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Yanti B. Sugarda
We are all but tiny specks in the universeWe feel immortal when the soul lives on
If life is limited to this world and timeWhat a waste of the universe and infinity
If we cannot become part of the universeIf we cannot exist as one with the universe
What does a lifetime age meanIn the grand and infinite design
Of the universe?
Nothing
Life would be too small to be consideredTime and space are relatively smallIn terms of the infinite and infinity
Only the soul in the form of LoveCould transcend
The vast boundaries of eternity
Love is eternal spiritLiving on when the body dies.
A TINY SPECK IN THE UNIVERSE
A girlWith spirit and passionInevitably has dreamsOf love and romance
In innocence there is trustTrust in the beauty of love
Eternal loveTrue love
The immortality of loveThe immortality of her being
The romanticized picture of the worldAlas, is far from reality
Reality is coldReality is practical and hard
Reality is having to face brutal truths
Her love and passionHer emotional constructHer ideas of romance
Her quest for eternal loveTrue love
Seem to end in sad futility
An absurd dreamAlien and incongruous
In light of the harsh progressionOf the unmindful world
A GIRL'S DREAM CAN BE REAL
Yanti B. Sugarda
Sultry winds blowingCold stinging breezes from the north
My body tremblesShivering at the touch
Of the icy fingers of the wind
Layers of clothingCould not keep the winds away
The sun comes out brightlyFlaying out its armsWith rays of warmthCaressing the cheeksWarming the hands
But only for momentsOf stolen time
Before the cold windsDrive the warmth away
The lake showing its splendourWaves after small waves
Calmly floating byWith little sailboats
On its shoulders
Moving alongFloating where the winds take them
ALONE ON THE LAKESIDE
Yanti B. Sugarda
A duck floating by, noisilyGreen and grey duckIt sits on the water
Looking at meAs if knowing what is in my mind
My mind….All in a muddle
Happiness and sadnessMixed together
I just left my loveWho has given me happiness
But also bewildermentI cannot fathom
The feelings he has for meIs it physical passion?
Is it true love?I just don't know
Will his loveBe the everlasing kind?
Will it beThe deep and everloving kind?Or will it endure only as longAs there is physical pleasure?
So I sit and broodAnd let the cold winds
Blow on my beingAnd my heart
I don't knowI don't know……
Yanti B. Sugarda
Words have the power to move meTo send shivers of delight
Through my wholeSpiritual being.
That is who I search forThe soul which lives
Within the physical being
The soul which createsThe beauty of words
The soul which reflectsthe beauty in mind and heart.
Beauty of words
Yanti B. Sugarda
Please look deep deep into me,and tell me what
you see therePlease look beyond my words
And tell me whatYou see there
" words are words,estranged from meaning,
detached and disconnected from truth,reality, and sincerity"
It is true,that we have to lookbeyond mere words.
We have to lookthrough the words
into the soul.
When reading wordsplease look for meaning.Not on the very words,
but on the soulwho wrote the words.
Please look into whatthe soul is experiencing
and is trying to say.Not the actual words.
BEYOND WORDS
Yanti B. Sugarda
Beyond the edge of the event horizonFar from the spiral expanses of the Milky Way
Lies a place and a timeThat my heart has sometimes explored
Its the place where I can be the oneThe only one
>The stars are shining all the timeParading their real or imagined
Patterns across the skies in all landsBathing the days and nights
With peaceful glowing lanternsCreating a comfortable environment
For the mind to exploreThe limits
Limits of imaginationCould it all be real ?
>That is the reason I have returned againTo try to change what has gone on by
Making every effort not to loseAnything that has come to pass
And try to prevent the loss of whatHas recently occured
Hoping not to create lossesRelated to the future
Beyond the Event Horizon
Yanti B. Sugarda
And suddenly I am awakened from the deepestDepths of the dream
Only to realize that I have returnedTo the place
The time beforeThe losses keep on growing
Can I prevent the loss of any more ?The fear always presentDeep inside the dreamBeyond the open door
The time lines are running shorter nowI can only return to that place
A limited number of timesHave I gone beyond the safety factor ?
Beyond the closing doorFor there is only so much time remaining
Inside the boundaries of my lifeAnd I can take on only so many more losses
To the structure of my soulThe universal clock is ticking
Just outside the door
Beyond the edge of the event horizonDeep inside the dream
Can you stay here for a whileTo keep
The dream from fadingFrom view
Yanti B. Sugarda
I believe in GodA beautiful and kind God
A God who creates beautiful souls
Where do all the beauty around usCome from, if not created
By a beautiful and kind God?
