I have yearned to love
The only thing I’ve ever wanted
The only thing I’ve been destitute of
But you placed your hand on me
Poured your spirit into my soul
Gave me your song and your love
You’ve made my heart whole
You are my everything
The very air that I breathe
Perfect, Awesome, Holy
The mind in which
my existence was conceived
So let me your perpetual lover
Worship you without end
Seek what you seek,
hurt when you hurt
Never to wander again
LOVER
PERPETUAL
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