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8/7/2019 A Letter to Zevi from David-Matthew

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The reason I f e l t so f l a t t e r e d b y Z e v i ' s compliments about my u n d e r s t a n d i n g o fh i s i d e a s an d h i s r e q u e s t f o r me t o w r i t e o u t n o t e s about i t , i s because I have a l ways l o o k e d u p t o Zevi as a s o r t o f "Church E l d e r " , even though he i s younger t h a nm e. T h i s i s because Zevi has been a C h r i s t i a n l o n g e r t h a n m e, h as s e t t l e d upon C h r i s ti a n i t y a s h i s o n e a nd o n l y r e l i g i o u s f a i t h whereas I t e n d t o s k i p around t o d i f f e r e n tr e l i g i o n s b u t somehow always "coming home" back t o C h r i s t i a n i t y a f t e r I f i n d f l a w s i nt h e o t h e r r e l i g i o n s , a nd because I f e e l t h a t Zevi h as f o u g h t h a r d e r t o a v o i d s i n i na l l i t ' s v a r i o u s m a n i f e s t a t i o n s and been more s u c c e s s f u l a t i t t h a n I ever have. AsI t y p e t h i s , I am s i t t i n g i n a Colorado j a i l f o r m u l t i p l e f e l o n i e s , l o o k i n g a t t h ep o s s i b i l i t y o f y e a r s i n p r i s o n d u e t o s t u p i d t h i n g s I do w h i l e i n t o x i c a t e d on a l c o h o la n d d r u g s . I have had a problem w i t h d r u g s a n d a l c o h o l f o r y e a r s a nd have always v i e wed t h i s problem o f more o f a r e l i g i o u s and s p i r i t u a l f a i l u r e t h a n s i m p l y a p e r s o n a lo n e , a n d always went t o Zevi f o r a d v i c e because I f e l t r e j e c t e d b y t h e o t h e r memberso f h i s own g r o u p , n o t t o m e n t i o n o t h e r c h u r c h e s , a nd I always f e l t t h a t Zevi gave megood a d v i c e b u t t h a t I j u s t d i d n ' t f o l l o w i t w e l l enough t o a f f e c t a change. So whenZevi s a i d h e l i k e d m y c o n s e n t s about h i s comparisons o f ( t r u e ) communism t o ( t r u e )

C h r i s t i a n i t y and asked me t o " w r i t e n o t e s about i t " t o send h i m , I f e l t l i k e Saulmust have f e l t a f t e r , h a v i n g t u r n e d f r o m b e i n g " S a u l " t o b e i n g " P a u l " , w r o t e h i st h o u g h t s ajfcout C h r i s t i a n i t y a n d b r o u g h t them t o t h e o r i g i n a l A p o s t l e s a nd l e t themr e a d i t a nd t h e n asked, "What do you t h i n k , guys?" a n d t h e y answered h i m , " N ot o n l ydo we l i k e i t , b u t w e l i k e i t enough t h a t i t ' s g o i n ' i n The Book, baby!" S o t h e t h i n gi s , I r e a l l y have t o watch my p r i d e as I w r i t e t h i s a n d d o my b e s t t o s t a y " o n t o p i c "a n d n o t g o o f f o n t a n g e n t s a s I am prone t o d o , a n d n o t t a l k about m y s e l f u n l e ss i ti s i n r e l a t i o n t o a n s p e c i f i c example o f C h r i s t i a n communism. I ' v e a l s o d e c i d e d t op r a y b e f o r e each t y p i n g s e s s i o n i n s p i t e o f t h e f a c t t h a t I have had much t r o u b l ew i t h my own f a i t h l a t e l y - a l t h o u g h I b e l i e v e my own f a i t h o r l a c k t h e r e o f has l i t t l et o do w i t h t h i s paper, a s t h e f a c t s o f C h r i s t i a n communism seem s e l f - e v i d e n t t o me .DATE: Wednesday, o4/o6/2011

T h i s paper w i l l t a k e s e v e r a l days t o w r i t e , as 1 am o n l y a l l o t t e d a c e r t a i n amounto f t i m e i n t h e j a i l t y p i n g room a n d t h e t y p e w r i t e r i t s e l f i s o f t e n o u t o f i n k d u e t oi t ' s n e a r - c o n t i n u a l u se by o t h e r i n m a t e s . I ' v e s a i d my p r a y e r an d am r e a d y t o b e g i n .

I t h i n k i t w i s e t o b e g i n t h i s paper w i t h a r e p e a t o f t h e c o n v e r s a t i o n I h ad w i t hZevi a n d t h e comments made t h a t prompted t h i s paper t o b e g i n w i t h , t o t h e b e s t o fmy r e c o l l e c t i o n , s i n c e i t has a l r e a d y been about t w o weeks s i n c e t h a t c o n v e r s a t i o n .We were d i s c u s s i n g a l e t t e r Zevi h a d s e n t me i n which Zevi h a d m a i l e d me a copy o f apaper he had w r i t t e n d e s c r i b i n g t h e d i f f e r e n c e between Communism, S o c i a l i s m , and Marxi s m . I h a d made t h e comment t h a t a n y o n e o f t h o s e f o r m s o f government c o u l d p o s s i b l ywork e x c e p t t h e problem i s s i m p l y human greed a n d t h e l u s t f o r power, which alwaystrumps a nd o v e r t a k e s an y t y p e o f i d e a l i s m i n a ny s o c i e t y , nomatter what a c t u a l f or m

u u i , s i m p i y oecause t h e Jehovah Witnesses b e l i e v e t h a t Yeshua , o r C h r i s t Jesus, i sa c t u a l l y t h e Archangel M i c h a e l , n o t "God i n t h e F l e s h " , a n d I am n o t s u r e t h a t t h i sb e l i e f q u a l i f i e s t h e Jehovah Witnesses as t e c h n i c a l l y a " C h r i s t i a n V e l i a i o n . wpt.h*r