Even in the uglinessThere must be a beautiful coreSomewhere we cannot yet see
I ask GodTo make people happy
To make people at peaceWith themselves and with others
I ask GodTo make mne feel at peace
It helps
I am not religiousNot following rules made
By formal religionsJust because religious teachings
Tell me to
CORE OF CREATION
Yanti B. Sugarda
I follow my mindI follow my heartI believe in God
I believeThe spirit lives onSpirits don't die
Just because the bodies dieHow can spirits die?I cannot think how.Spirits are immortal
Yanti B. Sugarda
In the middle of the nightI sit awake in subdued lightWishing with all my might
To once again be able to writeFrom the depths of my heart
It was an awakening sensationTo find a caring companion
Entering into my lonely dominionPromising to reach a union
Of two souls lost by separation
But in this empty surroundingAs I muse among those sleeping
Fearing my dreams are disappearingInto a deep pit of longing
Beyond the reaches of understanding
I feel the need to recallThe closeness we had, without a wall
Union almost complete, not allWondering what powers I must callTo have the unity I seek be eternal
I seek closeness and unityTo make my nights be filled
with serenityTo let me be able to sleep
in peace
Yanti B. Sugarda
DEEP NIGHT MUSING
I am an emotional person. I express my emotions.
Through my words, through my poems.
My emotions would sometimes Be seen as irrational,
Such as the concept of dream world and earth world .
Yes, perhaps I tend to be irrational, But there always is a logic in my irrationality.
Basically my logic is intact. I think I am a logical thinker.
Emotional, sometimes irrational, But always logical.
Yanti B. Sugarda
EMOTIONS AND LOGIC
End of the dayTrickle of tears swept awaySoft strokes of the fingers
Lingering on lashes of silky gray
End of the dayKeeping the tears at bayClinging to hopes of love
Existing in a land far away
End of the dayWistful longings come to stay
Dwelling in deep crevicesWhere sweet memories lay
End of the dayHopes not to end in dismay
Peace brought forth to reignVivid dreams in full array
Yanti B. Sugarda
EVENING GLOW
I climb out of my shellMy shell of normal reality
To explore myselfWho I really am
What I really want
Am I asleep all this time?If I am asleep, I want to know
Am I awake all this time?If I am awake, I want to know
What heights am I capable of?What depths can I explore?
Is my present lifeThe life for me
Or is there another worldWaiting for me?
Yanti B. Sugarda
EXPLORATION
The surge of warmth, like a warm breezeEncompassing my senses,
evaporating the chili breath of the cold winds,originating from the unmoving, stone-cold earth
The warmth of you, the warmth emanating fromyour body, your lips,
your soul, your smile, your eyes, your armsThe warmth of the fire burning in your heart
The frozen feelings, cold as iceStart to unfreeze,
melting down in drops and trickles of molten lonelinessto disappear forever into the shadows of the grey fogs
Vanish forever, all coldness, darkness and dampnessenemies and nightmares
the winds of loneliness blown away into nothingnessby the everlasting fierce breath of your enduring love
Yanti B. Sugarda
FIERCE BREATH OF LOVE
You tend to accept me And be tolerant of me and my views
I am not quite sure your acceptance of meIs not some sort of compromise
Repressing your own needs And submerging yourself into my wishes
I believe that this kind of compromise Would be felt as obligatory in the end
It would be a good reason For falling out of love.
On the other extreme, I tend to be a bit harsh
Always trying to find weak spots Which could harm our relationship
Not believing that this love could last
I tend to have misgivingsAbout the genuineness of our relationship
Despite its transformationInto my dreamworld
I am ruthless in my bluntness
Searching for proofOf the endurance of your love Preparing myself for the worst Not able to endure the reality
Of not finding true love in the end
Yanti B. Sugarda
EXPLORATION
Can you feel my pain?Can you feel my confusion? Can you feel my sadness? Can you feel my conflicts?
If you feel sad, maybe it is because
you feel my sadness too? If you feel lonely,
maybe it is because you feel my loneliness too?
When we are in dreamland, I don't feel
so much guilt.
My feelings in dreamland are not inhibited. I have no fears of disclosing
my innermost feelings and thoughts .
I have freedom.
It is only when the dreams are in danger
of being actualized in the earth world, that my inhibitions and guilt feelings suddenly appear
without any control from me. Yanti B. Sugarda
FREEDOM IN DREAMLAND
Are you reaching my soul, and finding
who I really am? Are you realizing how I really feel?
Souls cannot connectto each other on earth
without the use of words.
But words have its limitations. Direct connection between the souls
should be achieved, without words.
If we don't have
access through words, we should be able to feel other souls
without words.
we should connectthrough our spirits.
If you really feel deeply
I should be able to feel the vibrations.
Yanti B. Sugarda
FROM SOUL TO SOUL
Have you ever thoughtHow our souls came to be here
On earth and not somewhere else?
Have you ever thoughtHow we came into being?
Who, what, where we were before?
Have you ever thoughtWhy we exist here on earth
Inside the human form of our existence?
Have you ever thoughtWhat blood relation really is
What human contacts are all about?
Have you ever thought How our destiny is determined
If it is determined without our help?
Have you ever thoughtIf each soul is alone independently
Or is it perpetually linked with other souls?
Have you ever thoughtIf the universe is our playground
Or are we stranded only on earth?
Yanti B. Sugarda
HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT?
Yanti B. Sugarda