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v e r s i o n o f t h e reason f o r a l l t h e e v en t s f o l l o w i n g t h e F a l l o f Man a f t e r E v e a t e t h eF o r b i d d e n F r u i t i n t h e Book o f Genesis i s a s f o l l o w s : B a s i c a l l y , t h e s e r p a n t ( S a t a n )w as p r o p o s i n g t o E v e , a nd b y e x t e n t i o n Adam, t h a t mankind c a n r u l e h i m s e l f - t h a t w e ,as humans, d o n o t need God t o govern us and t h a t w e , g i v e n enough t i m e t o "work a l lt h e k i n k s o u t o f t h e system", c a n a n d w i l l be a b l e t o s u c c e s s f u l l y govern o u r s e l v e sw i t h o u t God's h e l p o r guidance. T h e r e f o r e , t h e reason G o d a l l o w s e v i l i n a l l o f i t ' ssad and p a i n f u l m a n i f e s t a t i o n s t o c o n t i n u e unabated f o r so l o n g , i s so t h a t man canhave a chance t o prove t o h i m s e l f beyond a shadow o f a n ^ doubt t h a t h e ( m a n) o r h i sn e w l y - a p p o i n t e d & chosen Master ( S a t a n ) c a n , i s , o r ever w i l l be a b l e t o , s u c c e s s f u l l ygovern H i s ( God A l m i g h t y ' s ) p l a n e t and/or H i s people ( m a n k i n d ) . T he Jehovah Witnessi d e a i s t h a t , God does n o t want t o be accused o f " p l a y i n g d i r t y p o o l " b y k i l l i n g o f fSatan a nd h i s f o l l o w e r s u n t i l t h e y have h a d e v e r y l a s t chance t o prove themselvesw o r t h y o f b e i n g a b l e t o r u l e t h e Kingdom t h e y s t o l e t o anyone's s a t i s f a c t i o n , e x c e p tperhaps Satan's h i m s e l f . I would t a k e t h a t even a s t e p f u r t h e r and say t h a t n o t evenSatan would be happy w i t h t h e r e s u l t , because Satan i s s o consumed w i t h j e a l o s y o fG od , e n v y i n g a n d c o v e t i n g H i s Throne s oo b a d l y , t h a t i n t h e e n d , even i f God were t oj u s t g i v e i t t o h i m , i n whatever i s l e f t o f Satan's h e a r t he s t i l l would n o t b e t r u l y"happy" because he would know deep down t h a t he s t o l e i t , o r a t t h e v e r y l e a s t , i f i twas g i v e n h i m i n s t e a d o f h i m s t e a l i n g i t , he doesn't deserve i t . He d i d n ' t c r e a t e i t ,i t c a n NEVER B E H IS , EVEN IF HE AQUIRED "OWNERSHIP" OF I T .

I d o n ' t t h i n k t h e Jehovah's Witnesses a r e t h a t f a r o f f o f t h e mark w i t h t h a t l i n eo f t h i n k i n g , y e t I t h i n k t h e more commonly h e l d i d e a o f C h r i s t i a n i t y i s more a c c u r a t e :God c r e a t e d e v e r y t h i n g f o r H i s Own p l e a s u r e , a nd He shares i t a l l w i t h us because Heknows how much we would t o t a l l y a p p r e c i a t e h a v i n g i t shared w i t h u s - t h i s i s why God" c r e a t e d man i n H i s Image", so t h a t we would n a t u r a l l y e n j o y a V [ t h e same t h i n g s Hee n j o y s . I t i s n ' t a m a t t e r o f f i g u r i n g o u t w ho c a n govern what b e t t e r t h a n whom, i t i sa m a t t e r o f f i g u r i n g o u t who and what God I S . WHO God i s , i s " The Alpha a n d t h e Omega",t h e God o f Gods, t h e A l m i g h t y , t h e Most H i g h , a n d WHAT He i s , i s LOVE. A nd LIFE. A ndHe c r e a t e d u s " I n H i s image" because He wants u s t o e n j o y what He e n j o f s - A l l t h a t Hemakes, A l l t h a t He i s . H i s v e r y n a t u r e i s t o " s h ar e " t h i n g s , n o t t o " t a k e " t h i n g s , a n dt h i s i s t h e p r o o f o f H i s l o v e . Why would He need t o " t a k e " a n y t h i n g i f e v e r y t h i n g i sH i s i n t h e f i r s t p l a c e ? B u t He " s h a r e s " t h i n g s because, when y ou s h a r e , i t g i v e s c h o i c e- i f I o f f e r t o share my p e a n u t - b u t t e r sandwich w i t h y o u , y o u have t h e o p p e r t u n i t y t os a y " y e s , I ' l l have some, t h a n k s " o r " n o , I d o n ' t want a n y " . T h i s " f r e e w i l l " t o choosei s t h e b a s i s o f l i f e i t s e l f . Because, w i t h o u t f r e e w i l l , we a r e n o t h i n g more t h a n r o b o t s , a n d a r o b o t h a s n o " l i f e " , i t o n l y appears t o . By g i v i n g us f r e e w i l l Go d gaveus l i f e , an d t h a t p u t s us " o n a p a r " w i t h H im i n t h e sense t h a t He does t h i n g s t h a tHe chooses t o d o o u t o f H i s own v e r s i o n o f H i s f r e e w i l l . T h e r e f o r e , " l i f e " an d " f r e ew i l l " a r e i n s e p e r a b l e ; one cannot e x i s t w i t h o u t t h e o t h e r .

E v e b r o u g h t d e a t h i n t o t h e w o r l d by l i s t e n i n g t o Satan because G od d i d n o t chooset o share t h a t o ne t r e e - t h e r e f o r e i t made Ev e ( a n d Adam) a t h e i f t o e a t o f i t . " S h a r i n g "


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i s an act of l o v e , " s t e a l i n g " is an act of h a t e . Why d i d God not wish to share t h a tp a r t i c u l a r f r u i t w i t h Eve? Because i twas "His" and He " d i d n ' t want to share"? Perhaps.A f t e r a l l , He's God, He can do whatever He wants. But I propose a n o v e l , perhaps r e v o l u t i o n a r y i d e a t h a t maybe even Zevi might not agree w i t h : perhaps God wants to sharew i t h His c h i l d r e n o n l y t h i n g s we would e n j o y . Perhaps "The Tree of the Knowledge ofGood and E v i l " i ssomething we humans would notenjoy because, who int h e i r r i g h tmind would want to know about " E v i l " ? But perhaps the " e v i l " lay i nthe v e r y act ofe a t i n g the f r u i t - perhaps i twas no s p e c i a l k i n d of f r u i t , no d i f f e r e n t than any o t h e rf r u i t t r e e g e n e t i c a l l y or o t h e r w i s e , perhaps th e s i n la y inthe f a c t God s a i d "don'te a t of i t ! " and t h e r e f o r e , to eat the f r u i t was s t e a l i n g . I t was God's. I t h i n k i t a l lt i e s i n w i t h what God meant when He s a i d , " I am a j e a l o u s God"- He did not mean He wasa "coveteous" God,because how can you covet what is always yours to begin w i t h ? Godwanted His c h i l d r e n to know Who made them and Who t h e i r Parent i s I t h a t t h e y may notbe b a s t a r d c h i l d r e n , of no importance, of shame, b e l o n g i n g to noone, b e l o n g i n g to ani n t e r l o p e r , an a d u l t e r e r , an enemy. Belonging to Satan.

I t isGod's n a t u r e to share. E v e r y t h i n g isHIS. T h e r e f o r e , NOTHING BELONGS TO US.I n l i g h t of t h i s , communism makes sense, s i n c e communism i s based on communal s h a r i n g .C h r i s t i a n s , NOMATTER WHAT GOVERNMENT THEY ARE UNDER and NOMATTER WHAT COUNTRY THEYARE CITIZENS OF, should p r a c t i c e communism w i t h each o t h e r because i t isthe b a s i so f C h r i s t i a n i t y . T h i s i s why tha A p o s t l e Paul got upset and admonished the Churchwhen he d i s c o v e r e d C h r i s t i a n s were s e t t l i n g d i s p u t e s "i n heathen c o u r t s " i n s t e a d of" w i t h i n th e chu rch". I can't say i t enough- IF YOU ARE A TRUE CHRISTIAN, BY DEFENITIONYOU ARE A COMMUNIST, ELSE YE BE NOT A TRUE CHRISTIAN, more on t h i s l a t e r , I am b e i n gk i c k e d o f f the t y p e w r i t e r so I can "share" i t w i t h another inmate here at the j a i l{ i . e . my typ in g-room hour isup). I w i l l f i n i s h t h i s h o p e f u l l y soon, I would l i k e tosee t h i s completed paper inZevi's hands and presented to hi s Church int i m e fo r Easter.(TATER TAME W - T V YN " N G T

I t appears the person next in l i n e fo r the t y p e w r i t e r changed his mind and went tobed, l e a v i n g another t y p i n g spot open f or me. Must be a "God t h i n g " t h a t t h i s happened,because t h e r e was one l a s t i m p o r t a n t aspect of my & Zevi's phone c o n v e r s a t i o n t h a t Iwanted to w r i t e about, t o n i g h t , b e f o r e r e t i r i n g to t a k e a break on the s u b j e c t to c o l l e c t my thoughts f or "Phase I I " of t h i s pap er, which 1 i n t e n d to be a s o r t of "manifest o " or " i n s t r u c t i o n manual" about how to put i n t o a c t i o n the concepts of C h r i s t i a ncommunism, cummunal p r o p e r t y , communal l i v i n g , and coomnal governance nomatter whatc o u n t r y , government, or regime or c o u n t r y you happen to be a p a r t of ( h e r e ' s a h i n t :t h e i d e a is to " f l y under the r a d a r " so you don't become a t a r g e t l i k e th e whole DavidKoresh d e b a c l e ) . The f o l l o w i n g concludes the phone c o n v e r s a t i o n of a couple weeks ago Ihad w i t h Zevi which led up t o my w r i t i n g t h i s paper:

I had j u s t got done t a l k i n g about the d i f f e r e n c e between what the Jehovah Witnessesb e l i e v e v s. what most o t h e r C h r i s t i a n s b e l i e v e and how t h a t r e l a t e s tow o r l d governments


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i n g e n e r a l and communism i n p a r t i c u l a r , when Zevi made the p o i n t t h a t man's v e r s i o no f "communism" as i t e x i s t s as a government t o d a y i s not the same as what God i n t e n d e das "communism", and t h a t C h r i s t i a n s need t o be p r a c t i c i n g an a l t o g e t h e r d i f f e r e n t k i n do f "communism" w i t h each o t h e r . I s o r t of i n t e r r u p t e d Zevi and more or l e s s f i n i s h e dh i s t h o u g h t s , or what i t was he was t r y i n g t o sa y, f o r him by s a y i n g : "...Becausen o t h i n g belongs t o us anyways i n th e f i r s t p l a c e , up t o and i n c l u d i n g our own l i v e s .And t h a t i s what I b e l i e v e makes Jesus C h r i s t the ' U l t i m a t e Communist': because Hewas t r y i n g t o show us t h a t Love i s something t o be shared and t h a t n o t h i n g belongs t ous anyw ays, up t o and i n c l u d i n g our own l i v e s - and not o n l y t h a t , but t h a t He wouldPROVE IT by GIVING UP HIS OWN LIF E t o US!" That was t he comment I made which promptedZevi t o e x c l a i m , "That's I T ! That's what I've been t r y i n g t o say! You need t o go w r i t et h a t down!" Th at was p r e t t y much th e end o f t he c o n v e r s a t i o n as I remember i t ; i f anyt h i n g e l s e of i m p o r t a n c e was s a i d p e r t a i n i n g t o t h i s t o p i c d u r i n g t h a t c o n v e r s a t i o n ,you would have to ask Z e v i , s i n c e drugs & a l c o h o l has reduced.my b r a i n ' s memory t o an e a r - A l t z h e i m e r ' s s t a t e sometimes ( I have t h e s e w i e r d " b l a n k s p o t s " i n my memory, asi f someone r e c o r d e d a music c a s s e t t e , t h e n went and randomly erased 10 or 20-seconds p o t s i n the m i d d l e of c e r t a i n songs on t he t a p e ) . However, I want t o t a k e t h i s conceptone s t e p f u r t h e r b e f o r e I end t h i s s e c t i o n of the pap er, i n t o an area I d i d n ' t d i s c u s sw i t h Zevi and which I am not s u r e he would agree w i t h : i n g e n e r a l , C h r i s t i a n s l i k e t oemphasize t h a t Jesus was God, t h a t i t was God t h a t gave His Own l i f e t o save us. ButI d o n ' t t h i n k C h r i s t i a n s put enough emphasis on th e f a c t t h a t Jesus was a man, and Ido not t h i n k most C h r i s t i a n s u n d e r s t a n d why t h i s i s i m p o r t a n t , so I would l i k e t o t a k et h i s o p p e r t u n i t y t o e x p l a i n e x a c t l y why i t i s , not o n l y i m p o r t a n t , but maybe THE mosti m p o r t a n t a s p e c t of His s a c r i f i c e f or us: imagine i f you were asked to do the same t h i n gJesus d i d , e x e p t knowing f u l l w e l l t h a t you a re not God and t h a t t h e r e i s no guarenteet h a t you would be r e s u r r e c t e d u n t o l i f e a f t e r t h r e e days? Or a f t e r any amount of t i m ef o r t h a t m a t t e r ? To di e a t the hands o f people who h a t e you f o r no good r e a s o n , j u s tt o show them a l e s s o n ? J u s t t o t e a c h them t h a t , t r u l y , i t i s b e t t e r t o g i v e t h a n t or e c e i v e , and t h a t f e a r i s of the d e v i l , and we a l l di e anyways so why not d i e f o r agood reason t h a n t o di e f o r no reason a t a l l ? Would YOU do i t ?

Jesus H i m s e l f spoke i n t o my s o u l one day when I was 17 y e a r s o l d , t a k i n g a shower.Jesus H i m s e l f " w a t e r - b a b t i s e d " me under the r u n n i n g water of a YMCA shower where Iwas washing because we had no r u n n i n g wat er i n th e g h e t t o house I l i v e d i n at thet i m e . I alw ays wondered why He chose t h e n t o do i t . Why t h a t p a r t i c u l a r t i m e ? Why notw a i t u n t i l I was a l i t t l e o l d e r , b e t t e r a b l e t o r e s i s t s i n because I wou ld have growno u t of th e i m p u l s i v e n e s s and the i m m a t u r i t y of y o u t h , and would have th a sense to f i n da good church? Why then? I was a s k i n g m y s e l f t h i s q u e s t i o n j u s t a week ago, have beena s k i n g i t f o r 26 y e a r s now, and now, w r i t i n g t h i s pap er, I f i n a l l y know why: becauseI was t h i n k i n g of Jesus i n terms of His humanity t h a t day i n th e shower. A l l th e t i m e sb e f o r e t h a t da y, whenever I t h o u g h t of Jesus , i t was always w i t h a sense of contempt


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-comtempt b o r d e r i n g a l m o s t on h a t r e d , because I never t h o u g h t of Him as a man buta s God " p r e t e n d i n g " man. I always t h o u g h t , " W e l l , i f He knew He would come back tol i f e t h r e e days l a t e r , t h e n get to l i v e i nsome k i n d of u n i m a g i n a b l y j o y f u l p a r a d i s e ,a n d n ot o n l y t h a t but a l s o be t h e " k i n g " of t h a t p a r a d i s e , t h e n what consequence i sa few h o u r ' s of p a i n on t h e c r o s s ? And hwy would Satan's t e m p t a t i o n of o f f e r i n g Himt h e w o r l d and a l l thekingdoms of t h e w o r l d ina l l t h e i r g l o r y even be much of a ' t e r n -t a t i o n * at a l l in the f i r s t p l a c e , i f you knew t h a t a few h o u r s ' w o r t h of p a i n on as i m p l e t o r t u r e d e v i c e f o l l o w e d by a t h r e e - d a y d e a th would buy you Heaven E t e r n a l ?And why does t h a t g i v e t h i s Jesus guy t h e r i g h t to t h e r e f o r e condemn us , to be t h e Onewho d e c i d e s i f we get to go to heaven or h e l l or n o t ? S h i t , t h e r e ' s been s o l d i e r s i nt h e Vietnam War who had t h e i r own p e n i s c u t o f f , f o r c e d to put i t in t h e i r own mouth,t h e n get t i e d to a bamboo t r e e and l i t e r a l l y get s k i n n e d a l i v e ! W i t h no g u a r e n t e e ofheaven a f t e r w a r d s , j u s t to p r o v e t h e i r a l l i e g e n c e to our c o u n t r y in a war we s h o u l dnever have been i nt h e f i r s t p l a c e ! And I'm e x p e c t e d to w o r s h i p & f e a r t h i s 'Jesus'g u y and be t h a n k f u l f o r Him? T h a t ' s INSANE! I w i l l NEVER bow to a 'God* who i s sucha c r a z y , s a d o m a s o c h i s t i c t y r a n t ! I'dr a t h e r go to h e l l t h a n w o r s h i p someone l i k e t h a t ! "W e l l , t h a t f a t e f u l day int h e shower, I wasn't t h i n k i n g of Jesus as some Superman-typeGod/Man H y b r i d c a p a b l e of a l l k i n d s of v a r i o u s magic & s t u f f , I was t h i n k i n g of Himas a man. J u s t f o r a moment, I was t h i n k i n g of Him as j u s t t h i s s o r t of c r a z y y e tw e l l - m e a n i n g and w e l l - i n t e n t i o n e d guy, some s o r t of Holy Man b u t more of l i k e somek i n d of p r e a c h e r - g u y , who was a man, who, f o r whatever r e a s o n , f e l t l i k e i t was Hisd u t y to d i e f o r a bunch of s t u p i d , u n g r a t e f u l Jews thousands of y e a r s ago. I t h o u g h to f him as a s o r t of h a l f - n u t s p h i l o s o p h e r of s o r t s w i t h some k i n d of c r a z y "agenda"a n d something to p r o v e , as a man. And I t h o u g h t to m y s e l f , " W e l l , in s p i t e of t h e f a c tt h a t I d o n ' t c a r e f o r His s e l f - r i g h t e o u s a t t i t u d e & a l l - s t i l l , I t h i n k i t ' s p r e t t yc o o l t h a t He d i e d f o r t h o s e s t u p i d Jews a l l t h o s e thousands ofy e a r s ago!" And t h a ti s when I heard ANOTHER v o i c e ( n o t m v o i c e , and not" h e a r i n g v o i c e s " l i k e a s c h i t z oo r someone on d r u g s , which I was n o t )say d i r e c t l y i n t o t h e c e n t e r of my B e i n g whichwas a v o i c e as s m a l l as an Atom b u t w i t h t h e f o r c e of an Atom Bomb, sa y: "Not j u s t'them', b u t jyou, t o o . " And now I u n d e r s t a n d : t h a t was why, at one p o i n t on t h e c r o s s ,Jesus l o o k e d up and s a i d , "God, why h a s t t h o u f o r s a k e n me?" Because, j u s t f o r a moment,He was a man, as s i n f u l as any of us ( i n f a c t , a c c o r d i n g to s c r i p t u r e , as s i n f u l asa l l of u s; p a s t , p r e s e n t , and f u t u r e ) , and d e s e r v i n g of n o t h i n g l e s s t h a n the H e l lt h a t we deserve as b a s t a r d c h i l d r e n of Satan. God had to l o o k away, and in t h a t moment,Jesus was f u l l y a man, JUST LIKE US. And RIGHT THERE ist h e c r u x of our s a l v a t i o n .

I w i l l c o n t i n u e t h i s tomarrow, I f e e l t h e r e ' s been enough work done on t h i s f o r now.(DATE: Thursday, A p r i l 7 t h , 201l) -PHASE I I - ( C h r i s t i a n Communism A c t u a l i z e d )

Dear r e a d e r ,I s a i d e a r l i e r int h i s paper I would e x p l a i n how C h r i s t i a n s can b e s t a p p l y t h e i d e a

o f t h e C h r i s t i a n i d e a of "communism" ( w h a t I p r e f e r to c a l l "True C h r i s t i a n i t y " ) d u r i n g


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what I c a l l e d "Phase I I " o f t h i s paper, w h i c h I i n t e n d e d t o be t h e "second h a l f " o fa t w o - p a r t paper. B u t t h e n some more t h o u g h t s a bo u t Jesus C h r i s t , and how He p r a c t i c e dcommunism a n d encouraged H i s f o l l o w e r s t o p r a c t i c e i t i n H i s and/or t h e i r l i f e ( s ) ,came t o m e , a n d I w as g o i n g t o make "Phase I I " be a l l a b ou t t h e s e v a r i o u s examples.B u t , h a v i n g s a i d my " p r e - t y p i n g p r a y e r " , I r e a l i z e d t h a t when I s t a r t e d t h i s paper,d u r i n g a l i t t l e m i n i - s p e e c h I i n c l u d e d a b o u t my need t o a v o i d " b e i n g p r i d e f u l " , Ia l s o mentioned I would a v o i d " g o i n g o f f o n t a n g e n t s " . S o I d e c i d e d t o s t i c k t o what

I s a i d e a r l i e r i n t h i s paper a nd o u t l i n e what I b e l i e v e i s a B i b l i c a l a nd v i a b l e wayf o r C h r i s t i a n s t o l i v e a nd a c t t o g e t h e r i n a c o m m u n i s t i c w a y. Then, I w i l l add a"Phase I I I " o f t h i s paper, w h i c h w i l l b e t h e i d e a s a b o u t Jesus I j u s t mentioned t h a tI b e l i e v e r e l a t e t o communism.

T h e c o m m u n i s t i c l i v i n g s t r u c t u r e I propose i s what I c a l l "Small L i v i n g U n i t s " .I b e l i e v e C h r i s t i a n s s h o u l d l i v e t o g e t h e r i n s m a l l g r o u p s . When I say " s m a l l " , I meana dozen ( 1 2 ) o r l e s s p e r g r o u p , p e r house. P r o b a b l y l e s s t h a n a dozen would be p r e f e r -r a b l e , l i k e maybe s i x o r e i g h t p e o p l e . The group s h o u l d be s m a l l t o encourage a c c o u n t a b i l i t y a nd p r e v e n t " f a k e s " coming i n t o t h e g r o u p , as mentioned i n t h e Book o f Jude,Verse # 4 . I a l s o b e l i e v e i t i s a d v i s a b l e t o s e p e r a t e newer C h r i s t i a n s f r o m " E l d e r s "i n t h e sense t h a t , a t l e a s t o ne " E l d e r " s h o u l d l i v e among a group o f newer C h r i s t i a n s ,b u t i f a group i n c l u d e s many m a r r i e d c o u p l e s l i v i n g under one r o o f , t h e m a r r i e d c o u p l e ss h o u l d b e " i n t o t h e meat o f i t " ( " E l d e r " C h r i s t i a n s ) because newer C h r i s t i a n s o n l y " i n t ot h e m i l k o f i t " h a v i n g s e v e r a l m a r r i e d c o u p l e s l i v i n g under one r o o f , ma y encouragea d u l t e r o u s t e m p t a t i o n s . A nd o f c o u r s e , as f o r n o n - m a r r i e d s , i t s h o u l d be women i n on ehouse a nd men i n t h e o t h e r , o r a t t h e v e r y l e a s t , women d i v i d e d i n t o a s o r t o f " o f fl i m i t s " s e c t i o n o f t h e house w i t h t h e m en i n a l i k e w i s e s e p e r a t e d p a r t o f t h e house,w i t h a "common a r e a " l i k e l i v i n g r o o m & d i n i n g a r e a s b e i n g t h e o n l y p l a c e o f g e n e r a lm i x i n g o f t h e sexes i n s o c i a l s i t u a t i o n s . B u t above a l l , " s m a l l i s b e t t e r " i s my maini d e * a b o u t g r o u p - s i z e o f a c o m r u i n a l l y - l i v i n g C h r i s t i a n g r o u p . W i t h many p e o p l e i nl a r g e numbers comes a n n o n y m i t y , a n d annonymous m i n d s e t breeds a c t i n g o u t t e m t a t i o n s( s i n ) . I f t h e r e i s o n l y f i v e p e o p l e , i t ' s s a f e t o s a y t h a t none o f t h o s e f i v e p e o p l ec a n r e a l l y " h i d e " a n y t h i n g fr o m each o t h e r f o r l o n g . . . b u t f i f t y p e o p l e ? I f I l i v e i na c o m m u n i s t i c - C h r i s t i a n group and I 'm i n t h e c l o s e t o r t h e bathroom o r l o c k e d i n mybedroom f o r t wo o r t h r e e h o u r s , am I i n t h e r e r e a d i n g my B i b l e o r am I i n t h e r e r e a d i n g my porno magazine? A nd w i t h f i f t y p e o p l e , who i s even g o i n g t o check on me t of i n d o u t ? So , " s m a l l i s b e t t e r " i s my m a n t r a .

Secondly, t h e r e s h o u l d be n o a r g u i n g over who t h e " l e a d e r " i s . I n f a c t , t h e r e I Sno " l e a d e r " i n a c o m m u n i s t i c - C h r i s t i a n l i v i n g s t r u c t u r e . JESUS i s t h e " l e a d e r " . A l t h o u g h I w as never r e a l l y c o n s i d e r e d a " p a r t o f t h e g r o u p " because o f my s i n f u l t e n d e n c i e s , I s p e n t a l o t o f t i m e w i t h Z e v i ' s f o r m e r group " Th e B r o t h e r s " a n d t h e communisti c l i v i n g s e t - u p t h e y h ad ( i f y ou c o u l d c a l l i t t h a t ) i n F o r t C o l l i n s we a l l j u s t r e f e r r e d t o as "The Howes S t . House" or "The Meldrum House", and a g i a n t , a l l - c o n s u m i n g


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debate went on f o r months on end about who t h e " l e a d e r " ( P a s t o r , Preacher, Head E l d e r ,o r whatever yo want t o c a l l i t ) would be- and t h i s , a l o n g w i t h a few o t h e r d i v i s i v ea c t i o n s & a t t i t u d e s w i t h i n t h e "group" as i t was, e v e n t u a l l y caused t h e whole t h i n g t oc o l l a p s e , w i t h everybody l e a v i n g t he communal s t r u c t u r e and a l l g o i n g t h e i r s e p e r a t eways. Several members s t a y e d i n F o r t C o l l i n s b u t a l l moved t o s e p e r a t e d w e l l i n g s , andformed a " c h u r c h " of s o r t s , b u t t h a t c h u r c h d i d n ' t "grow" much ( I t h i n k i t g a i n e d l e s st h a n a dozen new members s i n c e i t ' s c o n c e p t i o n ) and f i n a l l y disbanded a few months agowhen one l e a d e r d i e d and th e o t h e r l e a d e r " f e l t he c o u l d no l o n g e r p e r f o r m d u t i e s asc h u r c h l e a d e r due t o f a m i l y i s s u e s " ( s o me t h i n g t o do w i t h needing t o f o c u s more onr a i s i n g h i s c h i l d r e n ) .

To be a s u c c e s s f u l group, s t r i f e and c o n t e n t i o n among members must be r e c o g n i z e df o r what i t i s : a s t r a t e g y of th e d e v i l t o " d i v i d e & conquer" C h r i s t i a n s . T r u s t j j >e s s e n t i a l i n a c o m m u n i s t i c - C h r i s t i a n s e t t i n g . O u t s i d e r s s h o u l d be welcomed, bu t nota u t o m a t i c a l l y accepted i n t o t h e group based on c r e d e n t i a l s f r o m o t h e r C h r i s t i a n sy o u haven't met and/or d o n ' t know, or any o t h e r r e a s o n . Get t o know new members b e f o r el e t t i n g them move i n w i t h y o u , a l l o w i n g c o u r t s h i p s w i t h t h e women, a l l o w i n g them t op a r t i c i p a t e i n i m p o r t a n t c h ur c h d e c i s i o n s , and so on . I h a t e t o use t h i s p a r t i c u l a rgroup as an example, but the S a t a n i c - i n f l u e n c e d o u t l a w b i k e r gang known as t h e " H e l l ' sAngels" have an i n i t i a t i o n r i t e f o r new members known as " p r o s p e c t i n g " - t h i s i s a p e r i o d of t i m e , l a s t i n g s e v e r a l months t o , more o f t e n t h a n n o t , s e v e r a l y e a r s , where t h ep o t e n t i a l new member must "prove h i m s e l f w o r t h y " by f i r s t g e t t i n g t o know a l l t h e o t h e f ca c t u a l members, t h e n g o i n g t h r o u g h a s e r i e s of " l o y a l t y t e s t s " t o prove t h e y deserve t obe a f u l l - f l e d g e d member. New members of a c o m m u n i s t i c - C h r i s t i a n l i v i n g group s h o u l ddo something s i m i l a r , b u t w i t h a sense of l o v e , p a t i e n c e , and perhaps even guideance& encoragement f o r new C h r i s t i a n s " i n t h e m i l k o f i t " . Members of t h e group s h o u l d notl i v e i n f e a r of " l o s i n g s t a t u s " by c o n f e s s i n g s i n s t o each o t h e r , l i k e I saw happen i nt h e F o r t C o l l i n s group Zevi was a p a r t o f . As I've mentioned t o Zevi on s e v e r a l occasi o n s , th e sad y et humorous r e s u l t (a t l e a s t I t h o u g h t i t was humorous) of h i d i n g s i n sf r o m each o t h e r i s t h a t t h e y would a l l come t o me and " c o n f e s s " what t h e y d i d or wered o i n g wrong ( s i n s ) , s i n c e th e y a l l c o n s i d e r e d me a "heathen" anyways, and who c a r e swhat a "heathen" t h i n k s anyways? I had no consequence and c a r r i e d no a u t h o r i t y w i t h i nt h e group, bu t the g u i l t was e a t i n g a t them and t h e y had t o c o n f e s s t o somebody, sot h e y would t e l l me. W e l l , what good d i d i t do them? What good c o u l d i t do them? A f t e ra l l , I wasn't a b l e t o g i v e them any B i b l i c a l guidance about i t s i n c e I a c t u a l l y wasa "heathen" and t h e r e f o r e t h o r o u g h a l l y u n a b l e t o h e l p them.

B u t now I f e e l l i k e I am s t a r t i n g t o t a l k about m y s e l f too much, so I want t o t a l kabout a major s u b j e c t and s t u m b l i n g b l o c k w i t h i n communal l i v i n g : communication, andf o r g i v e n e s s . Nobody who c h e r i s h e s t h e i r t i t l e as " C h r i s t i a n " wants t o end up l i k e t h eman^Paul1' t h r e w out of th e c h u r c h when i t was d i s c o v e r e d t h e man was s l e e p i n g w i t h (sex)h i s s t e p m o t h e r . Let ex-communication be a LAST RESORT a f t e r EVERYTHING ELSE FAILS t oa f f e c t r e p e n t a n c e & change, or a t l e a s t r e p e n t e n c e . T h i s i s WHY c h u r c h members such


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as Z e v i ' s own group do not c o n f e s s and h o l d each o t h e r a c c o u n t a b l e : f e a r of r e j e c t i o n .Fear andu n f o r g i v e n e s s i s OF SATAN. I t doesn't mean you have t o l e t your c h u r c h become an u l t r a - l i b e r a l f r e e - f o r - a l l , i t means you have t o r e c o g n i z e noone i s more orl e s s prone t o si n t h a n anyone e l s e . And communication i s key, because w i t h i n a s m a l lg r o u p , e s p e c i a l l y a c o m m u n a l l y - l i v i n g g r o u p , r e s e n tm e n ts canb u i l d up i n t o s i n s andeven h a t r e d out of s i m p l e l a c k ofcommunication and m i s u n d e r s t a n d i n g . I f your roommatehas h i s r a d i o too l o u d on a n i g h t l y b a s i s f o r you t o get good s l e e p , TELL HIM ( i n ak i n d way), i n s t e a d ofassuming " i t i s more ' C h r i s t i a n 1 of me t o j u s t s u f f e r i t " anda l l o w r e s e n t m e n t t o f e s t e r , even s u b c o n s i o u s l y .

I hada l o t more to say.on t he s u b j e c t ofc o m m u n i s t i c - C h r i s t i a n l i v i n g , but I havet o cu t t h i s paper s h o r t a g a i n n s t my own w i l l . I have t o m a i l t h i s t o n i g h t , because ofsome problems I am h a v i n g h e r e a tthe j a i l I'm i n which m i g h t cause me the l o s s of thet y p e w r i t e r f o r a w h i l e . So l e t me move on to"Phase I I I " now:

I j u s t want t o q u o t e f r o m the book "The C o n v i c t C h r i s t " by a u t h o r Jens S o e r i n g : onPage 2 i n the I n t r o d u c t i o n , the a u t h o r w r i t e s : "...becoming a c o n v i c t was not m e r e l ya r o l e t h a t Jesus assumed l i k e a d i v i n e p l a y - a c t o r . In the p a r a b l e ofthe sheep and 't h e g o a t s , He s a i d e x p l i c i t l y , ' Iwas i n p r i s o n and you came t o v i s i t me... Whateveryou d i d f o r one ofthe l e a s t of t h e se b r o t h e r s ofmine, you d i d f o r me1 (Matthew 25:36,4 0 ) . J u s t as C h r i s t became a f u l l , t r u e human b e i n g atb i r t h , he became a f u l l , t r u ej a i l b i r d atd e a t h . " ( n e x t p a r a g r a p h says) "So scandalous i s t h i s f a c t t h a t even our ; g rmajor B i b l e t r a n s l a t o r s s u b t l y obscure i t . Luke 23:32, f o r i n s t a n c e , i s o f t e n r e n d e r e d ,'Two o t h e r men, b o t h c r i m i n a l s , were a l s o led ou t w i t h Him t o be e x e c u t e d , ' i m p l y i n ga d i f f e r e n c e between th e two t h e i v e s andJesus. But the o r i g i n a l Greek t e x t of t h i sv e r s e r e a d s : 'de kai h e t e r o i k a k o u r o i duo sun a u t o ' : 'th e two o t h e r c r i m i n a l s a l s ow i t h Him.' Thus the e v a n g e l i s t Luke r e c o g n i z e d an e q u i v a l e n c e between C h r i s t and thet h e i v e s t h a t i s a p p a r e n t l y c o n s i d e r e d too s h o c k i n g bymodern t r a n s l a t o r s . " I d e c i d e dt o addt h a t book q u o t e t o t h i s paper because I saw i t i n t h e a f o r m e n t i o n e d book a f t e rI hada l r e a d y s t a r t e d w r i t i n g t h i s paper, andhad menti oned i n t h i s paper t h a t I r e a l l yd i d n ' t get "saved" or " w a t e r - B a b t i s e d " or r e a l i z e the i m p o r t a n c e of what Jesus di dont h e c r o s s f o r us a l l u n t i l I f i r s t r e a l i z e d t h a t He was not o n l y God, but a l s o a man.A g a i n , I b e l i e v e t h i s emphasizes the c r u x of C r i s t i a n communism- n o t h i n g b e l o n g s tou s * up t o and i n c l u d i n g ou r own l i v e s , and tos h a r e w i t h a n o t h e r human b e i n g i s whatGod meant when He s a i d , "Love t h y n e i g h b o r as t h y s e l f . " I tmeans, emphathy not symp a t h y . When a C h r i s t i a n g i v e s f o o d t o a poor p e r s o n , i t s h o u l d not be becauseyou" f e e l s o r r y f o r " them because t ha a ct of " f e e l i n g s o r r y f o r "t h i s o t h e r person p u t syou i n a p o s i t i o n "above" the o t h e r person andcauses you a f a l s e sense of p r i d e , asi f i t were " y o u r " f o o d tog i v e i n the f i r s t p l a c e and y o u ' r e " d o i n g them a favor"*YOUARE NOT GOD, ITISN"T YOUR FOOD, YOU ARE NOT DOING SOMEONE A FAVOR. You shoud dof o ro t h e r s f r o m a sense ofemphathy, which s a y s , " I f I were t h a t o t h e r p e r s o n , I s u r e w i s h1 hadsomeone g i v e me some f o o d i f& when I want orneed i t , and w i t h o u t making me f e e l


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g u i l t y about i t or b e l i t t l e d f o r a c c e p t i n g i t ! " THAT i s " l o v i n g t h y n e i g h b o r " as Godi n t e n d e d , andwhat c o u l d be more communist t h a n t h a t ?

I was g o i n t to end t h i s paper w i t h some more q u o t e s o u t of some more books, but Iam r u n n i n g o u t of t i m e . However, I would l i k e to end w i t h one f i n a l i n s t r u c t i o n : I fmy f r i e n d Zevi l e t s you borrow t h i s paper, I encourage you tomake as many x e r o x - p h o t o -c o p i e s of i t as you can a f f o r d and l e a v e c o p i e s of t h i s inrandom p l a c e s : on bus benchesa nd on t h e bus s e a t s themselves when you commute, i n s i d e newspaper d i s p e n s e r s in thec i t y , inphone b o o t h s , i n empty g r o c e r y c a r t s at t h e s t o r e s , inrandom m a i l b o x e s . F i r s tu se " w h i t e - o u t " toobscure my & Z e v i ' s f u l l names at t h e b e g i n n i n g page of t h e papers o i t doesn't g e t us insome k i n d of l e g a l t r o u b l e w i t h some m i l i t a n t A t h i e s t s or whatever ( a n d a l s o because, as C h r i s t i a n communists, we s h o u l d c o n s i d e r t h e s e i d e a s tobe God's and " N o t o u r s " to c l a i m c r e d i t f o r anyways), and j u s t f i l l insomething l i k e"Annonymous C h r i s t i a n ( s ) " where ourname(s) o r i g i n a l l y were. I came up w i t h a s i m i l a ri d e a back i n year 2007, when I met a man who produced b u s i n e s s c a r d s f o r a l i v i n g and,n o t f e e l i n g s t r o n g enough i n my f a i t h to be an a c t u a l e v a n g e l i s t i c preacher b u t n e v e r t h e l e s s b e l i e v i n g in God and w a n t i n g to h e l p p e o p l e , I came up w i t h t h e i d e a of makingup a thousand or so b u s i n e s s c a r d s t h a t j u s t s a i d "THERE IS A GOD!", something r e a l l ys i m p l e l i k e t h a t f o r p e o p l e to ponder, and l e a v i n g t h e c a r d s inrandom p l a c e s f o r p e o p l et o f i n d . No "dogma", no " d e n o m i n a t i o n s " no o p i n i o n s of any s o r t , j u s t a s i m p l e messagel i k e t h a t f o r some poor d r u g - a d d i c t or s o o n - t o - b e - d i v o r c e d person at t h e end o f * t h e i rr o p e so to speak to f i n d and ponder, and perhaps g i v e them hope. But I see n o t h i n gn e c e s s a r i l y dogmatic or d e n o m i n a t i o n a l about t h i s paper, maybe t h e r e i s a l i t t l e b i to f " o p i n i o n " ini t b u t i t i s m o s t l y p o s i t i v e , and I t h i n k a thousand c o p i e s of t h i spaper randomly spread o u t a l l over t h e p l a c e where p e o p l e can f i n d & r e a d i t f o r f r e em i g h t h e l p . Who knows, maybe even o t h e r s w i l l make c o p i e s and i t c o u l d grow t h e way" c h a i n - m a i l " does e x c e p t w i t h o u t t h e i r r i t a t i n g demand t h a t c h a i n - m a i l u s u a l l y has( y o u know, t h e o l d t r i c k of "make f i v e c o p i e s to send to f r i e n d s or g e t bad l u c k " b.s.)a n d , man, i f i t t a k e s a m i l l i o n c o p i e s of t h i s t h i n g to save even one s o u l , or evenj u s t to h e l p someone w i t h a p e r s o n a l problem t h e y a r e h a v i n g or j u s t make them happy

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